Let's talk about bipolar and suicide

[Erap1muzik]

jesus christ the only saviour

[WealthGuardShow]

Thank you. I didn't make it till my Dr. appt. on 1/2/12. I was hospitalized after "playing" with my gun waiting for it to accidentally go off. The hospital did little for me and they let me out 3 days later. 2 days later I started cutting. I'm 41 and I thought that was something kids do. I cringe when I wake up and see the sun coming up because its a sign of another day. I can't imagine living life without my wife. If she leaves (and it looks like she is) I don't think I'll make it. 22 years!

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@WealthGuardShow I'm sorry you are having a rough time. I hope things improve for you.

[PixelPi]

You have no control over what she does, she is an individual with her own wants and desires. You do have control over yourself though, so work on that. Go see a psychologist for insight into your relationship and accept responsibility that some of the problems in your relationship are caused by you... because it takes two to make a quarrel.

[kansasjamiemcmurray]

I can tell you yes I do suffer from bipolar and A .D.H.D amoung other things myself and I have had thoughts of scuidal thoughts about ending it all . Pressure from the sin I get myself in at times weights me down but I have learnd to give it all to God the lord takes my pain away . I would urge anyone to please listen to B-Shoc I wanna get to know you. It's got a message we all need to hear .

[Lorelle1020]

@kansasjamiemcmurray Hi, is this a song or video?

[kansasjamiemcmurray]

@Lorelle1020 This is a Video and a very good one at that

[danielsaun1]

Thank you I empathize. I have BP1, Paranoia, GAD, CSP, and OCD. Growing up in an unstable home with an alcoholic,. I because a drug addict, a criminal and until recently did not know why

I have been thinking about suicide or abandon my wife i am a burden to her. OD'D on oxy a few years ago. Thank you for your courage in sharing

[Radicaldreamer255]

You're not alone. Been battling Bipolar for years, also have ADHD to top it off. I also have a nasty addiction to pills.

[ryguycoolest2]

I just have to say, thank you so fucking much.. Im 24 and have been struggling with this illness since I can remember, though only diagnosed 5 years ago.. For the last 4 days I have been batteling fit my life, that's what depressive episodes are for me. Suicidal ideation 24/7... I came on YouTube and found your beautiful honest voice, and I hear and feel it and it took me out of myself for a moment. Thank you for a ray of sunshine... Thank u for hope.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@ryguycoolest2 Thanks so much for viewing. I hope you are doing alright.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@GentlePoet1984 That's good that you are able to keep your head about you even when you are suicidal. That can be so hard to do sometimes. Luckily I have not felt that way in a very long time.

[Mylianx]

I love your videos.

Can one be bipolar even if one has never had suicidal thoughts or have never experienced psychosis?

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@Mylianx Yes, not everyone who has bipolar experiences psychosis.

[Lorelle1020]

@BipolarStateofBeing Hi, Can you explain what psychosis is?  Thanks

[flaffylally]

i have had suidicial thoughts since i was 8 years old, everytime i was told what a big head ache i was for my mum, or i was being told off and called bad girl i always thought "well if things get too hard or i cannot stop making problems for everybody, i can always jump out the window", i always have and still do, think of suidicide as way of escaping from reality when gets too hard, or when i see the people around me are suffering too much cause of my contantly ups and downs"

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@flaffylally I'm sorry to hear that, I know what you mean though, sometimes things just seem so tough that it is hard to see other ways out. But they are out there.

[xXSUNSHiNE17Xx]

hello

[crAckZ111]

Been down this road. I was so upset when I was woken. Pure frustration and rage

[Ziggyquest123]

suicide is opting out of life I want to be let go for some reasons iam still here I lost mant to suicide I wantto be with them for my life is not good

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@Ziggyquest123 I know sometimes it seems like it but suicide is not the answer. Maybe you should talk to someone if you are feeling this way.

[ARakaLordBrilliant]

I wrote a poem called " The theory of the letter Y" It is dedicated to everyone, you all the people on the comments, people in the United States, Soldiers wounded, People who have been raped, or murdered unjustly. My friend who killed herself. I have experienced with friends all of what I mentioned. Please check out my poem called the "The Theory of the letter Y" Please support all fellow human beings despite color or gender. Show love and appreciation!

[MultiIPwnage]

I want to kill my self. and I will

[monicanietzsche]

thanks for sharing your experiences...it helps knowing that I am not the only one dealing with craziness!! you have guts!!

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@monicanietzsche Thanks for viewing!

[soxrox00]

im in the same situtation u were in as a 12yr old :/ im 13 tho

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@soxrox00 It's hard but you have to keep in mind things do get better. Especially when you are so young, there really is so much in life to look forward to that you would miss out on if you were gone. Easier said than done though, I know. It's hard waiting it out. It helps to have someone to talk to about it. I never had anyone when I was young so I think that made it worse. Hopefully you have someone you can talk to about it and not keep it bottled inside.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@MylifeforOdin I feel you about the family situation. The last time I was suicidal, that is what stopped me, the thought of my children and knowing that I would scar them for life if I was to kill myself, and I know they would never really get over it. And it was a sad thought that my children may grow up and never know me, even if I am depressed at times.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@MylifeforOdin That is definitely a scary concept, what happens after death. I personally don't believe we go to heaven or hell, I just believe we return to the dirt from which we came so it is a scary idea to me, to simply cease existing.

[RapidCycling07]

What up sugah? Listening to Judas Priest right now...if u dont listen to any heavy metal these guys are a fuckin gnarly way to give heavy metal a listen...love the pig tails...u look very cute...depression is interesting...ive felt depression/anxiety before so thats why i dont think i am a psychopath...or can psychopaths experience these things?...hey would u ever consider touring the US/the world to meet ur fans?id love to meet u.u r the only girl besides my wife that i consider friend material

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@RapidCycling07 Well thanks, I think, LOL. I like to believe I make a good friend!

[dgenerated]

Who would cheat on you?..You are GORGEOUS!! =]

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@dgenerated Thank you you are very kind :)

[Indoside]

So sad. Soaking in sweat and not knowing what to do. Heart pounding. Scared, alone with only one thing in mind.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@Indoside You have to keep in mind, deep down, that there are better things out there and the depression won't last forever. I know it is hard when you are in the middle of it all though, it seems like the only option at times.

[Indoside]

Just saying how I felt.

[lorasonier]

he there, I am glade that you have put this to light, as I think about it all the time, and its nice to know that I am not alone,

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@lorasonier You are definitely not alone. I have no idea how many times I have thought about suicide...more than I could count.

[akjopeneyes]

@IChoseTheRedPill, I have been there as well, for years I would think about killing myself in so many ways, it would just pop into my head, and though I would envision myself doing it I never tried, but the terrifying thing was driving ea day to and from work and thinking about driving off the road or into traffic, how easy it would be, and hoping my instincts didn't take over all of the sudden! It is a horrible thing to not trust your own thoughts...

[akjopeneyes]

@BipolarStateofBeing, thank you yet again for being honest and open about your experiences. You will prob never know how many people's lives you have affected through these video's but I know for me, to have the connection with someone who understands what we go through daily behind our masks we have learned to perfect all of these years, for even those 5 or 6 min it brings such comfort to me, and I think a lot of others:)

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@akjopeneyes I am so glad it has been helpful. This was a particularly hard video to do but I'm glad that I did because I know others are out there that can relate and that it helps to have it talked about openly.

[akjopeneyes]

@riffranger... if I had the strength and a stronger faith maybe I could have just leaned on God to pull me through, but at the time I didn't and once I realized I couldn't survive on my own, the more I began to pray and turn to others for support, the less I drank and smoked, and for the first time in my life now I do not go to sleep praying "Lord, take me away". I will be praying that you find the same comfort I have and want to wake up the next morning to see what the day brings:)

[akjopeneyes]

@riffranger, I had been dealing with almost daily thoughts of suicide for the last 17 yrs of my life. Too many people had let me down and eventually all of us can only take so much emotional hurt. As a Christian I would pray a lot but at times it felt like God had let me down as well, so I did what I could to survive...literally. I started smoking for the first time in 16 yrs, drinking, and watching a lot of sad, depressing, and dark movies...

[pinkpicklesxx35]

this took a lot of courage and i definitely agree that suicide & suicidal thoughts are things that should be talked about more often & openly. in the moment, it's so hard to imagine things ever getting better but in time, they do. this reminded me of all the times i felt like i had no other option and couldn't make it through another day. life has some beautiful things to offer..if given the chance. thanks for the reminder :)

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@pinkpicklesxx35 I totally agree, in the blackness of depression, it can be so hard to see any other way out at times, but life does get better in time.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@stillhippie I personally believe there are some people who are prone to suicide and others who are not. Like, obviously, I have those issues. My mom, when she gets depressed, talks/thinks about suicide as well. My dad on the other hand I don't think has ever thought of suicide no matter how stressed or hard things get in life. I'm not saying people are born that way but just like mental illness I think some people are more susceptible to it than others, and all it takes is a trigger.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@MsDelle1 I'm so sorry to hear about what you had to go through. I'm glad that things are better for you now.

[riffranger]

For the last few months I've been dealing on a a daily basis with these kind of thoughts. i've been trying not to be led by these fealings but by the Truth.I believe there is life after death where things could be alot worse(heavy stuff)I've been Praying and reaching out alot

Thanks for the Video

JRP

[IChoseTheRedPill]

@riffranger  i hope that you get some relief from these thoughts... i'm glad that you have someone to reach out to...

namaste

[IChoseTheRedPill]

Respond to this video... i'm not in a depressive cycle but i do deal with intrusive thoughts of me hurting myself... i was working on a roof today and the idea to leap over the edge just poped in my head... at times i get the urge to drive my van into oncoming traffiic i'm lucky enough to have insight into what is happening to me at the time and ignore it... this was a good video, thanks for sharing...

namaste

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@IChoseTheRedPill Definitely don't go driving your car into oncoming traffic! That would be very bad. But I know what you mean about having the random thoughts now and then. Sometimes I just randomly think about suicide for no reason at all.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@riffranger I'm sorry to hear that you've been dealing with these feelings yourself. I hope that the prayer and everything has been helpful to you. It is definitely a hard phase to get through but you have to have faith and believe and know deep down that eventually things will get better *hugs*

[riffranger]

@BipolarStateofBeing

I.ve desided to stop takeing most of my BP meds.Thanks for your support.

[auroralivejournal]

Thank you thank you thank you for posting this. You're right. Needs to be talked about more often.

[BipolarStateofBeing]

@auroralivejournal I know, it seems like it is so taboo, and rarely if ever talked about at all.