The fight is over I am all cried out

[NaughtyMinx111]

I've just started watching your videos. So, I know your situation has changed - haven't yet got to the recent ones. Realise this is an old vid. Felt compelled to comment.

Alot of crap thrown at you, the cancer, the HIV & the homeless thing. You're doing your best to soldier on. Keep your head up. Happy thoughts. I don't think I could cope with your situation being honest. Sometimes might not seem so, clearly your spirit is stronger than every bad thing going on. Much kudos and respect..

[BiggSherlie]

i juss happen to run across this video.. and im going to continue to watch ur older videos t get to know more about u... i juss wanted to say... u touched me.. i am a comedian on youtube.. i do advice video and requests on topics my viewers send me.. and ive not touches on HIV yet... u have inspired me to do so... ppl need to hear this type of stuff... its to real out here...and these youunger teens need information... if u have any specific information or msg u want me to give pls inbox me...

[snooky396]

I know this video is old, but my God did it break my heart! :(

[slipknotmaggotful]

dude you so need a bro hug right now

[masterdelrap]

FUCK DUDE U MAKING ME CRY OF YOUR SITUATION

[jewellee100]

Stay strong you can do it I beleive 100% in u

[WillBattleyou]

you the fuckin man,

[Moimellow]

After you've done all you can-U JUST STAND!

[lovekillsbeware]

hey, hows it going i hope things are looking up for you. Ive been through similar bull so i know the pain. thanks for sharing

[allancea1]

@kengikat I know this is old, but I wanted to say that I relate to you. I dont have HIV but I have had to have a heart transplant, got diagnosed heart failure when I was 25 and just found out last year before my transplant that I have MD. I KNOW how you felt in this video. I too have been so frustrated that I gave up. Had 2 wks to live. Look how far you've come, dear. God kept you throught the hardest times. How great is it to look at these videos and see that?

[TheProductofsociety]

Look papi I know it can get very trying at times,believe me I know but you need to always keep in mind that as bad as you swear your situation is,at your very worst moment there is someone out there,outside this country you live in,outside in a complete different world,one where they cant even be as lucky as you are to even take the time to feel sorry for themselves and complain as you are able to do.There are people who cant afford meds,food,water,housing.Take a deep breath and remember that.

[Kengikat]

@TheProductofsociety Maybe if you took the time to take a closer look, you would see that I was homeless when I made this video. I was eating from trash cans and fist fighting for my belongings. Maybe you should take a step back and not judge people after watching one video.

[aylix89]

i am so glad to see that you still kept going. i really dont think i would have the strength

[SkyBlu3Android92]

..='( i know this is old

but i hope you're doing alright.

no one should have to go through what you did.

stay strong.

[Sassymarkrep]

Wow. I know this vid is old but its sad that anyone should leave a medical facility or any place seeking help and come away feeling as you did. Unacceptable and I am sorry.

[ms1tbyles]

I am so happy to see how far you've come and the fact that they did not BREAK you!!!! I admire your relentless strength through adversity!!!!!!!!! You rock Kengi!!!!

[ravingisfun]

I love you man, everything will workout, smile

[sampson247]

HOLD ON!!! YOU CAN MAKE IT!!! THERE IS A DIVINE ORDER TAKING PLACE THAT ARE MAKING THINGS BETTER FOR YOU BABES!!!

[Kengikat]

@sampson247 Thank you, this is over 2 years old.

[bluballzzz]

@Kengikat this video gabe me nightmares horrible

[carmendecor]

@bluballzzz ..Yes this vid is really sad but I pray all works out for him....

[HenryChinaski405]

You are right. Harbor UCLA is a freakin DUMP. Its a total ghetto hopsital with ghetto staff. They couldnt give a fuck less if you die right there in the waiting room. ER visits have record wait times.

The staff is horribly cold and rude. The beaucracy is fucking out of control.

[maxluxur01]

I just want to say that I'm homeless and happen to be in Santa Monica at the library as I type, hey man you inspire me, just when I thought I had it bad I go and run accross your videos, hope your doing better...

[cinnamonslices]

Kenji,

This video made me cry. I am so sorry you had to go through this. Kenji this is so awful (how you were feeling).

Love you

Cinnamon :(

[temptstress666]

Just hang on, everyone is with you man

[Kengikat]

Thank you. This video is over a year old. Best to watch more to see where I am now

[xxash010xx]

im sorry i hope that you are okay

[billoakesattablthree]

God bless you - I'm glad to see you are better - my prayers are with you and hope you find more and more kindness that you deserve.

[megalomaniacvon]

I am so glad to hear you have HIV.

[GaylordFoccker]

what kind of fucked up person are you?

[TWIGST3R]

My grandma died in that hospital.

[adamben101]

Hi Kengi. I'm glad you are in a different better place now. God bless!

[Qi2an6a]

There is a cure for Aids, Cancer and every disease out there. Please let me know if you are open minded enough to hear it. I would love to share, I come from a place of love only!

[Kengikat]

I am replying in love. You are 23 years old I am 40 Be dealing with cancer since I was 21. Sickle Cell my whole life. I have been hiv positive for over a year and still no meds, My body is doing great. I am now cancer free for 11 weeks now. There is no cure for HIV or AIDS, there is no cure for Sickle Cell. Please dont act like you know at 23 years old. GOOD BYE

[flamexxic]

dude ur strong for 1 person but i do agree with Qi2an6a  the Government might hide things

[Kengikat]

Thanks for your comment. Be well

[BestToBeAlone]

My heart goes out to you. You've been through so much.

[Kengikat]

That was such a painful day for me

[GaylordFoccker]

sorry to hear it. the reason they make you come to the hospital to hear the result is because they fear you will commit suicide on the spot like many others who have heard their results over the phone. so in case you are feeling suicidal they can snitch and call the cops or security to restrain you from hurting yourself.

they also want you to sign the acknowledgment papers so that way they can prosecute you if you spread it after knowing you have it. theyre clever bastards.

[Kengikat]

The miss the whole point of this video. I was already in that hospital for 11 days. They refused to sign my housing papers, this is what I am upset in this video, not because I am HIV positive. They had already diagnosed me in Febraury

[gildrop]

I feel for you so much.  Its people like you who are insperations. You represent the group of people who are trying to better yourself and get help and i respect that tremendosly. sorry for the terrible spelling lol i'm very sleepy

[Kengikat]

Thank you. I am better now, this was over a year ago. Things are better and I am in my own place. Please watch more of my videos

[Moshid88]

I see this video is about a year old now, but how is your situation now? I am praying for you with all my heart.

[Kengikat]

I am much better, have my own place and doing well. Please watch more videos and catch up. Thanks

[mmxcyu09]

yep been down there as you can on my other posts.Absaloute shit heads, tossers.. wankers.. toss pots.. whatever u want to call them, they are a compete disgrace to humanity.

[eadkate2525]

I'm crying

[Kengikat]

dont cry, things are so much better now. That was a year ago. I am have my own place now and I am well. Please watch more videos to see what I've been doing

[doldromofthemerry]

So glad you're doing much better now, Kengi. You deserve the world.

[Kengikat]

Thanks so much. It still hurts so much to see this video of me. Still brings tears to me eyes. Hard to believe that was me, but look where God has placed my life now. Thanks so much for watching and keeping up.

[XforeverlongingX]

Dude I totally feel for you. I have been in and out of hospitals, I've never been through anything close to what you have been through, but I can imagine the bullshit and carelessness that they treated me with times 100 and that would give me a vague idea of how bad you felt during the filming of this video. Don't give up, fuck these medical people they only care about themselves UNTIL THEY GET SICK

[Kengikat]

Thanks very much for watching my vids. I really appreciate it. Thanks for the sub as well, please watch more

[blackdurga87]

im so sorry life is so fucked man i found out i had warts and herpes please dont give up on life

[Kengikat]

Thanks for the comment. That was over 10 months ago and life is such much better now. Not where I would like it to be but right where God would have it to be and that is all that counts. Thanks for watching and please watch my other videos as well.

[blackdurga87]

well i guess u should be patient cuz i feel da same way to about things have faith and believe in ur self over come obstacles and barriers u are strong

[Kengikat]

Thanks for the comment. This video is almost a year old. Please catch up

[nikkiana]

keep your head up, you're so brave.

[Kengikat]

Thank you so much. Please keep watching and if you like I can send you a like to my blog as well

[kenlim994]

im praying for u man

[Kengikat]

Thanks very much.

[kenlim994]

no problem bro

[elements201]

Yo man. Don't give up. I know my troubles are probably less than half of yours, but keep life dear to your heart. Keep your head up. There's always better days around the corner.

[JaniceINJax]

Someone died in that hospital, it made national news..a woman went in the er pleading for help and they ignored her and she died right there on the floor..her husband even tried calling 911 from the er they were in saying that they wouldn't help his wife but nothing was done..people just don't care there..please move, anywhere's better than that fucking place

[Kengikat]

I know this. That place is the pits and is should be shut down

[Kengikat]

Thanks, this video was a while ago. Things have been up and down since then, but by the grace of God I am still here. Thanks for watching and thanks for not treating me like so many other people have who have seen this video.

Blessings

[lampguy25]

take care

[FatWagar]

I just recently stumbled across your channel and have been watching your story. I do not know your struggle, but I know that feeling of desperation that causes the tears to flow and the anger to well. I continue to hold you in my thoughts and support you.

[Kengikat]

Thanks for the love and support my fiend

[ag72]

im from wy, i was homeless there for a year in 2004, keep ur head up brother, & god BLESS!

[15725linwood]

I hope that all is well with you now,this brought tears to my eyes.

[jokin88]

woah woah woah what happen? to much big words .. and swears .. explain to me please!

[666crue]

Stop feeling sorry for yourself and move on the world doesn't evolved around you. There are procedures to every facility try making an appointment next time. It will avoid all this cryin'

[Kengikat]

For your information I had an appointment. Dont sit and act like you know what the hell went on there or even why i was crying because you dont.

[chocolatekissez713]

PRay on it homie. i know that might seem like a struggle to, but he listens, and he cares, so pray

[Kengikat]

Thanks very much. I did just that and God worked it all out. I no longer go to UCLA for medicala care and through USC I have had so many awesome things happen in my life and for my life and the grace of God is what made it all possible.

If you want a link to my blog, shoot me a emails and I will send you the link.

Blessings

kengi

[chocobutch]

I love you bra!

[Kengikat]

thanks very much

[gurlzone]

I am feeling your pain. You are not alone, just separated from those of us who do care and care deeply about what you are suffering. How can someone remain resilient when the system that is supposed to help you only beats you up? My thoughts are with you, friend.

[Kengikat]

The pain i was feeling that day was so over powering and so defeating. If it wasnt for the man and his sister who caught me before my face would have hit the ground, I dont know where I would be. I am At USC now and things have changed so much.

[Kengikat]

Thanks Oscar

[steelydrwu]

Harbor ucla is not the only institute that has fallen apart, this whole nation is pretty much done for. everywhere I look in every direction it's just WTF, I think I'm just about WTF'ed out. Just when I think I've heard it all some new dumb ass thing pops up and there it is again, WTF! Just know that you are not alone, there are others who see the reality.

[Kengikat]

It's hard not to feel alone. When I cry aalone and feel alone and am alone every single day

[tiffyme]

I don't know EXACTLY what you are going through but can relate and empathize. The "system" is the coldest and most inhumane experience to have to go through. I broke down many times this past year being turned away from any kind of affordable healthcare. It never ceases to amaze and deeply disgust me how we have to suffer medical trauma and illness, and then not be covered. I really feel your pain and I feel your tears. You are definitely not alone. Hang in there, my friend.

[Kengikat]

Thanks very much for your support.

[etiosoul]

please dont give up every thing is gone be oright.xxx

[Kengikat]

I am doing all I can to hang on. I dont know how much more i can take