D&B ;; Basically, I wish that you've loved me. [AU]

[Ines43]

Okay, I'm just gonna step up and say it. I keep dreaming of you making a Dair video to Jeff Buckley's version of I Know It's Over by The Smiths. It would be... hell, it would be sheer perfection. I know it. You've got some incredible storytelling talent, the way you do it with these vids. Thanks... for the whole experience.

[notsomuggleborn]

PLEASE tell me where the clips of penn in the beach-ish manips are from? :)

[RosemaryHathaway]

I got chills watching this.Oh My Gosh!This is so breath taking.Its soo soo beautiful.This is beyond epic.Love it <3

[zing9753]

Wow. Amazing video.

[GreenePearl]

This video is my life atm.. Thank you so much for making this Ena, it really helps me to think again. I know i should tell him how i feel, but everytime i want to the words don't want to come out...

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@GreenePearl oh hun :( im so sorry i hope everything will be alright for you ... tbh i feel ya, im in a similar position ... we will make it through, right? :3

[GreenePearl]

@DefiningBeautyNet aw goshie.. well welcome by the club. i honestly have big problems with saying how i feel - i'm in such a stupid position. it's all so difficult. i hate it :( but i still can't give it up.

and i keep dreaming that i have said how i feel, so i'm just thinking about it 24/7. xD

but we'll be strong, alright? :) we're not gonna give up.

i'm gonna feature this on my channel <33

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@GreenePearl i know same here hun ... i had the chance to say how i feel several times, too many times. and i never did. i feel horrible about not taking those chances. and i will always wonder 'what if' ... its the worst part. wondering how it could be. but im just way to afraid, i'm scared how things will change. and i'm scared to be rejected in the end ..

oh god im such a cry baby im sorry hun.

i love u, we will do this ♥

[GreenePearl]

@DefiningBeautyNet i so agree: the 'what if'-part is the worst thing ever. i wish i could just turn my mind off and tell him. but then i'm thinking ''what if'' he doesn't feel the same? but then i think: but HEY what does it matter anyway, now he at least knows how you feel! that's the point right?

but i'm afraid of rejection. i've been through that once and it really hurt me. so i'm afraid to stand open for new things. to just tell my mind. because i've done that was and all i got was a no :(

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@GreenePearl i see, we're both at the same point ... its awful. and the worst part is that you know someday he will find another and he will be happy with her. and you're just standing there and think 'what if i told him? would it be different now? would it me right beside him?'

i hate it its horrible ... so now i'm just running away. its the easiest thing to do. leave it all behind.

[GreenePearl]

@DefiningBeautyNet yes. the awful moment he'll be happy with another girl, seeing them laugh, kiss and thinking: what IF (again the what if) i stood next to hem now.

but running away. i don't know if i could. i'm stuck - i can't just forget about him, but my other side just WANTS to. because then it would be so much more easier. or not. i don't know, i'm such a mess today. i'm crying all the time. it's terrible.

but i already feel better talking to you, to just let it all out. i love you so much

[GreenePearl]

@DefiningBeautyNet yes. the awful moment he'll be happy with another girl, seeing them laugh, kiss and thinking: what IF (again the what if) i stood next to hem now.

but running away. i don't know if i could. i'm stuck - i can't just forget about him, but my other side just WANTS to. because then it would be so much more easier. or not. i don't know, i'm such a mess today. i'm crying all the time. it's terrible

but i already feel better talking to you, to just let it all out. i love you so much

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@GreenePearl you are more than welcome dear, feel free to pour your heart out anytime! im here if you need anything :) the what if is the worst part, all the time, its the most horrible question in the world .. for me, just leaving is the easiest thing .. i dont know if its for the best but soon it will be too late anyway, so. i'm positive i will get over it. and you will too dear, you are extremely strong. do what you think is right. no matter if it is turning your back on him or

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@GreenePearl or jumping in with booth feet, either way you will make it through it all. i'm here for you and you are strong!

[GreenePearl]

@DefiningBeautyNet i've decided, actually i already decided it a long time ago but now i now for sure. the next time i see him i WILL tell him. I need to, otherwise.. i don't know. i can't really feel free now. and i want to now if he just sees me as a flirt/friend or lover.

I'm here for you too sweetheart <33 if there's anything, ring the bell and i'll help you <33

[GreenePearl]

@GreenePearl and i'm bad at writing know xD i write now all the time. sorry :P

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@GreenePearl thats a good thing hun! i will keep my fingers crossed, i'm sure it will be fine dear! 

[JTVSSSSSSSSS]

i love dair, muss be together !!

[Burcuchoi]

what song? awesome!

[fan01smallville]

What movie are the Leighton Meester Scenes?? Of course Gossip Girl and what more?? Please, please tell me :)

[fan01smallville]

SO PERFECT!! I'M READY FOR DAIR LOVE!!

[Simplychiara1991]

up to 0:28 this vid is PURE PERFECTION! your editing makes it look like the scenes happened for real!THIS IS HEARTBREAKING!Thanks so much for being in my fandom (and for being such an awesome vidder!)

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@Simplychiara1991 awww thank you!! i love being in this amazing fandom with all those amazing people. i love every single dair shipper!! and it is a really talented fandom fo sure, there are sooo many gorgeous videos and graphics and gifs out there on the internet!! ALL HAIL DAIR!

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@Simplychiara1991 i used gossip girl and 'monte carlo'

[H2Obsession3]

A truly amazing vid, this just made my day:D

[xUltraVioletBlur]

even though i am a diehard chair fan...

THIS WAS FLIPPING AMAZING!

the manips looked so freakin real!!!

[tvfanatic4ever]

There totally definitely should be a "LOVE" & a 10- star rating button for this epic, fabulous masterpiece!!! :D

[DakotaFanning94]

you made them look like a perfect couple.

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@DakotaFanning94 i think they would be if they'd have the chance to!

[lissiepoo]

AMAZING can't even sum this up properly. It's flawless. <3

[luvtheheaven5]

WOW. XD

[itsnoteasy2bme]

wow this was amazing...way to manip :)

[wastelifetakenotes]

OMG. *chills*

[GossipSmile]

can't stop watching this *___*

[HorseriderHP14]

ahwww this video is just so amazing ! (:

faved and liked ! <3

[clooneywoman]

OMG ur amazing!!!!

[Zigzag4me]

AWESOMESAUCE!

[cu4eaa]

OH WOW. I wish I had something more constructive or relevant to say except PERFECTION!

[FatallyxFragile]

holy crap; dude

this is AMAZING;

you & this ship are perfect

seriously noone vids them like you do

AND using other movies; like the stepfather

too amazing! <3

[DuckyZu]

Looooove this video! The editing is perfect. ç_ç

[PattefronProds]

Chills, OMG, CHILL, all over.

I never fail to get them when watching your videos, they are just... magical, you know?

they mean something, they show love and emotion.

They are pure perfection and this, well your editing, everything its just flawless, absolutely breathtaking<3

I could watch your videos forever and ever

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@PattefronProds i adore you hun! you're too sweet with your words and you're so supportive and aargh just too perfect for this world. thank you SO MUCH. bisou xx

[TheFrozenViolet]

OMG!!!! Da sind auch Clips von dem neuen Film von Blair oder? OMG ich muss da endlich rein :D dein Video ist mal wieder der wahnsinnn!!! Da bekomm ich einfach auch total lust Dair zu viddden!!! AH der hammer :) :**** You did amaaaaazing

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@TheFrozenViolet jaaa VIDDE DAIR!! jeder sollte dair vidden :-) und monte carlo muss man auf jedenfall gesehen haben :) bzw 'plötzlich star' wie er ja in deutschland heißt ^^ ist ein ganz guter film :-)

[ATLsportsLOVE]

(part 2)

you've completely ruined season 5 for me btw. because it will never match up to this. i hate you.

ALSO incredible song choice. its actually exactly how im feeling at the moment so the vid was even more emotional for me.. and combined with my OTP, just wow. TEARS

ps- ive been working on a DB vid for months where i used a bunch of penn scenes from the stepfather, so i hope you dont hate me for it when i upload it! i promise i didnt copy you <3

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@ATLsportsLOVE no dont hate on my :( i know i' a life-ruiner :( but i want season 5 to be magical, to be all dair, i want to take over the writers and just make my own story... it would be fucking flawless! and it would be exactly what dair as a couple need. and i know exactly what you're talking about when it comes to the song ... :( you are not alone! and i would never hate you for using a similar scene or sth like that thats ridiculous :) thank you hunnie! :*

[ATLsportsLOVE]

WHAT IS THIS OH MY GOD ITS FUCKING MAGICAL

im seriously speechless holy shit holy shit holy shit.. those manips!! the storyline of him in monaco!! I JUST CANTTTT

this might be the best DB vid i've ever seen! and i think i've literally seen every single one on youtube. i've been doing daily searches for like 2 years haha

omg that table manip.. especially when dan does that little smile at 0:20. i literally teared up, im pathetic. god i keep replaying this

[EpicLover161]

Omg, girl you are so freakin amazing :) The best dair vid ever <3

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@EpicLover161 oh wow thank you sooo so much!! :')

[xoxoforme]

I love this song so much. Your killing me with your amazingly genius vid. Dan and Blair. FTW!! <3

[meeshell384]

This is really good because it's different from other Dair vids I've seen. I like that you used clips of them from movies to help set it apart. And they were really well chosen scenes I might add. Like sitting by the pool, or swimming. Very nice scene manipulations. Though of course we all wish they weren't maniped, but real. :)

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@meeshell384 thank you alot! xx and i totally agree! wish this could happen, it shouldt :( we dairers deserve it

[maririzor]

This is so beautiful and amazing! More please!!!

[Cursd818]

Wow, your Dair videos are amazing. I wish I'd found them sooner!

[TheHeloco]

this is amazing! best dair video i've seen in a while. the manips and the colouring are lovely. you're really talented.

[radioCure4]

WOW! just.. i'm basically speechless... but all i can say it's SO amazing and i wish it would be canon this season (actually, in a way it's a little bit cannon). <3 

[GreenePearl]

OMG I JUST CAN'T... WAA. just asldifnqpo3fj I've NO freaking words for this. From beginning till the end I just had this HUGE AND HUGE JAWDROP, it's not even funny anymore. You're so freaking incredible at editing. This looked SOSOSO real. AAAAAH jeez i just wanna scream because it's so good and believe me, it's been very long since i got that feeling with a video. it's so pretty. so beautiful.. i love the manips, coloring, lines, everything. i love you so much for making this video. favforsure!

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@GreenePearl i dont even know what to say ... you're leaving me kinda speechless. so im just gonna say: thank you nynke i truely adore you!!

[Love100001]

WOW!! Amazing!

[xFarFromNever]

Your manips are gonna kill me sometime, THIS IS JUST UNBELIEVEABLE! And this coloring. No words just speechless

[MandyCandy218]

this was so amazing! best DB au vid ever!

everything looked so real and it was just perfect!

great job!

[raquel975692]

omggggg amazingggggggggggggggg!! loved ittttttttt!

[sunshinextreasure]

Ugh, I know what you mean. I think I will disappointed about Dair in the season coming up. However, we will still have youtube and Dair vidders like you, so that helps :D

Great job :)

[xherecomesthesun3]

dear god.

[lovemissive]

I'm not the biggest fan of DB (mainly because it hurts to watch gossip girl in general and I have given up hoping that it will ever get good again) but this is beautiful. Its the first time I've really felt that they were meant for each other. And the majority of these clips aren't even from gossip girl. Which mean I shouldn't invest too much into DB for my own good. Great job though, I'll pretend like this is what is happening atm.

btw, leighton looks gorgeous in all of her clips!

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@lovemissive totally agree, it hurts a lot to ship dair because of knowing they will never be as good as we imagine. because they will never be able to bloom because of other couples on the show ... -cough-chair.derena-cough- and yesss leighton looks so beautiful all the time! even as a creep! (the roommate)

[ItsNeverEnough2011]

I do not dare to dair but i must admit -after watching your beatiful heartbreaking videos- that they totally do have something...

[spinfyeze]

amazing

[OCFreak2009]

Wow. Das Video ist Wahnsinn! Du gehörst zu meinen Lieblingsviddern überhaupt! :) <3

[RossWinchester]

Oh. This is so intensen and heartbreaking, I can't even...

[GossipGirlLove27]

omg, amazing fricken manips! this video is just.. beyond amazing?! great job!:)<3

[crazyhulahyperAVShow]

this video made my day. THANK YOU!!

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@crazyhulahyperAVShow you're welcome, i guess! :)

[musicormisery22]

it's not even funny anymore how ridiculous you make me look for thinking cb could be endgame :D:D because THIS (if it's highly AU) makes me want Dair all the way :OO because this is FREAKING INCREDIBLE AND CONVINCING AS HELL *__* you're just a freaking genius when it comes too manips, dair, vidding, EVERYTHING?! perfectiooon.

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@musicormisery22 oh hun as sweet as i think it is for you to raise hopse for D&B endgame ... we all know it wont happen and thats whats killing me.it would be TO GOOD if it would happen, it never will. the writers will always go back to chair. but still, thank you darling! coming from you it means alot to me since you are a class-A-vidder yourself! i think you're partly right about the thing with dair. if it comes to dair im not really a genius, but a freak! though i'd rather call it passionate!

[FearlessEnchanted]

@DefiningBeautyNet haha ich hab auch kein problem mit englisch ist aber schon cool zwischendurch mal deutsch hier zu sprechen :')

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@FearlessEnchanted das stimmt shcon aber manchmal kommts mir verdammt merkwürdig vor :D

[IrishDayDreamer2]

I. LOVE. YOU. for making this video.

[GossipSmile]

OMG! This is absolutely fantastic! I think I'm going to cry :')

That was so beautiful and sad! Incredible editing and coloring too! <3

I love it! <3 Liked & Faved!

[BenQCat]

gorgeous.

[TamilNadu06]

WOW...just...wow. this is SO AMAZING!

[tinycherry30]

very good manips!! great video!!

[CamGGsweden]

oh my holy..... wow. you're def the best dair vidder out there! this was....... my god, i have no words for it.... i'm totally speechless. to think that a person have done this. wow, i would the happiest ever if i had your talent. my my my god. this is truly a masterpiece. <3

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@CamGGsweden this is a huge honor just to hear someone things im the best dair vidder .. its defo a big honor and i wanna thank you for that! it means lot!! :)

[nedlovesyou]

These manips are absolutely killing me right now... I had to pause it twenty seconds in because I was freaking out so much and needed to regain my composure!

Oh my goodness, that was epic! I've been so excited to see it ever since you posted the preview on tumblr and it exceeded my already high expectations. My absolute favorite part is from :47 - :55 when Dan's watching their kiss and gets all teary-eyed and Blair's crying and asdfghjkl it was perfect. <3

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@nedlovesyou awww thank you soo so much! i loved that part too when i saw the movie 'the stepfather' and penn was crying oh my god you have no idea what i was going through haha i cried my eyes out!

[thelostcandy]

oh my fucking god.

i can't just, idk like, i can't find the right words to say. just like, idk. i'm in awe.

[TheTwins90]

We like them as a good friends but we really like this video! =D AMAZING!

[notsomuggleborn]

i'm going to start crying, this is AMAZING.

[FearlessEnchanted]

WOAHHHHHH tolles video *____________*

Die voiceover sind einfach nur perfekt gewählt

und die coloring ist wuuuuuunderschön

Im übrgen ist es toll dass ich in Deutsch schreiben kann mit dir HAHA

ist ja eher selten hier :')

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@FearlessEnchanted JAAA das stimmt, hier sind so wenig deutsche hehe :) aber ich hab eigentlich auich kein problem mit englisch von daher stört mich das kaum :) vielen dnak für das süße comment! :-)

[silverxcloud]

AHHHHHH CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE FINALLY VIDDING THEM LOADS! YOU'VE MADE ME SO HAPPY! (x -333

[thislovelydisaster07]

I loved this. You're so talented and creative, the concept is amazing.

[FAILiAM]

Love it. I think that although it's kinda of sad and a downer, it's still amazing and really shows how I kind of see them as. (/

[13RebeccaLucy]

Dair forever ♥ if there's no dair in season 5 I will legit cry. I ship them sooooo hard.

[yourlittlestar89]

Great vid!

[TheWurzelx3]

YOU are KILLING ME ENA!

This hiatus does bad things to me, i miss them so much it's unreal..if they're not going to happen i'll break down or something..

I never shipped a couple so freakin' hard to finally be together..

LOVED the storyline (dan in monaco, wishing blair'd come home) awesome Manips..ugh i hate the furniture-writers.go to NY and tell them they're wrong, then show them this video and maybe they'll come to their senses

i'm going to cry now because this is the most beautiful AU ever

[DefiningBeautyNet]

@TheWurzelx3 oh hun how i wish i could!! i would run them all over and scream: YOU NEARLY RUINED EVERYTHING . now im the boss so GET THE F OUT! how awesome would that be? I'd do them justice, they'd have the most amazing relationship ever ... aaah how i wish... but thank you hun! you're always sweet as sugar :)