my dad killed himself on 18 mart 2010.. missing him so much. i dont know why he did it. but it hurts so much. sometimes i feel that i cant even breathe. trying ti live with this pain is too much for me and i cant handle it. though i am always smiling deep inside every single moment i live is like a torture. why dad why? couldnt you imagine what i would be without you.. look at me now.. im not "me" anymore.. Im so sorry for your losts friends.. so sorry..
my love to all of you, Ive seen what this pain has done to my best friend, her step dad, who was like her real dad killed him self a few years ago now, such a wonderful man, and no one knew he was in the slightest down, He drank weed killer, and still nearly every day i watch a silent tear fall down her beautiful face and the mention of his name. He really was the perfect dad to her,
Rest in peace andrew, em isnt angry, just wishes she was your rock, like you were for her. smile down on her.
Nikki & all, I too am so sorry for your loss, the pain you feel. He is with you, and I'm sure deeply regretful that he didn't know how those he left would suffer his loss of life with them.
Be angry with the disease, its awful, its shocking, its cruel, besides the suffering of the recipient is the family & friends left behind after senseless suicides; filled with pain, anger. Depression is what kills; a mental illness, if the stigma wasnt so great, men who suffer in silence may seek help.
My dad committed suicide when I was 2, now I am getting married in 3 months and all the hurt, anger and bitterness is coming back. I know its not my fault, but I have missed out on so much like I have never had a father daughter dance, and I have no dad to walk me down the aisle. It sucks but when a parent or anyone that is close to you kills themselves, it is an everyday battle to cope, it will get better with time, this I promise.
Guys, as a parent I know mothers/fathers can get to a stage where they are overwhelmed. Please know that it's not something you did or didn't do, it was just something your mom.dad couldn't cope with right then are they probably felt they were doing right by you.... I'm sorry for all your losses xxx
@achille935 I am sorry to hear you are in so much pain. It hurts so very much. One just feels so robbed, abandoned with suicide. It is difficult to come to terms with.... I think though we do carry on and learn to live with the pain, we are never the same. Know that others do understand and care ((hugs of understanding))
@achille935 My daddy left us when I was 2 yrs. old....never understood or knew why. Here I am, some 55 years later with a hole in my heart that I cannot fill.....
Sweetheart your Dad would be devastated if he thought you blamed yourself. Sometimes circumstances happen and adults think they're kids would be better off without them, but it's in their minds cos their minds are screwed up. They don't think of the aftermath cos normally people who commit suicide are in a place where they don't think rationally....so sorry but I bet your dad loves you from afar xxx
@missstunna2011 oh that just breaks my heart! I hope you will be able to find a measure of peace and KNOW it was not your fault. You were only ten!! No, it wasn't your fault at all!! It is called survivors guilt, and I truly hope you can overcome it. You are in my thoughts ♥♥
My dad killed himself when i was 7. I'm 19 now and it's made me bitter. I feel like he cheated me out of time that my sister's got to spend with him. December was the 12 year anniversary...I didn't even get to go to his grave
@Ray021Halliwell I can understand why you would feel this way. I am an adult and I still feel cheated and robbed. We had a whole life to live, so much to share.. and that was taken from us. I am sorry you are hurting and I hope you can find a way to forgive him, if not his actions, so that you may find some peace.
@GlassOfWater87 My dad died exactly one year before that 12-04-09</3 I watched him take one of his last breaths...still remember it like it was yesterday.
Im 13 my dad was murdered whn i was two . This made me cry soo much i miss my dad soo much . They never found the ppl who killed hom either. It hurts me sooooo bad everyday not to kno what hving a dad wuz like i wonder and i cry
My dad died of brain hamrage...in hospital.....I have remembered....how we lost him...it was very painful......this video express my feelings......what happened with me........I miss u a lot daddy....
My dad wasn't suicide . He passed away because the car accident. This video made me think of myself in the day he died. It express my feeling so well. I love you and miss you so much Dad.
very good video..I understand the pain i lost my father to suicide as well i was six at the time not a day goes by that i don't miss him and wounder how things might of been.. but i also believe he is watching me and guiding me through my life as I do believe your father is with you.. I do have to say your video has some very strong feelings to it and I admire that not many can make a video with such feelings to it.. I wish you the best and hopefully this New Year will bring happiness and joy
@justinlover97 yes, yes it does. Because no matter how much pain you know they must have been in... no matter how much you know they love you.... it doesn't change the fact that they "chose" to leave you :(
thank you for wrighting back to me but my dad killed him self as well and it rally hurts im only 13 and this sunday coming up it will be new years day that means it has been a year i wont to be with him but i know he wont like me to do that and it dont get better xxxxx
@strandmotors100 It does hurt, it hurts a lot. The first year anniversary was very difficult for me, my heart goes out to you. I remember so well feeling it will never get better, that my life would never be " ok " again. It will never be what it once was, but it will get "better" than it feels right now.
@strandmotors100 My heart aches for the pain I know you are in, if you need someone to talk to, please write me. If you could find the strength to join a survivors of suicide group or online forum, that could help a lot to. It helps so much to talk with people who truly understand your pain. ((big hugs of understanding))
@strandmotors100 i lost my dad joseph barajas this year 2012 january 3 of suiside,.and im 12 so im new with this i dont know how to feel ,but it sucks, i know how you feel .I just dont know why he'd do that becouse hes not that kind of person and as his only daughter.he was a very hard working man and always helped people.i wish i told him i love him .thelast thing i heard before he killed himself was no stop im sorry i love
@strandmotors100 My father died of cancer when I was 2, I can't imagine what I would've done if I had come home and heard he had killed himself...I'm sure he loved you so much, time will help heal the hurt, but there will always be that hole....I'm sorry
@strandmotors100 so sorry i lost my daddy by a drunk driver and i was turnning 8 and it stll hurts and im going on 47 june 1st but remember its ok to talk to him tc god bless
I'm so sorry for your loss, my dear. If you ever need to talk, I know we don't know each other, but please, please feel free to message me. I am a great listener and advice giver. Much love, Light, and many Angel Blessings to you and all involved. Your father is watching over you my dear xx <3
@Nikki1of7: No thanks needed hun. I'll always be here for you if/when you need me. I love your video, it made me cry. I have never lost a loved one to suicide, but I have lost loved ones, and the pain never goes away. It has been 3 years since I lost my Great Nana to natural causes, but as I said, the pain never goes away. It is still fresh in my heart 3 years later. This upcoming March 16, my parents anniversary, will be the 4 year anniversary of her death :(
My daddy commited suicide 16 years ago i was daddys little girl there isnt a day that goes by that i dont think about him its hard thinking of the pain he was going through and he felt he could not talk to anyone about his feelings maybe if he had he might still be here today....Love and Miss you so much daddy xxxx
@1981colleen It is so hard to think about the pain they must have been in, to know they saw suicide as their only option... I am sorry for your pain, and your loss ((hugs))
@Nikki1of7 Its very hard it rips my heart apart to think he was in so much hurt that he had to end his life , But i will never hate him or feel anger towards him because some people just find it hard to cope and god only takes the best thanku for ur kind words xx
My dad committed suicide when i was only five, now im 18 and its still hard to talk about. My mom and I went to see his grave last weekened and I couldnt help but cry there. The only answer i want to know is why he did it and it hurts even more that i will not get the answer. My older brother is looking like him each and every day, I always wonder what my life would be if my daddy was still here.. Miss you daddy, love you!
when I watched this movie I see myself in the same story. I didn't have a chance to say goodbye and to say how much I love him. I still sad and cry. Most of all I miss you so much Dad.
My Dad committed suicide in September 2011. The pain is so intense and raw. Nothing is the same without him. He is in my thoughts and prayers daily. This Thanksgiving and Christmas season are very hard and painful to get through. I Love and Miss You Dad.
My father committed suicide when I was 1 year old, and throughout my life, I've never felt so alone without my father. I miss him so much.... I recently lost my friend to sucicde which is making everything so much worse and I never thought I was going to have to go on without people in my life that were so important to me, I wish I was able to talk to my father, to remember what his voice sounded like, his smile. That's all I want</3
Dear ones there's something u need to know death has knocked upon my door & I am ready to go.I have no strength left within me to stay & fight & I have no desire to,now I've seen the light.For the light of death is brighter than the light of day&death's sweet voice is calling me calling me away.So dear ones very soon I know that u will weep,as my body falls into an everlasting sleep.But read these words I've written once again& u will see,I welcomed death with loving arms-it holds no fear for me
@Nikki1of7 Thanks for the concern. This was the poem on the back of my dad's funeral announcement (that paper they have by the guest book). Of course I had to paraphrase it but I thought it was probably exactly how he felt....how many felt. THanks again for your concern, but I am ok...just miss my dad. 8 months today :(
@drayvin31 Whew, I have to say you had me a bit worried..... it is a lovely poem, thank you for sharing it with us. I am sorry for your loss and I know the holidays makes it all the harder. Keeping you in my thoughts ((hugs))
@raleighman3000 What you say is true...he needed help. But it still feels like I failed him. I know it isn't my fault but these feelings will never go away. All I can do now is remember him when he was happy. Thank you for your kind words. :)
My son's father committed suicide two years ago, new year's day. My son was four and I have no idea what he's feeling. I only hope when he comes to me with questions I will have the answers.
@aj0825 It is never easy, but I do think it is a tiny bit easier for ones so young. They don't have the memories, nor will they suffer the survivors guilt that haunt so many of us left behind. I am sorry for your loss, I am sure you will say just the right thing ♥
@Nikki1of7 I lost my dad when i was seven to suicide and i am now 16. Please don't say it makes it easier, i personally think it makes it harder. I dream about who he was and who he could have been 8 years later. For the ones who lost there parents or a loved one especially to suicide is very difficult.
@horsesfly101 I am sorry if I offended you in any way. If you read the post you will see I was replying about a toddler, one who wouldn't retain the memories that say someone of your age 7, or older would have. Suicide is never easy on the ones left behind... I am sorry for your loss
@aj0825 pre-empt it. talk about how you are feeling feeling about it personally and ask him about his feelings. The worst thing you can do is say or do nothing. Don't wait. Otherwise your son will become afraid of the topic and afraid of his feelings. crying is the best healing release you can provide for himm. Guaranteed even at 4 years old, he blames himself. all he knows is daddy isn't here, so I'm not wanted.
@Sethamessiah Seth, I am glad you are still with us, truly I am. I am thankful when it seemed you couldn't hold on for you, you were able to hold on for your son. It is no legacy to leave ones children. Please, please, please, try to reach out for help. Things always get better. There is medication to help, and a whole world of people who would help if you just reach out. I am one of them, write me any time! You are couragous ((hugs))
my dad took his own life in 1997 , i still miss him so much ,,,,, there are some things dad , that a daughter will always understand , so why didnt you reach out to me and let me hold your hand :-( loved and missed xxxx
@NecroKitty103 it is so hard isn't it, wondering why they didn't reach out to us. Didn't they know how much we love them, that we would have done just anything to help them. A dear friend said something that helped me cope a bit-he said I needed to remember that my Dad wasn't "rational" when he killed himself, that at that moment he saw no other way. It breaks my heart, but I do believe it true. It just isn't about us, it was just more than they could take at that moment. So sorry for your loss
@LilMama5171994 I think even though we know we shouldn't, most of us do try to find a way to make it our fault. I am not sure why we must torture ourselves this way. As time marches on, as the pain lessons a tiny bit, we can see more clearly through the pain, then we are able to see that it was NOT our fault. Not even a teeny bit. You on the other hand were only one, there was no way you could have helped your dear Dad. Hold him close in your heart, he is still there with you ♥
Someone suffering from a suicidal depression is not thinking that they are worth anything, or that their passing will truly affect anyone. They feel numb and worthless to the world. Trust me, I'm the married father of a beautiful 4 yr old and I have been to the absolute edge of my own mortality this year. With medication and a psychiatrist I am more stable.
My little sisters dad committed suicide almost two years ago... Its been the hardest thing ive ever been threw. He wasnt just her father but had been my best friend since i was 7. I was 16 when he did it and my sister was 3. It still hurts everyday... I would do anything to have him back.... We miss him so much and hes missing the only thing he ever wanted in life.. His little girl!!! :(
@jetjet2012 I'm sorry to hear about your loss. Its important to realize that someone suffering from that kind of depression is not thinking straight at all. They just desperately want the pain to stop, and they can't even process the idea that anyone will even miss them. I'm a Dad and my daughter is my world, but I've struggled this year with some really desperate "worthless" feelings due to serious depression. I take a med and I talk to a shrink to keep steady.
@strandmotors100 I am very sorry to hear about your Dad. You are far too young to try to cope with such a loss. My heart goes out to you. Open up and talk to your Mom and anyone else you love and trust. I know it is hard to talk about, but getting your emotions out truly does help. Keep talking, it will get better ((hugs))
@strandmotors100 My dad killed himself when I was 10, so it was five years ago. I wish I can say it will get better, but I haven't experienced it. I still think about him everyday and as I got older I started thinking about it more. I was diagnosed with depression when I was 13. Two years later and I still have it, but I think about those who love me and those who I love. I want to be with my dad so much, but I know that he wants me to stay here with my friends and family. It might get better.
i miss you so much, dad.. i'm so sorry i didn't get to say goodbye.. you were my best friend.. why did this have to happen to us? it's been three and a half years, and i still can't believe you're gone.. i wish i could've stopped you.. i love and miss ♥♥♥♥♥
my daddy was my everything i lost him oct 9th 2010 he was my hero everyone in my family left me exsept him he was always there he never let me down no matter what! i love you w.c.m!! missed but not forgotten
This made cry so hard cause I lost my father to suicide on September 21 2011. I hadn't seen him in nearly 10 years and we only talked one time to try to patch things up but he didn't want me. Even though we weren't close I still loved him even though he didn't love me cause he was my Dad and the person who helped bring me into this world....I wish he was still alive so we could have alteast tried for a third time to fix things between us
@Waluigisgirl1 i'm so sorry about your loss you will be in my prayers hun i know how you feel i grew up with out a mom or daddy i only seen my daddy 2 times in my l1fetime and when my son was born he passed away and i miss him so so much it hurts i know
@Waluigisgirl1 Don't blame yourself ever for what he did. People who have depression and kill themselves are in terrible mental pain. Its very hard to describe. I'm sure he loved you, but he was in pain and just wanted it to stop. I love my daughter totally, but I almost hurt myself this year because of depression, and I had to force myself to get help. He loved you, he was just a broken person who couldn't get the proper help, or who was just too tired to try anymore.
I never even got to no my father he left when i was just a little baby i miss him and even though i dont no him and i no enough about him to no he is a jerk i love him
I still have my dad. But i don't know him anymore. He is not that father i love and respect. He is a stranger and it's so hard to love him. I hope he find himself again♥ Daddy, I love you♥
@JulieStephanie100 just tell him you love him and maybe he may come back to the dad that used to be. because being alone without your parents is the hardest thing to do every single day. good luck juile.
@JulieStephanie100 julie, I agree.... what I wouldn't give to just hold my Dad one more time, to tell him how much I love him... make the first move, maybe you can help him find himself again ((hugs))
my father died not even two months ago and im finding it VERY hard to cope with loosing him...I wish that I couldve said alot of things to him before he died,he meant so much to me,I wish I wouldve told him this more often and I wish I couldve gotten the chance to say goodbye and hug him one last time and make sure he knows I love him...I would give anything in the world to hug him and tell him I love him one last time..I miss him so much :'( I love you daddy one day we'll meet again..♥ R.I.P
@RockerKidd205 *oh tears*... that feeling never goes away..... I think we will always long for just one more chance to hold them and tell them how very much we love them. He knows you love him ♥
@enem612 I am so sorry for you loss.... so fresh, I can remember those first few weeks like they just happened. I am sorry for the pain I know you are in. If it helps at all, it does get better. It will NEVER be what it once was, and you will always miss him... but it will be better than it is right now. ((hugs))
I just wanted to let you know that this video is so beautiful. I am doing a project for one of my classes in school on suicide and I found this video to add... I hope you don't mind. This absolutely touched my heart. God Bless you. You're so strong.
@BethieandRachie09 I don't mind at all, perhaps it will help someone hold on..... I am glad your school is doing suicide awareness, it is vital. Bless you too ♥
i lost my dad july 11,2011 and im only 12.. he was a cop and was shot on the line of duty along with his K9 partner shadow but his K9 survived.. his dog means everything to me and i wouldnt do anything to give him up :(
@ashleyshadowbuddy5 Ashley, I am so very sorry for the loss of your Dad... just 12, that has to be so diffucult. my heart goes out to you ((big hugs))
I lost my dad to his hand 2 years ago. 5 days before my high school graduation. Word spread quickly, everyone at school knew. The mask I had to wear as I walked down to receive my diploma, only to look up and see his empty seat I can't begin to describe. I know it's not my fault, but God help me if the pain isn't still there. The years I need him the most and he's not there. All my questions, all my fears....and all the times I should have said thank you and love you...now just words to nothing.
@EarthboundErik007 So sorry for your loss. People that kill themselves are in a horrible place, and they are not thinking (can;t think) about what the effect will be on those left behind. Its like a mental cancer that hijacks normal thinking. I've been to the edge this year before I got help, and I'm a Dad who adores his child, so trust me: its not anyones fault, its a disease.
@EarthboundErik007 Not words to nothing... you can still let your Dad know how much you love him. I believe our loved ones can hear us. It may seem a bit corny to some, but I don't care... I talk to my Dad every day! It has helped me cope....I am very sorry for your loss.
My dad killed himself when I was 10. It's been 5 years and I still can't get over it. It hurts everyday. I have always thought that it was my fault. I love him with all of my heart. My mom never wanted my twin brother and I around him cause of his depression and bi-polar. So I never really got to spend time with him. When I was 6 my mom, brother, and I moved 2 hours away and my dad didn't have a car to come and see us and my mom didn't want to drive up and see him that often. :( I miss you daddy
@SAIRRAAH y'all are all strong people and i admire y'all. i know see how much i love my dad and think about never wanting to lose him, i sorry, but i think ur a strong person
@SAIRRAAH It sounds like your Dad was in a lot of mental anguish. I[m a loving Dad, but I've been in some really close calls this year with my own depression. I think your Dad was in a painful world of his own, and could not even imagine that he would be missed. Its important to think of depression as an actual disease, a disease that was not being treated effectively in his case. Normal thinking goes out the door. ....I'm sorry for your loss...
@deidaraluvr99 Sorry for your loss. The why of suicide can;t really be answered, because the answer lives in a victims inner world of loneliness and pain, a world created by the disease known as clinical depression. Suicide is not rational, its just a desperate attempt to stop crushing feelings of worthlessness. The victim often feels that they are actually helping their loved ones by ending their life; its all part of the short-circuited thinking that tried to take me as well. Stay strong.
i lost my dad to suicide 23 years ago , he shot himself with a shotgun at park, he use to take us too. It been a really long time but the ?'s and the wondering. Didn't he know his baby twin would need him and loved him. I guess not. He was drunk and had taken pain pills cause he had a very bad back and he didn't want to be in a wheelchair for the rest of his life. So he left and i can only hope he is in Heaven watching over me and waiting for me to get there. I love and miss you Daddy
My dad died 6 months ago november 18th 2011. I really wish he was still here. i heard the gunshot. me and my disabled step sister were the only 2 home when it happened. He was drunk. And thought no body loved him. it was my fault of three of his own children, i was the only one living with him. a rarely told him i loved him, and nows he is gone. i cry my self to sleep. im only asleep 15 minutes until the nightmare begins, i wake up, and i cant go back to sleep. and now, all i can do is miss him.
@loveyouloveme97 Listen, its not your fault. People who commit suicide are in a horrible place that is built by the disease called depression, and nothing anyone says will help them unless its a psychiatrist, and that takes time. Anti-depressants often work, but not for everyone. He loved you; he just wanted his pain to end and was not thinking clearly. Its a mental cancer that hijacks all thought; I've been close enough to that feeling, and am now in treatment. Sorry for your loss....
Cant belive it has been more then a year. Seems just like yesterday we were jamming in the trcuk going to my softball games<3 I didnt get to say goodbye. God took you to fast. I miss u so much dad. I wish you were still here.
Losing your dad at 13 is the worst thing in the world
itll be 3 years on novemeber 11th of him being gone :'( he killed himself and i miss him so much. i knew something had been wrong the night before he did it but i didnt think he would have ever done that :( i love and miss u dad so much!
@ashton081000 it's been 3 1/2 years for me, it is still so shocking to think about. I am sorry for your loss and I hope you have found a measure of peace ♥
its been four years since my dad hung himself we were more like best friends than father and son i still question if there was anything that i could have done different just knowing that my son will grow up without the most awesome man alive hurts but things happen for a reason thanks for this video it was really touching
@lilitalians I don't think that feeling will ever truly go away.. I think we will always wonder, was there anything I could have done? The questions haunt me daily..... I hope you are finding your way through the pain and that your memories of your Dad bring you comfort ♥
I lost my Father to suicide 11 months ago. The pain I feel is almost unbearable some days, some moments. I understand why this song touched you. I would give anything for one last opportunity to tell him how much he is loved and how much I need him in my life and to please not leave me. I miss him terribly.
My Daddy Killed Himself, about 5 months ago </3, he has always been my hero and always will be until the day i die, there not one day i dont think about my dad, r.i.p daddy i love you
@frikinzero My email is bamagirl1119@gmail.com if you ever need to talk. My daddy also died in the same way that merhippy's boyfriend did and she/he is right..You ARE wanted and worth it and special. Again, if you want or need someone to talk to or just someone to cry to, please email me because you are loved and would be missed I know...
@frikinzero Honey, I too am a survivor of suicide. My daddy committed suicide four years ago and many times since then I too have thought of how much easier it would be to leave. I am still here due only to the fact that I could never put my boys or my friends and family through the utter pain both physically and mentally that I still feel today as well as the many people who talked and loved me thru those dark moments and like Nikki I would love to be here for u during that moment. My email
alot like everyone, i cried, more like poured tears .__. i never cared much for lion king but it touched me /; i lost my daddy at 2, and im 15 now, its been 13 years october 8th and i made a vide for him, when i was watching this i saw this on the related videos and i had to watch, ive cried for years wondering what it wouldv been like if he wee still alive .__. im truely sorry for your loss, and im sure your father was a wonderful man, iknow you and i, and everyone will see their fathers 1day
<3 <3 <3 Right now I wish I was the tinman myself. Right now a man that has been like a father to me is in the hospital.He is laying in a hospital bed right now. So I'm going to listen to my music and for once pray to the lord- that the man's soul in the hospital- is not needed more in heaven then he is here. I have not seen him becuase I am in college right now, but he is in my heart my soul and my thoughts!<3 <3 <3 I love him dearly and pray he knows that even now <3 <3 <3
All of us can relate, we have lost our dad to suicide, so if your thinking about leaving us, dont, we have enough dadless people, no matter what someone loves you<3
Im a dad and ive thought about suicide so many time. Being without my daughter is the hardest thing i've ever done. But i no her mother will ruin my daughters life if im not around. N so i have to be strong for my daughter n no that i have to stick around for when she needs me. Her mother was selfish and so was her mother. My x went thro bad things in life cause she nevr had a father dont understand how can she do it to her own daughter break up a family n home. Life sux without my lil gurl...
@nvmh2o You got it right. You have to be strong for your daughter. I have problems with depression, but I take a med and I see a shrink cause my 4 yr old needs me. (I'm still married and my wife is ok). Keep it together and stay in your kids life, even if you have to take your ex to court.. If your ex is wierd, your daughter will figure it out soon enough (dont slag on her mom, she'll resent you for that). I'm keeping you in my thoughts, dude, stay cool...
My father commited suicide last year on December 23rd. He passed away on December 27th.i spent every minute with him hoping that maybe he would respond to me when i told him i loved him. he couldnt because he only had 7% brain function left when they got to him. I often wonder if he knew how much i needed him and if he knew how much he was my best friend. This has been the most difficult year of my life. I love and miss him sooo much. <3
My daddy committed suicide last year i was 11 now i'm nearly 13 and i miss him everyday. I wonder all the time will I ever feel better, be happy, be whole ever again? i miss him so much. This video is soo awesome its helping me so much to cope and to try and let go thanks so much for making it. I miss you dad so much this video asks all the questions im asking... Was it my fault i don't actually know i miss him soo much i feel like none of my friends understand... I duno wat to do? thanks nikki.
I lost my dad when I was 10 and I was the last one to see him. For years I blamed myself and thought I should have known and done something. Ive finally come to terms with what he did and that there was nothing I could have done. In a few weeks it will be eleven years since he died. I still have times that are REALLY difficult but, I also have a lot of happiness in my life. I guess my point is that it does get better. There just comes a time when you have to start living again. For you and him.
I understand all to well how it feels to loose a dad to Suicide,
I lost my Daddy on August 9th 1995, he took himself away from us when we needed him the most and even though it has been 16 years now i still have not completely healed from the loos and i guess in away i never will but i try not to think about the way he left us and try to only focus on the good times we all had together as a family..
@27countrygirl027 Sounds like you have the right strategy. Think of it as a mental cancer that took a loved one, instead of a suicide. He was in a painful place and wasnt thinking straight.
I have the same story.. It made me cry :-( It's hard to lose someone and you ask yourself the same questions every day ... You learn to live with the pain but deep inside the life will never be the same.. A piece is missing
my dad killed himself on 18 mart 2010.. missing him so much. i dont know why he did it. but it hurts so much. sometimes i feel that i cant even breathe. trying ti live with this pain is too much for me and i cant handle it. though i am always smiling deep inside every single moment i live is like a torture. why dad why? couldnt you imagine what i would be without you.. look at me now.. im not "me" anymore.. Im so sorry for your losts friends.. so sorry..
sananekiyani 19 hours ago
my love to all of you, Ive seen what this pain has done to my best friend, her step dad, who was like her real dad killed him self a few years ago now, such a wonderful man, and no one knew he was in the slightest down, He drank weed killer, and still nearly every day i watch a silent tear fall down her beautiful face and the mention of his name. He really was the perfect dad to her,
Rest in peace andrew, em isnt angry, just wishes she was your rock, like you were for her. smile down on her.
bellyanderson 1 day ago
This made me feel upset, im so sorry for all of your loss, its not nice, especially when they kill themselves. I nearly cryed.. ♥ you all ♥ xx
P.S im sowwie ♥♥
KerysLovesBVB 1 week ago
Nikki & all, I too am so sorry for your loss, the pain you feel. He is with you, and I'm sure deeply regretful that he didn't know how those he left would suffer his loss of life with them.
Be angry with the disease, its awful, its shocking, its cruel, besides the suffering of the recipient is the family & friends left behind after senseless suicides; filled with pain, anger. Depression is what kills; a mental illness, if the stigma wasnt so great, men who suffer in silence may seek help.
msjenifa 1 week ago
My dad committed suicide when I was 2, now I am getting married in 3 months and all the hurt, anger and bitterness is coming back. I know its not my fault, but I have missed out on so much like I have never had a father daughter dance, and I have no dad to walk me down the aisle. It sucks but when a parent or anyone that is close to you kills themselves, it is an everyday battle to cope, it will get better with time, this I promise.
snides2009 1 week ago
Guys, as a parent I know mothers/fathers can get to a stage where they are overwhelmed. Please know that it's not something you did or didn't do, it was just something your mom.dad couldn't cope with right then are they probably felt they were doing right by you.... I'm sorry for all your losses xxx
TheSilk661 1 week ago
thi9s video makes meeh cry and that bit in thee moviee :'(
littleesuzzy1998x 3 weeks ago 2
My father committed suicide on August 27 2011 never been in this much pain in my life
achille935 3 weeks ago
@achille935 I am sorry to hear you are in so much pain. It hurts so very much. One just feels so robbed, abandoned with suicide. It is difficult to come to terms with.... I think though we do carry on and learn to live with the pain, we are never the same. Know that others do understand and care ((hugs of understanding))
Nikki1of7 1 week ago
@achille935 My daddy left us when I was 2 yrs. old....never understood or knew why. Here I am, some 55 years later with a hole in my heart that I cannot fill.....
lu4thelord 5 days ago
My dad commited suicide when i was ten years old he was my best friend i did everything with him i blame my self till this day ill never be the same
missstunna2011 3 weeks ago
@missstunna2011
Sweetheart your Dad would be devastated if he thought you blamed yourself. Sometimes circumstances happen and adults think they're kids would be better off without them, but it's in their minds cos their minds are screwed up. They don't think of the aftermath cos normally people who commit suicide are in a place where they don't think rationally....so sorry but I bet your dad loves you from afar xxx
TheSilk661 1 week ago
@missstunna2011 oh that just breaks my heart! I hope you will be able to find a measure of peace and KNOW it was not your fault. You were only ten!! No, it wasn't your fault at all!! It is called survivors guilt, and I truly hope you can overcome it. You are in my thoughts ♥♥
Nikki1of7 1 week ago
My dad killed himself when i was 7. I'm 19 now and it's made me bitter. I feel like he cheated me out of time that my sister's got to spend with him. December was the 12 year anniversary...I didn't even get to go to his grave
Ray021Halliwell 3 weeks ago
@Ray021Halliwell I can understand why you would feel this way. I am an adult and I still feel cheated and robbed. We had a whole life to live, so much to share.. and that was taken from us. I am sorry you are hurting and I hope you can find a way to forgive him, if not his actions, so that you may find some peace.
Nikki1of7 1 week ago
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my daddy didn't kill himself but i know how it feels to loose him
shellscutie 1 month ago
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my daddy didn't kill himself but i know how it feels to loose him
shellscutie 1 month ago
my daddy didnt kill himself but i know how it feels to loose him
shellscutie 1 month ago
@shellscutie
So do I sweetheart and I was 42... doesn't get easier xxx
TheSilk661 1 week ago
Your Dad walks beside you every day. He looks down from Heaven & keeps you strong.
He loves you & is very proud of you.
You are his reflection..shine!
thecruisingcars 1 month ago 2
@thecruisingcars such a beautiful comment.. thank you!!
Nikki1of7 1 week ago
My husband, the father of my four children died to suicide on 17th September 2001 and is missed every single day. It broke us all.
laughter1963 1 month ago
@laughter1963 Broke, that is a good word for it... I am sorry for your loss.
Nikki1of7 1 week ago
thanks for the support...
deidaraluvr99 1 month ago
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peacegirl811 1 month ago
My dad killed himself at 12-04-10. He ju mped in front of a train...I miss you dad....I cant live without you,,idk what to do..
GlassOfWater87 1 month ago
@GlassOfWater87 My dad died exactly one year before that 12-04-09</3 I watched him take one of his last breaths...still remember it like it was yesterday.
puppylove25067 3 weeks ago
@GlassOfWater87 I am so very sorry for your loss, and the pain I know you must be in.
Nikki1of7 1 week ago
Im 13 my dad was murdered whn i was two . This made me cry soo much i miss my dad soo much . They never found the ppl who killed hom either. It hurts me sooooo bad everyday not to kno what hving a dad wuz like i wonder and i cry
laffytaffy1091 1 month ago
Beautiful yet tragic. Your video was put together so well to convey what you feel. I cried watching it.
I'm so sorry for your loss & the pain that accompanies it. (((hugs)))
AZAP28 1 month ago 2
@AZAP28 Thank you ♥
Nikki1of7 1 week ago
My dad died of brain hamrage...in hospital.....I have remembered....how we lost him...it was very painful......this video express my feelings......what happened with me........I miss u a lot daddy....
devashri23 1 month ago
My dad wasn't suicide . He passed away because the car accident. This video made me think of myself in the day he died. It express my feeling so well. I love you and miss you so much Dad.
oilwirasri 1 month ago
miss u dad
1rambo1ify 1 month ago
I am glad you have found a way to express yourself Nikki07. i don't no where you are but I am praying all GOD's goodness for you.
TheClevelandpoet 2 months ago
@TheClevelandpoet thank you, what a lovely thing to say! :)
Nikki1of7 1 month ago
very good video..I understand the pain i lost my father to suicide as well i was six at the time not a day goes by that i don't miss him and wounder how things might of been.. but i also believe he is watching me and guiding me through my life as I do believe your father is with you.. I do have to say your video has some very strong feelings to it and I admire that not many can make a video with such feelings to it.. I wish you the best and hopefully this New Year will bring happiness and joy
RiskaNTora 2 months ago 2
@RiskaNTora Thank you! It was a tough video for me to make, but healing in it's own right as well.
Nikki1of7 1 month ago
Its bad enough if you lose a dad due to a accident but if he chooses to kill himself that just makes to pain 10X worse...
justinlover97 2 months ago
@justinlover97 yes, yes it does. Because no matter how much pain you know they must have been in... no matter how much you know they love you.... it doesn't change the fact that they "chose" to leave you :(
Nikki1of7 1 month ago
i lost my dad one year ago on new years eve in a car crash
caseboy5592 2 months ago
@caseboy5592 I am sorry for your loss ((hugs))
Nikki1of7 1 month ago
i'm so sorry for your lost my dad saw my the last 4 months ago and i haven'tt seen him sence i hop i see my dad soon too all my tears go to you......
mimis2cute 2 months ago
thank you for wrighting back to me but my dad killed him self as well and it rally hurts im only 13 and this sunday coming up it will be new years day that means it has been a year i wont to be with him but i know he wont like me to do that and it dont get better xxxxx
strandmotors100 2 months ago 5
@strandmotors100 It does hurt, it hurts a lot. The first year anniversary was very difficult for me, my heart goes out to you. I remember so well feeling it will never get better, that my life would never be " ok " again. It will never be what it once was, but it will get "better" than it feels right now.
Nikki1of7 1 month ago 4
@strandmotors100 My heart aches for the pain I know you are in, if you need someone to talk to, please write me. If you could find the strength to join a survivors of suicide group or online forum, that could help a lot to. It helps so much to talk with people who truly understand your pain. ((big hugs of understanding))
Nikki1of7 1 month ago
@strandmotors100 i lost my dad joseph barajas this year 2012 january 3 of suiside,.and im 12 so im new with this i dont know how to feel ,but it sucks, i know how you feel .I just dont know why he'd do that becouse hes not that kind of person and as his only daughter.he was a very hard working man and always helped people.i wish i told him i love him .thelast thing i heard before he killed himself was no stop im sorry i love
Chinadollbar74 1 month ago
@strandmotors100 My father died of cancer when I was 2, I can't imagine what I would've done if I had come home and heard he had killed himself...I'm sure he loved you so much, time will help heal the hurt, but there will always be that hole....I'm sorry
Jesuschick22 3 weeks ago
@strandmotors100 so sorry i lost my daddy by a drunk driver and i was turnning 8 and it stll hurts and im going on 47 june 1st but remember its ok to talk to him tc god bless
chipmunk55734 2 weeks ago
I'm so sorry for your loss, my dear. If you ever need to talk, I know we don't know each other, but please, please feel free to message me. I am a great listener and advice giver. Much love, Light, and many Angel Blessings to you and all involved. Your father is watching over you my dear xx <3
psychicteen13 2 months ago
@psychicteen13 so very sweet, thank you for the lovely post
Nikki1of7 1 month ago
@Nikki1of7: No thanks needed hun. I'll always be here for you if/when you need me. I love your video, it made me cry. I have never lost a loved one to suicide, but I have lost loved ones, and the pain never goes away. It has been 3 years since I lost my Great Nana to natural causes, but as I said, the pain never goes away. It is still fresh in my heart 3 years later. This upcoming March 16, my parents anniversary, will be the 4 year anniversary of her death :(
Please check your inbox, btw.
psychicteen13 1 month ago
My daddy commited suicide 16 years ago i was daddys little girl there isnt a day that goes by that i dont think about him its hard thinking of the pain he was going through and he felt he could not talk to anyone about his feelings maybe if he had he might still be here today....Love and Miss you so much daddy xxxx
1981colleen 2 months ago 2
@1981colleen It is so hard to think about the pain they must have been in, to know they saw suicide as their only option... I am sorry for your pain, and your loss ((hugs))
Nikki1of7 1 month ago
@Nikki1of7 Its very hard it rips my heart apart to think he was in so much hurt that he had to end his life , But i will never hate him or feel anger towards him because some people just find it hard to cope and god only takes the best thanku for ur kind words xx
1981colleen 1 month ago
my dad commited suicide on dec.3rd of this year.. i miss and love you soo much bestfriend... aka , daddy . <3
sammynicole3 2 months ago
My dad committed suicide when i was only five, now im 18 and its still hard to talk about. My mom and I went to see his grave last weekened and I couldnt help but cry there. The only answer i want to know is why he did it and it hurts even more that i will not get the answer. My older brother is looking like him each and every day, I always wonder what my life would be if my daddy was still here.. Miss you daddy, love you!
dudexjessiiica 2 months ago 2
@dudexjessiiica I am sorry for your loss. I sometimes wonder if we will be forever haunted by the unanswered question of why.... *sigh
Nikki1of7 1 month ago
when I watched this movie I see myself in the same story. I didn't have a chance to say goodbye and to say how much I love him. I still sad and cry. Most of all I miss you so much Dad.
oilwirasri 2 months ago
my dad too commited suicide when i was 7 im 13 now an i miss him so much an i just wanna b wit him
suszynski13 2 months ago
My Dad committed suicide in September 2011. The pain is so intense and raw. Nothing is the same without him. He is in my thoughts and prayers daily. This Thanksgiving and Christmas season are very hard and painful to get through. I Love and Miss You Dad.
CutesyChineka 2 months ago
I lost my father to Suicide back in August I never felt this much pain in my life :(
achille935 2 months ago
My father committed suicide when I was 1 year old, and throughout my life, I've never felt so alone without my father. I miss him so much.... I recently lost my friend to sucicde which is making everything so much worse and I never thought I was going to have to go on without people in my life that were so important to me, I wish I was able to talk to my father, to remember what his voice sounded like, his smile. That's all I want</3
lovehimalways2010 2 months ago
Dear ones there's something u need to know death has knocked upon my door & I am ready to go.I have no strength left within me to stay & fight & I have no desire to,now I've seen the light.For the light of death is brighter than the light of day&death's sweet voice is calling me calling me away.So dear ones very soon I know that u will weep,as my body falls into an everlasting sleep.But read these words I've written once again& u will see,I welcomed death with loving arms-it holds no fear for me
drayvin31 2 months ago
@drayvin31 Hi Drayvin, your post alarms me, and I am unsure what your exact message is or how to take it. Want to talk?
Nikki1of7 2 months ago
@Nikki1of7 Thanks for the concern. This was the poem on the back of my dad's funeral announcement (that paper they have by the guest book). Of course I had to paraphrase it but I thought it was probably exactly how he felt....how many felt. THanks again for your concern, but I am ok...just miss my dad. 8 months today :(
drayvin31 2 months ago
@drayvin31 Whew, I have to say you had me a bit worried..... it is a lovely poem, thank you for sharing it with us. I am sorry for your loss and I know the holidays makes it all the harder. Keeping you in my thoughts ((hugs))
Nikki1of7 2 months ago
@raleighman3000 What you say is true...he needed help. But it still feels like I failed him. I know it isn't my fault but these feelings will never go away. All I can do now is remember him when he was happy. Thank you for your kind words. :)
drayvin31 2 months ago
i havent lost my dad yet but i cant even imagine. i have lost alot of family and it hurt hope i can be strong with the lord at my side
serenaallen75 2 months ago
Whats the song at 0:28 please?? :) xx
breakinbenjaminlover 2 months ago
@breakinbenjaminlover The song is called The Tin Man
Nikki1of7 2 months ago
i miss my dad when he died and i couldnt stop crying
hiphoppop8 2 months ago
My son's father committed suicide two years ago, new year's day. My son was four and I have no idea what he's feeling. I only hope when he comes to me with questions I will have the answers.
aj0825 3 months ago
@aj0825 It is never easy, but I do think it is a tiny bit easier for ones so young. They don't have the memories, nor will they suffer the survivors guilt that haunt so many of us left behind. I am sorry for your loss, I am sure you will say just the right thing ♥
Nikki1of7 2 months ago
@Nikki1of7 I lost my dad when i was seven to suicide and i am now 16. Please don't say it makes it easier, i personally think it makes it harder. I dream about who he was and who he could have been 8 years later. For the ones who lost there parents or a loved one especially to suicide is very difficult.
horsesfly101 1 month ago
@horsesfly101 I am sorry if I offended you in any way. If you read the post you will see I was replying about a toddler, one who wouldn't retain the memories that say someone of your age 7, or older would have. Suicide is never easy on the ones left behind... I am sorry for your loss
Nikki1of7 1 month ago
@aj0825 pre-empt it. talk about how you are feeling feeling about it personally and ask him about his feelings. The worst thing you can do is say or do nothing. Don't wait. Otherwise your son will become afraid of the topic and afraid of his feelings. crying is the best healing release you can provide for himm. Guaranteed even at 4 years old, he blames himself. all he knows is daddy isn't here, so I'm not wanted.
mylifeofpassion 2 months ago
a quote from .....metanoia.org
"Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain."
Tragic, but true.....
Nikki1of7 3 months ago 11
iwas on the edge of suicide till i saw this video and all i can think about is my son and i love him so much thank you for posting this. thank you
Sethamessiah 3 months ago 4
@Sethamessiah Seth, I am glad you are still with us, truly I am. I am thankful when it seemed you couldn't hold on for you, you were able to hold on for your son. It is no legacy to leave ones children. Please, please, please, try to reach out for help. Things always get better. There is medication to help, and a whole world of people who would help if you just reach out. I am one of them, write me any time! You are couragous ((hugs))
Nikki1of7 2 months ago 7
my dad took his own life in 1997 , i still miss him so much ,,,,, there are some things dad , that a daughter will always understand , so why didnt you reach out to me and let me hold your hand :-( loved and missed xxxx
NecroKitty103 3 months ago
@NecroKitty103 it is so hard isn't it, wondering why they didn't reach out to us. Didn't they know how much we love them, that we would have done just anything to help them. A dear friend said something that helped me cope a bit-he said I needed to remember that my Dad wasn't "rational" when he killed himself, that at that moment he saw no other way. It breaks my heart, but I do believe it true. It just isn't about us, it was just more than they could take at that moment. So sorry for your loss
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
Oh god, I couldnt stop crying while reading your description.Im so sorry,Im so damn sorry :((((
GTheBlackElk 3 months ago 2
@GTheBlackElk thank you ♥
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
@LilMama5171994 I think even though we know we shouldn't, most of us do try to find a way to make it our fault. I am not sure why we must torture ourselves this way. As time marches on, as the pain lessons a tiny bit, we can see more clearly through the pain, then we are able to see that it was NOT our fault. Not even a teeny bit. You on the other hand were only one, there was no way you could have helped your dear Dad. Hold him close in your heart, he is still there with you ♥
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
@UandMe4everAndAlways it still makes me cry.....
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
Someone suffering from a suicidal depression is not thinking that they are worth anything, or that their passing will truly affect anyone. They feel numb and worthless to the world. Trust me, I'm the married father of a beautiful 4 yr old and I have been to the absolute edge of my own mortality this year. With medication and a psychiatrist I am more stable.
raleighman3000 3 months ago
i miss you dad wish you were still here
kasimiller21 3 months ago
My little sisters dad committed suicide almost two years ago... Its been the hardest thing ive ever been threw. He wasnt just her father but had been my best friend since i was 7. I was 16 when he did it and my sister was 3. It still hurts everyday... I would do anything to have him back.... We miss him so much and hes missing the only thing he ever wanted in life.. His little girl!!! :(
jetjet2012 3 months ago 2
@jetjet2012 I'm sorry to hear about your loss. Its important to realize that someone suffering from that kind of depression is not thinking straight at all. They just desperately want the pain to stop, and they can't even process the idea that anyone will even miss them. I'm a Dad and my daughter is my world, but I've struggled this year with some really desperate "worthless" feelings due to serious depression. I take a med and I talk to a shrink to keep steady.
raleighman3000 3 months ago
don't blame yourself, I blame my self after my boyfriend committed suicide, it's normal to feel that way, but it's not your fault
TheTimothyWinter 3 months ago
my dad dead im feb 2011 and im only 13 he done suicide as well thank you for this song it rally help please reply to me :(
strandmotors100 3 months ago
@strandmotors100 Sorry to hear that. Depression is a terrible illness.
raleighman3000 3 months ago
@strandmotors100 I am very sorry to hear about your Dad. You are far too young to try to cope with such a loss. My heart goes out to you. Open up and talk to your Mom and anyone else you love and trust. I know it is hard to talk about, but getting your emotions out truly does help. Keep talking, it will get better ((hugs))
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
@strandmotors100 My dad killed himself when I was 10, so it was five years ago. I wish I can say it will get better, but I haven't experienced it. I still think about him everyday and as I got older I started thinking about it more. I was diagnosed with depression when I was 13. Two years later and I still have it, but I think about those who love me and those who I love. I want to be with my dad so much, but I know that he wants me to stay here with my friends and family. It might get better.
SAIRRAAH 3 months ago
daddy if i ever loose u i will give up everything 2 get u bak dday
tlilmiss93 3 months ago in playlist Favorite videos
i miss you so much, dad.. i'm so sorry i didn't get to say goodbye.. you were my best friend.. why did this have to happen to us? it's been three and a half years, and i still can't believe you're gone.. i wish i could've stopped you.. i love and miss ♥♥♥♥♥
ciarakester 3 months ago
@ciarakester may i ask wat happened
tlilmiss93 3 months ago in playlist Favorite videos
@ciarakester it has been the same amount of time for me.... it still hurts so much....I am so sorry for your loss Ciara ((big hugs of understanding))
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
my daddy was my everything i lost him oct 9th 2010 he was my hero everyone in my family left me exsept him he was always there he never let me down no matter what! i love you w.c.m!! missed but not forgotten
151yayme 3 months ago
@151yayme aww u lost ur dad on my birthday :(
rockabillyjulz95 3 months ago
This made cry so hard cause I lost my father to suicide on September 21 2011. I hadn't seen him in nearly 10 years and we only talked one time to try to patch things up but he didn't want me. Even though we weren't close I still loved him even though he didn't love me cause he was my Dad and the person who helped bring me into this world....I wish he was still alive so we could have alteast tried for a third time to fix things between us
Waluigisgirl1 3 months ago 2
@Waluigisgirl1 i'm so sorry about your loss you will be in my prayers hun i know how you feel i grew up with out a mom or daddy i only seen my daddy 2 times in my l1fetime and when my son was born he passed away and i miss him so so much it hurts i know
jUNAIDSwIFE86 3 months ago
@Waluigisgirl1 Don't blame yourself ever for what he did. People who have depression and kill themselves are in terrible mental pain. Its very hard to describe. I'm sure he loved you, but he was in pain and just wanted it to stop. I love my daughter totally, but I almost hurt myself this year because of depression, and I had to force myself to get help. He loved you, he was just a broken person who couldn't get the proper help, or who was just too tired to try anymore.
raleighman3000 3 months ago
my babies just lost their daddy, they are young and will never have a memory of their dad. Breaks my heart! this video made me cry!! My poor babies!!
LorraineMarie7 3 months ago 2
@LorraineMarie7 So sorry to hear of your loss. Please stay strong for those babies; they need you. They will get through this, I promise
raleighman3000 3 months ago
I never even got to no my father he left when i was just a little baby i miss him and even though i dont no him and i no enough about him to no he is a jerk i love him
daisygirl1234567 3 months ago
I still have my dad. But i don't know him anymore. He is not that father i love and respect. He is a stranger and it's so hard to love him. I hope he find himself again♥ Daddy, I love you♥
JulieStephanie100 3 months ago 2
@JulieStephanie100 just tell him you love him and maybe he may come back to the dad that used to be. because being alone without your parents is the hardest thing to do every single day. good luck juile.
boydsalguero 3 months ago 2
@JulieStephanie100 i'm so sorry to hear this julie i'll keep you in my prayers hun
jUNAIDSwIFE86 3 months ago 2
@JulieStephanie100 julie, I agree.... what I wouldn't give to just hold my Dad one more time, to tell him how much I love him... make the first move, maybe you can help him find himself again ((hugs))
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
my father died not even two months ago and im finding it VERY hard to cope with loosing him...I wish that I couldve said alot of things to him before he died,he meant so much to me,I wish I wouldve told him this more often and I wish I couldve gotten the chance to say goodbye and hug him one last time and make sure he knows I love him...I would give anything in the world to hug him and tell him I love him one last time..I miss him so much :'( I love you daddy one day we'll meet again..♥ R.I.P
RockerKidd205 3 months ago
@RockerKidd205 *oh tears*... that feeling never goes away..... I think we will always long for just one more chance to hold them and tell them how very much we love them. He knows you love him ♥
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
This is sooo beautiful. My dad recently committed suicide about 2weeks ago. I feel so hurt and alone I miss him. And I love this video
enem612 3 months ago 2
@enem612 I am so sorry for you loss.... so fresh, I can remember those first few weeks like they just happened. I am sorry for the pain I know you are in. If it helps at all, it does get better. It will NEVER be what it once was, and you will always miss him... but it will be better than it is right now. ((hugs))
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
I just wanted to let you know that this video is so beautiful. I am doing a project for one of my classes in school on suicide and I found this video to add... I hope you don't mind. This absolutely touched my heart. God Bless you. You're so strong.
BethieandRachie09 3 months ago 2
@BethieandRachie09 I don't mind at all, perhaps it will help someone hold on..... I am glad your school is doing suicide awareness, it is vital. Bless you too ♥
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
i lost my dad july 11,2011 and im only 12.. he was a cop and was shot on the line of duty along with his K9 partner shadow but his K9 survived.. his dog means everything to me and i wouldnt do anything to give him up :(
ashleyshadowbuddy5 3 months ago 5
@ashleyshadowbuddy5 im srry u lost ur dad
theking93581 3 months ago
@ashleyshadowbuddy5 I'm sorry to hear of your loss.
raleighman3000 3 months ago
@ashleyshadowbuddy5 Ashley, I am so very sorry for the loss of your Dad... just 12, that has to be so diffucult. my heart goes out to you ((big hugs))
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
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IDontBiteHard101 3 months ago in playlist songs ;)
2 out of 2.
God I miss you dad.....I'd give up everything I have in this life just to hug you one last time....
EarthboundErik007 4 months ago 9
I lost my dad to his hand 2 years ago. 5 days before my high school graduation. Word spread quickly, everyone at school knew. The mask I had to wear as I walked down to receive my diploma, only to look up and see his empty seat I can't begin to describe. I know it's not my fault, but God help me if the pain isn't still there. The years I need him the most and he's not there. All my questions, all my fears....and all the times I should have said thank you and love you...now just words to nothing.
EarthboundErik007 4 months ago
@EarthboundErik007 So sorry for your loss. People that kill themselves are in a horrible place, and they are not thinking (can;t think) about what the effect will be on those left behind. Its like a mental cancer that hijacks normal thinking. I've been to the edge this year before I got help, and I'm a Dad who adores his child, so trust me: its not anyones fault, its a disease.
raleighman3000 3 months ago
@EarthboundErik007 Not words to nothing... you can still let your Dad know how much you love him. I believe our loved ones can hear us. It may seem a bit corny to some, but I don't care... I talk to my Dad every day! It has helped me cope....I am very sorry for your loss.
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
My dad killed himself when I was 10. It's been 5 years and I still can't get over it. It hurts everyday. I have always thought that it was my fault. I love him with all of my heart. My mom never wanted my twin brother and I around him cause of his depression and bi-polar. So I never really got to spend time with him. When I was 6 my mom, brother, and I moved 2 hours away and my dad didn't have a car to come and see us and my mom didn't want to drive up and see him that often. :( I miss you daddy
SAIRRAAH 4 months ago
@SAIRRAAH y'all are all strong people and i admire y'all. i know see how much i love my dad and think about never wanting to lose him, i sorry, but i think ur a strong person
platypus5555555555 4 months ago
@platypus5555555555 Thank you
SAIRRAAH 4 months ago
@SAIRRAAH It sounds like your Dad was in a lot of mental anguish. I[m a loving Dad, but I've been in some really close calls this year with my own depression. I think your Dad was in a painful world of his own, and could not even imagine that he would be missed. Its important to think of depression as an actual disease, a disease that was not being treated effectively in his case. Normal thinking goes out the door. ....I'm sorry for your loss...
raleighman3000 3 months ago
O my God.. Bless all your Hearts! I lost my day from cancer and I miss him so!
So the thought of a loved one being gone really aches..
Bless you all!
WeSellHemp 4 months ago
i lost my father to suicide at 17. it was christmas eve. i was the one to find him, and the question of WHY is still there...
deidaraluvr99 4 months ago
@deidaraluvr99 Sorry for your loss. The why of suicide can;t really be answered, because the answer lives in a victims inner world of loneliness and pain, a world created by the disease known as clinical depression. Suicide is not rational, its just a desperate attempt to stop crushing feelings of worthlessness. The victim often feels that they are actually helping their loved ones by ending their life; its all part of the short-circuited thinking that tried to take me as well. Stay strong.
raleighman3000 3 months ago
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Tiimmperr 4 months ago
i lost my dad to suicide 23 years ago , he shot himself with a shotgun at park, he use to take us too. It been a really long time but the ?'s and the wondering. Didn't he know his baby twin would need him and loved him. I guess not. He was drunk and had taken pain pills cause he had a very bad back and he didn't want to be in a wheelchair for the rest of his life. So he left and i can only hope he is in Heaven watching over me and waiting for me to get there. I love and miss you Daddy
Mashekle 4 months ago
6th September 2011 i lost my father to hanging and miss him like crazy i was also the one that found him in to shed
xxKelc92xx 4 months ago
@xxKelc92xx Sorry for your loss. Please check my posts about this video; they may help you....
raleighman3000 3 months ago
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CocoGlenn 4 months ago
My dad died 6 months ago november 18th 2011. I really wish he was still here. i heard the gunshot. me and my disabled step sister were the only 2 home when it happened. He was drunk. And thought no body loved him. it was my fault of three of his own children, i was the only one living with him. a rarely told him i loved him, and nows he is gone. i cry my self to sleep. im only asleep 15 minutes until the nightmare begins, i wake up, and i cant go back to sleep. and now, all i can do is miss him.
loveyouloveme97 4 months ago
@loveyouloveme97 Listen, its not your fault. People who commit suicide are in a horrible place that is built by the disease called depression, and nothing anyone says will help them unless its a psychiatrist, and that takes time. Anti-depressants often work, but not for everyone. He loved you; he just wanted his pain to end and was not thinking clearly. Its a mental cancer that hijacks all thought; I've been close enough to that feeling, and am now in treatment. Sorry for your loss....
raleighman3000 3 months ago
Cant belive it has been more then a year. Seems just like yesterday we were jamming in the trcuk going to my softball games<3 I didnt get to say goodbye. God took you to fast. I miss u so much dad. I wish you were still here.
Losing your dad at 13 is the worst thing in the world
September 8, 2010 <3
morg2016 4 months ago
itll be 3 years on novemeber 11th of him being gone :'( he killed himself and i miss him so much. i knew something had been wrong the night before he did it but i didnt think he would have ever done that :( i love and miss u dad so much!
ashton081000 4 months ago
@ashton081000 it's been 3 1/2 years for me, it is still so shocking to think about. I am sorry for your loss and I hope you have found a measure of peace ♥
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
its been four years since my dad hung himself we were more like best friends than father and son i still question if there was anything that i could have done different just knowing that my son will grow up without the most awesome man alive hurts but things happen for a reason thanks for this video it was really touching
lilitalians 4 months ago
@lilitalians I don't think that feeling will ever truly go away.. I think we will always wonder, was there anything I could have done? The questions haunt me daily..... I hope you are finding your way through the pain and that your memories of your Dad bring you comfort ♥
Nikki1of7 3 months ago
I lost my Father to suicide 11 months ago. The pain I feel is almost unbearable some days, some moments. I understand why this song touched you. I would give anything for one last opportunity to tell him how much he is loved and how much I need him in my life and to please not leave me. I miss him terribly.
mrsjameswelch 4 months ago
@mrsjameswelch So sorry for your loss. Depression is a terrible disease. He couldn't think straight...
raleighman3000 3 months ago
<3
D3ViLz98 4 months ago
@D3ViLz98 Some of my comments on this video may help you. Sorry for your loss.
raleighman3000 3 months ago
My god this made me cry. Such a great video (:
TheNicoleBaybee 4 months ago 2
My Daddy Killed Himself, about 5 months ago </3, he has always been my hero and always will be until the day i die, there not one day i dont think about my dad, r.i.p daddy i love you
TheTurtletuttle 4 months ago
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@frikinzero My email is bamagirl1119@gmail.com if you ever need to talk. My daddy also died in the same way that merhippy's boyfriend did and she/he is right..You ARE wanted and worth it and special. Again, if you want or need someone to talk to or just someone to cry to, please email me because you are loved and would be missed I know...
ALsouthernbelle1119 4 months ago
@frikinzero Honey, I too am a survivor of suicide. My daddy committed suicide four years ago and many times since then I too have thought of how much easier it would be to leave. I am still here due only to the fact that I could never put my boys or my friends and family through the utter pain both physically and mentally that I still feel today as well as the many people who talked and loved me thru those dark moments and like Nikki I would love to be here for u during that moment. My email
ALsouthernbelle1119 4 months ago
alot like everyone, i cried, more like poured tears .__. i never cared much for lion king but it touched me /; i lost my daddy at 2, and im 15 now, its been 13 years october 8th and i made a vide for him, when i was watching this i saw this on the related videos and i had to watch, ive cried for years wondering what it wouldv been like if he wee still alive .__. im truely sorry for your loss, and im sure your father was a wonderful man, iknow you and i, and everyone will see their fathers 1day
xKeinexFreiheitx 4 months ago
I almost left my loved ones. So did my dad.:'(
SuperDylanlover101 4 months ago
<3 <3 <3 Right now I wish I was the tinman myself. Right now a man that has been like a father to me is in the hospital.He is laying in a hospital bed right now. So I'm going to listen to my music and for once pray to the lord- that the man's soul in the hospital- is not needed more in heaven then he is here. I have not seen him becuase I am in college right now, but he is in my heart my soul and my thoughts!<3 <3 <3 I love him dearly and pray he knows that even now <3 <3 <3
DarkStarKitty88 4 months ago
All of us can relate, we have lost our dad to suicide, so if your thinking about leaving us, dont, we have enough dadless people, no matter what someone loves you<3
t2rmartin 4 months ago 2
Im a dad and ive thought about suicide so many time. Being without my daughter is the hardest thing i've ever done. But i no her mother will ruin my daughters life if im not around. N so i have to be strong for my daughter n no that i have to stick around for when she needs me. Her mother was selfish and so was her mother. My x went thro bad things in life cause she nevr had a father dont understand how can she do it to her own daughter break up a family n home. Life sux without my lil gurl...
nvmh2o 4 months ago
@nvmh2o You got it right. You have to be strong for your daughter. I have problems with depression, but I take a med and I see a shrink cause my 4 yr old needs me. (I'm still married and my wife is ok). Keep it together and stay in your kids life, even if you have to take your ex to court.. If your ex is wierd, your daughter will figure it out soon enough (dont slag on her mom, she'll resent you for that). I'm keeping you in my thoughts, dude, stay cool...
raleighman3000 3 months ago
My father commited suicide last year on December 23rd. He passed away on December 27th.i spent every minute with him hoping that maybe he would respond to me when i told him i loved him. he couldnt because he only had 7% brain function left when they got to him. I often wonder if he knew how much i needed him and if he knew how much he was my best friend. This has been the most difficult year of my life. I love and miss him sooo much. <3
clarab182 4 months ago
My daddy committed suicide last year i was 11 now i'm nearly 13 and i miss him everyday. I wonder all the time will I ever feel better, be happy, be whole ever again? i miss him so much. This video is soo awesome its helping me so much to cope and to try and let go thanks so much for making it. I miss you dad so much this video asks all the questions im asking... Was it my fault i don't actually know i miss him soo much i feel like none of my friends understand... I duno wat to do? thanks nikki.
luvya117 4 months ago
I lost my dad when I was 10 and I was the last one to see him. For years I blamed myself and thought I should have known and done something. Ive finally come to terms with what he did and that there was nothing I could have done. In a few weeks it will be eleven years since he died. I still have times that are REALLY difficult but, I also have a lot of happiness in my life. I guess my point is that it does get better. There just comes a time when you have to start living again. For you and him.
sarabear202002 4 months ago 2
I understand all to well how it feels to loose a dad to Suicide,
I lost my Daddy on August 9th 1995, he took himself away from us when we needed him the most and even though it has been 16 years now i still have not completely healed from the loos and i guess in away i never will but i try not to think about the way he left us and try to only focus on the good times we all had together as a family..
27countrygirl027 4 months ago
@27countrygirl027 Sounds like you have the right strategy. Think of it as a mental cancer that took a loved one, instead of a suicide. He was in a painful place and wasnt thinking straight.
raleighman3000 3 months ago
I have the same story.. It made me cry :-( It's hard to lose someone and you ask yourself the same questions every day ... You learn to live with the pain but deep inside the life will never be the same.. A piece is missing
blueberry9411 4 months ago