features and assessment of psychopathy

[MethodicalMadness]

So... In a word: Politicians.

[SculptedThoughts]

the awareness of such with a psychological bond, but that doesn't mean I can't want to - or in the least, be curious about it. If they'd only open their eyes to look and not turn away, they'd eliminate the need for constant lying.

If I could sit down and tell somebody "I enjoy torturing animals," and tell them exactly why, and have them listen, and have them not act as if it were some huge deal; if I was only shown the least bit of respect, things might have been otherwise. Coexistence could

[SculptedThoughts]

pursuit of wellness. I want to be happy - don't we all? I've been honest, not only with myself, but with others, because I am an intelligent human being with a long life ahead of me, and it is important that I have a distinct identity, regardless of what I choose to reveal.

I sincerely hoped for acceptance. It's difficult for me to integrate my knowledge with feelings in certain categories: for example, even when I know someone is largely good for me, I lack that special spark connecting

[SculptedThoughts]

understand it a lot better than I used to, now that I have taken the time for serious introspection.

Therefore, I believe it is in my interest to accept what I am. You cannot teach someone like me to connect, empathize, and so forth. You can, however, provide alternatives which won't land us in prison. It's possible to be healthy... or at least it would be, if the world around us were better.

These past few years, I have been relatively well behaved. I've been honest about my mechanics in my

[SculptedThoughts]

I cannot change how I respond, internally, to stimuli. I can externally deceive and respond in a manner which is not in accordance with how I actually feel, but I can't force myself to be emotionally overwhelmed when held at gun point, or when in danger.

As a result, attempting to do so is frustrating, and leaves me miserable. It creates a conflict, and eventually, the pseudoprojection disintegrates.

I don't believe that there is anything wrong with my brain. It is simply different, and I

[SculptedThoughts]

@Ocelot152 You're completely wrong.

[SculptedThoughts]

@LloydChristmas777 I don't care what damage I cause. Say I'm in business - I wouldn't hesitate to win, even if others lose in the process. I just can't initiate force, because that would come back to me.

[SculptedThoughts]

Leads to denying responsibility. It's a pattern that is easily slipped into. Your vision tunnels, metaphorically speaking. Surroundings blur. You want. You walk forward. You take.

The second spark is manipulation. Sometimes, even when I don’t outwardly mean to, I find that I am subconsciously twisting arms to get what I want. Sometimes, I stop when I catch it. Sometimes, it’s so subtle – and I’m so close, and it’s so easy... that I can’t bring myself to stop. Parasitism ensues.

[SculptedThoughts]

The corrections I made, I eventually had to do by myself, and even now, it's an uphill battle against my own mind. I have to remind myself on a regular basis, "you don't want to go to jail. This isn't rational. This isn't in your interest. Stop it." But sometimes, it's like I completely shut off, and I don't care that it's wrong - I know in all likelihood, I won't be caught. Then I go back to reminding myself that probabilities may be in my favor, but it's better to abstain. For my sake. For me.

[LloydChristmas777]

@SculptedThoughts, Interesting, and almost un-psychopathic that you acknowledge the issue and seem to be trying to "fight" it off or at least keep it under control. Thanks for sharing.

[SculptedThoughts]

@LloydChristmas777 I am very interested in nueroscience. I'm starting to acknowledge the possibility of having the genetic make-up and wiring for the disorder, but not having the disorder itself, due to self-management (or maybe I still qualify, since I sometimes regress). For example, when I was younger, I hit every single point on Hare's checklist, and my brother and I both met the specs for the MacDonald Triad.

[SculptedThoughts]

@LloydChristmas777 I was thinking about serial murder by the time I was twelve, and when I was eight, I thought you reached a point where you had to injure people to reach the next plane of emotion with them in romance. You caused them pain and you ripped them apart, and then you could love them.

But I guess what happened is that I realized why it was in *my* interest to change, so it was never about pleasing others. It had to be conscious, and I had to possess an internal motivator.

[SculptedThoughts]

@LloydChristmas777 To be fair, I still can't connect with people. I still can't maintain long-term emotions. I still can be impulsive. I'm still the one who sometimes wishes members would die, so I wouldn't have to maintain acts. And my behavior towards non-human critters may be cruel, but writing about it is the best thing to do - with testimonies like this existing on the internet - how would it look, if I were suspect in any huge crimes? I'm reinforcing myself. I can't do it, if people know.

[bernlin2000]

@SculptedThoughts What about reading other people's fantasies on those things that you enjoy doing, that are considered objectionable by most people? Is that enough to satisfy you, or do you have to do the acts yourself in order to stay interested in things? Very fascinating stuff.

[SculptedThoughts]

@bernlin2000 Not at all. Reading about it only makes me want it more. Sometimes, visual aids are helpful, though - really good actors. Have you ever seen "American Beauty"? I love that movie, because there are many scenes which leave me staring in open fascination: the mother figure is a realtor, and walks into a home, confident and intent on beating the competition. She chants to herself repeatedly: "I will sell this house today."

[SculptedThoughts]

She does her absolute best - and she fails. Composed, she shuts the blinds. She puts her back to them and then she breaks down. The raw emotion.

The extreme, naked breaking point for this character has me spellbound. Then, she regains herself and she walks away, leaving no evidence of the event – save for the blinds, which preserve a gap where her body resided.

At the absolute worst - wouldn't you prefer it were a less evolved animal, over a human being? Animals don't deserve rights.

[SculptedThoughts]

Lloyd, if you're around - I have been professionally evaluated, and score a perfect thirty on the PCL-R (with ten twos and ten ones). When I’m really good, I’d score myself at a twenty – but since I do regress, and I am tempted frequently, I managed to chalk up a few ‘ones’ in session, and those put me over the edge. I think there are two roots for this: “Poor behavioral control,” and “Cunning/manipulation.”

In explanation – Poor behavioral control leads to impulsiveness. Leads to lying.

[schmitttykittty]

@SculptedThoughts @SculptedThoughts to my understanding, the lying of psychopaths is pathological, not necessarily a consequence of impulsiveness only . Rather a long trained irreversible strategy. Even there would be absolutely no need to lie, they still do. Simply said, even the sun is evidently shining, they tell you rain is pouring down. Or they would tell you that they love animals (and kill your cat the next minute)....

[schmitttykittty]

@SculptedThoughts

The poor behavioral control is especially demonstrated by verbal outbursts, violence etc. which are useful tools for the psychopath to get dominance and control over other people.

[hmwm67]

@SculptedThoughts I don`t think you are a full blown psychopath but you have psychopathic tendencies. to be full blown you must score 40.

[SculptedThoughts]

@hmwm67 Wrong. I was actually diagnosed a few months ago as a sociopath (personally, I prefer "psychopath," but whatever).

My recent studies, especially my personal experience, show Hare's checklist to be severely flawed, as with the combining of ASPD with socio/psychopathy as if they were the same.

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[TheMightykaz]

@hmwm67 Not true. I believe it to be 30 and over. 40/40 is EXTREMELY rare. Look up psychopath/psychology documentary on youtube. The first guy is a 40/40. He is scary as hell.

[hmwm67]

@TheMightykaz Yep! He was VERY scary. And the worst thing is at present there is nothing we can do to cure psychopathy. To benefit from psychotherapy you have to want help. Psychopaths don`t. They are programmed from birth to be that way. All we can do is to learn how to spot them quickly so we can keep out of their way

[SculptedThoughts]

@bernlin2000 Furthermore: the thrill of doing it yourself is that it feels real, and you can feel normal. By the time I reached the second grade, the emotions of those around me were fake - they had to be, in my mind. Everyone was lying. Acting. We were all playing parts. It's only when you personally isolate and cause the emotion in a safe environment (I don't understand messy, ugly kills or what drives those), that you trust it, and then it's exciting.

[LloydChristmas777]

@SculptedThoughts, What is your goal in all this? Do you want to function well in society while doing the least amount of damage to others (so that it doesn't come back to damage you eventually)?

[SculptedThoughts]

have a difficult time taking emotions seriously, I constantly ask "is this real?" "Is it possible that you genuinely feel like this?"

I was a lot worse when I was younger, and was finally given the option to either go to Juvenile Detention, or see a therapist, who openly said he didn't know how to help me.

[SculptedThoughts]

I have this disorder. It's possible to function with it, but difficult, because it's hard to take consequences seriously, to be concerned or bothered by the prospect of things like prison, which seem surreal, distant and unimportant. Nothing matters for long. You hurt an animal, and you get a rush from the look in its eyes; after its dead, you go back to feeling dull, bored, empty. You doubt people; I know I for one

[Swampymcswamp]

This man is a genius.

[Jubel06]

Sucks to be the guy who's on screen when this video starts listing all the traits of a psychopath.

[arcanacelestia]

So where is the rest of this video?

[centurion180ad]

Bankers are psychopaths!

ARREST ALL BANKERS

[JenkemChimperfection]

@centurion180ad the bankers Alex Jones keeps raving about are kike Jews. The same sociopathic pieces of fucking garbage that have been kicked out of white nations 109 times historically before there ever was a National Socialist Germany. Jewish psychopaths blame the Germans for the exact same crimes they are carrying out against the Palestinians today.

[mattcgoulding]

@JenkemChimperfection

Wow, I literally hope you die. Like seriously, you are a bad person. You're nuts.

[cemeteryinformant]

If you like like this then you may enjoy the book The Sociopath Next Door by Martha Stout...

[composer63]

use encouraging them them to misbehave, and their like of trust in that encouragement will cause them to want to be well behaved.

[willingtorisk]

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[willingtorisk]

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