Answers to YOUR questions!

[VampireLady001]

Wow,your eyes are so beautiful! :) I love what you do,I`ve watched almost all of your videos,thank you for everything!Good luck with your book and everything you do!

[ClythiaMystica]

do you have any videos on how to fast? do you think you could make one and give us tips and how to keep control? but i mean in a healthy way

[ClythiaMystica]

did your memoir ever get published..?

[churchbellsaysno]

you look so much like marilyn monroe!

[missemoforever16]

i cut and my best friend is really worried about me and he is helpin me to stop cutting and i go his house and he sits my down and talks to me er one time he put a sharp pair of siccors infront of me and a knife and i had to sit there for 3mins and not try and cut and i didnt but mi other mate thinks that is not goin anyway but it is should i carry on with my mate whos helpin me?x

[vadjobbigtdetkanvara]

Just wanted to say that your videos are really awesome. I do feel less alone watching this, knowing that there's someone in the same boat (so to speak). Also you are really gorgeous and I wish you all the luck in the world with whatever you want in your life :)

[donnie350]

WOW at 18:11 the " replaced a traditional therapist with a video camera and Youtube?"

I've made a few video's and the ones with sound

that I can hear are really revealing. The Video's

where there is no sound but I'm just talking. I don't watch. Maybe I should but it hurts to watch those and remember that particular moment.

[donnie350]

Hi, trying to find out as much information about BPD thinking my wife has it and stumbled upon your video's. You are amazingly articulate, and so personable with your experience I'm sitting here crying. My wife, who has been reared in Chicago in an urban jungle of male predators, physical and psychological abuse, poverty just alot of graphic stuff you only see in the inner city.

I have so much love for this woman.

[sexybitcj91886]

i been a cutter for 7 years i use to cut every day but now i find it less and less but the think is all i want is the erges to go away but it never dose i wounder if one day it will go away my mom never understood how dose your mom react on it

[OctavioJames300]

I find you enchanting. You have quite a lot of videos and I have viewed most of them, I think. I have only done that with the videos of a few other people. You clearly have some serious issues you are working through, but you have real character and I would assume that many of your struggles have helped mold that character. And that face! Luminous, brilliant, truly Marilynesque. And I am a man who loves his Marilyn, believe me.

End note: You look like you smell amazing.

[OctavioJames300]

Best of luck with your writing projects. I sympathize with you in so many ways and I am surprised to find we share so many similar interests. I am a writer as well, or I claim to be.  My computer is flooded with a sea of my stories and scribblings, lets put it that way. Two novel length works in progress (or in process) and countless shorter pieces. No luck with publication yet, I suppose I should have started sending things out when I was 21, not 27.

[1973piglet]

How is your book doing.

[azalitt]

you are a beautiful looking girl, you remind me of marilyn just stunning, good luck with your book!x x

[somanystories]

I think the title for your memoir should be Sullen Girl because you have coined that. :)

PS,, How is that going now?, the book...=-)

[xsullengirlx]

Wow, I never even though of that. Good suggestion :)

The book is a slow and painful process, but it's getting there! Thank you for your comment, take care. :)

[somanystories]

part 1- Yeah no problem.! I am actually working on a memoir myself and it is grueling.

It brings up a lot of post traumatic stress but i think the opportunity, the fact that we have the opportunity, is amazing.

Butttt, lol, I really do think that is catchy and effective/also fitting. (Not to toot my horn tho, It is something you thought of.) :)

Good luck with it.

[continued...]

[somanystories]

Part 2-

For me it helps to do it little by little and use people/their ideas to inspire my progress.

I also stop when I need to and fine tune the outline when I get bored with the actual material. (I also use actual physical things that i've kept from the time to help ideas flow too.))

-Kimberly, 17, San Diego

*but i do not have a title now so i understand the struggle!

[darthsasuke554]

you have a amazing smile

[xsept11cutterx]

ur not alone. cuz i cut too

[xsept11cutterx]

ur so pretty! dont let any1 tell u ur ugly or sumthin! if they do, sock em in the face! >:D *no. dont really do that. we like u n would like to c u makin vids outside of a jail cell*

[pantybump]

so cute

[lookforthelight]

I understand how you feel w/ the ED and SI conflicting. Sometimes one gets so strong that you almost loose focus on the other until it comes and kicks you in the nads. (btw I'm a dude lol) While I have never purged my food I am getting really close to being anerexic. it's getting to the point if I have 1000 cals per day I feel like an utter failure and feel the need to cut. I hope your doing well and can become happy with yourself cause from what i c your are very beautiful.

[Carrie1600]

I Would Love To Read Your Book

[nukecat]

i cant get over how beautiful you look.

[kittiekat985]

I would so buy your book in a heart beat

[blondechic69]

i think you are a really good role model

i wish i could be like you more... you are able to tell the whole world that you cut and i can barely even tell my bff

[jamielovesjesse]

you remind me so much of one of my best friends, you don't know me of course but I feel really close to you now after watching so many of your videos. I can really relate to you, and watching your videos is really comforting

[LoserPunkQueen]

being a self injurer has made me stronger. im 6 months clean now. =]

[secretfreak13]

I relate to you in a lot of ways. I will just leave it at that.

My Immortal is the most amazing song ever made. The Notebook is indcredable and the first time I saw it I just cried into my pillow for at least the last 45 minutes of the movie. The idea of that sort of love is amazing. Thank you for all of your videos and you are an amazing person for helping people like you do and putting yourself out there like that. You're beautiful! <3

[ktar007]

you are awesome and i just want to thank you so much for your videos. i'm a self injurer and no one knows so being able to watch your videos has helped me so much. thank you [:

[greenislovee37]

What do you think of To Write Love On Her Arms?

[Louismustdie1001]

i'm only half way though your video but What was your reason to start self harming?

[Louismustdie1001]

is your book published yet?

do you think you could give me a copy?

please!

[flowersNOTfights157]

I am the same way.

When I cut, I eat. I eat til I can't breathe.

Then I throw it up.

Then I cut. Because I feel like shit for throwing up :S so... yah, I think I definatly have some... conflicts.

[1jaypinkerton]

omg i have ocd!!!!

[Mush0Art]

I wish I wasn't just 18 so I could take you on a date, your awesome!

[xsullengirlx]

haha, thank you! We could still hang out and grab coffee sometime - age is just a number anyway right? lol

[amenah1989]

do u like placebo?

if u have never heard of that band, check out a song called plasticine. xox

[xsullengirlx]

I do! I will check out that song right now, thanks for the suggestion!

[KRISTENAM2]

When is your next question and answer ??

[xsullengirlx]

I just got asked to do one again soon, so it should be soon. I'll ask people for questions soon so if you have some you can send them to me in a message if you'd like :)

[KRISTENAM2]

I sent it thank you.. what if you counted that up there as my question lol

[EmilysBloodycorps]

you should check out the twilight books i love them and i only read the first hp book

[davieslady]

wow u remind me alot of my self.. i have been through alot and delt with alot of the same things u have.

[thisismyness]

I totally understand the eating and cutting question...When I dont eat I dont cut but when I do eat i HAVE to cut..to keep myself in check...even though when I dont eat I still cut i guess so I dont have to only focus on that...I think I need help...But I cant bring myself to tell anyone...And by the way you have influenced me alot.

[MrsKiraDepp]

You've defiantly influenced me :D

[123123123cowmoo]

i love your hair and makeup

[ScarlettComa]

Hi, really enjoying your videos so thanks for that. I just listened to Konstantine by Something Corporate as i've never heard of them and i thought it was amazing: great lyrics, great music and full of emotion! so thanks for the tip. A song that makes me sad is Funeral by Band of Horses, i recommend it.

[Beeccah]

You have the prettiest smile. =)

[Cheesepleese88]

holla! i must've read wasted thirty times since i was 17. did you know she wrote another book? i think it's called madness. in it i'm pretty sure she goes into alot more detail about the years she spent self injuring, which she only referenced breifly in afterward of wasted. i haven't read it yet though, can't seem to get my hands on a copy since they don't have it at the library.

[xsullengirlx]

I had no clue she wrote another one about herself, I did hear she wrote a fiction book but never read it. I will see if I can find her other book anywhere, it would be a very interesting read :)

[SaraInWasteland]

So far, Marya's written three books. :) Wasted, The Center Of Winter (the fiction book you were talking about), and Madness: A Bipolar Life.

By the way, Wasted is my favorite book too. :) I really need to get my hands on The Center of Winter and Madness so I can read them too.

I love your videos. It's great to see someone talk so openly about self-injury and not let it be too taboo, because it really is a taboo thing (as is other mental illness) in today's society.

[smalloneftw]

wow It really takes courage to talk about your self to sooooooo many ppl, I don't really think that I could ever do that...

Take care, luv ur vid's..<33

[Andyc18]

Wow =O Something strange just happened lol. I was watching your video and I thought you looked like Marylin Monroe here... I kinda thought about saying it in the comments but then thought i'll probably not say it...Then you mentioned that you came onto Youtube firstly to look at videos of her =O that's awesome hehe. Just had to mention it after that :p

[xsullengirlx]

That is weird :) Yeah, I have been a Marilyn Monroe fan for a very long time! I appreciate the compliment. Take care.

[Toms1978dec]

I have a question, how did you get so pretty? :)

[kikila3]

Seriously. I am so jealous! You're soo beautiful!

[vampireninja1234]

wow i wanna be an author too! thats so cool!

[SilverSuspension]

I love you <3

[xsullengirlx]

Love you too <3 :)

[TrisketsSARS]

Plus your hair is awesome i posted alot of comments because i was commenting as i watch =)

[TrisketsSARS]

I agree you get your thoughts out to people on Youtube. :)

[TrisketsSARS]

Good luck on becoming an author =]

[cryssyrox12]

whats the book that you want to publish by then called?

[SAVANNAHxRENEE]

you are gorgeous here. :)

[DixVaj]

10 grand for a nip slip. I have accrued billions of dollars over the centuries because I'm gonna live forever.

[Marllon]

You have amazing white hair!!!! How many times did you have to bleach your hair to get to white? And did you get it professionally done?

Please reply, pretty please.

[xsullengirlx]

I do it myself, I bleached it a few times, I made a tutorial video called "hair bleaching tutorial by xsullengirlx" which will be able to answer all your questions I think :)

[Marllon]

O, you do?!  I had no clue you had such a video! I'm going to check it out right now! Thank you for uploading such an informative video, it's really helpful.

=]

[glitterface6]

Youre so pretty! XXXX

[cheddarthesheep]

Hey, have you got a book out now? That's be amazing! I would seriously go out and read it! Am considering writing one myself so would be v go to see what others have written.

[lhocker20]

i love that book wasted too it is awesome!

[Proshka]

Nice work mama

[thisismyspacebugoff]

do you believe maralyn was murdered or commited suicide?

[ravenchildxxx]

such a pretty woman ! you have issues ? doesnt seem like it but looks allways are so deciveing but often we as a speicies hide whats inside hope you use your experiances to help others like i do as a street elder its good you share your thoughts take care embrace the joy live love n share !

[Mjaffmia01]

You really do look great :D

[Kiokokichi]

Aw you look like marilyn monroe!

[xsullengirlx]

you're sweet :) thank you.. i love her!

[lunarain19]

Your so pretty!

[herschede94]

Do you ever get recognized on the street from your YT videos? Just curious

[xsullengirlx]

I have gotten recognized a time or two, but both times I was actually out of town - not in my own city. :)

[snuffluffagas]

hey,,,welcome back.I have been away for a time. But I do plan to be on more. I do thank you for the bulletin. I do get to read them as well. I thought I got to wishing you a happy Valentine day..but I can't see it here. If I didn't,,,I'm sorry.

[HOT2006SAUCE]

ur eyes are amazing

[xsullengirlx]

thank you xox

[HOT2006SAUCE]

haha y/w :-D

[87blahh87]

Thank you soo much saying your favorite songs, I've been trying to figure out what one of the songs that had been playing in the background of one of your videos was and it was konstantine. I love that song! And I'm a huge fan of Evanescence so I love My Immortal as well..anyways thanks a lot

[xsullengirlx]

you're welcome :D I love that song so much, a lot of people have asked me about it due to that video. You have good taste in music ;)

[NightBites]

Do what you need to do. No will do it for you. Be independant - make a choice to be interdependant with peers. Have fun and love life

[hideHYDEimcoming]

by the way if youre still taking anti depressants, some of or most of those drugs cause you to gain weight and continued use contributes massively to getting fat. but it looks as if youre getting thinner every time you make a vid so youre probably off em.

[scuzzlebutt22]

konstantine is my favorite song too

[blueberrybleed]

I've said before that she is beautiful. But then again what does she look like without ten pounds of make-up?

[xsullengirlx]

I have quite a few videos here where I hardly have any makeup on at all. Some I have none, and one I start out with none and then put it on in the video... And actually, in this video all I have on is black eyeliner on top and brown eyeshadow, not ten pounds worth ;)

[blueberrybleed]

My sweet darlin... I didn't think you really had 10 ibs. of make-up on. I was being sarcastic. Just saying I'd like to see you without the make-up. I haven't seen all of your videos but I'll take a look. I'm sure you look beautiful both ways.

[blueberrybleed]

Also maybe it is the light but it looks like you have lipstick on.

[xsullengirlx]

my lips are naturally darker pink, I don't normally wear lipstick unless it's red, but I do wear lipgloss. I know what you meant, I figured you were being a bit sarcastic :)

[blueberrybleed]

Well now that I've seen you without make up and you are still hot I don't know what else to talk about. Hmmmmmm

[BlankParty]

I think it's funny when people leave comments using the pronoun "she" as if you don't read this and didn't make the video yourself.

[xsullengirlx]

Maybe they are leaving the comments for OTHER people to read, haha. Although normally, I think since it's my video and my channel people should remember that they are essentially little messages TO me. :P

[swedengirl4512]

I just have to say you are beautiful:) And about SI I understand!

[xsullengirlx]

Thank you very much for the compliment. I am sorry you can relate to SI, I wish you the best. xo

[PalisBee]

you definitely make me feel like I am not alone and you have a positive influence on me. I look forward to reading your book in the future. For me my ED and SI are coping mechanisms, and they sometimes go hand in hand, but most of the time, if I'm trying not to do one, I do the other more.

[snuffluffagas]

Merry Christmas Christie.

[imatufgrlnow]

you look absolutely beautiful in this video. you look happy :o) you have a great smile. :o)

[TOMBOYSRULE01]

i have an online friend that started cutting at 12 he's almost 15 now and still cuts but not as much has when he was 12 and 13

[allieskellington]

You're so gosh darn beautiful.

:] <3

[snuffluffagas]

I am sorry if these messages seem somewhat long,,I tends to rambles on. I didn't realize that I hads to split that one into three seprate messages. But I has just sent this one to answers to your topic of your vid,,,But seeing how it is a question and answer thingy,,,I will just say good jobs..Keep it up...I thinks you should try to become closer to your sister. But I will comment on that vid when I get to watching it agains

[xsullengirlx]

Thank you very much for your comments, and do not feel guilty for leaving several comments. I post videos to connect to people, and I would not be here if not for my subscribers. Thanks for your compliments, they do mean a lot and you are very sweet. I would very much like to be your friend, please send me a message anytime.

[snuffluffagas]

thank you very much. I was suprised. In a good way.

[snuffluffagas]

But I will sends the invites just the sames,,,And I will checks on these messages too. I see you do answers them,,,Unlike that Taracrushed *&#@$. I had to unsubscribes to her. just seems pointless putting out the comments countlessly with no response. I trys my lucks here. Who knows,,,Maybe you will suprise me.

[snuffluffagas]

I think your beautiful. But you won't believe me. I am just honored to have been able to see your videos. Your voice is quite easy to listen to. I forgets it has been twenty minutes. I know I'm not your saviour. I was hoping to be a friend. All I have to offer you is my heart and time. Oh wells,,,Probable is the best seeing how you are real busy. You probables has no time for me.

[snuffluffagas]

Hey Chris. I has just subscribed today. I was intriged by the "guys like thin girls" video.I will comment on that one laters. I hads also watched "self injury-coming out" and "jobs,drugs and alchol". I'm not going to pretend to understands this self injury issue. I am not like that. I have my own issues with the way I look. I thinks myself f'uglys. King of the Ogor. I will searches for you on the MySpace. I hopes you accepts. My intentions are sincere.

[xsullengirlx]

We all have our own issues to deal with, and the ways we cope with them. It does show you are not judgemental by just watching and being sincere in your comments, even though you dont understand self-injury. And please do add me on myspace (link on my channel).

xo

[snuffluffagas]

okay...Is going to trys after trying to watch phycologic exam 2. And after I posts my response. As I said, I have been away. I'm sorry. Pwezzzzz forgives. Hugs, Merry Christmas.

[brinker806]

i love your hair and makeup!!!

[xsullengirlx]

thank you!

[wfpagain]

You look like you're having alot of fun answering those questions..It's a nice change of pace.

You're very inspirational - thanks for making all your videos and keep it up!

I really feel like I can relate to you, which is something rare and nice. :)

[r2beararms19]

I loved watching this video it was awesome. You do such a wonderful job answering all those questions.

Love you hon

[xsullengirlx]

thanks so much sweetie :) love you too!

[thatchicwiththeknife]

"when you put one of the backburner the other one comes full force"

Maybe you should try turning off the stove? :-)

I was also wondering, do you think the root of all your problems is your weight issue? I mean, the suicidal thoughts and everything?

[thatchicwiththeknife]

Just wondering, maybe you mentioned this, is your book a novel? Is it a biography, fiction, romance, or something else?

[xsullengirlx]

it's a memoir :)

[wannahelp121407]

So...I've never commented on a video before, but Sullengirl, I just had to. I'm pursuing a Master's in counseling and wow! I'm shocked at your counseling experience. First, I searched "self-injury" as I'm doing a presentation on this struggle for those who have been sexually abused. My heart goes out to you more than words can express. Is there a way to communicate w/ you some more? I looked for you on MySpace, but couldn't find your page and I don't see how to message you privately on here.

[xsullengirlx]

my myspace link is myspace dot com slash xsullengirlx -- feel free to ass me and send me a message there if you would like, it's easier than sending messages on youtube as well. I would love to talk with you. :)

[tricialish]

I've been watching your videos for so long, and you're absolutely amazing. You seem so strong in your own way, and I hope you keep making videos, because you're one of the few people I can relate to.

[xsullengirlx]

I will most definitely keep making videos. I am glad you are still watching. :) Please feel free to message me anytime if you need or want to chat to someone who is relateable ;) xo

[Absentha666]

You are one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen. And even if you don't know me and I don't know you, I know you're going to be ok, and i wanted to wish you luck with everything, specially with your book. You are the voice of many of us, and a lot of people admire you

[xsullengirlx]

That was the sweetest thing to say... wow, thank you so much. I hope I will be okay, and I will keep updating about the book and whatnot. I hope to be an accurate and fair representation for people like me, and I truly appreciate your support and comments. Take care sweetheart.

[PlayLovelyAndrea]

why are yo so pretty?

im jelous.

[xsullengirlx]

why are you so sweet?

i'm flattered.

thank you :)

[PlayLovelyAndrea]

Im actually not that sweet haha.

But its true.

(pee ess;; your eyes i envy)

=D

[5Heliotrope]

you are not only a REALLY VERY beautiful girl, but what really struck me is you being so honest and brave while answering those intimate questions. hope to hear and see more from you and wish you all the best!

[bellaladonna]

I read the Fascination of Marilyn Monroe, it is really good.

[xsullengirlx]

do you mean the "assasination" of Marilyn Monroe? That's the one I was referring to, are we thinking of the same book? There are so many, it's hard to read all of them and keep them straight :)

[cubangi4l]

I lapsed like two weeks ago i think. After not having done it for about a year and half. I still think about it at least once a day. I'm trying to write a book too. I start and then I can't figure out where to go. It always stop at the same event.

i really like your videos and ur strength. I havea groupon yahoo groups called "Slice of Hope" and i hope by xmas to havea web came and bring that group to Youtube. I'd love to talk with you off of youtube or through youtube.

[ne47]

5yrs is NO time! Patience! Study;get into konwledge : things that will help body , about subjects having to do with yourself and your living experience.Fasting and mediatiing while doing it is ONLY the BEGINNING of a inner-strenghtening process, just respect your body . . . Oh , the HELL with your weight . . . .

[xsullengirlx]

That is good advice. 5 years seems like forever, but I know it will fly by. I have to be patient and grow and gain knowledge. Thanks so much :)

[skaterchic73]

On fasting ... and then I will be quiet... I lost 60.lbs. for my health but I still have more to lose to get back to the way I was...105lbs. 5'2/1/2. But at least I don't have high blood pressure and diabetes any more and I am cancer free for the second time which my doctor talked to me about but I did it for me and my kittens. I wanted to be there for them:)I don't care about how many pounds you are. Your a pretty person.... In my eyes:)

[skaterchic73]

I got cut off but...Take care and get in contact with me when ever you want:) I attemed suicide also. But flat lined 5 times and woke up after 2 days pissed... Oh well... I'm glad your back!

[skaterchic73]

Also... Thanks for taking the time to answer the questions from other people and honestly. I am almost ten years older than you and I would like to make a video as soon as I get a cam. But I do admire you:) (By the way I do watch fastingurl some).

[skaterchic73]

Hi, I have to be totally honest.... I LOVE your make up video! I don't know how to do my own so thanks for sharing that info with me:)

[BrokenButStillHere]

I love your answer to

What you want to be when you grow up.

The fact you want to talk to kids like me is really sweet. :)

Good luck. x

[undrcovrkitty]

you look fabulous platinum!

[sweettwo2]

Wow, Me and u have more things in common than i realised.

I dont count the days i dont SI too!

Thank god i aint the only one!

I hope the books go ahead =]

Cant waitt for the videos to come! =]

*Thumbs up!*

xx

[OriginalOrangeeyes]

your adorable! You must teach me how to do my make up like yours! Please please please =D

[bezelthai]

She has done a make-up video:

watch?v=pzRZ9ODsE08

[bella2200]

Love your makeup in this video!

[bkelaries]

You would be a fabulous author,you have a natural talent for putting words together and making insightful points.

[sonofpissjuice]

can't wait for the hair vid im gonna look so blonde and messed up cuz i have a dark skin tone.

[spieldose]

i think this is actually the first time i've watched your videos. you are GORGEOUS!

[smileyangel75]

thanks for answering my questions. sorry about the weight question. didn't mean to put you on the spot. it was just the first question that popped into my head. this video was interesting. we have a lot in common and i think would be great friends in real life. *hugs* :þ

[oldermaleanamia]

What a wonderful video!!!Thanks so much for sharing yourself with us..You have great insight and your video was right on point...

<3

Mac

[ParanoidKitty]

Cool video. It's amazing how much we have in common. It was nice learning more about you.

[SarahhRUSH]

Awesome video!! I can't wait for the hair video! Your hair and make-up is seriously like THE BEST!! =D

[bezelthai]

Thank you so much for answering my question! You're such an open person and that's a great quality imo. I wish I could be like that.

Oh and I can't wait for the hair video!

[MW6488]

That was a wonderful q&a video! I can't wait for your hair tutorial video! :]

[CagedSongBird]

I think it would be wonderful if your five year goal came true. SI is a hard battle to fight. I know how hard it is, but it does get better with time. I have issues with my weight too, and wouldn't answer that either. What is that book called again? (Cont.)

[CagedSongBird]

The first one? Thanks for asking my question about the fasting. My therapists biggest fear was that I'd replace him with YT. I didn't do that and I'm really glad. There's a big difference between seeing him and doing vids. You've really made a big difference in my life and I can't thank you enough for everything.

Have a wonderful day filled with sunshine!

(((Hugs))) to you...

Paula

[lulubelle26]

Yay..I am glad you remembered my idea about posting a slideshow type of video about your life, so I hope to see it soon. waw...I wouldn´t of guessed that you are only 5´1 ...:P I am 5´11 by the way :D