I don't understand why the grocery store keeps letting her continue the ritual of spending $36 per day, or for that matter why appropriate interventions are not taking place. She seems stronger than she should in that state also. She stands when she purges and sits up most of the time. As a migraine sufferer I must lay down quite often and I am at a normal weight. One would think she would not be strong enough to shop, prepare food, sit up and stand while purging.
Forgive me for being logical about this situation because this is a very emotional and sad case BUT the narrator said she weighed 3 1/2 stone. That equates to 49 pounds. That can't be right given how tall she is and looking at her body. Also, is if she eats two days worth of food in one evening I don't think she got rid of that much. I suffer from migraines and sometimes it makes me vomit and I can tell you just one meal makes me eliminate WAY more than she did, unless we did not see all.
I started suffering from bulimia at 17 - I still struggle at the age of 49. I wrote to Caraline before she died and she replied to my letter. I was never as thin as Caraline, but went through the same rituals and obsessional behaviour. The loneliness, pain and isolation of this disease is indescribable. What a brave woman you are, Caraline.
@Fool1100 I wish i could have spoken to her . I wish i could have helped :( it makes me so sad ... one of my subscribers said i was following the exact same path as her :/ I dont think anyone has ever followed the same path as her :( x
i just wish so much to have been able to sit with her every night and let her talk to me. I think if she had someone, anyone there to hold her and just listen or make her laugh she would still be here. She may not have been cured but she would have had a chance. Poor baby. RIP angel, you deserve to!
@m0sas I would have done the same. I want to hold her so bad, let her know shes beautiful. She really was. Hold her hand and show her that you can be happy. I wish she was still here..
@TheNocturnalCannibal agreed. i just wish the people who made the documentary had stepped in and taken her to the hospital. If she could still stand, get up and walk around then i feel something couldve been done. Just a shame. Such a sweet soul, ruined bc of horrible monsters.
@m0sasHospital would have been very frightening for Caraline - they forcefeed people with eating disorders and that would have been unbearable for someone like her. I think it would have been better if she hadn't had to live alone, but she probably would've felt unable to live with anyone because most bulimics are ashamed of what they do. Her mental pain must have been agonising and her death brought her peace.
These videos really humble me. Before I heard all that Caraline has been through, I thought *I* had a hard life. I just realize how small my problems are compared to some.
I suffered from anorexia for a period of time & watching what this woman has been through I feel like a pathetic coward. I didn't go through half the stuff that she had to endure. I'm crying thinking of why I'm so selfish and want to go back to being underweight, when I have a very decent life and ok upbringing. I feel like crying for her and putting my arm around her and even being her mother when I'm younger than her. I'm sorry I've referred to my issue in this reply, I just felt it was right
@MissPonderosa I think it is appropriate to mention yourself in these comments. Caraline is someone who found no refuge in her environment and had to look to herself to scrape together any means of emotional regulation because there wasn't any available to her anywhere else. This doesn't mean that those who suffer from anorexia and haven't suffered from the things she did are less worthy of pity.
@CandiedCloverFlowers There is nothing wrong with my post at all. I expressed my compassion for her & felt that I need to grow up because I have a whole lot more to live for then this woman did. I never said that others shouldn't have pity. I never said anything about pity. I simply expressed how I felt my situation is. I don't know what your really walking about
@MissPonderosa My post was *supporting* you. I agree that there wasn't anything wrong with your post. I was responding to your apology for referring to your issue; saying that I don't think you need apologize because it is so pertinent to the video. I never thought you said that others should not have pity at all! Golly, what a misunderstanding. My comment was that you may not have been hurt like her, but I don't think you're a pathetic coward. You must have felt hurt, too.
この動画にレスポンスを付ける... It is a sad fact that we aren't trained to deal with our anxiety, sadness, anger, sense of injustice, or fear through means which do not exacerbate these feelings. People tell us, in so many ways, that food will make us happier, that being physically appealing will help us, that our sadness is from not owning x, y, and z. And we believe.
この動画にレスポンスを付ける... Eating disorders are tragic for so many complicated reasons. One that first hits an outside viewer of a sufferer, perhaps first with feeling without words, is the perverse connection between food and control and feelings. It is perverse because it means there is no perceived way to directly deal with the emotion itself.
この動画にレスポンスを付ける... Emotions for the sufferer are dangerous enough that they must be first forcedly dealt with through tangible means. This, in anyone with any problems, is tragic in its own right.
It's so sad that she was so frail, mentally and physically, seeing her lose the fight. Such an articulate, eloquent young woman. She seemed to be rare in that the insight into her condition was quite profound I think that's what is so heartbreaking, the tragedy of seeing her trapped in her body. R.I.P Caraline - an extraordinarily brave young woman, I just wish you'd got the help you deserved.
...at this point her insides would have been fucked. The amount of organ damage that would have occurred would have killed her sooner rather than later.
I know of 1 person who's pictures (taken during sexual abuse!) are posted regularly on pro-ana sites. She's in a similar situation, except she's in a wheelchair because of the severity of her osteoporosis and she's actually unable to eat because of her completely damaged digestive system. She lives on IV glucose...but she'll never get enough.
All she ever needed was just ONE person to stand up and say that Caraline had a voice and needed to be heard. Instead, it seems like everybody turned away from her, fuelling this idea that she deserved that abuse and then turned on herself and slowly killed herself.
I wonder why therapy and mental health did not help poor Caralines down hill spiral. Why did the medical team let this this get so bad ?I think she should've been in hospitol. The isolation and ritual purging. Why did the professionals not help her with a feeding tube? instead of 25 pounds per day to get food to throw it all up. Did she not have that choice ( for a feeding tube)She needed behavioral and cognative intervention and not enabeling? RIP.
After a few months of procrastination, I've finally made the decision, next year Im going to do psychology instead of medicine in university. Thank you for the courage to make this decision Caraline, I hope you rest in paradise, knowing your true beauty, and that you did deserve love all along.
I´m sorry, I´m sorry... I´d like to understand all the people who do no kwnow how to live the life, and we don´t know how to live, how can we like to live if we are inside the illness too much time? I´m so sad with this video and I´ve seen more people near me that died for this illness... oh!this is too much difficult... I´d like live a normal life... I´m sorry Caraline... I´ll miss you.
I´m sorry, I´m sorry... I´d like to understand all the people who do no kwnow how to live the life, and we don´t know how to live, how can we like to live if we are inside the illness too much time? I´m so sad with this video and I´ve seen more people near me that died for this illness... oh!this is too much difficult... I´d like live a normal life... I´m sorry Caraline... I´ll miss you.
This is truly a mental illness brought on by endless child abuse. Most stories you here on YOUTUBE of "thinsperation" and "pro-ana" are lifestyles. These children are crying out "mental illness" when clearly it is not.
She needed to be put in a hospital and made to stay for a long time. It's clear that she has major mental issues and probably could have been court ordered to get treatment in a hospital.
this just breaks my heart that there are people who never experience true happiness in life because of neglect...her parents abused her in every way and she became her own abuser because in her head that's all she knew and in her eyes all she deserved. it makes me sad because it's 100% preventable but in this case there was no one who cared enough and the even sadder part is that there are probably more young women like her out there today in 2010.
almost speechless with sadness, dont know how i even came across this vid. but do want to say .. there is NO better place than being ALIVE and HERE with loved ones. I speak on behalf of only those i have loved and lost. tho RIP Caraline, clearly this lovely soul was a tortured soul.
Those of you asking why the filmmakers didn't intervene: There was nothing they could do, at this stage of malnutrition she would have simply been waiting to die, with no chance of any kind of recovery. Her entire insides were fucked up from being starved of the nutrients they need to function. Hopefully this heartbreaking video will encourage other sufferers to seek help before it's too late. RIP Caraline, she's in a far better place now, no doubt about it.
@dontbreaktheeggs I completely agree, sometimes eventually when your body is so worn out, you are so alone (I mean she began speaing to herself) and she suferred from her childhood demons. In a way for some they just want to be freed from the pain of their physical environment and body. It realy did not look like she was happy here on earth.
I hope you are happy and in peace now wherever you are Caraline. xx
Incredibly sad and difficult to hear. The loneliness is so present in the way she speaks about everything. It was interesting when she said that her parents penetrated everything, literally, figuratively, emotionally. It's difficult to understand how one lives with such despair. And yet, in her own way she tried to control it, even knowing she was hurting herself despite it all. Very sad. Thanks for posting.
this is such a horrible disease, you only have any real hope of getting better if you stop it in time but once youve had the disease for longer if affects your brain, your brain cant function like a normal person because it needs healthy fats to function so its kind of hopeless at that point since you cant think straight its impossible.
Can't you see that it's not about the refeeding or stopping her binge-purge cycles? It's the emotional turmoil that is the root cause of her anorexia/bulemia, and simply stopping the behaviours for a temporary duration will be fruitless. She probably didn't try to reach out for help, as people with bulemia usually carry out their routines secretively. Her family were estranged and she clearly has social dysfunction too. Jeez...
this documentary was so sad and made such and impresssion on me..i hope she is in peace now..it horrifies me to think that anorexia could control ur life to that extreme.i just pray tht those who are sick find help because they do matter and are humans who deserve to live and be controlled by this disease.
wtf?!, she was talking about not having no one to talk about.. MY GOD!!!!, the people who actually film this and NOT do anithing is like if they only were looking for a freak show to put it into a documental.. mygod!!!, people are so fuckd!!!!
how not?? where was all the refeeding and hospitilisation etc?? its so sad that she was not helped, but if she was refed and hospitalised and then put into residential care she would of had a better chance of recovery
She could've just signed out voluntarily, perhaps. Sometimes a person needs to be placed in against their will, and sadly, Caraline didn't have anyone who gave enough of a damn for her to do such a thing.
yeah she probably did, she should not have been allowed to though!! :( :( much as it sucks to be sectioned, it is usually nessicary, and in this case it was quite obvious how nessicery. I hope whoever(doctors, family, friends and neighbours and the people who filmed this documentary) feel great guilt, so much so that it keeps them up at night, because they could of done something, at least tried!! but they didnt. shes in a better place now though if people were so selfish and careless that they
What I don't understand is that there were people filming this and yet they didn't drag her to a fucking hospital As an anorexic who has been forced into treatment at a MUCH higher weight that this it doesn't make sense... She clearly needed sectioning.. How could thiese camera crews just film this and not DO anything, for fucks sake!
@india9 You can never know what those people you're mocking have been through! Even though they might not be in the condition Caraline was in, it doesn't mean that they don't need help and to be taken seriously. Posting self-harm pictures in youtube does not make that person an idiot but one in need of help. I had anorexia. Weighed 36 kg
@india9 They may seem petty to people who are not in those girls' heads. Being a little bit Worried about your weight is how this hell starts. Lets help them BEFORE they are like Karoline. Otherwise they will go to even greater lenghts to show that they mean business if no one believes they are hurting!
Eating disorders just consume your life. There is no way of thinking of a life other than one controlled by food. It is not about being vain, or attention seeking. This is a false sense of control, and it's just so sad to watch. You just want to make it all better... Eating disorders are so horrid, and it's socking to see how many people suffer in silence.
to think I could have had the same fate? Scares the hell out of me. Thank the lord that I was removed from my abusive parents and put into care. I too had eating disorders (plus I self harmed and tried to commit suicide) but I'm slowly getting better and now have a bright future ahead of me. RIP Caraline. You'll always be in my heart sweetie. xxx
This documentary changed my life. I mean that. 6 weeks after I watched this I enrolled in college after 2 children and more than 5 years out of school. I am now majoring in Behavioral Science so that hopefully one day I can work with teens and adults who are suffering from eating disorders. RIP Sweet Caraline, and please know that your story has inspired so many.
you know what's interesting... For some reason ever since I've been getting to the Karen Carpenter story with anorexia, I've been watching all sorts videos on eating disorders.
I'm over 200 lbs and I do have to say I sometimes do feel that I have Bulimic urges and it's frightening me to death. I never done it and I hope never will.
I've ready so many comments about these videos but yours was the only proactive one which made me want to do the same thing. I've been out of college since 2004.
thanks for your reply... But I feel my bulimic tendencies don't only come from being overweight. It's the fact I have some anger issues and sometimes I feel like I want to let it all out by purging because I feel that my whole life is out of control.
I've never done it before and I hope I'll never do it at all... I fought the urges and thank God, I'm successful. :)
It's odd, I wouldn't out this down as anorexia. her entire mental self is just completely broken. the eating disorder is just this part of it.. she's just completely broken. you can't fix that. this is the saddest thing I've ever watched, without exageration. anyone got the names of her parents? they deserve worse that death.
i love u sooo sooo much aunty caroline we all love and miss u soo much but your in a better place now our true angel forever in out memories and hearts xx
Caraline arranged to have this film made to help others in the same position. This film is now used for training purposes in colleges. A fellow anorexic and friend of Caraline's set up a help website which is still going strong 15 years later.
Her pet cat [in the opening part of the film,]is alive and well,but has anorexic tendencies,probably from watching her.
As for intervention..there was nothing they could do to remove the memories and mental scars she suffered.
@rmatmcam What I mean is a cat would not watch it`s owner and become bulimic / anorexic. A cat that throws up after eating often is something entirely different. That`s all.
This video is quiet but I plugged my headphones in and I heard every word. Very sad. It is difficult for social services to pick up on these things and often even when they know they can't do anything. Reality hurts. I just hope that people can help children, and adults who suffer like this in the future.
This is possibly the most moving thing I've ever seen. Keep the aspidistra flying; suffer the little children. I believe this inspired the song 4st 11lbs on the Holy Bible by the Manics.
don't worry about rude people who can't show a little bit of common courtesy because they are stuck-up betches. i googled her too and there is nothing but links to this video. and it is very hard to hear. poor quality video, its not just you.
I so hope she is happy now. So sad she had so much pain in her life. Past issues can be haunting and hurt for years and years. Such a sweet girl who was so worth much more then she felt.
Yeah, her flat seemed very dark, depressing and oppressive. Terrible atmosphere. The sense I got from Caraline all along was just one of hopelessness. Very, very sad- it shouldn't have came to this at all.
Whilst Caroline's story is terribly sad, I don't think encouraging her to show her 'routine' (of binging and being sick) was a good idea. If anything, it was almost an instruction film on how to be bulimic/anorexic.
I have to say, I agree with paschen2219 about the depressive atmosphere in the flat. Having a TV on or music playing can help to lift spirits a little - having something (even something as trivial as a favourite TV show) to focus on must be better than sitting in silence.
I dont think this documentary was instructional in any way. I assume your talking about her binging and then drinking water to help void her stomach as 95% of the rest of the video is her talking about her feelings & past.
One does not need to be instructed on how to induce vomiting, thats a no brainer. As far as the drinking of water, I drank water to lessen the dry heaves of morning sickness whilst pregnant. No one needed to tell me that it would help to drink water, its just common sense.
Actually, at that state of mind you don't want to watch television nor listen to music. You prefer to be alone, in silence and darkness because you are extremely depressed and sad. Nothing matters anymore because your brain is simply shut.
To be honest, I'm anorexic and exhibit some bulimic tendencies and everything shown on here, I already knew. People forget how mush is already known. The 'pro' ED sites out there are more to blame. This at least shows it in a negative light... it's not glamorized. If anything, for me it was a wake-up call to try my best to stop.
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sorry but this completely goes to show, idle hands make devils work. she sat in her room, moping all day. didnt do a single physical thing. didnt even watch anything to make her laugh, enjoy life. notice how she didnt listen to any music the entire time, and no television. she ENJOYED being miserable, and thats a fact.
i dont want another goddamn excuse about not understanding. she had camera/crew and couldve asked for help. only god can judge her, but she wasted her life.
maybe it hurt too much to try and do those things. maybe this misery is all she knew. have you ever been in a state of such depression? you see no reason to get better, it hurts too much to ever go away. you feel you dont deserve to be happy, why try and make yourself? the misery becomes you.
id like to hear how you would cope if you were her, a childhood full of abuse and a severe mental illness.
It is hard for you and many folks to understand the pain a person goes thru in stories like hers. Trust me no one enjoys this miserable illness nobody. Be glad your not having to go thru something like this. And yes your right only god can judge her but with your comment you did judge her. I pray you do have peace in your life and pray god can show you how to have compassion for others.
What I find eery is the childhood abuse she endured and that she still had the voice of a child. This squeaky, sad, little, tiny voice. What a horrible disease.
She sounds so young, so vulnerable there. Anorexia nervosa will eventually take the lives of 1 in 5 of its sufferers. I wish i could make a difference there.
I have recently created a pro-recovery forum for people suffering/recovering from an eating disorder. If you would like the url for the forum feel free to message me as Youtube won't let me post links on here.
After seeing this I realise how I take so much for granted, like the wonderful childhood my parents gave me. This woman will have been repaid for her suffering now. I really wonder if anything more could have been done for her, like maybe being sectioned under the Mental Health Act. Unfortunately though as I understand it, that is a maximum of 28 days...after what she went through I think it would have taken much more than that. Rest in peace x
I know what you mean. There is a longer section than 28 days... if you're assessed after the 28 days and still in need of help, there is a 6 month section. Why was this not done so much sooner? Anway, she's in peace now.
xx93, too pretty to have an ED? I hope you're not saying that only ugly ppl have ED's. Or, are you speaking from a makeup/physical size point of view?
no I mean when you have an ed you generally look quite malnourished and ill, but when the Hollyoaks portrayed Hannah's eating disorder, she looked the same and looked really healthy and curvy!!!! I wasnt making any bad comments and I'm sorry If I offended you by accident!!! xoxox
i never really understood how the effects of abuse could manifest itself through an eating dosorder. I could never get that concept, how the hell being sexually abused as a kid has anything to do with starving yourself.
Because all the pain and abuse you go throught stays inside of your mind and needs to get out in some way ; could be cutting, could be starving yourself or just talking to your psicologist...
I first saw this documentary in the early 1990`s and read articles at the time in magazines about Caraline. This poor beautiful lady suffered so terribly and cruely for no fault of her own.
I just hope her parents are suffering right now for the pain they caused.
I`ve read the book "My body My enemy" by Claire Beeken which is dedicated to Caraline.
I urge anyone who has been touched by this to read it, its not about Caraline but does involve her & the organisation set up in her memory.
rmatmcam, as I said in my other comment in responce to you, that was a very kind and loving thing you did. I'm numb and without words. The busy world going on outside while Caraline was inside dying a bit at a time hit me, but that bit of story at the end true did me in. hugs
I've watched this doc a few times. And every time it makes me so sad. Caraline has had so much hurt and abuse in her life. It also makes me angry that the NHS didn't section her under the mental health act. She may not have liked it but being tube fed, and working though some of her problems. She may have been alive now and able to find some sort of acceptance for herself.
caraline...you lived a life of pain, abuse and suffering that a gentle, sweet soul like yours didn't deserve and couldnt handle. You were immensely brave allowing this documentary to be recorded so that you could share your struggle with others who fight with it everyday. You've touched many peoples hearts and minds, mine included. You're an angel, and i can only pray you found your heaven <3
amen! I know for a fact that she indeed found her Heaven. God does not let souls like this, precious as Caraline's was and will always be, ultimately, fall by the wasteside. She was abandoned in life, but in her death, I ttruly believe she met the gates of heaven. Caraline, we all love you, and only wish we could have aleviated your pain, even just a little bit. Shine on, Caraline, You deserve it!
This is absolutely heartbreaking. Her parents should rot in hell. Rip. You're in a happier place now. No more pain.
christin3yvette 2 months ago
I don't understand why the grocery store keeps letting her continue the ritual of spending $36 per day, or for that matter why appropriate interventions are not taking place. She seems stronger than she should in that state also. She stands when she purges and sits up most of the time. As a migraine sufferer I must lay down quite often and I am at a normal weight. One would think she would not be strong enough to shop, prepare food, sit up and stand while purging.
KSitz77 3 months ago
Forgive me for being logical about this situation because this is a very emotional and sad case BUT the narrator said she weighed 3 1/2 stone. That equates to 49 pounds. That can't be right given how tall she is and looking at her body. Also, is if she eats two days worth of food in one evening I don't think she got rid of that much. I suffer from migraines and sometimes it makes me vomit and I can tell you just one meal makes me eliminate WAY more than she did, unless we did not see all.
KSitz77 3 months ago
I started suffering from bulimia at 17 - I still struggle at the age of 49. I wrote to Caraline before she died and she replied to my letter. I was never as thin as Caraline, but went through the same rituals and obsessional behaviour. The loneliness, pain and isolation of this disease is indescribable. What a brave woman you are, Caraline.
Fool1100 3 months ago
@Fool1100 I wish i could have spoken to her . I wish i could have helped :( it makes me so sad ... one of my subscribers said i was following the exact same path as her :/ I dont think anyone has ever followed the same path as her :( x
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This makes me so, so sad. I can't imagine the pain she suffered.
Rest in peace, Caraline.
Lrr0REglittafied 4 months ago
wait wait..what pills are those o.O ;\ ?????????
BodyartCat 4 months ago
wait wait..what pills are those o.O ;\ ?????????
BodyartCat 4 months ago
i just wish so much to have been able to sit with her every night and let her talk to me. I think if she had someone, anyone there to hold her and just listen or make her laugh she would still be here. She may not have been cured but she would have had a chance. Poor baby. RIP angel, you deserve to!
m0sas 5 months ago
@m0sas I would have done the same. I want to hold her so bad, let her know shes beautiful. She really was. Hold her hand and show her that you can be happy. I wish she was still here..
TheNocturnalCannibal 4 months ago
@TheNocturnalCannibal agreed. i just wish the people who made the documentary had stepped in and taken her to the hospital. If she could still stand, get up and walk around then i feel something couldve been done. Just a shame. Such a sweet soul, ruined bc of horrible monsters.
m0sas 4 months ago
@m0sasHospital would have been very frightening for Caraline - they forcefeed people with eating disorders and that would have been unbearable for someone like her. I think it would have been better if she hadn't had to live alone, but she probably would've felt unable to live with anyone because most bulimics are ashamed of what they do. Her mental pain must have been agonising and her death brought her peace.
Fool1100 3 months ago
These videos really humble me. Before I heard all that Caraline has been through, I thought *I* had a hard life. I just realize how small my problems are compared to some.
cocorosiedream 6 months ago
I suffered from anorexia for a period of time & watching what this woman has been through I feel like a pathetic coward. I didn't go through half the stuff that she had to endure. I'm crying thinking of why I'm so selfish and want to go back to being underweight, when I have a very decent life and ok upbringing. I feel like crying for her and putting my arm around her and even being her mother when I'm younger than her. I'm sorry I've referred to my issue in this reply, I just felt it was right
MissPonderosa 7 months ago
@MissPonderosa I think it is appropriate to mention yourself in these comments. Caraline is someone who found no refuge in her environment and had to look to herself to scrape together any means of emotional regulation because there wasn't any available to her anywhere else. This doesn't mean that those who suffer from anorexia and haven't suffered from the things she did are less worthy of pity.
CandiedCloverFlowers 6 months ago
@CandiedCloverFlowers There is nothing wrong with my post at all. I expressed my compassion for her & felt that I need to grow up because I have a whole lot more to live for then this woman did. I never said that others shouldn't have pity. I never said anything about pity. I simply expressed how I felt my situation is. I don't know what your really walking about
MissPonderosa 6 months ago
@MissPonderosa My post was *supporting* you. I agree that there wasn't anything wrong with your post. I was responding to your apology for referring to your issue; saying that I don't think you need apologize because it is so pertinent to the video. I never thought you said that others should not have pity at all! Golly, what a misunderstanding. My comment was that you may not have been hurt like her, but I don't think you're a pathetic coward. You must have felt hurt, too.
CandiedCloverFlowers 6 months ago
@CandiedCloverFlowers Oh...sorry It was a misunderstanding! Well thank you! :) That was very nice!
MissPonderosa 6 months ago
この動画にレスポンスを付ける... It is a sad fact that we aren't trained to deal with our anxiety, sadness, anger, sense of injustice, or fear through means which do not exacerbate these feelings. People tell us, in so many ways, that food will make us happier, that being physically appealing will help us, that our sadness is from not owning x, y, and z. And we believe.
CandiedCloverFlowers 6 months ago
この動画にレスポンスを付ける... Eating disorders are tragic for so many complicated reasons. One that first hits an outside viewer of a sufferer, perhaps first with feeling without words, is the perverse connection between food and control and feelings. It is perverse because it means there is no perceived way to directly deal with the emotion itself.
CandiedCloverFlowers 6 months ago
この動画にレスポンスを付ける... Emotions for the sufferer are dangerous enough that they must be first forcedly dealt with through tangible means. This, in anyone with any problems, is tragic in its own right.
CandiedCloverFlowers 6 months ago
It's so sad that she was so frail, mentally and physically, seeing her lose the fight. Such an articulate, eloquent young woman. She seemed to be rare in that the insight into her condition was quite profound I think that's what is so heartbreaking, the tragedy of seeing her trapped in her body. R.I.P Caraline - an extraordinarily brave young woman, I just wish you'd got the help you deserved.
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...at this point her insides would have been fucked. The amount of organ damage that would have occurred would have killed her sooner rather than later.
I know of 1 person who's pictures (taken during sexual abuse!) are posted regularly on pro-ana sites. She's in a similar situation, except she's in a wheelchair because of the severity of her osteoporosis and she's actually unable to eat because of her completely damaged digestive system. She lives on IV glucose...but she'll never get enough.
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Harrowing. Everyone should watch this at least once.
cedricthecentaur 11 months ago
I couldnt understand what she was saying even with the volume turned up....will say I do feel bad for these people though.
longfilly 11 months ago
@longfilly She was so ill she could barely speak above a whisper. Plus its evidently a really old VHS recording.
cedricthecentaur 10 months ago
All she ever needed was just ONE person to stand up and say that Caraline had a voice and needed to be heard. Instead, it seems like everybody turned away from her, fuelling this idea that she deserved that abuse and then turned on herself and slowly killed herself.
XxMeganTurnerxX 1 year ago
how and when did she die?
redsmooch989 1 year ago
I wonder why therapy and mental health did not help poor Caralines down hill spiral. Why did the medical team let this this get so bad ?I think she should've been in hospitol. The isolation and ritual purging. Why did the professionals not help her with a feeding tube? instead of 25 pounds per day to get food to throw it all up. Did she not have that choice ( for a feeding tube)She needed behavioral and cognative intervention and not enabeling? RIP.
paranrm 1 year ago
After a few months of procrastination, I've finally made the decision, next year Im going to do psychology instead of medicine in university. Thank you for the courage to make this decision Caraline, I hope you rest in paradise, knowing your true beauty, and that you did deserve love all along.
ostentatiousvirtue 1 year ago
Rest in peace beautiful angel. I hope you've found peace xx
chippydolphin 1 year ago
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I´m sorry, I´m sorry... I´d like to understand all the people who do no kwnow how to live the life, and we don´t know how to live, how can we like to live if we are inside the illness too much time? I´m so sad with this video and I´ve seen more people near me that died for this illness... oh!this is too much difficult... I´d like live a normal life... I´m sorry Caraline... I´ll miss you.
Forever in our hearts.
Cerval1974 1 year ago
I´m sorry, I´m sorry... I´d like to understand all the people who do no kwnow how to live the life, and we don´t know how to live, how can we like to live if we are inside the illness too much time? I´m so sad with this video and I´ve seen more people near me that died for this illness... oh!this is too much difficult... I´d like live a normal life... I´m sorry Caraline... I´ll miss you.
Forever in our hearts.
Cerval1974 1 year ago
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Cerval1974 1 year ago
This is truly a mental illness brought on by endless child abuse. Most stories you here on YOUTUBE of "thinsperation" and "pro-ana" are lifestyles. These children are crying out "mental illness" when clearly it is not.
ashleyryanful 1 year ago
She needed to be put in a hospital and made to stay for a long time. It's clear that she has major mental issues and probably could have been court ordered to get treatment in a hospital.
grumpygirl1000 1 year ago 5
this just breaks my heart that there are people who never experience true happiness in life because of neglect...her parents abused her in every way and she became her own abuser because in her head that's all she knew and in her eyes all she deserved. it makes me sad because it's 100% preventable but in this case there was no one who cared enough and the even sadder part is that there are probably more young women like her out there today in 2010.
ladybaba84 1 year ago 3
I just pray that she's found peace. I don't think I've ever wished it more for a person.
ayslin218 1 year ago 10
@ayslin218 I agree 100%.
ladybaba84 1 year ago
I can't say anything...
Jessicaszh 1 year ago
almost speechless with sadness, dont know how i even came across this vid. but do want to say .. there is NO better place than being ALIVE and HERE with loved ones. I speak on behalf of only those i have loved and lost. tho RIP Caraline, clearly this lovely soul was a tortured soul.
bec775775 1 year ago
How sad. Anorexia is a SERIOUS, life threatening disorder and needs to be treated as such-more awareness, more help.
MsKamaro1 1 year ago
Those of you asking why the filmmakers didn't intervene: There was nothing they could do, at this stage of malnutrition she would have simply been waiting to die, with no chance of any kind of recovery. Her entire insides were fucked up from being starved of the nutrients they need to function. Hopefully this heartbreaking video will encourage other sufferers to seek help before it's too late. RIP Caraline, she's in a far better place now, no doubt about it.
dontbreaktheeggs 1 year ago 7
@dontbreaktheeggs I completely agree, sometimes eventually when your body is so worn out, you are so alone (I mean she began speaing to herself) and she suferred from her childhood demons. In a way for some they just want to be freed from the pain of their physical environment and body. It realy did not look like she was happy here on earth.
I hope you are happy and in peace now wherever you are Caraline. xx
AngelViolet22 1 year ago
Incredibly sad and difficult to hear. The loneliness is so present in the way she speaks about everything. It was interesting when she said that her parents penetrated everything, literally, figuratively, emotionally. It's difficult to understand how one lives with such despair. And yet, in her own way she tried to control it, even knowing she was hurting herself despite it all. Very sad. Thanks for posting.
MsCheddarBear 1 year ago
this is such a horrible disease, you only have any real hope of getting better if you stop it in time but once youve had the disease for longer if affects your brain, your brain cant function like a normal person because it needs healthy fats to function so its kind of hopeless at that point since you cant think straight its impossible.
rvggarcon 1 year ago
Can't you see that it's not about the refeeding or stopping her binge-purge cycles? It's the emotional turmoil that is the root cause of her anorexia/bulemia, and simply stopping the behaviours for a temporary duration will be fruitless. She probably didn't try to reach out for help, as people with bulemia usually carry out their routines secretively. Her family were estranged and she clearly has social dysfunction too. Jeez...
jayinbold 1 year ago 6
its heartbreaking how lonely she is
bridgerox94 1 year ago 7
this documentary was so sad and made such and impresssion on me..i hope she is in peace now..it horrifies me to think that anorexia could control ur life to that extreme.i just pray tht those who are sick find help because they do matter and are humans who deserve to live and be controlled by this disease.
smartybecky 2 years ago
Where was her much needed counsel? This is so sad. All she needed was help.
awfulxwafflex 2 years ago
wtf?!, she was talking about not having no one to talk about.. MY GOD!!!!, the people who actually film this and NOT do anithing is like if they only were looking for a freak show to put it into a documental.. mygod!!!, people are so fuckd!!!!
GcGameCube 2 years ago
@GcGameCube They wouldn't be able to help.
ACbonscottDC 2 years ago
how not?? where was all the refeeding and hospitilisation etc?? its so sad that she was not helped, but if she was refed and hospitalised and then put into residential care she would of had a better chance of recovery
oh4godssake 2 years ago
@oh4godssake Fair point :/
ACbonscottDC 2 years ago
She could've just signed out voluntarily, perhaps. Sometimes a person needs to be placed in against their will, and sadly, Caraline didn't have anyone who gave enough of a damn for her to do such a thing.
anqeiicdemise 1 year ago
yeah she probably did, she should not have been allowed to though!! :( :( much as it sucks to be sectioned, it is usually nessicary, and in this case it was quite obvious how nessicery. I hope whoever(doctors, family, friends and neighbours and the people who filmed this documentary) feel great guilt, so much so that it keeps them up at night, because they could of done something, at least tried!! but they didnt. shes in a better place now though if people were so selfish and careless that they
oh4godssake 1 year ago
dint want to try help her immediately!!.... what a cruel world!!......... haaaaagh sorry.... RANT. OVER.
oh4godssake 1 year ago
I was thinking that, when she was purging. The should have tried to stop her, documentary or not.
MissShrinkMe 2 years ago
What I don't understand is that there were people filming this and yet they didn't drag her to a fucking hospital As an anorexic who has been forced into treatment at a MUCH higher weight that this it doesn't make sense... She clearly needed sectioning.. How could thiese camera crews just film this and not DO anything, for fucks sake!
givemenovember 2 years ago 5
I think there's no camera crew. It's her own homecam.
luticia 2 years ago
it was only parts home cam, it was home cam when it said REC in red on the screen
oh4godssake 2 years ago
I'm so touched by this doc. I feel so sorry for her.
PainBringsBeauty 2 years ago
poor poor kid rip angel, safe now... free now
Raeanne231 2 years ago
where did she live?
kdoy306 2 years ago
brighton, england
foxgirl100 2 years ago
@foxgirl100 I was there once...
JeMeChaTB 2 years ago
Why does everyone have to use the comments on this poor woman's story to broadcast their own petty problems?
A 14 year old's wanarexic issues do not compare to what this documentary shows.
I'm sick of hearing: I once made myself sick in a youtube video, then I self-harmed and posted the pictures on facebook. RIP Caraline.
People are so self-centered!
Sorry about the rant, but this film has left a very deep impression on me. What it shows is horrific and should not have been allowed to happen.
india9 2 years ago 109
@india9 You can never know what those people you're mocking have been through! Even though they might not be in the condition Caraline was in, it doesn't mean that they don't need help and to be taken seriously. Posting self-harm pictures in youtube does not make that person an idiot but one in need of help. I had anorexia. Weighed 36 kg
hypoksifilia 6 months ago
@india9 They may seem petty to people who are not in those girls' heads. Being a little bit Worried about your weight is how this hell starts. Lets help them BEFORE they are like Karoline. Otherwise they will go to even greater lenghts to show that they mean business if no one believes they are hurting!
hypoksifilia 6 months ago
is that an excerpt from alice in wonderland at the end? it sounded familiar but i may be way off.
milagrolitadice 2 years ago
Eating disorders just consume your life. There is no way of thinking of a life other than one controlled by food. It is not about being vain, or attention seeking. This is a false sense of control, and it's just so sad to watch. You just want to make it all better... Eating disorders are so horrid, and it's socking to see how many people suffer in silence.
peanuuut 2 years ago
awaywiththefairies16 - Please find someone to help you thru your tough times. It will be worth it - you are that important
ahawkr13 2 years ago
god bless her soul. I wish i could get over my eating disorder, its slowly taking over my life x x x
awaywiththefairies16 2 years ago
i hope you can overcome this disease.
deathiinabox 2 years ago
believe in yourself dear. you can pull thru.
kyli86 2 years ago
to think I could have had the same fate? Scares the hell out of me. Thank the lord that I was removed from my abusive parents and put into care. I too had eating disorders (plus I self harmed and tried to commit suicide) but I'm slowly getting better and now have a bright future ahead of me. RIP Caraline. You'll always be in my heart sweetie. xxx
xXxCymrucwtchxXx 2 years ago 2
This documentary changed my life. I mean that. 6 weeks after I watched this I enrolled in college after 2 children and more than 5 years out of school. I am now majoring in Behavioral Science so that hopefully one day I can work with teens and adults who are suffering from eating disorders. RIP Sweet Caraline, and please know that your story has inspired so many.
jessicabsavage26 2 years ago 50
you know what's interesting... For some reason ever since I've been getting to the Karen Carpenter story with anorexia, I've been watching all sorts videos on eating disorders.
I'm over 200 lbs and I do have to say I sometimes do feel that I have Bulimic urges and it's frightening me to death. I never done it and I hope never will.
I've ready so many comments about these videos but yours was the only proactive one which made me want to do the same thing. I've been out of college since 2004.
AudioEngineerSara 2 years ago
Sara you don't have to be bulimic to lose weight. I lost 40lbs with SparkPeople, which is free. Don't start on that path of self-destruction.
isitsoiryet 2 years ago
thanks for your reply... But I feel my bulimic tendencies don't only come from being overweight. It's the fact I have some anger issues and sometimes I feel like I want to let it all out by purging because I feel that my whole life is out of control.
I've never done it before and I hope I'll never do it at all... I fought the urges and thank God, I'm successful. :)
AudioEngineerSara 2 years ago
I just want to thank you Jessica because you put this idea in my head. Maybe I can help myself along the process of helping others.
Thank you again and thank you Yukio for sharing this documentary with us.
Bless you both and may you be guided to the enlightened path.
AudioEngineerSara 2 years ago
@jessicabsavage26 respect to ya for that!
StevieWondersWhy24 10 months ago
@jessicabsavage26 That's amazing. Good luck. There is so much that needs to be done.
cedricthecentaur 9 months ago
i really can't hear whatshe said in all videos but what a sad life really.
sancti78 2 years ago 6
It's odd, I wouldn't out this down as anorexia. her entire mental self is just completely broken. the eating disorder is just this part of it.. she's just completely broken. you can't fix that. this is the saddest thing I've ever watched, without exageration. anyone got the names of her parents? they deserve worse that death.
miquel64 2 years ago 12
i love u sooo sooo much aunty caroline we all love and miss u soo much but your in a better place now our true angel forever in out memories and hearts xx
shivnayy 2 years ago 2
June 3rd 1994
rmatmcam 2 years ago
Why didn't anyone intervene? You don't film someone going through that..................
lexlaw007 2 years ago 2
Caraline arranged to have this film made to help others in the same position. This film is now used for training purposes in colleges. A fellow anorexic and friend of Caraline's set up a help website which is still going strong 15 years later.
Her pet cat [in the opening part of the film,]is alive and well,but has anorexic tendencies,probably from watching her.
As for intervention..there was nothing they could do to remove the memories and mental scars she suffered.
rmatmcam 2 years ago
@rmatmcam That`s a bad joke, right?
kitty3309 1 year ago
@kitty3309 sorry, I don't quite get what you mean ''That's a bad joke, right?''
rmatmcam 1 year ago
@kitty3309 I don't quite get what you mean about a ''bad joke?''
rmatmcam 1 year ago
@rmatmcam What I mean is a cat would not watch it`s owner and become bulimic / anorexic. A cat that throws up after eating often is something entirely different. That`s all.
kitty3309 1 year ago
wow how could they have so many people working this documentary and have such horrible sound quality?
forestskog 2 years ago
This video is quiet but I plugged my headphones in and I heard every word. Very sad. It is difficult for social services to pick up on these things and often even when they know they can't do anything. Reality hurts. I just hope that people can help children, and adults who suffer like this in the future.
agreything 3 years ago 4
I think that there was no excuse for not intervening and having her and her borther fostered.The social services let her down badly.
Janvierireland 2 years ago 3
social services always fuck up
aaahhhhaaaahhhh 2 years ago 2
R.I.P. Caroline. I pray to god you found piece in the afterlife.
soveryfragile 3 years ago 2
this is truly the saddest thing for a person to have to endure.. rip caroline
sweetlilness 3 years ago 3
This is possibly the most moving thing I've ever seen. Keep the aspidistra flying; suffer the little children. I believe this inspired the song 4st 11lbs on the Holy Bible by the Manics.
ralphinioresurrected 3 years ago
I can't hear her talk I don't know anything about her.
Is there somewhere I can read about her?
Lisa13245 3 years ago
This comment has received too many negative votes show
"I can't hear her talk "
You have posted this idiotic comment on every part of the video, you stupid bitch......
PrivateSchulz 3 years ago
WOW... I said that because I thought maybe it was just my computer and whats wrong with you? Why do you feel the need to swear?
I mainly wanted to know about her and her story. And what's wrong with me saying I can't hear her talk? Does it bother you?
Lisa13245 3 years ago 6
Lisa, just do a google search for "Caraline Neville-Lister" -- seriously, don't be lazy.
joseanzaldua 3 years ago
I'm not lazy and not stupid.
I already did that when I saw the video.
Love how I did that and got like nothing.
Lisa13245 3 years ago
don't worry about rude people who can't show a little bit of common courtesy because they are stuck-up betches. i googled her too and there is nothing but links to this video. and it is very hard to hear. poor quality video, its not just you.
tellervo88 3 years ago 7
Thanks. I knew I wasn't the only one.
Lisa13245 3 years ago 4
lol
forestskog 2 years ago
so so sad :(
knowing someone had to go through so much pain and suffering and neglect is really upsetting :(
rip caraline x
mrscliffrichard 3 years ago 4
Lonliness is a killer
blueye7 3 years ago 7
That is... intense. I'm moved. amazing documentary
FeloniousAngel 3 years ago 5
I so hope she is happy now. So sad she had so much pain in her life. Past issues can be haunting and hurt for years and years. Such a sweet girl who was so worth much more then she felt.
Blueyeshining 3 years ago 8
Yeah, her flat seemed very dark, depressing and oppressive. Terrible atmosphere. The sense I got from Caraline all along was just one of hopelessness. Very, very sad- it shouldn't have came to this at all.
Dingalingring 3 years ago 3
Whilst Caroline's story is terribly sad, I don't think encouraging her to show her 'routine' (of binging and being sick) was a good idea. If anything, it was almost an instruction film on how to be bulimic/anorexic.
I have to say, I agree with paschen2219 about the depressive atmosphere in the flat. Having a TV on or music playing can help to lift spirits a little - having something (even something as trivial as a favourite TV show) to focus on must be better than sitting in silence.
johartuk 3 years ago
I dont think this documentary was instructional in any way. I assume your talking about her binging and then drinking water to help void her stomach as 95% of the rest of the video is her talking about her feelings & past.
One does not need to be instructed on how to induce vomiting, thats a no brainer. As far as the drinking of water, I drank water to lessen the dry heaves of morning sickness whilst pregnant. No one needed to tell me that it would help to drink water, its just common sense.
toogood4u97 3 years ago 3
Actually, at that state of mind you don't want to watch television nor listen to music. You prefer to be alone, in silence and darkness because you are extremely depressed and sad. Nothing matters anymore because your brain is simply shut.
NatalieNYC 3 years ago 8
Maybe thats you but I know a lot of people with ED's that watch tv or listen to music etc ...[natalienyc]
REBARBATIVEbec 3 years ago
To be honest, I'm anorexic and exhibit some bulimic tendencies and everything shown on here, I already knew. People forget how mush is already known. The 'pro' ED sites out there are more to blame. This at least shows it in a negative light... it's not glamorized. If anything, for me it was a wake-up call to try my best to stop.
God bless her soul.
mygentlewhispers 3 years ago 6
Ia gree, this really is a wakeup call, and makes me so scared that this how someone can turn out like.
i thought my childhood was bad, but... wow.
this is humbling.
i rarely cry, but this has done it to me.
PsychoticLemonQueen 2 years ago 5
this makes my childhood seem nice : (
kcm05814 2 years ago
Oh man! She was so skinny, its scary!
Look at the arm she is lifting up and 0:09!
Oh man!
Poor girl...
R.I.P
barmallah 3 years ago
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sorry but this completely goes to show, idle hands make devils work. she sat in her room, moping all day. didnt do a single physical thing. didnt even watch anything to make her laugh, enjoy life. notice how she didnt listen to any music the entire time, and no television. she ENJOYED being miserable, and thats a fact.
i dont want another goddamn excuse about not understanding. she had camera/crew and couldve asked for help. only god can judge her, but she wasted her life.
paschen2219 3 years ago
maybe it hurt too much to try and do those things. maybe this misery is all she knew. have you ever been in a state of such depression? you see no reason to get better, it hurts too much to ever go away. you feel you dont deserve to be happy, why try and make yourself? the misery becomes you.
id like to hear how you would cope if you were her, a childhood full of abuse and a severe mental illness.
orchibablaze 3 years ago 13
It is hard for you and many folks to understand the pain a person goes thru in stories like hers. Trust me no one enjoys this miserable illness nobody. Be glad your not having to go thru something like this. And yes your right only god can judge her but with your comment you did judge her. I pray you do have peace in your life and pray god can show you how to have compassion for others.
Blueyeshining 3 years ago 4
What I find eery is the childhood abuse she endured and that she still had the voice of a child. This squeaky, sad, little, tiny voice. What a horrible disease.
passerby109 3 years ago 7
This was one of the most heartwrentching people I've seen yet....
She sounded so sweet and sooo sad...
REST IN PEACE
ghostinvestigater 3 years ago 8
God Bless Caraline.
She sounds so young, so vulnerable there. Anorexia nervosa will eventually take the lives of 1 in 5 of its sufferers. I wish i could make a difference there.
G1rlF516nd 3 years ago 4
What a beautiful person, and what a cruel life you were dealt.
Rest in Peace. I hope to meet you on the other side.
bobbin321 3 years ago 4
What happened to the other brothers and sisters????
djparrish01 3 years ago
Thank's for sharing .
Btw, why did they record it and didn't take her to the hospital ?
Hugs !
knoxtaurigen 3 years ago
She's over 18. It's her choice to make unless someone takes over guardianship of her medical care.
Also, this happened before the initial assessment process was introduced.
Unfortunately.
This was hard to watch. It's like looking into a crystal ball. I hope I don't end up like that.
May she rest in peace.
adorelo1 3 years ago
Peace, Caraline.
I know that you are now free of evil and happy in heaven, you deserve it sweetheart x.
KatrinaMaguire 3 years ago
What a sad, sad story.
What else can one say?
waysgoose 3 years ago
You poor soul Caraline, I am so sorry that life treated you like that.
I hope that other people cut down in the prime of their lives are able to seek some help however small from Caraline's story.
dirtyarris 3 years ago
Rest in peace beautiful girl.
God Bless
torocobe 3 years ago 2
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Pinklucy38 3 years ago
Oh Caraline may your soul finally find peace. I pray that it has and that your abusers suffer their fate.
presdfortime 3 years ago
RIP Caraline! God Bless You!
xXpinkpiscesXx 3 years ago
my heart has literally just broken : (
shneakacious 3 years ago
can somebody explain me who abbuses her, because i can barely ear her and understand what she was saying.
lalola321 3 years ago
her mother and her father both abused all seven of them, sexually, physically and mentally.
XnBcX 3 years ago 3
This was heartbreaking she went through such awful things, she really did not need to have happen to her at all.
and when she says 'Im to old for a mum'
its heartbreaking none is to old for a mum.
i just could not stop crying all the way through this
and the way she put on a childish voice was just so awfully sad
i also think alot more could have done to help her
PAIGEL0UISE 3 years ago
After seeing this I realise how I take so much for granted, like the wonderful childhood my parents gave me. This woman will have been repaid for her suffering now. I really wonder if anything more could have been done for her, like maybe being sectioned under the Mental Health Act. Unfortunately though as I understand it, that is a maximum of 28 days...after what she went through I think it would have taken much more than that. Rest in peace x
samgiraffes 3 years ago 6
I know what you mean. There is a longer section than 28 days... if you're assessed after the 28 days and still in need of help, there is a 6 month section. Why was this not done so much sooner? Anway, she's in peace now.
painfulsoulbleeding 3 years ago
She is so articulate... I love her voice.
This is so sad... rest in peace, Caraline. <3
nymphetamine9mm 3 years ago 2
actusally randomist88, Hollyoaks is a stupid collection of pathetic actors who portray anorexia hmmm...really badly!
Hannah is way too pretty to have an eating disoreder-they never make her look ill enough, plus the fact that shes too curvy!
xx93emoxx 3 years ago
xx93, too pretty to have an ED? I hope you're not saying that only ugly ppl have ED's. Or, are you speaking from a makeup/physical size point of view?
calikaren71 3 years ago 3
no I mean when you have an ed you generally look quite malnourished and ill, but when the Hollyoaks portrayed Hannah's eating disorder, she looked the same and looked really healthy and curvy!!!! I wasnt making any bad comments and I'm sorry If I offended you by accident!!! xoxox
xx93emoxx 3 years ago
xx93, no worries, lol. I gotcha. :D xoxox
calikaren71 3 years ago 2
Bless her heart may she finally rest in peace
mscarolinadarlin 3 years ago 3
5 months after this was filmed.
mrsluadzers 3 years ago
i never really understood how the effects of abuse could manifest itself through an eating dosorder. I could never get that concept, how the hell being sexually abused as a kid has anything to do with starving yourself.
....Now i know.
RIP Caroline
levity90 3 years ago 3
Because all the pain and abuse you go throught stays inside of your mind and needs to get out in some way ; could be cutting, could be starving yourself or just talking to your psicologist...
fackafacka 3 years ago 3
How very sad. She is in a better place and is no longer suffering.
doesntmattertoyou 3 years ago 8
i really cant hear her very well poor kid tho r i p caraline
paulsimpson123 3 years ago
So very sad she had to go thru so much. God is holding her hand and she suffers no more now.
Blueyeshining 3 years ago 2
She's in heaven now.
sighlentgirl 3 years ago 4
maybe not in a direct sense but her parents murdered her for what they did to her, people like that are burning in hell
R.I.P Caraline, i hope your happy where you are
littlemiss1510 4 years ago 4
what pills/tablets was she taking?
glassfullofaids 4 years ago
probably anti-depressants and something to help her relax/sleep
samilou87 3 years ago
I first saw this documentary in the early 1990`s and read articles at the time in magazines about Caraline. This poor beautiful lady suffered so terribly and cruely for no fault of her own.
I just hope her parents are suffering right now for the pain they caused.
I`ve read the book "My body My enemy" by Claire Beeken which is dedicated to Caraline.
I urge anyone who has been touched by this to read it, its not about Caraline but does involve her & the organisation set up in her memory.
Helena74 4 years ago 5
The Alice in Wonderland extract made me cry!... :(
x x x
RIP
xxx
PlobyR 4 years ago 2
That was me, reading 'ALICE'.I made a tape for her of the'Alice in Wonderland story,which was her faveourite,it helped her to go off to sleep.
rmatmcam 4 years ago
That was a very sweet thing for you to do for her.
*hug*
x x x
PlobyR 4 years ago
rmatmcam, as I said in my other comment in responce to you, that was a very kind and loving thing you did. I'm numb and without words. The busy world going on outside while Caraline was inside dying a bit at a time hit me, but that bit of story at the end true did me in. hugs
BlueSkyes9112006 2 years ago
I have watched the 4 other vids, but this wont load. ffs
XdarkangelleX 4 years ago
R.I.P. Caraline. I hope that wherever you are now you are happier and peaceful. x
lolliedollie1986 4 years ago 3
I've watched this doc a few times. And every time it makes me so sad. Caraline has had so much hurt and abuse in her life. It also makes me angry that the NHS didn't section her under the mental health act. She may not have liked it but being tube fed, and working though some of her problems. She may have been alive now and able to find some sort of acceptance for herself.
RIP Caraline.
lightasair4eva 4 years ago 3
I can´t hear what she says. Too bad quality. I wish somone could do subtitles to this documentary.
victoalia222 4 years ago 3
I just wish I could understand what shes saying.
RIP Caraline <3
neonriot77 4 years ago
caraline...you lived a life of pain, abuse and suffering that a gentle, sweet soul like yours didn't deserve and couldnt handle. You were immensely brave allowing this documentary to be recorded so that you could share your struggle with others who fight with it everyday. You've touched many peoples hearts and minds, mine included. You're an angel, and i can only pray you found your heaven <3
sintegrate 4 years ago 16
amen! I know for a fact that she indeed found her Heaven. God does not let souls like this, precious as Caraline's was and will always be, ultimately, fall by the wasteside. She was abandoned in life, but in her death, I ttruly believe she met the gates of heaven. Caraline, we all love you, and only wish we could have aleviated your pain, even just a little bit. Shine on, Caraline, You deserve it!
calikaren71 4 years ago 2