avalonfaninva i highly doubt you're fat, but i think maybe it's about accepting yourself. maybe instead of thinking 'i'm fat', you could look at it as 'i am not perfect, but that's ok'. nobody is perfect or always loves everything about themselves. being fat or skinny or pretty or ugly or anything like that has nothing to do with who you are and doesn't make you better or worse than anyone else.
How long has it been since recovery? It does get easier with age. But some people just transfer the obsession to another area. I've talked to some women in some very disturbing situations.
That's the part God changed for me. AND, as you get older and more confident in who you are on the inside, you also start to like who you are, in all areas. I admit, I force myself to stay thin. But I do it by limiting my calories (for the last 30 years. lol) and exercising. But one year I gained 20 pounds in 2 months! It was a medication. When I stopped the meds, it still took over a year to lose it all. But I didn't go back to bulimia. That's a sign of truly being free of it!
Everyone has some insecurities. Some of worse than others. But if we keep our eyes on God, then we see ourselves as He sees us. And He sees us the way He created us.... perfect in His image. =) Ask Him to help you see yourself as He sees you, and change you into the confident, talented, blessed person that He has called you to be. =)
i talk to my youth pastor alot.. and about everything..him and his wife are like my best friends. but I dont openly talk about that problem with him.. he reads my blogs on myspace and stuff and will occasionally suggest things to help .. but its hard to talk in person about those kinds of issues..
That's exactly WHY you need to tell them. As long as it's hidden in darkness, it can't be changed. It has to be exposed, before it can be removed. I'll pray for God to prepare their hearts, and empower them to know how to pray, and help you.
my parents dont go to church. they used to but not anymore. My mom's addicted to pain meds and has alot of problems. we're not close at all. I go to church with some friends and i like it.. but ive told my youth pastor that i was dealing with these issues but i dont know. I guess ill just deal with it.. i have for almost 5 years.
I attend a southern baptist church...its actually called First Southern Baptist church. I like it alot but i just feel like i dont connect like i have to many problems and others dont share the same problems.. Like today.. i get a phone call from my job..and they called me in to talk to me..and fired me.. its just one bad thing after another.. i cant take much more..im trying to hold my head up but im drowning. I dont know what to do anymore.
Southern Baptist is good! They're a Spirit filled denomination aren't they? If so, you DO need to confide in your youth pastor! Go out of your way to ask for prayer! And keep asking! PUSH. Pray Until Something Happens. And everyone is going through incredibly difficult times right now! God's allowing it on purpose. It's to get us to take our eyes OFF our problems and ON Him! When we focus on the problems, the look insurmountable. But when we focus on Him, they seem smaller.
I think I need to make a video on controlling our thoughts. Our thinking is what steers everything we do. I have a LOT of experience on overcoming the worst of times, by changing my thinking. And I still have to work at it. But I have specific scriptures that I use.
Ive told them once that i was struggling..and they told me that they would hospitalize me if it happened again.. and i cant handle the thought of that. they dont understand it and just so they dont have to deal with it. But i havent stopped and i cant.
The way you described bulimia as it being hidden and in the dark, and how you're locked and stuck in that place.. thats exactly how i feel with my situation. But its not totally hidden anymore i told my parents 2 years ago that i was cutting and burning myself and they thought i had gotten better. But I had relapsed not long after I got help. but i never told them..and its all completely back and its back to where im doing it everyday. I dont really know what to do cus i cant tell them.
Oh yes! But we had a major blow up first! And I went to a counselor a couple of years ago, for a few months. Let's just say the mom always comes up eventually, in counseling ;) My parents only live about 20 minutes away and she watches my videos sometimes. But I think we both have our days when we just don't feel like dealing with each other, or since we both have Fibromyalgia, sometimes it's best to NOT talk about it or we'll just end up commiserating. Most things get better with age =)
yeah i hope so.its weird though because i am so much closer to my grandma(my moms mom)i would rather talk to her then my own mom. also i think tht since i am the youngest and i am the only one livin at home. so it suxs. but i know tht i wont have a good realationship with my dad. he is the one person tht i REALLY dislike him.but i hope tht me and my mom get closer. i know tht my sister did when she moved away. but my sister just moved from from florida. so we dont get to see her
Give it time, and be willing to admit when you're wrong. Try apologizing just for not having the best relationship. And tell your mom you'd like to have a better relationship with her. Then leave it at that. Don't add anything else except maybe a hug. =)
Of course your mom read your comments. That's what mom's do. Wouldn't you rather have a mom that loves you enough to make sure you're not talking to some psycho? =) YOU have to forgive. Remember what I sad about praying for others and asking God to forgive you, instead of telling God all the things other people have done to you.
but this is not the 1st time she went in my personal stuff.its just gets me so upset though.but i left the house nd stuff nd i cooled down.yeah i know it waz out of luv.but think if u where a teenager nd u found out.nd yes i do rember
Well, actually, when I was a teenager my mom read my diary, which she said she'd never do. BUT, it was a setup... by God! My mom didn't set out to read my diary. She answered the phone in my room because it was the closest one. Then she needed to take a note, so she pulled open a drawer. That particular drawer was loose, so it slipped downward and my diary fell onto the floor, landing open on a page that wasn't meant for her eyes. But she did need to know. And I got in huge trouble!
When we choose to live in rebellion, God will intervene. And you're not going to like this part, but I believe parents should snoop, but only if they suspect their child is doing something self-destructive or blatantly disobedient. In my case, I was being blatantly disobedient. God always gives us plenty of time to repent and humble ourselves. But if we don't, He will eventually judge. It's for our own good. Remember, HE is a parent too! He has His own ways of disciplining us.
but wht am i doin tht is self-destructive or disobedient?im just on da internet.buy the way im really happy because i made the soccer varsity team =).
You mean for fighting the ED? Phil 4:8 tells you exactly how to think. If your thoughts don't line up with what is true, lovely, honest, just, pure, lovely.... and of a GOOD REPORT, you're not thinking right. It's wrong thinking that gives Satan access to your life. There are many books out, both Christian and secular, that address how our thoughts can control our entire lives. Also, lookup Psalm 91:1 and take it literally! Where are you thoughts "dwelling"? (cont)
thnk you so much! i think that tomorrow during church i am goin to ask for healing after church by i elders.i am really scared and nervous but i think that i have to do it sooner than later. also if im goin to get conformation soon i think i should get prayed for first. i will def read them and stuff.
This is probably not what you want to hear, but in addition to healing, you probably need deliverance. I intentionally left that word out of the videos so people would understand what I was saying, but I think you know what I mean.
yeah i do know wht u mean. nd i didnt have the guts to go up and get hands on me. but i think tht when i am tottally ready i will go up or even just go to the elders with a youth leader from my church. im just scared i thnk tht i am starting to get health problems because i get chest pains and side pains. but the side pain hurts really bad to the point where i cry.
You do realize that your fear of going forward when there's a call for prayer is a direct counter-attack! When they call people forward for prayer, THAT is when the anointing is strong enough to break through the bondage! You can go to the elders for prayer. That is totally biblical. But if you're in a service with a trusted speaker who feels there is a healing anointing in that service, you need to tell those thoughts to shutup, and get your butt to the front as fast as you can!
i know tht i should go up 2 da front but then my dad will ask question nd then my freinds where and i dont wnt them to know tht i have an ed. last nite there where no fat brownies i made and my dad comes home from work nd goes wht did u binge.but he made a joke of if. he thinks tht its funny.but the truth is tht i did have a little binge with the brownies. nd i just laughed nd said no to him.
yeah i will try on sunday. i have a question though. sometimez and nite i will wake up with the worst stomach pains and then sometimes my chest hurts really bad. do u think tht i should go to the doctors for tht?
I'm sorry but I don't know how to advise you on that. I only had it severely for a year, the 1st time, and a couple of months the 2nd time. I never had any symptoms like that. But it certainly couldn't hurt to see a doctor. You're over 18, right? Do you have insurance? I just wanted to make sure you have full doctor-patient confidentiality, and that you can afford it.
no i am only 17 nd my dad has military insurence. so i have to go to a military hospital. so it is confidential but the only thing is tht i have to drive on post with a parnet right now because i do not have the sticker to get on post through a side gate.
yeah well i go to west point nd since the war its getting harder nd i need a special care sticker to get on and my mom doesnt want me to drive her car alone
I didn't have this bond with my mom. I couldn't talk to her. So I was determined to have open communication with my daughter. So far, it seems to have worked. I just hope things stay the same through college.
yeah i know tht is what my mentor at church says to me.i have a feeling that once i win the battle tht i am goin to go around speaking to others. also i just found out by my parents that i might be goin away for treatment.if they do tht means i probally will miss some of my senior year.=( i dont want to go to a treatment cause then everyone at my school will know.
You don't have to wait until you win the battle. Heck if we all had to wait until we were perfect, there would be nobody helping anyone! Look at the people in the bible, that God chose to use! You just keep believing for healing, and step out in faith while you wait! =D
its not really me that is ashamed it is my parents they are worried about there reputation. they have the so called "perfect familiy and perfect marriage".
yeah but my parents keep it on the dl.but i dont know if it is working because since i have put up a wall of not showing or taling about my emtions tht i cant really talk.its so hard to tlk.i cant wait till i leave home but i have to wait till i graduate
I can tell you from experience that stuffing those emotions will only prolong the eventual results of not dealing with everything. It led me down a road of trying to be perfect, which is not possible, then constant anxiety because I couldn't be perfect. =/
tht is how my sister is and she has really bad anxiety she is 7 years older. nd know i try to have everything perfect. also i hate how my parents buy me.like if they have a fight then i get something new. when i was younger i liked it but now i hate geting new things. my dad is getting naster i just want to leave home so bad. i think tht me living at home is making it worse
The anxiety is the one thing I still battle. But I have good doctors, and I keep praying for healing. God allows us to struggle with some things to cause us to build our spiritual muscles. AND, we could never empathize, or be able to help others if we had never experiences what they have =)
i died cause of my ed. say god or an angel just for a second. and it said go back. thats when i realize i was not supposed to die of this. and i have a purpose.
Are you serious? Wow. Yes, you certainly have a purpose. I pray for God you the exact words to say to every person you encounter, who needs help breaking free from that prison.
Yeah. I know. I really don't know anyone else who's had the immediate deliverance that I got. But I think some Christians are to blame for that. The bible says God gives different gifts to different people. My mom has the gift that enables her to lay hands on people and they receive healing. Too many Christians are not seeking out, and living their calling, out of fear of what people will think =( AND, sometimes it's not time for healing yet. God builds our character through the hard times.
i think thats why once i fully recovered (its been a year... wow that was fast) i opened up a few web sites and have been able to convince 20 girls 1 boy to go to treatment. your totaly right... God does give different gifts.
God usually puts them right in front of me. I taught aerobics for 16 years, so obviously there were a LOT of them in the gym! Then I switched to yoga for 5 years. I'm not teaching anything right now, but I still run across people who need help. Now, cutting seems to be the destroyer of choice. But just going through the agony of the ED has given me a compassion for those hurting people, that I wouldn't have had otherwise, and I'm able to encourage and counsel them =)
I left that night healed...completely. I'm usually not this public about it because my parents and sis (who gets on YT) had/have no idea. But I'm experiencing even further healing recently. If anyone is still reading these comments feel free to contact me for prayer...I am also an intercessor.
In my case a youth leader at church befriended me because she knew something wasn't right. To make a long story short one night I told her what had been bothering me. We went in the prayer chapel where she prayed with me. God through Jesus exposed the lies that I was worthless, fat, ugly, etc. and showed me the truth--that I was everything to through him
Hi sweetie. I'm Anthony. Thanks for being so understanding and helpful. Bulimia and Anorexia are not fun. But with strength in prayer and self love we can all beat it. Thanks. You have been so insightful.
This is random but your fat is cute(it was walking along side the pool in the background of you while you were recording. lol I love cats. :-).
When you say prayer, I think what people also need to be aware of is not BEGGING God to take their situation away. To not say "Please God, just make this pain go away and I'll do ___" Instead, I think you have to ask God for the strength to get THROUGH the situation, not take it away. That is just what I believe though :)
i had bullimia for 3 years but now im opposite i mean ive always been a larger lady but wen i had it it was hard i have diabetes and thats hard too ur great x
i like you. youre positive and bright. you make my day better when i watch your videos! i think if girls can see that theres a bettter way to be then to have an ED, itll help them get over it. thanks for helping :)
That's so funny that ou broiught up the thing about "once the dwelling place has been swept clean-- the negativity comes back (the devil) and brings 7 of his "buddies" with him..." That message was just given at my church last Sunday! haha! woah... Great video.. xoxo
Luke, it's me (biblegirl7) I'm using my daughters account. I'm so SICK of running out of comments. I just wanted to say, there are many more, that we don't know about! They're ashamed to come forward. I want them to find help from people who know how to pray with power!
i`m so happy for you,that, you dont have to live like that anymore! it`s a deep dark place that we go when ur living w an eating disorder,so i hope this brings light to all those still dealiing w this sort of thing 5 stars baby! love and hugs~heidi
Not really. The only difficulty was in how to approach it. I think it would be irresponsible of me to just take my healing(s) for granted and not use the experiences to help others. But thanks for the compliment. I know that's how you meant it :)
I never had an eating disorder but I did go through a very rough patch in my life where I was severely depressed, but the thing was that it was mainly about my appearance. It's in my genetics but I also don't eat right, I know I don't, and before I got passed all of that it used to eat me alive, I just hated everything about myself so much. It's a scary feeling.
i agree with d. this is a great side of you. i like it!!! lol.... did you know that there is another eating disorder called binge eating disorder. and basically it was the same thing as bulima except you don't purge.
Lets see. I went to the doctor today. I found out I my weight is 128. I really hate that, and am struggling really bad tonight. Thanks for posting.
coolbrit56 8 months ago
you look like christina applegate with 10 extra pounds.
BansheeVanRaven 1 year ago
thanks for posting your story :)
eating disorders are so so hard :(
bandcamplover09 1 year ago
@bandcamplover09 Yes they are. Almost impossible to break free from their grasp!
biblegirl7 1 year ago
avalonfaninva i highly doubt you're fat, but i think maybe it's about accepting yourself. maybe instead of thinking 'i'm fat', you could look at it as 'i am not perfect, but that's ok'. nobody is perfect or always loves everything about themselves. being fat or skinny or pretty or ugly or anything like that has nothing to do with who you are and doesn't make you better or worse than anyone else.
iamakitty85 2 years ago
good video! I recovered on my own! It wasnt easy still struggle but im doing better and learning how to deal with it better
AVALONFANINVA 2 years ago
How long has it been since recovery? It does get easier with age. But some people just transfer the obsession to another area. I've talked to some women in some very disturbing situations.
biblegirl7 2 years ago
im still recovering I would say it hasnt even been a year yet. How do I get the "I'm fat" out of my head?
AVALONFANINVA 2 years ago
That's the part God changed for me. AND, as you get older and more confident in who you are on the inside, you also start to like who you are, in all areas. I admit, I force myself to stay thin. But I do it by limiting my calories (for the last 30 years. lol) and exercising. But one year I gained 20 pounds in 2 months! It was a medication. When I stopped the meds, it still took over a year to lose it all. But I didn't go back to bulimia. That's a sign of truly being free of it!
biblegirl7 2 years ago
I am 32 LOL and still have issues with confidence!
AVALONFANINVA 2 years ago
Everyone has some insecurities. Some of worse than others. But if we keep our eyes on God, then we see ourselves as He sees us. And He sees us the way He created us.... perfect in His image. =) Ask Him to help you see yourself as He sees you, and change you into the confident, talented, blessed person that He has called you to be. =)
biblegirl7 2 years ago
i talk to my youth pastor alot.. and about everything..him and his wife are like my best friends. but I dont openly talk about that problem with him.. he reads my blogs on myspace and stuff and will occasionally suggest things to help .. but its hard to talk in person about those kinds of issues..
darkbeauty101 3 years ago
That's exactly WHY you need to tell them. As long as it's hidden in darkness, it can't be changed. It has to be exposed, before it can be removed. I'll pray for God to prepare their hearts, and empower them to know how to pray, and help you.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
my parents dont go to church. they used to but not anymore. My mom's addicted to pain meds and has alot of problems. we're not close at all. I go to church with some friends and i like it.. but ive told my youth pastor that i was dealing with these issues but i dont know. I guess ill just deal with it.. i have for almost 5 years.
darkbeauty101 3 years ago
What kind of church do you attend? Is it a particular denomination? Or a non-denominational church?
biblegirl7 3 years ago
I attend a southern baptist church...its actually called First Southern Baptist church. I like it alot but i just feel like i dont connect like i have to many problems and others dont share the same problems.. Like today.. i get a phone call from my job..and they called me in to talk to me..and fired me.. its just one bad thing after another.. i cant take much more..im trying to hold my head up but im drowning. I dont know what to do anymore.
darkbeauty101 3 years ago
Southern Baptist is good! They're a Spirit filled denomination aren't they? If so, you DO need to confide in your youth pastor! Go out of your way to ask for prayer! And keep asking! PUSH. Pray Until Something Happens. And everyone is going through incredibly difficult times right now! God's allowing it on purpose. It's to get us to take our eyes OFF our problems and ON Him! When we focus on the problems, the look insurmountable. But when we focus on Him, they seem smaller.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
I think I need to make a video on controlling our thoughts. Our thinking is what steers everything we do. I have a LOT of experience on overcoming the worst of times, by changing my thinking. And I still have to work at it. But I have specific scriptures that I use.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
Ive told them once that i was struggling..and they told me that they would hospitalize me if it happened again.. and i cant handle the thought of that. they dont understand it and just so they dont have to deal with it. But i havent stopped and i cant.
darkbeauty101 3 years ago
The ONLY way I stopped was by the grace of God, and Christian parents that put God first, and prayed for me. Do you go to church?
biblegirl7 3 years ago
you were right about it leaving and not filling back up with the right things. and it coming back.. thats exactly what happened in my situation.
darkbeauty101 3 years ago
Why can't you tell them? And have you prayed about it?
biblegirl7 3 years ago
The way you described bulimia as it being hidden and in the dark, and how you're locked and stuck in that place.. thats exactly how i feel with my situation. But its not totally hidden anymore i told my parents 2 years ago that i was cutting and burning myself and they thought i had gotten better. But I had relapsed not long after I got help. but i never told them..and its all completely back and its back to where im doing it everyday. I dont really know what to do cus i cant tell them.
darkbeauty101 3 years ago
thank you SO MUCH for posting this. the world really does need more people like you
<3
pinkishchicaa 3 years ago
Thanks. But all I did was make a mess. Thankfully, God set me free, and I shared my story =)
biblegirl7 3 years ago
I don't believe for one second that god can suddenly just make everything go away. Ridiculous.
Sprkgymnast11 3 years ago
Believe whatever you want.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
IS FOOD OUR NEXT TABACCO????
smurfp4444 3 years ago
You do realize I posted these videos over a year ago. And it's VERY rare that I have serious topics. I keep it light on my channel.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
Gr8 vid. thanx 4 posting it.
Ur really pretty and ur eyes r beautiful 2 :0)
kelibabee 3 years ago
Thanks =)
biblegirl7 3 years ago
IS FOOD A SUBSTANCE?????
smurfp4444 3 years ago
Is that a rhetorical question?
biblegirl7 3 years ago
yeah. did u get closer to ur mom when u get older?
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
Oh yes! But we had a major blow up first! And I went to a counselor a couple of years ago, for a few months. Let's just say the mom always comes up eventually, in counseling ;) My parents only live about 20 minutes away and she watches my videos sometimes. But I think we both have our days when we just don't feel like dealing with each other, or since we both have Fibromyalgia, sometimes it's best to NOT talk about it or we'll just end up commiserating. Most things get better with age =)
biblegirl7 3 years ago
yeah i hope so.its weird though because i am so much closer to my grandma(my moms mom)i would rather talk to her then my own mom. also i think tht since i am the youngest and i am the only one livin at home. so it suxs. but i know tht i wont have a good realationship with my dad. he is the one person tht i REALLY dislike him.but i hope tht me and my mom get closer. i know tht my sister did when she moved away. but my sister just moved from from florida. so we dont get to see her
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
Give it time, and be willing to admit when you're wrong. Try apologizing just for not having the best relationship. And tell your mom you'd like to have a better relationship with her. Then leave it at that. Don't add anything else except maybe a hug. =)
biblegirl7 3 years ago
okay i will try tht.but today i found out tht i have anixety nd i might not be able to play soccer =(.
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
I understand the anxiety. But sometimes that is a chemical disorder in the brain. That's why they make medications for it... so you can enjoy life!
biblegirl7 3 years ago
i think tht i am goin to ask my mom to take me to the doctors to see if its anxiety. i told her last nit tht i want to be closer.
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
my mom read my comments behide my back i cant stand her she thinks tht we can have a realationship. i cant stand her i really cant.
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
Of course your mom read your comments. That's what mom's do. Wouldn't you rather have a mom that loves you enough to make sure you're not talking to some psycho? =) YOU have to forgive. Remember what I sad about praying for others and asking God to forgive you, instead of telling God all the things other people have done to you.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
but this is not the 1st time she went in my personal stuff.its just gets me so upset though.but i left the house nd stuff nd i cooled down.yeah i know it waz out of luv.but think if u where a teenager nd u found out.nd yes i do rember
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
Well, actually, when I was a teenager my mom read my diary, which she said she'd never do. BUT, it was a setup... by God! My mom didn't set out to read my diary. She answered the phone in my room because it was the closest one. Then she needed to take a note, so she pulled open a drawer. That particular drawer was loose, so it slipped downward and my diary fell onto the floor, landing open on a page that wasn't meant for her eyes. But she did need to know. And I got in huge trouble!
biblegirl7 3 years ago
When we choose to live in rebellion, God will intervene. And you're not going to like this part, but I believe parents should snoop, but only if they suspect their child is doing something self-destructive or blatantly disobedient. In my case, I was being blatantly disobedient. God always gives us plenty of time to repent and humble ourselves. But if we don't, He will eventually judge. It's for our own good. Remember, HE is a parent too! He has His own ways of disciplining us.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
but wht am i doin tht is self-destructive or disobedient?im just on da internet.buy the way im really happy because i made the soccer varsity team =).
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
do u have any suggestion on wht books i should read in the bible?
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
You mean for fighting the ED? Phil 4:8 tells you exactly how to think. If your thoughts don't line up with what is true, lovely, honest, just, pure, lovely.... and of a GOOD REPORT, you're not thinking right. It's wrong thinking that gives Satan access to your life. There are many books out, both Christian and secular, that address how our thoughts can control our entire lives. Also, lookup Psalm 91:1 and take it literally! Where are you thoughts "dwelling"? (cont)
biblegirl7 3 years ago
Then remember that God only wants the best for you... Jer 29:11. And if your thoughts start getting out of line... Jer 3:5-6. And... Psalm 37:4-8.
That should keep you going for a while =)
biblegirl7 3 years ago
thnk you so much! i think that tomorrow during church i am goin to ask for healing after church by i elders.i am really scared and nervous but i think that i have to do it sooner than later. also if im goin to get conformation soon i think i should get prayed for first. i will def read them and stuff.
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
This is probably not what you want to hear, but in addition to healing, you probably need deliverance. I intentionally left that word out of the videos so people would understand what I was saying, but I think you know what I mean.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
yeah i do know wht u mean. nd i didnt have the guts to go up and get hands on me. but i think tht when i am tottally ready i will go up or even just go to the elders with a youth leader from my church. im just scared i thnk tht i am starting to get health problems because i get chest pains and side pains. but the side pain hurts really bad to the point where i cry.
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
You do realize that your fear of going forward when there's a call for prayer is a direct counter-attack! When they call people forward for prayer, THAT is when the anointing is strong enough to break through the bondage! You can go to the elders for prayer. That is totally biblical. But if you're in a service with a trusted speaker who feels there is a healing anointing in that service, you need to tell those thoughts to shutup, and get your butt to the front as fast as you can!
biblegirl7 3 years ago
i know tht i should go up 2 da front but then my dad will ask question nd then my freinds where and i dont wnt them to know tht i have an ed. last nite there where no fat brownies i made and my dad comes home from work nd goes wht did u binge.but he made a joke of if. he thinks tht its funny.but the truth is tht i did have a little binge with the brownies. nd i just laughed nd said no to him.
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
How about if you just say you wanted prayer? You don't have to give details. Sometimes we just want more prayer.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
yeah i will try on sunday. i have a question though. sometimez and nite i will wake up with the worst stomach pains and then sometimes my chest hurts really bad. do u think tht i should go to the doctors for tht?
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
I'm sorry but I don't know how to advise you on that. I only had it severely for a year, the 1st time, and a couple of months the 2nd time. I never had any symptoms like that. But it certainly couldn't hurt to see a doctor. You're over 18, right? Do you have insurance? I just wanted to make sure you have full doctor-patient confidentiality, and that you can afford it.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
no i am only 17 nd my dad has military insurence. so i have to go to a military hospital. so it is confidential but the only thing is tht i have to drive on post with a parnet right now because i do not have the sticker to get on post through a side gate.
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
My ex-husband, Brittany's dad, is in the Navy and all Britt needs is her military ID card to get on the base...
biblegirl7 3 years ago
yeah well i go to west point nd since the war its getting harder nd i need a special care sticker to get on and my mom doesnt want me to drive her car alone
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
Bummer. Well, keep praying for God to work it all out.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
yeah i wish tht i had the same bond tht u nd ur daughter have with my mom.
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
I didn't have this bond with my mom. I couldn't talk to her. So I was determined to have open communication with my daughter. So far, it seems to have worked. I just hope things stay the same through college.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
yeah i know tht is what my mentor at church says to me.i have a feeling that once i win the battle tht i am goin to go around speaking to others. also i just found out by my parents that i might be goin away for treatment.if they do tht means i probally will miss some of my senior year.=( i dont want to go to a treatment cause then everyone at my school will know.
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
You don't have to wait until you win the battle. Heck if we all had to wait until we were perfect, there would be nobody helping anyone! Look at the people in the bible, that God chose to use! You just keep believing for healing, and step out in faith while you wait! =D
biblegirl7 3 years ago
do u have any verse i should read or anything. im really scared i have an app with the elders when i get back. i also want to be confirmed
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
its hard for me because i do read the bible and stuff but i cant get out of this mind set. i want to get better but at the same time i dont
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
I know exactly what you mean. That's how the illness works. And that's why it takes someone else with the gift of healing to pray for you.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
thxs thts wht i wanted to say to you.
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
<:o) You're welcome. ED's are unbelievably hard to beat!
biblegirl7 3 years ago
yeah. im not recovered but i am on the way. i realized tht i do need help.
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
Don't be ashamed to get help! Your pride is not worth losing your life!
biblegirl7 3 years ago
its not really me that is ashamed it is my parents they are worried about there reputation. they have the so called "perfect familiy and perfect marriage".
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
Are you serious!?! That's exactly the type of treatment that causes ED's! I just can't believe that. Are you in therapy?
biblegirl7 3 years ago
yeah but my parents keep it on the dl.but i dont know if it is working because since i have put up a wall of not showing or taling about my emtions tht i cant really talk.its so hard to tlk.i cant wait till i leave home but i have to wait till i graduate
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
I can tell you from experience that stuffing those emotions will only prolong the eventual results of not dealing with everything. It led me down a road of trying to be perfect, which is not possible, then constant anxiety because I couldn't be perfect. =/
biblegirl7 3 years ago
tht is how my sister is and she has really bad anxiety she is 7 years older. nd know i try to have everything perfect. also i hate how my parents buy me.like if they have a fight then i get something new. when i was younger i liked it but now i hate geting new things. my dad is getting naster i just want to leave home so bad. i think tht me living at home is making it worse
bubbaondalose 3 years ago
The anxiety is the one thing I still battle. But I have good doctors, and I keep praying for healing. God allows us to struggle with some things to cause us to build our spiritual muscles. AND, we could never empathize, or be able to help others if we had never experiences what they have =)
biblegirl7 3 years ago
i died cause of my ed. say god or an angel just for a second. and it said go back. thats when i realize i was not supposed to die of this. and i have a purpose.
girlwithoutaface 3 years ago
Are you serious? Wow. Yes, you certainly have a purpose. I pray for God you the exact words to say to every person you encounter, who needs help breaking free from that prison.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
thanks! :) i hope you are doing well. i have prayed and it helped... but it never cured. i wish it was that simple for every one.
girlwithoutaface 3 years ago
Yeah. I know. I really don't know anyone else who's had the immediate deliverance that I got. But I think some Christians are to blame for that. The bible says God gives different gifts to different people. My mom has the gift that enables her to lay hands on people and they receive healing. Too many Christians are not seeking out, and living their calling, out of fear of what people will think =( AND, sometimes it's not time for healing yet. God builds our character through the hard times.
biblegirl7 3 years ago
i think thats why once i fully recovered (its been a year... wow that was fast) i opened up a few web sites and have been able to convince 20 girls 1 boy to go to treatment. your totaly right... God does give different gifts.
girlwithoutaface 3 years ago
God usually puts them right in front of me. I taught aerobics for 16 years, so obviously there were a LOT of them in the gym! Then I switched to yoga for 5 years. I'm not teaching anything right now, but I still run across people who need help. Now, cutting seems to be the destroyer of choice. But just going through the agony of the ED has given me a compassion for those hurting people, that I wouldn't have had otherwise, and I'm able to encourage and counsel them =)
biblegirl7 3 years ago
You should because she's great! I love her. :D
lynzzzay 4 years ago
Thanks =)
biblegirl7 4 years ago
You remind me of Joyce Meyer when you talk about needing to replace bad thoughts with good ones. :)
lynzzzay 4 years ago
I'll take that as a compliment =)
biblegirl7 4 years ago
I left that night healed...completely. I'm usually not this public about it because my parents and sis (who gets on YT) had/have no idea. But I'm experiencing even further healing recently. If anyone is still reading these comments feel free to contact me for prayer...I am also an intercessor.
Addue 4 years ago
That's awesome! And so true. We believe lies about ourselves. God made us beautiful in His sight!
biblegirl7 4 years ago
In my case a youth leader at church befriended me because she knew something wasn't right. To make a long story short one night I told her what had been bothering me. We went in the prayer chapel where she prayed with me. God through Jesus exposed the lies that I was worthless, fat, ugly, etc. and showed me the truth--that I was everything to through him
Addue 4 years ago
Thanks for sharing. Off to watch part two now.
johnofjordan 4 years ago
Thanks for watching :)
biblegirl7 4 years ago
Thanks for taking the time do this video.
qiranger 4 years ago
You're welcome :)
biblegirl7 4 years ago
You are so beautiful. I love to watch your videos and think your personality and face are just lovely.
memnoker 4 years ago
Why thank you =)
biblegirl7 4 years ago
Thank you for sharing these personal videos with everyone. Thank you so much so your views/thoughts and experiences. x
stylistbrighton 4 years ago
nice pool
8gavin8 4 years ago
Thanks.
biblegirl7 4 years ago
Hi sweetie. I'm Anthony. Thanks for being so understanding and helpful. Bulimia and Anorexia are not fun. But with strength in prayer and self love we can all beat it. Thanks. You have been so insightful.
This is random but your fat is cute(it was walking along side the pool in the background of you while you were recording. lol I love cats. :-).
skinnyboy1989 4 years ago
My fat is cute? Freudian slip? =P
J/K Thanks =)
biblegirl7 4 years ago
oh my! I'm sorry. lol.
I meant your cat! lol
skinnyboy1989 4 years ago
I know. I was joking. Now there's a real test of whether or not you've been completely healed! lol
biblegirl7 4 years ago
When you say prayer, I think what people also need to be aware of is not BEGGING God to take their situation away. To not say "Please God, just make this pain go away and I'll do ___" Instead, I think you have to ask God for the strength to get THROUGH the situation, not take it away. That is just what I believe though :)
everlastingchill 4 years ago
The bible tells us to ask for whatever we need. And on this one, I would have died if it had not been taken away.
biblegirl7 4 years ago
i think youre a fantastic lady
to share this with everyone :)
i had bullimia for 3 years but now im opposite i mean ive always been a larger lady but wen i had it it was hard i have diabetes and thats hard too ur great x
HollyoaksInTheCity06 4 years ago
Is the diabetes hereditary, or have they linked it to the years with bulimia?
biblegirl7 4 years ago
You are my new hero. You are beautiful, and I am glad you got over your eating disorder!
meghan228 4 years ago
It took me longer to land here than I planned. But very glad I did.
Heading over to part 2 now...
curt344 4 years ago
I hate to be fat, now I eat only vegetables. I`m gonna die to be thin!!!
sindijak 5 years ago
When you want to be serious, let me know.
biblegirl7 5 years ago
i like you. youre positive and bright. you make my day better when i watch your videos! i think if girls can see that theres a bettter way to be then to have an ED, itll help them get over it. thanks for helping :)
pip111387 5 years ago
Glad you enjoyed it :)
biblegirl7 5 years ago
UR SUCH A NICE PERSON,,, THX 4 HELPING.
zyvoukuh 5 years ago
Did it help?
biblegirl7 5 years ago
You are so pretty! I am glad that you left eating disorders behind.
RavenAmongDoves 5 years ago
Why thank you! I hope you're doing well :)
biblegirl7 5 years ago
That's so funny that ou broiught up the thing about "once the dwelling place has been swept clean-- the negativity comes back (the devil) and brings 7 of his "buddies" with him..." That message was just given at my church last Sunday! haha! woah... Great video.. xoxo
DIEBUNNYHATER 5 years ago
This is very cool of you to do. You're gonna help a lot of people. I think we all know someone with these disorders.
lukettylwillie 5 years ago
Luke, it's me (biblegirl7) I'm using my daughters account. I'm so SICK of running out of comments. I just wanted to say, there are many more, that we don't know about! They're ashamed to come forward. I want them to find help from people who know how to pray with power!
bubblegumtoothpaste 5 years ago
i`m so happy for you,that, you dont have to live like that anymore! it`s a deep dark place that we go when ur living w an eating disorder,so i hope this brings light to all those still dealiing w this sort of thing 5 stars baby! love and hugs~heidi
heidojo 5 years ago
Very brave of you to share this topic.
Haynes1994 5 years ago
Not really. The only difficulty was in how to approach it. I think it would be irresponsible of me to just take my healing(s) for granted and not use the experiences to help others. But thanks for the compliment. I know that's how you meant it :)
biblegirl7 5 years ago
You go girl! thank you sooo much for sharing!
genuinegrl 5 years ago
You're welcome :)
biblegirl7 5 years ago
Good good word Lisa. I really hope some girls who are struggling with this see this and benefit from it...Syd
pray4syd 5 years ago
I never had an eating disorder but I did go through a very rough patch in my life where I was severely depressed, but the thing was that it was mainly about my appearance. It's in my genetics but I also don't eat right, I know I don't, and before I got passed all of that it used to eat me alive, I just hated everything about myself so much. It's a scary feeling.
falloutpunk 5 years ago
I wanted this silly comment seperate... but nice pool! lol
dmurawski 5 years ago
Thanks :) I'm about to upload part 2.
biblegirl7 5 years ago
i agree with d. this is a great side of you. i like it!!! lol.... did you know that there is another eating disorder called binge eating disorder. and basically it was the same thing as bulima except you don't purge.
tennisgurl0823 5 years ago
I haven't heard of an actual disorder, but I've certainly seen evidence of it in my family!
biblegirl7 5 years ago
Very insightful. I believe anyone who has one could benefit from you. I enjoy this side of you.
dmurawski 5 years ago
Hey! D has a deep side =P OK, so evidently, so do I. I just uploaded part 2.
biblegirl7 5 years ago