Man, I think all people from YouTube will support you in your way! No. Not correct... not man - but Friend! You are the our Friend. We are with you! Russia and Canada surely are supporting You!!!!!!!!!
sorry brother for your lost. God bless you for your good heart. i lost too with a love one. don't worry will meet them but not yet. not yet..our time will come and will still help others in any other ways.
That was really deep man thanks alot for telling us about all that. We have had good times with you in the past and we are hoping for more good times in the future please don't ever stop.
In GOD'S Eternal Spring ------- The petals of a lovely rose may fall and die at summers close - and grief we feel for that brief hour ---- For it had been a lovely flower. it lies at rest on dewy grass ----- so fragrant still to all who pass - Even though it die . . . our Father knows - that spring will resurrect the rose.
and so when death makes all seem vain - mankind like flowers shall live again . " all in their graves " shall hear their King - and rise in GOD'S eternal spring --- by Alice Ripper
That is so amazing that you shared that - and that you have found a sense belonging here on youtube. I'm sorry about your loss - your baby was so cute!
im so happy your sharing your life with us on youtube. im pregnant now, but anything can happen, though i pray nothing bad does. your story can help alot of people who go through wut u did. ur a great man. Bless you.
You are a VERY strong person! Thank you for sharing your story. And I'm certain that the therapudic aspects you've encountered along the way with your videos is not uncommon with lots of folks.
Wow I want to just say you are amazing for sharing that. I have known for quite a while that youtube is a special website but this just goes to show that nobody can anticipate the impact this one website can have on lives. Thank you for sharing.
wow i normally don't get into thing s like this on utube however, your words have shown me that with every tragedy you still have to live every day and the biggest problem wit deaths isn't always the actual death but how do u live after every day day by day... and a lot of time people never learn how to cope so there left miserable confused in a world where they no longer no their place but you found yours keep it up happiness seems to be a lot harder to find these days *AM*
Brian? I'm sure your son will be the happiest when you get your laugh back...In my Darker Days, I created characters for myself, so I could still have fun, since I didn't really have any friends to support me.
Creating these characters are a part of what kept me from killing myself from depression and the sadness I used to experience...
But now, I am in HS and have made some really great friends, but the first friends I made were online...I love all my friends, no matter what..and that also gives me a reason to travel too :)but, I love my RL school friends too, I know some friends who I'm gonna stick with..even past HS, the eventual day we Graduate :)
So keep on smiling, keep on being positive, I lost my Omi a month ago (Omi's my Maternal Grandma) and she was like a second Mom to me and I know she'd be sad if I wasn't optimistic and happy..so for her, I keep on smiling and laughing. Knowing she's happy whenever I'm happy.
I know she isn't truly dead, because she lives in my heart, my soul and my memories.
I've lost a dear friend, my cat PJ, but I'm sure he is purring in happiness, knowing that I try to go on without him. So, keep on going!:)
2:43 is my favorite. You are loved here, for sure. And your little guy is your Angel watching over you from heaven. May you continue to heal and share. Your wonderful.
Just goes to show you that you never know what someone else is going through. When someone is rude, cuts you off in traffic or otherwise offends you, remember they could be having issues that make them act inappropriately. Have a heart.
Well done Brian. I'm very sorry for the loss of your son, no doubt that is one of the toughest things you'll ever deal with in your life.
I'm glad you find solace in making videos...it's all about sharing ideas, and having those ideas connect with someone else in the world.The "community" is an awesome thing, and I'm thankful for it.
WOW is right..my god what an amazing Youtube Story. I stumbled on to this video as a video response to gimmeabreak mans video. and you hooked me man. I am also a youtube film maker and I am struggling to find my nitch. I often make short film as well but have recently got into blogging to help me find my voice and be heard. Your story moved me so much, and I am proud to say I am now a subscriber sir. I am sorry for your loss hearing that ripped my heart out of my chest. Thank you for your story.
WOW... that was pretty powerful! We're new to the YouTube community and are finding it absolutely amazing to have at our fingertips, the ability to learn about people all over the world... intimate details, not just fluff. Thanks for sharing and God is allowing you to walk in your purpose. Keep up the awesome job... great job! Continued blessings,
You and your wife are brave hero's I don't know how I would ever manage losing a child. It was hard enough on me when I lost my dog daughter Whitie. Many hugs to you and your family. God bless you and thanks for joining.
You keep on smiling and remember no matter what whether you believe or not Jesus is with you and HE'll help you through it all.
Tears running down my cheeks. You're so brave and I applaud you and your wife. It's a long road isn't it.. I know because my husband and I lost our boy too. Good for you that you can smile..Evan is smiling with you. Big Ol' hug my thoughts are with you
I wanted such a touching video.I so enjoyed it. I am sorry for your loss and well the fact you can smile and laugh and be silly helps cope..Your a very nice man. Your son would have been proud. My the Goddess watch over him and also you..
I washed this over and over again and every time I did I would cry a little more. How you got through that hard time in your life was amazing. I haope that when the hard times im my life come i will be like you and find a way to get through it like you. All I have to say is you are a amazing person. Always rembmer your baby boy is watching over you.
I have a big knot in my throat right now! Beautiful video!!! Youtube is an awesome community,,,,!! I'm glad that it has helped you! God Bless you and your family!
Three of my baby siblings were born partially intact. I forgot what the doctors called it, but they knew the babies were dead and my mom gave birth normally. It's sad because I remember taking the pieces out one by one... SIDS I'm sure is a million times harder. I'm sooo sooo sorry. I can't even begin to imagine how you feel. I hope God will be with you, or whoever you believe in.
Thank you Brian. I cant seem to swallow right now. Tears are streaming down my face and I cant see what I am typing. God Bless YOU Brian. You are a wonderful father and friend. Remember Blockbuster?? Lets not ever forget that place ok?, because that is where I met a kind and gentle friend, then found him again here.. on YouTube. And now, your an even better man then I met all those years ago, because Andrea has filled you. =D Bless you guys!
i lost a sister to s.i.d.s. i never knew her, becasue she was much older than me, but i know how it is to lose someone you love so much. i dont have kids. so i dont know that kid of pain. but losing anykind of family or friends is really hard. =[
im really sorry. your son was absolutly adorable =]
HOW MANY TIMES DID YOU END UP SITTING THERE AND SCREAMING "WHY";"WHY HIM GOD?".Or maybe even thought things like "THERE CAN'T BE A GOD,CUZ' IF THERE WAS;WHY WOULD HE TAKE SUCH A PURE AND INNOCENT SOUL FROM EARTH WHEN THERE ARE SO MANY OTHERS THAT WOULD BE ("WORTHY"). Such a beautiful baby boy!
A very brave video. I've just subscribed to a whole new group (your wife, Mary Ann - you have some FUNNY friends!) who enrich youtube. I love your videos, and thanks to Winger1212 for introducing me to your channel. Great stuff, and I can't imagine what it must be like to go through what you did, and I really admire the way you are using youtube in such a positive way. Look forward to your next video, although it will take me a while to work through all your other ones!
That was a very heart warming video. I have watched 475 videos on here and your's was the only one that brought a tear to my eye. Keep up the good work.
Wow...this video was sooo emotionally positive. You are truly an inspiration to anyone who's ever endured such a tragic loss. Your journey here on YouTube has changed the lives of others, I'm sure of that. Just hearing your story was enough inspiration for me to give thanks for everyday. I know now...even the little things in life are more important than WE could ever imagine. God Bless YOU and YOUR FAMILY!! <333
Congrats on finding a method to return you to being... YOU. Your experiences shared in the video are inspiring, heartfelt and a testament to the human spirit. Best wishes to you and your wife and good luck on YOUR journey to discover or rediscover yourself. Sincerely - A displaced Caper.
I can't begin to describe how it felt watching your poignant Youtube story. So beautifully done, so open and honest. Thanks for sharing that, you are a very special guy!
very touching..i too lost a son when he was nine..it is hard to find yourself again..i have a couple of videos of him at school and in hospital but i rarely look at them..God bless you
I'm crying for you and for our babies who we miss. I only had two or three videos from before and I have found that for me it's the only place to be myself and say all the things I can't so it's depressing. My attempts at positive haven't worked well but I'm trying. You have a beautiful family, Sweetie. Thank you for just being here and sharing.
I don't know if you believe in spirits or whatever you want to call it, but I'm feeling your son's presence pretty strongly. Every time I try to view the response to my previous comment to this video from my inbox, my whole machine jams up. It's not doing this with any other video. Love to your and your wife.
My heart goes out to you and your family. I am soo sorry for your loss and could not imagine it, being a mother of 2 children. I think that you are amazing, strong, words cant express -proud and I dont know you. Keep it together, keep up your work, friends and God Bless you for your strength. julie
I just had my second child, a baby boy 7 weeks ago. As a mom I just can't imagine losing a child and am so happy your making it through. I am so sorry for your loss. I just know your baby boy is looking down on you and will always be there.
wow,this vidio really touched me,i am SO sry that u lost ur beauitful son,i think all of ur vidios are GREAT! nd i wish the best 4 u and ur family :] its people like u that enspire me to do things like that. thanks so much ur a great guy!
omg this is so sad buti say one thing UR GREAT PERFECT!!! so glad with u!!! coz not everyone will do wat u did for all of as!!! U MAKE OTHER PL LAUGH AND U MAKE UR LIFE BETTER!!!! LOVE YA LOTS ,u dont know me but i do know u,my name is Vicky!!
What a beautiful child, my heart goes out to you. Your words are so heartfelt, perfect and touching. Thank you for sharing your moving story, it is important. And how amazing that youtube helped you pull through, there is one for the books.
you know I can't really say the words that mean anything other then.. I have children and you are living what every parent fears the most.
My second Husband and myself are like you and your wife, my tubes are tied and cut so we went through invitro and now we are hoping against all odds for a child.
I can't really say much more then this video really touched me and did something to my heart. God bless you and your family.
I just slapped myself and realized I complain too much...Thank you for your story! You've found a place in my heart, and I applaud your heroics....Continue to create a wonderful day, through the love of your little angel...God Bless;)
You are a really brave man for doing this video and may the angels keep your baby boy close in thier arms in heaven! I know what it's like for a child to die from Sudden Infant Death Syndrome my step-sister's baby had it. You are so strong and such a great person for touching other people. Thankyou so much.
yes there is something really special in that. And I look up to you for your bravery, heart and creativity. And you being able to hold strong and handle what life throws at you in such the way that you do, well that is something really special...You take care...Kimmie
Every person has its own way to bear the pains of the soul. Yours is excellent because you are forcing many cold blooded people to understand your kind of pain.
(sorry I messed up on the last comment) like I said I am so sorry I don't know all your pain but I know some of it because when I was 3 years old my mom had a misscarige and when I grow up I hope I go before my kids and remmember all of youtube is here for you and keep up the good work and I would suscribe but I don't no how ;)
hi there i just saw your video it really touched me as i have a 20 month old little boy and dont know what i would do without him,my love goes out to you and your family from uk
I randomly stumbled upon your video. I also lost my son a little over 10 years ago, when he was a teen. There is no greater pain; so unnatural for our children to go before us. Just know that your honest emotions that you have shared have touched the heart of many. God bless you, Evan, and your loved ones.
Hi i know what its like to lose a child i lost a daughter 5 yrs ago she was 4months old it takes time to get threw it but always remember your child will always be in your heart...
Wow! I hope I never know the feeling of what it's like to lose a child. I don't think I could survive it. Good luck to you. May God bless your family.
"Ningún lugar está lejos para los seres con imaginación, capaces de comprometerse con la gente, de amar y de vivir cada día como si fuera el primero y el último" (Richard Back) Tu hijo está muy cerca de ti... God bless you!
Hey! you really touched my heart... I´m pretty new with this but your video got my attention x your baby´s face on it... I´m a teacher in Caracas, Venezuela and kids are my life... If it works x you, I´m gonna pray for your child from here... It must be very hard for you, I have always loved kids a lot... but now that I´m 2 months pregnant is when I really understand the feeling... please, keep going! I´l pray x you too...
This is it man....... this is the sincerity that make a difference. If it took your experience and the gift of your beautiful little man to bring this to fruition then you both have accomplished more in this brief time than most of us have accomplished in forever. I do not know you but I thank you and your son.... forever
I have never been on Youtube before today and I saw yours and sobbed. Our own baby would have been 16 this past August 22nd. I still miss her but it's easier now to remember. However, I remember wanting to hold on to the grief because that was the last connection I had to her. I applaud your courage to share your story. My heart goes out to you and your family. HUGS.....
Brian you are the greatest! I came across one of your videos one day and it made me smile - i then later went on to watch all of your videos and i realised that you had inspired me! Inspired me in my life - to be a better parent to be a better person! I thank you! xx
speechless, but very impressed. Your story is the most heroic, and the kind that reaches out to people like me... Great year bnessel.. But even more. A great HUMAN you are! (mankind, now roars in applause, and throws roses and all kinds of free stuff at your feet, and then lots of "more subs" coupons and that makes you tear up..) im not speechless now am I?? Youre just superb man.. thats all!
Man, I think all people from YouTube will support you in your way! No. Not correct... not man - but Friend! You are the our Friend. We are with you! Russia and Canada surely are supporting You!!!!!!!!!
VladimirKhrebtov 2 months ago
sorry brother for your lost. God bless you for your good heart. i lost too with a love one. don't worry will meet them but not yet. not yet..our time will come and will still help others in any other ways.
abigailgeli 1 year ago
i just cried :(
thanks for the inspirationaal story!
lilmissyblondiegurl 1 year ago
This is amazing <3 I truely feel for you...
Your an inspiration to me
WildYetWonderful 1 year ago
holy crap.... youtube ounce again helped some1 in need but this time it was in an epic scale... sry bout ur kid... hope u stay kool :)
GamesByMyselfShow 1 year ago
Bravo!!!What an inspirational man! You've overcome alot and I congradulate you! Now I gotta run and get some kleenex
Misklassiestkittykat 1 year ago
That made me extremely sad, I tried not to get all teary eyed because my mom is in the room. You rock man.
RobertJoseph100 1 year ago
Thank you for sharing your AMAZING story. every word SO beautifuly said :)
Thank you
Isaac "tattedhairguy"
tattedhairguy 1 year ago
1:27 February 6, my birthday! :D
TrippyScopes 1 year ago
That was really deep man thanks alot for telling us about all that. We have had good times with you in the past and we are hoping for more good times in the future please don't ever stop.
guyq101 1 year ago
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mackt456 2 years ago
In GOD'S Eternal Spring ------- The petals of a lovely rose may fall and die at summers close - and grief we feel for that brief hour ---- For it had been a lovely flower. it lies at rest on dewy grass ----- so fragrant still to all who pass - Even though it die . . . our Father knows - that spring will resurrect the rose.
mustangersalie 2 years ago 5
and so when death makes all seem vain - mankind like flowers shall live again . " all in their graves " shall hear their King - and rise in GOD'S eternal spring --- by Alice Ripper
mustangersalie 2 years ago 2
That is so amazing that you shared that - and that you have found a sense belonging here on youtube. I'm sorry about your loss - your baby was so cute!
indigobutterfly92 2 years ago 2
im so happy your sharing your life with us on youtube. im pregnant now, but anything can happen, though i pray nothing bad does. your story can help alot of people who go through wut u did. ur a great man. Bless you.
cottoncandyaddict 2 years ago
btw it's very touching.
how can listen to your all story. u Great !!
phuket2246 2 years ago 3
what did you loss ??
phuket2246 2 years ago
Very touching <3
Mashooqa 2 years ago 2
This is very touching. I'm so sorry for your loss.
DeSaMe3 2 years ago
touching =')
CyberL0ck 2 years ago
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Hey my cousin thinks it's a peice of shi*! >:(
PokemonDiamondExpert 2 years ago
:') beautiful
PokemonDiamondExpert 2 years ago
You are a VERY strong person! Thank you for sharing your story. And I'm certain that the therapudic aspects you've encountered along the way with your videos is not uncommon with lots of folks.
ftscottkillbilly 3 years ago 2
o that was so touching
PopularityQueen 3 years ago
wow , :')
BitMigInte 3 years ago
touching
Ireneognennaiafaer 3 years ago
this is so touching.
xoonmyown 3 years ago 2
Wow I want to just say you are amazing for sharing that. I have known for quite a while that youtube is a special website but this just goes to show that nobody can anticipate the impact this one website can have on lives. Thank you for sharing.
BrandonAiton 3 years ago 3
Aw that was really cute
myhamstercam 3 years ago
this was completely fantastic.
katieMCbindergarten 3 years ago 2
wow i normally don't get into thing s like this on utube however, your words have shown me that with every tragedy you still have to live every day and the biggest problem wit deaths isn't always the actual death but how do u live after every day day by day... and a lot of time people never learn how to cope so there left miserable confused in a world where they no longer no their place but you found yours keep it up happiness seems to be a lot harder to find these days *AM*
yusef0335 3 years ago
Beautiful.
luzsanjurjo 3 years ago
this is the first time i cried watching a youtube video. thanks for sharing. 4:26 really got me.
naVbaby85 3 years ago
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lets hang out tonight. MSG me on MSN. ID is in my profile. Z
MCRandA7Xown 3 years ago
Thank you for sharing this video!
starbitee 3 years ago
in your brokenness you will see God's best..
in your darkest day you will see God's shining
looking at you and waiting for.
May He blessed you more!
myrna1210 3 years ago
4.26- the words really struck me there.
Thanks for making a video like this,
we dont see much of these videos around
lately
cookiecha9293 3 years ago
Brian? I'm sure your son will be the happiest when you get your laugh back...In my Darker Days, I created characters for myself, so I could still have fun, since I didn't really have any friends to support me.
Creating these characters are a part of what kept me from killing myself from depression and the sadness I used to experience...
WolfDOuka 3 years ago 3
But now, I am in HS and have made some really great friends, but the first friends I made were online...I love all my friends, no matter what..and that also gives me a reason to travel too :)but, I love my RL school friends too, I know some friends who I'm gonna stick with..even past HS, the eventual day we Graduate :)
WolfDOuka 3 years ago
So keep on smiling, keep on being positive, I lost my Omi a month ago (Omi's my Maternal Grandma) and she was like a second Mom to me and I know she'd be sad if I wasn't optimistic and happy..so for her, I keep on smiling and laughing. Knowing she's happy whenever I'm happy.
I know she isn't truly dead, because she lives in my heart, my soul and my memories.
I've lost a dear friend, my cat PJ, but I'm sure he is purring in happiness, knowing that I try to go on without him. So, keep on going!:)
WolfDOuka 3 years ago
Thanks for sharing this look into who you are as a person and how you came to be on youtube!
kokohawk 3 years ago
i cried :(
zoedeadvl 3 years ago
I'm sobbing, and my heart hurts incredibly hearing this, but it rejoices in your resiliency. Thank you.
ladymystyk 3 years ago
2:43 is my favorite. You are loved here, for sure. And your little guy is your Angel watching over you from heaven. May you continue to heal and share. Your wonderful.
mountainDreamer 3 years ago
tears**
Thanks for sharing this with us. Much love from Denmark :)
Mashooqa 3 years ago
you my friend are awesome xx
bellathomas1987 3 years ago
Just goes to show you that you never know what someone else is going through. When someone is rude, cuts you off in traffic or otherwise offends you, remember they could be having issues that make them act inappropriately. Have a heart.
SModikoane 3 years ago
Thanks for sharing your story!
SelfHelpCollective 3 years ago
wow. speachless. i am a mother and in tears.
aprilmkelly 3 years ago
Well done Brian. I'm very sorry for the loss of your son, no doubt that is one of the toughest things you'll ever deal with in your life.
I'm glad you find solace in making videos...it's all about sharing ideas, and having those ideas connect with someone else in the world.The "community" is an awesome thing, and I'm thankful for it.
Keep on keepin' on brother.
TandEeesDad 3 years ago
WOW is right..my god what an amazing Youtube Story. I stumbled on to this video as a video response to gimmeabreak mans video. and you hooked me man. I am also a youtube film maker and I am struggling to find my nitch. I often make short film as well but have recently got into blogging to help me find my voice and be heard. Your story moved me so much, and I am proud to say I am now a subscriber sir. I am sorry for your loss hearing that ripped my heart out of my chest. Thank you for your story.
mdrproductionz 3 years ago
WOW... that was pretty powerful! We're new to the YouTube community and are finding it absolutely amazing to have at our fingertips, the ability to learn about people all over the world... intimate details, not just fluff. Thanks for sharing and God is allowing you to walk in your purpose. Keep up the awesome job... great job! Continued blessings,
Joyce
TheBrownBoysdotws Mom
thebrownboysdotws 3 years ago
This had me crying,
You and your wife are brave hero's I don't know how I would ever manage losing a child. It was hard enough on me when I lost my dog daughter Whitie. Many hugs to you and your family. God bless you and thanks for joining.
You keep on smiling and remember no matter what whether you believe or not Jesus is with you and HE'll help you through it all.
Tara
singingbabe26 3 years ago
I'm so so so so sorry
BlondPolarBear 3 years ago
Tears running down my cheeks. You're so brave and I applaud you and your wife. It's a long road isn't it.. I know because my husband and I lost our boy too. Good for you that you can smile..Evan is smiling with you. Big Ol' hug my thoughts are with you
Marydecor8 3 years ago
Thanks so much for sharing this. five stars and not that you need it I'm going to subscribe.
sillysillytom 3 years ago
dude wow you made me tear up.Thank you for sharing your story ...very inspirational and touching
soundrone 3 years ago
Touching video. Best of luck old bean.
barryperrins 3 years ago
This was wonderful. The best "look back at my time on youtube thus far" type vidoes I have seen ever.
missdivinestalls 3 years ago
Oh Brian,
My God,
I am crying, still crying right now as I type this.
What Maryann712 said: "the video when I fell in love with you," Yes.
Thank you so much for your heart.
-kbg
kickboxgrrl 3 years ago
Ahhh...the video when I fell in love with you friggin' Nessels... xoxoxoxo
maryann712 3 years ago
Goddammit Brian, you made me cry. Seriously.
ChristopherMast 3 years ago 3
u got my respect man - love ur vids- keep it up
MickQuick07 4 years ago
i cried
Orangutane 4 years ago
God wants u to enjoy Everyday life!!! Some things we are not meant to understand...YET.
schuetteklan 4 years ago
Im so sorry for your loss.
I cant really think of anything else to say but you are amazing.
UnCreativeBeliever 4 years ago
No words for.
nikkiirosaa 4 years ago
god bless you
AAEproductions 4 years ago
you're amazing.
god bless
builditagain 4 years ago 3
I wanted such a touching video.I so enjoyed it. I am sorry for your loss and well the fact you can smile and laugh and be silly helps cope..Your a very nice man. Your son would have been proud. My the Goddess watch over him and also you..
Blessed Be
Angitia39 4 years ago
WOW is all I can say a this point.
I washed this over and over again and every time I did I would cry a little more. How you got through that hard time in your life was amazing. I haope that when the hard times im my life come i will be like you and find a way to get through it like you. All I have to say is you are a amazing person. Always rembmer your baby boy is watching over you.
Love always Tara
TotallyxMiley 4 years ago
good luck. God bless your heart. Giancarlo(Italy)
scasciaporte 4 years ago
*chills*
That was a very touching video. Thanks for opening up and sharing your story. I am sorry for your loss. :(
In making this video and sharing I am sure it will help many others in similar situations as yours.
God bless
Kim
blahnousernames 4 years ago
I have a big knot in my throat right now! Beautiful video!!! Youtube is an awesome community,,,,!! I'm glad that it has helped you! God Bless you and your family!
PennState89 4 years ago
Three of my baby siblings were born partially intact. I forgot what the doctors called it, but they knew the babies were dead and my mom gave birth normally. It's sad because I remember taking the pieces out one by one... SIDS I'm sure is a million times harder. I'm sooo sooo sorry. I can't even begin to imagine how you feel. I hope God will be with you, or whoever you believe in.
Lamiadumorte87 4 years ago
Just found your video for the first time, you are an amazing person, i wish you only the best inlife and cant wait for more!
ayalond 4 years ago
you are very brave and I am glad you have found a way to deal with the grief. I wish you the very best of luck.
thegjkgroup 4 years ago
Bless your heart and your sweet family for your loss.
strawberryme08 4 years ago
Iam am veeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrryyyyyyy sorry you are the type of person that everyone should be.This video made me cry.
alubadubdub 4 years ago
i am so sorry for you loss. This is truly a beautful video and i wish you the best on your journey and the days to come.
natoly1986 4 years ago
Thank you Brian. I cant seem to swallow right now. Tears are streaming down my face and I cant see what I am typing. God Bless YOU Brian. You are a wonderful father and friend. Remember Blockbuster?? Lets not ever forget that place ok?, because that is where I met a kind and gentle friend, then found him again here.. on YouTube. And now, your an even better man then I met all those years ago, because Andrea has filled you. =D Bless you guys!
Meemaree 4 years ago 2
Thank you, Mary. I truly appreciate that.
bnessel1973 4 years ago
It's an honour to be part of your life, thank you for welcoming us with an open heart.
InsanityRocksMyWorld 4 years ago
Best of wishes to you. Absolutely wonderful video. :)
ScarletDeviant 4 years ago
im so sorry for your loss.
i lost a sister to s.i.d.s. i never knew her, becasue she was much older than me, but i know how it is to lose someone you love so much. i dont have kids. so i dont know that kid of pain. but losing anykind of family or friends is really hard. =[
im really sorry. your son was absolutly adorable =]
xximamonsterxx06 4 years ago
I am sorry for you and your wifes loss. What an awesome video about your baby son. Thank you for sharing it with all of us.
nyissa64 4 years ago
you give youtube good name. =] im msoo sorry for your loss.
virusthe1st 4 years ago
Brian - I am SO sorry for your loss. You're video is beautiful. You are an inspiration.
berzerkeley 4 years ago 2
Powerful.
Ardenwolfe 4 years ago 2
*crys* :(( im so sorry. :(
MahinaSinger 4 years ago
Wow. Just Wow. And a hug.
nancy4366 4 years ago
srry about your loss.
0cards0 4 years ago
I am so srry about your loss!
erica507068 4 years ago
bnessel1973 get do what you do we all the some in a way some have i was go cry for your vids
new2gypsyguy 4 years ago
this is what youtube does for me too...my camera did it, then my camcorder, my characters,..all combined together i have made amazing friends.
stylistbrighton 4 years ago
Wow, man. I can't imagine what you went through. I'm glad YT was able to help.
Zarbod 4 years ago
HOW MANY TIMES DID YOU END UP SITTING THERE AND SCREAMING "WHY";"WHY HIM GOD?".Or maybe even thought things like "THERE CAN'T BE A GOD,CUZ' IF THERE WAS;WHY WOULD HE TAKE SUCH A PURE AND INNOCENT SOUL FROM EARTH WHEN THERE ARE SO MANY OTHERS THAT WOULD BE ("WORTHY"). Such a beautiful baby boy!
NEmountaingirl75 4 years ago
A very brave video. I've just subscribed to a whole new group (your wife, Mary Ann - you have some FUNNY friends!) who enrich youtube. I love your videos, and thanks to Winger1212 for introducing me to your channel. Great stuff, and I can't imagine what it must be like to go through what you did, and I really admire the way you are using youtube in such a positive way. Look forward to your next video, although it will take me a while to work through all your other ones!
Bye for now
Mags
mugglemags 4 years ago
6 Special words and a comment!..
Respect for those who apreciate life!
I Lost my girl and daughter about 2 years ago.... although i have a new life which includes a new wife and daughter....will be 3 on 12th dec :)
I still wish for my previouse 1...
Our past is what it is, although it is not as we wish!
good luck and gd save! Leon
elzbietawales 4 years ago
That was a very heart warming video. I have watched 475 videos on here and your's was the only one that brought a tear to my eye. Keep up the good work.
pilgrimasd 4 years ago
Great video! Your story is so much like mine. Great job! I lost my mother recently and I'm working on making a new video soon.
angelgallardo1 4 years ago
Wow...this video was sooo emotionally positive. You are truly an inspiration to anyone who's ever endured such a tragic loss. Your journey here on YouTube has changed the lives of others, I'm sure of that. Just hearing your story was enough inspiration for me to give thanks for everyday. I know now...even the little things in life are more important than WE could ever imagine. God Bless YOU and YOUR FAMILY!! <333
treesie69 4 years ago
that was incredible. keep doing what you do.
hotgothguy13 4 years ago
Wow, this was so touching. Made me cry.
meggiemeg86 4 years ago
Congrats on finding a method to return you to being... YOU. Your experiences shared in the video are inspiring, heartfelt and a testament to the human spirit. Best wishes to you and your wife and good luck on YOUR journey to discover or rediscover yourself. Sincerely - A displaced Caper.
HalifaxGamer01 4 years ago
Brian, that was very special. I hope that I will be able to start making vids again soon. My heart goes out to you, and my laughter as well.
SuperShadyman2 4 years ago
this is my second time to watch your video and I cried then at your story. Thanks for sharing your life
Serramist 4 years ago
wow that was a great video
digitalbrian 4 years ago
I can't begin to describe how it felt watching your poignant Youtube story. So beautifully done, so open and honest. Thanks for sharing that, you are a very special guy!
Pippilly 4 years ago
very touching..i too lost a son when he was nine..it is hard to find yourself again..i have a couple of videos of him at school and in hospital but i rarely look at them..God bless you
torag2468 4 years ago
I'm crying for you and for our babies who we miss. I only had two or three videos from before and I have found that for me it's the only place to be myself and say all the things I can't so it's depressing. My attempts at positive haven't worked well but I'm trying. You have a beautiful family, Sweetie. Thank you for just being here and sharing.
veranichole1981 4 years ago
I don't know if you believe in spirits or whatever you want to call it, but I'm feeling your son's presence pretty strongly. Every time I try to view the response to my previous comment to this video from my inbox, my whole machine jams up. It's not doing this with any other video. Love to your and your wife.
cowgir1up 4 years ago
beautiful work
wogsland 4 years ago
oh,you are a grate person...it`s a beatiful video...
que dios te bendiga
= )
claomeki 4 years ago
My heart goes out to you and your family. I am soo sorry for your loss and could not imagine it, being a mother of 2 children. I think that you are amazing, strong, words cant express -proud and I dont know you. Keep it together, keep up your work, friends and God Bless you for your strength. julie
julchrisalyssa 4 years ago
I just had my second child, a baby boy 7 weeks ago. As a mom I just can't imagine losing a child and am so happy your making it through. I am so sorry for your loss. I just know your baby boy is looking down on you and will always be there.
rubydome 4 years ago
malo
equableman 4 years ago
A beautiful baby, he has a beautiful father.
Lollie907 4 years ago
what a great influecing experience to share and speech... everyone can relate.
stacey21celt 4 years ago
No Thank you for leting me in to see a part of your life aho ................ ken mh
manyhorses56 4 years ago
wow,this vidio really touched me,i am SO sry that u lost ur beauitful son,i think all of ur vidios are GREAT! nd i wish the best 4 u and ur family :] its people like u that enspire me to do things like that. thanks so much ur a great guy!
ohh yeah i am Bethany :]
bmcgal30748777 4 years ago
omg this is so sad buti say one thing UR GREAT PERFECT!!! so glad with u!!! coz not everyone will do wat u did for all of as!!! U MAKE OTHER PL LAUGH AND U MAKE UR LIFE BETTER!!!! LOVE YA LOTS ,u dont know me but i do know u,my name is Vicky!!
gazvv 4 years ago
No he entendido nada porque sale en Inglés,pero es un historia conmovedora.Enhorabuena!
wikyxara 4 years ago
jajajajajajajajajajajajajajajajajaja pero a la final entendiste????
PERRITOVENEZOLANO 4 years ago
Ja...Hombre el idioma no lo entendí,pero parece que el tipo cuenta la Historia del nacimiento de su hijo.
Y luego hace ver que se va ha convertir en toda una estrella de Yotuve.+ o menos.Hasta Pronto
wikyxara 4 years ago
What a beautiful child, my heart goes out to you. Your words are so heartfelt, perfect and touching. Thank you for sharing your moving story, it is important. And how amazing that youtube helped you pull through, there is one for the books.
nanogirl 4 years ago
so sorry for your loss your son Evan is Beautiful!!!!
Littlemamma123here 4 years ago
Wow! Thank you for your video and for reminding me that life is what you make it.
LaLaKaraBoBara 4 years ago
I hope you find peace in this world. Thank you for being so real.
kelons54 4 years ago
That is the cutest baby. Anyone would miss him. Thanks for all your videos.
cjjorgensen 4 years ago
you know I can't really say the words that mean anything other then.. I have children and you are living what every parent fears the most.
My second Husband and myself are like you and your wife, my tubes are tied and cut so we went through invitro and now we are hoping against all odds for a child.
I can't really say much more then this video really touched me and did something to my heart. God bless you and your family.
mzzzcarmen 4 years ago
I just slapped myself and realized I complain too much...Thank you for your story! You've found a place in my heart, and I applaud your heroics....Continue to create a wonderful day, through the love of your little angel...God Bless;)
soccerbuddy2424 4 years ago
Thats so sad. Glad you have been able to over come your disappointments
fishysims 4 years ago
You are a really brave man for doing this video and may the angels keep your baby boy close in thier arms in heaven! I know what it's like for a child to die from Sudden Infant Death Syndrome my step-sister's baby had it. You are so strong and such a great person for touching other people. Thankyou so much.
katidid24 4 years ago
yes there is something really special in that. And I look up to you for your bravery, heart and creativity. And you being able to hold strong and handle what life throws at you in such the way that you do, well that is something really special...You take care...Kimmie
prolilonezforever 4 years ago
Hey I never expected to see a video on U Tube that touched my soul like this one did.God bless you n yours .Keep strong
toeztocy2003 4 years ago
so soory
mikeladeroute1 4 years ago
Every person has its own way to bear the pains of the soul. Yours is excellent because you are forcing many cold blooded people to understand your kind of pain.
olcow 4 years ago
Good
kenkwlai 4 years ago
... keep doing a good job. God bless you.
Nieve1385 4 years ago
(sorry I messed up on the last comment) like I said I am so sorry I don't know all your pain but I know some of it because when I was 3 years old my mom had a misscarige and when I grow up I hope I go before my kids and remmember all of youtube is here for you and keep up the good work and I would suscribe but I don't no how ;)
dramagirl864 4 years ago
I feel so sorry for youwhen I was 3 years old my mom had a iscarrige I hope when I have a child I will go first
dramagirl864 4 years ago
Thank you for your courage even in the midst of your loss.Your son is now an angel.xxx
jjfreedomvoice 4 years ago
what a journey ... well thats life a journey
well done brain
its takes a special person to put this on global air
my full respet to you
msgg81 4 years ago
you r a great soul and have lot of courage. may god bless you and ur family!
777tulip 4 years ago
wow brian thanks for sharing
that was beautifully done
glad youre here with us
hugs brother
TheBennyZone 4 years ago
hi there i just saw your video it really touched me as i have a 20 month old little boy and dont know what i would do without him,my love goes out to you and your family from uk
ashtonmummy 4 years ago
I randomly stumbled upon your video. I also lost my son a little over 10 years ago, when he was a teen. There is no greater pain; so unnatural for our children to go before us. Just know that your honest emotions that you have shared have touched the heart of many. God bless you, Evan, and your loved ones.
kellyn040 4 years ago
Hi i know what its like to lose a child i lost a daughter 5 yrs ago she was 4months old it takes time to get threw it but always remember your child will always be in your heart...
bowtie379 4 years ago
Wow! I hope I never know the feeling of what it's like to lose a child. I don't think I could survive it. Good luck to you. May God bless your family.
nancyrose3 4 years ago
"Ningún lugar está lejos para los seres con imaginación, capaces de comprometerse con la gente, de amar y de vivir cada día como si fuera el primero y el último" (Richard Back) Tu hijo está muy cerca de ti... God bless you!
TeacherMonica 4 years ago
Hey! you really touched my heart... I´m pretty new with this but your video got my attention x your baby´s face on it... I´m a teacher in Caracas, Venezuela and kids are my life... If it works x you, I´m gonna pray for your child from here... It must be very hard for you, I have always loved kids a lot... but now that I´m 2 months pregnant is when I really understand the feeling... please, keep going! I´l pray x you too...
TeacherMonica 4 years ago
Keep going young man. You are authentic.
icdrrose 4 years ago
I came across this feed randomly and I'm thankful for that. This guy is an inspiration to us all. Thank you.
ToxicMissTori 4 years ago
You know there are few times in life you feel truly connected to another persons life. Thank you for the honesty
Sayingnothingmuch 4 years ago
This is it man....... this is the sincerity that make a difference. If it took your experience and the gift of your beautiful little man to bring this to fruition then you both have accomplished more in this brief time than most of us have accomplished in forever. I do not know you but I thank you and your son.... forever
wudanggirl 4 years ago
I have never been on Youtube before today and I saw yours and sobbed. Our own baby would have been 16 this past August 22nd. I still miss her but it's easier now to remember. However, I remember wanting to hold on to the grief because that was the last connection I had to her. I applaud your courage to share your story. My heart goes out to you and your family. HUGS.....
triplelll60 4 years ago
thank u so much 4 sharing, that was so honest and heart-felt. thank u
Rotarrius 4 years ago
Wow. I am so glad you made this video.
It's like a little story. It's sooo sweet.
I love you, dude! *Group hugs Brian and Lars!*
You make me smile!!! :)
Kuku
Kukunutti 4 years ago
I feel your pain at such a horrible loss. I hope your friendships you have made on youtube bring you comfort.
Serramist 4 years ago
That was lovely, and what a gorgeous little boy Evan was. {{{Hugs}}}
littlejinkz 4 years ago
You really are an inspiration to everyone!! Thank you for making this and opening our eyes. GOD BLESS you and your family!!
angeliquestarsmommy 4 years ago
Brian you are the greatest! I came across one of your videos one day and it made me smile - i then later went on to watch all of your videos and i realised that you had inspired me! Inspired me in my life - to be a better parent to be a better person! I thank you! xx
PinkPoley 4 years ago
This is my first youtube experience today, and I am crying for your loss. Finding the smiles through the tears is so hard. Peace to you and yours!!!
stizacy 4 years ago
Brian, you have touched me once again. I love you and Andrea. Excellent, moving piece....again.
Hugs,
Patty
patty1353 4 years ago
Wow! That moved me. That was deep.
Subscribe.
Love and Peace!
JoeBobOneHalf 4 years ago
Furnifur sent this my way. I admire you for your courage and send my love and prayers for you loss. Ariel
arielsandersmusic 4 years ago
WOW! just follow your heart and intutions, you can make it passed all the way!!! the youtube legend
beyond187 4 years ago
speechless, but very impressed. Your story is the most heroic, and the kind that reaches out to people like me... Great year bnessel.. But even more. A great HUMAN you are! (mankind, now roars in applause, and throws roses and all kinds of free stuff at your feet, and then lots of "more subs" coupons and that makes you tear up..) im not speechless now am I?? Youre just superb man.. thats all!
cooksterz 4 years ago
I want to post stuff like this, but it's scary. I'm so sorry about your son. He's such a cute little guy. xxx
kcj2007uk 4 years ago
God bless! You give hope to others who can't find it.
LitBuff 4 years ago
Beautiful. You turned devastation into art. Your boy is smiling on God's lap.
MarkGauvreau 4 years ago