Living Damaged - Borderline Personality (pt. 2)

[mystique7000]

Hey, have you consider to try hipnose terapy?

[NotAvailableForUse]

I know how you feel... I have the same problems....It takes time and people that understand...

[ohhlauraa]

i am crying. i've felt like this for so long but i cannot articulate it. never being asked how i was feeling or why i was crying as a child has made it so incredibly hard for me to articulate why i get down or why i feel sad to others.

[Mermonkey333]

guh, thanks. feel less alone now...

[KennyReddwooddforest]

Find someone you can fully trust. Then you will heal and be able to cry. Those tears and also the anger needs to come out. It is fully ok to feel sorry for yourself. Never listen to what society says, they just repeat what others have told them like not to cry, or hold the other cheek or never defend yourself and ridiculous things like that. You had narcissistic parents. That causes their kids to develop BPD. Same happened to me as well. I am crying. I know how you feel. I send you much love.

[henrifirstman]

You're a strong woman.

[KarenSacandy]

Thank you for posting this. I have a male friend who was abused as a child, and he's said snippets of these ideas, but never the whole thoughts. Your exposition was thorough enough to help me understand so much better.

I cannot thank you enough.

Karen Sacandy

[ragdollannie]

you do a wonderful job of explaining this....i have had this crap forever. i am 56 and i have spent my whole life feeling like a freak, i am so sorry for you in your plight. i hope you can get relief.

i hope you can find loving people to surround yourself with, to support you now. don't marry a jerk. i am just now starting to feel some of these buried emotions from childhood. have you tried things like myofascial release, craniosacral, other somatic therapies?

[laurag333]

You're so inspiring <3

[maskedmosher]

you know there is a reason why you apear to get sympathy here and why lets say some one like myself or my cusine wouldnt . that reason being is no one feals a need to bull shit us like there doing you with this i care about your problems.

look at it this way into you find your peice of min d your not missing that much from the outside world. id externalize you negative fealings and take it out on the less self consious less fucked up about it types , what have they done 4 yah

[9random1]

I wish I could hold you in my arms when you're feeling like that.

[nekcr0]

Ohhh sweetie that was a hell of a rant, and I felt every word. My negative internal mantra goes like "You don't know how to handle emotions and be around people without flipping out - You'll never fit in anywhere, never be able to hold down a job or keep friends - Suicide is the only answer; it's just a matter of time.". Your vids make me feel less alone, thank you so much

[laurag333]

@nekcr0 your internal dialgoue is exactly to mine, it's creepy. <3 don't kill yourself, is nothingness better than something even if its terrible?

[hanelika]

Hey Girl, try EFT as well (I just saw your vid about EMDR). I think you gonna be fine :))))

[SuperAnimalDrummer]

It is apparent that you are incredibly beautiful person on the inside even amidst all of the turmoil. You are able to see beautiful and the most important things in life, probably because of your pain, and you're desire to get past it. I believe, given the ratio of time spent in that painful situational to the time you have spent apart from it, with your sincere and active effort, you will make strides I believe, and they will probably come in spurts. It will take time though. Stick with it. :)

[chili2cheri]

Howdie... I haven't had as much trauma as you... But want 2share my 2cents... I'm 35 years old. I was trapped in victimhood &got fed-up with being stuck in it. Hard realisation - Nobody is going 2rescue me. Healing started asI realised I cant erase the past but have 2find ways 2positively integrate it in2 my life. Taking charge. Caroline Myss's work -Sacred Contracts indicates I entered in2 a soulcontract with my parents - I chose them. Its about finding the diamonds in the fire... hugs..

[TinyTracey]

can totally relate to the crying thing,my dad wud always say",poor hard done by traceys crying again".im 35 now and he still manages to break my spirit and put me down.

[trka99]

Very inspiring hopeful video. I can tell you will succeed in beating these issues though it may take time and it's hard for bpd to be patient people. I can see you are strong and passionate. Hang in there. You inspired me to fight my problems. Keep keeping it real. Thank you for sharing this.

[DearFirebird]

you put into words how i felt for a looooong time. youre right, it takes its time to get out of that mess that 18 years of being treated like shit got us into, but its worth trying, believe me :). maybe there is some shit we will have to deal with forever but there is also a lot of shit we can overcome and i know you will. we can overcome enough to lead a life worth living, not mess others or ourselves up all the time and reach our goals, i´m sure. HUGS!

[MeAndMyBlackTable]

Omg, this video is so amazing! So full of passion, energy, pain and sorrow! It's a weird combination of things that i thought were going to make me feel down when i started to watch it but it ended up giving me so much energy to fight for my own fucking life again!! So thank you Brit :D

[lovethewiccan3fl]

@MeAndMyBlackTable Thank you Bas, I'm happy now that I spent 72 hours yelling at youtube to upload, lol. How are you doing, hopefully everything is well?

[MeAndMyBlackTable]

@lovethewiccan3fl Hi, yeah YouTube can be such a bitch when it comes to uploading a video. I'm back from my trip. I had a great time even though it was raining most of the time and i didn't get ANY sleep at all. But i feel ok. I'm so happy for you that you are going to ship out!! I hope you'll still have the time and the space (because of your roommate) to make videos. That would be so cool!! :)

[malarki5]

@lovethewiccan3fl

please, please, check out the works of Alice Miller. Her works could help save yr life! I think yr a very sensitive & humane young lady. No one on here thinks yr a freaks, young lady! you are very articulate and engaging no matter what you discuss!

You are letting us in on yr world. We are not the internet; we are human beings you cannot see!

[omaridotcom]

donT go!

[flomartoo]

Best wishes, Thank's.

[ReflectedImpedance]

When you were told by your parents not to cry, that is because it suited them, not you. Crying is not a sign of weakness. It is completely normal. Im a 53 year old guy that had an excellent childhood. I still have a good sob to myself now and then. It helps me cope. Chin up. Deciding to see a therapist was brave of you, and is one of the best decisions that you have ever made. Ill be thinking of you.

[omaridotcom]

@ReflectedImpedance damm u wrote alota shit..

[ReflectedImpedance]

You yourself said how much better things were after only one therapy session. Keep them up. Things will get better. All of your problems are related and have the same root cause. The root cause is what the therapist is trying to determine, and once she has sorted that, all of your problems will disappear because one problem stems from the other. Apart from hugs and affection, you also need a good cry. It makes a huge difference having a good cry.

[ReflectedImpedance]

Brittany, you're adorable. You need a hug badly. Many people including myself have warmed to you. I keep telling you that you have done nothing wrong. You didnt choose to be treated the way that you were when you were young. When we are children we are not in charge, and we have to do what our parents want. We dont have a choice. Its sad though that you had such bad guidance. I really dont see you having to endure this pain for the rest of your life.