Samantha you are so inspiring. Yes life has up and downs and we need to live and find the wonders of life.
I am transitioning in January and know it will be wonderful, yet also hard. I will lose my marriage and face other issues. However I do not want to live a lie and I want to live happier.
I hope the pain subsides and you can get back to living a normal life.
This video was a strong show of emotion, caring, visualization, and realization of the days ahead. It is good to hear your observations and experiences in post-op life so far... so many things I will have to keep in mind. Lastly, I have also heard about this loss of someone who seemed notably a good person, and, indeed, it has been heartening to see the TSG community and friends thereof speaking out about her. Choose tomorrow, indeed. I did. Who else will?
This is a concept that I've definitely been struggling with more and more as of late. I seem to be spending far to much time allowing the conflicts and pain of my past drag me down and stall my progress into a proper and complete life.
You always speak elegantly from the heart, you're an awesome person!
Hey Samantha. I just wanted to add another positive comment into the sea of positive comments on your videos and tell you that you really are an inspiration to so many people. We've never talked before but I've seen a lot of your videos and I just really admire the way you carry yourself and that I wish I could do something to make you not feel so bummed out.
Anyway, I just wanted to stop by with good wishes for you and hope you feel better much sooner than later.
Hi Sam, be kind to yourself. You have just been through something that is life altering and you are still in the early stages of healing. It does get better and the post-op blues I was warned about will soon pass as will the dilation issues (I've just gone down to once a day). Bless you, you are a beautiful girl and you have your whole life to look forward to. Nicki xox
Thank you (as always) for the level-headed, straight forward, down to earth video. Once again, your perspective is very much appreciated both in terms of your own experiences post-op, as well as your handling of Krista's passing.
I've watched your videos for well-over a year. That was - from your time in Copenhagen through SRS, but had never seen that first TSG video - a very fun way to begin your foray into this You-tube trans community.
Overall you are a very positive role model. Thanks!
your perspective of a 'new tomorrow' is one of Hope. I am sorry for your personal struggles at this time but am sure with your attitude, it will get better. Life is so full of wonderful surprises and i believe when a door is closed, a window is open. We can look back in hindsight sometimes and see why things occured the way they did. If life was all good, i think we wouldn't appreciate it as much.we have to have the downs to appreciate the good. Blessings to you, dear Girl.
Samantha, so coincidental you should post; I was just thinking about you last night and came to YT today to go to your channel. voila! a new video. As someone that works in mental health, we all can only try to understand the horrible pain that someone suffers who chooses to end their time here on Earth. Your message of encouragement speaks volumes.I believe that we are all used as vessels to deliver messages and perhaps someone else will see this who is in severe despair; it will give them hope
It was Very tough on allot of us here on YT to see the passing of Crista and it was great that you had a closer connection to her. I did not know her as much as I wish I could have. Maybe if more of us did know her and the trouble she was having things would have been better.
OMG I am in totally shock about Krista, I subscribed to her and I remember her last video saying that she was reading to leave you tube and live her life. She seemed so at peace. My thoughts and prayers to all. x
@SamanthaZero34 Hey I know the "moments" you go trough first hand this days... except for the post-op part :-(... But its great to see you are a strong forward looking person, but still there is only so much one person should have to carry on its shoulder alone. Please take good care of yourself.
It's about the best for me to have you and your videos. You give me so much hope and you are a real deep thinker. There is always so much truth in your words. Keep on going, girl! Love you!
it s silly how much easier it is to comfort others than to believe yourself that things will improve again when you are feeling down, hugs to you Samantha
Samantha, You know we all go through struggles. You are right about life goes on. It's a "GOOD" thing to look to tomorrow for a brighter day. I'm so happy for you that your surgery went well. I hope you feel better soon. Also, we all miss Krista. We even posted it on TransGender Network's Facebook page along with your videos as well. You are a TRUE inspiration to the entire Trans-Community. I'm sorry for your loss in your relationship. I can relate to that twice over. We ALL Love you !
Nothing like death to teach us about humility, being thankful, and how we can do things with more thought and consideration moving forward. Sorry to hear about your breakup. I remember the video of you and your ex (guess you can call her that now) and you both seemed so happy. I'm planning on GRS next summer and wanted to thank you for being honest about what you are going through as it helps me prepare mentally. Seeing you find strength to deal somehow helps me to find the same.
it really is true sweety, time heals all wounds...whether they be physical emotional relational, time heals all wounds....as long as you dont let yourself slip as Krista did into choosing her final act.....so you'll make it babe, the physical, emotional, and even spiritual hard times will ease in the coming months and years.....i agree about Krista, that was Krista, she was so apt, apt and willing to selflessly give of herself, before even asking, thats the girl i came to know very well,and miss
Oh Samantha...I just want to jump through this computer screen and hug you right now. I still can't believe that Krista is gone. I, too, wish I would have known exactly how much pain she was in. I had no idea how bad it must have been. Oh no, Samantha...I didn't know that you broke up with your girlfriend. I'm so very sorry honey...I truly am. My heart aches for you both. Thank you for NOT sugar coating. Life is...well...life. Sunrises are a very good thing. Love to you sweetie! xoxo
Samantha!!Great to see you again.Good to see the your recovery is going well.Thank`s for the info about post op and the dildilation.(Choose tomorrow)nice words,but when life treats you unkindly.When the only way to sleep is to take large dosages of pain killers and a sleeping pill just so i don`t dream.When i get flashback`s from bad things that happend to me in the past.Living kinda sucks.Just take it one day at a time & hope it gets better.All i can do.Very sad about Krista.Wish you the Best.
Gosh you've have lots going on. The first few months after SRS are really hard. I had horrid post op blues and then lost my job, but things do get better! Don't beat yourself up about connecting with the community either. You do great. I was totally stunned and very sad to hear about Krista. I hope she at least had a peaceful end. Most of the time people don't know someone is thinking seriously of suicide, by the time they do its often too late. Take care and keep your chin up old bean!
Hi Samantha, dilation consumes your life in that 1st few months as your finding out, its frustrating and its easy to get down about it. You quickly find out the sort of willpower you possess by having to keep things on track. It does get easier, the pain will subside and you will be able to eventually resume normal life in months to come. Stay strong xxx
I'm sorry to hear about this down patch but you abolutely have the right mindset and that mindset about looking towards tomorrow is hard to find. Losing someone you loved is never easy especially in such a manner but dwelling on death when it seems that Krista was so impactful in changing lives will not bring anyone peace. Take pride in the fact that she and you are helping educate and enlighten people and are healing souls so that hopefully in the future people won't feel hopeless.
this is a powerful video... i'm sorry to hear that your post-op life isn't going as well as you expected... i hope things improve sooner than later... Krista always seemed so upbeat in her videos, it is hard to try and understand why she did it... i hope that your sorrow is manageable...(((Big Hugzzz)))
stay strong. nothing great every came from and easy struggle. Never underestimate how much can change in 24 hours. Sleep, Eat and Be well. Hugs go out to you, love goes out to Krista, she will be missed.
It is a sad tragedy with the girl from TSGalactica, there is always the afterthought "I could have done more". You are a very emphatic person, and you have now experienced one sad thing after the other. I need to accept my feelings when I experience sad losses. I hope you accept yourself - I think you can create a good life for yourself and your beloved. I think I worked my way through a lot of crisis. Now I have had time to think over life and understanding more of the past. Happy Thursday :)
but there really is nothing ypu could have done. i have tossed around ideas of how i could have stopped it for years and all i do is beat myself up. the best thing i think we can do is let the pain die with them. they never meant for us to carry that burden. hugs and i hope your tomorrow is beautiful!
samantha, im sorry you are having such a rough time right now. i hope your surgery wounds heal soon... the flesh wounds are the easiest to heal. at around 7:30 i saw a pain in you i have struggled with for years... a friend of mine killed himself in 2006 and i still am just barely feeling like it wasnt my fault. my family friends and therapist jave been telling me for a long time but it is so hard to believe..
I adore your videos for your ability of seemingly accessing your most emotional thoughts and expressing them so clearly and honestly. Troubles usually come in threes, lets hope the future is brighter and leave the past behind.
Wow, you are so beyond beautiful. I wish I was as strong as you. I'm transitioning now and what I see before me is everything I want to be. I love you. Hugs and support xx
I'm not trans and I didn't know Krista but for a few of her TSG videos. When I found out about her suicide if felt so sad and so angry.
You can't think you or anyone could have prevented Krista from doing what she did. Krista had close friends around her including another TSG'er. She kept the worst part of her pain to herself and no one knew to try to prevent what happened.
Very nice tribute to Krista. I hope people see her strength in you.
Feverwood 5 months ago in playlist watch 1
This video shook me at my core. Thank you.
resonemang 8 months ago
Hey there! Have been seeing ur vdos, u r a human that made ur dream come true. Nt just like others who just say and forget it. Take care.
evildon77 8 months ago
Hello Sam,hope your ok and well on the way to full recovery,I've just stoped by to wish you happy july fourth festivities for tomorrow. X Samantha
TheRavenlament 8 months ago
good video!
SINDYTS 8 months ago
Samantha you are so inspiring. Yes life has up and downs and we need to live and find the wonders of life.
I am transitioning in January and know it will be wonderful, yet also hard. I will lose my marriage and face other issues. However I do not want to live a lie and I want to live happier.
I hope the pain subsides and you can get back to living a normal life.
Hugs
KristenMac100 8 months ago
Thanks for this, you are a Heroine, sharing your battles with us who need elders to look to in this life of ours, blessings and take care.
VarvaraBell 8 months ago
This video was a strong show of emotion, caring, visualization, and realization of the days ahead. It is good to hear your observations and experiences in post-op life so far... so many things I will have to keep in mind. Lastly, I have also heard about this loss of someone who seemed notably a good person, and, indeed, it has been heartening to see the TSG community and friends thereof speaking out about her. Choose tomorrow, indeed. I did. Who else will?
AngelMarie1976 8 months ago
I'm going to miss my Sister a whole lot.
itspaul70 8 months ago
This is a concept that I've definitely been struggling with more and more as of late. I seem to be spending far to much time allowing the conflicts and pain of my past drag me down and stall my progress into a proper and complete life.
You always speak elegantly from the heart, you're an awesome person!
May the goddess bless your journey,
and May the Force be with You :) *hugs*
rvbgeek 8 months ago
Hey Samantha. I just wanted to add another positive comment into the sea of positive comments on your videos and tell you that you really are an inspiration to so many people. We've never talked before but I've seen a lot of your videos and I just really admire the way you carry yourself and that I wish I could do something to make you not feel so bummed out.
Anyway, I just wanted to stop by with good wishes for you and hope you feel better much sooner than later.
SHWADE22 9 months ago
Hi Sam, be kind to yourself. You have just been through something that is life altering and you are still in the early stages of healing. It does get better and the post-op blues I was warned about will soon pass as will the dilation issues (I've just gone down to once a day). Bless you, you are a beautiful girl and you have your whole life to look forward to. Nicki xox
365Nicki 9 months ago
Everything will be ok Samantha, stay strong! Life always has ups and downs, and surprises (sometimes not positive).
GirlOverTheRainbow 9 months ago
Hello Samantha &Thanks hun xx Samantha
TheRavenlament 9 months ago
watch?v=IfQJ_V9K3EM
Just couldn't help myself =) *hugs* <3
WitheredAnge1 9 months ago
Well said. You have a great out look on life. Keep your head up. And thank you again for posting your inner thoughts for the world to see.
TracyTsVideos 9 months ago
Thank you (as always) for the level-headed, straight forward, down to earth video. Once again, your perspective is very much appreciated both in terms of your own experiences post-op, as well as your handling of Krista's passing.
I've watched your videos for well-over a year. That was - from your time in Copenhagen through SRS, but had never seen that first TSG video - a very fun way to begin your foray into this You-tube trans community.
Overall you are a very positive role model. Thanks!
riverwest1 9 months ago
your perspective of a 'new tomorrow' is one of Hope. I am sorry for your personal struggles at this time but am sure with your attitude, it will get better. Life is so full of wonderful surprises and i believe when a door is closed, a window is open. We can look back in hindsight sometimes and see why things occured the way they did. If life was all good, i think we wouldn't appreciate it as much.we have to have the downs to appreciate the good. Blessings to you, dear Girl.
Caseysmom2 9 months ago
Samantha, so coincidental you should post; I was just thinking about you last night and came to YT today to go to your channel. voila! a new video. As someone that works in mental health, we all can only try to understand the horrible pain that someone suffers who chooses to end their time here on Earth. Your message of encouragement speaks volumes.I believe that we are all used as vessels to deliver messages and perhaps someone else will see this who is in severe despair; it will give them hope
Caseysmom2 9 months ago
It was Very tough on allot of us here on YT to see the passing of Crista and it was great that you had a closer connection to her. I did not know her as much as I wish I could have. Maybe if more of us did know her and the trouble she was having things would have been better.
Sarahannhur 9 months ago
OMG I am in totally shock about Krista, I subscribed to her and I remember her last video saying that she was reading to leave you tube and live her life. She seemed so at peace. My thoughts and prayers to all. x
allicando1 9 months ago
i feel like i could write a novel of a response. (((hug))) you're beautiful.
javgirl 9 months ago
hay Samantha it will get better, promise!! The dialations will get less painful as well so dont worry,it will be ok
miranda
mirandaluc 9 months ago
@SamanthaZero34 Hey I know the "moments" you go trough first hand this days... except for the post-op part :-(... But its great to see you are a strong forward looking person, but still there is only so much one person should have to carry on its shoulder alone. Please take good care of yourself.
ThePlankton71 9 months ago
It's about the best for me to have you and your videos. You give me so much hope and you are a real deep thinker. There is always so much truth in your words. Keep on going, girl! Love you!
Charlene
charlenesingers 9 months ago
it s silly how much easier it is to comfort others than to believe yourself that things will improve again when you are feeling down, hugs to you Samantha
noorderloos 9 months ago
Samantha, You know we all go through struggles. You are right about life goes on. It's a "GOOD" thing to look to tomorrow for a brighter day. I'm so happy for you that your surgery went well. I hope you feel better soon. Also, we all miss Krista. We even posted it on TransGender Network's Facebook page along with your videos as well. You are a TRUE inspiration to the entire Trans-Community. I'm sorry for your loss in your relationship. I can relate to that twice over. We ALL Love you !
MzLadyFox 9 months ago
Samantha,
Nothing like death to teach us about humility, being thankful, and how we can do things with more thought and consideration moving forward. Sorry to hear about your breakup. I remember the video of you and your ex (guess you can call her that now) and you both seemed so happy. I'm planning on GRS next summer and wanted to thank you for being honest about what you are going through as it helps me prepare mentally. Seeing you find strength to deal somehow helps me to find the same.
Love
netnut7 9 months ago
it really is true sweety, time heals all wounds...whether they be physical emotional relational, time heals all wounds....as long as you dont let yourself slip as Krista did into choosing her final act.....so you'll make it babe, the physical, emotional, and even spiritual hard times will ease in the coming months and years.....i agree about Krista, that was Krista, she was so apt, apt and willing to selflessly give of herself, before even asking, thats the girl i came to know very well,and miss
100rag22x30 9 months ago
Oh Samantha...I just want to jump through this computer screen and hug you right now. I still can't believe that Krista is gone. I, too, wish I would have known exactly how much pain she was in. I had no idea how bad it must have been. Oh no, Samantha...I didn't know that you broke up with your girlfriend. I'm so very sorry honey...I truly am. My heart aches for you both. Thank you for NOT sugar coating. Life is...well...life. Sunrises are a very good thing. Love to you sweetie! xoxo
PaintedRavensong 9 months ago
Here's hoping things start looking up for you Samantha!
micheleabutler 9 months ago
Samantha!!Great to see you again.Good to see the your recovery is going well.Thank`s for the info about post op and the dildilation.(Choose tomorrow)nice words,but when life treats you unkindly.When the only way to sleep is to take large dosages of pain killers and a sleeping pill just so i don`t dream.When i get flashback`s from bad things that happend to me in the past.Living kinda sucks.Just take it one day at a time & hope it gets better.All i can do.Very sad about Krista.Wish you the Best.
underloved1 9 months ago
Beautiful - stay in touch - ...always a Galactican. <3
ufo8mykat 9 months ago
Gosh you've have lots going on. The first few months after SRS are really hard. I had horrid post op blues and then lost my job, but things do get better! Don't beat yourself up about connecting with the community either. You do great. I was totally stunned and very sad to hear about Krista. I hope she at least had a peaceful end. Most of the time people don't know someone is thinking seriously of suicide, by the time they do its often too late. Take care and keep your chin up old bean!
Sarahjepps1 9 months ago
Hi Samantha, dilation consumes your life in that 1st few months as your finding out, its frustrating and its easy to get down about it. You quickly find out the sort of willpower you possess by having to keep things on track. It does get easier, the pain will subside and you will be able to eventually resume normal life in months to come. Stay strong xxx
brdncharles 9 months ago
I'm sorry to hear about this down patch but you abolutely have the right mindset and that mindset about looking towards tomorrow is hard to find. Losing someone you loved is never easy especially in such a manner but dwelling on death when it seems that Krista was so impactful in changing lives will not bring anyone peace. Take pride in the fact that she and you are helping educate and enlighten people and are healing souls so that hopefully in the future people won't feel hopeless.
Drac39 9 months ago
Samantha,
I hope you meet someone special now that you are a woman.
Sad to hear about Krista...i really liked her videos.
My heart goes out to you.....
Your Friend,Big Bear.....Willow Alaska
wildman99688 9 months ago
this is a powerful video... i'm sorry to hear that your post-op life isn't going as well as you expected... i hope things improve sooner than later... Krista always seemed so upbeat in her videos, it is hard to try and understand why she did it... i hope that your sorrow is manageable...(((Big Hugzzz)))
take good care and PeaCe2U
IChoseTheRedPill 9 months ago
stay strong. nothing great every came from and easy struggle. Never underestimate how much can change in 24 hours. Sleep, Eat and Be well. Hugs go out to you, love goes out to Krista, she will be missed.
sneverheart 9 months ago
It is a sad tragedy with the girl from TSGalactica, there is always the afterthought "I could have done more". You are a very emphatic person, and you have now experienced one sad thing after the other. I need to accept my feelings when I experience sad losses. I hope you accept yourself - I think you can create a good life for yourself and your beloved. I think I worked my way through a lot of crisis. Now I have had time to think over life and understanding more of the past. Happy Thursday :)
lexadlanod 9 months ago
You beautiful wise woman *hugs tight* <3 <3 <3 Love you.
Kabal42 9 months ago
but there really is nothing ypu could have done. i have tossed around ideas of how i could have stopped it for years and all i do is beat myself up. the best thing i think we can do is let the pain die with them. they never meant for us to carry that burden. hugs and i hope your tomorrow is beautiful!
youcancallmethedude 9 months ago
samantha, im sorry you are having such a rough time right now. i hope your surgery wounds heal soon... the flesh wounds are the easiest to heal. at around 7:30 i saw a pain in you i have struggled with for years... a friend of mine killed himself in 2006 and i still am just barely feeling like it wasnt my fault. my family friends and therapist jave been telling me for a long time but it is so hard to believe..
youcancallmethedude 9 months ago
Samantha,
Stay strong, heal, and grow.
A wish for a better tomorrow.
Peace & hugs.
mzinformed5 9 months ago
your such a nice person it makes me happy to be trans & alive, Im sorry about the sad stuff.
FRANKHIP 9 months ago
Some videos off hers can be seen on her channel MntnGirl81.
Sorry for the break up. Hang in there. Long-distance internet hugs.
-EP
eternallypre 9 months ago
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eternallypre 9 months ago
I adore your videos for your ability of seemingly accessing your most emotional thoughts and expressing them so clearly and honestly. Troubles usually come in threes, lets hope the future is brighter and leave the past behind.
bonio999 9 months ago
Happy tomorrows Samantha. Lots of them.
Jackie
jackiejanetm 9 months ago
Wow, you are so beyond beautiful. I wish I was as strong as you. I'm transitioning now and what I see before me is everything I want to be. I love you. Hugs and support xx
SaffronMay 9 months ago
Sending you a big hug Samantha!!! Tomorrow is always a better day no matter what you feel in the current moment. Take care, Jamie
jamiejogirl 9 months ago
only one thing to do.... *hugs sam* as tears enrich the dry soil, so fortitude may sprout once again
theforgecustoms 9 months ago
What is he chanel anyway???
Mrberlinnh 9 months ago
And this video made me cry ;_;
MooooonDemon 9 months ago
I'm sorry to hear about your friend Krista.
I struggle with severe depression on a daily basis and I just have to believe things will get better.
MooooonDemon 9 months ago
I'm not trans and I didn't know Krista but for a few of her TSG videos. When I found out about her suicide if felt so sad and so angry.
You can't think you or anyone could have prevented Krista from doing what she did. Krista had close friends around her including another TSG'er. She kept the worst part of her pain to herself and no one knew to try to prevent what happened.
FaceForRadio63 9 months ago
@FaceForRadio63 Absolutely the same here. I relate to every word you say!
jungledi 9 months ago