yeah, i'm a much nicer person now too. i've stopped beating up on myself. i don't go mad anymore. i still have the indifferent feelings about some people but i no longer have to let them hear it. i'm that much closer to living a comfortable life. i actually like myself now. lots of work to be done yet. i still have down times but have learned how to come to the present moment in my thinking, which stops all negativity.
yes, baddog, it took me a long time to find a therapist who was willing to do the job of educator. most of them wanted major control so i stopped going. i finally figured out i had to own the illness before i could get some relief. the best way to do that was to get educated. by focusing on the present moment - all the time - i am able to burn up the past and stop all anxiety...which is related to thinking about the future. read eckhart tolle. it will help 100%...... you're welcome.
i think i know it all. that will probably never change. i must be empowered with education and self-reflection techniques. with a therapist i create a learning atmosphere to separate the illness from myself. i control the therapy; she facilitates education. my #1 rule is to talk about nothing but NOW. i'm working on making new friends by using the same technique of only thinking about this moment...or NOW.
i guess in china and Korea any personally is sticky forbidden. Yes to even think a van could come and take you for live body harvesting would be a paronoid disorder. yes very ill!!!!!!!
I think this is bullshit. This is like the "gateway mental illness" once you get diagnosed with this, they tag on 10 other diagnoses. Similar to how they claim weed as the "gateway drug" once you start smoking weed, you'll go onto other drugs looking for a better high. Neither one is true, Just because I don't like things 1 day, and the next I do doesn't mean I have multiple personality traits. And I smoke weed, have for years, and I've never once took a hit of crack, meth, heroin, LSD, etc etc.
I'm so tired of these comments on videos about borderlines stigmatizing us and basically saying every borderline is a horrible person with no regard of another's feelings. I live my life trying to be kind to all I meet. I volunteer at several organizations. I cook my family meals. I watch children. I care for my cats. I have been in loving romantic and family relationships. And I have borderline personality disorder. Yes, some borderlines are abusive to a severe point. But not all of us. Stop a
look you problems are real and probably make you feel ill.
you can't be fixed with anti depressants or anti psychotics though if the same issue remains.
I just read more low life stuff. psychiatry perceives the Elderly with dementia as behavior issues. They are given anti psychotics and there over 1000 death a year.
many new disorders are called 'non psychotic disorders' yet the only treatment are anti psychotics. it's a scam.
Madonna has a song called Borderline. i just read the lyrics. Borderline is real.
But no it's sold as a 'mental illness'. an actual disease. you need big pharmacy psychiatric drugs. therapy will be ignored. there even targeting girls on weak criteria questions..
Border line is derived from schizophrenia with psychosis (more imaginary diseases) by DSM.
Just shut up when dealing with mental heath or clinical psychiatrist. Or expect fake nurses, grabbing, fake eye checks, drugging, observation.
this is one world government big plan to destabilize us all. they have all of you below trying to diagnose other people and your family for 3 symptoms.
for such a claim you demand proof like any other illness,chemical problem, "the disease". The medication is there to de-satablise your brain. it uranium. fixes nothing!
this Asian comes from a country that has live execution vans in major cities for live organ havering.
actually that has nothing to do with anything! She just looks evil
this is one world government big plan to destabilize us all. Yep, now they have all of you below trying to diagnose other people and your family.
for such a claim you demand proof like any other illness or chemical problem or "the disease". The medication is there to de-satablise your brain as it urunium. not fix anything.
this lady in interview comes from a country that has live execution vans in very major city of live organ havering.
@krazydoggie i was put on a detention last july for that and released to my own custody a few hours later.go figure i guess they thought isince i was allready there i didnt have far to go to be put back in.and who brings a bpd patiant a plastic knife on thier food tray?
My former spouse has this disorder. She hurts herself with knives and has attempted suicide many times. Currently, at age 53, she has gone from morbid obesity to a wasted state from a newer diagnoisis of anorexia nervosa. Yes, she was sexually abused as a child by an uncle.
This disorder may be closer to what is known as demonic possession than other so called personality disorders. My mother was paranoid schizophrenic which also could be seen as such. I am a 20 year Navy veteran and RN.
I grew up with a parent who had BPD. Yes, they are extremely sensitive people, but they spread their pain to OTHER people as well. Which is totally uncalled for. Then my mother wonders why I haven't talked to her in years. I tried helping her many, many times, but through that process she has mentally abused me to the point that I don't want to deal with her anymore. These people need serious psychiatric help because not only are they a harm to themselves, but to others just the same.
I found PROZAC!!! and yes, we spread our pain to others. I agree it's not fair but when we are embraced in our pain, we can't think straight. AT ALL....It takes over like such selfishness it is crazy. It is EASY to resolve.. I asked for Prozac. I got it and will NEVER stop taking it. I don't want to be that crazy bitch ever again. I literally had NO control...Love
I lived with a borderline gf for 4 months. I noticed extremely manipulative behavior, extreme chaos and constant lying. Oh and let's not forget constant lying. It was a nightmare. I found out after the break up that she was telling people I was physically and emotionally abusing her. They did not believe her because apparently she said this about ALL her bf's. The main thing to notice is they manipulate your emotions. Read posts from borderline's on this page. Notice the guilt trip?
@TheMightykaz it is so sad that borderlines live like that and it hurts me that I can't do anything to save them, mainly cause they scare the fucking shit out of me! super rages, destroying and influencing people to steal your property, threating to call the law for abuse when nothing is happening, and the shit is god damn super fucking scary and stressing and painful, they need help
I think "empathy" is overrated as a supposed psychiatric skill. More important is a skilled diagnostician who can help people suffering with mental illness. You want the benefit of expertise, not a friend.
@TheDiddlysquat Yeah...you aren't judgemental or hypocritical, yet you JUDGE -keyword judge- Homosexuals just because they were born differently than you. Should they judge you for being straight?
@TheDiddlysquat I'm neither I'm just a logical 12 year old who is not judgemental or hypocritical in any way whatsoever, you should really put your bible down and THINK FOR YOURSELF. And by the way Mental Illness = Any of the many mental illnesses that have been discovered.
Retarded = Mentally impaired which is a mental illness I'll give you that but not necessarily, I was simple asking if I should reguard you as shit or not. (:
this is interesting ....they feel relief when they cut themselves .....maybe they have a dopamine deficiency and somehow the self mutilation causes them to feel dopamine
It's funny,someone non medical professional,diagnosed me with this disorder,now that I am researching it,that person fits every criteria for the disorder herself.Is that too a trait?
it takes time. You'll get your self-worth and identity from God not from a therapist. again, it takes time but you'll get there. when something is wrong with the parts you gotta go back to the manufacturer - He who made you.
@italia9284 yelp thats we I left ... it was like every girl mostly had this disorder .... more than guys like black or hispanic chicks fighting and such oohh and also Italian
Well i live in NJ and im italian...lol but im better than all that nonsense...not perfect just better...I have jesus as my Lord and savior and He has done amazing things for me.....and people to BPD....just need to to turn to God....
Not everyone with a history of self mutilation is borderline (that's just 1 of many symptoms) The abandonment issues I'd say is MUCH more of a hallmark trait. This woman knows what she is talking about, but did anyone else find her a little smug? I've known people with BPD and they can drive you nuts, but like she said there is a huge variability in presentation. I know some shrinks that think ANYONE was have EVER cut is automatically borderline (and a lot of teens do it to be part of a group).
It's the abandonment and rejection, or even the preceived fear of being abandoned and rejected...and we create this because it's our worst possible fear, and we know the crippling pain that comes with it. Undescribable unless you have felt it. That undescribable pain is what leads to cutting. Releasing pain with pain.
@Krazydoggie I understand what you are saying and that for you, fear of abandonment or to feel better is your reason for cutting. I was simply stating that not everyone who has ever self-injured is necessarily borderline. A borderline's reasons for cutting are going to be different from someone without an axis 2 disorder (for instance, someone who is schizophrenic, high on drugs, cutting as a ritual or because of OCD, cutting for sexual pleasure, etc). That's all I was saying.
There's nothing worse than listening to a psychiatrist describe a personality disorder that they only know about because they read the book. This woman shows no feeling at all for the patient. Let me tell you about Borderline Personality Disorder....We are highly sensitive, we need love and to be cared for, we feel pain 10x greater than your emotional pain....this is why we cut, to relieve the pain, we feel empty and worthless because this is what we were told. We lash out because we hurt.
@Krazydoggie But you have to see like it. Borderline Patients are not able to see their illness. There must be a way to describe this mental status so others can understand and learn. You, or borderline patient, are the center of the attention, which is hard to deal for others....because they have feelings, too. So I would like to point out, to be thankful for those, who try to learn about sicknesses so these prejudiced have chance to be a part of the society....
The pain you feel inside is so overloading it feels like you are going to explode. It hurts, and the only way to make the pain in your "heart" go away is to cut...like killing pain with pain. You wouldn't be able to ever understand it unless you have felt the pain. It's not normal. I've had normal emotional pain & borderline pain. borderline pain will make you crazy.
@Krazydoggie Well if we go by ur logic, I guess we'll have to fire all the therapists in the country. My mom has BPD, and I'll tell you firsthand what a serious mental illness it is and how more Ts need to be aware of it--but honestly, this woman sounds well-informed and I can't tell how she treats her patients as she isn't in session in w one... I don't blame you for your black and white thinking in this situation, but it worries me that 14 other people do.
@Krazydoggie btw, I doubt you'll listen, but to raise awareness for the benefit of everyone else who has grown up with a bpd parent: to be all good or bad, not allowed to have friends or ur own sense of self, wondering when ull randomly set ur parent off for smthng like folding the towel wrong, taking care of our parent's emotional needs from a very early age... "we feel pain 10x greater than your emotional pain" that's no excuse for your actions. I hope u recover and are happy soon, but ...
@Krazydoggie make no mistake, there's more consequences to BPD than what has been listed here. your illness does effect everyone around you, and I sincerely hope you feel better again soon. whether you BPDs feel more pain and need more love than the rest of us.. who's to say? sounds very b/w to me tho.
@dreamcaster555 People with BPD need a lot of love. They live for other people to love them and love others to love them. Inside their soul they have no love for theirself but any hate themself, the replacement to fill that whole is other people. People with BPD feel very worthless. I have this and yes we need love all the time. It's not an attention thing it is just who we r.
@gayproud1 Yes, they absolutely do. Everyone on this planet needs love and NO ONE should ever feel worthless inside... but the paradox of BPD is that, love isn't enough. Love as we commonly know it isn't worth a thing bc one w BPD doesn't always interpret it as such, thinks everyone's judging them, etc. What ppl with BPD need most of all is SUPPORT. Love and support. sorry if i didn't make myself clear. We all need love, especially thoses with BPD, and substances abuse, and bullying, and ED, etc
@dreamcaster555 You did explain it pretty well infact. Maybe ur right when i feel love which is very rare from a guy because they hide their emotiona etc i feel on top of the world, but something is still missing. I think it is people like me with BPD find it hard to love ourself. I would rather be a narcissistic at least they love themself :). I always try to get people to love me because i can't love myself and i really can't. I have tried so hard.
@Krazydoggie I agree with you. However, what you as the sufferer have to do is to get better. The fact that you need love is undeniable, but this hypersensitivity will eventually bring about their own demise because people feel like they have to walk on egg shells around them. Dialectical Behavioral Therapy helps BPD patients a lot to reorder their thinking and regulate their emotions. You won't get better unless you want to.
This Doctor seems judgemental, with a general negative attitude about persons with this illness. Her dramatic impersonations of these persons' real emotional experiences is humiliating to me. It feels like she is "making fun" of these emotional experiences. Also, MRI shows strong indication that there is a biological component. It's not caused by poor parenting. My family confirms I was extremely sensitive as a little girl-that my feelings were hurt easily. Please, doctor-you don't help.
@rbondeson most doctors don't like borderline patients. As an aspiring psychiatrist I see the discrimination many doctors have against BPD patients (it's really obvious). It's very sad because this discrimination gets in the way of these patient's treatment.
@rbondeson I do believe that she points out in a good way the facts. She is a teacher and have had 1000 of patients, so you are getting used to it. Are you not tired, standing up in the morning and going to work, things you have done a several time. Professionalism is what I call her. It does not help anybody if she is emotional and feels sorry for those who suffer. If she would be involved, who will describe effectively how persons feel, think and how they can be treated?
Another factor in BPD patients is they tend to self-sabotage when REALLY close to reaching a goal or the next step in their lives. I work at a group home for people w/ mental illness and we have a BPD client, who has MANY times said he was going to be moving out into his own home, but has stopped himself with imagined crises
2nd story jumping is OUT! It's not high enough. I think at least 7 stories and you'll snuff it. Before you bite the bitch check out TMS therapy. It's FDA approved for depression. Before you kill yourself check it out. It is working for me and I was depressed for 3 years.
I've just been diagnosed, or leading to a diagnosis, of BPD. I don't quite agree with it yet, but I'm starting to see how I could be that. I'm sad there's such a negative stigma around these types of patients, but I hope to get better, and I hope everyone will.
I have been beaten (more than once), abandoned (more than once), called fat, stupid, jack ass, jerk and piss ant (all more than once by those who were suppose to love me the most -family). I have survived this and been healed by the grace of God. My hair is growing in slowly. For those who do this and use a wig I suggest you shave your head because it has taken over 10 years of not pulling out my hair for it to grow back.
When I was younger (and in the darkest times of my life), I absolutely refused to cut myself because I figured that was the worst thing someone could do. I took pride in the fact that I came out unscathed... that is, until I actually thought about it.
I pulled my hair out, scratched myself with my nails anywhere I could grasp, hit my fists so hard they bruised, banged my head on things, and punched/pinched myself.... yeah... lots of ways.
play from 2:20. she finds it funny. i hope no borderline has to work with her. she clearly stigmatises people who suffer through no fault of their own.
I was told I had this but at the time I hadn't had any decent sleep in six months and I also had a bacterial infection in my intestines during that time that was making it painful to eat... so needless to say I was pretty crabby. I think that people can go through phases in their lives where they behave as though they had a disorder but then life circumstances change and they are able to recover from those behaviors. Sleep. SLEEP. SLEEP! Seriously, no sleep makes you feel INSANE.
iv got BPD & i dont care about shitty comments or wot silly people have 2say cuz i dont know them, if i did then i'd turn in2 the hulk! lol i find it pretty funny cuz they obviously dont understand it & just put it down 2people bein angry!! anger is a human emotion & everybody has it so does that mean u all have BPD as well? its not all about the anger anyway but cuz u think yr a shrink all of a sudden thats the only thing about BPD that seems 2be important enough 4u 2bitch about!!
i just looked at some of the comments that were said here and it sickens me to be honest because these are also human beings and they have it realy hard, it is as if you would make fun of handycapped people, the people who said these comments, and i dont say it was everyone only a small amount, should realy think about that you know who you are and you are a disgrace, its a shame.
I read a good write-up of that BPD is a stress based thing and there is a spectrum, on one side is Stockholm Syndrome where you empathies with your captors, in the middle you have PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) and on the other end of the spectrum you have BPD. Rings for me...
@Larzabeth I was diagnosed with BPD a few years ago. I'm sooo much better now! I'm on meds but I've also had a lot of therapy. I'm also going on 4 years clean and sober and I haven't cut myself in 5 years. Exposure therapy worked for me too. Actually being "abandoned" and realizing I could take care of myself after all. I'm still a work in progress but I'm amazed how much healthier I am now. No more walking on eggshells around me! :o)
@PopcornLukey I am so happy to hear your success story with this condition. From my understanding it is not an easy one to treat and from what you have said, it really takes a lot of perseverance to conquer it. You deserve a lot of credit. Best wishes to you. ;)
@m2mfan4eva I mean there are so many mean people and problem causers. I am not really referring to people with mental disorders but just people that are mean because they want to hurt others.
@Larzabeth I don't get it, being around them is like walking on eggshells because they're mean? Of course - everyone wants to hurt others at least once. Mental illness or no mental illness
@heleny78 I knew somebody who had this disorder and you never knew from one minute to the next what he might do. He was very manipulative and made threats on his own life and the lives of others as well. Sometimes one just has to know when to walk away from it because it is such a difficult thing to treat even for the professionals. How could the average person even begin to know how to cope with someone with this disorder?
@Larzabeth It not easy living with it. I have it and u r right because one wrong word and wow the screams comes! It is hard having this and i find it hard in relationships and friendships etc! I wish it just went!
@neil22100 You make such good points. The people who have things like this are not happy they have it because it is a disorder that you cannot easily control. You don't want it, you are stuck with it much like a diabetic is stuck with the sugar problem they have. Except people are more understanding of diabetes. I wish you all the best and I hope that one day soon somebody will come up with a way to help people who suffer from this.
@Larzabeth Thank u for being nice. They tend to scream at u and feel down a lot. When happy tho they can go wild and aggressive! My though for help was running into the road and getting hit be a car, when i go out i think about it, and after seeing what that girl did really scared me. Worst thing is ANGER with this disorder because it has upset my relationships and friends. I keep saying stop it, stop it and get really upset and sometimes cut. It is like a nightmare u want to go. Thanks again!
@neil22100 Awww :( My heart goes out to you. I don't know if this would help but I was wondering if you have ever tried meditation or yoga or things like that? I even wonder if something like acupressure could be helpful? I know none of these would 'cure' it but maybe they could help to ease the symptoms?
@Larzabeth Lol i have tried yoga and people with this have very little time to do this due to there high speed, a bit like bipolar really but it is differen't! Ps thanks for your nice words. I like it when i am nice, the anger is really bad tho and they have regrets of what they done and feel suicidal! It did not help my mum and dad died last year, i feel heartbroken and coping with this too. I also coped with 2 years of college which i completed even when my mum and dad died. Really hard tho.
@neil22100 I am really so sorry for your loss. You sound like an amazing person. You are very strong to be able to have accomplished all that you have in spite of what you have been through. You are way ahead of a lot of people with this and similar issues such as bipolar because you know what it is. The thing is, you ARE nice! It is the disorder that is not nice. I have enjoyed talking to you! Now I better be off to bed, it is after midnight here. Please take care. Larza
@Larzabeth U understand me so well and ur a lovely person! U understand so well. U r right about the nice and nasty thing. Deep down i feel nice and out feels nasty. Well i will let u go to sleep and thanks for ur lovely comments. Thank u! Ps i have learn't to understand it! :)
Damn. This woman's WAAAAAAAY off the mark here. She's trying to pigeon-hole every one into different categories & generalizing every one of these people in these different conditions. Not every BPD either idealizes you or hates your ass. Thats just one of the points she tried to make that is completely wrong. I wouldnt go to this "therapist" for nothin.
@scruffylittlecat hmmm. while I think the way she stated the concept was limited, i think the 'black/white' or 'splitting syndrome' is common amongst most borderlines. Idealization/devaluing. You haven't found similiar patterns in yourself when relating to others? Particularly those you 'let into your inner circle' or close enough to actually love you? I find as soon as i'm open to personal scrutiny, or if someone's insensetive to something important to me, i become a VERY diff person
@proximity1111 No, proximity, i dont personally. I USED to when much younger, yes. I remember that distinctly. But at 53, i've come to the view through some major life-changing life & death events i've endured that everyone deserves at least a modicum of respect, & that if God Himself loves everyone, then there must be something loveable about everyone, even if we can't see it. And who am i to second-guess God? Besides, everyone is somebody's baby & im a Mom. So ive come to care for everyone.
Very Informative video. Not enough emphasis on the fear of emotional intimacy (but does note how terrifying emotional dependence is for BPDs) and uses the phrase "fear of abandonment" as opposed to "rejection" (BPDs will often reject their partners [or cheat on them] before the partner can reject them). Overall, very useful, short treatment. I only wish that the video emphasized a combination of drugs and talk therapy (to promote self-awareness, the first step towards self-correction).
Yeah, excellent video. She is totally correct when she stated that while there are many common threads that tie the borderline spectrum together, there is a definite variation of character from borderline to borderline. I personally find us to be the most intriguing among disorders, if you manage to survive our rollercoaster you may find you look at life differently (perhaps, more deeply) than before knowing us.... ;)
@proximity1111 That last statement was beautiful & very true, proximity. And BPD is not genetic. It is environmentally induced in almost every BP. I know it was with me.
@scruffylittlecat thanks scruff. And I couldn't agree more on the environmental aspect. Was certainly the same for me. Trauma induced is pretty much the best way to put it.
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yeah, i'm a much nicer person now too. i've stopped beating up on myself. i don't go mad anymore. i still have the indifferent feelings about some people but i no longer have to let them hear it. i'm that much closer to living a comfortable life. i actually like myself now. lots of work to be done yet. i still have down times but have learned how to come to the present moment in my thinking, which stops all negativity.
thatoneguy300100 6 days ago
yes, baddog, it took me a long time to find a therapist who was willing to do the job of educator. most of them wanted major control so i stopped going. i finally figured out i had to own the illness before i could get some relief. the best way to do that was to get educated. by focusing on the present moment - all the time - i am able to burn up the past and stop all anxiety...which is related to thinking about the future. read eckhart tolle. it will help 100%...... you're welcome.
thatoneguy300100 6 days ago
i think i know it all. that will probably never change. i must be empowered with education and self-reflection techniques. with a therapist i create a learning atmosphere to separate the illness from myself. i control the therapy; she facilitates education. my #1 rule is to talk about nothing but NOW. i'm working on making new friends by using the same technique of only thinking about this moment...or NOW.
thatoneguy300100 6 days ago
i guess in china and Korea any personally is sticky forbidden. Yes to even think a van could come and take you for live body harvesting would be a paronoid disorder. yes very ill!!!!!!!
CliveGains80s 1 week ago
I think this is bullshit. This is like the "gateway mental illness" once you get diagnosed with this, they tag on 10 other diagnoses. Similar to how they claim weed as the "gateway drug" once you start smoking weed, you'll go onto other drugs looking for a better high. Neither one is true, Just because I don't like things 1 day, and the next I do doesn't mean I have multiple personality traits. And I smoke weed, have for years, and I've never once took a hit of crack, meth, heroin, LSD, etc etc.
rachaelizdown1990 2 weeks ago
I'm sick of it.. these demonising talking about us..
PrincessDisaster 3 weeks ago
I'm so tired of these comments on videos about borderlines stigmatizing us and basically saying every borderline is a horrible person with no regard of another's feelings. I live my life trying to be kind to all I meet. I volunteer at several organizations. I cook my family meals. I watch children. I care for my cats. I have been in loving romantic and family relationships. And I have borderline personality disorder. Yes, some borderlines are abusive to a severe point. But not all of us. Stop a
ArtSleepRepeat 3 weeks ago
look you problems are real and probably make you feel ill.
you can't be fixed with anti depressants or anti psychotics though if the same issue remains.
I just read more low life stuff. psychiatry perceives the Elderly with dementia as behavior issues. They are given anti psychotics and there over 1000 death a year.
many new disorders are called 'non psychotic disorders' yet the only treatment are anti psychotics. it's a scam.
CliveGains80s 1 month ago
i'm so fucked up
totoole67 1 month ago
Madonna has a song called Borderline. i just read the lyrics. Borderline is real.
But no it's sold as a 'mental illness'. an actual disease. you need big pharmacy psychiatric drugs. therapy will be ignored. there even targeting girls on weak criteria questions..
Border line is derived from schizophrenia with psychosis (more imaginary diseases) by DSM.
Just shut up when dealing with mental heath or clinical psychiatrist. Or expect fake nurses, grabbing, fake eye checks, drugging, observation.
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this is one world government big plan to destabilize us all. they have all of you below trying to diagnose other people and your family for 3 symptoms.
for such a claim you demand proof like any other illness,chemical problem, "the disease". The medication is there to de-satablise your brain. it uranium. fixes nothing!
this Asian comes from a country that has live execution vans in major cities for live organ havering.
actually that has nothing to do with anything! She just looks evil
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CliveGains80s 1 month ago
this is one world government big plan to destabilize us all. Yep, now they have all of you below trying to diagnose other people and your family.
for such a claim you demand proof like any other illness or chemical problem or "the disease". The medication is there to de-satablise your brain as it urunium. not fix anything.
this lady in interview comes from a country that has live execution vans in very major city of live organ havering.
actually that has nothing to do with anything!
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mydarlinggirlrachae 1 month ago
@krazydoggie i was put on a detention last july for that and released to my own custody a few hours later.go figure i guess they thought isince i was allready there i didnt have far to go to be put back in.and who brings a bpd patiant a plastic knife on thier food tray?
CountryBoyAtHeart91 1 month ago
My former spouse has this disorder. She hurts herself with knives and has attempted suicide many times. Currently, at age 53, she has gone from morbid obesity to a wasted state from a newer diagnoisis of anorexia nervosa. Yes, she was sexually abused as a child by an uncle.
This disorder may be closer to what is known as demonic possession than other so called personality disorders. My mother was paranoid schizophrenic which also could be seen as such. I am a 20 year Navy veteran and RN.
Dolichomorph 1 month ago
I grew up with a parent who had BPD. Yes, they are extremely sensitive people, but they spread their pain to OTHER people as well. Which is totally uncalled for. Then my mother wonders why I haven't talked to her in years. I tried helping her many, many times, but through that process she has mentally abused me to the point that I don't want to deal with her anymore. These people need serious psychiatric help because not only are they a harm to themselves, but to others just the same.
arenaskiez 2 months ago
@arenaskiez
I found PROZAC!!! and yes, we spread our pain to others. I agree it's not fair but when we are embraced in our pain, we can't think straight. AT ALL....It takes over like such selfishness it is crazy. It is EASY to resolve.. I asked for Prozac. I got it and will NEVER stop taking it. I don't want to be that crazy bitch ever again. I literally had NO control...Love
Krazydoggie 1 month ago
I lived with a borderline gf for 4 months. I noticed extremely manipulative behavior, extreme chaos and constant lying. Oh and let's not forget constant lying. It was a nightmare. I found out after the break up that she was telling people I was physically and emotionally abusing her. They did not believe her because apparently she said this about ALL her bf's. The main thing to notice is they manipulate your emotions. Read posts from borderline's on this page. Notice the guilt trip?
TheMightykaz 2 months ago
@TheMightykaz it is so sad that borderlines live like that and it hurts me that I can't do anything to save them, mainly cause they scare the fucking shit out of me! super rages, destroying and influencing people to steal your property, threating to call the law for abuse when nothing is happening, and the shit is god damn super fucking scary and stressing and painful, they need help
phantomofoaktown 2 months ago
I think "empathy" is overrated as a supposed psychiatric skill. More important is a skilled diagnostician who can help people suffering with mental illness. You want the benefit of expertise, not a friend.
travisnealtodd70 2 months ago
@TheDiddlysquat Yeah...you aren't judgemental or hypocritical, yet you JUDGE -keyword judge- Homosexuals just because they were born differently than you. Should they judge you for being straight?
KanjiYakushi11 3 months ago
@TheDiddlysquat I'm neither I'm just a logical 12 year old who is not judgemental or hypocritical in any way whatsoever, you should really put your bible down and THINK FOR YOURSELF. And by the way Mental Illness = Any of the many mental illnesses that have been discovered.
Retarded = Mentally impaired which is a mental illness I'll give you that but not necessarily, I was simple asking if I should reguard you as shit or not. (:
KanjiYakushi11 3 months ago
@TheDiddlysquat Are you mentally ill or just plain out fucking retarded??
KanjiYakushi11 3 months ago
Translation: "It is always about #1 with borderline personalities"
Me: "They aren't related to psychopathy and narcissism for nothing"
just sayin'
MrSpemat 3 months ago
to those that suffer with BPD:
"It is a severe mental illness and you can't help how you treat everyone because you are sick..."
MrSpemat 3 months ago
The pain of BPD sufferer is unbearable nothnig comes even close to it!
MrHotshot613 3 months ago
only watching this too find out about brandon marshall
malcolmscotty1 4 months ago
i would not like to have her as a psychiatrist. she does not sound very empathetic.
sabinerey 5 months ago
I think she's exaggerating things a bit...
arcutiepie 6 months ago
this is interesting ....they feel relief when they cut themselves .....maybe they have a dopamine deficiency and somehow the self mutilation causes them to feel dopamine
TheJasonDR 6 months ago
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gerryhiles 7 months ago
I have also read where there are many women who have PMDD, who are incorrectly diagnosed with BPD
44prot 7 months ago
It's funny,someone non medical professional,diagnosed me with this disorder,now that I am researching it,that person fits every criteria for the disorder herself.Is that too a trait?
44prot 7 months ago
Very informative but she makes ppl w/BPD sound as if we are the worst ppl in the world:/
spoilprincesskristi 7 months ago
@spoilprincesskristi i AM the worst person in the world
ilovemoviesuk 6 months ago
@spoilprincesskristi They really are the worst people in the world. Try living with one, you'll see.
arenaskiez 2 months ago
it takes time. You'll get your self-worth and identity from God not from a therapist. again, it takes time but you'll get there. when something is wrong with the parts you gotta go back to the manufacturer - He who made you.
Djordje1Krstich 7 months ago
is this not everyone who lives in the state if NJ?
italia9284 7 months ago
@italia9284 yelp thats we I left ... it was like every girl mostly had this disorder .... more than guys like black or hispanic chicks fighting and such oohh and also Italian
TheJasonDR 7 months ago
@TheJasonDR
Well i live in NJ and im italian...lol but im better than all that nonsense...not perfect just better...I have jesus as my Lord and savior and He has done amazing things for me.....and people to BPD....just need to to turn to God....
italia9284 7 months ago
@italia9284 There is no God only Satan can save us !!! lol
TheJasonDR 7 months ago
Not everyone with a history of self mutilation is borderline (that's just 1 of many symptoms) The abandonment issues I'd say is MUCH more of a hallmark trait. This woman knows what she is talking about, but did anyone else find her a little smug? I've known people with BPD and they can drive you nuts, but like she said there is a huge variability in presentation. I know some shrinks that think ANYONE was have EVER cut is automatically borderline (and a lot of teens do it to be part of a group).
lexikalfanfic 7 months ago
@lexikalfanfic
It's the abandonment and rejection, or even the preceived fear of being abandoned and rejected...and we create this because it's our worst possible fear, and we know the crippling pain that comes with it. Undescribable unless you have felt it. That undescribable pain is what leads to cutting. Releasing pain with pain.
Krazydoggie 6 months ago
@Krazydoggie I understand what you are saying and that for you, fear of abandonment or to feel better is your reason for cutting. I was simply stating that not everyone who has ever self-injured is necessarily borderline. A borderline's reasons for cutting are going to be different from someone without an axis 2 disorder (for instance, someone who is schizophrenic, high on drugs, cutting as a ritual or because of OCD, cutting for sexual pleasure, etc). That's all I was saying.
lexikalfanfic 6 months ago
change is possible
cantwait2look 8 months ago
Words from a borderline "never date or marry someone with borderline, we will make your life hell on earth."
H0tkebab 8 months ago
There's nothing worse than listening to a psychiatrist describe a personality disorder that they only know about because they read the book. This woman shows no feeling at all for the patient. Let me tell you about Borderline Personality Disorder....We are highly sensitive, we need love and to be cared for, we feel pain 10x greater than your emotional pain....this is why we cut, to relieve the pain, we feel empty and worthless because this is what we were told. We lash out because we hurt.
Krazydoggie 8 months ago 23
@Krazydoggie But you have to see like it. Borderline Patients are not able to see their illness. There must be a way to describe this mental status so others can understand and learn. You, or borderline patient, are the center of the attention, which is hard to deal for others....because they have feelings, too. So I would like to point out, to be thankful for those, who try to learn about sicknesses so these prejudiced have chance to be a part of the society....
fraumecker 8 months ago
@Krazydoggie why do you cut yourself ...???
TheJasonDR 6 months ago
@TheJasonDR
The pain you feel inside is so overloading it feels like you are going to explode. It hurts, and the only way to make the pain in your "heart" go away is to cut...like killing pain with pain. You wouldn't be able to ever understand it unless you have felt the pain. It's not normal. I've had normal emotional pain & borderline pain. borderline pain will make you crazy.
Krazydoggie 6 months ago
@Krazydoggie ok .... im asking cuz I might have this disease but I dont cut myself ....what do you feel before cutting yourself
TheJasonDR 6 months ago
@Krazydoggie youre a crazy doggie!
danjoelabrenica 3 months ago
@Krazydoggie Well if we go by ur logic, I guess we'll have to fire all the therapists in the country. My mom has BPD, and I'll tell you firsthand what a serious mental illness it is and how more Ts need to be aware of it--but honestly, this woman sounds well-informed and I can't tell how she treats her patients as she isn't in session in w one... I don't blame you for your black and white thinking in this situation, but it worries me that 14 other people do.
dreamcaster555 2 months ago
@Krazydoggie btw, I doubt you'll listen, but to raise awareness for the benefit of everyone else who has grown up with a bpd parent: to be all good or bad, not allowed to have friends or ur own sense of self, wondering when ull randomly set ur parent off for smthng like folding the towel wrong, taking care of our parent's emotional needs from a very early age... "we feel pain 10x greater than your emotional pain" that's no excuse for your actions. I hope u recover and are happy soon, but ...
dreamcaster555 2 months ago
@Krazydoggie make no mistake, there's more consequences to BPD than what has been listed here. your illness does effect everyone around you, and I sincerely hope you feel better again soon. whether you BPDs feel more pain and need more love than the rest of us.. who's to say? sounds very b/w to me tho.
dreamcaster555 2 months ago
@dreamcaster555 People with BPD need a lot of love. They live for other people to love them and love others to love them. Inside their soul they have no love for theirself but any hate themself, the replacement to fill that whole is other people. People with BPD feel very worthless. I have this and yes we need love all the time. It's not an attention thing it is just who we r.
gayproud1 2 months ago
@gayproud1 Yes, they absolutely do. Everyone on this planet needs love and NO ONE should ever feel worthless inside... but the paradox of BPD is that, love isn't enough. Love as we commonly know it isn't worth a thing bc one w BPD doesn't always interpret it as such, thinks everyone's judging them, etc. What ppl with BPD need most of all is SUPPORT. Love and support. sorry if i didn't make myself clear. We all need love, especially thoses with BPD, and substances abuse, and bullying, and ED, etc
dreamcaster555 2 months ago
@dreamcaster555 You did explain it pretty well infact. Maybe ur right when i feel love which is very rare from a guy because they hide their emotiona etc i feel on top of the world, but something is still missing. I think it is people like me with BPD find it hard to love ourself. I would rather be a narcissistic at least they love themself :). I always try to get people to love me because i can't love myself and i really can't. I have tried so hard.
gayproud1 2 months ago
@Krazydoggie Whether she read a book or not, she is 100% accurate in her description of BPD.
arenaskiez 2 months ago
@Krazydoggie i think it's more that she's become desensitised to it, she has become detached so it doesn't affect her as much as it would [should]
abdurrahmanR 1 month ago
@Krazydoggie She's not suppose to care because she's describing something to people who aren't aware of these disorders.
HybridD91 1 month ago
@Krazydoggie I agree with you. However, what you as the sufferer have to do is to get better. The fact that you need love is undeniable, but this hypersensitivity will eventually bring about their own demise because people feel like they have to walk on egg shells around them. Dialectical Behavioral Therapy helps BPD patients a lot to reorder their thinking and regulate their emotions. You won't get better unless you want to.
DontForgetIran2010 1 month ago
This Doctor seems judgemental, with a general negative attitude about persons with this illness. Her dramatic impersonations of these persons' real emotional experiences is humiliating to me. It feels like she is "making fun" of these emotional experiences. Also, MRI shows strong indication that there is a biological component. It's not caused by poor parenting. My family confirms I was extremely sensitive as a little girl-that my feelings were hurt easily. Please, doctor-you don't help.
rbondeson 9 months ago
@rbondeson ;__;
coprographia 8 months ago
@rbondeson most doctors don't like borderline patients. As an aspiring psychiatrist I see the discrimination many doctors have against BPD patients (it's really obvious). It's very sad because this discrimination gets in the way of these patient's treatment.
FlirtatiousFayth 8 months ago 5
@rbondeson I do believe that she points out in a good way the facts. She is a teacher and have had 1000 of patients, so you are getting used to it. Are you not tired, standing up in the morning and going to work, things you have done a several time. Professionalism is what I call her. It does not help anybody if she is emotional and feels sorry for those who suffer. If she would be involved, who will describe effectively how persons feel, think and how they can be treated?
fraumecker 8 months ago
Another factor in BPD patients is they tend to self-sabotage when REALLY close to reaching a goal or the next step in their lives. I work at a group home for people w/ mental illness and we have a BPD client, who has MANY times said he was going to be moving out into his own home, but has stopped himself with imagined crises
heyidaroo 9 months ago 5
@heyidaroo SO true!
arenaskiez 2 months ago
2nd story jumping is OUT! It's not high enough. I think at least 7 stories and you'll snuff it. Before you bite the bitch check out TMS therapy. It's FDA approved for depression. Before you kill yourself check it out. It is working for me and I was depressed for 3 years.
MonacoBlast 10 months ago
Ever notice this bitch always says: "There is no cure!" Just keep taking government unapproved zombie pills and shut the fuck up and kill yourself!
AdobeGillis 10 months ago
@AdobeGillis Probably because there is no cure. There's a huge difference between treatment and cure.
Dextear 9 months ago
@Dextear PROZAC....my new lover : ) and yes...it works for me...my god, the best I have ever felt...really!!!!
Krazydoggie 1 month ago
I've just been diagnosed, or leading to a diagnosis, of BPD. I don't quite agree with it yet, but I'm starting to see how I could be that. I'm sad there's such a negative stigma around these types of patients, but I hope to get better, and I hope everyone will.
moviefreak91 10 months ago 2
These are the dopes that have success in our society.
ronaldarjune 11 months ago
If you have a border line personality disorder or other disorder can you ever be a cop? or nurse or doctor? mmmmm....
veeseee128 11 months ago
I have been beaten (more than once), abandoned (more than once), called fat, stupid, jack ass, jerk and piss ant (all more than once by those who were suppose to love me the most -family). I have survived this and been healed by the grace of God. My hair is growing in slowly. For those who do this and use a wig I suggest you shave your head because it has taken over 10 years of not pulling out my hair for it to grow back.
MsTridentgum 11 months ago
thank you so much for this video
LiaTyson 11 months ago
You don't have to cut yourself to self harm.
When I was younger (and in the darkest times of my life), I absolutely refused to cut myself because I figured that was the worst thing someone could do. I took pride in the fact that I came out unscathed... that is, until I actually thought about it.
I pulled my hair out, scratched myself with my nails anywhere I could grasp, hit my fists so hard they bruised, banged my head on things, and punched/pinched myself.... yeah... lots of ways.
PiccuPie 1 year ago
play from 2:20. she finds it funny. i hope no borderline has to work with her. she clearly stigmatises people who suffer through no fault of their own.
MsSuperangela 1 year ago
this is me. not fun
BubbleButt88 1 year ago
my mother & my grandmother...
BIJMOZ 1 year ago
Some black bitch on my bus said, "I'm borderline, bitch".
GoodOleHonestJoe 1 year ago 17
@GoodOleHonestJoe "YO IM BORDERLINEZ BITCH NAO WHERE IS MAH FREE BUS TICKET???" xD
idonotwastenames 6 months ago
@idonotwastenames
not!!!! she's just cheap...borderlines would be too ashamed to say they couldn't afford a bus ticket!!!
Krazydoggie 1 month ago
@GoodOleHonestJoe -____________-
BRINGINDATKRYPTONITE 5 months ago
I was told I had this but at the time I hadn't had any decent sleep in six months and I also had a bacterial infection in my intestines during that time that was making it painful to eat... so needless to say I was pretty crabby. I think that people can go through phases in their lives where they behave as though they had a disorder but then life circumstances change and they are able to recover from those behaviors. Sleep. SLEEP. SLEEP! Seriously, no sleep makes you feel INSANE.
RoseyDanes 1 year ago
iv got BPD & i dont care about shitty comments or wot silly people have 2say cuz i dont know them, if i did then i'd turn in2 the hulk! lol i find it pretty funny cuz they obviously dont understand it & just put it down 2people bein angry!! anger is a human emotion & everybody has it so does that mean u all have BPD as well? its not all about the anger anyway but cuz u think yr a shrink all of a sudden thats the only thing about BPD that seems 2be important enough 4u 2bitch about!!
GypsyGalVIII 1 year ago
lol @ 2:04
humbledcowboy 1 year ago
i just looked at some of the comments that were said here and it sickens me to be honest because these are also human beings and they have it realy hard, it is as if you would make fun of handycapped people, the people who said these comments, and i dont say it was everyone only a small amount, should realy think about that you know who you are and you are a disgrace, its a shame.
sakhalin12 1 year ago
I read a good write-up of that BPD is a stress based thing and there is a spectrum, on one side is Stockholm Syndrome where you empathies with your captors, in the middle you have PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) and on the other end of the spectrum you have BPD. Rings for me...
step4560 1 year ago
If the mutilation component is missing is it not considered BPD?
reymantic1977 1 year ago
@reymantic1977 (as far as i know!)
no,this is all "syndromes".
how is made up of many different symptoms.
one or two symptoms more or less,only gives an wareing degree of the syndrome.
asperger syndrome has a bunch of different levels.
from "high functioning" to "low functioning"
we all have a thrush of every syndrome out there,
by having one or two symptoms.
:-)
ddiva1973 1 year ago
Being around them is like walking on eggshells.
Larzabeth 1 year ago 28
@Larzabeth I was diagnosed with BPD a few years ago. I'm sooo much better now! I'm on meds but I've also had a lot of therapy. I'm also going on 4 years clean and sober and I haven't cut myself in 5 years. Exposure therapy worked for me too. Actually being "abandoned" and realizing I could take care of myself after all. I'm still a work in progress but I'm amazed how much healthier I am now. No more walking on eggshells around me! :o)
PopcornLukey 1 year ago
@PopcornLukey I am so happy to hear your success story with this condition. From my understanding it is not an easy one to treat and from what you have said, it really takes a lot of perseverance to conquer it. You deserve a lot of credit. Best wishes to you. ;)
Larzabeth 1 year ago
@Larzabeth :o)
PopcornLukey 1 year ago
@Larzabeth lets kill them so we dont have to deal with them. theres no other cure.
DropDeadCouture 1 year ago
@DropDeadCouture Ouch! Is there a cure for mean?
Larzabeth 1 year ago
@Larzabeth lol.yes, and probably it is getting rid of all the problem causers.
DropDeadCouture 1 year ago
@DropDeadCouture Is that possible? There seem to be so many of them! LOL!
Larzabeth 1 year ago
@Larzabeth What do you mean?
m2mfan4eva 1 year ago
@m2mfan4eva I mean there are so many mean people and problem causers. I am not really referring to people with mental disorders but just people that are mean because they want to hurt others.
Larzabeth 1 year ago
@Larzabeth I don't get it, being around them is like walking on eggshells because they're mean? Of course - everyone wants to hurt others at least once. Mental illness or no mental illness
m2mfan4eva 1 year ago
@m2mfan4eva I just mean you have to be soooo careful what you say and do around them because they get angry or offended so easily for no good reason.
Larzabeth 1 year ago
@Larzabeth ah ok
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heleny78 1 year ago
@heleny78 I knew somebody who had this disorder and you never knew from one minute to the next what he might do. He was very manipulative and made threats on his own life and the lives of others as well. Sometimes one just has to know when to walk away from it because it is such a difficult thing to treat even for the professionals. How could the average person even begin to know how to cope with someone with this disorder?
Larzabeth 1 year ago
@Larzabeth It not easy living with it. I have it and u r right because one wrong word and wow the screams comes! It is hard having this and i find it hard in relationships and friendships etc! I wish it just went!
neil22100 6 months ago
@neil22100 You make such good points. The people who have things like this are not happy they have it because it is a disorder that you cannot easily control. You don't want it, you are stuck with it much like a diabetic is stuck with the sugar problem they have. Except people are more understanding of diabetes. I wish you all the best and I hope that one day soon somebody will come up with a way to help people who suffer from this.
Larzabeth 6 months ago
@Larzabeth Thank u for being nice. They tend to scream at u and feel down a lot. When happy tho they can go wild and aggressive! My though for help was running into the road and getting hit be a car, when i go out i think about it, and after seeing what that girl did really scared me. Worst thing is ANGER with this disorder because it has upset my relationships and friends. I keep saying stop it, stop it and get really upset and sometimes cut. It is like a nightmare u want to go. Thanks again!
neil22100 6 months ago
@neil22100 Awww :( My heart goes out to you. I don't know if this would help but I was wondering if you have ever tried meditation or yoga or things like that? I even wonder if something like acupressure could be helpful? I know none of these would 'cure' it but maybe they could help to ease the symptoms?
Larzabeth 6 months ago
@Larzabeth Lol i have tried yoga and people with this have very little time to do this due to there high speed, a bit like bipolar really but it is differen't! Ps thanks for your nice words. I like it when i am nice, the anger is really bad tho and they have regrets of what they done and feel suicidal! It did not help my mum and dad died last year, i feel heartbroken and coping with this too. I also coped with 2 years of college which i completed even when my mum and dad died. Really hard tho.
neil22100 6 months ago
@neil22100 I am really so sorry for your loss. You sound like an amazing person. You are very strong to be able to have accomplished all that you have in spite of what you have been through. You are way ahead of a lot of people with this and similar issues such as bipolar because you know what it is. The thing is, you ARE nice! It is the disorder that is not nice. I have enjoyed talking to you! Now I better be off to bed, it is after midnight here. Please take care. Larza
Larzabeth 6 months ago
@Larzabeth U understand me so well and ur a lovely person! U understand so well. U r right about the nice and nasty thing. Deep down i feel nice and out feels nasty. Well i will let u go to sleep and thanks for ur lovely comments. Thank u! Ps i have learn't to understand it! :)
neil22100 6 months ago
@Larzabeth Thank u for ur add! I am happy to be ur friend and ur nice to talk too!
neil22100 6 months ago
Lots of categories, but how can people so easily be categorised? :I
Ulrna 1 year ago
interesting
straightupmenace 1 year ago
Damn. This woman's WAAAAAAAY off the mark here. She's trying to pigeon-hole every one into different categories & generalizing every one of these people in these different conditions. Not every BPD either idealizes you or hates your ass. Thats just one of the points she tried to make that is completely wrong. I wouldnt go to this "therapist" for nothin.
scruffylittlecat 1 year ago
@scruffylittlecat hmmm. while I think the way she stated the concept was limited, i think the 'black/white' or 'splitting syndrome' is common amongst most borderlines. Idealization/devaluing. You haven't found similiar patterns in yourself when relating to others? Particularly those you 'let into your inner circle' or close enough to actually love you? I find as soon as i'm open to personal scrutiny, or if someone's insensetive to something important to me, i become a VERY diff person
proximity1111 1 year ago
@proximity1111 No, proximity, i dont personally. I USED to when much younger, yes. I remember that distinctly. But at 53, i've come to the view through some major life-changing life & death events i've endured that everyone deserves at least a modicum of respect, & that if God Himself loves everyone, then there must be something loveable about everyone, even if we can't see it. And who am i to second-guess God? Besides, everyone is somebody's baby & im a Mom. So ive come to care for everyone.
scruffylittlecat 1 year ago
Very Informative video. Not enough emphasis on the fear of emotional intimacy (but does note how terrifying emotional dependence is for BPDs) and uses the phrase "fear of abandonment" as opposed to "rejection" (BPDs will often reject their partners [or cheat on them] before the partner can reject them). Overall, very useful, short treatment. I only wish that the video emphasized a combination of drugs and talk therapy (to promote self-awareness, the first step towards self-correction).
sonofTelstar 1 year ago
Yeah, excellent video. She is totally correct when she stated that while there are many common threads that tie the borderline spectrum together, there is a definite variation of character from borderline to borderline. I personally find us to be the most intriguing among disorders, if you manage to survive our rollercoaster you may find you look at life differently (perhaps, more deeply) than before knowing us.... ;)
proximity1111 1 year ago
@proximity1111 That last statement was beautiful & very true, proximity. And BPD is not genetic. It is environmentally induced in almost every BP. I know it was with me.
scruffylittlecat 1 year ago
@scruffylittlecat thanks scruff. And I couldn't agree more on the environmental aspect. Was certainly the same for me. Trauma induced is pretty much the best way to put it.
proximity1111 1 year ago
is it me or dose she look strung out ....no it's probably just me now ware's my cutting blade lol
idrathernotthannever 1 year ago
emos
BizWiz2000 1 year ago
great videos! helped me understand these for my psych exam tomorrow! lol
wallillabou 1 year ago
Oh god, this fits someone I know to a T. They don't think there's anything wrong with them, though.
ginnyisdacoolest 2 years ago
excellent insights on a disorder that's difficult to understand.
1whitebutterfly 2 years ago
NowTHAT'S a great video
rbogdewic 2 years ago
I really like the way she explains the disorders.
thedogsrevolution 2 years ago