8. Why Bipolar People Commit Suicide

[Rakshasura]

Medications are methods of extorting your life force from you (both in soul, body, and money).  They are meant to reprogram the body, mind, and consciousness into being docile and compliant to leaders and cults and a direct violation of human rights and law.

[SSJkiller]

"You are killing me.... you are bush."

Must've been a very intelligent guy...

[daniel11972]

this video is very positive for people like myself who has bipolar,

[bipolarorwakingup]

@daniel11972 Thank you man. Merry Christmas!

[marilynlives]

truthandhealingbliss.blogspot.­com

[marilynlives]

I was labelled bipolar/manic depressive 91 please read my blog. I healed my self with Mantra and Meditation I have been free from medication for over 15 years now xx

[blinkinglightbeacon]

@marilynlives I'm happy you have found what works for you and you are happy with your decision. Medication works for me (I also quit recreational drugs). Why would I change anything? I finally have stabilized and have a great life. I'm happily married, I have friends, a lovely home, I love my work and I still feel a deep connection to the universe. I don't want to risk losing that, why would I?

[blinkinglightbeacon]

I was diagnosed bipolar when I was 25 but was suicidal for as long as I remember, since I was a toddler, long before any labels. It's that way for a lot of suicidal people. When I made an attempt it was over humiliation about what I did when I was "manic." To get through it I had to become a person I liked and to do that, I personally can't go there. For me it's is like an electrical current running through my body, like getting plugged in to a socket. I can't control it myself.

[marilynlives]

@blinkinglightbeacon truthandhealingbliss.blogspot.­com/

[fantabulousK]

Doing things without people watching me, without a crowd of other people there felt wrong, a bra felt weird, jeans felt weird. When my mother came to get me, I was laying on my stomach on the floor colouring a dump truck with crayons in my pajamas, and told her we couldn't leave yet because it was pizza day. That place fucks you up and spits you out. I think it's just their way of making sure you end up right back in there. Like jail.

[fantabulousK]

They wouldn't let me wear a bra, they watched me shave, I wasn't even allowed to poop with privacy. One of the pills they made me take didn't agree with me, so I was on the toilet for an hour, and a nurse sat in my room and opened the door every five minutes and looked in on me. I'm not bi-polar, I have BPD, but that place ruined me. I was helpless when I got out. An un-maintainable routine burnt itself into my head, bedtimes, med-times, meal times. And I was afraid to cook or work.

[fantabulousK]

5 years ago I tried to kill myself. I was certified almost immediately, thrown in there, I decided the best thing would be if I didn't speak or show emotion. They told me if I didn't speak they'd write that I had trouble showing emotions and that I was un-cooperative. So I started talking and showing feelings. A day later I was bawling my eyes out over the fact that I was locked up, and they wrote down that I was out of control and over-emotional which gave them the right to keep me longer.

[EarthElla]

Thank you very much for sharing this video...

It is good to know your not alone.

[eqivideos]

If you haven't seen this website about depression and suicide, please have a close look.

eqi.org

And look up this book "Letters from the Unloved"

It supports what is said in this video.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@eqivideos Thank you, I will!

[fantabulousK]

@GwenT42 BEHEADED?!?!?!

[acbulgin2]

Bipolar Mood Disorder, as it is defined, could be a brain disease AND a spiritual transformation at the same time, depending upon how you define either of those things. I do not think a real spiritual transformation can be stopped easily by human intervention, and most of the famous awakenings were characterized by great struggle and hardship, e.g., those of Siddhartha, St. Francis of Assisi, Mahatma Gandhi &c. There is no stable, true self either, in my view at least. It always changes.

[casablanca4381]

my celexa is a life saver:) wow!

[casablanca4381]

i have unipolar depression but wanted to commit suicide because ex satanist told me i was going to hell because of my religion and i am of a christian faith:(

[shanem1987able]

@bipolarorwakingup Thanks buddy. Sometimes I forget that Im not alone and it gets the best of me.

Thanks for the good advice.

[IwasaBushfan]

Great video

[IwasaBushfan]

Haha

[Mr123javen]

No one has sins. There is no such thing as spiritual sufferings.Just accept every present moment and let life lives by itself. Bipolar disorder will disappears.

[1992trueman]

@Mr123javen agreed

[dahman511]

it all comes down to lack of sleep case closed. bipolar is fack.

[tiffanychapel]

Perhaps only the deliverance by God power can lessen the longlasting pain.

[tobie1]

thanks for this vid, i dont feel like im the only one.

[SuperSpike1313]

You are seriously delusional.You think because you read a few books that you know more than thousands of doctors who have studied this for years in clinical situations.You are more dangerous to people with bipolar disorder than any medications they could possibly take. I wonder how many people have committed suicide because you have deluded them into thinking they don't need their medications.You are a charlatan of the worst kind.I hope you get some real help soon before you cause more damage.

[Jonsuenam]

Great video, thanx

[KickinShadows]

Part of me feels liberated after watching this video, as the tears I shed are shards of my spirit longing to be freed from the statuesque person in which this institution has molded me. If I were to write A book or in A diary, accounting this path, this desolate journey, your name would be mentioned as one who redeems. Thank you for all that you do, for all of us whose lifes you have touched.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@KickinShadows After 5 years online, I sort of skim through the comments, but yours here was really touching. Thank you. Sean

[MrsJessicaRabid]

@KickinShadows Yeah... I'm severly bipolar and have been through a lot of crap because of it BUT at least I'm not still in the melodrama.. like you appear to be. Step out of that and it's not quite so hard.

[christinahale14]

Anyway with everything done and said. I hope and pray that things get better for you as well as for myself.. Take care..

[christinahale14]

Why so sarcastic? Could it be that you feel that everyone has failed you even the so called professionals. You will find that people in genral don't want to hand out with or talk to a person who is pesemistic for too long. They just don't. They get tired of hearing the same suicidal crap all day long and dont' want to deal with it. Could it be that we must make a choice in our lives to stay positive and wake up everday.

[christinahale14]

I have been violent. when I get angry it's for no reason at all. I have broken everything in the house that was not nailed down. When I am depressed I stay in my dark room and think that there is nothing left for me in life. I want help and went to a counselor and told her that I cut myself so I wont' have to feel the other pain and it seems to help but she said I was normal that she couldn't tell me not to cut myself. I don't agree on the anger becuase I have experienced the anger for no reason

[MrAUFANATIC]

My mood changes like every hour. I dont know what this could be but i feel bad all the time, and sometimes I wish, why am I on earth, why not kill myself and get it over with?

[adamisking666]

@MrAUFANATIC i feel the same like u

[MrAUFANATIC]

@adamisking666 Mentally ill is such a bitch

[AkathisiA101]

Thank you ! I hate those drugs and pschyiatry !

[Eggmelia68]

I agree with everything you have to say in all of your videos. I have bipolar 1 and relate to everything you say. I'm still learning from you. Soaking it all in.

[hross233]

if it is the system then why is it before you enter the system or touched by it that you build your own angry world, it is in touching the reality it sets it up a few notches only b/c then you have to deal with it b/c in your private world your swirling in your own goo fooling yourself ur alright when ur not. If left to ur own demise w/o help u fool urself ur o.k., perhaps a planet of ur own would help but then u have 2 deal w/others there too.

[letherit77]

scary times

[deirdreofthesorrows]

Too many people are lost to this and other mental health illness' because of lack of support / understanding. I hope your videos reach some of those people .

[bipolarorwakingup]

@deirdreofthesorrows Thanks, I hope they keep reaching lots of people to. I get about 800 views a day.

[deirdreofthesorrows]

@bipolarorwakingup thats really Good, ill pass on these videos to a few friends with similar problems, they all know im a coot anyway :P Ireland unfortunately progress's slow in any health/therapy field

[jesszzsszz]

When you want to die and you have bipolar its because you just want the racing and the confusion to stop! Bipolar comes in many different forms, I have the mood swings and intense anxiety, but the worst thing about bipolar for me is the confusion, i can change my mind a dozen times a day. I get tension headaches because i think so hard. I would love to leave the planet tomorrow, but i cant do that to my family, so i carry on.....

[bipolarorwakingup]

@supervanscott You have a point that I admittedly don't emphasize enough in the video, but the points that I do mention are completely ignored in our medicalized society. Psychiatry and our society's treatment of the mentally ill lead to many more suicides than people are led to believe.

[MrDSharpest]

BPD 4 LYFE

[cozmicgravy]

Thank you. I have bi-polar 1. I can't agree with you more.

Dave

[jira40]

im bipolar and this is a completely different experience....i typed in here a few not so nice things to say but thought i would try and hold my tongue but only for practice. these "new light beings".....hmm.....again, i will save it

[Fraterculae]

the facts of modern life are that just about everyone wants to feel physically, mentally and emotionally, spiritually free .. but society requires many people to do nasty jobs.. live in nasty places etc .. mental illness is part of that conflict. Police and doctors try to make you conform .. that's just how societies work. Many people would rather kill themselves than work in coal mines/ chemical factories etc .. Bipolar is often fight between inner liberation and external compulsion...

[OFFDERSS089]

the normal people have the same reason. Ive been sucidal because of those reasons

[CodeV114]

Great vid.

[NinetiesYouth]

so I guess residual schizophrenics are not spiritually significant

[TheDeadBeatPoet]

can totally relate...

[vicktrimethylene]

YOUR FUCKING WITH EVOLUTIOn!!1

[katbeyersroxx]

sometime i burst out with anger lol

[81stReich]

3:09 Lol You're fucking with EVOLUTION!!!

[zILAAA]

She's in rage because your "Fucking with evolution" HAHAHA, that totally pulled me outta depressive episode hahahahahahahaha

[vishaltrishul]

We spend to much time worrying or compiting with others, we r unique living beings that have different speeds in life. We should not be in a race except the one personal effort to identify with the soul and walk through life with detachment.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@vishaltrishul Sounds good to me. Keep up those mantras! :D

[Lisaserene1]

i think i just got thru the suicide...just cut some.

[willywunu]

i passed it but it still around my head! i wish i never wake up after sleep. i stuck with this bipolar, not yet free my spirit! how must i do? what should i do?

[SummerRain101]

My father was bipolar and he had schizophrenia. He killed himself and I think this video explains perfectly how he felt. I wish there was more I could've done.

[Nouri8885]

I feel angry when i haven't looked after myself properly, I think when we deny ourselves sleep or healthy food, or someone disrespects us, then we feel angry, and we take it out on people or on ourselves, the way to feel at peace is to eat healthy food, sleep good sleep, be good to ourselves and do good things

[123perrin]

mate, i ask you this (seriously). when u say 'spiritual', are you actually referring to religion? because i see a difference in the two. but you seem to be leaning/referring to it in a religious sense. im looking for help to cope with my bipolar, but im not religious. and it disheartens me when you keep using the word spiritual. have you considered there may be many, many ppl out there with no spiritual beliefs that are looking for help? cheers, peace.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@123perrin I have no religion. My research indicates that everyone who heals accepts the 'reality' of their own spiritual experiences. They see them as valid and meaningful. An atheistic perspective denies the spiritual aspect of the experience, whatever it is, because, from that perspective, a spiritual experience must be madness, as there is no God. To heal, people accept their experience as difficult, but somehow important and who the courage to work through it. That requires great FAITH.

[scabycat]

@123perrin Becoming the " OBSERVER" of ur own mind is the key to mental illness. Dicipline over the mind is what u need when observing what ur thoughts actually R. I have suffered depression my whole life. Mental illness is largely ur mind becoming out of control. U must become the STRONGER presence. U can overcome this urself by taking control of ur thoughts. ask urself whatever ur thinking - is this a good thought to think? if not , put it out of ur mind . keep practicing this always

[123perrin]

@scabycat while i agree mostly with u when concerning depression (although at times it simlpy doesnt work) when one becomes so depressed, they may no longer have normal thought patterns ie; ''is this thought a good thought?''. the ability to ''step outside the circle and look inwards at ones self'' can become non existent. i use a variety of methods to deal with my depression depending on the situation. ur well meaning advice being just one of them.

[scabycat]

@123perrin Further to my 1st reply- have u ever taken fish oil ? ( not cod kiver oil ) There has been much research lately about the benefits of fish oil - even on the MOST SEVERE forms of depression where conventional drugs have had no effect. Some of the results have been truly astonishing !! Did u know for eg that countries that statistically eat a lot of fish ( like Japan) have the lowest incidence of depression? I have been able to stop my prozac for 12 months now and take fish oils.

[jaeou812]

I think we must offer up our suffering in this world to God, for He suffered on the cross for our sins in order to give us the hope of eternal life!!!

[123perrin]

@jaeou812 err, right.. O.o

[jaeou812]

Primal defense / warning = fight or flight...

Other dimension: see the "Big Book" of AA and the term, "rocketed into a fourth dimension."

ALL people get angry & aggressive, and many contemplate suicide at one time or another...are humans feel, we are spiritual beings, there is a ghost in the machine. Science and medicine need to address the holistic healing of the whole person: the mind, body and the soul. Doctors need to give cognitive therapy as much as meds, in my humble opinion.

[JonB20]

So am I Alison, so am I

[nikiwonoto]

it is so sad to see how majority of people, and even the so-called psychiatric "experts" still can't, and worse, DON'T want to understand the *OTHER* perspective from these so-called Bipolar people, of *WHY* are they feeling like that.

Just that simple question alone would perhaps CHANGED many, many levels of society & its problems of being close-minded one!

But no, most people would probably be happy enough to live in this phrase

"Ignorance is bliss".

How terribly sad is that..

[nikiwonoto]

@nikiwonoto also, the more I researched this, the more I've realized that this might have a much much deeper connection & relation with being an Indigo children, and also of an MBTI Personality Type called "INFP" types.

try to do some google research on these two terms, and you might be surprised at your findings!

[nikiwonoto]

@nikiwonoto We (the bipolar, indigo, etc) might really be the ones who are closer to the TRUTH, than these 'machines' people & society who just numbingly follow their brainwashing system!

Indeed, we need to band together, and create a HUGE, immense forces.

Perhaps it is this rise of 'New Light Beings' , that all these spiritual predictions are talking about when they have made the prediction of the shifting to a 'New Earth' after year 2012!

It all might have more connections than we think!

[123perrin]

@nikiwonoto sorry mate, 2012 aint nothin but bs. just like all the other 'end of the world' predictions, well' still be login on to utube come 2013. cheers.

[stupidtreehugger]

@123perrin 2012 is from the Mayan Calendar. That's as much of it as they wrote out, a convenient place to stop, the beginning of the change back towards the light according to them, the end of the Egyptian age of Amun/Amen to others, but nothing about any end of the world. IMHO the end of the world stuff is the echo of the fall from childhood grace / the cataclysm of the last ice age. Peace and Love to you.

[123perrin]

@stupidtreehugger , yea i should have said ''2012 from the mayans''. ive looked into it, thats why i find it such a laughable subject. the end of the worllllllld! thing lol xD. anyways, cheers =)

[miro995]

@123perrin Something might happen, and something may not happen who knows. But I dont think the end of the world is gonna happen though, lol. Who knows maybe at 2012 we finally meet the aliens without them cloaking. :P

[impartialbystander02]

i've watched a few of your vids,but this is the first time i've come across this one.They always seem to come at the right time.I have suicidal ideations atm,and this comes from feeling that my soul has been wrenched from me.I am emotionless and have no connection with people,and this is even harder after experiencing mania and the oneness and immense feeling of love that goes with it for everyone.I feel like a spirtual vacuum now,and just exist in a void of emptiness.This vid has helped tho.thx

[bipolarorwakingup]

@impartialbystander02 Your welcome man. I'll have a social networking site opening in a few months, maybe that will help you find some connection. In the meantime, newlightbeings is a good site as well.

[MissPandora1967]

@impartialbystander02 you're not alone in this believe me..I've been where you're at many many times.

.I've only been diagnosed 3yrs on my 40th B'day,, but it's been part of me 30yrs for sure,episodes of hypomania can range from sheer ecstacy ,to total fear,everything sounding very loud ,10x faster etc, Then the come down, yep Hmm ,

I know that chronic stress IS my trigger ,taking time for ME+not feeling guilty about saying NO to ppl too has empowerd me, I wish you strength+love Sophie X;)

[bipolarorwakingup]

@rubintax Keep watching, maybe I'll change your mind!

[sdsdsd1222]

lol You're fuckin with evolution. I love your vids.

[yogiprasanna]

bipolar disorder is just an example of how extreme state can our mind function. I wish not to be in the line of many who suffer. But I am a part of this bigger world where I can extend my arms and give a hug for those experience in their life .

[bipolarorwakingup]

@yogiprasanna The healing literally starts with love. Your hugs will heal people.

[replytoomyass]

@bipolarorwakingup I know right, i used to get love all the time. Then one day my bipolar got the best of me and I had bit of a public meltdown. I left my school for a year because of the embarassment and I came back a year later, now I don't get the love anymore.

[omgthazjulie]

i take herbal medication (1000 mg per) they don't work. 5:11 that's my yearbook pictureXD

[SCUBONZIES]

because people are nasty , mean , better than you , that the world nature it suck's

[christl301]

Love your videos, I have bipolar type 1 and agree with your view of "Spiritual awakening" I train in a martial art called Kendo and feel this is a release, I view most things in a spiritual way.

[Lizzieloco2]

You totally expressed how I feel. Like venushalley said I too find it insulting when someone tells me that there is something wrong with my brain. And I hate it when someone tells me to take my medication, I feel like they making fun of me, because I have to take something to be considered "normal". When I take my medication I only feel more angry because I know that I'm not being myself.

[venushalley]

... the people who are on meds often are unable to live their lifes... Not many people understood my fear of getting screwed up... I like to believe that it's in my power to help myself, not that I need a magic pill to make me human.

[venushalley]

Oh my. You expressed how I feel. I found it always insulting to be told there is something wrong with my brain. I consider myself a highly intelligent person, I managed to earn a Uni degree and learn several foreign languages... I consider myself creative, my friends tell me I have "eye for things". And you tell me my brain is wrong and needs to be doped with chemistry to make me normal? What is normal anyways? I manage to live my life, even if I sometimes feel sad....

[bipolarorwakingup]

@venushalley It´s how a lot of people feel. There is nothing wrong with your brain, but your emotions and spiritual side could use some love, understanding and a lot of support.

[marvelous211]

@venushalley It's what society or the system finds normal not what you find normal. So if you cussed out your teenage peers because they made you angry you are bipolar according to psychiatrists.

[Goetia78]

The ending reminds me of what Ram Dass talks about...the awful grace of God.

[pickasomangoes]

love your images/paintings in yr vids-great stuff

[RapidCycling07]

If you are a prophet and are here on a mission, please continue to do the good work that you are doing. Good intelligent people like you have a power that can do immense good or immense evil. I say this because you have the power to connect with our spirits and influence us. You are an inspiration. I however believe that you are not evil. Keep up the good work buddy.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@RapidCycling07 I think I steer clear of evil for the most part, but I still have a bad day here and there!

[RapidCycling07]

Are you like a Prophet or something? I feel as though you are a guardian. Kind of like a guardian angel. You are here to save lives. Thank you. I know that I can count on you to provide quality information and support.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@RapidCycling07 That's sweet. If I'm a prophet, its only to introduce YOU to YOU!

[pimaggot]

This helps alot in understanding those with bipolar.

[HanorahDuggan]

Deeply moving!

[DaneVincentVid]

You are bang on bipolarorwakingup... I don't what I would have done without this youtube page... X

[bipolarorwakingup]

Good luck man...keep the faith....

[manicbuyer]

Thank you for sharing your experiences and journey. It's important for so many reasons. I respect Dr.'s educations and knowledge but I'll never again hand over the power to another to decide if I'm ok or not, They don't have all the answers and truthfully, they have their fair share of nuts in their profession too. That woman's suicide note made me cry, it was so authentic. I'm glad she's ok.

[fetalbetal]

Why do people believe in life after death? Is death really so scary? I have bipolar and I don't believe in spirituality or the meds.. A lot of this video reminds me of worse times, when I look for people that agree with me I realize how alone I am but it's just a small world filled with insignificant people, we are a virus.. not just the mentally ill, all people.

[iamnotinsane78]

i dont have hallucinations, how dare they gave me drugs that causing me drag my legs like insane one just coz i refused to eat... coz i feel infinite hopelessness... yet may be they will accused me with selfish, etc... just coz i complain how they treat me like insane one..., infinite hopelessness definitely... may be it is just a way not to be a burden anymore...

[joaoantoniodebarros]

I give more examples:

my friend pass away when see blood. My uncle wake up at 5 am, is in home 8 pm, take two hours to come and go to the job in a crowded bus at 45o C and always looks pissed. A seventy years old batshit crazy women used to be a devoted catholic when she was raped twice same year; one of the agressors repetead "god is not here". Goth boy live in oblivion in a sunny town with beaches. Atheist boy is always fucking furious in a christian family.

Just food for thought.

[botchbud]

The illness definitely is physical. There's no doubt about that. But I definitely concur that the way people are treated, not only within those hospitals but even in every day society, is far too coldly, and that definitely makes things worse for us all. I also can't help but say that most medical treatments for mental disorders are primitive.

[joaoantoniodebarros]

Would you mind to send us the source where it's said that bipolar disorder "definitely is physical"? I wonder how my psychiatrist found I had it without scan my brain. Behavioral symptoms described in less then half an hour dousn't sounds enough to me.

I give an example to ilustrate this: i've been around many ortohpedists for years, complaining about pain on my knees, lower back and higher right back. All of them gave me medicines. But one appointed 3 differents kind of exams.

[joaoantoniodebarros]

Then he could realize it was just bad posture. After 3 months of treatments, ALL the pain when away, and didn't even finish the treatment yet.

I can't understand how someone can fill me with 2g of poisonous substance (since i need to give blood samples every two months for check out the levels of the substance), wich can destroy my kidneys, without scan my brain, if the problem lyes there.

[botchbud]

If there is something that I am not being clear on please let me know because I noticed on my last comment I got a bunch of thumbs down and I'm not sure why. I personally have neurological issues that are not issues that I like and which I can only find relief in with chemicals, whether some other person tells me it's a biological problem or not, there is no other way for me to change the problem. [Not just any chemical though, obviously. ..]

[bipolarorwakingup]

As for the low rating...well, your are in bipolarORwakingUP territory, so my viewers don't see their disorder as a physical illness. That was probably why they scored it low. did you get a PET scan, an blood test, and MRI. What scientific evidence did they present to you proving that you have brain damage? Let me guess.....0. If you are going to be scientific about it, support your own thinking with hard facts.

[botchbud]

If it's not a physical illness what is it though? Are you saying that people experience a disorder that has nothing to do with their nervous system even though that's the very thing that causes experiences and behaviors? I didn't mean to offend anyone by saying it's physical. I'm also not a scientist. But it's one of my life goals to be one so that I can isolate what's happening in the nervous system in these cases and see how the unwanted [by the patient] symptoms could be removed.

[bipolarorwakingup]

OK, now you are thinking! I would strongly encourage you to be rigorously scientific in your search for answers. Sure, their are biochemical activities going on during mania and depression. And yes, most likely, there are certain people who are genetically pre-disposed - although there is still no proof of that either. But for the truly interesting part of bipolar disorder - the part that can be actually healed, why not start with Video#1 on my channel. The REAL Cause of Bipolar Disorder.

[joaoantoniodebarros]

I think bipolarorwakingup pretty summed up everything. I just don't see the prove that shows us the "illness" is "definitely physical". Mostly, as show in one of those videos, it's more like "you can't be who you are disorder".

Did you know I slave trying to scape were considered ill? Same as woman trying to be independent?

If I want to walk on the street wearing speedos then I probably have some "personality disorder". Well... Not in Rio de Janeiro, for example.

[botchbud]

There's tons of proof that mental disorders are physically based. For example, the fact that you have a brain and nervous system. Without that, you wouldn't exist, neither as a 'healthy' nor a 'disordered' person. I understand what you guys are getting at, because there are emergent factors, but the fact that you exist is based in physical reality. So if I suffer a diseased mental state, there's no doubt that it's tied to physical functions happening inside my brain/ nervous system.

[joaoantoniodebarros]

You're a stuck in your argument. Your premise is that someone is indeed mentally ill without showing a prove at all, then you conclude that can be only at the brain/nervous system, since the existence is based in a "physical reality" , again without explain why. Pseudo scientifics it is.

Sounds like you have made up your mind. I see no reason to go on.

Yes, I mistyped, i meant "Did you know slaves trying to scape were considered ill?"

[botchbud]

Don't place me into the category of 'stupid' just because I said there's a physical reality. I didn't discount any emerging factors so I don't know why you're commenting against me like I just insulted your entire existence or something. I'm not sure what you think I'm trying to say but I'm getting the idea that you think I'm trying to say I know everything or that I'm better than you? Because I'm not , so i find it rude that you would write that , but my feelings dont matter to you so??

[spaceage614]

@botchbud yes theres a physical reality its called hell or 3 demensional or the matrix. bipolar is purely spiritual my brotha. if you disagree than its safe to say your not even bipolar you let the doctors or family and friends label you with something you dont have and your using it as a crutch to make an excuse why your life is not going the way it should. most people who say there bipolar are not. being bipolar is a blessing

[botchbud]

@spaceage614 No- doctors, family, and friends do not label me. I have refused a label and have not given authority of myself over to someone else. But I have acknowledged what I am experiencing and have been able to change my experience by introducing chemicals into my physical body that alter the way my nervous system functions. There has definitely been risk involved but also lovely serendipity and self-healing. Dare you explore such options with your own authority?

[botchbud]

wait sorry can you rephrase the thing about slave... not sure if there's a typo in there or something

[botchbud]

What do you mean send you a source? I'm only saying that neurological disorders are occurring in the nervous system, a physical thing. not any non-existing thing. just the existing thing. Without a nervous system I have no mind. I agree, they must scan the brain and understand the condition of the nervous system, and understand it on a physical level as associated to described symptoms.

[lychale]

Thank you for your videos, which I found last night, while I was unable to sleep, suffering from the restlessness associated with bi-polar disorder. I did not realize that my behavior was classified as an illness, until a spring this year when I began to feel vague, and a huge void inside. I wore a terrible wig for weeks, and felt so fatigued and hopeless that I lacked the drive to do anything. I stopped going to IOP group because I didn't want anyone telling me that what I was feeling was wrong

[spc4u2nv]

google this with the quotes

"The Horrible Truth About Psychiatric Drugs"

[bipolarorwakingup]

Thanks, I´ll check it out"!

[spc4u2nv]

At 3:50 theres a quote about being persecuted by the machine. I believe the devil wants this place to be a sick sad world and uses his trickory to condemn the ones that are taking that step in evolution and experiencing the spiritual phenomenon known as a manic episode. I read a report today about how anti-psychotics shorten life span. It pisses me off that a healing process is being used as a way to destroy a person through modern medicine. Heres the link to see for yourself.

[esokayful]

Sean you said that the longer one is on meds the longer and harder it is to heal. Maybe it would be worth while for those interested to include some TAT EFT Or PSYCH-K other modalities that help deal with ones beliefs. My experience has been that when one can allow themselves to believe in their ability heal they heal quickly. Could you just imagine you could heal? Close your eyes. Can you see it? What it looks like? How you would feel what you would be doing? Feel it. breath it in. imagine.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Actaully, that´s why I make all of these videos, so that, at least through education, people can come to know that.

I see know reason why EFT or Psych-K wouldn´t help as well. Let me think about it! Maybe I´ll do something with that down the road.

[bambikohaku]

All I can say is wow, thank you thank you thank you.

[brilobite]

our priorities are shit and little actually gets done about it. consumerism is just as much a sickness and our family extends globally, we have been making each other sick since the dawn of time. people are afraid of the real truth and want nothing to do with it. most people are crap and are content living in a selfish social oblivion. i personally have little use for most people and i am embarrased to be a human being, completely disgusted.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Yes we have a ways to go, but hey...don't forget slavery, witch hunts, cannibalism, the Inquisition....we've basically always been awful....and I think we're actually better than we used to be.

[allforjesus22]

Sean, this video answered my question about my friend whose episode is ongoing after several years. do you think the more hurt, the more the damage. the longer the experience needs to continue in order to heal?

[bipolarorwakingup]

In general, the longer you have been labeled bipolar and the longer you have been medicated, the harder it is to heal. Especially now, because there aren´t any facilities to help us. People need to go through this stuff at home or with a hard-to-find therapist. And yes, the more trauma (hurt), the tougher it is as well.

[BlondeDisorder]

I've been undiagnosed for many years. It was a secret friend that I still am unwilling to give up. I had a psychosis and that has opened up a new beautiful world, but in place it took away a portion of reality. I think there needs to be a bridge which is inviting. All the help I've seen is wrong and that is why I've never sought help unless I was required. I would have killed myself many times if I had an easy out.  This is not as great as it can seem. We need a safer bridge.

[allforjesus22]

Thanks. My friend has thankfully escaped being medicated this whole time. How can I help her? She is in the zone and will interpret any approach to help her as a threat to her experience. It has happened before. Other of her friends have tried to convince her to see a shrink and she got very angry. How do I make a new approach ? How do I make her feel safe? I read your book and dont have the same connection with her like you had with the sisters. By the way, I enjoyed your book.

[MachineAmbition]

I like the Scream Bunny.

[bipolarorwakingup]

So do i!

[xTommyGirlx]

it's from raving rabbits, right? xD

[xTommyGirlx]

But I should say about the quote about biochemical problems; once you are told you have chemical problems, you feel like you have no control over your life. And that feeling of being personally out of control of your life's experiences is what I've found to be one of the main points of motivation I've seen in many peoples' suicidal idealations

[bipolarorwakingup]

Good Point. For some people, having no control makes them feel better for a while, like 'I don´t have a problem with 'mom, dad, work, etc...' it´s my brain that has a problem...but in the end, you just feel like you are broken. And you are NOT broken, you just have some stuff to work through.

[xTommyGirlx]

yeah, but it' can also be like you're stumbling through a dream. It's an awful type of surreal trip when you see yourself walking from a third person perspective while you're in the midst of sobriety knowing you're body is moving of its own accord. And then you know that this is your relative normal... It leaves you hopeless :\ I've been there; it's not pretty.

[bipolarorwakingup]

That´s why you need someone with you to help bring you back.

[xTommyGirlx]

Yeah.. but the hardest thing to do is will myself to talk at times like that. I don't tell people about my problems besides my friends, and I don't tell them I'm depressed because it also makes them sad. My parents don't even know the true extent of my extremities, or the things I've done during times when I lost control. I just try my best to wait it out :\

[bipolarorwakingup]

Sounds like you could use a good therapist. I´m going to post a place where you can find one on my blog soon.

[xTommyGirlx]

I'm currently in the midst of mandatory withdrawl from effexor and adderall. oh yeah, welcome to hell. xD

[pastnastification]

Your videos make people who take meds sound like losers.

[bipolarorwakingup]

That is certainly not my intention. Many of the people who helped me make this video are currently medicated.

[treeheads]

Great work on all your videos!

You mentioned you were studying in Toronto at one time? Do you ever visit? I spent my fair share of time of time forcibly confined in the Center of mental health here. there is a good group called MAD here that is for survivors. I am off lithium for 6 months now after 10 years. So far so good! I can relate your views. would like to meet when you come to Toronto.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Did you get my last message? I will probably be back at Xmas. We may be able to hook up, even with your group, then.

[daddymocean]

another great vid! I went through very similar experiences of friends thinking i was "crazy". And the meds/psycho doctors. We are lucky we survived. We are the survivors. And we are fortunate to have Sean and his videos. Keep up the good work!

[bipolarorwakingup]

Thanks big daddy!.....as long as I know how to love, I know I´ll stay alive...I WILL SURVIVE!!!!

[ozjthomas]

Yes! Completely get it! Really jived with the excerpts about suicidal, the infinite hopelessness. Thanks, Sean, completley agree that reducing us to diseases is fucked up and dehumanizing. I am not happy sitting on meds, living some sort of half-life.

[bipolarorwakingup]

So, what´s your next move, Oz? Sounds like you are ready to make a change. Send me a message!

[mistyred8]

Speaking for myself: being brutalized by the police while psychotic triggered a suicide attempt while in prison. Prior to that I was in a very peaceful state and my fear and confusion had receded. The system make things so much worse.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Now you know, you are not alone. Being in psychosis is difficult enough, but the way we are treated makes it a LOT worse.

[mistyred8]

Thank you for your videos, they inspire and help many people:)

[DrinkHg]

I really enjoy your videos and greatly appreciate your thoughts and ideas. They offer a different perspective on BPD that you will not find in the mainstream.

Perhaps this diagnosis really doesn't exist. In fact maybe mental illness does not exist at all but it is all a creation to identify and coerce those out of line with the world around them. I don't think this is entirely true but is a thought that help me at times put things into perspective.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Well, with BPD there are spiritual/emotional problems to work through, but as a culture, we appear to be miles from helping people through these experiences in the right way. However, it can be done.

[odddom4]

Again you made an utterly important video...

Two comments:

- I have known two young women who threw themselves before a train immediately after a forced hospitalisation. Motivation: their lives had turned into hell on earth.

- Before my diagnosis, if I would be angry, it was percieved as just "anger", a normal human emotion. After the labeling, it was called "aggression". This constant fear of people made me suppress my emotions, which increased the anger, so it could turn into "rage".

[bipolarorwakingup]

Thanks Jan, I remember you telling that story. I had other stories I also wanted to share, but I chose to stick with the format of direct quotes instead of second hand information. And what you say about having to repress all emotion or people think you are crazy is a very common problem which is bound to get worse. And thanks for your help on this one!

[Rockguitarnow]

At 1:28 the answer is that nothing makes a person angry or aggressive. A person chooses to become angry or aggression. Nothing makes a person do anything.

[taoguitar55]

I agee with you, but I would ask you to consider that circumstances can be a strong influence. If someone is cut off in traffic and flies into a rage, that person could have quite easily decided not to be angry. If a person is being restrained and having things done to him against his will, it is true that he could choose not to be angry, but what are the circumstances. Is he being tickled, mocked, injected with 'medication', beaten??? I think certain circumstances can very much play a role.

[zezt]

Really great and powerful video!

You show very clearly indeed what fuels the decay of this culture and civilization--FEAR of soul!!! Fear of emotion, feeling, empathy.

This is really clear to many, and it is great you illustrate this so directly

[bipolarorwakingup]

Thanks zezt! I thought this style, using quotes would help strengthen the argument. Its a sensitive topic, so I thought it best not to go it alone!!!