never could tell that was you comparing the beg pics to the end. kinda scary how an ED can quickly take over.how are you doing now a days? would like to chat sometime.
You are so beautiful. It makes me sad that there is a disease that can make you think any different. I really hope you are getting or have gotten better.
I know how u fell I went through this to I'm a guy but I used to weight 245 at 6 feet tall and I was so happy and fun then I wanted to lose weight so I worked out a lot ate heathy and I started to lose a lot then I got like addicted to loosing weight so I stopped working out and ate 200 cals a day then I ended up at 120 lbs and I was sad and depressed and I got hospitalized and now I weight 140 ish and I'm still not happy I feel fat I wish I could go back to 120 but I wasn't happy I'm like stuc
wow your beauty takes my breath away. i hope you get better soon. Hopefully ana will go away and let you be thin just not ana if that made any sense lol. Good luck with recovery. Love nic x
Interesting video, and you're a very pretty girl! Your treatment sounds positively nazi like though - removing you from ALL your friends, family and acitivities for over SIX MONTHS?! How is that helpful? They fix you in this sterile false environment, and then go BAM, back to normal life with no transition at all, of course you relapsed! I guess one plus point is that being sick in hospital is very miserable and boring which would encourage you to get better and get back out into the world..
Thanks so much for posting this. I'm EDNOS, and i'm still at a "Normal" weight so it's very hard to get my insurance company to cover treatment, so i've been trying to watch videos of peoples stories to try and "will" myself into recovering on my own. I just don't know what to do. I don't want to gain weight, I just want to be normal...
Im anorexic... My weight is 50 pounds... Im very short, so I dont think its that bad... I would just like to ask: Did people try to avoid you when you were very skinny? Because people are avoiding me really much, and I dont like it... I really hope that I can start eat normal soon...
I know this is terrible and devilish, but you look soooo good after you lost the weight. Just, get healthy love, get fit, eat healthy foods and workout! youre sosososososososo gorgeous, I am totes jealous! :)
I have small symptoms of ana but my SH takes over thoese intentions alot i think one way or another i will be hosptialized for sumthing :/ almost was back in 7th/8th grade when people thought i was ana/taking diet pills then i gained weight now i have weeks where i barely eat cuz my fam always saying im getting fatter...
it didnt fit me i was to big for that dress and it was perfect for me. and really by today i've only been eating 150 to 250 calories i'm just so upset i try my hardest but nothing ever works im still 120 pounds..............wait i just cheeked im at 115 pounds still not good enough what do i do
thanks for showing that video so i dont over do myself with the weight losing and i wish you very good luck on getting better but if you can give me any ideas to help i'd appreciate it. Thanks
at about age 12 i started to go on a tiny diet it hardly worked and i still look fat im 13 now and all i lost in that year was about 10 pounds so i've acually started to only eat about 200 to 300 calories and i usually eat at about 500 which is normal for people kids our age I had a boy friend he was the cutest and he broke up with me about 6 months ago i thought it was because i was fat Then i started exercizing in those 6 months and just today i was almost in tears when i tried on this dress.
I am so confused by this. I think, you looked wonderful in the later pictures. I never saw one where you looked bad. I'd kill to look like that and I know I never will, especially if that kind of look is unhealthy enough to get you hospitalised :S
But, sigh... what IS a normal weight? I am so confused, what should I look like when it's time to stop losing weight, because I have no idea.
@sophiaprettygirl You cant just say your going to be anorexic and wake up one day and stop eating. Also, losing weight doesnt happen as fast as it may sound, and it takes A LOT of gym time and a ton of energy that you wont have if you dont eat. Anorexia is just a mind trick that kills. Lose the weight in a healthy way, and know when to stop! Ive suffered from ED. Believe everyone who tells you it feels like s**t, because they are telling the truth. XO
@sophiaprettygirl You cant just say your going to be anorexic and wake up one day and stop eating. Also, losing weight doesnt happen as fast as it may sound, and it takes A LOT of gym time and a ton of energy that you wont have if you dont eat. Anorexia is just a mind trick that kills. Lose the weight in a healthy way, and know when to stop! Ive suffered from ED. Believe everyone who tells you it feels like s**t, because they are telling the truth. XO
@stephy198920011 Yeah :) Lol that happened. Basically what happened was, because I was a gym junkie when I was 140 all of it was muscle, I only had 8% body fat. So basically after having no fat left, I burned through the muscle ridiculously fast a pound of muscle provides less than half the calories of a pound of fat so I lost a lot of weight quickly as I was still heavily exercising and only eating 300kcals a day at that point.
@Phone192grams wow. I suffered from ana two years ago and it went on for some time. i wish you the best of luck! <3 my thoughts are definitely with you!
Please tell me the girls first name on the right at 2:23! She looks like one of my friends that left class one day and never came back or contacted me!
@Coolkidoffmyspace Yay for us former fatties :) That happened to me 2 at first.. I broke down 1 bonfire night, when I'd been forced to go to a big display after my mam picked my up form the gym. I just stood there for an hour before I burst into tears and told my mum that "I was so tired, so bloody tired all of the time" anyway she took me to the doctors and because my BMI was 22 at the time they were like meh about my weight and I was referred about my depression, then BMI was 11.7 whoops ;) x
At your heighest point you look like me when i was 140 - 145 lbs.[like 8 months ago] (I am 130 now, 160 has been my highes [3 years ago]t, i want to be 120 to 125 lbs)
@Dartzy101 I'm like 6foot. I'm freakishly tall!!!! i got down from 16stone (when i was 13 i was REALLY FAT) to 6 stone when i was 15. I got up to 8 stone during treatment but am now currently maintaining at 7st still years later.
Basically my BMI went from 28 to 11.7
I'm sure you'll manage as long as you do it safely :) xx good luck
@Waterlou25 Thank you so much :D I don't agree about the beginning part but when i was at my post hospital weight i became a Hollister Model and then when i dropped back to down to my lowest weight I was scouted for run-way modeling :) Then I dropped more, and now I am at a new low weight but it just seems the more i lose the more shows I get booked in. I'm on the 55% line of what i should be now, which i know is not good but I need the money from the shows.
Thank you for sharing your story with us! AN is an awful illnes. Most of us are never entirely free. I'm 35 and I have been struggling for years. I wonder if striving for a middle ground approach might better suit your needs. This is my goal: fighting a workable balance between overt AN and perfect health. For me, it's helped a lot: minimizing the risks while acknowledging that this illness is largely intractable in chronic cases.
great video.. uu were soo happyy... and i hope you recoverrr :D. im struggling too but not nearly as bad as you.. i hope things will change for youu <33
@Bubbly0311 Thank you :D Recovery would be nice but to be honest I can't see it happening anytime soon. Every time i make a decision to eat it only ever lats two days maximum and then i end up worse than i was before. Same every time in hospital because I didn't make the decision to eat there so i'd just fight them. I hope you can make it through though,
beautful video and very inspiring
Sansiara 2 weeks ago
Omg you're like the prettiest girl i've ever seen :O (no homo) glad you're better now x
xArchxAngelx18 3 weeks ago
I dont like extremely fat or skinny. but You looked better before. take care
MrMilan0milan 4 weeks ago
omg like in months u became thinner and thinner i wish i could do tthat but not the part when i get soo skinny
craftypastel 2 months ago
Where are you from?
Faithful88 3 months ago
never could tell that was you comparing the beg pics to the end. kinda scary how an ED can quickly take over.how are you doing now a days? would like to chat sometime.
DarkAngelNCharmed 3 months ago
wow, you have a really beautiful face :)
weeeeeeraaaaaa 3 months ago
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weeeeeeraaaaaa 3 months ago
One could never know that you looked soo different before
OiaGrace2010 3 months ago
well done video :)
CallMeMidnightAngel 4 months ago
You are so beautiful. It makes me sad that there is a disease that can make you think any different. I really hope you are getting or have gotten better.
madisong98 4 months ago
I know how u fell I went through this to I'm a guy but I used to weight 245 at 6 feet tall and I was so happy and fun then I wanted to lose weight so I worked out a lot ate heathy and I started to lose a lot then I got like addicted to loosing weight so I stopped working out and ate 200 cals a day then I ended up at 120 lbs and I was sad and depressed and I got hospitalized and now I weight 140 ish and I'm still not happy I feel fat I wish I could go back to 120 but I wasn't happy I'm like stuc
ResidentevilEX101 4 months ago
I did puzzles while in hospitable too , :D
RawrImAnAntelope 5 months ago
wow your beauty takes my breath away. i hope you get better soon. Hopefully ana will go away and let you be thin just not ana if that made any sense lol. Good luck with recovery. Love nic x
MidniqhtAngel 5 months ago
amazing <3
Ezzatulla 5 months ago
Interesting video, and you're a very pretty girl! Your treatment sounds positively nazi like though - removing you from ALL your friends, family and acitivities for over SIX MONTHS?! How is that helpful? They fix you in this sterile false environment, and then go BAM, back to normal life with no transition at all, of course you relapsed! I guess one plus point is that being sick in hospital is very miserable and boring which would encourage you to get better and get back out into the world..
MsShitsandwiches 6 months ago
what exercise did you do for three hours a day?
1417sophie 6 months ago
Thanks so much for posting this. I'm EDNOS, and i'm still at a "Normal" weight so it's very hard to get my insurance company to cover treatment, so i've been trying to watch videos of peoples stories to try and "will" myself into recovering on my own. I just don't know what to do. I don't want to gain weight, I just want to be normal...
Jumpwhat007 6 months ago
Hi... Maria here...
Im anorexic... My weight is 50 pounds... Im very short, so I dont think its that bad... I would just like to ask: Did people try to avoid you when you were very skinny? Because people are avoiding me really much, and I dont like it... I really hope that I can start eat normal soon...
Love, Maria~
MrVocaloidable 6 months ago
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BigBlackButton 6 months ago
your beautiful.you should model.
TheHannah175 7 months ago 11
Totally off topic and i'm sorry for asking but im right in thinking that in one of your photos you were in front of Eldon square in Newcastle?
TheDaughterofsin 7 months ago
I know this is terrible and devilish, but you look soooo good after you lost the weight. Just, get healthy love, get fit, eat healthy foods and workout! youre sosososososososo gorgeous, I am totes jealous! :)
aspiringperfect 7 months ago
I have small symptoms of ana but my SH takes over thoese intentions alot i think one way or another i will be hosptialized for sumthing :/ almost was back in 7th/8th grade when people thought i was ana/taking diet pills then i gained weight now i have weeks where i barely eat cuz my fam always saying im getting fatter...
anais1154 7 months ago
whats the 1st song called?
latinamami158 7 months ago
it didnt fit me i was to big for that dress and it was perfect for me. and really by today i've only been eating 150 to 250 calories i'm just so upset i try my hardest but nothing ever works im still 120 pounds..............wait i just cheeked im at 115 pounds still not good enough what do i do
thanks for showing that video so i dont over do myself with the weight losing and i wish you very good luck on getting better but if you can give me any ideas to help i'd appreciate it. Thanks
good luck
swifttail6 8 months ago
at about age 12 i started to go on a tiny diet it hardly worked and i still look fat im 13 now and all i lost in that year was about 10 pounds so i've acually started to only eat about 200 to 300 calories and i usually eat at about 500 which is normal for people kids our age I had a boy friend he was the cutest and he broke up with me about 6 months ago i thought it was because i was fat Then i started exercizing in those 6 months and just today i was almost in tears when i tried on this dress.
swifttail6 8 months ago
I am so confused by this. I think, you looked wonderful in the later pictures. I never saw one where you looked bad. I'd kill to look like that and I know I never will, especially if that kind of look is unhealthy enough to get you hospitalised :S
But, sigh... what IS a normal weight? I am so confused, what should I look like when it's time to stop losing weight, because I have no idea.
candistyx 8 months ago
How much did u weigh after the 6 months of hospitalization and how tall are you?
belrich08 8 months ago
im 11, i am goin 2 be anorxic i feel fat i tryed on a pair of pants at the mall 2day and i just broke down crying
sophiaprettygirl 8 months ago
@sophiaprettygirl You cant just say your going to be anorexic and wake up one day and stop eating. Also, losing weight doesnt happen as fast as it may sound, and it takes A LOT of gym time and a ton of energy that you wont have if you dont eat. Anorexia is just a mind trick that kills. Lose the weight in a healthy way, and know when to stop! Ive suffered from ED. Believe everyone who tells you it feels like s**t, because they are telling the truth. XO
AKVP1 5 months ago
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@sophiaprettygirl You cant just say your going to be anorexic and wake up one day and stop eating. Also, losing weight doesnt happen as fast as it may sound, and it takes A LOT of gym time and a ton of energy that you wont have if you dont eat. Anorexia is just a mind trick that kills. Lose the weight in a healthy way, and know when to stop! Ive suffered from ED. Believe everyone who tells you it feels like s**t, because they are telling the truth. XO
AKVP1 5 months ago
Wait...u went from 140 to 112 in a week? Did I read that wrong. Plz lemme no lol
stephy198920011 9 months ago 9
@stephy198920011 Yeah :) Lol that happened. Basically what happened was, because I was a gym junkie when I was 140 all of it was muscle, I only had 8% body fat. So basically after having no fat left, I burned through the muscle ridiculously fast a pound of muscle provides less than half the calories of a pound of fat so I lost a lot of weight quickly as I was still heavily exercising and only eating 300kcals a day at that point.
Lolly xxx
Phone192grams 9 months ago 3
@Phone192grams wow. I suffered from ana two years ago and it went on for some time. i wish you the best of luck! <3 my thoughts are definitely with you!
stephy198920011 9 months ago
Please tell me the girls first name on the right at 2:23! She looks like one of my friends that left class one day and never came back or contacted me!
multigecko13 9 months ago
Your pic from 4:02 to 4:14 are naerly perfect!
skytrain11 9 months ago
i really enjoyed seeing this as ive been through a very similiar thing
i was 15st 7lb ( at only 5ft 2) so my bmi was 38 i believe
i droppedto 8stone in around 9months and it was to the point i didnt have the energy to get out of bed , my mum noticed and took me to a doctor
but because my bmi they didnt take me seriously , 2 years later i still struggle with my ed , im glad you got help though
Coolkidoffmyspace 10 months ago
@Coolkidoffmyspace Yay for us former fatties :) That happened to me 2 at first.. I broke down 1 bonfire night, when I'd been forced to go to a big display after my mam picked my up form the gym. I just stood there for an hour before I burst into tears and told my mum that "I was so tired, so bloody tired all of the time" anyway she took me to the doctors and because my BMI was 22 at the time they were like meh about my weight and I was referred about my depression, then BMI was 11.7 whoops ;) x
Phone192grams 9 months ago
You were so beautiful when you were at a healthy weight too =/
do your best to get better :)
rtobin7 10 months ago
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what 3-500 means? 3 times per day 500 or what?
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danysanta 10 months ago
what 3-500 means? 3 times per day 500 or what?
danysanta 10 months ago
How tall are you?
At your heighest point you look like me when i was 140 - 145 lbs.[like 8 months ago] (I am 130 now, 160 has been my highes [3 years ago]t, i want to be 120 to 125 lbs)
Dartzy101 11 months ago
@Dartzy101 I'm like 6foot. I'm freakishly tall!!!! i got down from 16stone (when i was 13 i was REALLY FAT) to 6 stone when i was 15. I got up to 8 stone during treatment but am now currently maintaining at 7st still years later.
Basically my BMI went from 28 to 11.7
I'm sure you'll manage as long as you do it safely :) xx good luck
Phone192grams 11 months ago
You are so beautiful, even at the beginning of the video. Model material
Waterlou25 11 months ago
@Waterlou25 Thank you so much :D I don't agree about the beginning part but when i was at my post hospital weight i became a Hollister Model and then when i dropped back to down to my lowest weight I was scouted for run-way modeling :) Then I dropped more, and now I am at a new low weight but it just seems the more i lose the more shows I get booked in. I'm on the 55% line of what i should be now, which i know is not good but I need the money from the shows.
Thx again, Lolly
Phone192grams 11 months ago
Thank you for sharing your story with us! AN is an awful illnes. Most of us are never entirely free. I'm 35 and I have been struggling for years. I wonder if striving for a middle ground approach might better suit your needs. This is my goal: fighting a workable balance between overt AN and perfect health. For me, it's helped a lot: minimizing the risks while acknowledging that this illness is largely intractable in chronic cases.
Be well!
Xoxox!
~swf
Dx
SheWhoFeels 1 year ago
great video.. uu were soo happyy... and i hope you recoverrr :D. im struggling too but not nearly as bad as you.. i hope things will change for youu <33
Bubbly0311 1 year ago
@Bubbly0311 Thank you :D Recovery would be nice but to be honest I can't see it happening anytime soon. Every time i make a decision to eat it only ever lats two days maximum and then i end up worse than i was before. Same every time in hospital because I didn't make the decision to eat there so i'd just fight them. I hope you can make it through though,
lots of luck and love
Lolly xxxx
Phone192grams 1 year ago