I don't think this is babble at all. You try your best to describe what's going on in your head and I think you do a good job. Though I am not as depressed as you are I can understand what you're going through, not wanting to talk with anoying, wanting to be alone, etc etc. I know it's so easy to feel stupid... These bastards commenting with crappy comments don't make it any better either. I think it's brave of you to share your feelings like this. Other depressed people might find comfort init
do not text me if you are under 18 years of age AND DO NOT PRETEND TO BE ANY AGE OVER 18 WHEN YOUR A MINOR I'VE BEEN GETTING ALOT OF THAT LATELY AND IT'S GOT THE CIA ON MY ASS!!!!!!!!!!
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I'M NOT A PERVERT PEOPLE, SO DON'T PORTREY ME TO BE ONE. i'm autistic just so you know.
hey i totally understand whats going on with u.. something is changing with me and i dont feel like myself anymore. my hobbies arent fun for me and neither is playing games.. i lay in my bed because i cant sleep. i take 4 benadryl 2 tylenol and 2 nyquil.. i get drowsy as fuck but my mind never feels tired. never feels hungry never feels angry. i seriously feel like a fuckin robot.. someone help me out if u know what im going thru. im just confused as shit
@ballachamp10 There is hope for you. This world is a dark place but there is light. His name is Jesus Christ. At the cross He defeated the powers of darkness on your behalf. You don't have to spend one more day in depression. Run into the arms of Jesus. He waits for you. Repent of your sin and ask Him to be your Lord and Savior. You've got nothing to lose except your depression and your place in hell. Go to wwwsonlifetvcom Dish ch257, DirecTV 344. Tune in on Fri&Sat11pm(cst) and all day long.
@XordHacker You may feel like you might as well say anything because no one gives value to what you say anyway, but whether you feel it or not, what you say affects people. Some people really are thinking about killing themselves. If someone was feeling that way and they looked at your comment to their video, and they thought, "even people who don't know me can see I should just die", and actually took your preposterous advice, then you just reinforced a terrible thought that might be deadly.
A moneyless,classless,stateless communities of humanity expressing our freedom in creative harmonious cooperation for a world that is so POTENTIALLY AND ACTUALLY nourishing. Capitalism in any form, Statist or Corporatist is the denial of our common humanity in a politically manipulated,tyrannical armed MARKET SYSTEM of artificial scarcity that is designed to perpetuate the enslavement of immense humanity for material interest of the criminal ruling elite
I feel so sorry for you. You seem like such an amazing person and you seem so nice and kind and sensitive. Please stay strong, you're amazing and you're not stupid. Stay strong. x
Your so beautiful inside and out. You seem like you have a genuine heart and it kills me to see a person like you in pain.Life is a roller coaster and you will have good times and bad times. YOur still young and you have your whole life ahead of you. Things will get better but rather than concentrating on how good things were once upon a time think about the progression you've had from your rock bottom stage. Think about the improvements you can make today.
yea i totally feel for you, dont listen to those evil retards they dont know a thing about this. i know what you are going through, you need to survive this and keep going, pray always to god because only he can help in ways that you wont know but things will be right in the end just survive this time..
Dont be so hard on yourself. I'm sure your in completely differnet mood now anyway since this was done a month ago (I hope) which totally effects what you think about and focus on.. My point? I forgot.. Anyway, if you dont keep a journal already, I would recommend it. It helps. God bless.
@batterymesa Grow up you damn kid. Who takes pleasure in talking to someone else like that? You're just so brave because you're sitting behind your PC screen. How pathetic.
xXPARADOXx; Underneath it all i can see you are a really beautiful person. Accept yourself the WAY YOU ARE. Don't wish to be anyone else. You have your good points. We ALL have our failings, some much more than others. Today i'm just thankful that i've reached over-50 yrs even though i haven't accomplished much at all in life. This to me is an accomplishment because i never thought i'd see 50.
I'm sure you will. Society puts pressure on us that we all have to BE someone, either successful or rich or beautiful.If we don't attain it all by 30 we feel like failures. But take a look at those who are successful & rich! They are the most saddest people around and screwed up. Far worse than you or me. Have you been to a therapist? Obviously you need to talk this out with someone qualified.
I had a wonderful therapist but had to leave her, I do have a new one finally but we are in the initial stages of getting to know eachother. I like her tho, but its always hard to get to a comfort level
You are taking the correct steps.Hope I don't sound like i 'know it all' because i'm only learning & i'm not out of the woods myself. I've had panic attacks since the age of 5 or 6 and still get flashbacks. But i can only tell you what i was advised to do e.g. read about the illness so you know why you feel this way, take meds, exercise in whatever small way you can and talk it out.
Yeah, i know ..it's hard to trust anyone. Most people these days haven't got time to listen to your problems, or else they say or "snap out of it!". As if i wouldn't have liked to! Depression nearly cost me to lose everything including my life. But when you go down far enough the ONLY way is UP!
P; Have you tried the FREE simple therapy called EFT(Emotional Freedom Tapping)? It's here on youtube.(type in EFT) It's a form of acupressure especially for severe emotional problems, panic , phobias etc. It appears very odd but it works if you give it a try. You have nothing to lose! i've tried it for the last two days and i'm feeling alot better.
For most of us life is not easy. Whatever age we are we feel like 18 inside.(until we look in the mirror).But most of us living won't amount to much and have to settle for a routine life. But even for Madonna or Brad Pitt life IS basically routine. I've lost all my family over the yrs.I'm the last one left. A few members of my family committed suicide.(my lovely cousin when she was just 18 yrs). But i've had to accept it all. It hasn't been easy but what other choice is there but to accept?
I'm someone who has been near suicide on occasions. What i can say is although we become self absorbed it's not because we LOVE ourselves, it's the contrary..we HATE ourselves! Now what we have to do is learn to love ourselves(build self esteem) THEN we can be ready to show love to our offspring.
I've watched all of your videos thus far, and bringing a baby into your life is insane!! and i say that with concern and not trying to be a hater. You're completely self absorbed, which is probably what you need to get over mutiple issues, with a baby every emotion, every ounce of love, your whole entity goes to a baby. Please consider that!!
I am not self absorbed. This is the only place that I talk about me. In my life I'm doing far more for others than I do for myself, ask anyone who knows me. As for bringing a baby into my life right now, I know you're right, I don't plan to, but that doesn't stop the wanting or wishing...
I have had very acute depression for 20 yrs now. Talking and reading about the problem has helped me.
Depression CAN lead to self pity BUT this is not actually because you've caused it, rather it's a SYMPTOM of your problem. Don't rush about having a baby..the main thing is to sort YOURSELF out first. A baby would just add to the overall situation. If you are able to concentrate can you get a book by John Ruskan called "Emotional Clearing'. It shows you how to get out of the rut.
Its great that you can be open with Nikki, eventhough its hard to talk to her at moments..but she knows and accepts you. Thats a start. Nothing wrong with talking to us..its great to talk to us..you are right, we cant talk back, be judgemental, offer comfort and thats just what you need at the moment.
I admire your courage to start talking about all of these issues..I thought about just putting up a blog...and that was hard! So, just as far as you have come with it is a big step.
Hi there. I hope that you don't take this as an offence but as a compliment when I say, "That was totally cool of what you did." If anything, I feel as though I can share almost the same thing what you're going through. I hope I don't put you in a discomfort position, but do you have an e-mail address that I can just chat with ya? If you ar okay with it that is?
The key to it all is to accept. Yeah , i know this is hard (it was for me) but this is what we depressives are unable to do ACCEPT whatever life throws at us! If you fight against your feelings and keep thinking "time is running out" you will get even sadder and fearful. LET time run out if it has to. Integrate this part of your character that you dislike..embrace it and the fear will go.
I don't think this is babble at all. You try your best to describe what's going on in your head and I think you do a good job. Though I am not as depressed as you are I can understand what you're going through, not wanting to talk with anoying, wanting to be alone, etc etc. I know it's so easy to feel stupid... These bastards commenting with crappy comments don't make it any better either. I think it's brave of you to share your feelings like this. Other depressed people might find comfort init
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I'M NOT A PERVERT PEOPLE, SO DON'T PORTREY ME TO BE ONE. i'm autistic just so you know.
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25143J 7 months ago
If you have nothing to say, then why bother to make the video?
JeffersonDinedAlone 8 months ago
hey i totally understand whats going on with u.. something is changing with me and i dont feel like myself anymore. my hobbies arent fun for me and neither is playing games.. i lay in my bed because i cant sleep. i take 4 benadryl 2 tylenol and 2 nyquil.. i get drowsy as fuck but my mind never feels tired. never feels hungry never feels angry. i seriously feel like a fuckin robot.. someone help me out if u know what im going thru. im just confused as shit
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@ballachamp10 There is hope for you. This world is a dark place but there is light. His name is Jesus Christ. At the cross He defeated the powers of darkness on your behalf. You don't have to spend one more day in depression. Run into the arms of Jesus. He waits for you. Repent of your sin and ask Him to be your Lord and Savior. You've got nothing to lose except your depression and your place in hell. Go to wwwsonlifetvcom Dish ch257, DirecTV 344. Tune in on Fri&Sat11pm(cst) and all day long.
lovecantkeepquiet 6 months ago
fuck these people who troll! how are u as of late..?
thc024 10 months ago
i totally understand the depression issues..there are brighter days coming!
toledogirl 1 year ago
kill self
XordHacker 1 year ago
@XordHacker You may feel like you might as well say anything because no one gives value to what you say anyway, but whether you feel it or not, what you say affects people. Some people really are thinking about killing themselves. If someone was feeling that way and they looked at your comment to their video, and they thought, "even people who don't know me can see I should just die", and actually took your preposterous advice, then you just reinforced a terrible thought that might be deadly.
tigereyes141 1 year ago
A moneyless,classless,stateless communities of humanity expressing our freedom in creative harmonious cooperation for a world that is so POTENTIALLY AND ACTUALLY nourishing. Capitalism in any form, Statist or Corporatist is the denial of our common humanity in a politically manipulated,tyrannical armed MARKET SYSTEM of artificial scarcity that is designed to perpetuate the enslavement of immense humanity for material interest of the criminal ruling elite
arzoyan 1 year ago
Don't worry, Be Happy!!!!
Gman13676 1 year ago
I feel so sorry for you. You seem like such an amazing person and you seem so nice and kind and sensitive. Please stay strong, you're amazing and you're not stupid. Stay strong. x
charlieemills 1 year ago
All this from the movie Click? Seriously? Smoke some weed and watch a better movie.
flipper2525 2 years ago
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Your so beautiful inside and out. You seem like you have a genuine heart and it kills me to see a person like you in pain.Life is a roller coaster and you will have good times and bad times. YOur still young and you have your whole life ahead of you. Things will get better but rather than concentrating on how good things were once upon a time think about the progression you've had from your rock bottom stage. Think about the improvements you can make today.
deano671 3 years ago
god bless you
UserNamePhilek 3 years ago
god bless you
maarisraar 3 years ago
yea i totally feel for you, dont listen to those evil retards they dont know a thing about this. i know what you are going through, you need to survive this and keep going, pray always to god because only he can help in ways that you wont know but things will be right in the end just survive this time..
1onetheone 3 years ago
damn you do look depressed
but it seems its easily fixable
ill make you feel loved,
for a small fee!!!
fee of....yeah i killed the joke already
latez!
MonarcaDeLaMusika 3 years ago
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shut the fuck up!!!!! I'm suffering from paranoid schizophrenia right now and believe me i wish i was depressed instead of being a fucking schizo.
PaRaNOidSChiZoid52 4 years ago
so does my brother ....thats part of why im depressed also because i can't do anything to stop it.. life really sucks
made024 4 years ago
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strangers with this kind of honesty make me want to puke
PaRaNOidSChiZoid52 4 years ago
Dont be so hard on yourself. I'm sure your in completely differnet mood now anyway since this was done a month ago (I hope) which totally effects what you think about and focus on.. My point? I forgot.. Anyway, if you dont keep a journal already, I would recommend it. It helps. God bless.
AhYaOk 4 years ago
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virgin !
mage4sara10 4 years ago
what?
xXParadoXx 4 years ago
stfu mage4sara ur an ass...also batterymesa...
DONT listen to these retards hope you feel better...take care.
mario2269 4 years ago
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Is this a dude or a girl?
Sorry I didn't realize that this video restarted? Sorry I didn't realize what a fucking waste of time this crap is.
your brain is smaller than your eye! :D
batterymesa 4 years ago
wtf...are you retarded? do you enjoy trying to hurt someone who is already hurting?
xXParadoXx 4 years ago
@batterymesa Grow up you damn kid. Who takes pleasure in talking to someone else like that? You're just so brave because you're sitting behind your PC screen. How pathetic.
kyatorin 4 months ago
We all want those things,and we can all have them.
Just realize that you are not alone,people love you,and you have to start too love yourself aswell.
Things will get better just remember that,and never give up hope,because thats one thing no one can take from you.
towndrunk1234 4 years ago
xXPARADOXx; Underneath it all i can see you are a really beautiful person. Accept yourself the WAY YOU ARE. Don't wish to be anyone else. You have your good points. We ALL have our failings, some much more than others. Today i'm just thankful that i've reached over-50 yrs even though i haven't accomplished much at all in life. This to me is an accomplishment because i never thought i'd see 50.
mojoelem 4 years ago
That's great, I hope when Im 50 I can have your attitude, if I reach 50 :P
xXParadoXx 4 years ago
I'm sure you will. Society puts pressure on us that we all have to BE someone, either successful or rich or beautiful.If we don't attain it all by 30 we feel like failures. But take a look at those who are successful & rich! They are the most saddest people around and screwed up. Far worse than you or me. Have you been to a therapist? Obviously you need to talk this out with someone qualified.
mojoelem 4 years ago
I had a wonderful therapist but had to leave her, I do have a new one finally but we are in the initial stages of getting to know eachother. I like her tho, but its always hard to get to a comfort level
xXParadoXx 4 years ago
You are taking the correct steps.Hope I don't sound like i 'know it all' because i'm only learning & i'm not out of the woods myself. I've had panic attacks since the age of 5 or 6 and still get flashbacks. But i can only tell you what i was advised to do e.g. read about the illness so you know why you feel this way, take meds, exercise in whatever small way you can and talk it out.
mojoelem 4 years ago
Yeah, i know ..it's hard to trust anyone. Most people these days haven't got time to listen to your problems, or else they say or "snap out of it!". As if i wouldn't have liked to! Depression nearly cost me to lose everything including my life. But when you go down far enough the ONLY way is UP!
mojoelem 4 years ago
*smiles* well im holding onto the rope, and im lookin up, the climb is the hard part, but im trying
xXParadoXx 4 years ago
P; Have you tried the FREE simple therapy called EFT(Emotional Freedom Tapping)? It's here on youtube.(type in EFT) It's a form of acupressure especially for severe emotional problems, panic , phobias etc. It appears very odd but it works if you give it a try. You have nothing to lose! i've tried it for the last two days and i'm feeling alot better.
mojoelem 4 years ago
I love your culrs
Afer123 4 years ago
why thank you very much, lol
xXParadoXx 4 years ago
For most of us life is not easy. Whatever age we are we feel like 18 inside.(until we look in the mirror).But most of us living won't amount to much and have to settle for a routine life. But even for Madonna or Brad Pitt life IS basically routine. I've lost all my family over the yrs.I'm the last one left. A few members of my family committed suicide.(my lovely cousin when she was just 18 yrs). But i've had to accept it all. It hasn't been easy but what other choice is there but to accept?
mojoelem 4 years ago
curls*
Afer123 4 years ago
*grins* yeah I figured
xXParadoXx 4 years ago
I'm someone who has been near suicide on occasions. What i can say is although we become self absorbed it's not because we LOVE ourselves, it's the contrary..we HATE ourselves! Now what we have to do is learn to love ourselves(build self esteem) THEN we can be ready to show love to our offspring.
mojoelem 4 years ago
I've watched all of your videos thus far, and bringing a baby into your life is insane!! and i say that with concern and not trying to be a hater. You're completely self absorbed, which is probably what you need to get over mutiple issues, with a baby every emotion, every ounce of love, your whole entity goes to a baby. Please consider that!!
Karazona140 5 years ago
I am not self absorbed. This is the only place that I talk about me. In my life I'm doing far more for others than I do for myself, ask anyone who knows me. As for bringing a baby into my life right now, I know you're right, I don't plan to, but that doesn't stop the wanting or wishing...
xXParadoXx 5 years ago
I have had very acute depression for 20 yrs now. Talking and reading about the problem has helped me.
Depression CAN lead to self pity BUT this is not actually because you've caused it, rather it's a SYMPTOM of your problem. Don't rush about having a baby..the main thing is to sort YOURSELF out first. A baby would just add to the overall situation. If you are able to concentrate can you get a book by John Ruskan called "Emotional Clearing'. It shows you how to get out of the rut.
mojoelem 4 years ago
Its great that you can be open with Nikki, eventhough its hard to talk to her at moments..but she knows and accepts you. Thats a start. Nothing wrong with talking to us..its great to talk to us..you are right, we cant talk back, be judgemental, offer comfort and thats just what you need at the moment.
I admire your courage to start talking about all of these issues..I thought about just putting up a blog...and that was hard! So, just as far as you have come with it is a big step.
joleeann 5 years ago
thank you....im trying
xXParadoXx 5 years ago
Hi there. I hope that you don't take this as an offence but as a compliment when I say, "That was totally cool of what you did." If anything, I feel as though I can share almost the same thing what you're going through. I hope I don't put you in a discomfort position, but do you have an e-mail address that I can just chat with ya? If you ar okay with it that is?
McCaler 5 years ago
The key to it all is to accept. Yeah , i know this is hard (it was for me) but this is what we depressives are unable to do ACCEPT whatever life throws at us! If you fight against your feelings and keep thinking "time is running out" you will get even sadder and fearful. LET time run out if it has to. Integrate this part of your character that you dislike..embrace it and the fear will go.
mojoelem 4 years ago
i told you that movie would make you think about life like that *hugs* love you
jesmalu 5 years ago