False Haven (Eating Disorder)

[xxashleyRxx]

You are beautiful.

[nickgay29]

Ok your the first person I'm going to tell I can believe I'm going to say this and I don't even now you I have a eating disorder I go some times days without eating or eating every little and when I do eat I over eat and then it starts all over again I need help

[DocterNibz]

You're beautiful.(:

[illuminatedmoon07]

Wow, you where huge! just shocking! You change much..

How old are you?

[Soccerchick611]

omg what song is this?

[TheCRYSTALLURE]

@Soccerchick611 Its Citizen Cope~Let The Drummer Kick, they well he is a really great artist.

[lezzielet00]

you're awsome! 

[evilbunny286]

O my gosh..you ARE my inspiration...you being gay, being bulimic, and not being "butch". you are like me..thank you

[AdiRudi]

*hugs* to you :-)

[steve911912]

you are beautiful and i and other are proud for you. :)

[chuckcash23]

its easy to say you know realize ur worth it lol ur skinny and goodlooking

[phoenixmia7]

You said don't be afraid to reach out so I am. I went a year and a half with bulimia and I gave it up for lent and after lent, I haven't done it in about 4 months. I gained some weight and could actually look at myself in the mirror at a higher weight and was happy. Now I'm starting to feel like I used to. The thoughts of "If you can only loose 3lbs you'll be more confident" are slipping in. I'm sick of being miserable. I know there'll be relapses-a slip, but how do I prevent a fall? 

[phoenixmia7]

You said don't be afraid to reach out so I am. I went a year and a half with bulimia and I gave it up for lent and after lent, I haven't done it in about 4 months. I gained some weight and could actually look at myself in the mirror at a higher weight and was happy. Now I'm starting to feel like I used to. The thoughts of "If you can only loose 3lbs you'll be more confident" are slipping in. I'm sick of being miserable. I know there'll be relapses-a slip, but how do I prevent a fall?

[standintherain90]

thank you for doing this video. I can relate so much to what you've said here and it is SO great to see someone come as far as you have in terms of self confidence and acceptance. i'm in the midst of recovery myself after spending the first 6 weeks of my summer in treatment at a partial hospitalization program. this was super inspiring! congrats on your progress and thank you for sharing this!

[XtodaysnotoverX]

u seem very happy with your life and what your doing with it and you c if u let that disability get a hold of u none of us who have subed to u would have never got to see how well u can make anything sound great

i know whenever i watch your videos i leave with a smile on my face!

[Sarahtriceratops]

This has the power to make me cry. But, I'm still not beautiful to myself. I don't know what it'll take to finally believe it.

[Gaara1037]

I can honestly really relate to this video because I have self esteem problems. And I avoid mirrors as much as I possibly can because once I see the girl in the mirror I won't have any self esteem left. I hesitate to talk to people because I think just by me talking to that person, well I ruined their whole day. So hopefully someday I will be able to love myself, like you do.

[roxychic666]

Very great video! You are very hot. I have bad self esteem problems, but this made my day a lil brighter, thanks :)

[cwisdom1229]

I went through tons of issues in my life that caused me to have cutting problems, eating disorders and even suicide thoughts.. But now I'm super happy I've gotten passed those.. I still have bad self esteem issues but I'm getting through it.. And tahnk you so much for your videos they have helped alot.. ;}

[coolchick3006]

It's hard to believe you had self esteem issues, you're gorgeous, and intelligent. Honest. I'm glad you've conquered it though!

[SAOlover]

Would have never known by your videos. I'm happy for you :) :) :)

[crazylezzie]

im glad u doing better now! i know how u felt i've had a weight issue my whole life so my self esteem was pretty shitty so i'm glad to see someone break though that

[courtneyBLURR]

Youre a great inspiration. I've had eating problems as well, I remember being in high school and just not eating - ever. I lost probably 40 pounds really, really quickly. I gained it all back and now I'm back to the original me, which really sucks 'cause I now I just feel like my girlfriend doesn't find me as attractive.. it sucks.

But regardless, it's good to see that you're doing better day by day.

[HelloCatkin]

I'm glad you are doing better. Thanks for sharing this, this is a really positive video and it's great you are open about it, so many people can relate ♥

[whispersinmyheart]

wow, cool video. I don't know what else to say right now.

[themel2114]

ahh carly i love you and this video i rewatch it everytime i am feeling upset of i email you,,it helps alot,,without you last weekend i wouldn't make it to my goal of a year and on sunday it will be 9MONTHS can u belive that i couldn't have done it without you <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

[calliega]

Wow.

I admire you. Honestly. :)

[SuperKarinaG]

Really proud of you. Keep smiling and keep your head up. You can acheive anything if you put your mind to it =]

[frickinscrewed]

thank you. i'm so glad you're good now.

[doucheface77]

congratulations. proud of you.

[edgehaedjr]

Thank you for this. I really hope this sticks in my head. I tend to have this problem off and on. Sometimes I can control it, sometimes I can't. One week I only went on 2 meals, went to an amusement park (it was Summer) and fainted. This was like 3 or 4 years ago, but it tends to still haunt me and comes back when I'm depressed, or when I'm surrounded by skinny people; especially guys (I'm a guy). They say one can't admit it, but I tell people and they just don't believe me.

[xxthread]

You are wonderful. A truly beautiful soul. Thank you for this, for raising awareness, for inspiring positive change. Be well. :)

[themel2114]

Ahh u have no idea of how much you are helping people right now i could of used you last year but,,for me its bin 8 months since i cut myself,,i'm prooud of you for telling us this :)

[eyeballgoop]

It's good to see that you've come so far. :)

[ElecTricProductionz]

It is, and I am very proud of myself. :)

[ElecTricProductionz]

@Traviiismonster And I love you, Bro! :D

[TortiaBrooke]

we're rootin for you girl, you are one badass chick to overcome that. I have bad self esteem problems, but this made my day a lil brighter, thanks :)

[ElecTricProductionz]

@TortiaBrooke I'm glad I could brighten up your day. :) If you need anything at all, I am here. Do not be afraid to ask.

[piewiistuff1]

wow i can relate SOOOOOO much except i still have a very low self esteem and i still cut..and i still barely eat. im working on the cutting thing though =/

[ArielleIsHamming]

There are people that are here to help you. Don't close up.

[piewiistuff1]

im trying, im WAYY better than a few years ago. and i have friends i can talk to

[ElecTricProductionz]

@piewiistuff1 Also, find different methods of escape. Instead of self harm, try expressing your emotions through art, writing, working out, exploring new things, make videos, etc. If you ever need anyone, we are all here for you.

[piewiistuff1]

<3 photography works for me, and thanks

[AmandaWiddifield]

what makes you decide that you are worth the trouble

[ElecTricProductionz]

@AmandaWiddifield I know I am.

[arogers4ever]

@ElecTricProductionz You are seriously amazing, I have serious low self asteem thank you for making my day a bit brighter <3

[carsonmaier14]

You're amazing, Carly. <33

[ElecTricProductionz]

@carsonmaier14 So are you, <3

[RainbowBright777]

good luck with overcoming this...I have faith in you...u can do it!

[ElecTricProductionz]

@RainbowBright777 Thank you very much. <3

[chellehrtsnapo]

i to have struggled w an eating disorder! i posted a video on it. keep strong girl!

[ElecTricProductionz]

@chellehrtsnapo It is getting easier with time to repress urges. I'm proud of myself. :)

[LadySaea]

This is a beautiful video and I hope many people find inspiration in this. We all have that strength, beauty and worth within us. You just have to find it and accept it. :)

[ElecTricProductionz]

@LadySaea That's very true, Angelyn!

[cathy202ntnbtluv]

this is really amazing, awesome video!

loved it!

xoxo

<3

[ElecTricProductionz]

@cathy202ntnbtluv :)!!

[AnalimNadroj]

Carly, you are amazing! Great video and great message. <3 Milana

[ElecTricProductionz]

@AnalimNadroj You're amazing!

[Disaster3T]

i know what you feel

[Disaster3T]

i know what you went through, it's hell

[ElecTricProductionz]

@Disaster3T It is, but it feels fantastic to pull through it and realize there are better coping methods.

[badazzrockchic]

this is truly inspirational... Just by this video I can tell you're a very brave girl. Thanks for sharing your positiveness with us!

Hugs, Yessenia

[ElecTricProductionz]

@badazzrockchic :)!!

[10InThePitBowler]

it takes a lot to get over what you have and to share this with us. Props, Carly.

[ElecTricProductionz]

@10InThePitBowler It does. I never wanted to speak about it, but here I am. I'm stronger and better than I used to be. <3

[InvisibleSunbeams]

Wow, awesome video! Really!

[ElecTricProductionz]

@InvisibleSunbeams Thank you! :D

[me4987]

this is such a beautiful video.

its wonderful that you got over it and this just shows there's hope. thank you so much for this

[ElecTricProductionz]

@me4987 You're welcome. There's always hope. :)

[K8Video]

You are really really brave for putting all that out here.... thankyou for sharing! :)

[ElecTricProductionz]

@K8Video You're welcome. :)

[rainbowkiki69]

i love u carly!

[ElecTricProductionz]

I love you too. :)

[taproot72903]

ahh. this almost made me tear again! you are very courageous for putting this video up :)

[ElecTricProductionz]

@taproot72903 Thank you. :) I felt like I needed to get this weight off of my shoulders in order to help others.