Dude, its scary to say but we are a hell of alot alike. Story is pretty much me in a nutshell. I will have my fiance read this as I have a really hard time explaining this disorder to her. I was officially diagnosed at great lakes, during navy bootcamp, Going on 4 years ago. Hasn't changed me at all, but made me more aware of WHY I do these things
@Chaos8282 isnt it relieving when your entire life you notice something is different about you, but you can't pin it? it turns into a splinter after time, and then you read about this shit and a lot of things become a bit more clear? im not sure if this will hit you like it hit me, but try listening to the likes of Terence McKenna or maybe listening to some "psychedelic salon" podcasts. those hit me harder than the SPD thing, on a deeper level. you may relate 100%
Hi, my boyfriend has SPD, but the way he behaves is quite different from this. For example, if I started filming him like that, he'd get really angry and hide. I have a lot of trouble trying to get him to communicate emotional issues, and when I do try, he just curls up in a ball on his bed or runs off and then remains speechless for an hour. He once said that when he is asked to speak about his feelings or emotions, it is like torture for him. He also has very poor personal hygiene.
@WeirdTree i wanted to hide and i was secretly angry also, i just hide those feelings. it is difficult sometimes to lure a schizoid to speak about emotional things, but if and when he's ready to try to make sure he's comfortable doing it. a lot of times im afraid to do the same because im secretly afraid whoever is listening will be judgmental and tell me im silly or stupid or think weird things about me, so just support him and he will be more likely in the future to spill his guts to ya :)
I've posted this on another video...how is schizoid different from Asperger's? Because the behavior described by 'thatsabitnurave' sure sounds likel Asperger's to me.
@FragileButFree because aspergers isnt anything to do with a personality disorder, people with aspergers may lack social skills but do not always necessarily want to be isolated and alone
schizoid is almost like an avoidant without the emotional attachment, schizoids have a lack of interest in socialising where as avoidants are more fearful or have a severe dislike of being let down or negative responses
Hey guys. I'm battling from schizophrenia. I'm not asking for money or views or anything, but just for support and for people to hear me out. My psychiatrist said to let people know about your problem, but everyone thinks I'm weird and my family cannot understand or take me seriously. I made a blog about my problems, and I hope we can talk on there. My blog is battlingschizophrenia.blogspot.com . Fellow schizophrenics, you should also come. We can fight the battle together.
I can deal with evryday chit chat but when it get too intimate (afther work, love/friend, personal question) its as if my mind wich was floating in the wind is sudently struggling in tick mud.
In that state, interacting with others is like trying to do subtile hand work when you are shacking cold. Add to that a lack of interess and it end up i find a way or another to slip out of it even if i have to make myself look ridiculous.
I consider myself as having a schizoid personality but i dont think its at the level of a personality disorder. I have been diagnosed by a psycholog afther 3 month 1houre a week (90$/hour !ouch;) ((but totaly worth it))
Also if you are not too old, you can change the tendancy and help yourself. You will never completly change your personality of course but if there is things you want to change, its possible.
People should not think schizoid pd is black or white, theres tons of space betwen being totally schizoid and being totaly not schizoid.
''True'' schizoid (i mean by that the worst case of schizoidness) are extremly rare and are very disabling wich is why its considered a personality disorder.
When its less severe, its called schizoid personality type.
Holy crap, you even write like me. How long did it take you to write that long description anyways? I'll bet it took you at least a couple hours.
I can feel everything you're thinking in this video. Right down to your body language and posture. It's surreal, like I'm looking at a video of myself.
The Citizens Commission on Human Rights (CCHR) is a nonprofit mental health watchdog, responsible for helping to enact more than 150 laws to protecting from abusive or coercive practices. CCHR has fought to restore basic human rights in mental health, including, full informed consent regarding the medical legitimacy of psychiatric diagnosis, the Risks of psychiatric treatments,and the Right to ReFuSe any TreatmenT. Dont lock the door abuse and humiliate and call it help ! it didnt ! f that !
randdebiel in myn ogen freddy mercury van schizonoia behaviour childish je woont by je mam als je dit hebt of in woonvorm autisme is leuker sam bouwt met 7 een robot ik vind het super zeg jou ding met songs ik ga effe pissen je weet hoe ik denk je kan weten ik neem je niet serieus met je 15ziekten poor peter zal ik je verplegen aandacht vraag het op andere manier i did my job jy haalde het weg hey iets klopt niet bedenk clip
ja dit is wel hy een bit strange behaviour je ziet het ik wel ik werkte met schizo,s some zyn in psychose in zichzelf geen contact mogelyk terughalen met anty psychotica in realiteit katakonisch ooit gehoord heen en weer bewegen beter buitenwereld het niet ziet hun horen dan in kliniek buitenwereld schrikt zeggen raar eng alles wat opvalt anders is word in volksmond gek genoemd draai er niet omheen ieder met dit is anders jou zo over ik weet genoeg
@Polyamorous182 okay so you think you 'have' this, but how are you any different right now from 10 minutes from before you found out? It doesn't change anything its just a silly label. It doesnt mean youre some diseased freak simply because your personality tends to go this way or that way. You're a human being, not an SPD sufferer :) Remember that...
@matter0ni You will be able to understand yourself a little better with the knowledge. Otherwise, it is a double edged sword. Highly creative people people are sometimes thought of as 'eccentric'. But, having trouble connecting with others is -- well, isolating. A therapist can help some, but they can't change who you are fundamentally. A tip: Stay away from STRESS. Stress will warp your thinking in a bad way.
So you have been using neurofeedback? I am a true believer...watching my son getting better with improved eye contact is so exciting. He always would hide his eyes. He is also initiating conversation and smiling more. I even received a heartfelt hug for the first time in his entire life! Hugging a tree was the same as hugging him before. Is it possible to spread the word to all of the people suffering out there? I wonder why it is such a secret....no drug companies involved perhaps?
Look up the healing power of Neurofeedback. Looking at the brain and trouble shooting the problem areas with sound waves helps to regulate and make order where there was once disorder. Big secret because it doesn't involve drug companies or insurance companies.
@Diane9773 This is a great tip. I've been doing this for hours EVERY day for a couple years now, and mixed with a psychedelic mushroom experience or two, listening to Terence McKenna and Alan Watts, it's gone from a huge weight in life, a huge hindrance, to a huge blessing. I consider myself "cured" because I see absolutely nothing wrong at all. If you're afraid of psychedelics, no need! The audio alone in regular intervals will definitely improve your state without the help of the 'drugs'.
@mollysangelique there are no such things as drugs, only chemicals. if your drugs come with barcodes all the sudden you view them as drinks or cigarettes or what have you. try not to get stuck on words with their 5th grade connotations!
I do want to thank you for this posting. while I recently learned much about myself, ( its really hard to say that sense I know myself well.) while learning of this "disorder" I been searching to see how people deal with it.
I can relate with the 6 month time line that how my whole teen life went with my so called friends at the time. every 6 months I would just change my group of friends. It was very natural. All I can say was that I got bored.
Like at work today, I can hang around. If there is no work I need to leave. I have nothing to say to people at work. All I can do is answer questions and they almost never come up.
i have a question... if this was a girl you were just getting to know and lets say she didnt live with you and she came over for a couple hours just to hang out.. would you have kept playing wow?
I have borderline personality and my best friend is a schizoid lmao its so funny cuz were completely oposite but he needs me to feel secure and stable and I need someone to need me. I would score 34/36 social ques and he would get like a 20/36, He hates sex, i LOVE it. We both need each other though and my rollercoaster emotions entertain him haha
I think its funny how his mind is like 90% on the camera when he is pretending to play the game hehe. Hes like oh god how shall i please this bich
Can relate, i have SPD . Know exactly your process of thoughts and attitude was when i was watching you.
When she first got your attention you abruptly stopped playing and confronted her to make her laugh because in your mind you believed that, that false 'mask' of funny and happiness behaviour would of made her happy enough to leave you alone there and then.
This is because you just wanted to be alone and you wanted to quickly git rid of her. We don't understand social cue's well at all.
@MrJonnyc16 I too try to make funny comments to people because its safe not serious or personable. I enjoy making people laugh however I don't think I'm very funny, just honest. lol
I have to say something, why do you people who just play on the computer the whole time whenever you invite your friend or girlfriend over, even bother inviting anyone over? Because I'm the same way, I get sucked into the Xbox or computer, but I make up excuses for people not to come see me whenever I want to be doing those things. I hope you at least have a wii or something for her to amuse herself with.
@hilby have you considered that maybe she lived with me? but its funny you mention this. i did have a wii, and she played it a lot when she was bored and i was on the computer often. psychic!
I too can be charming and likable when I need to be. It's a song and dance thou, a way to muddle thru the anxiety of social situations. They call this type of coping the "secret skitzo".
(continued)I haven't had any sexual relations in a while, although I have had several opportunities for sexual encounters in the past few years. I find that I need people (a lot I think), while finding it very difficult to express or satiate this need. I found it very difficult to post this, as I consider a form of reaching out, which I don't generally do. Do I have SPD or is this just part of being human? help me
I think I might have SPD. I was diagnosed with it in high school, but the diagnosis kind of faded from existence. I don't make new friends easily, although I am not shy (people find me likable when I want them too) and do go out to bars and meet people just for the relief. There are many times when i am aware that my affect does not match the situation, but I go with it and make it work. I have a few close friends, but lately I just want to cut them out of my life.
I know exactly how you felt. Every time she laughed it separated me from the external world and pushed me into my own personal one. Full of genuine emotion every time she laughed, how beautiful. The way you defended yourself was not a bad acting job. But you got tired a little too soon and became distant. I just discovered that I have the same disorder. Its frightening to see people with the same "problems" as me.
Thank you for posting this video. I know its not easy letting people in.
Disorganised schizophrenia is the best label to have. It happens to people with high sex standards in there puberty years and since they have sex standards they get stressed out trying to be perfect and meet perfect people so they end up with disorganised schizophrenia.
@SummerGameProject Yeah, she's lilke totally invading his space, and he is clearly uncomfortable and irritated about it.
Hey dude, perhaps I have some case of SPD too, because I can relate to much of the symptoms you describe. Anyway, if you ask me, I think the label "SPD" is bullshit. I think there are just many factors rather to explain your behavior and personality.
1. MBTI and Enneagrams. MBTI explains what your cognitive functions are, and Enneagrams explains your needs/wants/fears
Yeah... some rather IMO stupid psychologists tried force a "possible SPD" on me, I look the criterias up on the net, and I really don't see it... How do I not want social relationships? That's stupid... This guy obviously does as well........ I remember some kid used to sit over my head and watch me play games, and he was like hurting my back in the doing (bigtime), I told him to stop, he didn't, so I bashed on him, and he screamed like a little girl... I'm not sure if it's related or as mention
-ed by others, that any 22y male would do the same if he wanted some "time alone".
Doesn't seriously everyone go like this? I mean jesus christ, who want themself being recorded while busy, and perhaps even the screen... If you did that to a 50 year old male, he'd probably spank your ass, lol... It's normal behavior to bad/nosy behavior IMO.
nhf but you look like you are having a panic attack
i think im shizoid in some way and im also skinny as you
in my case i think cause of that is that im too skinny to defend myself and my attitude so there is allways an subcontious fear of being phisycally hurt.
skinny has nothing to do with the disorder,,, to me physical hurt is nothing...my fear is emotionaly hurt....everyone gets emotionally hurt when they break up but they all good again in 2wks i dont know how they do it
I'm so glad for the explanation. Otherwise, the video just lookslike every siglr 22 year old man in THE WORLD when he needs a little down time. If she was a 15 year old sister (rather than a girlfriend) that would be expected. You hardly bit her head off.
ohhhhh wow, I just saw this video and it clicked, my psych was right...
and here I thought I might have some borderline sociopathy or something because people have trouble figuring out how I'm feeling *most of the time* but not always, but that's always in harsh situations, guess that's that, well at least there's a group I belong to :p
wow, thank you posting this video, I was reading your description mostly during the vid you said: "cant..expressing my emotions"; "grew up with people treating me like i'm some kind of strange weirdo"; "my methods are simply misunderstood because i have a natural ability to completely disregard traditional methods in favor of my own which i know deep down are usually superior" -
All of it I totally agree with and I'm sure I have SPD......should i go to my doc/gp?!
the answer is yes, yes you should ask someone who's primary research is to study these sorts of things, and diagnose them, in patients that have them
but don't go to them saying, I think I have XYZ, go to them saying I think I have something, but I don't know what.... I feel awkward, and then they'll ask you some questions and just answer them however you normally would
I understand. I feel empathetic... I mean, the description was pretty accurate, and so was the awkwardness / uncomfortableness, that was captured on film. I can so relate to the part where you said how you feel like you can't function when your with someone else for long periods of time. As well as how after being separated for long periods of time, you feel the need for the other person's company, then the whole cycle starts again. :) I just recently found out what this "disorder" really was,
@DarkAngelrace yesterday, and... trying to type my thoughts out, falls behind my mind too... lol I also like sleeping during the day, me also being depressed. I find night a lot cooler though. "Friendships" can be a bit stressful, and sometimes I feel like I'm "using" people, just to be with someone, and then ignoring them once I don't need their prescence anymore. I also love nature, and naimals, I don't like many other selfish, rude humans anyways... I really appreciate this video! Thumbs up!
@DarkAngelrace cool i can totally relate to where you're coming from. nothing wrong with our style, its just what works best for us. you know, in other cultures people like us would be 'shamans' and we'd have a vital role in their society, and not looked at like someone who's "ill" but rather "empowered" and extremely central to the role of their societies. esp in the aztec/mayan civilizations. so if our silly backwards culture ever leaves you in doubt, think about that :)
@nunezhit yea probably, i watched that robot vid in your favorites about avoidant PD (why is everything called a disorder? nothin wrong with it imo) - pretty accurate
@matter0ni yea that is just how things are i guess. i related to 99 percent of that vid, it never used to be like that but its just gotten to that point over the past couple years. ive been in total isolation for a couple weeks now, not sure whats gonna happen. i got jail time i have to serve soon so ive just been waiting....
@meatballgun yeah youre definitely right about that. ive since cut my addictions on caffeine and junk food, threw in a few psychedelic experiences, and wow... talk about a real evolutionary breakthrough lol. with you all the way on that
@CleverDjembe yeah... i mean for my entire life i kind of subscribed to the propaganda and things related to psychedelics... you know, warp your mind, bad for you, make you insane, other nonsense like that. but after a ton of research and a little experience i feel like all of this "mental disorder" stuff is a thing of the past. 2 ayahuasca (DMT) and 2 psilocybin mushroom experiences and im extremely comfortable and happy with this time here on Earth! hard to explain in so little words.
I appreciate you posting this as I am researching Schizoid for class. I have to say you are pretty mild on the spectrum and seem pretty normal to me. who likes being recorded? not many people and the need for a lot of personal space & time is understandable.. but to turn around and want to be around people again is also normal..
@composer63 if you can't see the point, it doesn't mean it's not there. plenty of people can get useful bits out of this. there isn't just one "the point is _____" -- the point is whatever you make of it or whatever you find from it
@matter0ni lol yepperz Capz rock! also according to numerology we both have master numbers in our birth dates (11) I was born on the 11th and I saw that you were born on the 29th (2+9=11)...
@EyeWearMySunglasses ahh very interesting, cool observation. i haven't studied numerology much, maybe i should invest some time in it. wait, happy bday !
I have this too and everyone thinks I am a hermit because I like to spend days on end alone in my room and because I like solitary things. I've always had signs of the "disorder" and was diagnosed when I was 18. I can't go out unless I have an ipod so it distracts me enough to not turn around and go home. This paired with a high IQ is torture sometimes. Thank goodness I am almost done with college.
yeah it can be frustrating or persistently bothersome at times but in the end I personally find it to be a lot more of a gift than a problem. my clear and piercing insight has helped so many people around me and i love that!
I agree! People get caught up in making rash decisions based on emotion and I don't do that so I am able to show them the folly of their actions. On the flip side when my step father died and I lacked total empathy and showed no emotion my family thought I was a total psycho, I just wanted everything to be over and wanted to be alone. Its complicated when society expects you to act a certain way but you just cant, I cant even fake it.
oh do i know exactly what you mean here. a lot of people in my family think i'm some kind of evil monster because i'm indifferent towards a lot of things that would cause most people to lose it. mostly relating to death i guess. so i know what you mean! it is nice to know though that there are others out there in the same boat. i can relate on the faking it part too.
not necessarily, where i live i dont know anyone, and i dont meet anyone. so spending 24 hours a day alone can start to get a bit lonely ya know?
on the other hand, living with someone leaves me craving my free space, so its difficult to balance. puts enough strain on that relationship in the vid to kill it.
:) yea... It's the land of the depressed! :D Well not really but I'm glad you liked it. I heard about a Spanish couple that came here for a holiday during Winter and they got so depressed because it was so dark and cold all the time and people were super depressed looking. They ended up staying in the hotel room the whole trip eating chocolate bars. (something that's actually really good here). So yea, happy that you liked it! When was your trip?
Hey to be honest I'd rather live in a place where people show their true faces and not walk around with pretend smiles everywhere they go like here in the states. The grass is always greener on the other side though...
Trip was about 4 years ago. Really enjoyed the snow and nature. Don't get much of that here in Florida (never snows and no mountains).
hmm.. i think i know a person like you too.. but i'm not sure.. he's not always been like that so don't know if you can develop that later in life or is that what your born like? Its interesting how people work in so many different ways! i say live as you like as long as you don't hurt people around you! :) take care!
thanks for the comment and yeah i agree entirely. as far as it developing and stuff like that, its kind of dormant but quietly there at childhood (from my experience alone) and in early adulthood it really takes shape
Thats Great cuz I dont have a license do to sa and I like to drive, I like cars I dont usually drive because of cops but you seem to be doing better than me, I feel like a handicap Honestly I dont give a fuck about the grandma that will be giving me the test or anything Its something else. I think Ive been cursed and I dont know why any way God Bless
nope just tryin to rough it out, havent really had the energy to look into all of that stuff. know anything about it? any info that i might find useful?
Is that mechenar he is in on WoW? :D oooooohhhhhhh i remember that, old times
can avoidant and schizoid personality disorder co-exist? I pass the criteria for both, i'm really confused.
yuzk2 35 minutes ago
hey man. i can relate to a lot of what you've written here.
WE EVEN HAVE THE SAME NECK
I DIDNT KNOW THERE WAS ANOTHER
YEAAHHHH
HeyGuiseWhatsGoinOn 2 weeks ago
Dude, its scary to say but we are a hell of alot alike. Story is pretty much me in a nutshell. I will have my fiance read this as I have a really hard time explaining this disorder to her. I was officially diagnosed at great lakes, during navy bootcamp, Going on 4 years ago. Hasn't changed me at all, but made me more aware of WHY I do these things
Chaos8282 2 weeks ago
@Chaos8282 isnt it relieving when your entire life you notice something is different about you, but you can't pin it? it turns into a splinter after time, and then you read about this shit and a lot of things become a bit more clear? im not sure if this will hit you like it hit me, but try listening to the likes of Terence McKenna or maybe listening to some "psychedelic salon" podcasts. those hit me harder than the SPD thing, on a deeper level. you may relate 100%
matter0ni 2 weeks ago
@matter0ni Not heard of it but will check it out.
Chaos8282 2 weeks ago
Hi, my boyfriend has SPD, but the way he behaves is quite different from this. For example, if I started filming him like that, he'd get really angry and hide. I have a lot of trouble trying to get him to communicate emotional issues, and when I do try, he just curls up in a ball on his bed or runs off and then remains speechless for an hour. He once said that when he is asked to speak about his feelings or emotions, it is like torture for him. He also has very poor personal hygiene.
WeirdTree 2 weeks ago
@WeirdTree i wanted to hide and i was secretly angry also, i just hide those feelings. it is difficult sometimes to lure a schizoid to speak about emotional things, but if and when he's ready to try to make sure he's comfortable doing it. a lot of times im afraid to do the same because im secretly afraid whoever is listening will be judgmental and tell me im silly or stupid or think weird things about me, so just support him and he will be more likely in the future to spill his guts to ya :)
matter0ni 2 weeks ago
I've posted this on another video...how is schizoid different from Asperger's? Because the behavior described by 'thatsabitnurave' sure sounds likel Asperger's to me.
FragileButFree 1 month ago
@FragileButFree because aspergers isnt anything to do with a personality disorder, people with aspergers may lack social skills but do not always necessarily want to be isolated and alone
schizoid is almost like an avoidant without the emotional attachment, schizoids have a lack of interest in socialising where as avoidants are more fearful or have a severe dislike of being let down or negative responses
KieranD212 3 weeks ago
That laugh is... Interesting.
Zyath 2 months ago
Hey guys. I'm battling from schizophrenia. I'm not asking for money or views or anything, but just for support and for people to hear me out. My psychiatrist said to let people know about your problem, but everyone thinks I'm weird and my family cannot understand or take me seriously. I made a blog about my problems, and I hope we can talk on there. My blog is battlingschizophrenia.blogspot.com . Fellow schizophrenics, you should also come. We can fight the battle together.
jaco0bx 2 months ago
i dont see anything wrong with this........ haha........ this is like normal behavior you guys are all fucking retarded or maybe im a schizoid too
DerpPurple 3 months ago
I can deal with evryday chit chat but when it get too intimate (afther work, love/friend, personal question) its as if my mind wich was floating in the wind is sudently struggling in tick mud.
In that state, interacting with others is like trying to do subtile hand work when you are shacking cold. Add to that a lack of interess and it end up i find a way or another to slip out of it even if i have to make myself look ridiculous.
Phokya0 3 months ago
I consider myself as having a schizoid personality but i dont think its at the level of a personality disorder. I have been diagnosed by a psycholog afther 3 month 1houre a week (90$/hour !ouch;) ((but totaly worth it))
Also if you are not too old, you can change the tendancy and help yourself. You will never completly change your personality of course but if there is things you want to change, its possible.
Phokya0 3 months ago
People should not think schizoid pd is black or white, theres tons of space betwen being totally schizoid and being totaly not schizoid.
''True'' schizoid (i mean by that the worst case of schizoidness) are extremly rare and are very disabling wich is why its considered a personality disorder.
When its less severe, its called schizoid personality type.
Phokya0 3 months ago
Holy crap, you even write like me. How long did it take you to write that long description anyways? I'll bet it took you at least a couple hours.
I can feel everything you're thinking in this video. Right down to your body language and posture. It's surreal, like I'm looking at a video of myself.
criggster 5 months ago 2
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The Citizens Commission on Human Rights (CCHR) is a nonprofit mental health watchdog, responsible for helping to enact more than 150 laws to protecting from abusive or coercive practices. CCHR has fought to restore basic human rights in mental health, including, full informed consent regarding the medical legitimacy of psychiatric diagnosis, the Risks of psychiatric treatments,and the Right to ReFuSe any TreatmenT. Dont lock the door abuse and humiliate and call it help ! it didnt ! f that !
AkathisiA101 6 months ago
well being alone for your entire life can get a bit lonely, but yeah the sex part can sometimes be a bit socially demanding
matter0ni 6 months ago
can i ask a question? one of the main criteria is not caring to have relationships /sex ect so why the girlfriend?
ilovemoviesuk 6 months ago
@ilovemoviesuk you have to have at least 4 of the 7 criteria, not all 7 necessarily. So you can still enjoy/want sex and be schizoid.
MouthOfTheUnknown 6 months ago
@MouthOfTheUnknown oh ok , thanks :)
ilovemoviesuk 6 months ago
Lmao, WoW
chvyant 7 months ago
randdebiel in myn ogen freddy mercury van schizonoia behaviour childish je woont by je mam als je dit hebt of in woonvorm autisme is leuker sam bouwt met 7 een robot ik vind het super zeg jou ding met songs ik ga effe pissen je weet hoe ik denk je kan weten ik neem je niet serieus met je 15ziekten poor peter zal ik je verplegen aandacht vraag het op andere manier i did my job jy haalde het weg hey iets klopt niet bedenk clip
mollysangelique 7 months ago
ja dit is wel hy een bit strange behaviour je ziet het ik wel ik werkte met schizo,s some zyn in psychose in zichzelf geen contact mogelyk terughalen met anty psychotica in realiteit katakonisch ooit gehoord heen en weer bewegen beter buitenwereld het niet ziet hun horen dan in kliniek buitenwereld schrikt zeggen raar eng alles wat opvalt anders is word in volksmond gek genoemd draai er niet omheen ieder met dit is anders jou zo over ik weet genoeg
mollysangelique 7 months ago
I just recently found out i suffer from spd :( ....so what should i do now bro cuz im like shitting bricks now that i found this out
Polyamorous182 8 months ago 2
@Polyamorous182 okay so you think you 'have' this, but how are you any different right now from 10 minutes from before you found out? It doesn't change anything its just a silly label. It doesnt mean youre some diseased freak simply because your personality tends to go this way or that way. You're a human being, not an SPD sufferer :) Remember that...
matter0ni 8 months ago 6
@matter0ni thanks bro, now im seeing a therapist on monday. Is that the right treatment?
Polyamorous182 8 months ago
@Polyamorous182 u trollin?
matter0ni 8 months ago 2
@matter0ni lol
DFDEAgle47 6 months ago
@matter0ni You will be able to understand yourself a little better with the knowledge. Otherwise, it is a double edged sword. Highly creative people people are sometimes thought of as 'eccentric'. But, having trouble connecting with others is -- well, isolating. A therapist can help some, but they can't change who you are fundamentally. A tip: Stay away from STRESS. Stress will warp your thinking in a bad way.
EcoBGreen 5 months ago 2
@matter0ni very good answer
carguy05vids 2 months ago
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Metsada007 2 months ago
@Polyamorous182 If you are "shitting brix" about having SPD u prolly dont have SPD.
AlexTirl 1 month ago
You drink way too much Coke. I'm serious.
Clickgirl 8 months ago
So you have been using neurofeedback? I am a true believer...watching my son getting better with improved eye contact is so exciting. He always would hide his eyes. He is also initiating conversation and smiling more. I even received a heartfelt hug for the first time in his entire life! Hugging a tree was the same as hugging him before. Is it possible to spread the word to all of the people suffering out there? I wonder why it is such a secret....no drug companies involved perhaps?
Diane9773 9 months ago
Look up the healing power of Neurofeedback. Looking at the brain and trouble shooting the problem areas with sound waves helps to regulate and make order where there was once disorder. Big secret because it doesn't involve drug companies or insurance companies.
Diane9773 9 months ago
@Diane9773 This is a great tip. I've been doing this for hours EVERY day for a couple years now, and mixed with a psychedelic mushroom experience or two, listening to Terence McKenna and Alan Watts, it's gone from a huge weight in life, a huge hindrance, to a huge blessing. I consider myself "cured" because I see absolutely nothing wrong at all. If you're afraid of psychedelics, no need! The audio alone in regular intervals will definitely improve your state without the help of the 'drugs'.
matter0ni 9 months ago
@matter0ni use drugs more disturbed you like being psychotic locked up in a clinic i guess how stupid you can be freud is your dad read him
mollysangelique 7 months ago
@mollysangelique there are no such things as drugs, only chemicals. if your drugs come with barcodes all the sudden you view them as drinks or cigarettes or what have you. try not to get stuck on words with their 5th grade connotations!
matter0ni 6 months ago 2
I do want to thank you for this posting. while I recently learned much about myself, ( its really hard to say that sense I know myself well.) while learning of this "disorder" I been searching to see how people deal with it.
Thanks for the video and discussion.
mkpleco 9 months ago
I can relate with the 6 month time line that how my whole teen life went with my so called friends at the time. every 6 months I would just change my group of friends. It was very natural. All I can say was that I got bored.
Like at work today, I can hang around. If there is no work I need to leave. I have nothing to say to people at work. All I can do is answer questions and they almost never come up.
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mkpleco 9 months ago
i have a question... if this was a girl you were just getting to know and lets say she didnt live with you and she came over for a couple hours just to hang out.. would you have kept playing wow?
eninems 10 months ago
@eninems of course not, anyone with a lick of sense would understand this. at least you'd think so
matter0ni 10 months ago
@matter0ni alright just wondering.. i just heard of this condition, and it sort of reminded me of me..
eninems 10 months ago
I have borderline personality and my best friend is a schizoid lmao its so funny cuz were completely oposite but he needs me to feel secure and stable and I need someone to need me. I would score 34/36 social ques and he would get like a 20/36, He hates sex, i LOVE it. We both need each other though and my rollercoaster emotions entertain him haha
I think its funny how his mind is like 90% on the camera when he is pretending to play the game hehe. Hes like oh god how shall i please this bich
unholypenguin4 10 months ago
@unholypenguin4 thats what i like to see. people makin it work!
matter0ni 10 months ago
Man you playing wow.I understand you ;)
139279 10 months ago
You remind me of my ex, and the way my girlfriend laughs, is nearly the same as your girlfriend.
gbernard23 10 months ago
Can relate, i have SPD . Know exactly your process of thoughts and attitude was when i was watching you.
When she first got your attention you abruptly stopped playing and confronted her to make her laugh because in your mind you believed that, that false 'mask' of funny and happiness behaviour would of made her happy enough to leave you alone there and then.
This is because you just wanted to be alone and you wanted to quickly git rid of her. We don't understand social cue's well at all.
MrJonnyc16 10 months ago
@MrJonnyc16 perfect analysis, very good observation!
matter0ni 10 months ago
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mkpleco 9 months ago
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@MrJonnyc16 I too try to make funny comments to people because its safe not serious or personable. I enjoy making people laugh however I don't think I'm very funny, just honest. lol
mkpleco 9 months ago
I have to say something, why do you people who just play on the computer the whole time whenever you invite your friend or girlfriend over, even bother inviting anyone over? Because I'm the same way, I get sucked into the Xbox or computer, but I make up excuses for people not to come see me whenever I want to be doing those things. I hope you at least have a wii or something for her to amuse herself with.
hilby 10 months ago
@hilby have you considered that maybe she lived with me? but its funny you mention this. i did have a wii, and she played it a lot when she was bored and i was on the computer often. psychic!
matter0ni 10 months ago
@matter0ni I'm actually schizotypal so you may be right about psychic ;-)
hilby 10 months ago
Wow, thats a lot of soda =O
and I too agree with the 'annoying gf' comment lol
GreenSharpieGreen 11 months ago
Your girlfriend is annoying and stupid.
RetroJenny 1 year ago
I too can be charming and likable when I need to be. It's a song and dance thou, a way to muddle thru the anxiety of social situations. They call this type of coping the "secret skitzo".
Ntr0pi 1 year ago
(continued)I haven't had any sexual relations in a while, although I have had several opportunities for sexual encounters in the past few years. I find that I need people (a lot I think), while finding it very difficult to express or satiate this need. I found it very difficult to post this, as I consider a form of reaching out, which I don't generally do. Do I have SPD or is this just part of being human? help me
urimv 1 year ago
I think I might have SPD. I was diagnosed with it in high school, but the diagnosis kind of faded from existence. I don't make new friends easily, although I am not shy (people find me likable when I want them too) and do go out to bars and meet people just for the relief. There are many times when i am aware that my affect does not match the situation, but I go with it and make it work. I have a few close friends, but lately I just want to cut them out of my life.
urimv 1 year ago
rope is on special at home depot
southwestdon 1 year ago
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dam your skinny as fuk i guess thats part of being retarded
lilsk8boardcame 1 year ago
i think i have schizoid :(
marouf951 1 year ago
that doesnt look schizoid?... people with that stuff usually doesnt find interest in social stuff....
evoction 1 year ago
your a douche
88patbox 1 year ago
your gf has a really strange laugh.
papacap727 1 year ago
it calls no life n no job... i have social anxiety disorder n im bypolar but i try n think that nothing is wrong n i face my fears every single day
kitty2010857 1 year ago
I know exactly how you felt. Every time she laughed it separated me from the external world and pushed me into my own personal one. Full of genuine emotion every time she laughed, how beautiful. The way you defended yourself was not a bad acting job. But you got tired a little too soon and became distant. I just discovered that I have the same disorder. Its frightening to see people with the same "problems" as me.
Thank you for posting this video. I know its not easy letting people in.
zartic4life 1 year ago 3
@zartic4life well worded! love your summary. hope all's well in your world
matter0ni 1 year ago
hope your doing better...do you have social anxiety disorder too?
engeljakob 1 year ago
@engeljakob yeah actually. howd you know? ive come a looooong way since this video was made. but thanks for the words, that's kind
matter0ni 1 year ago
@matter0ni no problem...cause i have social anxiety disorder and get self conscious on cam too.
engeljakob 1 year ago
@matter0ni just wondering if you are on any medication
engeljakob 1 year ago
@engeljakob nope absolutely not. while these peculiarities can be dysfunctional or troublesome in a few ways, i absolutely enjoy it!
matter0ni 1 year ago 4
Disorganised schizophrenia is the best label to have. It happens to people with high sex standards in there puberty years and since they have sex standards they get stressed out trying to be perfect and meet perfect people so they end up with disorganised schizophrenia.
timelord5678 1 year ago
@timelord5678 There's a lot more to it than that.
ergotsofrye 1 year ago
Were you diagnosed with SPD by a psychiatrist or was it self diagnosed?
ergotsofrye 1 year ago
haha your gf was being a cunt lol
SummerGameProject 1 year ago 16
@SummerGameProject Yeah, she's lilke totally invading his space, and he is clearly uncomfortable and irritated about it.
Hey dude, perhaps I have some case of SPD too, because I can relate to much of the symptoms you describe. Anyway, if you ask me, I think the label "SPD" is bullshit. I think there are just many factors rather to explain your behavior and personality.
1. MBTI and Enneagrams. MBTI explains what your cognitive functions are, and Enneagrams explains your needs/wants/fears
o00o0o0o0o0o 7 months ago
Yeah... some rather IMO stupid psychologists tried force a "possible SPD" on me, I look the criterias up on the net, and I really don't see it... How do I not want social relationships? That's stupid... This guy obviously does as well........ I remember some kid used to sit over my head and watch me play games, and he was like hurting my back in the doing (bigtime), I told him to stop, he didn't, so I bashed on him, and he screamed like a little girl... I'm not sure if it's related or as mention
somedump 1 year ago
-ed by others, that any 22y male would do the same if he wanted some "time alone".
Doesn't seriously everyone go like this? I mean jesus christ, who want themself being recorded while busy, and perhaps even the screen... If you did that to a 50 year old male, he'd probably spank your ass, lol... It's normal behavior to bad/nosy behavior IMO.
somedump 1 year ago
Am i the only fucker to use the mouse to cast spells instead of the shortcuts!?
blakscull 1 year ago
@blakscull haha, i used to until i realized how much more effecient i could move around with the help of my mouse
matter0ni 1 year ago
fuck all you people. none of u know shit
sneakysnakes888 1 year ago
nhf but you look like you are having a panic attack
i think im shizoid in some way and im also skinny as you
in my case i think cause of that is that im too skinny to defend myself and my attitude so there is allways an subcontious fear of being phisycally hurt.
kiklop777 1 year ago
@kiklop777
skinny has nothing to do with the disorder,,, to me physical hurt is nothing...my fear is emotionaly hurt....everyone gets emotionally hurt when they break up but they all good again in 2wks i dont know how they do it
mizuki3 1 year ago
I'm so glad for the explanation. Otherwise, the video just lookslike every siglr 22 year old man in THE WORLD when he needs a little down time. If she was a 15 year old sister (rather than a girlfriend) that would be expected. You hardly bit her head off.
SaffronSugar 1 year ago
I h8 wow...even though I play it...because i hav nor friends... :(
TheFoRizzles 1 year ago
tall long fucker isnt schizoid HES JUST PRETENDING
SuckMyAssAmerica 1 year ago
how long are your arms!?
AnimationDisney 1 year ago
@AnimationDisney haha. long enough.
matter0ni 1 year ago
@matter0ni lol no offence or anything :S
AnimationDisney 1 year ago
@AnimationDisney none taken!
matter0ni 1 year ago
ohhhhh wow, I just saw this video and it clicked, my psych was right...
and here I thought I might have some borderline sociopathy or something because people have trouble figuring out how I'm feeling *most of the time* but not always, but that's always in harsh situations, guess that's that, well at least there's a group I belong to :p
noobler9 1 year ago
wow, thank you posting this video, I was reading your description mostly during the vid you said: "cant..expressing my emotions"; "grew up with people treating me like i'm some kind of strange weirdo"; "my methods are simply misunderstood because i have a natural ability to completely disregard traditional methods in favor of my own which i know deep down are usually superior" -
All of it I totally agree with and I'm sure I have SPD......should i go to my doc/gp?!
BluebellsRblue1873 1 year ago
@BluebellsRblue1873
the answer is yes, yes you should ask someone who's primary research is to study these sorts of things, and diagnose them, in patients that have them
but don't go to them saying, I think I have XYZ, go to them saying I think I have something, but I don't know what.... I feel awkward, and then they'll ask you some questions and just answer them however you normally would
don't stress over what's normal, just blabber.
noobler9 1 year ago
@BluebellsRblue1873
well okay don't blabber too much, you do need to get through other stuff too you know :P
noobler9 1 year ago
I understand. I feel empathetic... I mean, the description was pretty accurate, and so was the awkwardness / uncomfortableness, that was captured on film. I can so relate to the part where you said how you feel like you can't function when your with someone else for long periods of time. As well as how after being separated for long periods of time, you feel the need for the other person's company, then the whole cycle starts again. :) I just recently found out what this "disorder" really was,
DarkAngelrace 1 year ago
@DarkAngelrace yesterday, and... trying to type my thoughts out, falls behind my mind too... lol I also like sleeping during the day, me also being depressed. I find night a lot cooler though. "Friendships" can be a bit stressful, and sometimes I feel like I'm "using" people, just to be with someone, and then ignoring them once I don't need their prescence anymore. I also love nature, and naimals, I don't like many other selfish, rude humans anyways... I really appreciate this video! Thumbs up!
DarkAngelrace 1 year ago
@DarkAngelrace cool i can totally relate to where you're coming from. nothing wrong with our style, its just what works best for us. you know, in other cultures people like us would be 'shamans' and we'd have a vital role in their society, and not looked at like someone who's "ill" but rather "empowered" and extremely central to the role of their societies. esp in the aztec/mayan civilizations. so if our silly backwards culture ever leaves you in doubt, think about that :)
matter0ni 1 year ago
hell yea... good description bro. So do you think u could also suffer from avoidant personality disorder as well?
nunezhit 1 year ago
@nunezhit yea probably, i watched that robot vid in your favorites about avoidant PD (why is everything called a disorder? nothin wrong with it imo) - pretty accurate
matter0ni 1 year ago
@matter0ni yea that is just how things are i guess. i related to 99 percent of that vid, it never used to be like that but its just gotten to that point over the past couple years. ive been in total isolation for a couple weeks now, not sure whats gonna happen. i got jail time i have to serve soon so ive just been waiting....
nunezhit 1 year ago
one factor that i've learned definitely doesn't help: all the soda lol. i'm surprised how much simple water helps me stay sane.
meatballgun 1 year ago
@meatballgun yeah youre definitely right about that. ive since cut my addictions on caffeine and junk food, threw in a few psychedelic experiences, and wow... talk about a real evolutionary breakthrough lol. with you all the way on that
matter0ni 1 year ago
@matter0ni
Tell me about the psychedelic experiences. Did the help you? If so, mayeb they could help me too.
CleverDjembe 1 year ago
@CleverDjembe yeah... i mean for my entire life i kind of subscribed to the propaganda and things related to psychedelics... you know, warp your mind, bad for you, make you insane, other nonsense like that. but after a ton of research and a little experience i feel like all of this "mental disorder" stuff is a thing of the past. 2 ayahuasca (DMT) and 2 psilocybin mushroom experiences and im extremely comfortable and happy with this time here on Earth! hard to explain in so little words.
matter0ni 1 year ago
Hmm, I don't see anything strange.
stonemanfoo 1 year ago
I appreciate you posting this as I am researching Schizoid for class. I have to say you are pretty mild on the spectrum and seem pretty normal to me. who likes being recorded? not many people and the need for a lot of personal space & time is understandable.. but to turn around and want to be around people again is also normal..
Thank you for posting this though..
psYchoMjR 1 year ago
so whats the point, your showing how much you hate intimate things, or being around people?
composer63 1 year ago
@composer63 if you can't see the point, it doesn't mean it's not there. plenty of people can get useful bits out of this. there isn't just one "the point is _____" -- the point is whatever you make of it or whatever you find from it
matter0ni 1 year ago
Exactly......
caddywhompus2000 1 year ago
I thought you were having a siezure at first when you stuck your arm out in that wierd posture.
Jtherva 1 year ago
Why do you keep calling her gay? You are an asshole.
maciejgrebowicz 2 years ago
What, the theatrical rigomortis show demonstrates SPD?
I thought I had it. But if this is it, then I surely don't.
I'd never do such a cheesy schtick.
schtolteheim 2 years ago
@schtolteheim youve got to look a lot deeper than a 5 second spur of the moment joke. your powers of observation are astounding!
matter0ni 2 years ago
Ok now that ive watched the rest i must say ur gf is extremely annoying...
i think i have SPD as well but who IS normal anyway so whatevers.....
EyeWearMySunglasses 2 years ago
yeah i agree entirely. i see youre a capricorn too!
matter0ni 2 years ago
@matter0ni lol yepperz Capz rock! also according to numerology we both have master numbers in our birth dates (11) I was born on the 11th and I saw that you were born on the 29th (2+9=11)...
EyeWearMySunglasses 2 years ago
@EyeWearMySunglasses ahh very interesting, cool observation. i haven't studied numerology much, maybe i should invest some time in it. wait, happy bday !
matter0ni 2 years ago
ur fawkin hawt MatterOni!
EyeWearMySunglasses 2 years ago
I have this too and everyone thinks I am a hermit because I like to spend days on end alone in my room and because I like solitary things. I've always had signs of the "disorder" and was diagnosed when I was 18. I can't go out unless I have an ipod so it distracts me enough to not turn around and go home. This paired with a high IQ is torture sometimes. Thank goodness I am almost done with college.
ladyvacra 2 years ago
yeah it can be frustrating or persistently bothersome at times but in the end I personally find it to be a lot more of a gift than a problem. my clear and piercing insight has helped so many people around me and i love that!
matter0ni 2 years ago
I agree! People get caught up in making rash decisions based on emotion and I don't do that so I am able to show them the folly of their actions. On the flip side when my step father died and I lacked total empathy and showed no emotion my family thought I was a total psycho, I just wanted everything to be over and wanted to be alone. Its complicated when society expects you to act a certain way but you just cant, I cant even fake it.
ladyvacra 2 years ago
oh do i know exactly what you mean here. a lot of people in my family think i'm some kind of evil monster because i'm indifferent towards a lot of things that would cause most people to lose it. mostly relating to death i guess. so i know what you mean! it is nice to know though that there are others out there in the same boat. i can relate on the faking it part too.
matter0ni 2 years ago
WORLD OF WARCRAFT!!! i thought schizoids didnt like relationships..
TheScreamingRetard 2 years ago
not necessarily, where i live i dont know anyone, and i dont meet anyone. so spending 24 hours a day alone can start to get a bit lonely ya know?
on the other hand, living with someone leaves me craving my free space, so its difficult to balance. puts enough strain on that relationship in the vid to kill it.
love your user name though, haha.
matter0ni 2 years ago
oh i see.u should just find a rich girlfriend and get a huge house and invade HER personal space..haha
thanks
TheScreamingRetard 2 years ago
hahaha yeah that'd be great wouldn't it?
matter0ni 2 years ago
:) yea... It's the land of the depressed! :D Well not really but I'm glad you liked it. I heard about a Spanish couple that came here for a holiday during Winter and they got so depressed because it was so dark and cold all the time and people were super depressed looking. They ended up staying in the hotel room the whole trip eating chocolate bars. (something that's actually really good here). So yea, happy that you liked it! When was your trip?
unsue 2 years ago
Hey to be honest I'd rather live in a place where people show their true faces and not walk around with pretend smiles everywhere they go like here in the states. The grass is always greener on the other side though...
Trip was about 4 years ago. Really enjoyed the snow and nature. Don't get much of that here in Florida (never snows and no mountains).
matter0ni 2 years ago
hmm.. i think i know a person like you too.. but i'm not sure.. he's not always been like that so don't know if you can develop that later in life or is that what your born like? Its interesting how people work in so many different ways! i say live as you like as long as you don't hurt people around you! :) take care!
unsue 2 years ago
thanks for the comment and yeah i agree entirely. as far as it developing and stuff like that, its kind of dormant but quietly there at childhood (from my experience alone) and in early adulthood it really takes shape
matter0ni 2 years ago
haha i just realized you're from Finland. I have a lot of relatives there and a lot of Finnish blood. loved being in Helsinki!
matter0ni 2 years ago
Clueless
TalonPierce 2 years ago
Do you have a driver license ?
janeysman 3 years ago
yeah sure do
matter0ni 3 years ago
Thats Great cuz I dont have a license do to sa and I like to drive, I like cars I dont usually drive because of cops but you seem to be doing better than me, I feel like a handicap Honestly I dont give a fuck about the grandma that will be giving me the test or anything Its something else. I think Ive been cursed and I dont know why any way God Bless
janeysman 3 years ago
yeah, the girl always leaves when you dont change to what they want hahaha, so are you on any benefits?
CityHunter84 3 years ago
nope just tryin to rough it out, havent really had the energy to look into all of that stuff. know anything about it? any info that i might find useful?
matter0ni 3 years ago