For years I was abused by my brother. My parents knew he had anger issues but no one acknowledged that he was physically abusive. For years he punched me, locked me up & even strangled me. Im 17 & finally told someone & made sure my parents knew I was serious but they think I lied & he denies everything. I feel worthless & horrible. I look for success stories but they always have a support and I don't. What if I become a statistic? What if I am too messed up? I don't want this to be my history.
@schoolgeek2b You ARE your support, your the ONLY one that can stand up for yourself but you can surround yourself with people who DO love and care about you! I went to counseling, a therapist, and I talked with my family members about what was happening to me and mom. They all have good words to say, but the bottom line is it is up to YOU to stand up for what is right. YOUR NOT TOO MESSED UP! Look at me for God sake, after all this shit I went through I am now a mother, wife etc
@schoolgeek2b This is my history and it has made me a much stronger person...so remember that. GOOD for you for doing the right thing and telling someone, anyone..it isn't your problem anymore...let it sit on their concious
@fivejsmakesus5 Thank you so much. Sometimes its seems like so much and it is hard to deal with that it is also like i am suffocating in my past but I am now seeing a psychologist and she is really helping me. She puts things into a different perspective and helps me get to the place I need to be to become stronger. I just hope that when I am an adult I can be proud of myself and want I have done. I want to live for myself and not waiting for their apologies. Thank you so much.
@schoolgeek2b your VERY welcome! It sounds like your doing exactly what you should do...take baby steps, it seems like an endless process because you will always carry around the memory..the hurt. BUT, your going to be proud of yourself..I promise. I AM PROUD OF YOU!
Reading all of these comments knowing so many of us can relate to this just shows how strong we are. I can relate in so many ways..and there is always a breaking point. Always. I hope that anyone going through this can gain from it and you are amazing for sharing your story! I know that you are going to save someone's life with this.
Thank you for sharing this. It made me take a look at how I am and how God has wired me to be a fighter as well. I grew up in a similar circumstance where from the get go it wasnt fear but anger and love for my mother that made me feel 10 ft tall and bullet proof. Sometimes I blame myself that I could have just kept it to myself and made things easier for my mom bc Im sure I made things harder for her... But when your little you dont know the gray areas you just know right from wrong.
@Growwithglor Your welcome....I would do it all again just for that reason..so that hopefuly it helped someone...in anyway feel better, stronger and less alone! Most of all not feel guilty....it can feel like it is somehow my fault, even if it really wasn't. Thank you very much for watching & commenting....
I was a victim of child abuse. My grandmother who I lived with abused me and no one would do anything. It finally stopped when she died of cancer when i was 13. I totally understand how you feel.
@sissy27 I am so sad when I hear all these stories, yet something about it is so powerful in that I know more NOW that I am NOT alone.....your amazing, and I am thankful that you no longer have to deal with the abuse, but I also know about how it effects your mental state throughout your life...it is a daily struggle. Thank you so much for telling me about your story. HUGS!!!!
My dad too. At 13 I let him know I knew. I can still see the look on his face and I'm near 50. True about drawing the same type men. Trust is still hard for me. At my brother's wedding he looked at me and said, "I just needed to let it go." I had not even said a word. I think whenever he saw me the 13 yr old look in my eyes was still there. I saw him before he died. He was talking and joking but saw me and said he was tired and going to sleep. He went to sleep and I left the nursing home.
@curleeygurl wow....I hope you know how much it means to me that your sharing this with me...honestly, I hurt for you and know your pain...that father daughter relationship is so important. Thank you.....
Just wrote you about 4-5 long letters on facebook- You're an amazing and strong person- make videos about what ever you want, no apologies- we love you when you smile- and we love you when you cry- *hugs*
@TheLoveSiren damnit, now I am crying again....girl......you got me all kinds of emotional! I adore you.....Thank you. I can't say how much it means to me to have your support....
@ltlvl2 Thank you for saying that...and your very very welcome...I hope it does help out some people. I wish I could have seen a vid like this back then, just so I would know it was OK for me to stand up to him and defend what was right.
Thank you for sharing this Jen :) I know it took a lot of balls to make this video but I really appreciate that you talked about this. You're a strong and beautiful woman and I admire you!
@AlyssaJaneVolta and I do have a nice size set on me..lmao Thank you, it means so much to hear you say such nice things! I wish I could hug everyone on here! :-)
@PayTripper and your a pretty cool chic yourself! I enjoy your vids, love your personality...thank you for watching this...it was so painful, but I don't regret it at all! Everyone has a journey.....
Thank you for sharing your story, I can only imagine how difficult it was for you but I hope it helps those who are having the same experience. I appreciate your honesty and strength.
@bookgal63 Very difficult....I have been so weak today just from all the emotions it brought to surface all over again....even after this long, it still hurts just like it did that time when I was 11 or so. Thank you........seriously.
Im sorry you had to go through that but thanks for sharing! I also went through abuse but from my mom for 4yrs which in my opinion is kinda harder but its to complicated to try to explain :'( But I think I'll never be able to get over it or forgive her. Its really hard, especially with no one to understand :(
@msbeba1992 your welcome! Even though it wore me out...mentally and physcially to talk about it I felt ready to get it out on camera. I have been balling my eyes out since last night, but it is worth it. I feel good about it....being abused is bad enough. Being abused by your own parent changes the game in a way that you just can't wrap your brain around why...why would they feel ok with it.....I get it girl....I def understand....your not alone for sure!
when i was 15 i thought i met the love of my life a young dumb teenager i guess you could say
he was 17 at the time it started out great till the day i didint do something right so he hit me he was very very abuse with everything sex words and hiting
i was with him till the age of 17
then i met a guy who saved me from all of that
and im very thankful for that becouse to this day i dont know where i would be
@adrienne200 wow...so thankful to hear that you ended up NOT staying with him. So many girls think that they can't leave, or are fearful....it does change you. Tears me up to hear it, but really do appreciate you telling your story! (((HUGS)))
Thanks for sharing your experience with D. V. , I couldn't get through it without an ugly cry either. I really appreciate your strength and willingness to finish this video even though it put you back in those memories. Thank you, I hope you have a great day.
@allbuteverything this is the one video that I can't watch back just yet....I get into the first two mins and that is it....I am done. Crying like a damn fool! I appreciate the support from you, along with all the other WONDERFUL folks that commented so far....was very nervouse about doing this...but all in all it was good for my soul!
@beautifulu7 Thank YOU for watching it and being so wonderful about it...it is scary to talk about for fear of being judged...but I have got to live life honestly...no matter what!
So Sorry u had to experience that in ur life...tks for sharing...He needed to have a look in a mirror which he never did, maybe he was afraid of what he would have seen??..luv ya..
@joher525 HE was afraid of admitting he had done the most hurtful thing to those that he loved. Suppose he felt like if he didnt then it never happened.....just not that simple. love you Jo Ann.....thank you
@judybijou66 it took everything out of me, and all week just to get my mind right. I needed to cleanse my soul of it...thank you for watching it (ugly cry and all) lol
I had a x-boyfriend that was a abuser,In my family there was no abuse. I even have a scar in my face. My life was never the same.I have some rather strange reflections and I will not tolerate people yelling around me,while walking in the street I hate to have a person all the time behind me.I went into a deep depression because everything was kept quiet.When I achieve get out of that relationship I was free.I had to have a lot of psychological treatment but above all I had to forgive to be free.
@fivejsmakesus5 Forgiveness is for self healing,not the other person.Forgive is to admit you have the bravery and the courage to leave that behind and move forward.It is not easy, it's painful, it is an internal struggle but gives you the peace you need.
Do you really feel that an absuer can NEVER change??? I have to disagree with you there. Before I was born my dad would abuse my mom, he became a christian, (and even a pastor after many years) and he NEVER put his hands on my mom again after that. So I do believe a person can change, maybe I cant change them, but if they want to change as long as there is life there is HOPE for change!!!
@TheTuesday11 I said that you cant change a person, they have to change themselves. In my case, I thought I COULD change him...but I had to realize that if HE was not willing to do so it would NEVER happen. A person has to want it themselves and be willing to get help. My dad never did either so he took it to his grave.
I saw my parent fighting with butcher knives. Perhaps it's the reason why I never married. If you have to fight the world don't have refuge in your own home you are never safe. You can't fight the world and your family too.
Sorry to hear you had to see this at any age but even more so because you were 11. That changes your world and who you are forever....... Money is not the root of all evil, although THE LOVE of money is the root of all evil. Thank you for sharing your story, I am sure it will help others.
For years I was abused by my brother. My parents knew he had anger issues but no one acknowledged that he was physically abusive. For years he punched me, locked me up & even strangled me. Im 17 & finally told someone & made sure my parents knew I was serious but they think I lied & he denies everything. I feel worthless & horrible. I look for success stories but they always have a support and I don't. What if I become a statistic? What if I am too messed up? I don't want this to be my history.
schoolgeek2b 1 week ago
@schoolgeek2b You ARE your support, your the ONLY one that can stand up for yourself but you can surround yourself with people who DO love and care about you! I went to counseling, a therapist, and I talked with my family members about what was happening to me and mom. They all have good words to say, but the bottom line is it is up to YOU to stand up for what is right. YOUR NOT TOO MESSED UP! Look at me for God sake, after all this shit I went through I am now a mother, wife etc
fivejsmakesus5 1 week ago
@schoolgeek2b This is my history and it has made me a much stronger person...so remember that. GOOD for you for doing the right thing and telling someone, anyone..it isn't your problem anymore...let it sit on their concious
fivejsmakesus5 1 week ago
@fivejsmakesus5 Thank you so much. Sometimes its seems like so much and it is hard to deal with that it is also like i am suffocating in my past but I am now seeing a psychologist and she is really helping me. She puts things into a different perspective and helps me get to the place I need to be to become stronger. I just hope that when I am an adult I can be proud of myself and want I have done. I want to live for myself and not waiting for their apologies. Thank you so much.
schoolgeek2b 1 week ago
@schoolgeek2b your VERY welcome! It sounds like your doing exactly what you should do...take baby steps, it seems like an endless process because you will always carry around the memory..the hurt. BUT, your going to be proud of yourself..I promise. I AM PROUD OF YOU!
fivejsmakesus5 6 days ago
Reading all of these comments knowing so many of us can relate to this just shows how strong we are. I can relate in so many ways..and there is always a breaking point. Always. I hope that anyone going through this can gain from it and you are amazing for sharing your story! I know that you are going to save someone's life with this.
MarissaMakesUp 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing this. It made me take a look at how I am and how God has wired me to be a fighter as well. I grew up in a similar circumstance where from the get go it wasnt fear but anger and love for my mother that made me feel 10 ft tall and bullet proof. Sometimes I blame myself that I could have just kept it to myself and made things easier for my mom bc Im sure I made things harder for her... But when your little you dont know the gray areas you just know right from wrong.
katelyndn 1 month ago
Thanks sharing.. the more of us that speak of our experiences collectively the stronger all will become..Thank you...
Growwithglor 1 month ago
@Growwithglor Your welcome....I would do it all again just for that reason..so that hopefuly it helped someone...in anyway feel better, stronger and less alone! Most of all not feel guilty....it can feel like it is somehow my fault, even if it really wasn't. Thank you very much for watching & commenting....
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
I was a victim of child abuse. My grandmother who I lived with abused me and no one would do anything. It finally stopped when she died of cancer when i was 13. I totally understand how you feel.
sissy27 1 month ago
@sissy27 I am so sad when I hear all these stories, yet something about it is so powerful in that I know more NOW that I am NOT alone.....your amazing, and I am thankful that you no longer have to deal with the abuse, but I also know about how it effects your mental state throughout your life...it is a daily struggle. Thank you so much for telling me about your story. HUGS!!!!
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
My dad too. At 13 I let him know I knew. I can still see the look on his face and I'm near 50. True about drawing the same type men. Trust is still hard for me. At my brother's wedding he looked at me and said, "I just needed to let it go." I had not even said a word. I think whenever he saw me the 13 yr old look in my eyes was still there. I saw him before he died. He was talking and joking but saw me and said he was tired and going to sleep. He went to sleep and I left the nursing home.
curleeygurl 1 month ago
@curleeygurl wow....I hope you know how much it means to me that your sharing this with me...honestly, I hurt for you and know your pain...that father daughter relationship is so important. Thank you.....
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
Hugs <3
luloops 1 month ago
@luloops Hugs to you too girl!
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
Just wrote you about 4-5 long letters on facebook- You're an amazing and strong person- make videos about what ever you want, no apologies- we love you when you smile- and we love you when you cry- *hugs*
TheLoveSiren 1 month ago
@TheLoveSiren damnit, now I am crying again....girl......you got me all kinds of emotional! I adore you.....Thank you. I can't say how much it means to me to have your support....
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
Well I think after this we all need to do a little thrifting therapy, don't ya think!? Lol just kidding
cupcakemonster563 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
@cupcakemonster563 Damn straight! Where do you think I am going tomorrow?? lol
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
U r brave for sharing. Thanks for the helping people deal with this reality.
ltlvl2 1 month ago
@ltlvl2 Thank you for saying that...and your very very welcome...I hope it does help out some people. I wish I could have seen a vid like this back then, just so I would know it was OK for me to stand up to him and defend what was right.
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing this Jen :) I know it took a lot of balls to make this video but I really appreciate that you talked about this. You're a strong and beautiful woman and I admire you!
AlyssaJaneVolta 1 month ago
@AlyssaJaneVolta and I do have a nice size set on me..lmao Thank you, it means so much to hear you say such nice things! I wish I could hug everyone on here! :-)
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
You are a strong and beautiful woman. Truly an inspiration!
PayTripper 1 month ago
@PayTripper and your a pretty cool chic yourself! I enjoy your vids, love your personality...thank you for watching this...it was so painful, but I don't regret it at all! Everyone has a journey.....
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing your story, I can only imagine how difficult it was for you but I hope it helps those who are having the same experience. I appreciate your honesty and strength.
bookgal63 1 month ago
@bookgal63 Very difficult....I have been so weak today just from all the emotions it brought to surface all over again....even after this long, it still hurts just like it did that time when I was 11 or so. Thank you........seriously.
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
I love you! I'm sure you're a wonderful mother!
SuzanneSuzieSuz 1 month ago
@SuzanneSuzieSuz Thank you! LOVE YOU 2!! I sure am trying my best not to screw them up.....
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
Im sorry you had to go through that but thanks for sharing! I also went through abuse but from my mom for 4yrs which in my opinion is kinda harder but its to complicated to try to explain :'( But I think I'll never be able to get over it or forgive her. Its really hard, especially with no one to understand :(
msbeba1992 1 month ago
@msbeba1992 your welcome! Even though it wore me out...mentally and physcially to talk about it I felt ready to get it out on camera. I have been balling my eyes out since last night, but it is worth it. I feel good about it....being abused is bad enough. Being abused by your own parent changes the game in a way that you just can't wrap your brain around why...why would they feel ok with it.....I get it girl....I def understand....your not alone for sure!
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
when i was 15 i thought i met the love of my life a young dumb teenager i guess you could say
he was 17 at the time it started out great till the day i didint do something right so he hit me he was very very abuse with everything sex words and hiting
i was with him till the age of 17
then i met a guy who saved me from all of that
and im very thankful for that becouse to this day i dont know where i would be
it realy does change you
adrienne200 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
@adrienne200 wow...so thankful to hear that you ended up NOT staying with him. So many girls think that they can't leave, or are fearful....it does change you. Tears me up to hear it, but really do appreciate you telling your story! (((HUGS)))
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
aww cherub <3 you're such a trouper!!
Emannuelle24 1 month ago
@Emannuelle24 THANK YOU ;-)
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
Thanks for sharing your experience with D. V. , I couldn't get through it without an ugly cry either. I really appreciate your strength and willingness to finish this video even though it put you back in those memories. Thank you, I hope you have a great day.
T.
allbuteverything 1 month ago
@allbuteverything this is the one video that I can't watch back just yet....I get into the first two mins and that is it....I am done. Crying like a damn fool! I appreciate the support from you, along with all the other WONDERFUL folks that commented so far....was very nervouse about doing this...but all in all it was good for my soul!
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
Thank you so much sweet girl for sharing your experience with us.
beautifulu7 1 month ago
@beautifulu7 Thank YOU for watching it and being so wonderful about it...it is scary to talk about for fear of being judged...but I have got to live life honestly...no matter what!
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
So Sorry u had to experience that in ur life...tks for sharing...He needed to have a look in a mirror which he never did, maybe he was afraid of what he would have seen??..luv ya..
joher525 1 month ago
@joher525 HE was afraid of admitting he had done the most hurtful thing to those that he loved. Suppose he felt like if he didnt then it never happened.....just not that simple. love you Jo Ann.....thank you
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
<3
howardl0vr 1 month ago
@howardl0vr ;-) thx
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
I Love you Jeni
brewsuzannes 1 month ago
@brewsuzannes I love you Suz!
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
Thank you for this video. You're a brave person and it speaks of the wealth of your character.
judybijou66 1 month ago
@judybijou66 it took everything out of me, and all week just to get my mind right. I needed to cleanse my soul of it...thank you for watching it (ugly cry and all) lol
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
I had a x-boyfriend that was a abuser,In my family there was no abuse. I even have a scar in my face. My life was never the same.I have some rather strange reflections and I will not tolerate people yelling around me,while walking in the street I hate to have a person all the time behind me.I went into a deep depression because everything was kept quiet.When I achieve get out of that relationship I was free.I had to have a lot of psychological treatment but above all I had to forgive to be free.
Jeyika 1 month ago
@Jeyika I am so glad that you got OUT of that relationship. The forgive part for ME, was extremely hard....still not sure if I actually have! lol
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
@fivejsmakesus5 Forgiveness is for self healing,not the other person.Forgive is to admit you have the bravery and the courage to leave that behind and move forward.It is not easy, it's painful, it is an internal struggle but gives you the peace you need.
Jeyika 1 month ago
Do you really feel that an absuer can NEVER change??? I have to disagree with you there. Before I was born my dad would abuse my mom, he became a christian, (and even a pastor after many years) and he NEVER put his hands on my mom again after that. So I do believe a person can change, maybe I cant change them, but if they want to change as long as there is life there is HOPE for change!!!
TheTuesday11 1 month ago
@TheTuesday11 I said that you cant change a person, they have to change themselves. In my case, I thought I COULD change him...but I had to realize that if HE was not willing to do so it would NEVER happen. A person has to want it themselves and be willing to get help. My dad never did either so he took it to his grave.
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
I saw my parent fighting with butcher knives. Perhaps it's the reason why I never married. If you have to fight the world don't have refuge in your own home you are never safe. You can't fight the world and your family too.
12quillemall5321 1 month ago
@12quillemall5321 very true, if effects your entire life from that point on...majorly.
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago
Sorry to hear you had to see this at any age but even more so because you were 11. That changes your world and who you are forever....... Money is not the root of all evil, although THE LOVE of money is the root of all evil. Thank you for sharing your story, I am sure it will help others.
TheTuesday11 1 month ago
@TheTuesday11 your welcome!
fivejsmakesus5 1 month ago