OMG... I'm the girl who made this video. I don't know how to log in to this account anymore but, after hospitalizations for anorexia and stuff since then, and having a team working with me to build up my self-esteem, I'm better. i didn't even know this video was still up!!! Thank you guys, you can do it too
@LarissaLIBERTY hi, i have the same feeling just like this days after days after days. I've asked myself that same question but instead of my nose, it is the right side of my jawline and cheek that kills me! i really want to get this over with but my family is the only reason that keep me away from doing so. hang in there mate!
@chitownhawks2010chps posing with the left side of your face right? trying to make people see your left side first so they couldn't judge you , and when you meet good looking people you try hard to not to show your right side so they can't judge you :)
but when around average looking people or non-attractive you be more comfortable
life is too short to be worrying about what you look like
the key is to just accept the way you are.
I personally know how hard that may seem but the next best things is just to wait for technology to advance to the point where we can all pick and choose our own bodies change and upgrade.
I have bdd or atleast think I do...people really dont understand the pain ...somedays its worst than others...we should be able to have government sponsored surgery to be able to fix whatever it is about ourselves that we dont like. just for the psychological benefits
every time when i look into the mirror i see my very big nose my big teeth, my askant eye brows, my ugly skin, my fat body. i see an abhorrant woman. . sometimes i feel so ugly that i don't want to go to work because i think people will laugh at me. but the thing is, people always say that i am beautiful. even foreign women on the street...but i never see myself with their eyes. i wish that i could do but every time i see the same ugly person on the mirror...ME
@LarissaLIBERTY I feel the exact same. It's a battle between realizing that I have the disorder and wondering if I really am ugly and don't' have the disorder at all.
I havnt looked in a mirror in a long time, Im worried about how low I can get when I do. I dont know if I'll ever really be able to look in it properly again. I feel sick when I see myself and sometimes get desperate in thinking 'Theres no way I can spend my whole life lie this'.
if someone has their car dented they'll get it fixed.
if someone has their nose dented they have a mental illness if they want it fixed?
I don't think so but if they pay a surgeon who does something else that the patient didn't want , but gets away with a shit job but other people think its acceptable but actcually has downgraded the patients looks.if then diagnosed with BDD THEY THEN FIND THEY COULD NOT GET CORRECTIVE SURGERY because these BDD DICKHEADS THINK THEY WILL NEVER BHWTWTL
It does not take into account some surgeons do not carry out the requests of the patient . There is the danger of a BDD false diagnosis then being refused corrective surgery
A patient may not have had any issues related to their appearance, but for example received injury paid a surgeon to do something, surgeon does something else so surgeons negligent but if no negligence is proved then the patient will be stigmatized if the surgery is acceptable but not what patient wanted
i was with a man in my early teens untill my mid twenties, that used to make me stand i n front of the mirror and saylook how ugly you are, why does everyone hate you, why are you such a slag. If i answered i would have the words twisted and have a slap or a punch in the face. This interrogation could last up to three hours. ; i left him fifteen years ago, HE caused my dysmorphia.
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Me too. Girls say that I´m good looking but I often think that I´m really ugly and I want to do cosmetic surgeries if I had more money. I am also sometimes too shy to talk to girls that I don´t know IRL and people think that it´s weird that I don´t have a girlfriend. Btw don´t write about this on my channel. If you want to write to me send me a PM.
I don't have BDD but I really empathize, and I think I had very mild symptoms of this growing up. I suffered from a very low self esteem and hated myself most of the time. I would like to think good therapy can help these problems. It did it for me... ♥
Unless you have Bdd you only know the shocking miserable hell this causes to your life,if you don't have it pray to God or whoever that you never go through it somehow!
i want to apologize that was a bit uncalled for my last comment...im just not comfortable necessarily with who i am completely i guess.. i guess we're all somewhat paralyzed by what society tells us we should be.
yeah, and i wasnt mad, i dont think i have that...but i kno that is how i feel...i learn to live with it, but everyone has there moments when they just wanna hid, other times, its okay.
(4) One last thing. There is no reality, only perception. For some, the glass is half empty, for others, it's half full. Many disabled children are filled with joy just to be in this life. Yet Elvis, who was one of the most handsome men who ever lived, talented, rich, successful, & had any woman he wanted, suffered from depression & committed slow suicide with drugs & binge eating. When it comes to behaviour, there are no accidents in life, there's just a choice. Make the RIGHT ones for you..
(3)You have to replace the negative thoughts with positive ones. It's not enough to just stop yourself when U start running yourself down. The great thing is, the subconscious doesn't care either way, it only wants to serve you, by giving you the answers, memories, & evidence to supply feedback for your questions. Think of it like the internet, with the conscious mind as your keyboard. Your whole universe is in there, but what questions are you going to type in?..Good luck & God bless x
(2)Ma nature hates a vacuum. She will ALWAYS fill an empty space with something, even if it's destructive. We have a tendency to focus on the negative about ourselves when we turn our attention inward. Remember, that the sub' has been storing memories on U since the day U were born, & it ONLY wants to give U what U want. So it goes; Ok, I've got a whole aircraft hanger worth of stuff back here on you, do U want me to tell U what's beautiful about you? Or the 'other stuff? Let's download!!
(1)Sorry U feel this way. I hope this helps. The subconscious mind doesn't know right from wrong, good from bad, or true from false. It ONLY knows what the conscious mind TELLS it OFTEN enough. Once the sub' is programmed, it 'acts out' as if repeated thoughts are fact. 2 things prime the sub' most powerfully; repetition & strong emotion. You are soon caught in a downward spiral feedback loop; TEAR YOURSELF DOWN, GET UPSET, GET UPSET, TEAR YOURSELF DOWN EVEN MORE. You CAN stop this RIGHT NOW..
You're welcome love. I hope it helps you. The secret really, is not to focus on your appearance at all, but to learn to love yourself from the inside out, NOT the outside in. For example, even though we don't know each other, I see on your channel, that all your favourites are on animals. That tells me that you have a kind loving nature, - almost certainly giving & thoughtful. You are probably deep & sensitive too. Have you ever given yourself PROPER credit for what makes you TRULY beautiful?
Bless your heart. See? - I was right about you! - If I can pick that up from 6000 miles away, isn't it time you stopped beating yourself up, & became your own best friend? If you're not there for yourself, who CAN be? NO ONE else judges you as harshly as you do. They're too busy with their own hang ups!
Make yourself feel special this weekend. Try this. Go to town. Open a door for someone, catch their eye, & SMILE. As they thank you & smile back, notice how good you feel inside. That's karma!!
im only 17 and i have BDD,im allways obsessing about the size of my nose and my hair (Hair only on occasion) there's times when i just skive college coz i dont want to be fucking seen i hardly ever go out with my mates and have a augh any more, this fucking thing is total ruining my life, shit im typing this now and im fucking crying
none of you COME CLOSE TO ME...I have had BDD, since age 13..I am 49....and I was on TV..as a living, the news..ONE DAY, all my hair feel out.....called "Alopecia Totalis"..and I lost everything....my TV career, my fiance, my confidence (whatever I had)..because I really had, none , anyway...so, I have BDD, with my REAL HAIR...then it all falls out..forever..can YOU IMAGINE THAT SHIT.....So, I am done..I am on disability, for life..I was at the top of the TV news world..now, I SLEEP , all day.
I have only recently discovered I have BDD and never heard of it before. When I take a photo of myself I have to take hundreds to find 1 I like and delete all the others, I have to inspect it close and airbrush my flaws. Im am lucky to be photogenic but when I look in the mirror to cover my face with makeup I get so angry I want to cut my face off (I cut off all my hair at one point)Its a horrible thing to have though I am always complimented. But people dont see the real me with no makeup
I might as well have written that post! Everything u wrote there is EXACTLY what I do. Even tho i was offered sev. modelling jobs the idea only made me feel good for a day & then i felt completely shit again and there was no way in hell i would do it. It takes me hours to leave the house and sometimes I'll get ready and won't leave at all. It's getting really bad bcos I hate going 2 certain public places now 2. want help. can some1 tell me what kind of dr they see & how they approached it?
Hi PaintingTheRoses1. The BDD attack site is not one that people are likely to keep returning to, except perhaps that it helps you realize that you're not alone in feeling this way. But if you haven't already found something or someone to help change your mindset, can I invite you to check out my posts on this site, in the hope that they might open some windows & join up some dots for you? I cured myself of this very mindset 20 years ago, by putting this advice into action. Good luck to you.
Hi Bleu. You can accept that you are photogenic, & you are complimented for your appearance. So logic must tell you that your self rejection has NOTHING to do with your looks, & is entirely a state of mind that you have allowed yourself to succumb to. You CAN reverse that. Firstly, STOP telling yourself you have BDD. Because you re-affirm your current mindset. Recognise that self rejection is a conditioned response of the subconscious mind, & YOU are the one who conditioned it!! Continued..
Cont'.You did this, unknowingly of course, every time you said things like; I HATE myself. Or, I'M UGLY. Even if you didn't say it out loud, your subconscious is ALWAYS listening in on your inner dialog. Especially when it's rammed home with anger, tears or frustration. Doubly so when statements are made in the present tense, such as; I AM ugly, I HAVE bdd. I DON'T like myself. Do you see the common theme? Those are INSTRUCTIONS to the subconscious to self reject. & it HAS to carry them out!
The way to reverse this, is to make positive statements to yourself in the present tense. You don't even have to believe them at first, just so long as you keep repeating them. The sub' NEVER responds to ambiguity or future tense statements. For example, you don't say; 'I WILL become..' Or 'I WISH I could..' Or 'SOMEDAY I'll be..' Or 'I WANT to..' Because the sub' will go 'When do you want this done? In the next 10 secs? In 50 years time? ALL statements MUST be present tense: I AM. I HAVE. I DO.
There is no way to reverse BDD. I've been suffering with it since I was 11 years old, and your comment stating that the sufferers of BDD themselves conditioned the disorder are incredibly offensive and you need to shut your fucking mouth. I spent too many years being told it was my fault and living through hell every second of my existance to hear you force that same bullshit on anyone else who might be reading your nonsense.
I'm sorry that I've offended you. My only motivation was to try to help. I too have suffered from this, although perhaps neither as profoundly or as long as yourself. Obviously the things I've said won't help everybody. It took me years to work my way out of it practicing what I proposed in my posts here. If it only helps a few people out of this hell, isn't it worth a try? Not accepting responsibility for how we feel about ourselves, means being powerless to change it. What's the alternative?
u have to belive ur beauitful u just have to belive dont worry about what anyone thinks about you. dont worry about ur looks things will get better i promise. i know through experience try and get outdoors and enjoy your life.
what you are basically saying is we should pave over the cracks. i know from experience that it doesnt get better, it only accentuates the problem. if you've got it, you're fucked!
When a bdd attack occurs all your life is melt in a non-sense, non-futur thing. I dont know if that is english. Well what i mean is that you really think all your life is at an end, that you will not be able to do anything more. You just stay there and dont move, crying or sometimes you go from crying and being in angree and whitout any possibilty to express that feeling. That is really awfull.
yeah...i was going to say the same thing! those are just normal bdd thoughts - not a bdd attack! when i have a bdd attack i want to kill myself and can't move. you don't mention how people feel unloved and unacceptable to themselves and to the world. mine is significantly better after extensive therapy (drugs never worked enough), but this is nothing. i felt deformed and wouldn't leave my house for two years. the poppy pink song doesn't quite represent the horror either.
yes dont go into that spiral of going under the knife again and again cause you will never fill perfect i mean as you want... and imagine the scars it will leave on you.
Bdd will make you feel always that you have a prob even if a surgery could improve your look you'll find something else
hi just to say that i suffer from bdd aswell. Though i dont really see where you want to go with this song cause it really sucks. Okay the lyrics are a bit in the mood but cmon this is just a f****** song sing by a stupid bitch ! But trying to make bdd more known is good thing. In europe where i live believe me no one has heard about that this is terrible.
2) Realise that it doesn't mean everything if you're good looking or not. A person's attractiveness is just ONE of many things about them - stop defining yourself that way and thinking it's the most important thing about a person. There's more important things like proffession, moral character, artistic talent, and lots more. If you were teased, wake up to how ridiculous those people were. Good luck in your recovery, you're worth every bit of effort you put into it.
I think that people with BDD need to do two things - 1) They need to think that they're attractive no matter what anyone says, cause people have different tastes and perceptions of beauty, and so you should just believe in yourself!
...thanks for posting the video it jst shows ppl they arnt as 'ugli' as they fink. i use 2 b obsessed with my weight an now im nt fat so im happi bt now im obessed with my hair!! grrr lol i dnt fink there is a cure for BDD but there are ways yoo can cope with it!! xxxxx
@LarissaLIBERTY double mirror technique is what people really see you in real ...
get two big mirrors and hold one and watch through it sideways
that what you look like in real life :)
i don't recommend doing that cause it will worsen your BDD but that what you really look like.
Verification11 2 months ago
OMG... I'm the girl who made this video. I don't know how to log in to this account anymore but, after hospitalizations for anorexia and stuff since then, and having a team working with me to build up my self-esteem, I'm better. i didn't even know this video was still up!!! Thank you guys, you can do it too
todreamisagift 2 months ago
@todreamisagift
:) , great to hear about that. im still workin on it :p
DataSe7en 2 months ago
@LarissaLIBERTY hi, i have the same feeling just like this days after days after days. I've asked myself that same question but instead of my nose, it is the right side of my jawline and cheek that kills me! i really want to get this over with but my family is the only reason that keep me away from doing so. hang in there mate!
chitownhawks2010chps 4 months ago
@chitownhawks2010chps i have the exact same thing and i'm a straight guy, every BDD hates one side of his face
but in reality its all imagination, your left side of your face looks very similar, you just imagining things
anyway nobody have a perfectly-symmetrical face
Verification11 2 months ago
@chitownhawks2010chps posing with the left side of your face right? trying to make people see your left side first so they couldn't judge you , and when you meet good looking people you try hard to not to show your right side so they can't judge you :)
but when around average looking people or non-attractive you be more comfortable
:)
Verification11 2 months ago
@lowselfsteem
What was the song used???
DataSe7en 5 months ago
@DataSe7en Don't let me get me by Pink
todreamisagift 2 months ago
all a mirror can do is show it as it is
the mirror keeps it real.
life is too short to be worrying about what you look like
the key is to just accept the way you are.
I personally know how hard that may seem but the next best things is just to wait for technology to advance to the point where we can all pick and choose our own bodies change and upgrade.
TheNonsubscribable 7 months ago
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allstargurllover12 9 months ago
i think i have BDD im always in an out of thinking im normal and im ugly i have no self esteem at all and ive been called ugly. My nose is hideous.
SonyCamry 1 year ago
I have bdd or atleast think I do...people really dont understand the pain ...somedays its worst than others...we should be able to have government sponsored surgery to be able to fix whatever it is about ourselves that we dont like. just for the psychological benefits
wadagoodgrl 1 year ago
hahaha i ran out of a store today.. and this ^^ exactly was going through my head. /: fuck bodydismorphic disorder.. fuck it
musicluver71 1 year ago
every time when i look into the mirror i see my very big nose my big teeth, my askant eye brows, my ugly skin, my fat body. i see an abhorrant woman. . sometimes i feel so ugly that i don't want to go to work because i think people will laugh at me. but the thing is, people always say that i am beautiful. even foreign women on the street...but i never see myself with their eyes. i wish that i could do but every time i see the same ugly person on the mirror...ME
xmuhahax 1 year ago
I don't have BDD, I'm really ugly and everyone knows it.
SingleVirginForever 1 year ago
@LarissaLIBERTY I feel the exact same. It's a battle between realizing that I have the disorder and wondering if I really am ugly and don't' have the disorder at all.
It drives me crazy some days... ):
Lazarus2009Effect 1 year ago
I havnt looked in a mirror in a long time, Im worried about how low I can get when I do. I dont know if I'll ever really be able to look in it properly again. I feel sick when I see myself and sometimes get desperate in thinking 'Theres no way I can spend my whole life lie this'.
chronicreptile 1 year ago
This is me. Exactly how I feel.
SophieLauren2 1 year ago
I wrote a song about BDD, it's just a vocal at the minute but please listen as it pretty much sums up for me, what my body dysmorphic disorder is
Thanks for the time.
get well soon people, I'm with you.
dannyjar100 1 year ago
i have bdd and its taken over my life..i wish i could go back to the way i used 2 b!
kandidandi09 1 year ago 3
@chadzstewart true :(
giralaloka 1 year ago
Wow. This is exactly how I feel, every text, every pic I could relate to.
abbykimz 2 years ago
if someone has their car dented they'll get it fixed.
if someone has their nose dented they have a mental illness if they want it fixed?
I don't think so but if they pay a surgeon who does something else that the patient didn't want , but gets away with a shit job but other people think its acceptable but actcually has downgraded the patients looks.if then diagnosed with BDD THEY THEN FIND THEY COULD NOT GET CORRECTIVE SURGERY because these BDD DICKHEADS THINK THEY WILL NEVER BHWTWTL
EIKLURAM 2 years ago
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It does not take into account some surgeons do not carry out the requests of the patient . There is the danger of a BDD false diagnosis then being refused corrective surgery
A patient may not have had any issues related to their appearance, but for example received injury paid a surgeon to do something, surgeon does something else so surgeons negligent but if no negligence is proved then the patient will be stigmatized if the surgery is acceptable but not what patient wanted
EIKLURAM 2 years ago
i was with a man in my early teens untill my mid twenties, that used to make me stand i n front of the mirror and saylook how ugly you are, why does everyone hate you, why are you such a slag. If i answered i would have the words twisted and have a slap or a punch in the face. This interrogation could last up to three hours. ; i left him fifteen years ago, HE caused my dysmorphia.
angel61370 2 years ago 14
@angel61370
Wath a moron!!!!
You deserve so mutch better.
" Please feel better hug"
Fom Anita :O)
anitacathrine 8 months ago
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Armzan 2 years ago
Me too. Girls say that I´m good looking but I often think that I´m really ugly and I want to do cosmetic surgeries if I had more money. I am also sometimes too shy to talk to girls that I don´t know IRL and people think that it´s weird that I don´t have a girlfriend. Btw don´t write about this on my channel. If you want to write to me send me a PM.
83Mysterio 2 years ago
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HoodedFairy 2 years ago
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eddieguerrero122 2 years ago
what does BDD stand for?
azrial4421 2 years ago
i have these attacks very offen, i jsut had one, and then i had a bad on before i was going to the mall with my friends
this saturday
randomNco 3 years ago
i just found out i think i have it , i never knew there was a name for hating your face.. wow
xkristenn2058 3 years ago
I made a video recently about BDD too if you're interested. It's very personal to me.
CountessGrotesque 3 years ago
I don't have BDD but I really empathize, and I think I had very mild symptoms of this growing up. I suffered from a very low self esteem and hated myself most of the time. I would like to think good therapy can help these problems. It did it for me... ♥
la7alha 3 years ago
Unless you have Bdd you only know the shocking miserable hell this causes to your life,if you don't have it pray to God or whoever that you never go through it somehow!
strke69 3 years ago
*hug*
FeloniousAngel 3 years ago
I totally agree with your comment! I too feel exactly the same! It is a horrible thing to suffer with. You are definitely not alone. xxx xxx
lollypopwhynot 3 years ago 3
learn to love the ugliness in you.
surfislife333 3 years ago
its not that easy, its extremely hard.
i try and i try, but it doesnt work, on youtube, on my videos, i hid my pain. in reality i am a misbrel wreck
shelbyScriblescratch 3 years ago 3
i want to apologize that was a bit uncalled for my last comment...im just not comfortable necessarily with who i am completely i guess.. i guess we're all somewhat paralyzed by what society tells us we should be.
surfislife333 3 years ago 4
yeah, and i wasnt mad, i dont think i have that...but i kno that is how i feel...i learn to live with it, but everyone has there moments when they just wanna hid, other times, its okay.
and it is okay :) you'll get through it♥
shelbyScriblescratch 3 years ago
Dude good for you
i suffer from this disorder and i see cunts mockin ppl like me that have this life threating problem
so thanks
ladyinred825 3 years ago
what is this music called? does anybody know ? Please answer
sylvie7718 3 years ago
the artist is Pink and i think the song is "Dont let me get me"??
if u ever want to know what a song is just try typing some of the lyrics into google with the word "lyrics" after it - works like everytime! ;)
aDORKableXoh 3 years ago
Dat si precies wat zo'n iemand dan denkt, ja en ik moet dat wel weten.. mijn moeder had het..
JeZebeL2600 3 years ago
(4) One last thing. There is no reality, only perception. For some, the glass is half empty, for others, it's half full. Many disabled children are filled with joy just to be in this life. Yet Elvis, who was one of the most handsome men who ever lived, talented, rich, successful, & had any woman he wanted, suffered from depression & committed slow suicide with drugs & binge eating. When it comes to behaviour, there are no accidents in life, there's just a choice. Make the RIGHT ones for you..
hiyadroogs 3 years ago
(3)You have to replace the negative thoughts with positive ones. It's not enough to just stop yourself when U start running yourself down. The great thing is, the subconscious doesn't care either way, it only wants to serve you, by giving you the answers, memories, & evidence to supply feedback for your questions. Think of it like the internet, with the conscious mind as your keyboard. Your whole universe is in there, but what questions are you going to type in?..Good luck & God bless x
hiyadroogs 3 years ago
(2)Ma nature hates a vacuum. She will ALWAYS fill an empty space with something, even if it's destructive. We have a tendency to focus on the negative about ourselves when we turn our attention inward. Remember, that the sub' has been storing memories on U since the day U were born, & it ONLY wants to give U what U want. So it goes; Ok, I've got a whole aircraft hanger worth of stuff back here on you, do U want me to tell U what's beautiful about you? Or the 'other stuff? Let's download!!
hiyadroogs 3 years ago
(1)Sorry U feel this way. I hope this helps. The subconscious mind doesn't know right from wrong, good from bad, or true from false. It ONLY knows what the conscious mind TELLS it OFTEN enough. Once the sub' is programmed, it 'acts out' as if repeated thoughts are fact. 2 things prime the sub' most powerfully; repetition & strong emotion. You are soon caught in a downward spiral feedback loop; TEAR YOURSELF DOWN, GET UPSET, GET UPSET, TEAR YOURSELF DOWN EVEN MORE. You CAN stop this RIGHT NOW..
hiyadroogs 3 years ago
ur very smart ur comments are very educitional thak you
myyarmyarm 3 years ago
You're welcome love. I hope it helps you. The secret really, is not to focus on your appearance at all, but to learn to love yourself from the inside out, NOT the outside in. For example, even though we don't know each other, I see on your channel, that all your favourites are on animals. That tells me that you have a kind loving nature, - almost certainly giving & thoughtful. You are probably deep & sensitive too. Have you ever given yourself PROPER credit for what makes you TRULY beautiful?
hiyadroogs 3 years ago 2
you are a beautful person i hope theres more people like u out there mabey this world wouldn't be so horrible
myyarmyarm 3 years ago
Bless your heart. See? - I was right about you! - If I can pick that up from 6000 miles away, isn't it time you stopped beating yourself up, & became your own best friend? If you're not there for yourself, who CAN be? NO ONE else judges you as harshly as you do. They're too busy with their own hang ups!
Make yourself feel special this weekend. Try this. Go to town. Open a door for someone, catch their eye, & SMILE. As they thank you & smile back, notice how good you feel inside. That's karma!!
hiyadroogs 3 years ago
where'd you get the picture at 1:43 ?
SaraanA2007 3 years ago
I feel like that aswell, i feel i am so ugly i should just fall down!
hawtnesszz 3 years ago
im only 17 and i have BDD,im allways obsessing about the size of my nose and my hair (Hair only on occasion) there's times when i just skive college coz i dont want to be fucking seen i hardly ever go out with my mates and have a augh any more, this fucking thing is total ruining my life, shit im typing this now and im fucking crying
17inch 3 years ago
none of you COME CLOSE TO ME...I have had BDD, since age 13..I am 49....and I was on TV..as a living, the news..ONE DAY, all my hair feel out.....called "Alopecia Totalis"..and I lost everything....my TV career, my fiance, my confidence (whatever I had)..because I really had, none , anyway...so, I have BDD, with my REAL HAIR...then it all falls out..forever..can YOU IMAGINE THAT SHIT.....So, I am done..I am on disability, for life..I was at the top of the TV news world..now, I SLEEP , all day.
glassyhood 3 years ago
I have only recently discovered I have BDD and never heard of it before. When I take a photo of myself I have to take hundreds to find 1 I like and delete all the others, I have to inspect it close and airbrush my flaws. Im am lucky to be photogenic but when I look in the mirror to cover my face with makeup I get so angry I want to cut my face off (I cut off all my hair at one point)Its a horrible thing to have though I am always complimented. But people dont see the real me with no makeup
pinkelephant93 4 years ago
I might as well have written that post! Everything u wrote there is EXACTLY what I do. Even tho i was offered sev. modelling jobs the idea only made me feel good for a day & then i felt completely shit again and there was no way in hell i would do it. It takes me hours to leave the house and sometimes I'll get ready and won't leave at all. It's getting really bad bcos I hate going 2 certain public places now 2. want help. can some1 tell me what kind of dr they see & how they approached it?
PaintingTheRoses1 3 years ago
ditto
MrRadaikon 3 years ago
Hi PaintingTheRoses1. The BDD attack site is not one that people are likely to keep returning to, except perhaps that it helps you realize that you're not alone in feeling this way. But if you haven't already found something or someone to help change your mindset, can I invite you to check out my posts on this site, in the hope that they might open some windows & join up some dots for you? I cured myself of this very mindset 20 years ago, by putting this advice into action. Good luck to you.
hiyadroogs 3 years ago 2
Hi Bleu. You can accept that you are photogenic, & you are complimented for your appearance. So logic must tell you that your self rejection has NOTHING to do with your looks, & is entirely a state of mind that you have allowed yourself to succumb to. You CAN reverse that. Firstly, STOP telling yourself you have BDD. Because you re-affirm your current mindset. Recognise that self rejection is a conditioned response of the subconscious mind, & YOU are the one who conditioned it!! Continued..
hiyadroogs 3 years ago
Cont'.You did this, unknowingly of course, every time you said things like; I HATE myself. Or, I'M UGLY. Even if you didn't say it out loud, your subconscious is ALWAYS listening in on your inner dialog. Especially when it's rammed home with anger, tears or frustration. Doubly so when statements are made in the present tense, such as; I AM ugly, I HAVE bdd. I DON'T like myself. Do you see the common theme? Those are INSTRUCTIONS to the subconscious to self reject. & it HAS to carry them out!
hiyadroogs 3 years ago 2
The way to reverse this, is to make positive statements to yourself in the present tense. You don't even have to believe them at first, just so long as you keep repeating them. The sub' NEVER responds to ambiguity or future tense statements. For example, you don't say; 'I WILL become..' Or 'I WISH I could..' Or 'SOMEDAY I'll be..' Or 'I WANT to..' Because the sub' will go 'When do you want this done? In the next 10 secs? In 50 years time? ALL statements MUST be present tense: I AM. I HAVE. I DO.
hiyadroogs 3 years ago
that doesn't work.
LtRizaHawkeye 3 years ago
There is no way to reverse BDD. I've been suffering with it since I was 11 years old, and your comment stating that the sufferers of BDD themselves conditioned the disorder are incredibly offensive and you need to shut your fucking mouth. I spent too many years being told it was my fault and living through hell every second of my existance to hear you force that same bullshit on anyone else who might be reading your nonsense.
1nhatr3d 3 years ago
I'm sorry that I've offended you. My only motivation was to try to help. I too have suffered from this, although perhaps neither as profoundly or as long as yourself. Obviously the things I've said won't help everybody. It took me years to work my way out of it practicing what I proposed in my posts here. If it only helps a few people out of this hell, isn't it worth a try? Not accepting responsibility for how we feel about ourselves, means being powerless to change it. What's the alternative?
hiyadroogs 3 years ago
This is all about learning to love & accept yourself from the INSIDE out. NOT from the outside in.. Good luck Bleu, God bless.
hiyadroogs 3 years ago
nice video and i havent even watched it all yet.
JSK1010 4 years ago
You captured BDD very well...
godessceline 4 years ago 3
i dont like how i look... but i dont think im horribly ugly either... -_-
ImRoxyyImRandomRAWR 4 years ago
Absolutely spot on! Gona ask 2 show this at my funeral.. Maybe then will people hav an idea of how I feel/felt.
madbev90210 4 years ago
I think I have BDD, I hate my face and my body so much !!!!!! And I can't stand the mirror...
artsyhyd 4 years ago
u have to belive ur beauitful u just have to belive dont worry about what anyone thinks about you. dont worry about ur looks things will get better i promise. i know through experience try and get outdoors and enjoy your life.
tevez7777 4 years ago
what you are basically saying is we should pave over the cracks. i know from experience that it doesnt get better, it only accentuates the problem. if you've got it, you're fucked!
MariusSoma 4 years ago 2
if other people call u ugly how can u believe u are beautiful? Its dumb... i cant do it
Super240987 4 years ago
before i watched this video,i didnt even know there was a thing called bdd and now i knew y i hate maself so much.
i cant go outside wivout make up.i gotta change..
stechan1092 4 years ago
I have scars over fifty percent of my body, and I hated the dread feeling of facing people, but the dread faded...I don't know why. NV
palefawn 4 years ago
I shed a tear.
wassup4279 4 years ago
i have bdd i hate it so much
rosycandy 4 years ago 2
I have BDD, and I fuckin hate it.. HATE IT!
Skitspel 4 years ago 2
When a bdd attack occurs all your life is melt in a non-sense, non-futur thing. I dont know if that is english. Well what i mean is that you really think all your life is at an end, that you will not be able to do anything more. You just stay there and dont move, crying or sometimes you go from crying and being in angree and whitout any possibilty to express that feeling. That is really awfull.
freeedom22 4 years ago 3
just one thing ...Surgery for smiling ???
freeedom22 4 years ago
i have BDD and this is nothing... its horrible.. you need to experience it..to know how it feels
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Aylamarie90 4 years ago
yeah...i was going to say the same thing! those are just normal bdd thoughts - not a bdd attack! when i have a bdd attack i want to kill myself and can't move. you don't mention how people feel unloved and unacceptable to themselves and to the world. mine is significantly better after extensive therapy (drugs never worked enough), but this is nothing. i felt deformed and wouldn't leave my house for two years. the poppy pink song doesn't quite represent the horror either.
heloise9 4 years ago
yes dont go into that spiral of going under the knife again and again cause you will never fill perfect i mean as you want... and imagine the scars it will leave on you.
Bdd will make you feel always that you have a prob even if a surgery could improve your look you'll find something else
freeedom22 4 years ago
well, im guessing i really do i have bdd lol. i have an obsession with all lighting. i prefer going out at night (thats of course when i do go out).
NycAttentionWhore 4 years ago 2
hi just to say that i suffer from bdd aswell. Though i dont really see where you want to go with this song cause it really sucks. Okay the lyrics are a bit in the mood but cmon this is just a f****** song sing by a stupid bitch ! But trying to make bdd more known is good thing. In europe where i live believe me no one has heard about that this is terrible.
freeedom22 4 years ago
2) Realise that it doesn't mean everything if you're good looking or not. A person's attractiveness is just ONE of many things about them - stop defining yourself that way and thinking it's the most important thing about a person. There's more important things like proffession, moral character, artistic talent, and lots more. If you were teased, wake up to how ridiculous those people were. Good luck in your recovery, you're worth every bit of effort you put into it.
ikadir18 4 years ago
I think that people with BDD need to do two things - 1) They need to think that they're attractive no matter what anyone says, cause people have different tastes and perceptions of beauty, and so you should just believe in yourself!
ikadir18 4 years ago
i don't have BDD but i know a lot about it & i saw stuff on Oprah about it a year ago or so... its really sad. i feel really sorry for these people!
dwoody1030 4 years ago
god this made me cry. its exactly how i feel. its nice to know im not the only one who thinks like this. thanks to whoever made this. xxx
xxamy61216xx 4 years ago
this is exactly what goes through the mind during a bdd attack :[ i had bdd and i hate ti soo much
surfallday23 4 years ago
i've been diagnosed with this:/ but i'm not suffering from it..
i'm just damn ugly!
electrospod 4 years ago
wow. that video made me cry. not many people understand. that video says it all. thank you
lvgrl78 4 years ago
...thanks for posting the video it jst shows ppl they arnt as 'ugli' as they fink. i use 2 b obsessed with my weight an now im nt fat so im happi bt now im obessed with my hair!! grrr lol i dnt fink there is a cure for BDD but there are ways yoo can cope with it!! xxxxx
babieaimee3 4 years ago
hi good video, i suffer from bdd and it's killing i can't stand it anymore. can some one tell me if therse any cure?
kcaruana 4 years ago
hi good video, i suffer from bdd, i would like to know if therse any cure
kcaruana 4 years ago
This song goes well along with the photos.
akawhippy 4 years ago
Lol... don't be jealous!!! I wish I could see this "pretty girl" everytime I look in the mirror but I can't!!!! But thanks anyway...
lowselfsteem 5 years ago
Thanks!!! We do know how we feel...
lowselfsteem 5 years ago