[triggering] idk if im going to take this down....

[Shadowx011]

@blacksnowbutterfly01 ...okay this iPhone is pissing me off made me misspell your name twice now...anyway please read below.

[Shadowx011]

@blacksnowbutterfly ...sorry Moslem Ed your name just was hoping you got my reply. I wish us all the best. I feel so alone I really do. So many more out there like me but I don't know any. It's hard being stuck in a world where all I crave is love where most want hatred.

[Shadowx011]

@blacksnowbuyterfly01 yes I am one who made a dumb reply a year ago and what I said was stupid...although what I did was true. I seriously thought this kid was going for attention which I learned not to be true. The hardest part is my own family and so called friends telling me to grow up when they see new marks on me. This is very hard I wish this person and others like me to try and ignore the hatred and just really...just stay alive...life can be beautiful. I mean very beautiful.

[blacksnowbutterfly01]

GODDAMNED SICKOS STOP TELLING HIM TO KILL HIMSELF THIS ISNT A TV SHOW OR SPORT!!! Its aways the same story sure Ive cut myself but i just got lucky, well not every body get THAT LUCKY, hes a beautiful person and it would be a great loss to the world with him gone, so you can take your HOW TO KILL YOU SELF IN 10 easy steps and Fuckin shove it up your goddamned asses-please dont listen to these creeps there not you and dont know how you feel-

[blacksnowbutterfly01]

I love you, your so brave to be able to be open and to talk about your problems, I wish that I could be more like you none of my friends or family know how I really am, and what they do know I get laughed at there all like thats not you your just pretenting GROW UP hehe thats my cusins favorite line. Anyway sorry about that just when I watch your videos I feel both better and scared I don't know why, but whatever thank you for doing what you do.

[sk8rgirl467]

dont be nervous that you couldn't feel it anymore. after a while of doing it your nerves kind of get used to it and ik it feels really wierd. im speaking from personal experience. i got scared too wen that happened to me.

[mezmaries]

Im alot like you.......

[Shadowx011]

@Richard....I made that reply because like you I feel this is such an endless beautiful world and I am sick of people faking like they want to kill themselves over pointless crap. So why attack me? I was really down and not in the best mood when I replied to this emo kid's video....but still this "killing myself I'm so down my iPod broke,etc." stuff gets annoying.

[Shadowx011]

@Richard....I made that reply because like you I feel this is such an endless beautiful world and I am sick of people faking like they want to kill themselves over pointless crap. So why attack me? I was really down and not in the best mood when I replied to this emo kid's video....but still this "killing myself I'm so down my iPod broke,etc." stuff gets annoying.

[luz009]

Are people saying you should kill yourself?...

Thats fucked up I would only say it playing woah... Thats weird.. They dont even know you..

[Shadowx011]

I sliced both my wrists a year ago only not for attention. My cuts were far deeper I was not playing around. Only survived because a family member was trying to get in the bathroom and they walked in on me unconscious. It hurt but I got really relaxed after wondering off into blackness.

Don't give up...,try gradually cutting deeper and deeper. You'll get it right some day I've chickened out since but I still have hope and a very sharp knife.

[richardvasquez1989]

@Shadowx011 motherfucker u need to quit it . if u wanted to kill ur self u would have stop being a pussy. do u realize people in africa have to worry about their lives being taken every day and u whine and complain about trivial issues like ur hair not being black enough or not getting that 100$ to go to hot topic in the camry ur parents gave u. get over it, there is always someone that has it worse than ur pathetic problems.

[XxmusicXx4LiFe]

no ones perfect

we all slip and fall we just need to pick our selfs up again...good luck

[XavierFromHell]

My first cut was like two days before you and i met up in the summer... i remember you back the u were so fun

[garfieldthecat1994]

its ok we've all been there i have again recently it happens dont be upset at yourself the time you did stop is still there its still progress :) we all luv ya alex :D xxx

keep fighting. you didn't fuck up :)

[cat3773]

its okay everybody slips up every now and then

[FallenxAngel11]

i almost relapsed today. so dont feel bad. i was really close to it. but somehow i didnt. i think it was because of my best friend...

anyways. dont beat yourself up. you said yourself they werent as deep. so thats progress, right? :)

[XxBoysLikeYouxX]

It's really weird, I've never met you, but I feel like I can identify with you so much.

I know what it's like to go a long time (6 months) without cutting and then relapse.

Please don't beat yourself up over it, I know it's hard not to, but it doesn't help anything.

And I don't think you're weak, I think you're a very strong person.

[katsoja94]

this gina thing happened to me i cuted myself in bathroom after beeing like 2months out of cutting :(