About my hospitalization for bipolar

[MrGoodartist]

You are very sweet and suffering with mental illness myself I grinds you down and you want it to stop. In regard to your psychotic behavour which although odd to some don`t feel guilty for it if you do. I have had the same , my son got a kite caught in a phone line once and to say I overeacted is an under statement but at the time I thought it was normal behavour but after the event I realised I had shouted created the worst scenareos in my head etc and felt exhausted and drained + scared !

[thegreenbastard42011]

wow you are so hot, you seem pretty strong from the videos ive seen and i hope for the best result for you in the near future.

[xtremekajaker]

Thanks a lot for sharing. I also have the diagnosis bipolar, my stay in the psychiatry (5 weeks) was relatively helpful. As you point it, most helpful, was realising, that I am not alone, I found a good friend in the clinic, who is also bipolar. One positive result was the good medication (quilonorm ( 2 1/2 and seroquel (200 mg) against mania and cypralex (10-20) against depression. It took some months until I was stable, I stopped drinking alcool strictly and try to run 3-4 times a week.

[edge18]

a lot of writers n poets are bipolar, f scott fitzgerald, william blake, etc, so im in good company

[TheShospitali]

I tried to deal with it to, I did not want a label on me eaither, I went thirty years fighting the fight I could not battle alone, I had to seek help, I did not know what was wrong with me, the doctor told me, your thirty years old and had this all of your life and did not know what was going on, it's a wonder you did not hurt somebody, for years I tried to hide I had problems, I am thrity five. I am better today. The actor Patty Duke has Bi-Polar Disorder.

[imabirdlady]

i can remember being so depressed at times that i could not remain awake for 5 minutes . my weekends off i slept because i couldn't bear reality . i thought about hurting myself and others constantly . i lived with depression every day for a lot of years . i lost touch with reality . my behavior was very unusual . my thoughts bizarre . several times a day i would have severe depressive episodes .

[MrDeliriumtremens1]

i like your utubes lovey... i had the police drag me into hospital where i was diagnosed with b if risperidone makes you ambivalent it's probably an early side effect cause it did strange things in my head too.. take care but be patient with meds

[BuySellRentInvest]

I want to thank you so much for sharing. You are brave and you will be helping so many people with your story. You are blessed and you are being a blessing.Keep giving light to those who are setting in darkness. (Luke 1:79) Peace be unto you.

[Voltronic9]

the people in the hospitals make you do things you don't want 2 do..in the first hospital i went 2 4 years ago, i wanted 2 be alone and lieing on my bed, and they made me go out 2 the group area, they would not leave me 2 rest.....and both hospitals make you be in the group ones they want you in, some of us are their 2 get rest and medication/be helped, not 2 sit around each other talking....and they had only 1 fuckin tv, i got introuble 4 watching jerry springer, oh well i kept on watching it!

[PHILACEDESIGN]

walk a mile in mental illness--u will walk a mile in hell--occasionally the darkness lifts and heaven shines through. i have rapid cycle bp - ocd and pts - hange on and hold on - peace be with all suffering the silent walk - u will make it.

[EugeniaLoli]

Have you tried a ketogenic diet (at around 25 to 30 gr of carbs daily?). Apparently, a lot of people with various mental illnesses can get off meds within 6 months time on this diet.

[JustABitchyCancer]

The people that you weren't sure why they were there probably had borderline personality disorder. That's what i have and was diagnosed several times with bipolar. I'm saying they probably had that because when i would be in the hospital and nurses, etc would see me, they would be like "why are you here?" lol

[JustABitchyCancer]

we know how to rage, etc in one place and then if we HAVE to act normal we can pull it off pretty well. that's what i recently realized.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@JustABitchyCancer Yeah I think a lot of people were dealing with depression because they just seemed down and most of them did not want to discuss what they were going through with the groups.

[Voltronic9]

@BipolarStateofBeing when i was in the hospitals (ive been 2 2 diffrent hospitals 4 years ago) and in the first 1 i had my self admitted and they took me off my meds cold turkey then i had a se-sure their, then after 72 hours i got the fuck out of their.....then i attempted suicide in the middle of the night at home, my parents took me 2 a diffrent hospital and the thing is the workers at the hospitals don't give a fuck about you or how you feel, they treat us like monkeys with guns

[dwellatlanta]

Hey there, not to be rude or devalue your topics and post, but you are one beautiful women... Good luck with your treatment. I am in the early stages of figuring out mine.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@dwellatlanta Well thank you. :) I hope you get the treatment that you need and all works out for you.

[shredrix]

ive been in the 'loonie bin' as well for BP :p

[ryw06]

I learned that there are so many celebrities with Bipolar. Even so many that I actually like. Like ex, Catherine Zeta Jones and Kurt Cobain. I was diagnosed bipolar on August 14,2011. Sucks and is embarrassing.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@ryw06 Don't feel too bad. It's nothing to be embarrassed about. It just takes time to deal with the diagnosis, I have found.

[balbanes1]

@ryw06 Abraham Lincoln suffered from bipolar disorder, many successful people have Bipolar Disorder, it is not a death sentence, my group facilitator used to deem it as the Caddilac of mental illnesses, it is better than having unipolar depression or schizophrenia which can be far more debilatating.

[AkathisiA101]

The Citizens Commission on Human Rights (CCHR) is a nonprofit mental health watchdog, responsible for helping to enact more than 150 laws protecting individuals from abusive or coercive practices. CCHR has long fought to restore basic inalienable human rights to the field of mental health, including, but not limited to, full informed consent regarding the medical legitimacy of psychiatric diagnosis, the risks of psychiatric treatments,and the right to refuse any treatment considered harmful.

[45lollipop]

my half brother is bipolar

[frenchness123]

What you said at the beginning is what I'm feeling right now. I think that I'm bipolar, but I don't know. I feel like I have symptoms of hypomania or mania, but I feel depressed alot. I don't want to seek treatment because I'm afriad of the stigma of being diagnosed with it, but there are nights like tonight where I don't get any sleep at all, and my mind is running a mile a minute. If you could go back, would you have sought out treatment sooner rather than later?

Thanks for your videos!

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@frenchness123 Yes, if I could go back in time I would not have waited as long as I did. I think that is why things progressed to a point where I was totally out of control, because I waited so long and went untreated. Now, I found a med that works for me and I am doing great. I have not had any episodes in 8 months and I am the most stable I have been in years. My advice to you would be to seek out treatment if you think that it will help you.

[madmanatsea]

@BipolarStateofBeing

I want you to got to Wikipedia and search NMDA Receptor.....Next scroll down to near middle you'll see Modulators and Mg++ so read about Magnesium glycinate and magnesium Taurinate and depression.

Aspartate is the most abundant excitatory neurotransmitter in brain, and it attaches to NMDA Receptor which is CONTROLLED by the magnesium in your brain......YOUR BRAIN GETS MESSED UP WHEN THE MAGNESIUM IN IT GETS DEPLETED FROM LACK OF SLEEP, STRESS, POOR DIET, ETC..

TAKE CARE!

[madmanatsea]

@frenchness123

WOW!

I bet you have some terrible ANXIETY and even PANIC ATTACKS with such high LEVEL of excitatory neurotransmitters in your brain. This cycle is really hard to break when you don't get adequate sleep because the body repairs itself when you sleep...Get Magnesium Glycinate or Magnesium Taurinate in body pronto!

I've given my son Folate, Niacin, B-100, Magnesium, Triple strengthFfish oil,etc., so TRIPPLE the dosage of each since your brain needs these desperately!

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@stillhippie Did it come off as romantic? It wasn't that way at all, totally platonic. He had schizophrenia very badly and was not at a very high level of functioning. But he was the first person I ever really connected with as far as dealing with mental illness so he really made an impact on me, and I think I did the same for him. I will never forget the night when he told me "I'm glad you're here, because now I have someone to talk to". I felt the very same way.

[IChoseTheRedPill]

i was hospitalized 3 times while in psychotic states... the other patients were all very cool, so were the nurses. all 3 times i signed myself out against hospital / doctors advice... i felt together enough and in touch to be free in the world... it was during the second stay i was diagnosed schizoaffective... i've always complied with my medication even though it's not entirely effective with my voices... the lithium and lamictal don't manage mood swings completely... hope this helps...

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@IChoseTheRedPill Everyone was really nice during my hospital stay but I guess I felt disappointed because I would have liked at least some sort of counseling or personal one on one time which I didn't really receive. I've also been compliant with meds since I've been out, at times they were not helpful but now I'm doing a lot better.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@MsDelle1 I'm glad to hear that too, being in the hospital is certainly not a fun experience at all.

[riffranger]

I remember when I was at a mental ward in Cal. Some guy was going around at night licking door knobs.Then he stripped down and tried to get in my bed.I yelled and they took him away.Very freaky

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@riffranger Wow, that is strange, what an experience. I didn't have anyone doing really odd things while I was in the hospital, but also it is a small hospital and there were only 10 people there at most, the majority of them were there for depression. No one at all was going through the same things I was.

[persevere67]

Have you ever had a total nervous breakdown? This was due to childhood trauma. I have had five of them, they were all terrifying experiences, in which my reality was totally deconstructed, i entered into a state of mind where my every thought became reality for me, i lost all sense of myself and i became highly delusional, i spent a total of 2 years hospitalized. They were painful but cleansing experiences. I have not been able to work for years because i still suffer daily.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@persevere67 I'm sorry to hear of your suffering. I think for many reaching the point to where you are hospitalized is the ultimate low. I know that was the case for me. Not low as in depression but low as far as being totally out of control of myself.

[CthulhuChick666]

would you say going to the hospital would be beneficial for someone you cannot get a diagnosis or cannot function? For myself, [not seeking your idea of a diagnosis], I've been diagnosed with Bipolar Type 1 but also have periods of psychosis so it may be Schizo-Affective Disorder. Unfortunately I do not have any psych doctor due to no transportation. My boyfriend has been urging me to go into the hospital if the psychosis gets bad and i cant get a doctor. Anyhow, interesting to hear your story.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@CthulhuChick666 If the psychosis gets bad than it might be a good idea to get into the hospital and be seen. But, that being said the hospital is mainly just for stabilization, so once stable (supposedly) they just refer you to outside help like a psychiatrist anyway. If at all possible it is best to deal with it as an outpatient, in my opinion.

[CthulhuChick666]

sometimes people get diagnosed with depression but actually have bipolar. Mainly because the mania goes unnoticed esp. if its Bipolar Type 2.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@CthulhuChick666 Yes, I was told I had depression as a teenager but even back then I knew it had to be more than that because it was cyclical and always returned again no matter what I did. It took me a long time to realize it was bipolar and seek help.