You are so strong. I send positive energy to you. Over the years you have inspired me. I have never had the courage to thank you, but I can no longer just receive your positive messages: I would like to send one to you, too. Wishing for you every success! xCx
One thing I noticed was that when I was recovering from my various anxities & phobias - I started to mourn all the time I'd lost to them & then worry about what I'd be without them - but then I realised I'd gained a lot from them (compassion, humility, I'd read more) & that recovery would mean I could take what I'd learnt & use it to help others...
So if you hit that bump on the road - don't worry - it doesn't need to last.
I am sooo glad that you found a treatment that obviously suits your lifestyle to a T. I think this approach of recovering using natural means is a great idea. It sounds alot more maintainable too. I can see you're just glowing with excitement and i really admire your for being excited for this step. you ARE going to make it! im so proud of you and the choices you've made. God bless you and your recovery!!
Please consider providing a link to the next part, thanks :) I am so happy for you in your new treatment! Thank you for sharing the journey with us! :)
Oh wow thats fantastic so sorry I took so long to comment on this. I know you can do it too it just sounds so perfect for you. You are helping yourself by letting others help to heal you. You have God on your side you can not fail. It may not be overnight but it will happen. Hugs for you xxx
TPN generally feeds though. I tried to get on it and my doctor would not put me on it, said it was dangerous and not a good option for me.. this was awhile back and I had like even 10lbs more on me then. What exactly were you getting pumped with? big difference between nutrients and calorically dense solution for feeding.
Good luck to you, God bless. You are a wealth of information, I am so proud of you for getting this info out there that main stream medicine quelches. You are right on everything. My hero of the day!
So happy to see this! I've been away, and have much to catch up on here. The joy in your eyes put a huge smile on my face. Continue being kind to yourself, lovely...Much love your way.
I'm in an experimental treatment called Neurofeedback. My doctor for the proceedure is also the best in this practice. I'm basically the test bunny to find if this type of treatment will work to help other girls and boys/ men and women with eating disorders.
I struggle with it, especially right now they're tampering with the trauma section of my brain
If you'd like I'll keep you updated some how. I hope you're doing well also!
[Thank you for praying for Josh, he's doing better]
Amen. Hey sweetie, is that like biofeedback but wiring directly to brain sensors? or how does it work? who are you seeing ??? i want to research to educate myself.
They attatch little clips to your ear lobes, and then attatch other sensors to different parts of your brain to get readings from the different lobes/sections of the brain.
It's similar to biofeedback in ways. But basically they do a test on the chemicals and energy levels of your brain and try to level them, if you search "Neurofeedback" I'm sure you'll fine lots of information, I'm being treated at Swingle and Associates Neurotherapy Clinic. They mighth ave a website.
I totally agree. You CAN do this, and you WILL. I know you have the will power in your heart and mind to do this. I know this, because no matter how sick you've gotten, you never give up. You always keep treading on. I love you bby, and I'm here rooting for you!
wow, this IV treatment sounds really wonderful for what you need in this moment. and the place in hawaii is a place that I have been imagining...healing people with WHOLE food , raw food,and detoxing. i am SO excited about this! the funds will show up for you...it is all happening right now! xo
Thank you for this video! It's great to know that you are getting such good treatment. You look so happy! I might be going into an Eating Disorder treatment center sometime soon :( I'm not in your condition, but I have been many times, and my "team" would like to prevent that from happening again...:( Any advice?
You have such a healthy, beautiful glow to you in this video! I'm so happy that you are beating this and that you can get the help you deserve at with such understanding, caring doctors.
Thank you so much. God is good, isn't He? I tried to do this awhile back but didn't have the money and my Mom didn't want to help pay since insurance didn't cover it. However, she knows it's crucial to save my life right now and agreed to pay... it's 180-220 an IV and I have to have 10 to start...many people suggested i set up a paypal account for treatment donations which I plan to do. I gave all my money to my Mom for prepaid my part of rent to live in this house so every bit helps. Amen!
I just looked at the treatment center, and again looks amazing. These people seem to know what they are talking about when it comes to true health! That's definetly refreshing, because seems like all mainstream treatment centers just want you to gain weight then send you home.
I just love all your videos Johnny, your always so positive and geered up for recovery! I'm so happy for you to be on this road, it's worth it! I'm also glad you give ALL the glory to God.
It's great you have found such great treatment, sounds amazing.
My doc was doing something like this although not necessarily the same or as detailed. It was a vitamin B/electrolyte/cocktail that's what he called it. Your video makes me want to call and see if it's worth trying again. I haven't seen him since the winter time and I remember feeling so much better when I got the IVs. It mellowed me out and my brain felt at peace. I am sure you already noticed a difference after one IV ... God's working at the cellular level too ... :)
Thank you! I see it too, I feel it - it's this real raw food that's doing it. The more food I can keep in the better and the foods I eat and ways I eat are very very very healing. Thanks for noticing!!!
5 years on raw and growing strong! It's done so many amazing things for me because this is real food and the real way of healing and living. Thank you for the encouragement. I am very excited to get assistance at the clinic via IV that I am not able to do alone at home and then eventually get to the treatment center to nurse myself raw back into stable health, weight and life - it's crucial I get that assistance and supervision due to my body weight and health conditions. LONG LiVE RAW! love ya!
hugs, too addicted to the love here to ever fully disappear, just gotta do what i can here and for now that's vids every so often to share what i can! thank you for the support honey!!!
Aw honey, I can accept this compliment with gratitude. Before I couldn't because I wasn't being so active in recovery, more active in slipping but now - yes I can take this compliment and bow in gratitude.
already started, set up a new appointment for tomorrow to get back into acupuncture - hella helps me. I am on a roll, my schedule is getting full with treatment appointments each week omg!
I just have to tell you you're eyes are STUNNING today. They just look so open, bright, and receptive. I'm so proud of you and inpired for all that you are and what you've accomplished. Power to you! Sending you lot's of positive energy! Hugs!
Thank you for noticing, that's three of us now (see first comment on this video). Thank you so much! Power, yes! Today I made some good progress before the appointment (prioritized it over ed behaviors) and after (didn't go buy additional binge food or celebrate all happy with wild binge spending... and doubled my calories by allowing myself a nice raw dinner later in the evening - never eat that dense, that late but put faith in God and real food... to heal... and help. I'm on a roll) SMILE
And that's so cool, Johny!! Ans yeah - i believe in the piercing power! :)) (btw in India ppl believe that nostril piercing makes giving birth (?) to mother's child easier and not so painful))
Smile, love viewers like you who love my videos! I love to share what I can when I feel inclined to do so... lately it's totally all about giving gratitude to God, raw food and all this new progress!!!
What an honor to have such a sweet, intelligent and caring child... and what an honor to have such a wonderful Mother. Blessings to you both, I was just browsing her channel, totally impressed and left her a comment on her page for approval, hugs to you both! Thank you for the support dear.
Thank you so much dear. I am on a major space break from family, friends, except my Mom and dog so don't take offense if I'm not active. I am hella on a good track and using my therapist to rant, otherwise I am focused on creating as much positive energy for myself as possible. I am really doing well with this, my mentality is like totally better. I love my new doctor, she is not my first MD nor is this my first Iv - had a plethora of them in the ER - thing is, by choice due to desire to live!!!
hugs, how are your sac town moving plans? fall is just about here my dear, it's going to be so lovely. i can't wait. i have a gord and some little fall decor adoring my front door! time to go take dante for a nightime stroll, 10pm and just took a nap after a nice double-kcal-dense meal, woot. progress!
Thanks, I agree. They are lovely, I love the color of them when the sun hits them - shades of amber in the middle and a dark purplish ring around the darker brown. I have great eyelashes too! I am feeling very confident these days so don't mind me agreeing. I would rather agree with this compliment than disagree! I actually love many things about myself, the addiction just masks a lot of positive affirmations even if they are there. My eyes sparkle because I am living and will continue upwards!
God bless you. :)
Wendy
Iamalwaysgodschild 1 year ago
yOU'VE COME SO FAR.Emensly Proud!
m3rcy911 2 years ago
You are so strong. I send positive energy to you. Over the years you have inspired me. I have never had the courage to thank you, but I can no longer just receive your positive messages: I would like to send one to you, too. Wishing for you every success! xCx
anonymousatelophobia 2 years ago
I absolutely believe you'll recover...
One thing I noticed was that when I was recovering from my various anxities & phobias - I started to mourn all the time I'd lost to them & then worry about what I'd be without them - but then I realised I'd gained a lot from them (compassion, humility, I'd read more) & that recovery would mean I could take what I'd learnt & use it to help others...
So if you hit that bump on the road - don't worry - it doesn't need to last.
DeccaQuinne 2 years ago
Did you approved comments for this video.
SourApplez1211 2 years ago
I am sooo glad that you found a treatment that obviously suits your lifestyle to a T. I think this approach of recovering using natural means is a great idea. It sounds alot more maintainable too. I can see you're just glowing with excitement and i really admire your for being excited for this step. you ARE going to make it! im so proud of you and the choices you've made. God bless you and your recovery!!
Rachelwhite867 2 years ago
Please consider providing a link to the next part, thanks :) I am so happy for you in your new treatment! Thank you for sharing the journey with us! :)
happyquails 2 years ago
Oh wow thats fantastic so sorry I took so long to comment on this. I know you can do it too it just sounds so perfect for you. You are helping yourself by letting others help to heal you. You have God on your side you can not fail. It may not be overnight but it will happen. Hugs for you xxx
xWillowTheBlueFairyx 2 years ago
It sounds very familiar to what I was put on. I was on TPN through IV for quite a while in place of getting a feeding tube...
medicgirl1730 2 years ago
TPN generally feeds though. I tried to get on it and my doctor would not put me on it, said it was dangerous and not a good option for me.. this was awhile back and I had like even 10lbs more on me then. What exactly were you getting pumped with? big difference between nutrients and calorically dense solution for feeding.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
good luck i hope you do well, and i do beleive God will help you through thiskeep praying~erica
iamadumpling 2 years ago
Good luck to you, God bless. You are a wealth of information, I am so proud of you for getting this info out there that main stream medicine quelches. You are right on everything. My hero of the day!
KittieDanger 2 years ago
Always moving forward... :)
So happy to see this! I've been away, and have much to catch up on here. The joy in your eyes put a huge smile on my face. Continue being kind to yourself, lovely...Much love your way.
YOU CAN DO THIS!!! :D
wrongdom 2 years ago
I'm in an experimental treatment called Neurofeedback. My doctor for the proceedure is also the best in this practice. I'm basically the test bunny to find if this type of treatment will work to help other girls and boys/ men and women with eating disorders.
I struggle with it, especially right now they're tampering with the trauma section of my brain
If you'd like I'll keep you updated some how. I hope you're doing well also!
[Thank you for praying for Josh, he's doing better]
~ Chel-c <3
mylittleana 2 years ago
Amen. Hey sweetie, is that like biofeedback but wiring directly to brain sensors? or how does it work? who are you seeing ??? i want to research to educate myself.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
They attatch little clips to your ear lobes, and then attatch other sensors to different parts of your brain to get readings from the different lobes/sections of the brain.
It's similar to biofeedback in ways. But basically they do a test on the chemicals and energy levels of your brain and try to level them, if you search "Neurofeedback" I'm sure you'll fine lots of information, I'm being treated at Swingle and Associates Neurotherapy Clinic. They mighth ave a website.
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~Chel-c
mylittleana 2 years ago
I totally agree. You CAN do this, and you WILL. I know you have the will power in your heart and mind to do this. I know this, because no matter how sick you've gotten, you never give up. You always keep treading on. I love you bby, and I'm here rooting for you!
kaymarie888 2 years ago
wow, this IV treatment sounds really wonderful for what you need in this moment. and the place in hawaii is a place that I have been imagining...healing people with WHOLE food , raw food,and detoxing. i am SO excited about this! the funds will show up for you...it is all happening right now! xo
RawHealingPatch 2 years ago
whoa at about 332ish your voice changes and it sounds like the devil! scary! lol
chaquitabanana31 2 years ago
It does it all throughout both videos, it's hella creepy, so gross I laugh at it...
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I noticed that too! lol, I thought I might be going crazy or my speakers were malfunctioning. xD
mylittleana 2 years ago
Thank you for this video! It's great to know that you are getting such good treatment. You look so happy! I might be going into an Eating Disorder treatment center sometime soon :( I'm not in your condition, but I have been many times, and my "team" would like to prevent that from happening again...:( Any advice?
Licorice
Licorice1977 2 years ago
Treatment is for everyone regardless of weight, state of health, addictive behaviors, etc. Follow your instincts. What center are you looking into?
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
You have such a healthy, beautiful glow to you in this video! I'm so happy that you are beating this and that you can get the help you deserve at with such understanding, caring doctors.
Isabet 2 years ago
Thank you so much. God is good, isn't He? I tried to do this awhile back but didn't have the money and my Mom didn't want to help pay since insurance didn't cover it. However, she knows it's crucial to save my life right now and agreed to pay... it's 180-220 an IV and I have to have 10 to start...many people suggested i set up a paypal account for treatment donations which I plan to do. I gave all my money to my Mom for prepaid my part of rent to live in this house so every bit helps. Amen!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Your just glowing! so happy for you, I wish you all the strength you need to fight!
Wickedpru 2 years ago
Thank you so much. I get and owe that strength to God.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
You are going to beat this!
cutechoclatechip 2 years ago
I just looked at the treatment center, and again looks amazing. These people seem to know what they are talking about when it comes to true health! That's definetly refreshing, because seems like all mainstream treatment centers just want you to gain weight then send you home.
Lovesenduringpromise 2 years ago
I just love all your videos Johnny, your always so positive and geered up for recovery! I'm so happy for you to be on this road, it's worth it! I'm also glad you give ALL the glory to God.
It's great you have found such great treatment, sounds amazing.
Lovesenduringpromise 2 years ago
So far, so GREAT! Majorly happy for you.
There's that smile again... :)
peppernme 2 years ago
My doc was doing something like this although not necessarily the same or as detailed. It was a vitamin B/electrolyte/cocktail that's what he called it. Your video makes me want to call and see if it's worth trying again. I haven't seen him since the winter time and I remember feeling so much better when I got the IVs. It mellowed me out and my brain felt at peace. I am sure you already noticed a difference after one IV ... God's working at the cellular level too ... :)
mathgeek77 2 years ago
bless you.. God gave me a phone to give you with a note that says "call"
smile
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
youre looking much healthier, babe =] keep strong, we're all here with you xx
moeragdoll 2 years ago
Thank you! I see it too, I feel it - it's this real raw food that's doing it. The more food I can keep in the better and the foods I eat and ways I eat are very very very healing. Thanks for noticing!!!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
You got it baby!Raw food will heal you inside.Its amazing.Hope you get well as you want.Good luck to you.
DianneRawGirl 2 years ago
5 years on raw and growing strong! It's done so many amazing things for me because this is real food and the real way of healing and living. Thank you for the encouragement. I am very excited to get assistance at the clinic via IV that I am not able to do alone at home and then eventually get to the treatment center to nurse myself raw back into stable health, weight and life - it's crucial I get that assistance and supervision due to my body weight and health conditions. LONG LiVE RAW! love ya!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
you are loved.
timebombburger 2 years ago
and i am so grateful.
love back at all those who love in return...
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
This was very uplifting to watch. I'm glad you didn't disappear from youtube completely! good luck and happy thoughts =^.^=
dchsdl 2 years ago
hugs, too addicted to the love here to ever fully disappear, just gotta do what i can here and for now that's vids every so often to share what i can! thank you for the support honey!!!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I am SO happy for you. You look so joyful, it just warms my heart. You are a FANTASTIC example for those suffering.
alifeinthelens 2 years ago
Aw honey, I can accept this compliment with gratitude. Before I couldn't because I wasn't being so active in recovery, more active in slipping but now - yes I can take this compliment and bow in gratitude.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Well that's a big step my dear! And I'm sure you'll be taking many more in the future.
alifeinthelens 2 years ago
already started, set up a new appointment for tomorrow to get back into acupuncture - hella helps me. I am on a roll, my schedule is getting full with treatment appointments each week omg!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
you are amazing my friend you deserve to be as helthy as you can!^_^ i'm soooo happy for you!
MIYAVISCRAZYFERRET 2 years ago
squeeze::: hope that didn't hurt! thank you dear!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I just have to tell you you're eyes are STUNNING today. They just look so open, bright, and receptive. I'm so proud of you and inpired for all that you are and what you've accomplished. Power to you! Sending you lot's of positive energy! Hugs!
Genevra83 2 years ago
Thank you for noticing, that's three of us now (see first comment on this video). Thank you so much! Power, yes! Today I made some good progress before the appointment (prioritized it over ed behaviors) and after (didn't go buy additional binge food or celebrate all happy with wild binge spending... and doubled my calories by allowing myself a nice raw dinner later in the evening - never eat that dense, that late but put faith in God and real food... to heal... and help. I'm on a roll) SMILE
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
go you, so happy you're caring for yourself and your way!:)
TrishyxLou 2 years ago
thank you love, i am so happy i have stepped up to the plate these ways too!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I'm so happy for u , Johny, that God blessed u with this right cinic and right doctor!!!
PS I have piersing in my left nostril too :))
MissMatania 2 years ago
We got some piercing power Miss Matania! God bless you as well, He's blessing me super well!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
And that's so cool, Johny!! Ans yeah - i believe in the piercing power! :)) (btw in India ppl believe that nostril piercing makes giving birth (?) to mother's child easier and not so painful))
MissMatania 2 years ago
I am very proud of you too, I love your vidoes and I am soo happy you are recovering =D love ya
LillianMay8630 2 years ago
love back at your sweetie, thank you for watching and always supporting.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
No questions - just support :) This sounds fabulous and healing. LOVE IT
emahaffy 2 years ago
loving that! thank you, hugs.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
love your videos so much!!!!
lovemerawTV 2 years ago
Smile, love viewers like you who love my videos! I love to share what I can when I feel inclined to do so... lately it's totally all about giving gratitude to God, raw food and all this new progress!!!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
just know that you are deeply loved my dear ...when you get a chance check out my dear daughter/son Quinn at
quinnbe12
lovemerawTV 2 years ago
What an honor to have such a sweet, intelligent and caring child... and what an honor to have such a wonderful Mother. Blessings to you both, I was just browsing her channel, totally impressed and left her a comment on her page for approval, hugs to you both! Thank you for the support dear.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
thanks! she is a total total blessing :) check out my other daughter too who is a musician at lilyah524, you might dig some of the music :)
lovemerawTV 2 years ago
I offer you my most sincere congratulations and support. I am of course available to text and write if you need. PM me if you need it.
JamieSnyderTV 2 years ago
Thank you so much dear. I am on a major space break from family, friends, except my Mom and dog so don't take offense if I'm not active. I am hella on a good track and using my therapist to rant, otherwise I am focused on creating as much positive energy for myself as possible. I am really doing well with this, my mentality is like totally better. I love my new doctor, she is not my first MD nor is this my first Iv - had a plethora of them in the ER - thing is, by choice due to desire to live!!!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
No worries, dear...whatever you need is whatever you need. Just know I'm here. I have faith in you.
JamieSnyderTV 2 years ago
hugs, how are your sac town moving plans? fall is just about here my dear, it's going to be so lovely. i can't wait. i have a gord and some little fall decor adoring my front door! time to go take dante for a nightime stroll, 10pm and just took a nap after a nice double-kcal-dense meal, woot. progress!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Your eyes have a beautiful sparkle to them.....good sign.
diggs1976 2 years ago
Thanks, I agree. They are lovely, I love the color of them when the sun hits them - shades of amber in the middle and a dark purplish ring around the darker brown. I have great eyelashes too! I am feeling very confident these days so don't mind me agreeing. I would rather agree with this compliment than disagree! I actually love many things about myself, the addiction just masks a lot of positive affirmations even if they are there. My eyes sparkle because I am living and will continue upwards!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago