hi , im 12 nearlt 13 and i am Anorexic and it is very difficult and hard and i am in and out off hospital all th time and i hate it so much i cant help it ,,,,, i really hope u get better i no hw u feel i have had it for about a year i think ( her couzin )
Hi , I am jumping backwards and forwards gaining loads of weight and then losing so much weight im 2st under my usual weight of 9stone, im now 9stone again and considering reaching 6stone in the next two months for my new year at school , this video as showed me what im doing to my self I wont ever purposly change my weight again.
media has a lot to do with this. and it's not right. please make it through. i dont know you. but i shall pray to my god and goddess you make it. throughout this video i cried.
i am so sorry for you. this is not fair! some poeple cry because they have bad grades and you have to go through this! it's not fair. why did god create this hell? i don't understand it. is it sure that you don't have a last chance? please, try everything to stay alive! live can be great. really.
thanks for sharing hun, im really sad at the moment, im watching anorexia stories and it has struck to me that i may complain about being fat, but i think i shouldnt complain, as i am actually lucky to have curves?! i feel so sorry with anyone with an eating disorder, and i hope everyone gets better!!! mwah xxx
believe me, if you fight - and i mean REALLY fight - you will beat this. you have to beat the sickness and let you be in charge of yourself. i know its not as easily done as said but i'm a living proof that its as possible as it seem impossible, and if you truly want to get better you will be able to eat.
its ur anorexia thats saying "what does she know, its not that easy. im ill, i cant do this!" right now. Thats NOT your own thoughts. its not too hard. its not too late. you can do this.
Girl, ur beautiful and extremely articulate demonstrated by ur ability to produce such an emotive video. It made me want to cry but also to beg u to rise above adversity and show the world the extraordinary talented girl that you are so obviously meant to be.
Tears are actually streaming down my face at this! Gillyana, you have the most beautiful face and to create a video like this you are obviously extemely intelligent and articulate. I have wasted tooo many years on such a disease and to see someone who hasv such potential to flourish without it both inspires me and makes me feel extremely sad. Girl, you are both beautiful and intelligent, please don't let a lesser person rob you of ur tremendous potential.UR special- now is ur time 2show da world
hey thanx for posting a vid like this. That must take some guts cuz I certainly wouldnt be able to. I used to be pro ana a while ago....but now I cant stop.... barely 90 lbs at 5ft 5 inches, when I used to weigh 120 or more. I hope that more people can see the reality in this, and I hope that this society changes cuz if it werent for so many pressures ED's wouldnt exist. Atleast thats how I see it...
I have had the NG tube for since 2003 obviously not the same one...i am due to get a PEG tube fitted on the 3rd of February. I have had to fight quite hard for this as the view here in the UK about Feeding Via Tube and anorexia is that the NG tube can be removed easier. I also have to be physically well enough to have the operation to fit the PEG and in the past the risks have out-weighed the benefits. I am excited tho, to finally get my NG tube out, and be able to use the PEG instead.
Quick question, Gil: How have you been NG fed for 3 years? Typically, wouldn't they just PEG you, considering NG tubes are not meant to be used for more than a few months at a time?
i know you made this video for other people, but please think of yourself too. People who love and care for you, even those who watch your videos and don't know you are hoping and praying that you get better. Please don't give up on yourself...I see from all the things you are saying to other people with this disease that you have the strength to fight it yourself. My prayers are with you!
Hi Sweet Pea, I got your recent comment and came to check out your video blog and send you some HOPE. One thing I noticed: Yes, the feeding aid may be helping keep you alive BUT so is your SOUL. It shines through those beautifully big eyes (they look green to me?). You are still alive for a reason my dear and have an amazing story of SURVIVAL to share. Survival, not death, you are still here and fighting every day you have waken up to see another. Do you believe in God?
"Too bad we can't bottle up this disease and send it to Ethiopia. That way the starving people would be happy and in "Control" as their slowly dieing " page 2... I would delete it if I were you, bad energy and stupidity.
your video is very touching. it made me think alot. maybe if you keep trying and dont give up you will live. its very hard to stop but i know you can do it. have faith in yourself. dont listen to the people who are saying mean shit. they are just bitches trying to make you feel even worse. i wish you lots of luck. keep on trying to eat.
I'm upset you had to go through this, and I'm sorry for the ignorant people (both those who starve for looks and those who belittle anorexia). When anorexia can be solved by "just eating" or insults, let me know. The brain's a very fragile/complex organ, and there are several contributors to anorexia. Just how some people who are raised incorrectly and are genetically "short handed" become schizophrenic, anorexia is a sickness that's acquired through upbringings and family history.
I'm so sorry for you, I'm fighting with bulimia and this's really hell. I want life back, i hate my ed. Hope you'll be able to stay well, for me it's hard, but I'm getting well and I can see life.
oh..thats a really good video..but i dont understand if u dont wanna die..or u wanna be healthy or if the propose of this video is to save some other girls that doesnt eat..i dont know but...these a really good video and i hOpe u get healthy in a short time..xoxo
This video is so sad, but so true. It demonstrates the harsh reality of this terrible illness, which so many people seem to think is a self inflicted, lifestyle choice, based around vanity. Those of us who have suffered its hellish effects know full well that anorexia nervosa completely takes control of a person's mind. It did so for me for nearly 30 years, but I have found hope at last. Gilyana, if you're reading comments still, please believe there is hope. I'm praying for you. xx
Thankyou for being so strong & caring that you shared this truth. I am age 51 & anorexic since age 15. But, I have received treatment & was blessed to have cycles when I was recovered. You can get well, too! Nobody thought I could, but I did. I did relapse 1 year ago now & I am battling it with everything I have in me! Please take care & choose life!
Hard-hitting video ... I hope you're still ok now ... Just stay strong, there is a life for everyone after anorexia, it just takes some people longer to get there, but hold on x. =)
Oh.My.God. For once someone has posted a realistic and hard hitting account of anorexia. I have been in recovery for almost a year after a three year struggle-i can't even imagine going through that for four times longer like you...
You are so strong and beautiful, and even admitting that you are anti-ana shows me you have the strength to overcome it. Well done and good luck. The excrutiating pain of recovery is sooooo worth it!
i have struggled with anorexia for 4 1/2 years. I'm finally at a healthy weight after 3 rounds of IP treatment, 3 years of OP treatment, an NG tube and a G tube... and although it was hell getting there i just want you to know that its worth it. life DOES get better... the thoughts DO go away, and you CAN recover. You CAN live a wonderful life... you are so much more than this illness, you are a beautiful young woman, with a bright, hopeful future.
that was beautiful and brave. Some people I know make comments that i'm anorexic because of how I look, but they don't know what it really looks like...
I'm suffering this stupid illness tight now and I don't know if I'll ever be ok... you are right, it's a hell and all I have in my head, and no matter how hard I try to forget it it's still there, making me feel terrible. Hope your're fine right now and thanks for sharing your experience!
Thank you for posting this poignant video. I suffered from anorexia for many years, but I fought it for a long time and eventually I recovered. I think it is really disgusting that anyone would post "pro-ana" crap on the web encouraging people to self-destruct and suffer through years of pain and lonely, agonizing miserable torture. Thank you for yur honesty. I hope you survive.
yeah.. you can die from being to skinny but u can die from being to fat too becuz then your lungs will stop and all that junk thats in u will make them stop and u wont be able to breath and u will die
Hello. I am 140kg, which is morbidly obese. I think we have the same sort of struggle in our brains on two very different paths. Your video has shown me that any past prejudices i have had against girls who have anorexia have been just as judgemental as those who crucify me for my size. We both struggle with eating disorders and we both suffer health wise for it. I hope that you are getting better and that you find your moment where things change.
This was so powerful. I wish that all of the girls who are promoting the "glamorous" side to this DISEASE would see this. I have NEVER seen the glamorous side to my anorexia. It is a constant and scary battle that I cannot save myself from. I have tried and tried. All I can say is push through the hell, you will come out stronger.
THANK YOU, YOU TOUCHED ME & HAVE INSPIRED ME TO STRIVE FOR MY RECOVERY!
49lbs.!!!! That's scary! Sheeesh! Just to look like Posh Spice. Why? She's not that pretty anyway and she herself is too damn thin too. Why be thin? Thin doesn't mean healthy.
Well, someone just doesn't be anorexic for nothing. Something has to trigger it for someone to be so damn thin. Like reading women's magazines too much (it's okay to read them, but don't be too engrossed in it, I say). Too many bad ideas of how to lose weight and such. I was just making my opinion on why so many women want to be so damn thin. I still don't understand that concept, really.
Leana, unless you've experienced this, it is VERY difficult to comprehend. & you're right, we dont develop Anorexia for nothing. But it's also so loosely based on weight and numbers on the scale. It is masked that way, because it is something we CAN control, when we cant control anything else in our lives. The issue is control, not weight, which so many people have a hard time understanding.
If none can save you from what you're going through, then how would you expect this video to save someone out there who's goin through the same thing??
What a good message to send to others who are in your shoes, but I hope you don`t give up on yourself. I hope you aspire to make more than just this video, but to stand in schools talking to teens or to talk to women and tell them your story of complete recovery. Take back control of your life and make another video showing us the healthy you! I want to see that!
Thanks for making this.. im so tired of attention seeker who "want" an ED.. ITS NOT A FKING GAME!!!!!!!! Its not FUN its not GLAMOROUS!!!!!!!!!! Those who actively seek it are ridiculous.
i want to change but i cant? it takes over you,oh it makes me feel bad
i love being anorexic even though i am soooooooooooooo fat, my friends say thats just hom the desise makes you think but i am 15 and i am 4 stone, how fat is that, i must be obese.
get a grip. you know that you're underweight. Stop posting crap fishing for compliments. You see what it comes to if you don't get help. Stop wasting the best years of your life on an ED. YOU WILL NEVER GET THEM BACK!
i suffer from anorexia... n im scared its gunna get out of hand and get to the point your at... i dont no what to do.. everyone says... JUST EAT i wish it was that simple...
I'm sorry. I'm sorry about everything you've gone through. Whatever you face try to not let it get you down. You poor girl. I wish so badly I could just hug you. I read your story. Sending good thoughts your way, Someone who cares (fellow butterfly). xoxoxox
Your are so beautiful and i know you would look even prettier if you didnt have anorexia.I wish more than the best for you and i really hope you get better so soon! 49 lbs is just too little and i am glad you didnt die and i hope you live on for ever so long. you have a sweet and caring heart and ana cant take that away. <3
If Anorexia Is So Bad, Why Don't You Try And Get Better? And Also How Old Are You? You Can't Have Had Anorexia FOr Thriteen Years You Would Be Dead By Now
what is the point of your comment? shes trying to show what its like to suffer this everyday do u know how hard it is to recover from an eating disorder???
hey sweetie, im a fellow CB. stay strong! im praying for you sweetie! please pull thru!! you have so many friends that love you! even some friends you dont know of yet...we all love you and are praying for you! <3<3
... you have such expressive eyes. Even if the ed has ruined you, your eyes are still beautiful. I know it isn't easy to gain weight especially not with ana, with mia it's easier to deal with... I've had experience w/both so I know that for a fact... don't give up, it might not mean much: But even though you're real deep in this hole right now there is a way out!! hang in there!! Remember: God can do anything, let Him help you!! <3 good luck!
I am so sorry that you had to go through this... I know exactly how it feels. I struggled for one year. I'm lucky that I can still have children, my ovaries completely shut down and my kidneys would have been next is what I was told. They're working fine now. I consider myself lucky. I'm praying for u! I'm 6 months into recovery. Thank God!! That voice will get weaker as time goes by, just don't give up pls!! *hugs*
thanks for the courage of putting your face up. so many anorexics undergoing treatment end up hiding from the world, from truth, from reality. 13 years is a long time. but you have fought bravely. may you see light at the end of this tunnel; victory at the end of this battle. God bless.
thank you for your video. I spend hours every day watchin thinspo and wishing I could be thinner, planning what I can get away with not eating, fasting, obsessing. In all the thousands of videos out there of girls telling me that I just have to work harder to get thinner I found yours today, telling me to work harder to get well. Thank you.
fanningfan95, I know I'm not the girl that made the video, but I think I might be able to answer for her. Anorexics have one thing in common: The eating disorder was not chosen by us. The freaking thing itself chooses its victims.
Anyone in their right mind (key words: RIGHT MIND) doesn't want to die intentionally... and you can't just "start" an eating disorder.
I hope this helps. And I know what I'm talking about, I've been there myself.
...if only t could be that easy i got out of treatment a year ago. now i'm 13, the same age as your eating disorder. I think you would look pretty if i could see you smile.
What a courageous woman. I hear people at school talking about dieting... if only they could realise that in some cases, dieting is synonymous with dying... I hope this video reaches the masses.
hey just wanted to let you know that I'm 4 months into recovery now from this disease... I was so close to giving up just a few short minutes ago and then i remembered this video and it reminded me that I have a future not many victims will have the chance to have... thanks so much for putting this video on here. I CAN'T THANK YOU ENOUGH!!! *cries*
Good luck with everything. Chipmunkapublishing will publish your story if you want us too. Sorry you have to go through so much pain. Wish i could help.
Wow only 65lbs thats wayy to little. thats like what a 7 year old weighs. i hope you get well soon and everyone who see's this should pray for you. bless xox
you should be proud, this video is so differnt to all the other ones that try to inspire you 2 stop unlike all the others it actualy has made me think and as i sit hear im in tears, mainly because i no how easly it is for me to fall that badly.
you should keep fighting because if to can manage to recover you will be able to help so many people because you are truly insperatonal and i just want to say thank you, i still sit hear feeling compleatly disgusting but its helped to ease the pain.
i hope one day you get better until then youll be in my thoughts and prays
you should be proud, this video is so differnt to all the other ones that try to inspire you 2 stop unlike all the others it actualy has made me think and as i sit hear im in tears, mainly because i no how easly it is for me to fall that badly.
Don´t ever quit trying... u´ll be recovered. You can do it!.. God´s with u holding your hand... don´t forget that. from this day u´ll be in my prayers Gil..
I was anorexic at age thirteen. I currently have a friend who is anorexic, and acts like it isn't a big deal, and another friend who is bulimic (she also has a metabolic disorder that prevents her from losing weight). It is sad that in a society in which there is a surplus of food, some people willfully force themselves to starve, usually because of a fixation to conform to imagined social expectations.
I feel so sorry for you, I got rid of that shit after two years. If I were you, I'd have killed myself years ago, it wasn't really worth of living IMO. But like you said, your battle really has a meaning and I hope you will be healthy someday. I really do.
Thank you for putting reality out there. I am struggling with recovery for my anorexia right now. I was ok for 3 years and now it's back and I am trying to let it go. It's a hard battle. I will pray for you.
Hey... I just wanted to let you know this: Your video did save me. *cries* I was bulimic for a while, I've struggled with ana, and then I got diagnosed with ednos because of mia & ana behavior, and then it just went complete mia. When I watched the video it shook me I mean I literally fell out of my seat with tears running down my face... please send me a message, I want to tell you more.
if u'd mind can i ask u smth is it that u won't be able to eat any solid fo0d after u get too sick with this disease "anorexia"?!coz so many ppl who suufers this has to get feed with tubes n stuffs!!if any1 reads this than pls reply me bck abt my quezs thx!
Hi, it is possible that someone who is in a really severe state of starvation may have to be re fed with a tube going into their stomach at first but should then be able to cope with solid food being re-introduced but most ppl that have naso gastric tubes for long periods of time do so because the anorexia means that eating the amount they need or even sometimes anything at all is too emotionally upsetting.
waw..thx 4 repling me bck!!youtube's really co0l right after i wrote this comment i got an e-mail frm u i mean the reply!!anyways thx so much 4 repling ta my quez!!
Wonderful video, love, I've had this horrible illness for 25 years, and it still consumes me. I'm postive this video has gotten through to many who need the "wake-up" call. You have done a wonderful job by posting this. All the best.
Hi, I'm sorry that you have lived with this illness for so long. I also had anorexia in my early teens and am still preoccupied by it but thankfully, I'm now healthy.
I will pray that you get better and go on to live a happy life. Please don't give up as you deserve so much more than this. My thoughts will be with you.
That was so sad. It almost made me cry...I'm not anorexic, but I am bulimic. Thank you for having the courage to share your story. *hug* I hope you get better
I think you are truly amazing and inspirational for posting this video and I'm sure that you have given hope to many anas or future-anas. I wish I had seen this video a few years back because I know my life would have been completley different if I had. Anyway, stay strong and be positive. You'll make it out the other side of this and you'll be more beautiful than ever. X
Beautiful film. Thanks for helping all those innocent girls that think what they are doing is the way to beauty or perfection. Nobody is perfect. Maybe it's hard to accept why everybody must make little and big mistakes in life. It's part of live, it's human. Still I can't understand why it's so hard to cure from this. It's like something on a certain level happends in the brain when it gets out of control. I'm studying on this. Maybe people can help me with this.
At 88lbs, i know its a matter of time before i get so low i will die. Its not something you want people, why ask for it...thank you so much for making this gil
Please don't give up!!! It's not too late. I am so sorry for everything you are going through. You can still be one of those miracle stories.. Then you can travel and help many people going down the same path.
I think you're going to die, thank-you for your story.
regularsizechuy 5 months ago
hi just wonted to say thanks for posting this, i know it takes great corage to do somethingl like i really hope your ok xx
dead1but2alive 1 year ago
hi , im 12 nearlt 13 and i am Anorexic and it is very difficult and hard and i am in and out off hospital all th time and i hate it so much i cant help it ,,,,, i really hope u get better i no hw u feel i have had it for about a year i think ( her couzin )
reaganhogganx 2 years ago
Get well soon dearest!
tatulover2120 2 years ago
You've made a beatifull video. You're beautifull too. It's hard to stopt the thoughts, but please hold on!
If there is anything I can do for you, please tell me.
-xx-
xxmoonflamexx 2 years ago
i hope so much you get better ...
best wishes to you ...
381ellen 2 years ago
Hi , I am jumping backwards and forwards gaining loads of weight and then losing so much weight im 2st under my usual weight of 9stone, im now 9stone again and considering reaching 6stone in the next two months for my new year at school , this video as showed me what im doing to my self I wont ever purposly change my weight again.
I Love You, Not Just Your Video. You Personally !
JADEKICKSYOBUTTFOOL 2 years ago
Great song, and girl.. I still cry when I see this video.. You're so worthy! What is the name of this song?
waterlelietje 2 years ago
media has a lot to do with this. and it's not right. please make it through. i dont know you. but i shall pray to my god and goddess you make it. throughout this video i cried.
Raynevampire69666 2 years ago 3
i am so sorry for you. this is not fair! some poeple cry because they have bad grades and you have to go through this! it's not fair. why did god create this hell? i don't understand it. is it sure that you don't have a last chance? please, try everything to stay alive! live can be great. really.
0coke0zero0 2 years ago 4
thanks for sharing hun, im really sad at the moment, im watching anorexia stories and it has struck to me that i may complain about being fat, but i think i shouldnt complain, as i am actually lucky to have curves?! i feel so sorry with anyone with an eating disorder, and i hope everyone gets better!!! mwah xxx
xtina00123 2 years ago 12
i hope you get better xxx
xcrazylilfluffyx 2 years ago 3
believe me, if you fight - and i mean REALLY fight - you will beat this. you have to beat the sickness and let you be in charge of yourself. i know its not as easily done as said but i'm a living proof that its as possible as it seem impossible, and if you truly want to get better you will be able to eat.
its ur anorexia thats saying "what does she know, its not that easy. im ill, i cant do this!" right now. Thats NOT your own thoughts. its not too hard. its not too late. you can do this.
twintub1 2 years ago 10
Gil, I love you. You WILL beat this.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago 4
Great Vid!!!!
*claps*
PrincessEmbleton 3 years ago
I Thank God for AMAZING songs like this!
Take so much care Gil *hugs*
As always,
Pippa xoxo
Pippa964 3 years ago
Girl, ur beautiful and extremely articulate demonstrated by ur ability to produce such an emotive video. It made me want to cry but also to beg u to rise above adversity and show the world the extraordinary talented girl that you are so obviously meant to be.
IcyLemongrass 3 years ago
Tears are actually streaming down my face at this! Gillyana, you have the most beautiful face and to create a video like this you are obviously extemely intelligent and articulate. I have wasted tooo many years on such a disease and to see someone who hasv such potential to flourish without it both inspires me and makes me feel extremely sad. Girl, you are both beautiful and intelligent, please don't let a lesser person rob you of ur tremendous potential.UR special- now is ur time 2show da world
IcyLemongrass 3 years ago
hey thanx for posting a vid like this. That must take some guts cuz I certainly wouldnt be able to. I used to be pro ana a while ago....but now I cant stop.... barely 90 lbs at 5ft 5 inches, when I used to weigh 120 or more. I hope that more people can see the reality in this, and I hope that this society changes cuz if it werent for so many pressures ED's wouldnt exist. Atleast thats how I see it...
amindofmyownhere 3 years ago
I have had the NG tube for since 2003 obviously not the same one...i am due to get a PEG tube fitted on the 3rd of February. I have had to fight quite hard for this as the view here in the UK about Feeding Via Tube and anorexia is that the NG tube can be removed easier. I also have to be physically well enough to have the operation to fit the PEG and in the past the risks have out-weighed the benefits. I am excited tho, to finally get my NG tube out, and be able to use the PEG instead.
Gil xox
gillyana 3 years ago
Quick question, Gil: How have you been NG fed for 3 years? Typically, wouldn't they just PEG you, considering NG tubes are not meant to be used for more than a few months at a time?
prettysailorusagi 3 years ago
its one of those things that is simple when you first look at it but when u look closer its complicated.
shaylie54 3 years ago
people with anorexia start out not wanting to eat so they wouldnt eat things like chocolate or chips
shaylie54 3 years ago
wow you must be a strong person. i would have given up years ago.
Damdiea2 3 years ago
i know you made this video for other people, but please think of yourself too. People who love and care for you, even those who watch your videos and don't know you are hoping and praying that you get better. Please don't give up on yourself...I see from all the things you are saying to other people with this disease that you have the strength to fight it yourself. My prayers are with you!
nise612 3 years ago
im sorry to ask such a stupid question but what happens if you eat chips or chocolate or sumthing??
i meann ur aware of ur disease and all so wat would happen?
im sorry ur goin through all this
24pickles24 3 years ago
and this is shuch a good thing u did
shimdog99 3 years ago
stay strong! all the fighters of anorexia, dont ever ever give up!
believe in the Lord, i will be praying for you.. take care!
goohyesunfan 3 years ago 2
Love the new song! Great choice gil :)
Kindest regards,
pippa xox
Pippa964 3 years ago
I'm sorry you are suffering so much. Please keep fighting.
missdisorientated 3 years ago
Hi Sweet Pea, I got your recent comment and came to check out your video blog and send you some HOPE. One thing I noticed: Yes, the feeding aid may be helping keep you alive BUT so is your SOUL. It shines through those beautifully big eyes (they look green to me?). You are still alive for a reason my dear and have an amazing story of SURVIVAL to share. Survival, not death, you are still here and fighting every day you have waken up to see another. Do you believe in God?
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
That is the more horrific and immature comment I have EVER read on you tube. It deserves to be deleted.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
In response to this comment:
"Too bad we can't bottle up this disease and send it to Ethiopia. That way the starving people would be happy and in "Control" as their slowly dieing " page 2... I would delete it if I were you, bad energy and stupidity.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Thanks Johhny, its now deleted. Along with a few choice others. Some people are just twats!
gil xox
gillyana 3 years ago
im so sorry to watch this :(
geff4352 3 years ago
your mind is beautiful
and your heart big and bold
=]
i wish i could give you a hug.
HopIEburger 3 years ago 2
I don't know what to say. Never give up please. I will think of you, really.
DronningV 3 years ago
your video is very touching. it made me think alot. maybe if you keep trying and dont give up you will live. its very hard to stop but i know you can do it. have faith in yourself. dont listen to the people who are saying mean shit. they are just bitches trying to make you feel even worse. i wish you lots of luck. keep on trying to eat.
DarkAngelNCharmed 3 years ago 2
I'm upset you had to go through this, and I'm sorry for the ignorant people (both those who starve for looks and those who belittle anorexia). When anorexia can be solved by "just eating" or insults, let me know. The brain's a very fragile/complex organ, and there are several contributors to anorexia. Just how some people who are raised incorrectly and are genetically "short handed" become schizophrenic, anorexia is a sickness that's acquired through upbringings and family history.
manualkarma 3 years ago
I'm so sorry for you, I'm fighting with bulimia and this's really hell. I want life back, i hate my ed. Hope you'll be able to stay well, for me it's hard, but I'm getting well and I can see life.
Sorry for my terrible english, I'm italian.
bluebonnet09 3 years ago
omg!
wow,
bluerockstarbabe07 3 years ago
oh..thats a really good video..but i dont understand if u dont wanna die..or u wanna be healthy or if the propose of this video is to save some other girls that doesnt eat..i dont know but...these a really good video and i hOpe u get healthy in a short time..xoxo
luzlen 3 years ago
i have anorexia, but idk whats with me, im confused!
YesImAna 3 years ago
you shouldnt be confused.
the purpose of this video is to make you STOP.
It's not healthy. End of story
alphal96 3 years ago
U won't die :)
Ur fighting against it, and will win this battle !
Btw, do u have msn?
Hugs !
knoxtaurigen 3 years ago
This video is so sad, but so true. It demonstrates the harsh reality of this terrible illness, which so many people seem to think is a self inflicted, lifestyle choice, based around vanity. Those of us who have suffered its hellish effects know full well that anorexia nervosa completely takes control of a person's mind. It did so for me for nearly 30 years, but I have found hope at last. Gilyana, if you're reading comments still, please believe there is hope. I'm praying for you. xx
misstiggykins 3 years ago
dont die please try and eat just think of all the wonderful things in your futre if u beat this
stay strong
xx
27xxkatiexx27 3 years ago
Thankyou for being so strong & caring that you shared this truth. I am age 51 & anorexic since age 15. But, I have received treatment & was blessed to have cycles when I was recovered. You can get well, too! Nobody thought I could, but I did. I did relapse 1 year ago now & I am battling it with everything I have in me! Please take care & choose life!
PeaceChick07 3 years ago 2
Hard-hitting video ... I hope you're still ok now ... Just stay strong, there is a life for everyone after anorexia, it just takes some people longer to get there, but hold on x. =)
80katie08 3 years ago
Oh.My.God. For once someone has posted a realistic and hard hitting account of anorexia. I have been in recovery for almost a year after a three year struggle-i can't even imagine going through that for four times longer like you...
You are so strong and beautiful, and even admitting that you are anti-ana shows me you have the strength to overcome it. Well done and good luck. The excrutiating pain of recovery is sooooo worth it!
xxxxx :)
starlet246 3 years ago 3
i have struggled with anorexia for 4 1/2 years. I'm finally at a healthy weight after 3 rounds of IP treatment, 3 years of OP treatment, an NG tube and a G tube... and although it was hell getting there i just want you to know that its worth it. life DOES get better... the thoughts DO go away, and you CAN recover. You CAN live a wonderful life... you are so much more than this illness, you are a beautiful young woman, with a bright, hopeful future.
all my support goes out to you
nikki12319 3 years ago 3
that was beautiful and brave. Some people I know make comments that i'm anorexic because of how I look, but they don't know what it really looks like...
lublyannaline 3 years ago 3
I'm suffering this stupid illness tight now and I don't know if I'll ever be ok... you are right, it's a hell and all I have in my head, and no matter how hard I try to forget it it's still there, making me feel terrible. Hope your're fine right now and thanks for sharing your experience!
sirenabellodia 3 years ago 3
Stay strong!
FootballBoxing 3 years ago 2
Thank you for posting this poignant video. I suffered from anorexia for many years, but I fought it for a long time and eventually I recovered. I think it is really disgusting that anyone would post "pro-ana" crap on the web encouraging people to self-destruct and suffer through years of pain and lonely, agonizing miserable torture. Thank you for yur honesty. I hope you survive.
jendaisybee 3 years ago 2
yeah.. you can die from being to skinny but u can die from being to fat too becuz then your lungs will stop and all that junk thats in u will make them stop and u wont be able to breath and u will die
ShmexySabzx3 3 years ago
what song is that?
xdeathxxkissesx 3 years ago
that was really powerful. Hope you're ok.
AngelInSilence 3 years ago 3
Hello. I am 140kg, which is morbidly obese. I think we have the same sort of struggle in our brains on two very different paths. Your video has shown me that any past prejudices i have had against girls who have anorexia have been just as judgemental as those who crucify me for my size. We both struggle with eating disorders and we both suffer health wise for it. I hope that you are getting better and that you find your moment where things change.
Halzel 3 years ago 3
Ballerina? You were a ballerina and an anorexic? I`m the same way, so, when did you stop dancing? I really want to know how to keep up...
lollymanson 3 years ago
I have pictures of myself looking very similar to you....<3
lunargirl64 3 years ago
I saw you and your sister on TV. I still care, whatever has been said...<3
lunargirl64 3 years ago
I am praying for you. I hope you're alright. It's been a little above a year since you've posted this video.
megantheswimmer 3 years ago
Hope you're okay love... <3
lunargirl64 3 years ago
This was so powerful. I wish that all of the girls who are promoting the "glamorous" side to this DISEASE would see this. I have NEVER seen the glamorous side to my anorexia. It is a constant and scary battle that I cannot save myself from. I have tried and tried. All I can say is push through the hell, you will come out stronger.
THANK YOU, YOU TOUCHED ME & HAVE INSPIRED ME TO STRIVE FOR MY RECOVERY!
Heheals5 3 years ago 4
omg, you're so thin :( it's really sad! i hope you getting better! and remember, you're a really beautiful girl!
annahermanni 3 years ago
49lbs.!!!! That's scary! Sheeesh! Just to look like Posh Spice. Why? She's not that pretty anyway and she herself is too damn thin too. Why be thin? Thin doesn't mean healthy.
LeanaJo76 3 years ago
"not that pretty anyway?" Are you serious? THAT statement alone, can damage someone very badly.
calikaren71 3 years ago 4
Well, someone just doesn't be anorexic for nothing. Something has to trigger it for someone to be so damn thin. Like reading women's magazines too much (it's okay to read them, but don't be too engrossed in it, I say). Too many bad ideas of how to lose weight and such. I was just making my opinion on why so many women want to be so damn thin. I still don't understand that concept, really.
LeanaJo76 3 years ago 2
Leana, unless you've experienced this, it is VERY difficult to comprehend. & you're right, we dont develop Anorexia for nothing. But it's also so loosely based on weight and numbers on the scale. It is masked that way, because it is something we CAN control, when we cant control anything else in our lives. The issue is control, not weight, which so many people have a hard time understanding.
calikaren71 3 years ago
she was talking about posh spice.
theunperfect 3 years ago
ok, did you NOT see the part where she said she wasnt doing it for that reason? i hate ignorance.
theunperfect 3 years ago
aheh, that's why it's called anorexia dumbass.
chicaxdexchrist 3 years ago
If none can save you from what you're going through, then how would you expect this video to save someone out there who's goin through the same thing??
cabbat 3 years ago
What a good message to send to others who are in your shoes, but I hope you don`t give up on yourself. I hope you aspire to make more than just this video, but to stand in schools talking to teens or to talk to women and tell them your story of complete recovery. Take back control of your life and make another video showing us the healthy you! I want to see that!
paisleyyama 3 years ago
This made me cry. Congratulations, absolutely congratulations for making this. I hope with all my heart you will get out. Oh, and you're beautiful.
candydandyfairy 3 years ago 3
Thanks for making this.. im so tired of attention seeker who "want" an ED.. ITS NOT A FKING GAME!!!!!!!! Its not FUN its not GLAMOROUS!!!!!!!!!! Those who actively seek it are ridiculous.
pugxfruit 3 years ago
I wish you all the luck in the world, you really deserve the health and strength and love one can ever get.
*big hug*
theweyrd 3 years ago 2
i want to change but i cant? it takes over you,oh it makes me feel bad
i love being anorexic even though i am soooooooooooooo fat, my friends say thats just hom the desise makes you think but i am 15 and i am 4 stone, how fat is that, i must be obese.
learngym 4 years ago
get a grip. you know that you're underweight. Stop posting crap fishing for compliments. You see what it comes to if you don't get help. Stop wasting the best years of your life on an ED. YOU WILL NEVER GET THEM BACK!
theweyrd 3 years ago
thank you so much for the honesty.
lillipig 4 years ago 2
i suffer from anorexia... n im scared its gunna get out of hand and get to the point your at... i dont no what to do.. everyone says... JUST EAT i wish it was that simple...
blondebizz 4 years ago 2
i know !
everyone who don't have it think's : WHY don't they just eat ! but it's really hard !
i pray fore you, you are a beautiful woman :)
TonjeMt 4 years ago
I'm sorry. I'm sorry about everything you've gone through. Whatever you face try to not let it get you down. You poor girl. I wish so badly I could just hug you. I read your story. Sending good thoughts your way, Someone who cares (fellow butterfly). xoxoxox
mishiruMichelle 4 years ago 2
Your are so beautiful and i know you would look even prettier if you didnt have anorexia.I wish more than the best for you and i really hope you get better so soon! 49 lbs is just too little and i am glad you didnt die and i hope you live on for ever so long. you have a sweet and caring heart and ana cant take that away. <3
TheOneAndOnlyMe92 4 years ago
You have the most amazing eyes ever. Please get well soon. Love a fellow e.d girl x
MissCianciaruso 4 years ago
I hope that you get better soon. You look really beautiful when you smile, please keep smiling, please keep fighting and get better.
sesshamare 4 years ago 2
awhh.
hope yuu get better hunn
Barrel1Babe 4 years ago
GOD bless you gillyana.
i am trying to get better
lets hope you do the same sweetie
oEthnicCleansingo 4 years ago
i am balling my eyes out. you are so beautiful, girl. god bless.
peachyness88 4 years ago 3
If Anorexia Is So Bad, Why Don't You Try And Get Better? And Also How Old Are You? You Can't Have Had Anorexia FOr Thriteen Years You Would Be Dead By Now
racheybabey11 4 years ago
wieght loss differs in some ppl
i have had anorexia for 12 yrs
and i'm finally getting help
oEthnicCleansingo 4 years ago
Yuu know what dont be a bitch.
Barrel1Babe 4 years ago
what is the point of your comment? shes trying to show what its like to suffer this everyday do u know how hard it is to recover from an eating disorder???
falloutgirl89 4 years ago
(my comment is aimed at racheybaby11)
falloutgirl89 4 years ago
Yes I Do Thanks
racheybabey11 4 years ago
you're always in my heart and prayers gil stay strong, loads of love from another butterfly
danii
brokendoll137 4 years ago 3
hey sweetie, im a fellow CB. stay strong! im praying for you sweetie! please pull thru!! you have so many friends that love you! even some friends you dont know of yet...we all love you and are praying for you! <3<3
perfect1daysoon 4 years ago 5
All the butterflies miss you and are praying for you. You're so loved.
- ghostgirl.
lonelynow 4 years ago 2
There's a lot of love here... It seems that this video is reaching and touching hearts all around the globe. <3
lunargirl64 4 years ago
All of the butterflies are hoping you'll pull through! You are in our thoughts, your sister too!
midnighttd 4 years ago
I've never met you personally.
I wish I could.
You have such a story.
And I pray that you can get through these hard times :)
I know it's hard, but I want you to survive.
I'd never give your life a time to end.
Take care of yourself :) I hope these things go well.
And I'll hear from you if you are back around.
adamsonxxfifteen 4 years ago
... you have such expressive eyes. Even if the ed has ruined you, your eyes are still beautiful. I know it isn't easy to gain weight especially not with ana, with mia it's easier to deal with... I've had experience w/both so I know that for a fact... don't give up, it might not mean much: But even though you're real deep in this hole right now there is a way out!! hang in there!! Remember: God can do anything, let Him help you!! <3 good luck!
chicaxdexchrist 4 years ago 3
I am so sorry that you had to go through this... I know exactly how it feels. I struggled for one year. I'm lucky that I can still have children, my ovaries completely shut down and my kidneys would have been next is what I was told. They're working fine now. I consider myself lucky. I'm praying for u! I'm 6 months into recovery. Thank God!! That voice will get weaker as time goes by, just don't give up pls!! *hugs*
chicaxdexchrist 4 years ago 2
You saved me. Thank you.
I really hope you get throw this somehow.
Great video<3
fjint 4 years ago 2
thanks for the courage of putting your face up. so many anorexics undergoing treatment end up hiding from the world, from truth, from reality. 13 years is a long time. but you have fought bravely. may you see light at the end of this tunnel; victory at the end of this battle. God bless.
neowy 4 years ago 3
thank you for your video. I spend hours every day watchin thinspo and wishing I could be thinner, planning what I can get away with not eating, fasting, obsessing. In all the thousands of videos out there of girls telling me that I just have to work harder to get thinner I found yours today, telling me to work harder to get well. Thank you.
Lolalillybet 4 years ago 3
do you want to die? why did u start? i will pray 4 u :)
fanningfan95 4 years ago
fanningfan95, I know I'm not the girl that made the video, but I think I might be able to answer for her. Anorexics have one thing in common: The eating disorder was not chosen by us. The freaking thing itself chooses its victims.
Anyone in their right mind (key words: RIGHT MIND) doesn't want to die intentionally... and you can't just "start" an eating disorder.
I hope this helps. And I know what I'm talking about, I've been there myself.
chicaxdexchrist 4 years ago
I hope you make it this time Gil, if you want to. The butterflies all love you and are thinking about you. I send all my love to you and your family.
jj3hart 4 years ago
I'm praying for you and your sister and family. <3 <3 <3
lunargirl64 4 years ago
omg...i hope u get better...people like u fighting this disease always help save one more life!! i wish u the best of luck girl!!! i'll pray for u
andreznunez 4 years ago 2
i hope you get better an i hope this helps people understand more an evry thin all the best of luck ( " , )
x5452me 4 years ago
please eat
please stop killing yourself
please start actually living
...if only t could be that easy i got out of treatment a year ago. now i'm 13, the same age as your eating disorder. I think you would look pretty if i could see you smile.
garaxXxhinata69 4 years ago
thanks!!!:)
Kritovc 4 years ago
What a courageous woman. I hear people at school talking about dieting... if only they could realise that in some cases, dieting is synonymous with dying... I hope this video reaches the masses.
hmzeldafan 4 years ago
wow ur video was really educating thankyou, you will hepl millions
crazymanthomas1654 4 years ago
god it's really sad i gope you'll be grate!! tc!
michellemccartney45 4 years ago
Good Luck, I'm Suffering from kidney failure from anorexia but everytime i think of this video it gives me courage. thank you xxx
bethforster 4 years ago
take care....(K)(K)big hugs
Xchantal87X 4 years ago
(((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
pinkpisces 4 years ago
hey just wanted to let you know that I'm 4 months into recovery now from this disease... I was so close to giving up just a few short minutes ago and then i remembered this video and it reminded me that I have a future not many victims will have the chance to have... thanks so much for putting this video on here. I CAN'T THANK YOU ENOUGH!!! *cries*
chicaxdexchrist 4 years ago
i loved this video, thanks for sharing.
Keep strong, i'm sure you'll get well.
krimmola 4 years ago
Oh how very sad. I wish you luck and hopefully your story does help prevent this from happening to someone.
caliblonde626 4 years ago
great video
KungFu17 4 years ago
Good luck with everything. Chipmunkapublishing will publish your story if you want us too. Sorry you have to go through so much pain. Wish i could help.
Chipmunkapublishing 4 years ago
Wow only 65lbs thats wayy to little. thats like what a 7 year old weighs. i hope you get well soon and everyone who see's this should pray for you. bless xox
TheOneAndOnlyMe92 4 years ago
good luck...
TheGate611 4 years ago
Great movie Gil...Take care<3 I`m Celli...
CellThePeacefull 4 years ago
btw the 2 below are supost 2 be 1 but they didnt fit so i had 2 split them
chazza2311 4 years ago
you should be proud, this video is so differnt to all the other ones that try to inspire you 2 stop unlike all the others it actualy has made me think and as i sit hear im in tears, mainly because i no how easly it is for me to fall that badly.
chazza2311 4 years ago
you should keep fighting because if to can manage to recover you will be able to help so many people because you are truly insperatonal and i just want to say thank you, i still sit hear feeling compleatly disgusting but its helped to ease the pain.
i hope one day you get better until then youll be in my thoughts and prays
chazza2311 4 years ago
you should be proud, this video is so differnt to all the other ones that try to inspire you 2 stop unlike all the others it actualy has made me think and as i sit hear im in tears, mainly because i no how easly it is for me to fall that badly.
chazza2311 4 years ago
Don´t ever quit trying... u´ll be recovered. You can do it!.. God´s with u holding your hand... don´t forget that. from this day u´ll be in my prayers Gil..
God bless u. kisses from Ecuador
vanedenadal 4 years ago
you should be proud... you've made me think, really think
topazpup 4 years ago
I'm praying for you. Good luck with everything, I'm fighting to get this monster out of my brain as well, but it's sure as Hell a hard battle.
xoxo
megantaylorx 4 years ago
I was anorexic at age thirteen. I currently have a friend who is anorexic, and acts like it isn't a big deal, and another friend who is bulimic (she also has a metabolic disorder that prevents her from losing weight). It is sad that in a society in which there is a surplus of food, some people willfully force themselves to starve, usually because of a fixation to conform to imagined social expectations.
machinaexanimalia 4 years ago
you helped me. thats all i need to say. thank you.
destroyburberry123 4 years ago
this helped me a bit, i don't know what to do. all i want is this devil out of my head..
whitetrashh 4 years ago
thank you for making this video this has helped my friend with an eating disorder see the dangers of what she is doing this video is a lifesaver
samaroony 4 years ago
gil honey....my friends were really worried about you when i showed them how bad things have been for you a few weeks back,
its a lovely video.
and i think its important that all the ana wanabies and uneducated peps in the world see how things really are for some people,
xxx
Gymnastkat 4 years ago
You dont have to die, you can fight it and you can get well. I believe in you!!
disordered87 4 years ago
I feel so sorry for you, I got rid of that shit after two years. If I were you, I'd have killed myself years ago, it wasn't really worth of living IMO. But like you said, your battle really has a meaning and I hope you will be healthy someday. I really do.
Paperbagbitch 4 years ago
Amazing video, so sad i really wish that one day you will get better.
XXxTearxXX 4 years ago
Thank you for putting reality out there. I am struggling with recovery for my anorexia right now. I was ok for 3 years and now it's back and I am trying to let it go. It's a hard battle. I will pray for you.
Kristen
skinney4life 4 years ago
I'm glad you made this... it reminds me yet again of why I do NOT want to go back to my ED.
shrinerspark 4 years ago
I'm crying right now- your video did save me, honey!
AndromedaMariaCarmen 4 years ago
you are so pretty. dont give up! you can beat the anorexia, it was given another chance for you to recovery, dont waste it!!
merysurf 4 years ago
I just want to say that Im glad someone has the courage to make such a vid. I truly hope that someone will be touched by it.
Fryktmeg 4 years ago
Hey... I just wanted to let you know this: Your video did save me. *cries* I was bulimic for a while, I've struggled with ana, and then I got diagnosed with ednos because of mia & ana behavior, and then it just went complete mia. When I watched the video it shook me I mean I literally fell out of my seat with tears running down my face... please send me a message, I want to tell you more.
spanish3girl09 4 years ago
all the best to u hunni....this video made me cry cos ive been battling anorexia for 3 years now .... stay strong xxx
ruthyjames 4 years ago
your beautiful when you smile , i am bulimic about 10years, i m french, i m proana and i not juged all people
seikoana 4 years ago
thanks for the video. i think you have plenty to be proud of after all! great to see the reality for a change.
KungFu17 4 years ago
All my love tyo you!!
I have cried with your video I am 18 and I saw myself there... :(
princesita89 4 years ago
All my love tyo you!!
princesita89 4 years ago
if u'd mind can i ask u smth is it that u won't be able to eat any solid fo0d after u get too sick with this disease "anorexia"?!coz so many ppl who suufers this has to get feed with tubes n stuffs!!if any1 reads this than pls reply me bck abt my quezs thx!
gnrqueen 4 years ago
Hi, it is possible that someone who is in a really severe state of starvation may have to be re fed with a tube going into their stomach at first but should then be able to cope with solid food being re-introduced but most ppl that have naso gastric tubes for long periods of time do so because the anorexia means that eating the amount they need or even sometimes anything at all is too emotionally upsetting.
XxsuperchickxX123 4 years ago
waw..thx 4 repling me bck!!youtube's really co0l right after i wrote this comment i got an e-mail frm u i mean the reply!!anyways thx so much 4 repling ta my quez!!
gnrqueen 4 years ago
Wonderful video, love, I've had this horrible illness for 25 years, and it still consumes me. I'm postive this video has gotten through to many who need the "wake-up" call. You have done a wonderful job by posting this. All the best.
TheStrawberryNinja 4 years ago
Thank you so much for having the courage and strength to post this wonderful video.
Sinaminnsugary73 4 years ago
Hi, I'm sorry that you have lived with this illness for so long. I also had anorexia in my early teens and am still preoccupied by it but thankfully, I'm now healthy.
I will pray that you get better and go on to live a happy life. Please don't give up as you deserve so much more than this. My thoughts will be with you.
XxsuperchickxX123 4 years ago
That was so sad. It almost made me cry...I'm not anorexic, but I am bulimic. Thank you for having the courage to share your story. *hug* I hope you get better
WretchedLives 4 years ago
I admire you so much for posting this video. Thank you
myartisfashion 4 years ago
Much love, stay strong.
hurtingmoreandmore 4 years ago
I think you are truly amazing and inspirational for posting this video and I'm sure that you have given hope to many anas or future-anas. I wish I had seen this video a few years back because I know my life would have been completley different if I had. Anyway, stay strong and be positive. You'll make it out the other side of this and you'll be more beautiful than ever. X
onix600 4 years ago
Beautiful film. Thanks for helping all those innocent girls that think what they are doing is the way to beauty or perfection. Nobody is perfect. Maybe it's hard to accept why everybody must make little and big mistakes in life. It's part of live, it's human. Still I can't understand why it's so hard to cure from this. It's like something on a certain level happends in the brain when it gets out of control. I'm studying on this. Maybe people can help me with this.
miekje72 4 years ago
i love you gil. you are beautiful.
happyyet from my. space.
At 88lbs, i know its a matter of time before i get so low i will die. Its not something you want people, why ask for it...thank you so much for making this gil
Elcgah 4 years ago
this is the side of anorexia people realy needed to see.
this is nothing beautiful, and you cant have it for amount then lose it..it haunts you forever.
KindaNLuv 4 years ago
Please don't give up!!! It's not too late. I am so sorry for everything you are going through. You can still be one of those miracle stories.. Then you can travel and help many people going down the same path.
TaraDawn2383 4 years ago
You know I love you and wish you only the best. Thanks for the link hun! Awesome job!--Andrea
courage2b 4 years ago
This makes me hungry...
nodnarb101 4 years ago
Don't give up Gil, stay strong, I pray for you in my heart for God, sooo much!
BananasAndCream 4 years ago
GOD BLESS YOU!!! <333
chi714 4 years ago
GOD BLESS YOU <33333!!
chi714 4 years ago
i am SO SO sorry
derkaderkaa 4 years ago
i dont no u but god bless
jedimasterla 4 years ago
this made me cry...
don't give up, gil.