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  • i thought i was alone. i was abused by my best friend and his friends for 4 years, i thought it was nothing

  • I was abused by my older cousin and it was about a year in a half my best friend told me if i didnt tell an adult she was going to and hearing that from her showed me how much she cared then I told my school counselor and he is currently in prison for sexual abuse of a minor. My best friend gave me the confidence to speak up and anyone who is being sexually abused should come forward it makes you feel like your on top of the world when its over.

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  • I was sexually abused by my dad. My story is on my page :(

  • I was sexualy abused by my friends older brother!! :(

  • This was amazing, and I just had to comment - not only was it brave and amazing of you to post this in the first place, but in a technical sense I am shocked at how incredibly well done this video is! It's so artistic and well-done, I had to compliment that aspect of it.

  • this vid is amazing. i commend you for being so brave. only hope that i am able to do the same one day! awesome song too <3

  • Sorry to hear about your pain.

  • I was sexually abused by my first stepfather. The oldest memory which is haunting me, is one where I have a diaper on - so our guess is that it began at the age of three, and went on to the age of nine/ten. Because of the abuse I've lost my childhood. I've lost my innocence. I've lost the trust in men.

    I feel lonely but feel better alone. I'm constantly suicide threatned and a cutter :-S

    I wish I had the courage to tell my classmates so they'd ease up on my recistance of sex...

  • @SoothedSoul

    I tried to send you a PM, but you've enabled the block feature. I just wanted to say, that it will get better. Do not give up on life. Channel your fury into a force for good. Become a volunteer at a hotline. If you ever want a non-judgmental person to listen to what you have to say, I'm always willing to listen. If you ignore everything in this message, please do this for me: Type [Owl City - Tidal Wave] into the search box. And listen close to the last verse.

  • @kokopellifan1 Thank you for your support :-) I really appriciate it!

  • @SoothedSoul

    Anytime. I've actually been doing research for a movie about a group of teens (mostly girls) who escape from the clutches of a sadistic human trafficker. Tidal Wave (did you listen to it?) was part of the test soundtrack. Read the story 'The Slave Across the Street.' It's very soul touching, and it's what inspired the movie. I want to help people who have gone through what you've gone through, and a good screenplay is the best way I know how.

  • @SoothedSoul

    And also, go to my channel, and check out the current featured video (I'll be leaving it up for a while). Watch it, and imagine that you have the strength that the young woman in the video has. Then trust that you do.

  • I was sexually abused by my older cousin too... it was even in front of 5 of his friends. But i just brushed it off. theres no way i can change what happened, cause i can not go back in to the past. and theres no point of letting someone else ruin your life

  • So many people it has happened to now i feeel like im not alone and im only 11.. and i told my school counselor and my older cousin was arrested. He was 19 and im only a kid.. I think everyone who came forward is so brave. I was sobbing when I told her andI had a friend with me when i told my counselor. For those of you who are afraid to come forward. It is the best feeling in the world when it's over. Believe me. <3

  • this is alot like me..... except im 14... and its still happening... and well its not a relative...

  • @AlphonseElric122 You need to know it is the best feeling in the world when it is over. I know its not easy but coming forward is the best thing you can do to help yourself.

  • nicely done I myself was a victim by my own father since I was a baby until age 6 then at the age of 16 I got continuously raped by my stepfather until 17 & he took my virginity & changed my life forever now I am 21 . I wish it had never happened but thank you for the video there are people who can understand what I went though. I wish you the best life.

  • Emma you are gorgeous and a strong person. I hope you are doing well and wish you luck in your future.

  • @russance, quite obviously this has never happened to you. Thank goodness for that. You have no idea what it's like to be a little kid and have someone you love molest you. We, as children, have no real concept of sex. After abuse occurs, we're left to try & make sense out of what happened. A lot of times the abuser will threaten the child with bodily harm if they tell, causing them to stay silent. The abuser has a choice NOT to molest... when they cross that line, it's ALWAYS their fault.

  • So brave and powerful for you to put this here. It's given me the idea of doing the same. I was raped by a very close friend and didn't even know about date or acquaintance rape. I'd like to get several women with similar experiences and make something like this. Stay strong and we're survivors not victims! Thank you for the effort and opening to make this. <3

  • oh that is so sad good luck with the rest of your life <3<3

  • You are so brave for posting this. And aside from the topic of the video, it's a really great video!! It's well made! You have a lot of talent :)

  • mine happened by a neighbors 17 yr old son, i was just 9 when it happened.. i worry about my daughter, an if i found out i would KILL

  • It started when I was six too so I understand about childhood being lost. Major respect to you sweetie for being so brave and posting this. Keep up the fighting, you are worth it :-)

  • you are so amazing for posting this

  • It's 10 years after the fact for me and am just now getting the courage for counseling. Thank you for the video, it gives me hope that I'll feel "normal" one day.

  • Thank you for your story, I am a male survivor and champion. What you have done is so beautiful and amazing, your giving other the chance to come out a speak. Best wishes to you.

  • i have nightmares...

  • :( i'm still too scared to talk about my story...once again was an older cousin that i trusted :( I was 8...and now im 19 and still feel such a big burden on me, can't tell anyone...i don't know why it STILL affects me SOOO MUCH...ITS BEEN more than 10 years goddamit....

  • your bbeatufil never let them do this ever again it will ruin a beatiful girls life

  • You are a very brave girl to be posting this!!!!!!! but very good job

  • Brave girl.

    I was sexually abused from ages 4 (thats as far back as I can remember) until I was 12 or so... dad, older brothers... had my *issues* that needed to be dealt with later on in life, but I'm ok now :)

  • I read that some of your comment responses that you posted said that you used to have flashbacks. Well I suffer from PTSD, I was molested by my bestfriend's brother from the ages of like 6-9 ish and then molested by my cousin in 5th grade.... do you have any tips that helped you overcome your flashbacks? I just within the last year came forward with the abuse (Im 17) and haven't shown any ptsd symptoms, except recently after I told.

  • @LaffyTaffy858 i don't have any specific tips but there is a wonderful website called Pandora's Aquarium. its for survivors of all sorts of sexual assault and it is a great support system. they have tips for dealing with flashbacks on there

  • }': ur brave im scared as hell to reveal ym story idk y im always scared of wta ppl will sya }':

  • ur brave but did u forgive your cousin cause i sure wouldnt>

  • verry brave i admire you for this :)

  • homage to you. brill vid. good luck wi it all :)

  • What an amazing video. Really beautifully done and a powerful message. Thank you.

  • I'm so glad that you're speaking out! Just think of what a difference you can make for someone else who is going through what you went through. I'm so sorry for what you have suffered and I sure hope you've been able to move past what happened. God bless you for warning others about this. It really does happen. The numbers are staggering.

  • I've been sexually assaulted too. By my cousin, so.. he's probably in jail or therapy at this moment.

  • You're my inspiration

  • Great job on being so brave and posting this. i was abused from age 8 to 10 by an older cousin. just a quick question you dont have to answer but the pic at 0.38 is that your older cousin? again you dont have to answer but my cousin was only a couple years older so i was just wondering

  • @Mysafehaven88 Thanks for your comment, and no I don't have any pictures of my cousin in this video.

  • @Emmagizer i think this is amazing that you are brave enough to do this - the most empowering thing is being able to tell people what happened and the support they give is what get's you through it and come of it the other end ...very inspiring xxxx

  • @Mysafehaven88 You were a survivor of child on child molestation? I was too.

  • @Mysafehaven88

    if u look on wikipedia. they say that child on child molestation stems from the molesting child being abused by an adult or older adolescent. so basically, they're acting out on other children based on what was done to them. it's so sad. i was also molested by my stepfather a few months after my ninth birthday. it's so sad what happens in america.

  • @liberty2011able Yeah it really is sad and as for my cousin, i know for a fact he was abused because he used to go down the street to a neighbor's house before he started abusing me and many years later the same neighbor was arrested with 1000's of pics of child porn. our world is well and truly screwed up.

  • Hahahahahahaha

  • i adore how strong you are,my favorite part is the last few seconds.you are so beautiful and strong. I thank you for giving many many people strength for speaking out against abuse..<3

  • wow...

  • Wow, amazing job on the video. and I'm so happy to see you've grown into such a brave person!!! <3 Keep up the good work!!

  • your story just explained my childhood.

  • I have no words to describe your video...I'm so sorry for all this.....Hope,everything's O.K now and hope you move on and never look back!

  • This video reminded me of myself so much! I was abused from ages 6-12 and a few times after that. It was by a relative as well. Don't pay any attention to the negative comments below me,I know these things really do happen. You're so strong for pulling through it.

  • this video got to me. i was also sexually abused as a child. i was 5 wen it started n 2 yrs went on b4 it finally stopped. im almost 18 yrs old now n still having problems with dealing with it. im also verbally abused by my dad evry day. i rarely even caome home after school anymore bc of my dad.

  • :,( im sorry gurl ...i get u....

  • This is very brave of you to share. I'm glad you were able to get through it, and although I would never wish it upon anyone, it has probably made you stronger as a person. Thanks for sharing.

  • @LordPipweed your a horrible person mate dont say that people get sexual abused every day it aint a joke and believe me no one would enjoy getting abused. i bet ur some sick perve who goes around abusing little girls and boys yourself mate.

  • Thanks.

    I'm a guy, almost 17, and you hit the nail on the head. No one can really understand the pain of sexual abuse. For the longest time, I believed I was trash, because the abuser made me think I did everything willingly, and for longer than that, I stayed silent.

    Emma, you are AWESOME! I thought I've been alone in this, but you not only prove that wrong, but you also proved it IS possible to move on! I'm not as brave as you to open up like this to even good friends - rock on!

  • i really like your video.. it probably gives a lot of people hope! thank you!

  • i was sexually abused i know exactly how you feel

  • very brave tew tell dis story..

  • People say its never their own fault, but if a woman walks around in mini skirts and a reveiling tops with high hills, and they are sexually assulted it IS there own fault

  • @blazingangel908 That is bullshit!! If a woman is wearing a miniskirt or a revealing top she should be able to wear that WITHOUT being sexually assulted! Men should be able to control themselves no matter what women are wearing! Thats like saying: if a guy wears a pair of shorts and no shirt then its ok to sexually assult him. That`s the stupidest thing I can hear somebody say about stuff like this. NO reason in the world is good enough to make this okay!!

  • @lekrist89 I never said it was ok if you re-read my comment, I said that it's their fault. They know we live in a world where people are sexually assulted for wearing certain clothes so wouldn't have been smarter to cover up a little instead of letting everyone see all that? Besides, why would you want to wear something that can barely cover your ass or chest? If you dress like a whore or prostitute, you will be treated like one.

  • brave; <3

  • Your'e really brave for posting this , stay strong anyway wherever you live seems rough ... because , you posted a video about a friend named Toni passing away and being assaulted and then here you were assaulted as a child ... Anyway you have become an inspiration to many ...

  • I have just stumbled across this project through a link on the napac site. It must have taken a lot of strength and bravery to create. It has inspired me to create my own. Thanks for sharing.

  • Thank you for fighting for all of us and being brave enough to be our voice xxx

  • Thank you for fighting for all of us and being brave enough to be our voice xxx

  • Brave, courageous and beautifully done. Thank you for making the world a better place ;)

  • Good for you Emma. You are an inspiration to others to be strong and come forward. Bless You.

  • Hi, just wanted to say I think you're incredibly brave and to make something creative and positive out of experiences that are painful and distressing is a testament to you.

    I'm glad that you've been able to share this video and make others feel connected and not so alone. Take care, wish you all the best.

  • Wow, babe i feel for you ,<3

    It musnt have been easy for you to do this but thankgod you did. So many girls and boys are gonna benefit from this.

    but your now a beautiful girl who can get on with her life and inspire the rest of the world xx

  • @russance Technically, that would not be your fault. It is NEVER, EVER the victim's fault. Something wrong was done to them. The abuser had a choice ... even if there was a mental illness there.

  • @russance while it's still his fault

  • @russance Even when the person has a mental illness, they still have that choice to make. They might not be good ones, but then a lot of the time people are like that. Mental illnesses don't mean the person is completely absolved of blame. It just means they aren't as in control as a lot of the rest of us are.

    And don't say that I don't know what I'm talking about because I do. My biological mum's schizophrenic. Her choices aren't always good ones, but they're her choices anyways.

  • @russance Whether the person had a mental illness or not, it's not like the victim wanted. It's never the victim's fault. How dare you try and blame the victim -_-

  • did you tell your parentss? or did they find out, i totally understand if you wish to not anwser this but im just curious and btw i think this is veryy intresting and i totallyy give you golden starrr(: cuz i bet even knowing this is on your channel brings back horrible flashbacks♥

  • @spicandspan01 Yes, I told my parents what was happening to me when I was 11 years old. I actually haven't had any flashbacks in years (thank god!). If anything, knowing that my story is on here is empowering. Thank you so much for your kind words and support.

  • you are so brave to put this on here, your such an inspiration(:

  • Emma, my best friend is going through the same situation that happened to her just three years ago, and i think you are so inspiring. you are so strong, and that's so admirable! great job on the video and saying what you did. :)

  • Aw :(

  • wow, amazing! :)

  • Emma you are an inspiration to so many people in so many ways.

  • @TheAppleDrug Diana, thank you so much. 

  • @TheAppleDrug Diana, thank you so much. 

  • This is the bravest vid ever.

  • @YeahboyeeLovessU Thank you.  I try. :)

  • @Emmagizer Welcome:)

  • emma this is so inspiring. i can't imagine how hard it was for you to upload this video,but just know that it is making a difference in someones life out there. now they know they arent alone and that a truly amazing person came out of your experience and that it can happen for them too.

  • @prepoholic Shelby, thank you. Your support and kind words really mean a lot to me.

  • Emma darling, I love you so much and I'm so sorry that this had to happen to someone as sweet and amazing as you. I miss you dearie <3

  • @dansingstar92 Thank you for your kind words. :)

  • This is the bravest video I ever saw on the internet.

  • @froop84 I appreciate that.

  • Oh my god this is so sad. :(

  • omigod! this iz like exactly like me! i was actually sexually abused by like 4 different guys and the abuse went on from ages 3-6. MY main abuser was my dad, who also abused my 2 older sisters, my little sister, and my 2 best friends. we kept telling my mom, but she didnt believe me until one day she had me and my sisters sit down with her while dad wuz at work and had a talk. she sent us to my friends house and later in the night had my dad arrested

  • @lalaland1435 Thank you for having the courage to share some of your story with me. Incest is a rough thing to deal with. I'm here if you ever feel the need to talk.

  • I think this is absolutley amazing... I fell in love watching this. I love how you have the courage to speak out about this! You're incredible! I'm extremely glad everything is okay with you now, and i like how you want to let people know your story. It's so good!

  • @Kandyluhu Thank you. I appreciate your comment.

  • you are so beautiful and im s happy you did this...

  • @OnStagewwhs Thank you!!

  • omg im so sorry for what happened to your childhood

    this is such an inspirational video and it surely helped a lot of people out there

    you're brave and i'm glad you're fine now :)

  • @jingalingxx Thank you for your kind words.

  • omg! i'm so sorry I hope everything turned out okay at the endd:) This made me really emotional, but how could someone do that? I really am truly sorry I hope you feel much better now as a person:)

  • @totallyawesome171 I really appreciate your kind words. Thank you.

  • you are such a strong woman.... Everyone has to carry a heavy backpack in life, I hope one day I ll be free too, and then I ll climb a mountain and scream it into the world!

    btw: thx for this video, you were a qute child

  • @Henryfabulous Wow, thank you!

  • Great job!<3 I cant imagine how much courage it took to post this video<3. You are an amazing and beautiful girl<3 much love<3

  • @jennyjen1359 Thank you for your kind words.

  • You're seriously a strong person and though I haven't gone through what you've gone through I know people who have and I know that's hard to talk about . You are beautiful and yea you are so much more than survivor .! Good luck in the future =)

  • @lexiflexi101 Thank you, thank you, thank you.

  • It has to be a strong girl who had made this video. And i feel sorry for you. the sadness und all other bad feelings have to be so deep in your mind. But you are fighting against this, Keep on fighting and be strong. (sorry for my english)

  • @eike345 Your english was great. And thank you very much.

  • this is so touching ! i feel sorry for you :( ♥

  • @Manonnish I'm happy that you enjoyed it.

  • I agree with everyone else. It must of took alot to make this vid. I'm glad u did tho. Haven't seen any negative comments, thats good :)

  • @LD50w Thanks so much.

  • Thank you, Emma, this is a beautiful representation of sadness and hope.

  • @letalotchit I appreciate it.

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  • Thank you, Emma. <3

  • this is beautiful. I would eventually like to make an "I am a survivor" video with a bunch of survivors.. i know how hard it is to post things like this. I am also a survivor and hold my own child abuse awareness events every April, so i doo it publicly all the time. ^.^ much love sent to you.

  • @theSadieproject That would be awesome if you did that! I'm so happy that you do that.

  • Emma- your so brave for putting this out there. Really touched me. I really respect and look up to you.

  • @ZackHourihane Thank you, Zack. I hope that you're well.

  • You're so right. You're so much more than a survivor. You're you, defined by you, what you do, who you are, who you love. Congratulations on being who you are. Congratulations on being...You.  Keith Smith

  • @keithsmithnj Thank you. It means a lot.

  • you are amazing. i was also sexually abused, so if you ever want to talk, i'm here <3

  • @17kaykay1717 Thank you for your courage. You seem like an amazing girl and I enjoy watching your videos.

  • this gave me the chills.

  • @wekissthecamera I'm happy that you enjoyed it. Thanks for your comment. : )

  • I'm sorry about your past, you are such a strong and amazing person! Thank you for sharing your story! Truly inspiring. =] Hope college is going well!

  • @JLShow15 Aw, I miss you! Thank you for your comment. College is going ... You know how it is. lol

  • this was absolutely amazing! sooo sorry about your past but so glad u are the person u are today :)

  • @TheLovemehateme27 Thank you so much for your comment. It means a lot.

  • @Emmagizer welcome hun and if you ever want to talk just message me :)

  • I feel really bad, but im glad everything turned out okay for you. Thanks for sharing (:

  • @Kiki7448 Thank you for your kind words.

  • You're right Emma - you are more than a survivor, you are also a 'thriver' with great courage for speaking out - good for you and good for the world!!

    take care, Mike

  • @mcstrain Thank you, Mike.

  • That brought a tear to my eye. And i'm a guy!!! Somethings wrong with that...

  • @MRSUCKUP There's absolutely NOTHING wrong with that. And thank you for your comment. I'm happy that you were able to enjoy it.

  • @Emmagizer But everyone tell's me that i'm not supposed to cry because i'm a guy, and if i do cry then they make fun of me and call me a girl for doing so.

  • Thanks for sharing your video Emma. It is powerful and very well done. You are beautiful and creative and free! I made a video for the project also.

  • @NissaLotus Nissa, Thank you. I actually used some of your layout to make my video. Your's was my inspiration. :) I appreciate your comment. It means a lot.

  • @Emmagizer Thank you so much!!! It's very nice to meet you!

  • @rookiestyle21 Thank you for your kind words and support.

  • you are beautiful, every way and out.

    don't ever think differently.

    even though i dont know you well, you can always come to me to talk to. :)

    emma, you're so strong, and you're a big inspiration to me. <33

  • @BlackBubbleOfficial Thanks.  You're sweet. I appreciate your support.

  • i'm not finished watching i had to pause it b/c i'm crying.

    I love you so muchh!

    I hope that if you ever needed to talk to anyone please message me! alot of my friends are going through problems like this and i need someone to talk to..

    do you have skype??

  • @mdubb32 I would love to talk to you. My skype username is Emmagizerr.

  • @Emmagizer i added you!

  • @mdubb32 Awesome. I'm ready to talk whenever you're ready.

  • Dear Emma,

    This video made me cry. You are such a strong girl for coming strong out of this. My best friend was sexually/mentally/physically abused by her parents. So i can't relate at all. But you are such a huge inspiration and may you go far in life :)

  • @twasw1385 I'm sorry about your friend. Thank you for your comment. It meant a lot.

  • i never knew all this about you!

  • @PoppyTotoroxx I didn't tell anyone on here. Until now.

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