Part 4 Benzo Withdrawal Welcome To Hell

[Gunchowder]

I too have had panic for 15 yrs now. Once your labled with panic dissoder your not taken seriously. I was on xanax for 3 yrs stopped cold. Went through hell halucinations talking to people that wernt there. I was loosing my mind. 3months later my doc said it cant be the xanax the withdrawel dosent last that long. Here I am 4 yrs later with tremmors and hot flashes. Once your pegged with pd your word is crap. So your not alone. Im glad your feeling better take care

[firebirdzzz100]

ya benzo withdrawl sucks thanks for leting me know about the B vitamins and letting me know about vitamin C that helps

[wafalek]

will be able to sleep ? and how did you do it

[nevergiveup123100]

Also, for people going thru this, Google the ASHTON MANUAL. IT can be found on benzo.org.uk

[mildew2yahoo]

a psychaitrist, who is supposed to work with mental problems, and be understanding, acting like that. We live in a Philip K Dick novel.. I went through all the same stuff you did.

[RoyALongfield]

I too have lost faith in the medical proffesion. If it's not legal drugs that are mixed wrong and can kill you or even vaccines that are topped up with stuff even most doctors don't know about never mind the effects on people these extra ingredients may have. Or in your case where the doctors lie and decieve just to earn a wage from the drug companies commision based bullshit. I'm sorry, but when i'm sick, unless I get carried to a doctor or a hospital, I'm staying clear and researching altrntvs

[gooniegunclub187]

DAM BRO I REALLY FEEL FOR U... ONLY TAKEN BENZOS A FEW TIMES..BUT I WAS HOOKED ON OXYCODONEFOR A FEW YEARS IT WAS A CAKE WALK COMPARED TO YOU..I FELT HOW YOU FELT BUT ONLY FOR ABOUT 8 DAYS THEN I WAS NORMAL AGAIN......ILL NEVER TAKE ANOTHER BENZO AFTER HEARING THIS

[RosesBlue445]

Thank you soo much for posting this ~ Now i know that others were going through the same as i did w/ nasty drs ect! Now i feel i have hope :)

[TheCrzytank]

I find it funny how there is so much anti tobacco campaign anymore, dont smoke! dont smoke! bullshit.. Your safer smoking your whole life then taking fucking medications on a daily basis. So my qeustion, why is there new fucking drugs on the market everyday? Most people are stupid enough to take this shit, myself included, never take zoloft for depression because you may be permenetly deppressed after that.

[AndyD7781]

Thanks for sharing your story. It means a lot. I had severe post withdrawal toxicity from Klonopin after being on it for 10 years. Thanks Doc for prescribing something without telling me the potential dangers! Each day during those 10 years I got sicker and sicker. I developed mental issues I never new were possible. Withdrawal made me a vegetable. No one will understand what we've been thru! 9 months off now and still suffering. Medical community doesn't get it and/or denies it. Sad stuff.

[larssoeren]

what can i do to get away, i dont see anyway, whats the best way to stop taking benzo, i tried everything, i dontwant to die when i have my xanax, butwihout ....

[insect1752]

@larssoeren I have been through the withdrawal, and I almost think it might be better to keep taking it, but maybe slow it down a tiny bit... if you can. Maybe keep slowing it down, make that a mindset. But it's gotta be really really slow. I quit cold-turkey, and nobody should EVER do that, EVER.

[keljoism]

You are very brave for telling your story. It sounds horrible and I was not suprised when you mentioned that you became suicidal. I take five psych meds and after being tortured by akathisia (which required several med adjustments) I am happy to report that I feel pretty good. But I have no hope that I will ever be off these medications. I am especially worried about klonopin. I am glad that you are not as tortured as you were and are getting better. Sure sounds like hell to me.

[2010Hammy]

I was taking upwards of almost 14mg a day of Xanax, I went into a local detox here in Florida on June 4th, after spending a night in the hospital of course. Then proceeded to check myself into a 4 month in-patient program here in Florida. This was the best decision I've made in my 14 YEAR addiction to Xanax. I knew the withdrawels were gonna be bad because of my history. I went through almost 4 months of hell, had to go to the ER a few times during my stay at the rehab. This was not easy.

[yukonyo]

Wow, is all I can say. Thank you so much for sharing this. I found your video because I'm in school for a medical field and looked up benzo withdrawal just for the heck of it. I am so glad I did, and so sorry to hear the way you were treated. I just want you to know I'm sharing this on my class's social networking site page, so hopefully there will be more of us running around in hospitals who will BELIEVE someone when they tell us what they're experiencing. And thank you again.

[ethermonkey222]

I am going through something similar, found that when I was being sick and no appetite that I could sip small amounts of water and half-spoonfuls of natural yogurt, but couldn't hold any kind of tablets down. The absolute insomnia that goes on for weeks and months I have had for over six months now, though some nights I get a couple of hours of sleep, I think acupuncture helped a bit or maybe it was just the calming Chinese doctor.

[CorneliusFractogram]

Also, thanks for these videos and congratulations for making it this far without losing your mind and body.

[magpieeye]

It can take years to recover from benzo dependence. Doctors eithe don't know how or they don't want to take the time to help the patient with the withdrawl. In my opinion you should have been in a good rehab center who could have monititored you,,,you NEVER should attempt to withdrawl alone or even be alone while detoxing. I hope you're doing better thiese days. I know how it feels.

[Jairzinho121]

The problem with treatment is that it can make people worse than never being treated at all.

But for others it can work.

Personally I think life is stress and a constant battle. I have never taken an antidepressant and have no desire to do so. A drug is a durg, whether its cocaine, ecstacy or produced by GSK. Prescription drugs are no different to illegal drugs.

[Bellebae]

iknow u should be well by now. God bless u for letting people know about this. and i really want to know the improvement.

[CraigTube]

Big drug companies trying to sell you drugs that you can't get off of so they can keep making money off of ALL OF US.

[jhoward56633]

Wow good story. I just came off benzos myself and I can relate 100% I've been going through alot of the same issues, I recently lost 20lbs. Unable to sleep, I feel like I'm always sick, my appetite is gone, It all started when I quit taking xanax and klonopin. I do have worse anxiety now then I used to, I don't let it stop me from living a semi-normal life though, I know it takes time and effort to get back to the way I used to be. You just cant ever give up. Hope your doing better.

[februaryz]

he is very right , eat good dont take another pills to stop the previous pill affect.

[Aggiesgigem]

How did you not off yourself. Sounds like HELL.

[ams1992]

They're actually selling the strongest Benzo available online... Attributed to blackouts at some of the doses he describes. Scary stuff. Sorry you had to go through that, I hope it all goes back to normal for you too. Ive been suicidal because of depression and anxiety but never been through withdrawal, I hope I never have to. Currently completely medless. No pills. After overdoses and suicide attempts my stomach hurt so bad I quit taking them, it helped. The doctor didn't want me to.

[Lushhdog11]

I feel for you tho!

[ibogaful]

it was the xanax for sure , I have been on and off them before with simaler effects.

[sarahloubel]

I'm going through this now... I'm happy to see this... Worst feeling in the world I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy..I pray alot nowdays i will pray for you too.

[wvboarder2005]

YOUR NOT CRAZY THE DRUG MADE YOU CRAZY-one sentence description of it all

[420KingChron]

Big thanks to the story.. gives hope to people who are currently going through this.

[TheAnonymouz]

Thank you for making this video. It must be really terrible just to think about all you have experienced. I hope things get better for you, good luck and take care!

[recklessabandon91]

moving story - genuinely worried for you, I really hope you are okay and i mean it <3

[courtneyannemeadows]

I completely understand what you went through! And know it is all true!! My story is a little different as everyone's will be, but you are right, doctors have no clue about any of this...my blood pressure would get as high as you said yours was and I too got to the point where suicide sounded like the only way out. I lost who I was and feel like I was in a fog the whole time. and of course told you were on such a low dose it could not still be benzo withdrawl!

[bjizzle123]

did you ever become your old self?

[VuRtUaLInSaNiTy]

Thank you I am in the uk. Was given a whole mixture of benzo's and crazy amounts of pain killers for back pain. When I stopped because I did not feel right I got depressed and obsessed about everything. Crying, no appetite, diarrhoea, headaches, torments, shakes, sweats, unbelievable internal physical and mental pain that I have ever experienced. I'm still there, I'm I'm still feeling the pain. But I will NOT taper or accept i am going crazy. I've promised myself I'm going to try and help other

[TheGarythegame]

Brian, thank you for sharing. I'm going through hell, decided to cold turkey 5 days ago. Have been on 8mg Loprazolam (equal to 80mg Diazepam) every evening for 10 years, I'm 34 now. Stopping is absolute hell and I've felt like I've been coming to death the past 4 days. The pain, blurred vision, fear, etc... I don't think any doctor, parent, spouse or anyone will ever know what the withdrawals are like cause they've never been through the sickness.

[413hey]

Doctors (with exceptions) are taught to treat the symptoms, especially with medication. So many are ignorant and don't even realise it, because thats how they've been taught. We need more doctors which listen 2 people & learn from preventative medical sciences which promote using proven natural sources. Pharms are needed at times, but these powerful drugs which doctors prescribe so much are just making problems worse. But the pharms just keep getting pushed, and so the trends go on.

[dukenu100]

If your undergoing withdrawl you need to know that things get better with time, patience and a whole lot of courage. I've been there and can share a few words of encourgement: It always feels worse and hopeless while you are sick like this, but hold the thought--the possibility--that its the disease that prevents you from seeing it and dont blame yourself. Then do the work i.e., exercise as much as you can, eat good food, meditate, pray and challenge the negativity--use cbt and you can recover.

[TheSupersurgical]

. ...i jos love getting the jolts,,

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[TheRealDeal848]

Did your pupils go massive? :)

[the7thwreck]

@TheRealDeal848 Your pupils go so big it looks and feels like your on acid! Thats usually when im getting the derealisation and weird messed up vision....like my eyes were focusing on EVERYTHING in the field of vision, not just just the normal 'look at one thing at a time'.

[patmagrath]

Brilliant video. Wonder how you are doing now 2 years later...  I am a very anxious person like yourself, and I have 100 street bought pills of xanax in front of me. I researched the shiit out of it before I shall start using some of it. I am now having second thoughts about using it to relieve my anxiety. Thank you very much

[squirtad]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am glad that you are doing much better, and hope that you will completely recover soon. This video helps me to be more aware of the possibility of long term benzodiazepam withdrawal symptoms, and motivates me to get myself educated on this topic. I am a family nurse practitioner and I am very sorry about your negative experiences with the health care providers that you came to look for help.

[nakiestona]

Thanks for sharing your story. I work in a pharmacy and every day someone new is getting ten Ativan or a couple Valium for a flight because their nervous or because they don't sleep. The scariest part is that it only takes one pill for you to feel like it's helping then go on for six months with it. Yes it's supposed to be a short acting drug but the effects on people last a lifetime! Pain killers are even worse it just makes me sick that I work in an industry like this. Pls msg me if you have

[jaygirldancer]

i cant find a doctor, i have took at least 20 xanax, val, kl whatever, a day, i would fall have seizures; ringing in ears, i cant eat sleep, have not have one doc tamper off, they dont understand the amount i waz taking waz NOT the amount i waz giviin' i waz taking 9 10 bars at a time just to feel normal, i almost killed myself trying to drive of hall., i dont know what to do?

[EDOM666DEVORE]

I AM IN ALMOST THE SAME BOAT i'm on clonazepam and i cant go without for awhile im on zyprexa and cymbalta too but my doctor does not have anything else other than me wanting more benzosand im also on methadone so every pill i take is having some kind of withdrawl if i wanted to stop but i guess ill take your advice for getting off them when the time comes thank you!!!

[Inkhart]

Thanks for your video. I'm studying drugs and their effects on psychology, and this really puts it into perspective.

[ethought2]

wow - thanks you probably just saved me from going through hell! I have been on Benzos for one week for insomnia and decided to look at the risks on the internet. Boy am I glad I did. Needless to say I will never take Benzos again. Drug companies should be taken to court over this!

[TheCajun124]

What an awful story. I'm afraid it's not so much that they don't KNOW but they don't CARE...when the Dr that got me addicted to Xanax retired without telling anyone 1st, I had Hell finding a new Dr who would touch it with a stick "Beacuse it's notoriously addictive" & they feared for their liscences...but they happily put me on Klonopin. That was 15 years ago & I want off but I'm scared....Good luck to you! And thank you for posting/reliving this to help others.

[FLA5starkilla]

big ups to you man....i respect what you did,said,went through. You are a strong minded man and you did not stop or fall back into the hole and i respect you for that. god bless you and hope you are bettter

[twalter1986j]

I was on/off Xanax for 3 straight years up to 4MG a day. My primary care dr wanted to stop

[lovelyhrtwdopn]

I've danced with the DEVIL and his name was Ativan, I begged for the music to stop and it wouldn't end. The tempo increased with every pleading, desperate cry for help. I could never explain my hell to anyone who had never been through it. The responses were always, "Maybe you need meeds?" The derealization and panic were never ending. I went through this once and today here I am again. How you ask? I ask why?

[NoWarningShot]

Wow, congratulations for getting off of xanax the way you did. I quit taking them almost exactly a month after you did after being prescribed them over 5 years, and was cut off by my doctor when I told him I wanted help getting off of xanax, so I know what you went through. I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. I couldn't eat shower or sleep for 19 days, and when I finally slept, I had a seizure. After several months I was finally able to leave my house. Xanax is terrible stuff, people.

[MissBorderlinemind]

I was just placed on 1 m of klonopin and .05 of xanax..  Ive been on it now with. a mood stabalizer and 2 anti drepresents. Now i'm afraid.

[HurricaneSondra]

stupid doctors dont know what their doing. thank you for the videos kid. thank u very much.

[theredone09]

i just whant to let you know you jsut saved my life im awake right now its 6: 20 am im due for a app at 8:30 i was going to get on xanax for my littel anxiety i was mainly going to get them for the high. im sorry i know that sounds selfish after what you whent threw but thats my point i heard about pills doing this to people but i thought jsut with sertan weght loss pills. I PROMIS YOU IM NOT GOING TO EVEN LEAV MY HOUSE TODAY. not very religious my self but ,god bless you i love you, take care

[melspath123]

hey theres so much out there thats so behond us to try and understand,just trust in yourself and be your own best friend,doctors and the like are human too,no one wants to be held responsible,and there pay offs are who theyve been able to assist not the challanging one,s!

[Gatris66]

you are a brave brave soul.... god bless

[Trutzblatt]

Right on man......the world needs more people like you....thanks!!!!!

[joesalespro]

Good job posting this video! I want to pick your brain. I need your help. Whats your email address? Feel free to private message me. I really do need your advice.

[guest2424]

I know what your saying. It is scary when you feel like a few minutes of google searches has you 10 times more educated than your doctors! I guess doctors educations are all like 10+ years old information and all outdated and much of it is now proven to be incorrect.

[chillskid]

So the ringing in your ears is completely gone? That's the most bothersome symptom for me.

[Godpleaser77]

It’s very sad! I am in my 50’s and have experienced all the Dr. Foolishness that one can see (I am sure there is more) Benzo’s are poison. Maybe one or two to calm you down before surgery! Personally my thoughts on Antidepressant medication are that it is also another lie! Don’t play with any of these! Thanks for the video. Don’t trust Doctors (all they want is your money)! They are trained to sell prescriptions like car salesman are trained to sell cars (lemons)!

[fredguy2]

I feel the same way all the docs didn't take me seriously with my physical symtoms.

[Necrotic89]

Thanks so much for posting this. Listening to what you went through horrifies me, as I am on Lorazepam right now, although I won't be on it for more than a couple weeks at most. This video makes me want to quit now, but it helps my shakes and allows me to sleep. Let me know if you have any suggestions, since you've been there. Have a good one, and I'm sorry this had to happen to you.

[jrod037]

much respect. i got through it. feel back to normal but still dont trust and hate doctors!!!

[the7thwreck]

Its all about MONEY. Good Luck bro.

[Mwink1975]

YES, WITHDRAWING OFF XANAX IS HELL!!!! I THOUGHT I LEFT A COMMENT ON HERE 'BOUT A MONTH AGO, DNT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED?? XANAX IS NOT NOTHING TO PLAY WIT, BEING ON IT CHANGES UR BEHAVIOR, IT'S VERY ADDICTIVE, & IS HARD TO GET OFF!! I'M DOING BETTER, BUT IT TAKES A LONG TIME TO GET OUT UR SYSTEM. I'VE BEEN OFF FOR ALITTLE OVER 2 YRS NOW. DON'T JUST STOP TAKING IT ABRUPTLY, U MUST BE WEENED OFF, CHK OUT MY VID ON XANAX!!!

[shelliebill]

I know I keep posting this, but please check into Dr. Heather Ashton's video here on YouTube and Google her as well and her tapering method. Your nightmare can end. I finally see this for myself. Message me anytime, please. I cannot post links here. :(

You can also find a doctor in your area who advocates this method and totally understands you!

[gorgedorifice]

more ppl need to do this im talkin like evryone i kno

[HerrSpieldose]

arguing in their terms and citing a law that keeps RX shrinks rxing speed to a manic depressive... I would have a push but as an adult who tested higher in IQ tests and scored high on tests I had a cause. and can intimidate the hicks... but when you are smart and can be them or higher they push fear... because they fear the real change...

[thehammzy]

Its rediculous that doctors can prescibe these drugs that are often worse than the drugs you find people selling on the street. but they can do it because there doctors

Its BULLSHIT

[Mark5043]

I went through the same kind of situation in the early 90's.It took about a year to feel normal again.Doctors who think that there are no long term withdrawal symptoms from Benzos shouldn't even be practicing medicine.

[ray34iyf]

also, I understand your hesitancy to trust the medical community anymore. I'm right there with you... that's why I'm taking control of my health and getting rid of processed foods, exercising, and doing relaxation to control stress. Don't yourself any reason to go back to a doctor. Best of luck healing my friend.

[dukenu100]

My story is almost the same though not as intense as yours. I had a elevated heart rate when placed on paxil after taking xanax. I had a doctor get mad--I was was schocked and baffled--I was seriously thinking of checking myself into a psych ward. After all the E.R visists, tests etc., not a single doctor ever suggested I might be suffering from withdrawl! I was left with no faith in doctors and placed my life in the hands of God. I prayed the rosary daily and went to confession. Im doing better

[Whowillcrazethemace]

Seen all your parts 4 , i just hope that you are full recovererd. I got wet eyes and im so facking mad when nobody understood you. facking idiot doctors and i i can belive that it was a hard time for your parents to. Just hope you are feeling better and pls reply if you feel better now!.

[Finitegrace]

You are an amazing person for sharing this. I have been through only a taste of what you have....I have a suggestion for others. There is evidence that Melatonin can help ease benzo withdrawal, it helped me, though I had only taken xanax for about 2 weeks. Thank you for sharing your story....

[DougglesMagnificent]

sheeeit son i feel your pain totally. noone understands the terrifying feeling in your hands, the brain shivers, the body jumps off the bed, all that shit. some friends of mine dabble in benzos while i've been prescribed them since youth and when they laugh off my withdrawal experience i get vexed bigtime yo

[coccinelleneufpoints]

Excellent video on the horror of benzo withdrawal and the kafkaian experience of being sick because of a drug and not being taken seriously by anyone.

You've been so brave, it's very inspiring.

[pam1986ful]

hi... I dont know where to start but just by saying that everything you've said is what I'm goin through now. I also have agoraphobia and it started when I was 15 and have been taking xanax for about a year now and cant get off of it and my dr. was a block head just like yours... and I also wish I had just my regular anxiety back cause I also was able to go to the store but now I have quit my job because I'm trying to get off xanax and its terrible and you pinpointed all the side effects

[igloopol]

Time is the best healer. I had the same thing happening with the doctors, so frustrating when doctors tell you something you know doesn't have to do with anything.

[vvtor]

I would gather all the doctors of the world, tie them to a chair, glue their eyelids open and force them to watch this for hours.

I had similar experience where my suffering lasted for several years. Like you describe it, it was hell on earth. Doctors always seemed uneducated, abrupt and full of themselves, disregarding even the faintest possibility that benzos actually have the ability to do this. If they only knew what kind of suffering they are causing.

[dxsharpe]

I was prescribed benzos for severe IBS and I'm very thankful I googled it before ever taking it. I see many that have suffered the way you do after getting off of it or even tapering ... I think I'd rather just suffer with my IBS.

[colshythecomedian]

like i said in part 2 comments, i am a nurse, but i say your right. You are really inspiring to me. After 7 years of HEAVY use of dihydrocodeine and before that 9 years of alcohol dependancy i really need inspiration. I know i'm not using Benzo, but i find the withdrawals seem simelar. I hope you are well now or getting there. P.s i am married, and have never told my wife or any of my family about any of this. Or my work up until a few months ago, so i know about the lonliness for sure tooi'm 38

[Pent5HT]

I am prescribed Xanax and i Love it. It makes my anxiety go away and my panic attacks. Im afraid of getting addicted to it. If i forget to take it i get nauseous and sick i feel like Shit when i forget to take it. Then when i take it all of that goes away. Iv been on benzo's for 2 months. My Doctor Gives me 24 pills and says to take em when i have high anxiety/panic attacks. My attacks get worse though i need to take 2 to 4 .5 Xanax's a day to function im afraid of whats gonna happen if i stop.

[woody231979]

So how is the progress coming ?

[bannastrand]

Check out website of "APPGITA"  All Party Parliamentary Group on Involuntary Tranquilliser Addiction for UK benzo campaign.

[JeffBertolotti]

Look into Dysautonomia...Pots syndrome...Ive been there little brother, keep praying and keep the faith. The doctors are all blind to all of this... I have a video oin dysautonomia on my utube...

[TenaciousB1tch]

I have been treated like that by doctors so many times before, they abuse their position in power but they love to ruin lives by prescribing people anything they want without telling them the actual side effects. I am so with you.

[brulee2345]

Hi Brian, I hope you are ok now. I know exactly what you were feeling. You are very wise and intelligent. I hope you find some peace and your anxiety goes away completely. You look like you are doing good, nice color. :)

[collindacorn]

I no longer believe anything a dr says and will never trust them. Thanks for doing this. It's been a while since you posted this, soon to be a year If I"m not mistaking. How are you now? I am 2 and a half mts off, been through the nausea. Now it's everything else crashing down on me. Thanks-Hope you're doing good.

[alienwarelaptop100]

Best video iv seen so far. You did a great job in telling your story. You will be completely better, as you said the only thing that helps is TIME, no one else will listen or help, nor understand people that go through the hell of addiction. I would recommend you to try getting a career in show business, either take up acting classes or such. You have a great way in talking to the camera, if you can look like that reading of a script, you will be successful. Best Wishes!

[hotrocks888]

well done son keep it up! i was only watching cos im getting my 100 x 1.0mg xanax tomorrow, maybe i shoul'nd do um everyday , hu?

[TheCandaceH]

Thank you for posting. Very informative and I'll be watching all your videos.

[specialk5174]

Well Played. Good Video

[bloodieduckies]

I was on 4mgs of klonopin for a few years (40mgs valium) and tapered off then titrated off and It was HELL,I did it though,the lower doses was the hardest but the days get easier once your benzo free,

The maker of this vid brings up benzowithdrawalsdotcom,My story is on there forums look for bloodieduckies feel free to ask me taper questions,Feels soooooo good to be back to normal.

[MrJredi]

@bloodieduckiesi was taking 3, 2mgs of xanax a day and without the doc knowing i got myself down to 3 quarters of a 2mg.then i told the doc i wanted clonazepam because of the better half life of the drug.i took 2 and a half mgs of that and eventually got myself down to 3 quarters of a .5,but i still couldnt quit.so i heard diazapam had a better half life than all benzos but im still at 5mgs of that,so what is the equalivent of clonazepam compared to diazapam?should i have stuck with clonazepam?

[jonvisual]

A mi me esta pasando lo mismo. Tome durante dos años y medio Clonazepam para dormir y llegue a tomar 2mg. Hace dos meses y medio que lo deje de tomar y fue realmente terrible, aun sigo con sintomas y se que es un largo camino la recuperacion total. Mis mejores deseos a todos los que estan en este viaje.

[chocara1]

I believe that I could probably go take the test without going to school. That's seems like the type of doctor's we have now in todays society. Some doctores put the weight on themselves as god not the patient. Some doctors just don't listen to their patients.

[KF81]

Nice post mate, I have been on valium daily for 3 years and it really has been hard work at times, physically & mentally. At one point i was on 60mg a day but am now on 5mg and i can see a light at the end of the tunnel. Like you said, you need to take it a day at a time and it does get better but you have to hang on in there. I Hope things are better for you now. Peace

[tainigurrl]

Wow, thank you for posting this, you are very strong and I am glad that you lived through it to expose the truth. My question for you is that I take benzos too, I take klonopin but I only take a pill 3-5 times a month. Do you think that this withdrawl could happen to me? Because if it can I would rather deal with a panic attack. I have heard before that people who get off benzos notice that their anxiety is even worse than it was before they started taking them. That really scares me because

[TweakedReality]

Thanks so much for sharing that, it made my day and prepares me for hopefully not as bad as what you delt with but a good idea of what to expect, thanks again.

[Muskateering]

Great vid mate. Benzo withdrawal is totally awful. I'm having it now, its like a bad acid trip. I feel like my left leg is levitating when I walk and things are at an angle and I feel woozy. Had to go back on to taper. Not nice.

[aquarobinson]

well said sir. psychs are spooks dude...i am going through the same thing and my whole life is a lie. i have f#$kin case workers watching me, retarded parents and a nazi doctor too. thx for sharing.

[knowrenemy]

Hang in there. I have been through this and I want you to know you are not alone. I also wanted to let you know that I consider you an extremely brave person to discuss this in a public forum. I hope all your feedback is positive. If anyone writed negative feedback, just ignore them. They don't understand. HOLD ON.

[swgopium]

I w/d off of xanax one time and trust me it was the last time i ever touched them things. it was 10x harder then coming off of oxycodone 10mg x15 a day. Hats off to you for getting through it man.

[tgz1000]

Doctors are stupid when it comes to benzos. I tried saying the same thing to them, they'll just say I know I went through medical school. As if medical school somehow compares to the experience of coming off of those pills.

[Jeffluvs80s]

U just gave me hope to get off all the crap Klonopin Methadone I am on. Btw, Did I tell you that ur cute,hehe ;-)

[tracyblogger]

I don't trust doctors anymore either. These videos were great. They took a lot of courage. You WILL fully recover soon!

[whatnamesnottakenyet]

I've been there man and I will pray for you. It took me over 6 months to feel "normal" again and I only used Xanax for 8 months at 2mg a day. Sad thing is, the drug companies know full well what this shit does, but they would rather people suffer like this than give up the money they are making. this world is truly sick. Hang in there, bud and keep warning people about these evil drugs. Nobody should have to go through this and I would not wish it on my worst enemy.

[whatnamesnottakenyet]

I've been there man and I will pray for you. It took me over 6 months to feel "normal" again and I only used Xanax for 8 months at 2mg a day. Sad thing is, the drug companies know full well what this shit does, but they would rather people suffer like this than give up the money they are making. this world is truly sick. Hang in there, bud and keep warning people about these evil drugs. Nobody should have to go through this and I would not wish it on my worst enemy.

[whatnamesnottakenyet]

Hey man, just want you to know I went through this 18 months ago and I had the same feelings as you. I wondered if I was ever going to get better and it took a few months, BUT, you will get better I promise.  Just hang in there bud.

You are totally right about the IDIOT doctors. I tried to quit cold turkey after 8 months of 4mg or more per day of Xanax and I literally thought I was going to die. I could have, really.

[whatnamesnottakenyet]

Hey man, just want you to know I went through this 18 months ago and I had the same feelings as you. I wondered if I was ever going to get better and it took a few months, BUT, you will get better I promise. Just hang in there bud.

You are totally right about the IDIOT doctors. I tried to quit cold turkey after 8 months of 4mg or more per day of Xanax and I literally thought I was going to die. I could have, really.

[whatnamesnottakenyet]

Hey man, just want you to know I went through this 18 months ago and I had the same feelings as you. I wondered if I was ever going to get better and it took a few months, BUT, you will get better I promise. Just hang in there bud.

You are totally right about the IDIOT doctors. I tried to quit cold turkey after 8 months of 4mg or more per day of Xanax and I literally thought I was going to die. I could have, really.

[EyesofGeisha]

I went to emergency 4 times last fall for heart problems, extreme weightloss, diareha, vision problems, balance problems etc, after coming off clonazepam and ativan and effexor.

I was tested for MS, cancer, HIV, parasites, etc etc. All the doctors have told me that it is not possible that medication withdrawal could cause any of the symptoms, and that they must be in my head. I have lost all faith in the Canada's healthcare.

[awallkdog09]

I am still on kolonopins and i'm going through this, everytime I try to wean myself off of them I start shaking and I get SOOOOOOO sick and last night I had the first thought of killing myself which is crazy cause I have never thought about that. I don't know what to do, I have went to the E.R several times to be just told its anxiety or panic attacks. I know EXACTLY what you felt like cause I am feeling it now. it is so scary, i never felt so horrible.

[djrobo101]

anyway how can they determine within a couple of 10 minute therapy sessions exactly how the pills are going to work for you? and they say they are professionals pffft

[smopoo]

Another thing, if you're having panic attacks or anxiety in any way, make sure you never, ever consume caffine.

[angelo212]

The doctors deny it because they do any to get sued.Just like the doctors tell you that there is no withdrawl from suboxone or very minor withdrawl for a few days. More like a few months of hell. The anxiety and not sleeping for weeks is the worst.

[thedancetuber]

doctors are only human beings given a certificate that says "You can now diagnose ills" and "you can now medicate" , its not about prevention or healing. People give doctors way to much weight sometimes. Been watching you all night, i have also lost faith in Western Medicine, i have not lost faith in Natural or Eastern Medicine.

[Corrupt5358]

These meds have helped me alot with alcohol withdrawal, I did not find them addictive nor did I get anything like this dreadful benzo withdrawal. Perhaps this is why doctors here are so reluctant to prescribe it - it must affect people differently.

With alcohol withdrawal (the reason I use benzos at all) - it's other in about 8 days, the idea of having a rapid heart beat and panic attacks months after stopping benzos really is a horror story!

[atourdeforce]

wow, ur very unlucky,im studyin medicine an ur story has shockd me i cannot believe u couldnt find even 1 doc who agreed wit u,of coarse it was withdrawl, an it can easily last a year r more,ive been on valium and opoids for a very bad back, ive been on them for almost a year on and off but never suffered withdrawls to the degree you have ive barely even noticed any withdrawls i never tapered either, but i know im just very lucky these meds dont affect me in the same way.

[iknowsomething2]

Thank you so much. 144 days in and just feeling a little better now, but I have been through hell as well. I have run into all of the same frustrations. It is good to know that I am not the only one. We need to start a lawsuit. So glad to hear that things are still getting a little better for you at 6 months in. Would love to hear how you are doing now.

[Mdot1982]

Did you get tested for Celiac Disease?

[Mdot1982]

I saw a Naturophath, I did Vitamin therapy, after 2 months, all my anxiety was gone, and I felt as strong an ox. Couldn't afford it long term though. Fell back into being unhealthy. Take Zopiclone and Clonazapam. My Ears haven't stopped ringing for 3 months! Feels like im having a 24/7 panic attack, even with the pills! H.Pylori, had it, didn't fix anything.

Get your blood sugar checked. Anxiety can be caused from many things. keep searching untill you feel great for at least 50% of the day.

[mattwiens123]

If you would like to know of the only doctor I've meet that knows all about benzos and how to truly detox for good, google Dr. Barry Blum, MD in Pasadena, CA. He himself went through benzo w/d after being a benzo addict for 23 years!

[mirrorseye]

ty so much for the vids,,,

[Mindfucked3]

Hey!

Just wanted to say that I feel really bad for what you've gone through.

I have a similiar anxiety disorder myself and is currently on SSRI, I have been on benzo for shorter periods before.

I didn't have any problem with the benzo then, but now I know for sure that I will never let that substance in my body again. So thanks for the warning.

Also I wish you the best of luck getting better.

=)

[dontmesswith1]

Hi, thank you for this video. I commend you for being so brave. I just wanted to say that all psychiatric drugs can cause withdrawal not just benzos. I withdrew from zyprexa and same thing happened. Now I'm withdrawing from Lamictal due to the zombie like side effects. The doctors misdiagnosed me as being bipolar and I'm never been manic until I started taking antidepressants.

[Sammm21]

First off I'd like to applaud you for being soo strong. You basically went through hell alone, and the people who were supposed to help you let you down. Secondly what the fuck kinda town do you live in were doctors are so retarded? A therapist whos advocating christianity?! That's fucking insanly unproffesional and unethical. If you ask me you should disown your parents and stab your doctors. Your story pisses me off so much, and if there is anything I can do please let me know.

[connor0702]

hi i suffer from anxiety and panic attacks i take 10mg of diazepam a day i car'nt cope without them but i have since just stopped them straight away and my mind feels blocked i car'nt think straiaght i sweat alot and car'nt sleep at night or eat propper just 1 meal a day but ive just started to take omega 3 fish oil supplerments ment to be good for anxiety and depression i know it gets better because i sufferd in 2005 bad and beat it once ill do it again good luck any ways

[MARGARITA90001]

i hate xanax....i went off them and it was hell but now i'm not depedent on them anymore it took about 3 wks for me to be out of the "hell" stage now i'm kinda normal but semi-depressed.. :) I wish i was my old self again... :((

[CountSymphonic]

More than half of the doctors out there... are crooks.

[Crinwa]

when you said 'i wish i was my old anxious self again', that rings true with me fully! I would much rather be that mildly anxious person i was instead of relying on 6-8mg's of xanax a day, all they do for me now is take the edge off my deeply moody persona after the first dose in the morning, then relying on them all day to 'feel normal'.

AVOID BENZO'S PLEASE!

[jude1871]

You should take the physician to court. These guys introduce their kids to a certain lifestyle, and should you threaten litigation, it's amazing how quickly self preservation kicks in with these guys.

[grimreefer1]

ive watched all four parts, its fucking unbelievable that the doctors are so naive. this needs to be published in the media etc, people cant suffer like this from these fucking drugs

ive never taken any of these drugs before, only drugs i touch is alcohol and stimulants

[andrew587658]

Started taking xanax back in 05ish after a break up w my girlfriend untill about 8 months ago. shit made me very impulsive, angry/would lash out at people, and totally paranoid. became reclusive for like three years and lost some friends. also lost all interest in activities...basically could not funtion and like I said became very angry and impulsive and I was NEVER like that. I was a good natured guy and on this shit was not myself at all! Mix it with occasional drinks=MELTDOWN!

[decayedove]

First of all I just want to say thank you for sharing. You are so brave and so strong to get through what you did. I have mild anxiety, but no one has ever offered me drugs, but if they ever do -I will make sure to NEVER take benzo, because no relief is worth the risk to go through what you did. Your story made me so emotional. I can't even imagine.

[zabitkhan]

oh my god i am new and i have seen a llot of depresssed people ...and fruits realy helped me i ate vegatables and walk is very good ..exercise i love running ...and i never said that i don't want to go out i realt try to go out eventhough i am not ok ...morning walk is prety good ...and running too.and make good friends ...

[hialeahgeek]

I have had a Vaslium addiction for 10 years... I currently take 60MG a day and ; IT IS HELL... I cant function without this stupid pills...

[LadyOfMyth]

Thank you for sharing this video. My Bf is addicted and is trying to get off of them now. good luck with the rest of your recovery.

[wattsrightt]

yeah it ends..vitamins DO help.....what do u think are in the foods u mentioned...u guessed it vitamins AND minerals ...Vit C is a adrenilne killer and magnesium for muscle relaxation./Contact me if u would like some tips. U can't trust Dr.s at all. There's nothing I don't know about benzo withdrawal. You DO get better. 1st time I quit I used to follow my wife around saying "am I ever going to be sane?"It took a year. I was about 30 at the time. No tapering. If u are older DO NOT STOP SUDDENLY!

[dave24ie]

I know what you mean when you say you dont know if its ever going to end, its kinda the same with me. In my view the benzos with the longer half-life (valium) are a little safer.

[TextbookDegenerate]

I went through similar situations and experiences with doctors. Wouldn't listen to me. Wouldn't help me. Wouldn't even acknowledge there was a problem...even though I could hardly sit still or talk. My doctor was so arrogant it was dangerous. It has been 1 year, 4 months and I'm still having problems.

[CheekyMonkey1968]

Argh! i thought i posted but it didnt show.

Brian.. thx for sharing Melissa's vid with us. Sorry if this post comes thru twice.

Just wanted to say while replying to her video- i accidentally (!!!) hit thumbs down on your reply. Meant to hit thumbs up. It's hot here and my brain is baked today.

So BIG ooops! My bad! I'd never give u a thumbs down my friend. Not in a million years. My bad.

Take care.

(((hugz)))

Eddie

[CheekyMonkey1968]

Brian!!

I thank you for sharing Melissas video with us. She seems neat and the kind of person i'd like to know under different & better circumstances. I'm good at readong ppls personalities & i like her.

Anyway- listen dude.. i was repling to her video on You Tube and was reading your comment & accidentally (!!!) hit the thumbs down i think!! Jeez Louise! I meant to hit thumbs up. Its hot here today & my brain is baking LOL. So if you see the thumbs down- it was a total oops. Sorry. xoxo2U

[Catwoman724]

Thanks for sharing your video.I can relate to a lot of it.I have panic disorder,and agorphobia .Started when i was 9 years old,homebound by 15 years old.Still pretty much homebound at age 52 years old.On xanax,desimpramine,trazodine for 24 years now.Been through awful doctors,and counsellors.And they put me worse.They caused me to get acid reflux from the stress.Like you i no longer trust the ones in medical field.I hate meds,wish i could wake up not needed any.

[doskocilb]

Thank you so much for posting this video. You are absolutely right no one understands this unless they are actually going through it. I am the same as you....I have little to no faith in doctors anymore after going through this. How long have you been off benzos and how long was it before you started to feel better? Good luck with the rest of your recovery!

[silentjealousy77]

I have been off for a little over 6 months. I started to feel better at about 5 months off..much much better, just not well yet.

[IntellectualsNY]

Jesus, thats sounds like hell ! You are that much stronger for having gone through this. And here I am thinking "I am having the worst week ever", but its nothing compared to what you went through, at least I have my health. Hopefully the worst of it is over and gone, wish you the best.