you sound exactly like me all the way... I talk to people but i never let them in i tell them very little about me im very private. Im only very open to my son and mom and they always get to experience my pressured speech, because im very open with them and truely myself. I just dont trust enough to let people know my life story. I never been diagnosed bi-polar but i know i am i have every symptom. i ace all the online tests that they have on the internet. Im just not gonna let any DR. drug me!
I'm in he same boat as you girl icealte my self every day it just fells like a norm to me now .. lets keep in touch you can friend quest me on face book under Rickey s sanchez
I found a great website for meeting others with mental illness. The website is free so I have nothing to gain by plugging it. It is called nolongerlonelycom. It is an online community for adults with Mental illness. I have found it helpful because you list your diagnosis on your profile. Telling another that you have a mental illness is sometimes the hardest thing to do, this site helps get that out of the way so you can meet others without the fear of stigma or rejection.
I have been feeling so alone for the last couple of days with my husband working out of town and was getting really depressed. I came across your video, or videos I should say, and I want to thank you. I have bipolar depression and severe social anxiety. My only close relationsships are family and sometimes I feel so "weird" I don't think they would understand. I talk very freely about my anxiety with them but the bipolar part I don't feel like sharing. Your videos make me feel less alone.
my name is Roland.I am a schizophrenic,i first started to experience symptoms of schizophrenia about a year ago.At first the voices were very intense,but a year later and im on haldol injection and the voices have lost their intensity,my dream would be to completely get rid of these voices.but i know it doesn't work that way,anyways peace love understanding to all earth's creatures.
I am not bipolar, I am depressed, but I have the same feelings exspecially when it comes to people around me, not even knowing, that I have depressions or not knowing what depressions are.
i dont have much interaction with people,i feel loliness ,i live in seclution and isolated because i dont do good with stress ,sometimes feel dead to the world
Thank you for sharing :) Im trying to understand and help my best friend and babymama ;) You remind me of her in many ways.. Her story is very similar and Im sure she would love to talk to you when she gets out of the clinic. Its her second time in :( Thank you for the advise and the insight. Beautiful kids btw :) great end to the video :)
I completely relate to what you are saying. The only "friends" I have attempted to strike up relationships with are my husband's wives and I fell flat on my face with that. People just do not get it and I don't want to say anything about the Bipolar Disorder because I feel that I will REALLY scare people off. So, in turn I am a loner myself. I was not properly diagnosed until I was 36 and I am now 47, so you can imagine what I went though before that. I would love to share with you more..
lonliness is a physical pain . a pain that makes humans weep . a pain that makes them curse god . you pray for the pain to go away . but it never does , only to worsen with time . lonliness will make you crawl on the floor . walking hell too painful . nobody will understand you . you cant tell anybody . you will pray for an angel to come save you . no angel will ever come . lonliness is a physical pain . that will leave you scarred for the rest of your life .
Your videos are so great I am so blessed that I found your channel on YouTube. I am like you in high school I had friend but now everyone has gone off to live there own lives and with my wife working during the day time hours not getting home till late in the evening I am alone by myself 8-9 hours a day I do a lot of things by myself I stay home a lot don't really go anywere or talk to anyone . I live in fear if I do go out my hypersexuallity will act up that is bad
I had to leave the USA to get healthcare, and being alone in a foreign country has been good for me. I've had to deal with total isolation and being my own best friend. The expats I meet here in this country don't last for long, so I have no longterm connections here. I put up a lot of vids about this.
I'm def in the same boat as you :). finally someone does a true video on this. i deal with it every single day. even when you do have your friends you still feel isolated.
Exactly thats why i love these videos...i've never met anyone else with bipolar either...(except my dad,) never heard what i experienced articulated like this before ....its amazing how similar your they are to mine..feels like i met a real friend...i even sing to.. lol your voice is beautiful
I've gone through the ups and downs, same like you. There ARE other things you can do about it. You have to work with your therapist though or someone that can GUIDE you along and check in on how you are doing. Some therapies are Reiki to repair the nervous system and assist you in developing a bio-feedback process when things go out of hand. More info on my videos. Wishing you all the best over here.
Isolation can strengthen, and/or weaken.. Being alone is necessary, for the discovery of self and formation of values/character. Most people simply mimic what appeals to them, or surrounds them. I went from disinterested, to anti-theist, to conspiracy buff, all the way to agnostic anti-theist with attempted objective skepticism. Is it bipolar, or mercury teeth, bipolar or chemtrails.. etc. Knowing that absolute knowledge is unattainable helps. I don't pity myself, self pity must be avoided.
i am actually goin through sensory depravation due to isolation from b-polar disorder,,,, it will make u insane,,,, i have to interact soon.... like a prisoner i feel like sometimes,,, its so terrible,,,,, but on the bright side youre very pretty,, thanxs for postin some truths and honesty
It's really hard for me to deal with the way people treat me now. I can see the pity in their eyes. Be it a stranger or a close friend, they all look at me the same way. I notice too that people are trying too hard to be extra nice to me. While I appreciate their efforts it makes me feel like a beggar or a troubled child. The fear of having a breakdown in a public place or in front of people is making me want to isolate even more.
Before I went to a care center about a week ago I was isolating myself to an extreme. My anxiety and depression got so bad that I wouldn't leave my house or even talk to my own family on the phone. I had to have all of my food delivered. I often find myself feeling lonely even when I'm around a lot of people, even at family holiday parties. Now that I am out of the care center I am slowly sliding back into the darkness. I too suffer from bipolar disorder.
wow...it's weird hearing someone with bipolar (to me) saying they never met anyone with it . Well the reason (like i said in another video i have borderline but i thought i was bipolar for awhile, it can really resemble it) I have met so many with it is because on AOL lol there used to be chatrooms called bipolar this or that. And i've dated people from there and met regular friends from there also. I don't keep in contact with those people anymore but i've met quite a few.
When you really think about it, the isolation can't truly be self imposed given the fact that we are aware that we dislike it. It seems as though it is somehow driven by some kind of outside force that works through us, or in us. All humans are created with the inherent desire to be around and to connect on a deep level to other people. This is truly one of the most meaningful things about living life here on earth. So what is it? Whatever bipolar is, it is clear that it is not who we are.
Learning to reach out to my community in Messiah. It is helping me. I no longer feel the desire to remain isolated but feel the ugre to be around people. Still struggling with heavy depression that makes it almost impossible to work a regular 9-5 job though.
I think that being alone and feeling lonely are two different things. Many healthy people can be happy and be alone. But when you are fighting the demons of bipolar disorder, sometimes you feel lonely even when you are surrounded by a crowd.
So I just posted on another one of your vids how I was going to bed but I couldn't resist clicking this video, it hits home! I've completely isolated, and I know how you feel! At least some what. This is the first time in my life I've done this (been super anti-social, isolated myself) though. I get so anxious thinking about communicating w/ people, I used to be so social. I just feel so disconnected from society... Alright now it really is time for some sleep. Hope things are going well for you
i would loc=ve to be able to speak with u via chat or even oovoo! i have been living hell for 20 years and it cous me my marriage. i have been diagnosed with rapd cycling bipolsr. please contsct me terry.1962@ hot mail.com
I am also Bipolar and have found that I get some decent support through National Alliance on Mental Health (nami.org) and some of the local chapters run some support groups. I know that my local chapter runs a Bipolar group which has been good so that when I am depressed I can go out and talk to other people that understand and when I am more manic and can't sit still during the meeting they understand too.
i've been practicing talking to people. i flip a coin to figure out if i should talk to someone. it helps me make up my mind. then i stay exhilarated for a while after i do. it's nice.
go to school, you just have to champion it. nietzche i think was bipolar, and so were many other cool people. life intensified ride the kings highway baby.
i want to say that one is never truly alone but i understand, i use to go with my children to the park and i met other parents there and through there play dates got to meet people.
@KillerBebe I'm doing a lot better now. I think the winter just wears on me. It gets so dark and cold and I don't get out much so that gives me cabin fever and contributes to my feelings of isolation.
Yes I am in the same boat as you-but even worse. I live on disability and I live alone in a studio apartment. I've only got one or two friends now, and I am alone most of the time. You have your husband and your kids, which is great.
@kinaboi1 i dont see uldiah calling trash to anyone on his/her comment; where did you read that? perhaps you'd get reading glasses before insulting someone as racist and acting as a final judge, and check what you see when you look into the mirrow.
Thank you for sharing. I have always been introverted and find it extremely challenging to make new friends since I was diagnosed, In the past I would make friends easily during manic phases but usually it was when I would abuse alcohol to be more outgoing. Now I know it is not good for me so I am lonely. Also lost most of my friends due to my previous actions while I was not medicated.I am anxious to go to group but your video really made me realize I'm lucky to have that option. thanx
@tyscorp80 Making new friends is tough to do. I hope you are able to do well in your group. I'm still disappointed that the bipolar group in my community didn't work out :(
me too I WANT to talk to and be with others BUT I DO NOT.Im quiet and goofy.lol. Yup I AM STUCK too.I think Im ...afraid.. IDK anymore..AA IS AWESOME But im scared? of them n I know them?????
@Lisaserene1 It can be so tough to make yourself get out there and do stuff when you are dealing with depression, anxiety or sometiimes just like problems. It is easier just to isolate yourself than to deal with going out places and interacting with others.
I want you to know that first of all you are not alone in this. I suffer terrible isolation due to my illness. It is a good day for me if i get out of the house. You are doing a good thing by reaching out in this way. Thank you.
@persevere67 Thanks for watching. I always feel better when I get comments like yours, knowing I am not alone and that many suffer from the same things as me.
it's scary how everything you say in your videos feels like it was taken right out of my mind. knowing im not the only one feeling this way kind of helps. so many of my friends bailed on me after they found out i was bipolar. wish i could talk to you
@xtrizsel Those are some good suggestions. You are totally right too, I let fear hold me back from doing a lot of things that maybe I would enjoy doing.
Those feelings you have now is mild depressive symptomes. It's normal for me to think like that when im down. Some bipolar people has a more high curve like you and don't apear to go so deep compared to other bipolar people. Others go deep in depression, and not so high in the manias.
For me it seems like a mild depression, and it's normal to think isolation then. I think your worst enemy is Mixed state that you aperingly had in Oktober last year,
@Snabelfaen I know, when I am in a regular state the being alone doesn't bother me so much, in fact I enjoy being alone a lot of the time. But when I am down it just seems like all I can think about is the fact that I'm dealing with it (mainly) alone.
I am very isolated as well. I know that it has a lot to do with my bipolar disorder. I had the same friends for 15-30 years, but slowly they started to fall away. The friends, mainly 2 now are other bipolar people. The only problem with that is that with all of our problems with sleeping schedules and med side effects, it's hard to plan social get-togethers or plan things way in advance. I never know how I'll feel when it actually comes time to do things. I alienated a lot of my old friends by
@updownjunkie I wish I had other bipolar friends. I was so looking forward to the bipolar group my counselor was putting together but then it fell through. So I'm really disappointed about that.
it's time to stop the defeatist way of thinking. life is tough I have the misfortune of being both bipolar and dyslexia. My life in high school was a living hell, no real friends, no real romantic relationships, and I was casted in special ed classes considering my iq is above average. Dont self identify with this disorder and people love to use bipolar as an excuse for sucking in life, well get over it
I have no close friends, it sucks. My boyfriend of two years is moving away to his school instead of commuting now, and I will be an hour away from him almost. I feel like we will just drift away and he will be smashing other girls or something lol I don't know.
I feel so alone and no one understands me, and no one can help me. This sucks so bad. I've been this way my entire life. This is why I've been clinging so much to my boyfriends in the past I guess by I try so hard not to.
@blahblahblahman I think a lot of people tend to be that way with their significant other, I know my husband and I do everything together so when he is gone I definitely notice it a lot.
you sound exactly like me all the way... I talk to people but i never let them in i tell them very little about me im very private. Im only very open to my son and mom and they always get to experience my pressured speech, because im very open with them and truely myself. I just dont trust enough to let people know my life story. I never been diagnosed bi-polar but i know i am i have every symptom. i ace all the online tests that they have on the internet. Im just not gonna let any DR. drug me!
rightonce 2 days ago
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drewbluedrew 4 days ago
I'm in he same boat as you girl icealte my self every day it just fells like a norm to me now .. lets keep in touch you can friend quest me on face book under Rickey s sanchez
tuggy20102010 5 days ago
Thank you for sharing this.
divinelilprincesss1 1 week ago
I found a great website for meeting others with mental illness. The website is free so I have nothing to gain by plugging it. It is called nolongerlonelycom. It is an online community for adults with Mental illness. I have found it helpful because you list your diagnosis on your profile. Telling another that you have a mental illness is sometimes the hardest thing to do, this site helps get that out of the way so you can meet others without the fear of stigma or rejection.
balbanes1 1 week ago
I have been feeling so alone for the last couple of days with my husband working out of town and was getting really depressed. I came across your video, or videos I should say, and I want to thank you. I have bipolar depression and severe social anxiety. My only close relationsships are family and sometimes I feel so "weird" I don't think they would understand. I talk very freely about my anxiety with them but the bipolar part I don't feel like sharing. Your videos make me feel less alone.
alonewithmythoughts2 2 weeks ago
my name is Roland.I am a schizophrenic,i first started to experience symptoms of schizophrenia about a year ago.At first the voices were very intense,but a year later and im on haldol injection and the voices have lost their intensity,my dream would be to completely get rid of these voices.but i know it doesn't work that way,anyways peace love understanding to all earth's creatures.
RolandTheHermit 3 weeks ago
I am not bipolar, I am depressed, but I have the same feelings exspecially when it comes to people around me, not even knowing, that I have depressions or not knowing what depressions are.
Konni1969 1 month ago
i dont have much interaction with people,i feel loliness ,i live in seclution and isolated because i dont do good with stress ,sometimes feel dead to the world
wonabzback 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing :) Im trying to understand and help my best friend and babymama ;) You remind me of her in many ways.. Her story is very similar and Im sure she would love to talk to you when she gets out of the clinic. Its her second time in :( Thank you for the advise and the insight. Beautiful kids btw :) great end to the video :)
Kenrod840 1 month ago
I completely relate to what you are saying. The only "friends" I have attempted to strike up relationships with are my husband's wives and I fell flat on my face with that. People just do not get it and I don't want to say anything about the Bipolar Disorder because I feel that I will REALLY scare people off. So, in turn I am a loner myself. I was not properly diagnosed until I was 36 and I am now 47, so you can imagine what I went though before that. I would love to share with you more..
Base2lovesBase1 1 month ago
lonliness is a physical pain . a pain that makes humans weep . a pain that makes them curse god . you pray for the pain to go away . but it never does , only to worsen with time . lonliness will make you crawl on the floor . walking hell too painful . nobody will understand you . you cant tell anybody . you will pray for an angel to come save you . no angel will ever come . lonliness is a physical pain . that will leave you scarred for the rest of your life .
imabirdlady 1 month ago
Your videos are so great I am so blessed that I found your channel on YouTube. I am like you in high school I had friend but now everyone has gone off to live there own lives and with my wife working during the day time hours not getting home till late in the evening I am alone by myself 8-9 hours a day I do a lot of things by myself I stay home a lot don't really go anywere or talk to anyone . I live in fear if I do go out my hypersexuallity will act up that is bad
kansasjamiemcmurray 2 months ago
I had to leave the USA to get healthcare, and being alone in a foreign country has been good for me. I've had to deal with total isolation and being my own best friend. The expats I meet here in this country don't last for long, so I have no longterm connections here. I put up a lot of vids about this.
slobomotion 2 months ago
I'm def in the same boat as you :). finally someone does a true video on this. i deal with it every single day. even when you do have your friends you still feel isolated.
SoulSistahDiva 2 months ago
Exactly thats why i love these videos...i've never met anyone else with bipolar either...(except my dad,) never heard what i experienced articulated like this before ....its amazing how similar your they are to mine..feels like i met a real friend...i even sing to.. lol your voice is beautiful
Drhamburgerhill 2 months ago
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Sunnyrach 2 months ago
I've gone through the ups and downs, same like you. There ARE other things you can do about it. You have to work with your therapist though or someone that can GUIDE you along and check in on how you are doing. Some therapies are Reiki to repair the nervous system and assist you in developing a bio-feedback process when things go out of hand. More info on my videos. Wishing you all the best over here.
NeoZen888 2 months ago in playlist More videos from BipolarStateofBeing
I can talk about it also. Feelings of loneliness still surround me and the way I cope with it is start telling myself i can and WILL SHINE :)!
bboyham 3 months ago
Isolation can strengthen, and/or weaken.. Being alone is necessary, for the discovery of self and formation of values/character. Most people simply mimic what appeals to them, or surrounds them. I went from disinterested, to anti-theist, to conspiracy buff, all the way to agnostic anti-theist with attempted objective skepticism. Is it bipolar, or mercury teeth, bipolar or chemtrails.. etc. Knowing that absolute knowledge is unattainable helps. I don't pity myself, self pity must be avoided.
fetalbetal 3 months ago
i am actually goin through sensory depravation due to isolation from b-polar disorder,,,, it will make u insane,,,, i have to interact soon.... like a prisoner i feel like sometimes,,, its so terrible,,,,, but on the bright side youre very pretty,, thanxs for postin some truths and honesty
bullpentherapy 3 months ago
I love your hair in tgis video so pretty blonde
skinnyonmymind 3 months ago
It's really hard for me to deal with the way people treat me now. I can see the pity in their eyes. Be it a stranger or a close friend, they all look at me the same way. I notice too that people are trying too hard to be extra nice to me. While I appreciate their efforts it makes me feel like a beggar or a troubled child. The fear of having a breakdown in a public place or in front of people is making me want to isolate even more.
jiggywiggywoowa1 3 months ago
Before I went to a care center about a week ago I was isolating myself to an extreme. My anxiety and depression got so bad that I wouldn't leave my house or even talk to my own family on the phone. I had to have all of my food delivered. I often find myself feeling lonely even when I'm around a lot of people, even at family holiday parties. Now that I am out of the care center I am slowly sliding back into the darkness. I too suffer from bipolar disorder.
jiggywiggywoowa1 3 months ago
wow...it's weird hearing someone with bipolar (to me) saying they never met anyone with it . Well the reason (like i said in another video i have borderline but i thought i was bipolar for awhile, it can really resemble it) I have met so many with it is because on AOL lol there used to be chatrooms called bipolar this or that. And i've dated people from there and met regular friends from there also. I don't keep in contact with those people anymore but i've met quite a few.
JustABitchyCancer 3 months ago
When you really think about it, the isolation can't truly be self imposed given the fact that we are aware that we dislike it. It seems as though it is somehow driven by some kind of outside force that works through us, or in us. All humans are created with the inherent desire to be around and to connect on a deep level to other people. This is truly one of the most meaningful things about living life here on earth. So what is it? Whatever bipolar is, it is clear that it is not who we are.
yakajr 3 months ago
Learning to reach out to my community in Messiah. It is helping me. I no longer feel the desire to remain isolated but feel the ugre to be around people. Still struggling with heavy depression that makes it almost impossible to work a regular 9-5 job though.
yakajr 3 months ago
I think that being alone and feeling lonely are two different things. Many healthy people can be happy and be alone. But when you are fighting the demons of bipolar disorder, sometimes you feel lonely even when you are surrounded by a crowd.
yakajr 4 months ago 4
@yakajr I agree. Most of the time I am alone and do fine. But occasionally I get that isolated feeling and wind up feeling very crappy.
BipolarStateofBeing 4 months ago 3
@GentlePoet1984 Thank you. I hope you are doing alright.
BipolarStateofBeing 4 months ago
im suffering from really bad isolation at the mo, everyone is treating me like a leapor, and its making my depression worsen.
tobie1 4 months ago
@tobie1 I'm sorry to hear that, of course I know first hand how terrible the isolation and depression can be.
BipolarStateofBeing 4 months ago
So I just posted on another one of your vids how I was going to bed but I couldn't resist clicking this video, it hits home! I've completely isolated, and I know how you feel! At least some what. This is the first time in my life I've done this (been super anti-social, isolated myself) though. I get so anxious thinking about communicating w/ people, I used to be so social. I just feel so disconnected from society... Alright now it really is time for some sleep. Hope things are going well for you
lostinrichmondva 4 months ago
i would loc=ve to be able to speak with u via chat or even oovoo! i have been living hell for 20 years and it cous me my marriage. i have been diagnosed with rapd cycling bipolsr. please contsct me terry.1962@ hot mail.com
SukiShibuya 5 months ago
I am also Bipolar and have found that I get some decent support through National Alliance on Mental Health (nami.org) and some of the local chapters run some support groups. I know that my local chapter runs a Bipolar group which has been good so that when I am depressed I can go out and talk to other people that understand and when I am more manic and can't sit still during the meeting they understand too.
Vindicated85 6 months ago
i've been practicing talking to people. i flip a coin to figure out if i should talk to someone. it helps me make up my mind. then i stay exhilarated for a while after i do. it's nice.
aomimezura11 6 months ago
go to school, you just have to champion it. nietzche i think was bipolar, and so were many other cool people. life intensified ride the kings highway baby.
gen6k 6 months ago
i want to say that one is never truly alone but i understand, i use to go with my children to the park and i met other parents there and through there play dates got to meet people.
KillerBebe 6 months ago
@KillerBebe I'm doing a lot better now. I think the winter just wears on me. It gets so dark and cold and I don't get out much so that gives me cabin fever and contributes to my feelings of isolation.
BipolarStateofBeing 6 months ago
like i mentioned in your other video, i understand how it is. =(
Hornilope 7 months ago
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Hornilope 7 months ago
Yes I am in the same boat as you-but even worse. I live on disability and I live alone in a studio apartment. I've only got one or two friends now, and I am alone most of the time. You have your husband and your kids, which is great.
uldiah 8 months ago
@uldiah and you are a very racist person for calling black people trash. You will rot in hell.
kinaboi1 7 months ago
@kinaboi1 i dont see uldiah calling trash to anyone on his/her comment; where did you read that? perhaps you'd get reading glasses before insulting someone as racist and acting as a final judge, and check what you see when you look into the mirrow.
flaffylally 6 months ago
Thank you for sharing. I have always been introverted and find it extremely challenging to make new friends since I was diagnosed, In the past I would make friends easily during manic phases but usually it was when I would abuse alcohol to be more outgoing. Now I know it is not good for me so I am lonely. Also lost most of my friends due to my previous actions while I was not medicated.I am anxious to go to group but your video really made me realize I'm lucky to have that option. thanx
tyscorp80 8 months ago
@tyscorp80 Making new friends is tough to do. I hope you are able to do well in your group. I'm still disappointed that the bipolar group in my community didn't work out :(
BipolarStateofBeing 8 months ago
me too I WANT to talk to and be with others BUT I DO NOT.Im quiet and goofy.lol. Yup I AM STUCK too.I think Im ...afraid.. IDK anymore..AA IS AWESOME But im scared? of them n I know them?????
Lisaserene1 9 months ago
@Lisaserene1 It can be so tough to make yourself get out there and do stuff when you are dealing with depression, anxiety or sometiimes just like problems. It is easier just to isolate yourself than to deal with going out places and interacting with others.
BipolarStateofBeing 9 months ago
me too I WANT to talk to and be with others BUT I DO NOT.Im quiet and goofy.lol. Yup I AM STUCK too.I think Im ...afraid.. IDK anymore
Lisaserene1 9 months ago
I want you to know that first of all you are not alone in this. I suffer terrible isolation due to my illness. It is a good day for me if i get out of the house. You are doing a good thing by reaching out in this way. Thank you.
persevere67 10 months ago
@persevere67 Thanks for watching. I always feel better when I get comments like yours, knowing I am not alone and that many suffer from the same things as me.
BipolarStateofBeing 10 months ago
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I know how it feels to feel Isolated.It's getting so bad I'm thinking about buying a wilson castsway volleyball to talk to.
riffranger 10 months ago
@riffranger Aw I'm sorry to hear that! Your comment did make me laugh a little though :)
BipolarStateofBeing 10 months ago
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riffranger 10 months ago
it's scary how everything you say in your videos feels like it was taken right out of my mind. knowing im not the only one feeling this way kind of helps. so many of my friends bailed on me after they found out i was bipolar. wish i could talk to you
platypussleepus 10 months ago
@platypussleepus I'm so glad my videos are helpful to you. If there is ever anything on your mind you'd like to talk about feel free to message me.
BipolarStateofBeing 10 months ago
@xtrizsel Those are some good suggestions. You are totally right too, I let fear hold me back from doing a lot of things that maybe I would enjoy doing.
BipolarStateofBeing 11 months ago
Those feelings you have now is mild depressive symptomes. It's normal for me to think like that when im down. Some bipolar people has a more high curve like you and don't apear to go so deep compared to other bipolar people. Others go deep in depression, and not so high in the manias.
For me it seems like a mild depression, and it's normal to think isolation then. I think your worst enemy is Mixed state that you aperingly had in Oktober last year,
Snabelfaen 11 months ago
@Snabelfaen I know, when I am in a regular state the being alone doesn't bother me so much, in fact I enjoy being alone a lot of the time. But when I am down it just seems like all I can think about is the fact that I'm dealing with it (mainly) alone.
BipolarStateofBeing 11 months ago
I am very isolated as well. I know that it has a lot to do with my bipolar disorder. I had the same friends for 15-30 years, but slowly they started to fall away. The friends, mainly 2 now are other bipolar people. The only problem with that is that with all of our problems with sleeping schedules and med side effects, it's hard to plan social get-togethers or plan things way in advance. I never know how I'll feel when it actually comes time to do things. I alienated a lot of my old friends by
updownjunkie 11 months ago
@updownjunkie I wish I had other bipolar friends. I was so looking forward to the bipolar group my counselor was putting together but then it fell through. So I'm really disappointed about that.
BipolarStateofBeing 11 months ago
it's time to stop the defeatist way of thinking. life is tough I have the misfortune of being both bipolar and dyslexia. My life in high school was a living hell, no real friends, no real romantic relationships, and I was casted in special ed classes considering my iq is above average. Dont self identify with this disorder and people love to use bipolar as an excuse for sucking in life, well get over it
superbrat87 11 months ago
@superbrat87 Well thanks for your kind words, I'll keep that in mind.
BipolarStateofBeing 11 months ago
I have no close friends, it sucks. My boyfriend of two years is moving away to his school instead of commuting now, and I will be an hour away from him almost. I feel like we will just drift away and he will be smashing other girls or something lol I don't know.
I feel so alone and no one understands me, and no one can help me. This sucks so bad. I've been this way my entire life. This is why I've been clinging so much to my boyfriends in the past I guess by I try so hard not to.
blahblahblahman 11 months ago
@blahblahblahman I think a lot of people tend to be that way with their significant other, I know my husband and I do everything together so when he is gone I definitely notice it a lot.
BipolarStateofBeing 11 months ago
thank you or this video:)
Fashionistafy 11 months ago
@Fashionistafy No problem :)
BipolarStateofBeing 11 months ago