I GIVE UP ON LIFE!soon i might be going to juvenile cause im not going to school but i dont care anymore i know no one cares about me here i been depress since i was 12 but
now im 15 my own mom is calling me a loser and dont want me around my lil bro anymore cause she dont want my lil bro turn into a big loser like me,i want to die i am haunted by my childhood memories of what my big bro and my grandpa did to me
im ugly and fat and fail at everything...so i give up..i dont give a shit anymore
It's not simply down to 'If I only had a heart', and that the absence of one makes me unable to reach out to people. In times like these I know very well that I have a heart, because I can feel it pounding fit to burst. If the person sees that I'm shaking, I fear that they may feel intimidated more than comforted. It's really just as if I were about to perform a piece ... a bit like stage fright.
Even if I actually do pluck up the courage to carry out my plan, I become so overwhelmed that I fail to co-ordinate the use of facial expressions, tone of voice and body contact all at the same time, so that it sounds revoltingly timid and artificial. I believe reaching out to people is down to skill, and that motives alone cannot achieve this. And I’ve known good angels that make it look easy. I need to be hugged more myself.
You know why so many teens commit suicide? It's because the world is dark, cold and cruel place with a few happy moments tossed here and there. Life is a bitch with a 14 inch strap on. People say "oh it will get better" well you know what, it doesn't! Maybe for some but not for all. Life is unfair and then you die. Killing yourself is the best way (in my opinion) to actually be free of pain. It's the ultimate "fuck you"
No body likes me, I have no talent, everything I do I fail at, my parents are selfish, , the world depends too much on work and money, the schools give too much homework that I have to stay up to 3:00 AM every 6 days to do it, everything I do people think is wrong, fk it Im leaving. I wanna make history.
Everyone who is reading this comment, please click on my username for my videos I made about the The Truth of the World. I have found out what the truth of life is, the truth of the world, and the truth of God. Please, I really want people to watch and listen what I have to say. No more living in false reality, no more living in illusions, no more thinking there is no way out......its time to lead your life into The Truth of the World!!!!!!!!!
is it really wrong to want to die i have friends and i have good grades but i feel like a failure i lost my dad when i was 11 he was an alcoholic and he had a heart attack i found him on the floor of my parents' room in 2005, and then my five year old little brother died in surgery in 2008 getting his spine straightened he went into a coma and nothing could be done, i feel like i could have done somehting to change it all, but i failed, so why shouldn't i die too? i always screw everything up.
@damnlullabymunchkins late reply but. It actually is wrong to die. Depression makes you feel like you want to die because of the shit it does to your brain. It ACTUALLY slowly shuts down parts of your brain, making you think death = good. No properly functioning brain will want to die. It's nature. There for if you want to die, something is up. And why shouldn't you die? Cause you're a person
@damnlullabymunchkins (: You'll get a chance to do something, smile at someone, change someone. You get those chances all the time and you change everyone around you. I think live for others, not for yourself and you will have lived a great life.
@mercscout I'd love to, though 'don't be afraid to be warm and tender' is easier said than done for me. It shouldn't be too much for me to go up to someone who's having a bad day and offer a few words of praise or sympathy in a convincingly kind and gentle tone, or give their hand a squeeze or something like that, but each time I plan to 'approach' someone ... just as I'm at the point of doing it ... my heart begins to pound very fast and I start to shake.
STOP. think about this...everyone who DOES love you will be pained forever and have you lost because of one stupid mistake., death can never be un-done and you have to know that people DO love you.
life is the best gift anyone can be givin,
anything that ever has happened has had to do with life...
think about this:
nothing can get better unless it was bad to start with, maybe this is just a low point
u no wht i thought about commiting suicide and i wouldn't give people the satisfaction.. you become another statistic and another topic of coversation in peoples sad little lives ( and they are probably going through their own little personal hells) Don't be the loser be the winner... make it to the end and push and push until u find happiness that is what i am trying to do
i agree with that, that's basically one of the main things that keeps me from comittingsuicide (that, and i want to see the end of the world when (or if) it happens)
but yeh, suicide is starting to feel like a option to me now. my grades suck, i feel as if my life is going nowhere, soon i'm gonna have a baby to deal with for the rest of my life.. oh yeah, and i've tried it before.. damn trying to hng myself with a shoestring, lol.. such an idiot, i was..
ha, i have told everyone and they dont care enogh to get me help, not even pills, and iv tried 4 times, seems that sufficatoin dosnt work, only gives you a light head, tried cutting wrists, made a small cutt to test, too painful, and sadly i cant find a place to hang my self from :-/ so im pretty much fucked...i dont even care when i cross streets thow...i hope i get hit one of these days....or mabye my constent spread of benine tumors well turn cancerus one of these days, can only hope
I know what it's like to be sick all the time, and not be able to have a normal life. You aren't alone. I've tried suicide, and have lost a friend to suicide. Believe me, it solves nothing. You can still get help, and even help someone else in return. If you need to talk, I'm around.
I believe when people start thinking about suicide, its almost like a disease, it's really hard to get rid of it once you get it. This was very informational. Thank You!
you made such A recovery
Nerf1maniac 3 months ago
Grandpagirl22: I saw your profile. THIS IS HOW YOU YOU MAKE PROGRESS PEOPLE! I can't
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laparolelibre1 1 year ago
I GIVE UP ON LIFE!soon i might be going to juvenile cause im not going to school but i dont care anymore i know no one cares about me here i been depress since i was 12 but
now im 15 my own mom is calling me a loser and dont want me around my lil bro anymore cause she dont want my lil bro turn into a big loser like me,i want to die i am haunted by my childhood memories of what my big bro and my grandpa did to me
im ugly and fat and fail at everything...so i give up..i dont give a shit anymore
grandpagirl22 1 year ago
Problem is. No one cares. They won't think of you being suicidally depressed until you say that you are going to kill yourself. No one cares.
wardogthemasterofwar 1 year ago
It's not simply down to 'If I only had a heart', and that the absence of one makes me unable to reach out to people. In times like these I know very well that I have a heart, because I can feel it pounding fit to burst. If the person sees that I'm shaking, I fear that they may feel intimidated more than comforted. It's really just as if I were about to perform a piece ... a bit like stage fright.
Ilovecats112233 1 year ago
Even if I actually do pluck up the courage to carry out my plan, I become so overwhelmed that I fail to co-ordinate the use of facial expressions, tone of voice and body contact all at the same time, so that it sounds revoltingly timid and artificial. I believe reaching out to people is down to skill, and that motives alone cannot achieve this. And I’ve known good angels that make it look easy. I need to be hugged more myself.
Ilovecats112233 1 year ago
You know why so many teens commit suicide? It's because the world is dark, cold and cruel place with a few happy moments tossed here and there. Life is a bitch with a 14 inch strap on. People say "oh it will get better" well you know what, it doesn't! Maybe for some but not for all. Life is unfair and then you die. Killing yourself is the best way (in my opinion) to actually be free of pain. It's the ultimate "fuck you"
Clwsfan864 1 year ago
@Clwsfan864 that's exactly how life is
mrjo0e1 5 months ago
this shouldn't just be directed towards females.
suurdiva 1 year ago
Im gonna kill myself.
No body likes me, I have no talent, everything I do I fail at, my parents are selfish, , the world depends too much on work and money, the schools give too much homework that I have to stay up to 3:00 AM every 6 days to do it, everything I do people think is wrong, fk it Im leaving. I wanna make history.
Kalishnov 1 year ago
@Kalishnov
Good Luck
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theseeker2k5 1 year ago
is it really wrong to want to die i have friends and i have good grades but i feel like a failure i lost my dad when i was 11 he was an alcoholic and he had a heart attack i found him on the floor of my parents' room in 2005, and then my five year old little brother died in surgery in 2008 getting his spine straightened he went into a coma and nothing could be done, i feel like i could have done somehting to change it all, but i failed, so why shouldn't i die too? i always screw everything up.
damnlullabymunchkins 2 years ago
@damnlullabymunchkins late reply but. It actually is wrong to die. Depression makes you feel like you want to die because of the shit it does to your brain. It ACTUALLY slowly shuts down parts of your brain, making you think death = good. No properly functioning brain will want to die. It's nature. There for if you want to die, something is up. And why shouldn't you die? Cause you're a person
mercscout 1 year ago
@damnlullabymunchkins (: You'll get a chance to do something, smile at someone, change someone. You get those chances all the time and you change everyone around you. I think live for others, not for yourself and you will have lived a great life.
mercscout 1 year ago
@mercscout I'd love to, though 'don't be afraid to be warm and tender' is easier said than done for me. It shouldn't be too much for me to go up to someone who's having a bad day and offer a few words of praise or sympathy in a convincingly kind and gentle tone, or give their hand a squeeze or something like that, but each time I plan to 'approach' someone ... just as I'm at the point of doing it ... my heart begins to pound very fast and I start to shake.
Ilovecats112233 1 year ago
ToAnyoneWhoIsThinkingOfSuicide:
STOP. think about this...everyone who DOES love you will be pained forever and have you lost because of one stupid mistake., death can never be un-done and you have to know that people DO love you.
life is the best gift anyone can be givin,
anything that ever has happened has had to do with life...
think about this:
nothing can get better unless it was bad to start with, maybe this is just a low point
please, message me
MAGGiE
DANCEx19 2 years ago
all that video did was make me feel depressed but i just watched it cause i saw it on the side bar thing
goatgirl33 2 years ago
Yeah, but the pain of being a teenager, and school, is too great for some people, so suicide's the only escape!
stopfactoryfarming 2 years ago
actually no its not. people like u who arent right in the head just think that. get some friends. get out more. thats all it takes
goatgirl33 2 years ago
tell me abt it.
meowewie 3 years ago
ha, my friends dont care about me...if i didnt tell them i was suicidal and emo they wuldnt be my friends. im running away!!!!!!!!
meowewie 3 years ago
You did a wonderful job with this video.
mafaldacrumbwitty 3 years ago
i lost my bff to suicide..its a rough thing to know that you coulda stopped it..R.I.P. Sammie
catsrul1234 3 years ago
u no wht i thought about commiting suicide and i wouldn't give people the satisfaction.. you become another statistic and another topic of coversation in peoples sad little lives ( and they are probably going through their own little personal hells) Don't be the loser be the winner... make it to the end and push and push until u find happiness that is what i am trying to do
weechampion 3 years ago 4
i agree with that, that's basically one of the main things that keeps me from comittingsuicide (that, and i want to see the end of the world when (or if) it happens)
but yeh, suicide is starting to feel like a option to me now. my grades suck, i feel as if my life is going nowhere, soon i'm gonna have a baby to deal with for the rest of my life.. oh yeah, and i've tried it before.. damn trying to hng myself with a shoestring, lol.. such an idiot, i was..
HighPers0n 2 years ago
Please don't. U r not alone. Tell someone you trust.
carrotjuse 3 years ago 3
ha, i have told everyone and they dont care enogh to get me help, not even pills, and iv tried 4 times, seems that sufficatoin dosnt work, only gives you a light head, tried cutting wrists, made a small cutt to test, too painful, and sadly i cant find a place to hang my self from :-/ so im pretty much fucked...i dont even care when i cross streets thow...i hope i get hit one of these days....or mabye my constent spread of benine tumors well turn cancerus one of these days, can only hope
iamabigfatbutt 3 years ago
I know what it's like to be sick all the time, and not be able to have a normal life. You aren't alone. I've tried suicide, and have lost a friend to suicide. Believe me, it solves nothing. You can still get help, and even help someone else in return. If you need to talk, I'm around.
mafaldacrumbwitty 3 years ago
good video!!
krishnaofdeath 3 years ago 4
i remeber this
auriejt12 3 years ago
this is a good video
beltrerocks 3 years ago 3
thats really good ^_^
bballfan1021 3 years ago 3
I believe when people start thinking about suicide, its almost like a disease, it's really hard to get rid of it once you get it. This was very informational. Thank You!
PandaWho 3 years ago 4
Wow this a really good video
MintyGirl1 3 years ago 6
wow...
nice job...
keikomeiko 3 years ago 6