I hope you will read this even though the video was posted in the past.. I would not have been one of those you refer to who unsubscribed, but I once unsubscribed after starting a new account and I know that some people have two accts, keeping one for private issues ( that they don't want seen at work, etc). And when they are closed for violations you might see an "unsubscription" take place. And when someone has 2500 subs, there will always be come coming and going for many impersonal reasons:)
Thank you my dear. I really appreciate it. You are very kind. At this time I was dealing with some drama on YT and people I thought were friends ended up not being. I am talking people I was growing close to - off you tube. Anyhow, like you said people come and go - and I am learning to accept this. I am learning that I won't always be accepted or respected and it's best to keep those with genuine intentions close. Energy exchange is everything. Thank you for the positive vibes, always!
Just don't become fake like Chris crocker. he gets so nasty if people say something he made up and all this other stuff. Just stay 100% real and you should be good,lol.
your poem was so beautiful and i've listened to it multiple times. thank you, you verbalized emotions that i have never been able to accept/admit to. you are so inspiring, and everyone here is blessed to interact with you in any way.
Hi Johnny, we always like to support you, we like you a lot - please forgive us the email at the wrong time. we haven't watched the last videos and my asking for the written words from the vid without a picture was our wish to understand it full.love & light
Johnny, I just listened to your family tree video in full. I started the other day, but felt too distressed listening to it. No-one deserves to suffer the abuse you had to try to deal with as a child. It is a miracle that you are still here, and I am so glad you are still here :) Your videos are raw, and you are incredibly honest. I guess I needn't say all this because you already know that like your Mom, I am here to accept and support you.
I appreciate you Johnny and when I feel down or defeated I end up thinking of your inspiring videos and your ideas for recovery etc. & your creative ideas really do help get me thru that feeling, thru that day etc. So just saying Thank you.
I agree with everything you said and all your feelings are valid. All your asking for is to be respected. People want to bring down people who are destined for greatness, have done great things and impact many people's lives in positive ways. All I have to say is, Johnny your AMAZING and you ROCK!!!!! hugs
i loved ur last video, the family tree was really good and honest. i dont know u but ive just starting watching ur videos and in the last one u really opened up and im glad for that. And about the subsrciber it can be like strawberrykisses100 said, their account can have been deleted or maybe they unsubsribed for other reason, like their friends find their account and they didn't wanted them to see anything that had with ed's to do.
Oh and by the way, I'd like to tell you something important that you have taught me:
The importance of my inner child. I actually didn't know that it played such a big part in my psychological unrest. Because of you, I have been nourishing my inner child and entertaining its whims.
hi there, wonderful:) just want to say i love you so much for all you do. your videos are amazing and help me & inspire me in so many ways. i haven't been online in a while to watch b/c i've been struggling BIG time and i tend to isolate like crazy when im not doing so great. sorry i haven't been around. i gotta do some catching up and watch your videos that i missed :) keep it up! YOU ARE WONDERFUL! i love you:)
I do not know you personally, but I completely accept and support you. I may not share all of your experiences, but I know you are strong and brave. You inspire me to be more aware, honest, and proactive about how I interact with myself and the world. Im sure you know your videos mean so much to so many different people and I really just want to thank you for making them and investing your time and energy into this wonderful medium. You really are one of the shining lights of humanity, Johnny.
Johnny, I am SO proud of you for not only the poem and the strength and talent it took to write and read it in a video, but also how far you've come. You are amazing, inspirational, beautiful, empathetic, and loving, and I am a subscriber for always and forever. Through thick an thin, we still hang in. I love you so much, stay strong!
proud that you are so true to yourself and even though it is foreign to me and I don't understand it,I am so impressed that you have come so far and overcame so many obstacles and you are a great individual t be friends with!
We all learn together! What a wonderful thing. I am very content in my gender, have been for many years, it's the past that creeps up on me and triggers me. I began transitioning a lot earlier than most trans people at the time I was... late teens - early 20s. It was the best thing I could of ever done for myself. I'd most likely be dead if I hadn't transitioned. Anyhow, enough on that. Stay tuned for my new Potato video omg ahahahhaha just wait... any minute now...
My Johnny, I so love your videos. I look forward to seeing you everyday. I love when you post. and I love watching your old stuff , I learn so much from you. I work in the medical field and I watch your videos to learn! I be leave in you.
And I wish only greatness and much deserved PEACE! Hugs and Love your Friend in Pittsburgh
Wow this is incredible!!! Thank you so much honey. Hey, what do you do in the medical field? That's wonderful you want to learn and are so open to it. Education is everything! Peace to you as well dear!
that WAS very imature for people to just unsubribe like that. i mean I get that perhaps they found your last video triggering or whatever the case may be, but to just leave is ridiclous. They should at least see how your future videos are and then if they feel its unsafe for them, at least tell you they are "leaving" (like you said) Its like with old friends, sometimes you grow apart, but you should at least say goodbye and acknowlege the times you had together
*curties back at you* <3. and Johnny, remember that someone can unsubscribe but the knowledge and honesty you have shared in whatever videos they have seen will stay with them.
also, I'm not sure but i might delete this account and start a new one (ive been using this name for a lot of things since middle school (i'm now 20). But I will of course resubscribe to you.
Don't worry about the un-subscribers. I'm sure they had their reasons. What matters is that you stand on your own. I loved your piece. It was extremely empowering, yet painful. It gave me chills.
You are so right, thank you very much dear. Many hugs to you and lots of love your way. Ps. I just totally made a funny ass video to lighten the load, it's about potatoes and for my best friend Cindy (I have 2 bbf, Cindy and Stacey... and of course my Momma!)
Johnny hun! I love you to bits babe and we should all feel the love right now, because what you are doing, helping using the aid of youtube, is amazing and lovely. You are lovely!
You are lovely too. I hella feel the love. I feel so much better than earlier!!!!!!!!!! I totally went for a power prayer/nature walk and had a nap, a lush bath and a good damn day. Now it's all about some chilled dragon fruit, candles and america's next top model = my wed ritual!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they really bug me about how bitchy they can be though. but I really want to be a fashion photographer so I watch it for inspiration more than the social side of the programme. Enjoy!! x
PS. I present femme, but I consider myself genderqueer as well as "pansexual" and I *LOVE* how open and comfortable you are with your gender/sexuality
being vulnerable *is* the most difficult thing... and I'm proud of you :) (haha! i just wrote that just when you said "johnny, i am proud of you" to yourself ;)
and you don't know me, I don't comment often, but I love your videos and get a lot out of them. I feel honored to "get to know" you through youtube! xo
Dear Johnny, I have not been on to YouTube until just now to watch your last two videos (This one & the Family Tree). You're a gorgeous soul inside and outside. <3 I'm here, you're sweet and loved and help and touch many people.
I'm proud of you for posting the Family Tree video you're a strong person & I believe you can get through this xoxoxoxo
I hope you accept this explanation and I wanted to commend you on your family tree spoken piece and I am truly sorry that you've had to suffer in such ways BUT I am proud of your strength to come to terms with what's the past so you can have a wonderfully fullfilling future! :)
aww babe.whats most important is how you feel about yourself.your so smart and you dont deserve to dwell on others insensitivites.i love youu tooo!hope you have a good day,feel better
ppl are afraid of you Johnny, b/c you're HONEST. You have INTEGRITY.Those who have ANY issue w/you ONLY do so b/c they're insecure in themselves. They tend to think you believe you're better than them. They're THAT insecure that they have to judge you. There's only 1 thing about these people: they're SICK. Some are SO sick that they CANT be supportive of anyone else. 1 sided relationships are doomed. Experienced that very recently. Glad its over.
Karen, always words of wisdom. I was wondering if you had seen my poetry video. I'm up at my Mom's right now using her bath and checking mail before I run errands and I was just thinking about you and how awesome it would be if we took 2 of our poems, this one and you make one like it when the universe calls for you to do so, and merge them - like how you did with your intros. this would be GROUND BREAKING, omg
johnny, you really inspire me everytime i watch your videos. you opened my mind up soo much to a bevy of different things! i admire so much how you are into raw food, how long have you been raw for?
: ) thank you dear, it's been my balance between allowing myself to eat and allowing myself to keep it in. heaven sent, for me. i got into raw food almost 4 years ago, next spring it will be 4 years - coming around march/april time... then i slowly transitioned from eating about 75% raw to eventual 100. nothing was ever, ever ever ever, worked better for me - on all aspects.
Johnny-losing subs? Its fucking disturbing when ppl sub to us (on the collab & personally) & just stalk/watch. They watch in silence. WHY? The whole point of this-speaking up-is to use our voices INSTEAD of our bodies. You have a voice, Johnny-ppl cant handle you. That-in a sense is power. Those who unsubbed are more than likely are very sick in their own disease. I have a good idea WHO may be doing this. Self-absorbed little girls who think of themselves & wallow in their own self-pity.
I love to see people speak up. Wow, that's so odd this was brought up because I just got done sending an email to someone asking them to speak up... then I come here and read this. Hot topic I guess. I think a lot of people are intimdated or afraid to speak up, some don't want attention drawn to them and some feel they don't deserve it. We must invite them with open arms and help them feel comfortable. When we are uncomfortable inside, it's hard to feel comfortable outside. Come one come all!!!
I am one of those people who doesnt like attention drawn to them. Totally, which explains only the RCENT appearance on cam. I HATE to be looked at-BUT if its going to benefit me in MUCH healthier ways than just "being looked at," then its worth it and I'll do it. The whole idea of being looked at-that embarrassment will fade-fast, b/c what I have to say, more than likely will outweigh (pun intended) what I look like.
Hello There! It's good to be back. I am commenting here because I wanted to be honest and publicly state that I did cancel my subscription to you quite a while ago due to anomosity between mutual friends that was making me very nervous and I felt that if I continued to subscribe to you I was in some way "fueling a fire" but I watched your videos anyway but didn't comment for the same reason stated above. That was MY decision but not the right one because by doing so I have secluded
myself and my opinions which I do want to share with EVERYONE and also I wouldn't want anyone to assume I am self absorbed or wallowing in my own sickness because quite frankly I have been doin' really well and I would like to share that with EVERYONE here :)
THUMBS UP MORGAN, BIG TIME!!! This is SO big of you. Thank you, thank you, thank you. It was a big step to come here, then to be honest, then to comment. Holy crap, 3 steps in 1 video!!! You are opening yourself up as well and it's a beautiful transformation.
Thank you so much for being so nice. I really appreciate that. Honest to god. Listen I think everyone on the planet,and certainly in our social/family cirle here on youtube are guilty of not being completely honest or talkin' behind others back. BUT I really wanna end it like u originally stated in ur group email,so I wish EVERYONE would let go of anomosity and EVERYONE,that means not 1 single person,would just let it go and no more name calling. Please it's so negative and hurtful!
True, all humans do this! What lead me to email you was the fact that I got all upset seeing your comments on mutual friends pages and then I got all bitter in relation to some previous info that was brought to my attention and so I got angry and was questioning your intentions for me, for the friends on these pages... and I went to a friend and started talking behind your back about it - and realized I was being very hypocritical and it had to end. I have said my share, we all have. It's over
now, no more wicked games - for you and I atleast. I can hold up to my end. People will talk, we will always talk but what we choose to say makes all the difference in the world. Thank you for being mature and allowing yourself to forgive and stop on your end, as I am doing the same. Forgivness = the ultimate cure! well that and um avocados for me. I just adore them.
See the reason I brought this up again is I just don't want anyone to be called jealous or sick anymore because it's bothersome to those of us that are sensitive,which is all of us. Also I keep trying to comment on this but it won't post. Regarding your poetry piece,and people accepting you even though they aren't familair with the situation. See I wasn't aware of gender issues at all till I met Taylor even though I knew you 1st becuz I had NO idea u were dealing with all that but I am so (cont)
Johnny, many of us are proud of you. You do wonderful things, and to open up with such truth and pain took great strength, courage, and faith. the gifts you give, each time you post, help so many. A lot of people may have never felt such things, or will never understand why...but we still offer love and support.
If I could pray for only one person today... it would be you.
Every beat of my heart supports your battle, your life, your beauty
ah screw the ppl who unsubscribed. You dont need people like that to watch and support you. You need to learn like I have, you cant please everyone and cant be everything to everyone I dont mean to come off a lil harsh here I think your poem was great but being an artist not everyone will agree and wana support you. The good thing is you will be left with the honest people that do.
i just listened to your family tree poem, and it was very brave of you to come face-to-face with all of your inner demons. That proves you have more gusto than anyone I know! Bravo, Johnny! I am rooting for you!
Oh God . I just realised that I spelt my last comment wrong. No - you don't have a bug heart ( that would be quite odd - unless you are secretly ' the Fly' ) . No you have a big pink glitterball of a heart!
Infinite blessings to you, Johnny. I adore who you are - ALL that you are and continue to become. Your heartspace is so kind, so compassionate, so universally and sincerely caring... and your intent, so true. I admire you, and appreciate you -for all of your humanness and your beautiful spirit, and for continuing to share the wisdom of your hard-earned discoveries. Going back into "those places" takes enormous courage/strength and emerging from them, even more so. May God always be your guide.
Hey sweetie . My Family Tree was so brave of you - and so powerful . I love your honesty and courage . You've been through a lot but DO know know that what you do really counts and helps people. You ARE beautiful, special and there's nothing wrong with having a bug heart...love you for it.
You're heart may be too big, but there's nothing wrong with that. Screw the people who unsubscribed. What you are doing is making a difference in other pepole's lives, and THAT is what matters. Most people don't have the guts to stand up and say what they really mean. I respect you for that. Never give up!!
Firstly, I am so sorry any of that ever happened to you.
I am so proud of you. Going to the core isn't easy.
Your beautiful piece was tragic listening to.. yet in the most liberating way. Gender / sexuality messages are so critical to our well being . . . from childhood and throughout our lives. It is exactly why prop h8 is deeply upsetting me.
May you always feel safe to bring your Truth here. We are Family and love you EXACTLY as you are.
Thank you so much dear, you have been very supportive since you recently found my videos. Btw. I saved to my favories a video about Prop 8 that about put me in tears. You may really enjoy watching it for support. It was the most beautiful speech I've ever heard.
Yes. Thank God for our str8 allies. Check out my 2 most recent favorites. Very FUNNY. Lord knows we could use alot more laughing. My blue hair makes me laugh today.
I wish I could see your awesome recovery-driven-blue hair but I don't want to invade your privacy space online. If you ever feel like sharing a pic of what you did, I'd love to see!!! If not, that's cool - but can you tell me how you wear it paired with the blue? When I first cut my hair off and starting LIVING, I wore mine highlighted blue... eventually hot pink (I had to work into that, be comfortable being femme as fuck and getting the recongnition as my true male self in the process)
Lately I wear my butch self out in the world. Black hipster jeans and black t shirts. Short hair.. boi hair. Tinted purples and blues. I feel stronger in the world passing. Alone at night it's pink and purple pj's...my femme side balances. In the past, I was more andro day and night. I love how genderplay changes. And the feeling of control. I have to think about the pic. Please don't take it personal. Im very anon online.
You are the fragrant blossoms on that family tree.
Oh that is so hot, I think I'm hitting on you over the web LOL Do you have body mods? or into them? Ps. I understand the importance of passing... totally. All humans deserve recognition. Gender is SO fluid, I love it! I also love your ending comment, curtsey::: thank you!
you are one of the most courageous people I know. your last post moved me beyond words, I´ve been thinking of you and that post all day long (in a compassionate way), because I can relate to your problems. that unsubscribing might have nothing to do with the content of your last post, but some people totally identify with their own profiles and therefore, constantly and randomly change something about it, because they´re never sure what (online-) life they want to live.
I remember the first time I watched your videos on youtube, i was like "wow, this is someone who has a HUGE heart, and is SO brave!!" you inspire me SO MUCH, and I wish someday I will get to meet you :) It's so good that you put yourself out here, and continue to through out all the crummyness that goes on.
You've got be blushing a little here, thank you : ) Oh I want to create a machine that will teleport all my fabulous you tube friends over here so we can have a huge "celebrate life and love" party! Here's an instant invitation:::
I posted a comment on your channel. It says more than i can now. Ur video put me in a certain frame of mind; a thoughtful one (to say the least). I can't go back to that right now; but u have my support.
Johnny... oh my gosh. I don't think there is a more beautiful, brave, kind soul on this planet. You are such an amazing person, and I feel so blessed to be able to call you a friend.
As for support, if you decided to join the circus and travel the world, I'm pretty darn sure that I would support you... as long as you kept making videos! lmfao!!
You are beautiful and I love you because YOU ARE YOU!!!
Thank you so much my beautiful pink moneky. I just sent you a response to your loving PM. Thank you again. I hope to get your vid online soon, I want you and another specific friend here to see my body size acceptance art and craft poster from last week!
Wow, you know what? I never even looked at it like that... In all honesty, I don't ask much for what I think I need. You just knocked some sense into me dear lol I should be proud of the courage it took to ask for support. Thank you for pointing this out. This is very heart warming AND helpful feedback, thank you.
Thank you so much. I need this, big time because I know I am going to get the rat's end of it when my Mother watches it. She constantly flips out and demands I take down my art videos that have anything to do with her. I understand her concern and told her that would she rather I take down vids or lives? because I get messages from people about my art saying how much it's helped them lift themself up. I asked my Mom to use her creative talents to respond/react rather than to sit in bitterness.
She dropped it, entirely because it was so logical there was no valid defense. I just now received a message from her in reaction to my poem and what I wrote to you this morning... I directed her to the idea of forgiveness: self and with others. We must take responsibility for our own selves, including our pasts, and forgive..heal... move on. I don't blame her for anything anymore. I have matured in that sense but in order to heal I must process how I need to process in order to heal, so I art.
cutting into this convo... you are SO BRAVE, really, to not only put these incredibly personal things on the internet for all to see, but knowing your mother sees.
I can't even say to my mother that I have an eating disorder or that I SI, or heaven forbid.. that she had anything to do with it... because she'd get all frantic and self-deprecating which is completely counter-productive. I haven't the strength yet to stand up for myself on these grounds... but you are an inspiration!
Gratitude my dear, gratitude. Your time will come when it's meant to, don't push it like constipation, wait for it to ease it's way out. Sorry, how gross is that? I guess I'm a feces freak LOL no I am trying to shift the focus... This would make a great topic for the collaboration: coming out to parent's about eds... major issue that needs to be addressed. I hope to see it on the Sunday video, if not already, I think I saw something of it sort...
I just want to say that I love you for everything that you are and you have taught me so much. I go to my computer daily and hope you have a new video. I am so glad you are here with us. This world has far to many people who just love to judge and hate even when it doesn't even have anything to do with them or hurt them in any way they still feel the need to judge and hate. Whatever happened to if you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all?
Wow Lori, what a great response. Thank you so much. I wish I could make a new video every day but that's not something I can do so I do what I can do and I truly appreciate that you come around to watch what I can do/post. You bring up such a POWERFUL POINT: this world has too many people who LOVE to JUDGE verse LOVE to LOVE... wow, what an honest realization.
Why do I like you? I have mega respect for ANYONE who is big enough to love themselves for who they are and take pride in it. To be honest, I am slightly jealous, because I hide who I truly am quite a bit. I see you, and you are always up-front and honest not only with who you are, but also what is going on in your life.
I love to watch every video, no matter what the topic may be- so you've got a permanent subscriber in me.
Finally, your spoken word poetry is some of the best I've heard.
Why do I like you? You have supported me with open arms and an open heart for so long now. You've seen me go up, go down, remain neutral, take space, get in the face lol and have always supported me throughout it all. You are a beautiful person with a heart of gold and you have a place in my life forever as well. Many hugs to you and much gratitude.
You're such a brave soul.I'm a newer subscriber but I have watched many of your old videos to gain education on many things.You're videos helpful and you seem like a wonderful person..Thank you for continuing to post. :]
This is what I love to hear and honor so much. Thank you. I have so many videos to choose from! I need to start organizing them. I wish YT had folders but for now I can only stick to 3 public playlists so I need to carry on with that. I am blessed that I can reach you and that you are watching my videos and getting some kind of help from them. Blessings your way:::
I think you said what you needed to so that your feelings could be expressed. That is what helps in healing getting all those mixed feelings out. I hope you are feeling better. You are a beautiful soul and deserve only the best
Thank you. I've said what I felt I could say and handled the best ways I know how. After I posted this I DIRECTLY went on my power-prayer walk, prayed and honored the small animals and nature I embraced along the way. It was very pleasant : ) It always is. Thanks for your support.
I hope you will read this even though the video was posted in the past.. I would not have been one of those you refer to who unsubscribed, but I once unsubscribed after starting a new account and I know that some people have two accts, keeping one for private issues ( that they don't want seen at work, etc). And when they are closed for violations you might see an "unsubscription" take place. And when someone has 2500 subs, there will always be come coming and going for many impersonal reasons:)
happyquails 2 years ago
Thank you my dear. I really appreciate it. You are very kind. At this time I was dealing with some drama on YT and people I thought were friends ended up not being. I am talking people I was growing close to - off you tube. Anyhow, like you said people come and go - and I am learning to accept this. I am learning that I won't always be accepted or respected and it's best to keep those with genuine intentions close. Energy exchange is everything. Thank you for the positive vibes, always!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Just don't become fake like Chris crocker. he gets so nasty if people say something he made up and all this other stuff. Just stay 100% real and you should be good,lol.
Vampira86 2 years ago
your poem was so beautiful and i've listened to it multiple times. thank you, you verbalized emotions that i have never been able to accept/admit to. you are so inspiring, and everyone here is blessed to interact with you in any way.
kaelynne 3 years ago
I accept you for who you are, I love you unconditionally, You are beautiful in every way, I am blessed to have you as a friend :)
Limabean120 3 years ago
I'm sorry you were hurt! Hope your heart has healed! :)
monilark 3 years ago
johnny that poem you read, made me cry.
Im glad youre alive today.
You're a survivor. You will always be a survivor, and no one can ever take that away from you.
You're a beautiful person.
Youre healing.
hippop56 3 years ago
You inspire me in a way few others do. All you guys who are part of Recovery Happens Here are helping me so much.
I barely know you, but I love you already.
I want the best for you and I love your blogs.
I really do xoxo
Sia118 3 years ago
Hi Johnny, we always like to support you, we like you a lot - please forgive us the email at the wrong time. we haven't watched the last videos and my asking for the written words from the vid without a picture was our wish to understand it full.love & light
daphne & phoebe
somepieces 3 years ago
you are so brave, and strong. i admire you for being so honest with everyone and yourself. most people cannot do what you do. thank you!
kaelynne 3 years ago
I'm sorry for the people who unsubscribed. they are the one's missing out! :) I love you John
Godlvr2007 3 years ago
Johnny, I just listened to your family tree video in full. I started the other day, but felt too distressed listening to it. No-one deserves to suffer the abuse you had to try to deal with as a child. It is a miracle that you are still here, and I am so glad you are still here :) Your videos are raw, and you are incredibly honest. I guess I needn't say all this because you already know that like your Mom, I am here to accept and support you.
xxx
misstiggykins 3 years ago
oh Johnny!
Think about how many new subscribers you get weekly or by the day and compare to those few who decided that this wasnt their thing..
You are so amazing to me and so many others.
You got the gift to teach and make people understand. You are so beautiful, inside out, sooooo fucking wonderful!
I dont know you personally, but i consider you a friend:)
mwah<3
All the support and love does out to my favorite youtuber;)
eifosnosslo 3 years ago
goes, not does hehe
eifosnosslo 3 years ago
I appreciate you Johnny and when I feel down or defeated I end up thinking of your inspiring videos and your ideas for recovery etc. & your creative ideas really do help get me thru that feeling, thru that day etc. So just saying Thank you.
Carriesue81 3 years ago
I agree with everything you said and all your feelings are valid. All your asking for is to be respected. People want to bring down people who are destined for greatness, have done great things and impact many people's lives in positive ways. All I have to say is, Johnny your AMAZING and you ROCK!!!!! hugs
lolagirl1111 3 years ago
still here...xoxoxo love !!!!
casgrl21 3 years ago
you are a brave soul... good for you
hewitlin 3 years ago
i loved ur last video, the family tree was really good and honest. i dont know u but ive just starting watching ur videos and in the last one u really opened up and im glad for that. And about the subsrciber it can be like strawberrykisses100 said, their account can have been deleted or maybe they unsubsribed for other reason, like their friends find their account and they didn't wanted them to see anything that had with ed's to do.
Zoomizen 3 years ago
Oh and by the way, I'd like to tell you something important that you have taught me:
The importance of my inner child. I actually didn't know that it played such a big part in my psychological unrest. Because of you, I have been nourishing my inner child and entertaining its whims.
Thank you for that.
mcehoffman 3 years ago
<333
mcehoffman 3 years ago
hi there, wonderful:) just want to say i love you so much for all you do. your videos are amazing and help me & inspire me in so many ways. i haven't been online in a while to watch b/c i've been struggling BIG time and i tend to isolate like crazy when im not doing so great. sorry i haven't been around. i gotta do some catching up and watch your videos that i missed :) keep it up! YOU ARE WONDERFUL! i love you:)
ceruleanmagenta 3 years ago
I do not know you personally, but I completely accept and support you. I may not share all of your experiences, but I know you are strong and brave. You inspire me to be more aware, honest, and proactive about how I interact with myself and the world. Im sure you know your videos mean so much to so many different people and I really just want to thank you for making them and investing your time and energy into this wonderful medium. You really are one of the shining lights of humanity, Johnny.
golexis 3 years ago
I was praying for you this afternoon.
Love ya....
*hugs*
thesoothingsurf 3 years ago
I love you! and I love potato! Perfect combo I'd say. xoxoxo
:)
theskinnypig 3 years ago
I just wanted to say Hi, Stacey. I hope you are keeping your head up!
xoxo Cindy
peppernme 3 years ago
Johnny, I am SO proud of you for not only the poem and the strength and talent it took to write and read it in a video, but also how far you've come. You are amazing, inspirational, beautiful, empathetic, and loving, and I am a subscriber for always and forever. Through thick an thin, we still hang in. I love you so much, stay strong!
ThePublicityNinja 3 years ago
proud that you are so true to yourself and even though it is foreign to me and I don't understand it,I am so impressed that you have come so far and overcame so many obstacles and you are a great individual t be friends with!
PringlesMinis 3 years ago
We all learn together! What a wonderful thing. I am very content in my gender, have been for many years, it's the past that creeps up on me and triggers me. I began transitioning a lot earlier than most trans people at the time I was... late teens - early 20s. It was the best thing I could of ever done for myself. I'd most likely be dead if I hadn't transitioned. Anyhow, enough on that. Stay tuned for my new Potato video omg ahahahhaha just wait... any minute now...
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
looking forward to the potato video my friend!
PringlesMinis 3 years ago
Maybe whoever it was who unsubscribed deleted their account or had it deleted due to violation? You never know.
I LOVE YOU, JOHNNY!
And you have my 100% support from a gender queer, gender fluid, simply gender confused dyke.
Your poem - so powerful I was in tears. Phenomenal.
And your heart is so big it's no wonder you feel so much. You are so caring.
Lots and lots of rainbow sparkly gender-queer hugs. xxxxxxxxxxx (I've given you 11 kisses - my magic OCD number - feel special! lol)
EdieAlyss 3 years ago
Kisses on your hand as well... Divastarr just got many!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
My Johnny, I so love your videos. I look forward to seeing you everyday. I love when you post. and I love watching your old stuff , I learn so much from you. I work in the medical field and I watch your videos to learn! I be leave in you.
And I wish only greatness and much deserved PEACE! Hugs and Love your Friend in Pittsburgh
x0x0xx0
jenytech45 3 years ago
Wow this is incredible!!! Thank you so much honey. Hey, what do you do in the medical field? That's wonderful you want to learn and are so open to it. Education is everything! Peace to you as well dear!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
that WAS very imature for people to just unsubribe like that. i mean I get that perhaps they found your last video triggering or whatever the case may be, but to just leave is ridiclous. They should at least see how your future videos are and then if they feel its unsafe for them, at least tell you they are "leaving" (like you said) Its like with old friends, sometimes you grow apart, but you should at least say goodbye and acknowlege the times you had together
divastarr21 3 years ago
This is where I pat you on the back, smile and then kiss your hand. THANK YOU for your feedback.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
*curties back at you* <3. and Johnny, remember that someone can unsubscribe but the knowledge and honesty you have shared in whatever videos they have seen will stay with them.
also, I'm not sure but i might delete this account and start a new one (ive been using this name for a lot of things since middle school (i'm now 20). But I will of course resubscribe to you.
divastarr21 3 years ago
Don't worry about the un-subscribers. I'm sure they had their reasons. What matters is that you stand on your own. I loved your piece. It was extremely empowering, yet painful. It gave me chills.
Keep your head above the bullshit :)
mallorynakamura 3 years ago
You are so right, thank you very much dear. Many hugs to you and lots of love your way. Ps. I just totally made a funny ass video to lighten the load, it's about potatoes and for my best friend Cindy (I have 2 bbf, Cindy and Stacey... and of course my Momma!)
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Johnny hun! I love you to bits babe and we should all feel the love right now, because what you are doing, helping using the aid of youtube, is amazing and lovely. You are lovely!
xxx
totalH20 3 years ago
You are lovely too. I hella feel the love. I feel so much better than earlier!!!!!!!!!! I totally went for a power prayer/nature walk and had a nap, a lush bath and a good damn day. Now it's all about some chilled dragon fruit, candles and america's next top model = my wed ritual!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
antm <33!!
they really bug me about how bitchy they can be though. but I really want to be a fashion photographer so I watch it for inspiration more than the social side of the programme. Enjoy!! x
totalH20 3 years ago
Johnny, the most important life you can save right now is yours; you are helping people just by being YOU and speaking out.
Thank you for YOUR exsistence. So much.
xoxo
peppernme 3 years ago 2
PS. I present femme, but I consider myself genderqueer as well as "pansexual" and I *LOVE* how open and comfortable you are with your gender/sexuality
guiseofyouth 3 years ago
being vulnerable *is* the most difficult thing... and I'm proud of you :) (haha! i just wrote that just when you said "johnny, i am proud of you" to yourself ;)
and you don't know me, I don't comment often, but I love your videos and get a lot out of them. I feel honored to "get to know" you through youtube! xo
guiseofyouth 3 years ago
Dear Johnny, I have not been on to YouTube until just now to watch your last two videos (This one & the Family Tree). You're a gorgeous soul inside and outside. <3 I'm here, you're sweet and loved and help and touch many people.
I'm proud of you for posting the Family Tree video you're a strong person & I believe you can get through this xoxoxoxo
Sam
bittersweetmoment 3 years ago
I hope you accept this explanation and I wanted to commend you on your family tree spoken piece and I am truly sorry that you've had to suffer in such ways BUT I am proud of your strength to come to terms with what's the past so you can have a wonderfully fullfilling future! :)
PringlesMinis 3 years ago
aww babe.whats most important is how you feel about yourself.your so smart and you dont deserve to dwell on others insensitivites.i love youu tooo!hope you have a good day,feel better
<3
grossrolls 3 years ago
I appreciate your voice.
thedrunkenhippy 3 years ago
I support you 100% Johnny!I thank you so much for responding to the PM I sent you earlier ^.^ I will keep you in my prayers <3
PeBs123456 3 years ago
ppl are afraid of you Johnny, b/c you're HONEST. You have INTEGRITY.Those who have ANY issue w/you ONLY do so b/c they're insecure in themselves. They tend to think you believe you're better than them. They're THAT insecure that they have to judge you. There's only 1 thing about these people: they're SICK. Some are SO sick that they CANT be supportive of anyone else. 1 sided relationships are doomed. Experienced that very recently. Glad its over.
calikaren71 3 years ago
Karen, always words of wisdom. I was wondering if you had seen my poetry video. I'm up at my Mom's right now using her bath and checking mail before I run errands and I was just thinking about you and how awesome it would be if we took 2 of our poems, this one and you make one like it when the universe calls for you to do so, and merge them - like how you did with your intros. this would be GROUND BREAKING, omg
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I agree, and we shall do that! :)
calikaren71 3 years ago
johnny, you really inspire me everytime i watch your videos. you opened my mind up soo much to a bevy of different things! i admire so much how you are into raw food, how long have you been raw for?
illbeurbaybee 3 years ago
: ) thank you dear, it's been my balance between allowing myself to eat and allowing myself to keep it in. heaven sent, for me. i got into raw food almost 4 years ago, next spring it will be 4 years - coming around march/april time... then i slowly transitioned from eating about 75% raw to eventual 100. nothing was ever, ever ever ever, worked better for me - on all aspects.
gratitude to you and blessings!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Johnny-losing subs? Its fucking disturbing when ppl sub to us (on the collab & personally) & just stalk/watch. They watch in silence. WHY? The whole point of this-speaking up-is to use our voices INSTEAD of our bodies. You have a voice, Johnny-ppl cant handle you. That-in a sense is power. Those who unsubbed are more than likely are very sick in their own disease. I have a good idea WHO may be doing this. Self-absorbed little girls who think of themselves & wallow in their own self-pity.
calikaren71 3 years ago
I love to see people speak up. Wow, that's so odd this was brought up because I just got done sending an email to someone asking them to speak up... then I come here and read this. Hot topic I guess. I think a lot of people are intimdated or afraid to speak up, some don't want attention drawn to them and some feel they don't deserve it. We must invite them with open arms and help them feel comfortable. When we are uncomfortable inside, it's hard to feel comfortable outside. Come one come all!!!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I am one of those people who doesnt like attention drawn to them. Totally, which explains only the RCENT appearance on cam. I HATE to be looked at-BUT if its going to benefit me in MUCH healthier ways than just "being looked at," then its worth it and I'll do it. The whole idea of being looked at-that embarrassment will fade-fast, b/c what I have to say, more than likely will outweigh (pun intended) what I look like.
calikaren71 3 years ago
Well I love looking at you and many others do too. I am so proud of you for getting up and kicking fear in the face!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Johnny,
Hello There! It's good to be back. I am commenting here because I wanted to be honest and publicly state that I did cancel my subscription to you quite a while ago due to anomosity between mutual friends that was making me very nervous and I felt that if I continued to subscribe to you I was in some way "fueling a fire" but I watched your videos anyway but didn't comment for the same reason stated above. That was MY decision but not the right one because by doing so I have secluded
PringlesMinis 3 years ago 3
myself and my opinions which I do want to share with EVERYONE and also I wouldn't want anyone to assume I am self absorbed or wallowing in my own sickness because quite frankly I have been doin' really well and I would like to share that with EVERYONE here :)
PringlesMinis 3 years ago 2
THUMBS UP MORGAN, BIG TIME!!! This is SO big of you. Thank you, thank you, thank you. It was a big step to come here, then to be honest, then to comment. Holy crap, 3 steps in 1 video!!! You are opening yourself up as well and it's a beautiful transformation.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Johnny,
Thank you so much for being so nice. I really appreciate that. Honest to god. Listen I think everyone on the planet,and certainly in our social/family cirle here on youtube are guilty of not being completely honest or talkin' behind others back. BUT I really wanna end it like u originally stated in ur group email,so I wish EVERYONE would let go of anomosity and EVERYONE,that means not 1 single person,would just let it go and no more name calling. Please it's so negative and hurtful!
PringlesMinis 3 years ago
True, all humans do this! What lead me to email you was the fact that I got all upset seeing your comments on mutual friends pages and then I got all bitter in relation to some previous info that was brought to my attention and so I got angry and was questioning your intentions for me, for the friends on these pages... and I went to a friend and started talking behind your back about it - and realized I was being very hypocritical and it had to end. I have said my share, we all have. It's over
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
now, no more wicked games - for you and I atleast. I can hold up to my end. People will talk, we will always talk but what we choose to say makes all the difference in the world. Thank you for being mature and allowing yourself to forgive and stop on your end, as I am doing the same. Forgivness = the ultimate cure! well that and um avocados for me. I just adore them.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
See the reason I brought this up again is I just don't want anyone to be called jealous or sick anymore because it's bothersome to those of us that are sensitive,which is all of us. Also I keep trying to comment on this but it won't post. Regarding your poetry piece,and people accepting you even though they aren't familair with the situation. See I wasn't aware of gender issues at all till I met Taylor even though I knew you 1st becuz I had NO idea u were dealing with all that but I am so (cont)
PringlesMinis 3 years ago
Just sending you some love...
i know i'm a pretty much stranger...but i'm always here if you need someone x
lilkel86 3 years ago
Johnny, many of us are proud of you. You do wonderful things, and to open up with such truth and pain took great strength, courage, and faith. the gifts you give, each time you post, help so many. A lot of people may have never felt such things, or will never understand why...but we still offer love and support.
If I could pray for only one person today... it would be you.
Every beat of my heart supports your battle, your life, your beauty
luvsMax 3 years ago
ah screw the ppl who unsubscribed. You dont need people like that to watch and support you. You need to learn like I have, you cant please everyone and cant be everything to everyone I dont mean to come off a lil harsh here I think your poem was great but being an artist not everyone will agree and wana support you. The good thing is you will be left with the honest people that do.
beyonceknows 3 years ago
i just listened to your family tree poem, and it was very brave of you to come face-to-face with all of your inner demons. That proves you have more gusto than anyone I know! Bravo, Johnny! I am rooting for you!
musicmamma 3 years ago
Oh God . I just realised that I spelt my last comment wrong. No - you don't have a bug heart ( that would be quite odd - unless you are secretly ' the Fly' ) . No you have a big pink glitterball of a heart!
georginaheffernan 3 years ago
Infinite blessings to you, Johnny. I adore who you are - ALL that you are and continue to become. Your heartspace is so kind, so compassionate, so universally and sincerely caring... and your intent, so true. I admire you, and appreciate you -for all of your humanness and your beautiful spirit, and for continuing to share the wisdom of your hard-earned discoveries. Going back into "those places" takes enormous courage/strength and emerging from them, even more so. May God always be your guide.
Paramystical 3 years ago
Hey sweetie . My Family Tree was so brave of you - and so powerful . I love your honesty and courage . You've been through a lot but DO know know that what you do really counts and helps people. You ARE beautiful, special and there's nothing wrong with having a bug heart...love you for it.
georginaheffernan 3 years ago
You're heart may be too big, but there's nothing wrong with that. Screw the people who unsubscribed. What you are doing is making a difference in other pepole's lives, and THAT is what matters. Most people don't have the guts to stand up and say what they really mean. I respect you for that. Never give up!!
musicmamma 3 years ago
You are a beautiful being.
Emmieluvin12345 3 years ago
Firstly, I am so sorry any of that ever happened to you.
I am so proud of you. Going to the core isn't easy.
Your beautiful piece was tragic listening to.. yet in the most liberating way. Gender / sexuality messages are so critical to our well being . . . from childhood and throughout our lives. It is exactly why prop h8 is deeply upsetting me.
May you always feel safe to bring your Truth here. We are Family and love you EXACTLY as you are.
GreenAndroQueen 3 years ago
Thank you so much dear, you have been very supportive since you recently found my videos. Btw. I saved to my favories a video about Prop 8 that about put me in tears. You may really enjoy watching it for support. It was the most beautiful speech I've ever heard.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Yes. Thank God for our str8 allies. Check out my 2 most recent favorites. Very FUNNY. Lord knows we could use alot more laughing. My blue hair makes me laugh today.
GreenAndroQueen 3 years ago
I wish I could see your awesome recovery-driven-blue hair but I don't want to invade your privacy space online. If you ever feel like sharing a pic of what you did, I'd love to see!!! If not, that's cool - but can you tell me how you wear it paired with the blue? When I first cut my hair off and starting LIVING, I wore mine highlighted blue... eventually hot pink (I had to work into that, be comfortable being femme as fuck and getting the recongnition as my true male self in the process)
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Lately I wear my butch self out in the world. Black hipster jeans and black t shirts. Short hair.. boi hair. Tinted purples and blues. I feel stronger in the world passing. Alone at night it's pink and purple pj's...my femme side balances. In the past, I was more andro day and night. I love how genderplay changes. And the feeling of control. I have to think about the pic. Please don't take it personal. Im very anon online.
You are the fragrant blossoms on that family tree.
GreenAndroQueen 3 years ago
Oh that is so hot, I think I'm hitting on you over the web LOL Do you have body mods? or into them? Ps. I understand the importance of passing... totally. All humans deserve recognition. Gender is SO fluid, I love it! I also love your ending comment, curtsey::: thank you!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Hehe. You big flirt.
One large visible tat, about 5 earpiercings, a nipple piercing
and three scarifications.
When I reach my first year abstinence Im getting another tat!!!
GreenAndroQueen 3 years ago
I can totally imagine you in blue and hot pink hair!!
GreenAndroQueen 3 years ago
manic panic baby!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
i like your vids, youre a kind person..
Like to follow your story
bless you
Frozenflamezz 3 years ago
: ) Thank you dear, it's important to me to know this.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I havent watched the video yet
but just remember you are my friend - and you will always be my friend. thank you for being there for me
galaxycat3 3 years ago
I love you even more than beef-strokin'
;) Your a gem my friend!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
you are one of the most courageous people I know. your last post moved me beyond words, I´ve been thinking of you and that post all day long (in a compassionate way), because I can relate to your problems. that unsubscribing might have nothing to do with the content of your last post, but some people totally identify with their own profiles and therefore, constantly and randomly change something about it, because they´re never sure what (online-) life they want to live.
mixedmediana 3 years ago
Thank you love, very much. You bring up a good point to take into consideration about unsubscribing...props to you!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
i support you. you are amazing.
tinydancer08 3 years ago
***hugs*** thank you
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I remember the first time I watched your videos on youtube, i was like "wow, this is someone who has a HUGE heart, and is SO brave!!" you inspire me SO MUCH, and I wish someday I will get to meet you :) It's so good that you put yourself out here, and continue to through out all the crummyness that goes on.
You are so strong :)
thumbelina0809 3 years ago
You've got be blushing a little here, thank you : ) Oh I want to create a machine that will teleport all my fabulous you tube friends over here so we can have a huge "celebrate life and love" party! Here's an instant invitation:::
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I posted a comment on your channel. It says more than i can now. Ur video put me in a certain frame of mind; a thoughtful one (to say the least). I can't go back to that right now; but u have my support.
12mock3lee 3 years ago
I got your comment and it touched me deeply. Thank you for the immediate and ongoing support. HUGS
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Johnny... oh my gosh. I don't think there is a more beautiful, brave, kind soul on this planet. You are such an amazing person, and I feel so blessed to be able to call you a friend.
As for support, if you decided to join the circus and travel the world, I'm pretty darn sure that I would support you... as long as you kept making videos! lmfao!!
You are beautiful and I love you because YOU ARE YOU!!!
All my love and prayers
McKenna <3
AnaDancer92 3 years ago
Thank you so much my beautiful pink moneky. I just sent you a response to your loving PM. Thank you again. I hope to get your vid online soon, I want you and another specific friend here to see my body size acceptance art and craft poster from last week!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Simile I love You!^.-
pastrywild 3 years ago
: ) my love to you as well! thank you.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Wow, you know what? I never even looked at it like that... In all honesty, I don't ask much for what I think I need. You just knocked some sense into me dear lol I should be proud of the courage it took to ask for support. Thank you for pointing this out. This is very heart warming AND helpful feedback, thank you.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Posting "My Family Tree" was so brave, I support you... you're wonderful...
PrettiestPinkGun 3 years ago
Thank you so much. I need this, big time because I know I am going to get the rat's end of it when my Mother watches it. She constantly flips out and demands I take down my art videos that have anything to do with her. I understand her concern and told her that would she rather I take down vids or lives? because I get messages from people about my art saying how much it's helped them lift themself up. I asked my Mom to use her creative talents to respond/react rather than to sit in bitterness.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
nice 1. How did she take to ur suggestion?
12mock3lee 3 years ago
She dropped it, entirely because it was so logical there was no valid defense. I just now received a message from her in reaction to my poem and what I wrote to you this morning... I directed her to the idea of forgiveness: self and with others. We must take responsibility for our own selves, including our pasts, and forgive..heal... move on. I don't blame her for anything anymore. I have matured in that sense but in order to heal I must process how I need to process in order to heal, so I art.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
cutting into this convo... you are SO BRAVE, really, to not only put these incredibly personal things on the internet for all to see, but knowing your mother sees.
I can't even say to my mother that I have an eating disorder or that I SI, or heaven forbid.. that she had anything to do with it... because she'd get all frantic and self-deprecating which is completely counter-productive. I haven't the strength yet to stand up for myself on these grounds... but you are an inspiration!
guiseofyouth 3 years ago
Gratitude my dear, gratitude. Your time will come when it's meant to, don't push it like constipation, wait for it to ease it's way out. Sorry, how gross is that? I guess I'm a feces freak LOL no I am trying to shift the focus... This would make a great topic for the collaboration: coming out to parent's about eds... major issue that needs to be addressed. I hope to see it on the Sunday video, if not already, I think I saw something of it sort...
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
hahahahaha i love bathroom analogies.
It would be a great topic to address! I'll think about it :)
guiseofyouth 3 years ago
I just want to say that I love you for everything that you are and you have taught me so much. I go to my computer daily and hope you have a new video. I am so glad you are here with us. This world has far to many people who just love to judge and hate even when it doesn't even have anything to do with them or hurt them in any way they still feel the need to judge and hate. Whatever happened to if you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all?
Love
Lori
teddybear2247 3 years ago
Wow Lori, what a great response. Thank you so much. I wish I could make a new video every day but that's not something I can do so I do what I can do and I truly appreciate that you come around to watch what I can do/post. You bring up such a POWERFUL POINT: this world has too many people who LOVE to JUDGE verse LOVE to LOVE... wow, what an honest realization.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Why do I like you? I have mega respect for ANYONE who is big enough to love themselves for who they are and take pride in it. To be honest, I am slightly jealous, because I hide who I truly am quite a bit. I see you, and you are always up-front and honest not only with who you are, but also what is going on in your life.
I love to watch every video, no matter what the topic may be- so you've got a permanent subscriber in me.
Finally, your spoken word poetry is some of the best I've heard.
choirgrrl 3 years ago
Why do I like you? You have supported me with open arms and an open heart for so long now. You've seen me go up, go down, remain neutral, take space, get in the face lol and have always supported me throughout it all. You are a beautiful person with a heart of gold and you have a place in my life forever as well. Many hugs to you and much gratitude.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I find your videos extremely inspirational.
You're such a brave soul.I'm a newer subscriber but I have watched many of your old videos to gain education on many things.You're videos helpful and you seem like a wonderful person..Thank you for continuing to post. :]
Sparklii21 3 years ago
This is what I love to hear and honor so much. Thank you. I have so many videos to choose from! I need to start organizing them. I wish YT had folders but for now I can only stick to 3 public playlists so I need to carry on with that. I am blessed that I can reach you and that you are watching my videos and getting some kind of help from them. Blessings your way:::
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I think you said what you needed to so that your feelings could be expressed. That is what helps in healing getting all those mixed feelings out. I hope you are feeling better. You are a beautiful soul and deserve only the best
Southerngrace1984 3 years ago
Thank you. I've said what I felt I could say and handled the best ways I know how. After I posted this I DIRECTLY went on my power-prayer walk, prayed and honored the small animals and nature I embraced along the way. It was very pleasant : ) It always is. Thanks for your support.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Anytime! Always here for ya♥
Southerngrace1984 3 years ago
XOXOXOXOXOXO.
YIPPPYSKIPPY 3 years ago
I love xoxo's, especially that many. Thank you dear.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago