im the same, completely agree with everything you said. my hair doesnt grow, when it does its all different lengths! this video somes up everything i do on a daily basis, although i wouldnt say i do it and am aware ( i am aware sometimes , but usually before i know it ave got some in my hand or im tugging ) i do find when im stressed or worried i do it more and find noticable bald patches that then make me hate myself and want to cover up!
Omg i was pulling through this whole video i couldnt stop (i use my nails like tweezers to pull my eyelashes) and i got one(both my lids are bald and ugly i pull the stubby ones and u know how hair gets thicker when they come out, thats when i wanna pull em out) and when i went back for more i touched and it burned i guess i like scrached my lid but i have done this forever im 13 and i have been doing it for as long as i can remember
This describes me to a tee. Only I don't pluck my eyelashes. I started pulling my hair and plucking my eyebrows when I was 12. I stopped for a long time and now I'm picking it back up again. And its bad. I wish I could stop. :(
I can relate; the only difference is that I pull the bulb of with my fingers. One thing I'm becoming more aware of when comparing my feelings towards trich with others' is that whilst I would like long hair, I don't feel specifically sad or angry at myself for pulling. Also the guilt I feel is more about the time I've wasted and what people would think about that. My feelings are never really about my hair; it's more of a strange sense of shame that I can't completely rationalise...
... Hair isn't that big a deal for me, neither is looking good, yet somehow I still feel that type of guilt and shame. I think my way of viewing hair etc. and the natural guilt and realisation that this sort of thing isn't 'normal' kind of cancel each other out to some extend, which is why my feelings on the subject are so hard to pinpoint -- and why I can never find motivation to stop.
Wow, to the T, i do the exact same thing with my facial hair, pull, examine, rub it on my lip, throw it away and on to the next one, looking for the sweet bulby one.. how do you deal with it??
I've thought about hypno to help me stop, what do you think?
PLEASE READ AND LIKE SO PEOPLE CAN SEE THIS!!!Just to let you know and everyone know. My name is michael Peterson and Ive had this disorder since I was 4. I am now 19 and just beat this disorder. I started playing around with them when i was young and it became a habit. started with eyebrows, and then stoped and started with my eyelashes instead. ever since childhood I have had this problem and I would love to help fellow friends withthis disoreder. Message me please becuase reallywant tohelp!
this video made me tear up. It makes my mom cry because she said i'm turning myself into a monster. my eye brows are patchy and thin. they used to be thick and dark. now it looks like i had an accident with a razor everyday. it's been a year and a half since I looked like myself.
while watching this v. i cryed .... :"( every word .. its true :"( theres nothing i can do to stop nothing :( and i truly feel bad when my people say.. omg is she pulling her hair . i always wished i had long hair .. :( but how will my wish ever come true :""""(
I have not pulled in 18 hrs. Doesn't sound like a big accomplishment, but considering I have never gone more than the length it takes for me to sleep, for 9 years, that is a lifetime!
OMG....do I have this too? Everything you are saying I also do!!!! One day I spent 3 hours outside on my porch examining my hair and pulling out the bad ones and I do that with the bulb too!
I have had this since I was 8 I'm 15 thankfully I've only go for my eyelashes and "other" areas but when I was nine I pulled out all of my eyebrows I rarely do that now and I also pulled out a bald spot on my head when I was 10 because my dad punished me I have binges once in a while but I've managed to keep it under control
To have eyelashes is amazing but to see them on my fingertips one after another gives me a feeling that I cannot describe. Even now, as I sit here listening to you and watching your facial expressions, I rub my left thumb over the lashes of my left eye and search for the one that stands out, that stands alone. Even being conscious about doing it, I cannot stop and I can't help but cry. I wish to have a full set someday but it's hard to believe that even after 8 years, I'll be able to stop...
@RebeccaDominate I have too been pulling since I was 13. I am 22 now. I still have faith that I will be able to overcome this someday! You should have that hope and faith too! I read last night that if you hold something in both hands while you watch TV, that should help. I am going to start trying this!
@zadeh79 I'm exactly the same way, minus the chewing on the bulb part. I am now 21 and have been pulling since I was about 13 and find it so hard to stop...
i also pull my eye lashes and eye brows and i feel like a monster or freak but now that i know i am not the only one who has this problem. my friends think its weird and then it makes me feel ugly. You just made me feel not alone anymore. i started when i was only about in 2nd grade, now i am 14 and i stiil face the issue of not feeling beautiful, but finding others like me is a huge relief. i to, will post a video. you have inspired me. thank you.
This is a good way to think about it. I journal in my own diary about my pulling and my blog. I used to pull out my hair; sometimes I do still actually and it's weird that I didn't think about it in this way but you definitely hit exactly how I feel when I pull out my eyelashes.
You are definitely beautiful and I hope you are doing better :)
word by word! So true. And how to stop? That is the question. First the acceptance that i have this, second the will to stop, second, tell your closes friend to you don't feel alone, and third, seek help from a professional. It is like a drug, an addiction, a lack of self control. Becoming a slave of own self-destructive habit.
word by word! So true. And how to stop? That is the question. First the acceptance that i have this, second the will to stop, second, tell your closes friend to you don't feel alone, and third, seek help from a professional. It is like a drug, an addiction, a lack of self control. Becoming a slave of own self-destructive habit.
this made me cry, this is exactly what i do and you explained how it happens so well, its just so horrible that someone who doesn't suffer just cant seem to understand how your feeling. wish it would just go away.
i started when i was in fourth grade and im 25 now.. i do my hair..everyone around me thinks its alopecia bc i hide my pulling so well now...i wish i could stop but it is my normal..thanks for the video i wish i could be honest like that..
omg i am exactly the same.. except i pull my hair. i thought i was the only one that took the little white bit at the end off with my teeth & chewed it. this made me feel better ive been pullin since year 6 and im in year 10 (im 14)
Wow, this is basically the exact story of me... I've been pulling for about 4 years now... i've tried several strategies to try to stop pulling, but none have never worked... BUT, recently i've been tested for ADD and was tested positive, and i now take medicine for it... And guess what? I havent pulled in 2 months!!! Maybe i was pulling my hair because of lack of focus or a lack of attention? I think so because now that i take medicine for ADD, i all of a sudden dont pull my hair... YAY!!!!
I only do it with my eyelashes and almost no one talks about that...
Most people only talk about hair ttm and it makes it even harder to believe you're not the only one... The worst part for me is when I stop for a few days and i feel that I'm cured, which will never be the case I guess..
@CoolChri444 I think you can figure out how to stop it from happening, but I believe the behaviour comes down to a biological level, which can lead it can reoccur. It's a phenomenon in behavioural psychology called instinctive drift, here meaning that hair pulling is instinctive for people with trich, so even with behaviour modification, counterbehaviours might show to drift back. I just hope I'm wrong about that because I have had trich for 10 years too!
Everything you said, is exactly how I feel! We are not alone and glad we can share our feelings. Staying positive and surround yourself with positive influences helps make life a little easier. been pulling since i was 3, am now 13. Thanks for sharing! My mom makes headbands with real hair attached to them to help cover the bald spots or thin areas where i pull from. I feel more confident wearing them when i go to school, and you would never know it wasn,t my hair. staying positive!
Cont.. and over again ta fill my pulling crave. at tha end my fingers are sore from constant pressing and pulling. i go ta school, insecure as ever, but feel displeased in a way that no one notices my hideocracry (if thats even a word) unless i ask if its noticeable. i look at everyone else ang their long noticeable gorgeous lashes wishing they were mine. i always try ta think "give it 2 weeks tops, you;ll look a little more normal" i feel like my mascara helps when i comb it on my lid everyday
ive pulled on my lashes since 7th grade, i dont know why i did but i only remember doing it. 9th grade i went tha entire yr not pulling them until mid 1oth gr. im a senior and at this very moment im lying here w/ nerve-recking dissatisfaction of lashless eyes. if i tug on them, even just a little, i wont stop pulling until theyre all gone watching myself do it while freaking out everytime one comes out. my lids are throbbing and tender. i wish i had an enless supply of lashes ta pull over
you are a beautiful writer and wonderfully brave, I just pulled my hair out and felt like shit, i no longer feel so alone though and I have you to thank for that! Thank you, James X
That is exactly what I do and exactly how I feel. I've been so down about it lately. I hate the confrontation I get from people. They think that us trich sufferers can just stop.. It's not easy :(
Brings tears to my eyes how your eyes are so open and happy when the video starts then they darken and it seems you can see right through the pain/frustration. I have low-level trich so I at least understand the urge but to the extent others have to deal with this rather social taboo and the way they are treated is just so sad.
I pull from my scalp. Same feelings, except I bite the imperfect hair into smaller segments and drop it on the floor as if it's less noticeable that way.
I totally understand what you are talking about.. I don't put it anywhere near my mouth though. I just like to see it fall cos it relaxes me. It is translike. but I'm tired of it. I took up knitting to keep my hands busy.
I was exactly like you. I would pull till I had a bad headache.Thought I was the only person with this for 38 years. the searching for the perfect hair, rubbing the bulb on my lips. counting, and unable to stop. Mine went away at menopause and every since I have suffered with picking my skin until it hurts so bad i cant stand it. Just able to admit to myself and others I do this. I have NO control. I hate myself,
Thanks for sharing, I've been hiding this from all my friends and family for 15yrs, I just told my mom (in tears) and your video and others like this makes it easier to understand this condition, I don't feel like I'm the only one
I'm black and don't have trichotillomania but i was speechless after this video ..... it touched my heart ..... i don't f-ing know why but i started crying after the video ended. i sound kind o' stupid but IDK...
THX for telling us your story. It´s such a shame for me to have this disorder. It´s mostly a female disorder, but also guys do pull, like me. i almost lost my beard. if my beard hair becomes to long, play with my fingers in it until i find a nice curly one(a beard contains alot of curly ones) and pick it out- mostly on the left side, thats the reason I only can wear a Mustage- but since 1 week i startet to pull this region too.
Ur a very beautiful lady, and u talk very nice and have a beautiful mouth. I could probably listen to u talk all day long :).....(but not to be freaky or nothing, lol, it's more of compliment then anything else)
i pulled so bad that i basically was completly bald in the form of a Mohawk at top that ran to the top of my crown. with the crown area being the worse
ive had it since i was 14. i am now 23. i dont pull as much as i used to at all. but i do catch myself sometimes. i really want to know how to repair my hair. where i used to pully hair oit on my head.... all those hairs have grown back frizzy thick and curly. its had 8yrs to repair itself. wat can i do... plz help.
I can defiantly relate. What you just said is exactly my story. I've been pulling put my hair since 12. I'm almost 20 now and still can't get enough. I love the feeling of pulling it out. It seems to get worse since I lost my father a few months ago. I don't want to tell anyone cause they'll think I'm a freak. I'm trying to help myself out on my own. But it just gets harder and harder!
It started off as a dare years ago and now I hardly have any eyelashes and sometimes no eyebrows. I only do it when I'm alone like before I go to sleep and twist them in my fingers and then realize what I did the next morning when I look in the mirror and I get mad at myself. People point it out and I'm tired of hearing it, it's embarrassing. I just wana stop. :/
Here's my story. I was in 4th grade and i remember making a game out of pulling my
eyelashes out and collecting them on my desk at school. When I realized there was a bald spot where my eyelashes used to be, I stopped, but quickly turned to my hair on my head. Now I am left with bald spots on the side of my head and I can't stop pulling for the life of me. I really liked how you shared your story, because I can totally relate. You seem like such a sweet girl who doesn't deserve this, yet nobody
I had tritch since I was10 nd I am now 18 it was very embarrassing for me to even walk outside my room :( I cnt even show my parents wen they ask how I'm progressing ( I pull from the top of my head) nd well I have a boyfriend nd he means the world to me so it was very difficult for me to show him but I did it anyways nd he accept me just how I am..I'm still trying to stop by cleaning around my house or cooking for my family but hopefully we all can have the strength to stop very soon..
This happened to me when I was 12, I'm 14 now. I still continue to do this a bit from time to time. I did not know it was called trichotillomania. I'm still shocked.
I have bold spots in my top eye lashes, my bottom eye lashes are completely gone. I pull my eye brows until they are thin, with few hairs. My trich has gotten slightly worse and now I have very small bold spots all over my head... I want to stop but I can't and I don't want to at the same time
Is there a cure? After years and years... The hair does not grow back. And you have to keep hiding the bald spot with black eyeliner and tons of hairspray. Is this living happily? Are you a survivor? Let me know how you did it, if you did. Thanks
omg that is exactley how i feel and right now i feel terrible and my self esteem is soo low. i wear fake eyelashes just to cover up, but i know that when i take them off i will be so dissapointed in myself.
I too am a trich survivor. I, for the most part, am completely done with it. I do have my moments, but only when I am beyond stressed. Thanks for sharing your story. Everything you said sounds exactly like how my life used to be.
I suffer from Trichotillomania, and have for the last three years. I constantly have to chop off my hair and make it shorter, and shorter. I hate it. I love knowing that I am not alone. I hope one day I can be a survivor.
Unfortunately, I'm not a survivor. I still suffer from Trich but I'm trying to find myself help and I got on Youtube thinking it was just going these people, you know, making fun of us talking about how gross or disgusting it is. After about an hour of looking I came across you!
Watching this definitely motivates me even even more, thank you so much for posting this.
I feel the same way and so ashamed bcuz of it :( But that was a really accurate description. I started in 4th grade exactly three years ago on this day and am still doing it..................:'(
Uhhhhhh, I feel your pain, but I feel like I'm different, I pull CLUMPS of hair, I twist and twist and play and tug until I get the satisfaction of pulled hair. I look at it and in 1 second I feel, proud I got so many, horrified that I pulled out 5 hairs in one pull, mortified that i was proud of how many I got then back to find more to tug in just the right spot
I wish you would make more videos. Obviously they help alot of us. You are very eloquent and when you describe issues it is like you know exactly what I want to say.
Wow this really hit home. I started when I was nine & now I'm 38. Mostly pull eye lashes & brows. What an amazingly accurate description of what trich is. Thank you
Has anyone found that it interferes heavily with schoolwork? Im to the point now where Im behind in lecture or writing assignments because Im using my hands to pull my eyelashes out instead of following along...or I'll spend hours trying to write a paper and realize Ive only got a paragraph written because Ive been picking...BLAHHH!
Gosh I can sure relate to this, especially the part about the time just going by, hours, and you don't even realize youve been picking your hair for hours. Thoroughly enjoying plucking, till you go to the mirror and feel disgusted because all of your eyelashes and eyebrows are gone. I wait and wait for them to grow back so I can feel pretty again, but just when I get a little bit of hair coming in, off it goes! #storyofmylife.
Has anyone found that it interferes heavily with schoolwork?
hi ! I am so very impressed by your video..what a brave girl you are ! I am a tricher too...Just letting you know I am so proud of you for speaking out..with the light comes power.
EXACTLY how I feel... I was nodding my head as you describe the pulling and slowed down when you described the feeling at the end when done pulling ):.... Almost 10 years that I have trich!!
i feel exactly the same way except i pluck my leg hairs, armpit hairs, and pubic hairs. i dont know why i started i just had a pair of tweezers and thought 'hmm my mom makes me pluck her armpits, maybe it does feel good.' my mom also had a milder case of trichotillomania. i think i got it from her. i was around 10 when i started and im moving onto my 4th year. i even lied to my doctor about it when she asked. now i know im not totally alone
I relate to the video from the beginning to the end. I'm 35 now...it has ups and downs since I was 13, last episode lasts for 3 years. no eyebrows and eyelashes at the moment...recently >I got the copy of "Brain Lock", by Jeffrey Schwartz, so I'll try the four steps method. I am quite desperate now, ashamed of others. luckily I got very skilled with makeup and I also wear glasses, so it camouflages me a bit. but I stil look unnatural.
oh my god. this is me. im 15. and i suffer from anxiety and depression. i think i started to pull because of the anxiety. other things have happened along with low self esteem from pulling to push me down into a deep dark depression. yet... pulling makes me feel better. it lets out all the emotion and makes me feel better. i am glad im not alone. i really really am.
thank you. thank you for your honesty. thank you for putting into words the emotions that i cannot seem to express. thank you for making me feel like i'm not alone. i am honestly saying this from the deepest, darkest depths of my heart...thank you.
You describe this so perfectly, and deliver it so lovely - I know exactly what you mean, I'm the same. But I love your description, somehow.
I wish I had money for hypnosis, and CBT, and N -Acetyl-Cycsteine, that helps a lot - this is meant to be a kind of OCD, and needs those amino acids. Also brain balancing techniques are meant to be good, if you're in the states look up a clinic. Startling results. I just wish I had the cash to do it all! Because will power's not the answer. Good luck!
I didnt know I was suffering from this when i was 16. I thought I was the only odd one out. It went on for about year, and the patch was pretty big on the left hand side of my head. What I did was each time my fingers itch to pull, I put on some hair oil. Well not some, but a lot. It was pretty greasy since its oil and because of that I could resist the temptation. After that, my hair grew out and I never had any bald patches.
I have the same disorder I just find it out today btw im 14 and I've been sufferin with trich for 4 years.. and its not easy people would randomly stare or talk behind your back worse no guy wants you and you have very few friends.. I've tried so many suicide attempts bec. of my condition. Actually i really want to get better but i cant. heelllpppp..! :((
This made me cry. Ive had it since last year in 6th grade. It was so bad I had no eyebrows and people laughed at me and made fun of me. My friends tried to help me. Ive stopped pulling my eyebrows but, i still do my legs and arms. I need therapy but my mom doesnt have the money. My brother is bipolar and suicidual, and my dad is never home wat should i do?
like others, you described what a pulling episode is like for me to the "t". minus the bititing the root part. the feelings that you described are identical to what i feel. i am crying. i want to stop. so, you're a survivor? how did you actually end up stopping?
you just described everything i do and feel i have been doing it for 5 years now from age 10 to 15 and i hope i stop its horrible to sit in school and when you leave a class you see a huge pile of hair next to your chair i just want it to go away
I had this problem starting in first grade and stopped in seventh grade, I think what really made me stop was being ashamed and trying to hide it (which was impossible as a boy with not so long hair) at school :-( but I guess everybody has their limits and own ways of stopping.
I'm black, from the Virgin Islands and have been pulling since I was 13. I'm 33 now. Paxil and Prozac have not stopped me from doing it. I really wish there was something we can do to stop this.
I am an african american female and I tend to pull the middle of my hair out. You took the exact words our of my hair when you mention a thin and straight piece is a waste so so so true. I like to pile weave and glue unto my hair so its kinda difficult to get to my scalp. That usually works for about 4/5 days. I even enjoy when my daughter pulls my hair :( I know crazy right. But I like for others to play with my hair or do it. The worst part about this is I love to do hair, hopefully...
I don't think people realise how many of us suffer with this issue. I feel quite upset because I related to this so much. I don't pull my face hair because I'm too vain. I pull my legs, arms and va-jayjay. Every day since I was 16. I just can't stop, everything about this rings true. I randomly googled what I do (10 years later might I add) and came here.
same with me..im disappointed if no bulb..so try again and pull, then i play with bulb in my fingers, eventually pulling it off. anothr thing i do...count how many hairs i can pull at once, causing me the most intense release of pent up stress..also if i have reason not to pull, like new date etc..overnight i pull and wake up...still pull hair but have not pulled eyelashes,and brows for 18 months, instead I look forward daily and care for lashes like a beaut new plant budding..wont pull them...
i don't chew on the bulb...but everything else i do. i pulled allll of my eyelashes out. it's embarrasing but i cannot stop...i don't even realize i do it...
I do the exact same thing, I stopped for a month but started again. I feel so ashamed and I hate talking about it. I don't know what to do anymore. I have been doing this for 7 years now. It's so heartbreaking knowing that you are doing this to yourself and you can't stop no matter how hard you try.
Thank you for sharing. I really enjoy your videos and honesty, and desire to help people. I don't' pick my hair out, or eyelashes, but I pick the edge of my left ear.
@Francesca5000 Two things I have done have really helped me and I'm curious if anyone else has done this. 1) I listed to hypnosis on youtube for "self confidence" Some how it boosts my belief in myself and gets rid of anxiety.
2) I fight the procrastinating feeling by making a list, focusing on one thing at a time and doing it. When my mind wonders to all the other stuff I say to myself, "nope I'm just doing this right now, I'll get to that after, I can only do one thing at a time. I'm doing this right now." Those two things have really reduced my problem.
I've never chewed on my hair or put it in my mouth, but I can completely relate to everything else you said. This is a wonderful video. I'm 31 and started pulling at age 16. It has only gotten worse over the years. :(
WOW! Im a 27 yr old male who pulls his eyelahses since about 18. I have never related to anbody as much as how you just described your condition. everything you said down to the "quality" of the lash and the "wet bulb" across your lips. Sometimes i feel so ugly when i see how swollen and red and bald my eyelids look. The thing is i've always been the "stud" or the "pretty boy" lady killer and i feel like i can never actually fill those shoes cuz of the insecurity i have with my lashes.
ah just amazing. i love your videos. i have trichotillomania and dermatillomania i make videos as well :) watching your videos helps me alot mabie mine will help someone as your do for me
I have been doing this since I was 9 years old. I don't have bald spots but I do have random fllyaways. I like to pull at the hairs attached to my roots, because it has a certain feeling that I enjoy. I curl the hair with my thumbnail and then I pull off the end. Then I drop it to the floor and let it pile. It sucks. But can't stop. Won't stop.
that wht happens to me,, but i dont put the root between my liips or anything.. i just keep removing it with my nails..
I have always had a beautiful hair that everyone was complementing me on.. but now.. my hair is so thin..with bald spots on it.. i started to lose my self esteem..
i really want to stop it ... but i cant.. and no one knows about this.. i keep saying to them that i lackk vitamins and keep on bringing lame excuses
@sweetangel34 It's okay! God will help you through this. Try going one, just ONE single day without pulling. Then two, then three, etc... Before you know it: It's gone!
gee what a nutcase. you shouldn't be on youtube, you should get your ass to a psych clinic. i mean in this fucked up modern life we all have some shit in some way or form. but when it gets too intense you should get yourself checked out into a facility.
You put it in such a beautiful words that i cannot describe it any better. This is exactly how i feel when i pull my hair. I've been living with trichotillomnia since i was 7 years old, now I'm 26 year old and I'm still struggling with the tension and the urge of yanking my own hair. It is so wonderful to know that there are many people have the same condition like me. It's a good feeling to know that i'm not alone.
I thought i was the only one who does this. I've been tryin to get my brows back for two months. Just when I was almost there I got caught up in a convo I didn't care for and I started pulling. First it was just one or two. Next thing I know half my brow is gone on one side. The middle of my brow gone on another. I've been doin it for years. Brows and lashes both.
I almost cried listening to your journal entry. I can't even be that honest with myself. For Example, when someone I don't know asks me about my hair, I say, "I pulled it out." And it stuns them for a second. "didn't it hurt?" They ask. "Nah." I respond. However, I also bite off the root, but I can barely admit it to myself. I fully accept the fact that I have trich, but I miss my long, brown, curly hair dearly. Although, I do rock the short hair if I do say so myself. Hahaha. please respond:]
it just shocks me how many people have this... i started when i was probably 10 or 11 & by the time i was 12-13 it progressively became worse... i thought of myself as a freak because i didnt think ANYONE else did it... it used to get so bad to where i had bald spots on my head & other would notice it. then i would pluck out my lashes/brows, sometimes til nothing was left. nearly 15 years later.. i still pull but not to the point of having bald spots. wish i knew what to do to stop/control it..
ive had tons of fits ive pulled out all my eyebrows 5 times and my eyelashes 7 and im doing it still today trying to stop though im only 16 and everytime i pull them it takes longer and longer for them to grow back.. its hard to live with cause everyone thinks your weird and no one likes you i went so far as to tell people i went to a laser eye sugry and the doctor misamied so all my eyelashes are gone.. its horable... dose anyone know how to stop?...
@meloco4jake Hey, i can tell you how i stopped. I heard it takes 3wks to retrain ur brain out of a habit.?? Put micropore tape around thumb & forefinger nails, day&night..stick with it..! Believe me, eventually ur hands wont want to automatically go and feel for the lashes etc that need to come out. Also, put ice pacs on area if you do pull. This takes away the urge, & get up and go for a walk. Good luck!
Ive had trich since i was in first grade it started with my eye lashes, then i moved to my hair in ninth grade im 20 now an i feel like i can stop, Ive tryed almost every thing i recently made a video today asking people out there what they have done to help them selves and things that i would might want to try, I dont chew on the bulb but i pick it off with my nails an roll it on my finger, i feel with every pull more stress has been released, I watched this and i felt like i was not alone
I dont have trich i have alopecia and i would rather have trich atleast you know whats causing your hairloss and know how bad it gets ik you dont want to pull it out but i dont get a chance to pull it out i can go completely bald any day im always going to have it it comes and goes but im 14 and im losing more hair everyday theres no cure and the "treatments" arent approved to be affective and so far they havent helped much.
I don't bite the bulb...but errything else was dead on...from the feeling when u pull to the rubbing the bulb against the lips. No one in my family knows my condition....i barely owned up to myself once i found out there was a name for my situation. this actually brought tears to my eyes that someone else actually understands what I go through. thanks for this vid...
I've got it and I thank God I have enough hair for two people so I can pull a ton of it w/out too much of my secret being let out. You articulate so well. Good job.
I kept my trich secret for six years, even from my family. I remember one night I sat on my bed crying as I pulled because I wanted so badly to stop, but I couldn't and I hated myself for it. Don't keep it secret. I finally came forward and talked to my Bishop at church and he was able to set me up with a psychologist. I still relapse sometimes when I am facing extreme stress, but I am doing so much better. I am no longer two people, I am me again.
im the same, completely agree with everything you said. my hair doesnt grow, when it does its all different lengths! this video somes up everything i do on a daily basis, although i wouldnt say i do it and am aware ( i am aware sometimes , but usually before i know it ave got some in my hand or im tugging ) i do find when im stressed or worried i do it more and find noticable bald patches that then make me hate myself and want to cover up!
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Omg i was pulling through this whole video i couldnt stop (i use my nails like tweezers to pull my eyelashes) and i got one(both my lids are bald and ugly i pull the stubby ones and u know how hair gets thicker when they come out, thats when i wanna pull em out) and when i went back for more i touched and it burned i guess i like scrached my lid but i have done this forever im 13 and i have been doing it for as long as i can remember
jnb1231 2 days ago
This describes me to a tee. Only I don't pluck my eyelashes. I started pulling my hair and plucking my eyebrows when I was 12. I stopped for a long time and now I'm picking it back up again. And its bad. I wish I could stop. :(
lizziestarship09 3 days ago
I know how u fell u wanna stop but I don't
ajawesome19 4 days ago
You are amazing hun.
ApocalypticZebra 5 days ago
I can relate; the only difference is that I pull the bulb of with my fingers. One thing I'm becoming more aware of when comparing my feelings towards trich with others' is that whilst I would like long hair, I don't feel specifically sad or angry at myself for pulling. Also the guilt I feel is more about the time I've wasted and what people would think about that. My feelings are never really about my hair; it's more of a strange sense of shame that I can't completely rationalise...
Samphie7 5 days ago
... Hair isn't that big a deal for me, neither is looking good, yet somehow I still feel that type of guilt and shame. I think my way of viewing hair etc. and the natural guilt and realisation that this sort of thing isn't 'normal' kind of cancel each other out to some extend, which is why my feelings on the subject are so hard to pinpoint -- and why I can never find motivation to stop.
Samphie7 5 days ago
Wow, to the T, i do the exact same thing with my facial hair, pull, examine, rub it on my lip, throw it away and on to the next one, looking for the sweet bulby one.. how do you deal with it??
I've thought about hypno to help me stop, what do you think?
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MyLittleLando 1 week ago
this video made me tear up. It makes my mom cry because she said i'm turning myself into a monster. my eye brows are patchy and thin. they used to be thick and dark. now it looks like i had an accident with a razor everyday. it's been a year and a half since I looked like myself.
JnnaXoXo 1 week ago
I have it to ive had it for 2 years since i was ten im 12 now I know how you feel every word
smiley121101 1 week ago
while watching this v. i cryed .... :"( every word .. its true :"( theres nothing i can do to stop nothing :( and i truly feel bad when my people say.. omg is she pulling her hair . i always wished i had long hair .. :( but how will my wish ever come true :""""(
uslut45 2 weeks ago 5
I am so surprised right now. I thought I was the only one who did that with the bulb.
katherynlily6 2 weeks ago
I have not pulled in 18 hrs. Doesn't sound like a big accomplishment, but considering I have never gone more than the length it takes for me to sleep, for 9 years, that is a lifetime!
alwayswas28 2 weeks ago
OMG....do I have this too? Everything you are saying I also do!!!! One day I spent 3 hours outside on my porch examining my hair and pulling out the bad ones and I do that with the bulb too!
KaileyZoe 2 weeks ago 2
I have had this since I was 8 I'm 15 thankfully I've only go for my eyelashes and "other" areas but when I was nine I pulled out all of my eyebrows I rarely do that now and I also pulled out a bald spot on my head when I was 10 because my dad punished me I have binges once in a while but I've managed to keep it under control
Pman6543 2 weeks ago
To have eyelashes is amazing but to see them on my fingertips one after another gives me a feeling that I cannot describe. Even now, as I sit here listening to you and watching your facial expressions, I rub my left thumb over the lashes of my left eye and search for the one that stands out, that stands alone. Even being conscious about doing it, I cannot stop and I can't help but cry. I wish to have a full set someday but it's hard to believe that even after 8 years, I'll be able to stop...
RebeccaDominate 2 weeks ago
@RebeccaDominate I have too been pulling since I was 13. I am 22 now. I still have faith that I will be able to overcome this someday! You should have that hope and faith too! I read last night that if you hold something in both hands while you watch TV, that should help. I am going to start trying this!
alwayswas28 2 weeks ago
You look high at the start...
123123imlovinit 3 weeks ago
This video freaks me out. It describes my condition, almost perfectly.
zadeh79 3 weeks ago
@zadeh79 I'm exactly the same way, minus the chewing on the bulb part. I am now 21 and have been pulling since I was about 13 and find it so hard to stop...
RebeccaDominate 2 weeks ago
i also pull my eye lashes and eye brows and i feel like a monster or freak but now that i know i am not the only one who has this problem. my friends think its weird and then it makes me feel ugly. You just made me feel not alone anymore. i started when i was only about in 2nd grade, now i am 14 and i stiil face the issue of not feeling beautiful, but finding others like me is a huge relief. i to, will post a video. you have inspired me. thank you.
MegaPurplejelly 3 weeks ago
This is a good way to think about it. I journal in my own diary about my pulling and my blog. I used to pull out my hair; sometimes I do still actually and it's weird that I didn't think about it in this way but you definitely hit exactly how I feel when I pull out my eyelashes.
You are definitely beautiful and I hope you are doing better :)
ybtolerant 3 weeks ago
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word by word! So true. And how to stop? That is the question. First the acceptance that i have this, second the will to stop, second, tell your closes friend to you don't feel alone, and third, seek help from a professional. It is like a drug, an addiction, a lack of self control. Becoming a slave of own self-destructive habit.
liliaqweqwe 4 weeks ago
word by word! So true. And how to stop? That is the question. First the acceptance that i have this, second the will to stop, second, tell your closes friend to you don't feel alone, and third, seek help from a professional. It is like a drug, an addiction, a lack of self control. Becoming a slave of own self-destructive habit.
liliaqweqwe 4 weeks ago
this made me cry, this is exactly what i do and you explained how it happens so well, its just so horrible that someone who doesn't suffer just cant seem to understand how your feeling. wish it would just go away.
Billie10023 4 weeks ago
i started when i was in fourth grade and im 25 now.. i do my hair..everyone around me thinks its alopecia bc i hide my pulling so well now...i wish i could stop but it is my normal..thanks for the video i wish i could be honest like that..
aeg7515 1 month ago
omg i am exactly the same.. except i pull my hair. i thought i was the only one that took the little white bit at the end off with my teeth & chewed it. this made me feel better ive been pullin since year 6 and im in year 10 (im 14)
ixlovexeminem 1 month ago
You are so lovely, clicked in just so, funny bunny, no more pulling!
theDoggydodo 1 month ago
Wow, this is basically the exact story of me... I've been pulling for about 4 years now... i've tried several strategies to try to stop pulling, but none have never worked... BUT, recently i've been tested for ADD and was tested positive, and i now take medicine for it... And guess what? I havent pulled in 2 months!!! Maybe i was pulling my hair because of lack of focus or a lack of attention? I think so because now that i take medicine for ADD, i all of a sudden dont pull my hair... YAY!!!!
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TrichManiaGurl 1 month ago
I only do it with my eyelashes and almost no one talks about that...
Most people only talk about hair ttm and it makes it even harder to believe you're not the only one... The worst part for me is when I stop for a few days and i feel that I'm cured, which will never be the case I guess..
cloudahead 1 month ago
How did you stop?
bakerbakesspacecakes 1 month ago
@bakerbakesspacecakes I dont think you can....
CoolChri444 1 month ago
@CoolChri444 I think you can figure out how to stop it from happening, but I believe the behaviour comes down to a biological level, which can lead it can reoccur. It's a phenomenon in behavioural psychology called instinctive drift, here meaning that hair pulling is instinctive for people with trich, so even with behaviour modification, counterbehaviours might show to drift back. I just hope I'm wrong about that because I have had trich for 10 years too!
TaciturnTambra 1 month ago
Everything you said, is exactly how I feel! We are not alone and glad we can share our feelings. Staying positive and surround yourself with positive influences helps make life a little easier. been pulling since i was 3, am now 13. Thanks for sharing! My mom makes headbands with real hair attached to them to help cover the bald spots or thin areas where i pull from. I feel more confident wearing them when i go to school, and you would never know it wasn,t my hair. staying positive!
gabzilla98 1 month ago
Cont.. and over again ta fill my pulling crave. at tha end my fingers are sore from constant pressing and pulling. i go ta school, insecure as ever, but feel displeased in a way that no one notices my hideocracry (if thats even a word) unless i ask if its noticeable. i look at everyone else ang their long noticeable gorgeous lashes wishing they were mine. i always try ta think "give it 2 weeks tops, you;ll look a little more normal" i feel like my mascara helps when i comb it on my lid everyday
starfirecrystal 1 month ago
ive pulled on my lashes since 7th grade, i dont know why i did but i only remember doing it. 9th grade i went tha entire yr not pulling them until mid 1oth gr. im a senior and at this very moment im lying here w/ nerve-recking dissatisfaction of lashless eyes. if i tug on them, even just a little, i wont stop pulling until theyre all gone watching myself do it while freaking out everytime one comes out. my lids are throbbing and tender. i wish i had an enless supply of lashes ta pull over
starfirecrystal 1 month ago
>.< **sighs** I related to every moment of this. The euphoria and the self-loathing all mixed into one... Thank you. I don't feel like such a freak.
XxBlaidxX 1 month ago
Thank you for this. Oh God, I'm not on my own. I feel so relieved.
RavingMuffins 1 month ago
In a nutshell, you just explained exactly what this is like. Thank you, it's good to know I'm not alone.
AndromedaHogsmeade 1 month ago
you are a beautiful writer and wonderfully brave, I just pulled my hair out and felt like shit, i no longer feel so alone though and I have you to thank for that! Thank you, James X
mfcomfortable 1 month ago
I do that exact same thing, down to the core.
I need help to stop, but I can't... /:
Kassidayann 1 month ago
That is exactly what I do and exactly how I feel. I've been so down about it lately. I hate the confrontation I get from people. They think that us trich sufferers can just stop.. It's not easy :(
kitkatkaff 1 month ago
thats what it used to be for me but now every time i do it i just get upset and that makes me pull my hair out even more :(
creaturefthenight2 1 month ago
Brings tears to my eyes how your eyes are so open and happy when the video starts then they darken and it seems you can see right through the pain/frustration. I have low-level trich so I at least understand the urge but to the extent others have to deal with this rather social taboo and the way they are treated is just so sad.
LuxxRegal 1 month ago
I want to like this video but it makes me want to pull on my eyebrows. Man....
PoetryRocksAlot 1 month ago
I pull from my scalp. Same feelings, except I bite the imperfect hair into smaller segments and drop it on the floor as if it's less noticeable that way.
DabneyLouise 1 month ago
it is embarrassing cos people don't understand when they see you with a bald patch.
nicijay77 1 month ago
I totally understand what you are talking about.. I don't put it anywhere near my mouth though. I just like to see it fall cos it relaxes me. It is translike. but I'm tired of it. I took up knitting to keep my hands busy.
nicijay77 1 month ago
I was exactly like you. I would pull till I had a bad headache.Thought I was the only person with this for 38 years. the searching for the perfect hair, rubbing the bulb on my lips. counting, and unable to stop. Mine went away at menopause and every since I have suffered with picking my skin until it hurts so bad i cant stand it. Just able to admit to myself and others I do this. I have NO control. I hate myself,
1zraver 1 month ago
Thanks for sharing, I've been hiding this from all my friends and family for 15yrs, I just told my mom (in tears) and your video and others like this makes it easier to understand this condition, I don't feel like I'm the only one
KDkatterr 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing, I dont feel so alone, I couldnt have described it better......
Crazy4him42 1 month ago
Thank you for making me feel like im not alone by sharing this (;
TheSparklyRainbow 1 month ago
thank you for posting this
Angelrie22 1 month ago
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I'm black and don't have trichotillomania but i was speechless after this video ..... it touched my heart ..... i don't f-ing know why but i started crying after the video ended. i sound kind o' stupid but IDK...
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Bright2666 1 month ago
cried while wathing this- it's an everyday struggle...thank you for making me feel less alone (:
awkwardthurs69 1 month ago
THX for telling us your story. It´s such a shame for me to have this disorder. It´s mostly a female disorder, but also guys do pull, like me. i almost lost my beard. if my beard hair becomes to long, play with my fingers in it until i find a nice curly one(a beard contains alot of curly ones) and pick it out- mostly on the left side, thats the reason I only can wear a Mustage- but since 1 week i startet to pull this region too.
KKKoes 1 month ago
Ur a very beautiful lady, and u talk very nice and have a beautiful mouth. I could probably listen to u talk all day long :).....(but not to be freaky or nothing, lol, it's more of compliment then anything else)
trudess203 1 month ago
how old are you?
ashargotafan13 2 months ago
i pulled so bad that i basically was completly bald in the form of a Mohawk at top that ran to the top of my crown. with the crown area being the worse
aknorris89 2 months ago
ive had it since i was 14. i am now 23. i dont pull as much as i used to at all. but i do catch myself sometimes. i really want to know how to repair my hair. where i used to pully hair oit on my head.... all those hairs have grown back frizzy thick and curly. its had 8yrs to repair itself. wat can i do... plz help.
aknorris89 2 months ago
I can defiantly relate. What you just said is exactly my story. I've been pulling put my hair since 12. I'm almost 20 now and still can't get enough. I love the feeling of pulling it out. It seems to get worse since I lost my father a few months ago. I don't want to tell anyone cause they'll think I'm a freak. I'm trying to help myself out on my own. But it just gets harder and harder!
MissyElectro0 2 months ago
It started off as a dare years ago and now I hardly have any eyelashes and sometimes no eyebrows. I only do it when I'm alone like before I go to sleep and twist them in my fingers and then realize what I did the next morning when I look in the mirror and I get mad at myself. People point it out and I'm tired of hearing it, it's embarrassing. I just wana stop. :/
goofnutbee 2 months ago
Here's my story. I was in 4th grade and i remember making a game out of pulling my
eyelashes out and collecting them on my desk at school. When I realized there was a bald spot where my eyelashes used to be, I stopped, but quickly turned to my hair on my head. Now I am left with bald spots on the side of my head and I can't stop pulling for the life of me. I really liked how you shared your story, because I can totally relate. You seem like such a sweet girl who doesn't deserve this, yet nobody
TheOneTreeHillObsess 2 months ago
I had tritch since I was10 nd I am now 18 it was very embarrassing for me to even walk outside my room :( I cnt even show my parents wen they ask how I'm progressing ( I pull from the top of my head) nd well I have a boyfriend nd he means the world to me so it was very difficult for me to show him but I did it anyways nd he accept me just how I am..I'm still trying to stop by cleaning around my house or cooking for my family but hopefully we all can have the strength to stop very soon..
monilovesx 2 months ago
The bit about the 'bulb' (root) at the end on the lips i knew others had trich just didnt relsie others did that too
Partysongswork 2 months ago
This happened to me when I was 12, I'm 14 now. I still continue to do this a bit from time to time. I did not know it was called trichotillomania. I'm still shocked.
ilovepiefyi 2 months ago
I like everything about this video. you are exactly like so many of us :D love.
princessandgoblin 2 months ago
I have bold spots in my top eye lashes, my bottom eye lashes are completely gone. I pull my eye brows until they are thin, with few hairs. My trich has gotten slightly worse and now I have very small bold spots all over my head... I want to stop but I can't and I don't want to at the same time
TeddyLuvsKitty 2 months ago
same here. i'm quite proud to say it's almost gone.
but know the feelig of the whole, you don't want to stop but you do. thank you.
TheAngstyWriter 2 months ago
This video describes everything about my habit, I just started prozac today. Hopefully I can be as positive and determined as you are/were.
xxcrazii8xx 2 months ago
i do trich too. since like 3th grade smh. sometimes i asked my self why do i do this? and sometimes i dont care either :(
Nadineeeable 2 months ago
omg this is exactly what i do. it sounds so weird when u actually say it. i hate it so much cuz its so embarrassing. but its just me.
sokissme800 2 months ago 18
Is there a cure? After years and years... The hair does not grow back. And you have to keep hiding the bald spot with black eyeliner and tons of hairspray. Is this living happily? Are you a survivor? Let me know how you did it, if you did. Thanks
montrealstars60 2 months ago
your gorgeous. i have trich. and cant stop no matter how hard i want to. but you give us all hope that one day we will all be beautiful again!
uhokstupid 2 months ago
omg that is exactley how i feel and right now i feel terrible and my self esteem is soo low. i wear fake eyelashes just to cover up, but i know that when i take them off i will be so dissapointed in myself.
yizzygirl121 2 months ago
I too am a trich survivor. I, for the most part, am completely done with it. I do have my moments, but only when I am beyond stressed. Thanks for sharing your story. Everything you said sounds exactly like how my life used to be.
sosweet921 2 months ago
I suffer from Trichotillomania, and have for the last three years. I constantly have to chop off my hair and make it shorter, and shorter. I hate it. I love knowing that I am not alone. I hope one day I can be a survivor.
shylafreshman 3 months ago
Wow. Watching this video, you hit it on the head.
Unfortunately, I'm not a survivor. I still suffer from Trich but I'm trying to find myself help and I got on Youtube thinking it was just going these people, you know, making fun of us talking about how gross or disgusting it is. After about an hour of looking I came across you!
Watching this definitely motivates me even even more, thank you so much for posting this.
gorefont 3 months ago
I feel the same way and so ashamed bcuz of it :( But that was a really accurate description. I started in 4th grade exactly three years ago on this day and am still doing it..................:'(
LIFELOVA100 3 months ago
Uhhhhhh, I feel your pain, but I feel like I'm different, I pull CLUMPS of hair, I twist and twist and play and tug until I get the satisfaction of pulled hair. I look at it and in 1 second I feel, proud I got so many, horrified that I pulled out 5 hairs in one pull, mortified that i was proud of how many I got then back to find more to tug in just the right spot
MelRackley 3 months ago
Thank you...I thought I was all alone with this. Please don't stop making these kinds of videos.
SnapeADoodle28 3 months ago
I wish you would make more videos. Obviously they help alot of us. You are very eloquent and when you describe issues it is like you know exactly what I want to say.
groovyday300 3 months ago
I don't think you have a big problem..unless you start on the pubs
jeffsemore 3 months ago
You have all ur brows and lashes. How?also, my fingertips hurt. Do urs?
shelleykevans 3 months ago
@shelleykevans my fingers hurt bad, yo. like where my nail digs into the pad of my thumb.
jjonestowne 3 months ago
Wow this really hit home. I started when I was nine & now I'm 38. Mostly pull eye lashes & brows. What an amazingly accurate description of what trich is. Thank you
chucktownanddown 3 months ago 14
Has anyone found that it interferes heavily with schoolwork? Im to the point now where Im behind in lecture or writing assignments because Im using my hands to pull my eyelashes out instead of following along...or I'll spend hours trying to write a paper and realize Ive only got a paragraph written because Ive been picking...BLAHHH!
tianacl 3 months ago
Gosh I can sure relate to this, especially the part about the time just going by, hours, and you don't even realize youve been picking your hair for hours. Thoroughly enjoying plucking, till you go to the mirror and feel disgusted because all of your eyelashes and eyebrows are gone. I wait and wait for them to grow back so I can feel pretty again, but just when I get a little bit of hair coming in, off it goes! #storyofmylife.
Has anyone found that it interferes heavily with schoolwork?
tianacl 3 months ago
hi ! I am so very impressed by your video..what a brave girl you are ! I am a tricher too...Just letting you know I am so proud of you for speaking out..with the light comes power.
SherylNahodil 3 months ago
DITTO! :0 :') Im not alone!
pictureNaVoice 3 months ago
Thats.excacly what i do i need help a bout the white bulb
juliaakalilsis 3 months ago
EXACTLY how I feel... I was nodding my head as you describe the pulling and slowed down when you described the feeling at the end when done pulling ):.... Almost 10 years that I have trich!!
xGlizelle 3 months ago
This is me too.. but I only pull from my head. I have bald spots all over and I hate it!!!
lokhnes 3 months ago in playlist Salud
this made me cry :(
I've had trich since I was 2 years old, so it's been 21 years now.
I've tried NAC, Inositol, Choline, No sugar, punishments, nothing's worked.
I think I may go see my GP to start an anti-depressant.
YOU are an inspiration Elle! Love your videos.
silentscreams1988 3 months ago
i love you sweetie...
i have had triche for over 20 years...
since the 1960's... is that 20 or 30 years...?
i don't know anymore...
charissamarluk 3 months ago
i feel exactly the same way except i pluck my leg hairs, armpit hairs, and pubic hairs. i dont know why i started i just had a pair of tweezers and thought 'hmm my mom makes me pluck her armpits, maybe it does feel good.' my mom also had a milder case of trichotillomania. i think i got it from her. i was around 10 when i started and im moving onto my 4th year. i even lied to my doctor about it when she asked. now i know im not totally alone
TinaSlash 3 months ago
Exactly how I feel too.
I love getting the coarse hair, in my mind I'm getting rid of the evil hair. I feel soooo guilty when I pluck out a normal straight hair.
portiaRULZ 3 months ago
Wow. Exactly the way I feel and think.
Nadaru84 3 months ago
That was just beautiful. You have a talent with words. I love when you said you love finding a crinkly imperfect hair.. so me!
KDAY628 4 months ago
I relate to the video from the beginning to the end. I'm 35 now...it has ups and downs since I was 13, last episode lasts for 3 years. no eyebrows and eyelashes at the moment...recently >I got the copy of "Brain Lock", by Jeffrey Schwartz, so I'll try the four steps method. I am quite desperate now, ashamed of others. luckily I got very skilled with makeup and I also wear glasses, so it camouflages me a bit. but I stil look unnatural.
anahita55 4 months ago
oh my god. this is me. im 15. and i suffer from anxiety and depression. i think i started to pull because of the anxiety. other things have happened along with low self esteem from pulling to push me down into a deep dark depression. yet... pulling makes me feel better. it lets out all the emotion and makes me feel better. i am glad im not alone. i really really am.
SparklesandThings100 4 months ago
thank you. thank you for your honesty. thank you for putting into words the emotions that i cannot seem to express. thank you for making me feel like i'm not alone. i am honestly saying this from the deepest, darkest depths of my heart...thank you.
12345678961546 4 months ago
You describe this so perfectly, and deliver it so lovely - I know exactly what you mean, I'm the same. But I love your description, somehow.
I wish I had money for hypnosis, and CBT, and N -Acetyl-Cycsteine, that helps a lot - this is meant to be a kind of OCD, and needs those amino acids. Also brain balancing techniques are meant to be good, if you're in the states look up a clinic. Startling results. I just wish I had the cash to do it all! Because will power's not the answer. Good luck!
sleepyjoness 4 months ago
I can relate to every single word you said, it´s like I actually wrote this my self. You are beautiful, stay positive <3
Elektrolove85 4 months ago
I didnt know I was suffering from this when i was 16. I thought I was the only odd one out. It went on for about year, and the patch was pretty big on the left hand side of my head. What I did was each time my fingers itch to pull, I put on some hair oil. Well not some, but a lot. It was pretty greasy since its oil and because of that I could resist the temptation. After that, my hair grew out and I never had any bald patches.
ihholistics 4 months ago
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I have the same disorder I just find it out today btw im 14 and I've been sufferin with trich for 4 years.. and its not easy people would randomly stare or talk behind your back worse no guy wants you and you have very few friends.. I've tried so many suicide attempts bec. of my condition. Actually i really want to get better but i cant. heelllpppp..! :((
14soccergurl 4 months ago
This made me cry. Ive had it since last year in 6th grade. It was so bad I had no eyebrows and people laughed at me and made fun of me. My friends tried to help me. Ive stopped pulling my eyebrows but, i still do my legs and arms. I need therapy but my mom doesnt have the money. My brother is bipolar and suicidual, and my dad is never home wat should i do?
PS to those who have it really bad remember-
You are beautiful
You are human
Even if you dont have hair
You have love
You have life
You ha
AuroraTheDragon 4 months ago
like others, you described what a pulling episode is like for me to the "t". minus the bititing the root part. the feelings that you described are identical to what i feel. i am crying. i want to stop. so, you're a survivor? how did you actually end up stopping?
nightowl1890 4 months ago
you just described everything i do and feel i have been doing it for 5 years now from age 10 to 15 and i hope i stop its horrible to sit in school and when you leave a class you see a huge pile of hair next to your chair i just want it to go away
jewelz2055 4 months ago
I had this problem starting in first grade and stopped in seventh grade, I think what really made me stop was being ashamed and trying to hide it (which was impossible as a boy with not so long hair) at school :-( but I guess everybody has their limits and own ways of stopping.
megadethfan06 4 months ago
I relate 100%
hersheykiss1001 4 months ago
Made me cry, I felt like this was about me. I'm going on 6 years now and I don't know how to stop
cameronclarence 4 months ago
I do the exact same thing T_T ( had trich since I was around 3 and now 13)
acidbunny247 4 months ago
"I munch on it a little bit, but I wouldn't say that I eat it... but I also definitely don't spit it out."
This was so wonderful
adelRX7 4 months ago
I'm black, from the Virgin Islands and have been pulling since I was 13. I'm 33 now. Paxil and Prozac have not stopped me from doing it. I really wish there was something we can do to stop this.
pblinky26 4 months ago
....I can be a surviver too someday!!! Its going on 8 years for me
sweets2nite1 4 months ago
I am an african american female and I tend to pull the middle of my hair out. You took the exact words our of my hair when you mention a thin and straight piece is a waste so so so true. I like to pile weave and glue unto my hair so its kinda difficult to get to my scalp. That usually works for about 4/5 days. I even enjoy when my daughter pulls my hair :( I know crazy right. But I like for others to play with my hair or do it. The worst part about this is I love to do hair, hopefully...
sweets2nite1 4 months ago
<3
2014koolcat 4 months ago
I don't think people realise how many of us suffer with this issue. I feel quite upset because I related to this so much. I don't pull my face hair because I'm too vain. I pull my legs, arms and va-jayjay. Every day since I was 16. I just can't stop, everything about this rings true. I randomly googled what I do (10 years later might I add) and came here.
lozontoast 5 months ago
same with me..im disappointed if no bulb..so try again and pull, then i play with bulb in my fingers, eventually pulling it off. anothr thing i do...count how many hairs i can pull at once, causing me the most intense release of pent up stress..also if i have reason not to pull, like new date etc..overnight i pull and wake up...still pull hair but have not pulled eyelashes,and brows for 18 months, instead I look forward daily and care for lashes like a beaut new plant budding..wont pull them...
michellejpenny 5 months ago
I don't chew or pull on the bulb, but I can relate to this video a lot.
georgiewsings 5 months ago
I have exactly the same!! Exactly the same. But, I pull from the scalp :S
DarkAngelScorpio 5 months ago
that just made me cry, that poem was is me
26emmac 5 months ago
i don't chew on the bulb...but everything else i do. i pulled allll of my eyelashes out. it's embarrasing but i cannot stop...i don't even realize i do it...
missrindasue123 5 months ago
I do the exact same thing, I stopped for a month but started again. I feel so ashamed and I hate talking about it. I don't know what to do anymore. I have been doing this for 7 years now. It's so heartbreaking knowing that you are doing this to yourself and you can't stop no matter how hard you try.
superskyerocket1 5 months ago
Thank you for sharing. I really enjoy your videos and honesty, and desire to help people. I don't' pick my hair out, or eyelashes, but I pick the edge of my left ear.
Francesca5000 5 months ago
@Francesca5000 Two things I have done have really helped me and I'm curious if anyone else has done this. 1) I listed to hypnosis on youtube for "self confidence" Some how it boosts my belief in myself and gets rid of anxiety.
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2) I fight the procrastinating feeling by making a list, focusing on one thing at a time and doing it. When my mind wonders to all the other stuff I say to myself, "nope I'm just doing this right now, I'll get to that after, I can only do one thing at a time. I'm doing this right now." Those two things have really reduced my problem.
Francesca5000 5 months ago
I've never chewed on my hair or put it in my mouth, but I can completely relate to everything else you said. This is a wonderful video. I'm 31 and started pulling at age 16. It has only gotten worse over the years. :(
VioletKB 5 months ago
WOW! Im a 27 yr old male who pulls his eyelahses since about 18. I have never related to anbody as much as how you just described your condition. everything you said down to the "quality" of the lash and the "wet bulb" across your lips. Sometimes i feel so ugly when i see how swollen and red and bald my eyelids look. The thing is i've always been the "stud" or the "pretty boy" lady killer and i feel like i can never actually fill those shoes cuz of the insecurity i have with my lashes.
szubanator 5 months ago
ah just amazing. i love your videos. i have trichotillomania and dermatillomania i make videos as well :) watching your videos helps me alot mabie mine will help someone as your do for me
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BeautyTrichBEL 5 months ago
I have been doing this since I was 9 years old. I don't have bald spots but I do have random fllyaways. I like to pull at the hairs attached to my roots, because it has a certain feeling that I enjoy. I curl the hair with my thumbnail and then I pull off the end. Then I drop it to the floor and let it pile. It sucks. But can't stop. Won't stop.
mandygurl2341 5 months ago
Dr1345... I kinda wanna punch ur teeth into ur brain ... just saying u ignorant shithead
ragedoutfemale 5 months ago
Damn. I got tears... totally relate :/ not yet a survivor tho. Been going strong for 20 years
ragedoutfemale 5 months ago
oh my god i am in tears, i could not have described it more perfectly, glad to know i am not alone.
ThePrettyinpunk13 6 months ago
Wow, I do all of that. I've just realised I have Trichotillomania.
MissZorphia 6 months ago
that wht happens to me,, but i dont put the root between my liips or anything.. i just keep removing it with my nails..
I have always had a beautiful hair that everyone was complementing me on.. but now.. my hair is so thin..with bald spots on it.. i started to lose my self esteem..
i really want to stop it ... but i cant.. and no one knows about this.. i keep saying to them that i lackk vitamins and keep on bringing lame excuses
sweetangel34 6 months ago 5
@sweetangel34 It's okay! God will help you through this. Try going one, just ONE single day without pulling. Then two, then three, etc... Before you know it: It's gone!
HayHay163 4 months ago
@sweetangel34 u can stop! u just need to be strong and believe in yourself!u can do it girl! :D
Jemi4everinlove 4 months ago
gee what a nutcase. you shouldn't be on youtube, you should get your ass to a psych clinic. i mean in this fucked up modern life we all have some shit in some way or form. but when it gets too intense you should get yourself checked out into a facility.
dr1345 6 months ago
@dr1345 are you serious? a nutcase? shouldn't be on youtube? you are so ignorant, it's not even funny. gtfo.
it's just Dandy to know that people think we're nutcases.
Zlovesyouu 6 months ago
@dr1345 if she wasn't on youtube right now, then all of these people wouldn't find someone they can relate too.....
WildStephanieAppears 6 months ago
You put it in such a beautiful words that i cannot describe it any better. This is exactly how i feel when i pull my hair. I've been living with trichotillomnia since i was 7 years old, now I'm 26 year old and I'm still struggling with the tension and the urge of yanking my own hair. It is so wonderful to know that there are many people have the same condition like me. It's a good feeling to know that i'm not alone.
sophdiary 6 months ago
I thought i was the only one who does this. I've been tryin to get my brows back for two months. Just when I was almost there I got caught up in a convo I didn't care for and I started pulling. First it was just one or two. Next thing I know half my brow is gone on one side. The middle of my brow gone on another. I've been doin it for years. Brows and lashes both.
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i pull from my head, eyebrows, and eyelashes. i have to wear a hat in school. when i heard this, i dont feel alone anymore.
swimgeek716 6 months ago
i pull from my head, eyebrows, and eyelashes. i have to wear a hat in school. when i heard this, i dont feel alone anymore.
swimgeek716 6 months ago
I almost cried listening to your journal entry. I can't even be that honest with myself. For Example, when someone I don't know asks me about my hair, I say, "I pulled it out." And it stuns them for a second. "didn't it hurt?" They ask. "Nah." I respond. However, I also bite off the root, but I can barely admit it to myself. I fully accept the fact that I have trich, but I miss my long, brown, curly hair dearly. Although, I do rock the short hair if I do say so myself. Hahaha. please respond:]
JesTheTrichyMess 6 months ago
wonderful moving video!!! I love it, as if it is poetry :)
sabbysigns 6 months ago
it just shocks me how many people have this... i started when i was probably 10 or 11 & by the time i was 12-13 it progressively became worse... i thought of myself as a freak because i didnt think ANYONE else did it... it used to get so bad to where i had bald spots on my head & other would notice it. then i would pluck out my lashes/brows, sometimes til nothing was left. nearly 15 years later.. i still pull but not to the point of having bald spots. wish i knew what to do to stop/control it..
cherri1021 6 months ago
ive had tons of fits ive pulled out all my eyebrows 5 times and my eyelashes 7 and im doing it still today trying to stop though im only 16 and everytime i pull them it takes longer and longer for them to grow back.. its hard to live with cause everyone thinks your weird and no one likes you i went so far as to tell people i went to a laser eye sugry and the doctor misamied so all my eyelashes are gone.. its horable... dose anyone know how to stop?...
meloco4jake 6 months ago
@meloco4jake Hey, i can tell you how i stopped. I heard it takes 3wks to retrain ur brain out of a habit.?? Put micropore tape around thumb & forefinger nails, day&night..stick with it..! Believe me, eventually ur hands wont want to automatically go and feel for the lashes etc that need to come out. Also, put ice pacs on area if you do pull. This takes away the urge, & get up and go for a walk. Good luck!
michellejpenny 4 months ago
It's SO wonderful to know I'm not alone! Words cannot express the feeling, just to know <3
SalemInsomniac 6 months ago
This made me cry with how accurate it was. I don't chew on the bulb but I love to touch it and play around with it using my fingers.
xMandaBearrrrx3 6 months ago
stay strong and have faith, i'm praying for ya and going through the same things. you can do it :D
veryberrymary30 6 months ago
* I feel like i cant stop... i meant
kitsunewolf16 6 months ago
Ive had trich since i was in first grade it started with my eye lashes, then i moved to my hair in ninth grade im 20 now an i feel like i can stop, Ive tryed almost every thing i recently made a video today asking people out there what they have done to help them selves and things that i would might want to try, I dont chew on the bulb but i pick it off with my nails an roll it on my finger, i feel with every pull more stress has been released, I watched this and i felt like i was not alone
kitsunewolf16 6 months ago
I dont have trich i have alopecia and i would rather have trich atleast you know whats causing your hairloss and know how bad it gets ik you dont want to pull it out but i dont get a chance to pull it out i can go completely bald any day im always going to have it it comes and goes but im 14 and im losing more hair everyday theres no cure and the "treatments" arent approved to be affective and so far they havent helped much.
KiwiKT21 6 months ago
I don't bite the bulb...but errything else was dead on...from the feeling when u pull to the rubbing the bulb against the lips. No one in my family knows my condition....i barely owned up to myself once i found out there was a name for my situation. this actually brought tears to my eyes that someone else actually understands what I go through. thanks for this vid...
newdiva1 6 months ago
I've got it and I thank God I have enough hair for two people so I can pull a ton of it w/out too much of my secret being let out. You articulate so well. Good job.
buginyourear 6 months ago
Help!
Teren304 6 months ago
I kept my trich secret for six years, even from my family. I remember one night I sat on my bed crying as I pulled because I wanted so badly to stop, but I couldn't and I hated myself for it. Don't keep it secret. I finally came forward and talked to my Bishop at church and he was able to set me up with a psychologist. I still relapse sometimes when I am facing extreme stress, but I am doing so much better. I am no longer two people, I am me again.
babymackay 7 months ago
that made me tear up watching.. because I feel the exact same way :(
SupremeSisters 7 months ago 10