Re: What is Depression to you?

[juliaheartz]

stand and Fight!!!

[eddtoro]

very inteligent and clear speaking girl. It takes having gone through depression to know what it's like. After the experience, one is more compassionate of others who have it. I had it for many years and was very suicidal. Things are perfect today, but i've come to accept that each day is a gift.

[XXXFreeSpirit]

Depression is worse than death. At least with death you dont feel anything. Depression is living life of pure hell without any hope that it will ever getting better. Depression is emptiness, loneliness, inertia, fear, anxiety all rolled into one.

[journeyquest1]

Its the hell i have lived in most of my 50 yrs.

[LittleMissCloud9]

I agree EXACTLY with you!

[reggaechinie]

Thanks for sharing this ..........

[getfunky79]

im suffering from depression and my eyes looks exactly like urs (depressed) and grey do all depressed people have the same kind of eyes???

[toothclaw18]

there is no time to be depressed. it is very personal feeling, weakness at this very moment that will never come back....get strong, hold onto your strength, and never give it up or let anyone to take it away from you no matter what they do or say to you. change things. make things happen. it's your life, your decisions...time is running out...hold onto your hopes, dreams, friends, hobbies, job (or jobs), it all help to stay afloat...there is so much more to say...God, got to get going. visit me

[jayredleaf]

You need some Jay Redleaf to cheer you up!

[MrSolmon123]

There's a small and excellent online depression support group called Depression Hangout that is always open to anyone who is struggling with mental health problems (not just depression). It's run in its own chaotic way by its members who meet regularly in the chat room and it's a great place to seek and provide help and support, make new friends and even just have a laugh. (We all need that too!) To join just go to depressionhangout-dot-blogspot­-dot-com.

[Tamagumo]

@dubravajecentar but how did this value come about?

[Tamagumo]

lowers gears, but to travel through life in one freakin gear? you'll wear everything out...damn I wish I could fix my depression as easy as i fix my damn car...

[Tamagumo]

And another thing isn't happiness the emotion that brings the most pleasure? or is it sadness or anger, i think this might be why people might suggest that you smile, but i completely understand how access to the emotion of happiness is denied (corny shit ey) whilst dealing with some bs in ur head that makes u depressed. its like being stuck in a particular gear of some vehicles transmission and not being able to move on till the mechanical problem is fixed. and sure at times u might go down to

[Tamagumo]

Humans have such a wide array of emotions as you say, but to be stuck just on one?

[21iunie]

to me depression is when good things don't happen to you and if it happens it's not what you need or want.....and what you need or want you see someone else has it....then you get a mix feeling of anger and sadness and the thought of the things you want may never happen while everyone else does and has everything you want

[Daytonadestrey]

thanx for the video ........u actually kind of helped me out.

[mohfuzul12]

i understand u beautiful i kno how depression hurts it hurted me since i was 12. and i agree with u said its true i feel the same way!! nice video though

[jessicahart48]

i have depression and its soo hard for me to deal. im only 16 and ive had it for years. meds wont help because they all make me attempt suicide. im sik of people saying its all in your head like what the hell you go through this and tell me what it feels like. its ridicolous there is nothing people can do to get rid of it permanately unless the meds or something work. so those ppl who always say its in your head shut the hell up cause this is not fun at all it sucks so much. bye

[letmelivemylife2008]

I'm not going to sit here and explain what depression is but I have a question. Why are you running outwards in order to be happy?

[TheIggy457]

If what your doing isn't helping you. Try what I have "Jesus". 100% success rate.

Bless you.

[Konni1969]

Well, many people do hide their real feelings. I see people laugh, but it's not real. In our society it is not "allowed" to feel sad and have depressions. It is always: "Go to school, get a job, work hard, have a family, have kids and die." We more and more live in a Robot like world.

[colormeviolet]

I'm sorry guys, but I'm going to disable comments. I try to be open minded to discussion, but I'm sick of the uninformed rubbish that this video has become a forum for.

[colormeviolet]

Lmao! That is probably the most out-there comment I've gotten on these videos.

I'm waiting for someone to tell me that if you paint your body with fish and spin around seven times yelling "The power of Christ compels you!" then you will never feel depressed again.

[psaghafi]

The problem with the word "depression" is that it means so many things. Some people think it is a personality trait, but the medical definition of "major depressive disorder" is something entirely different.

[videowatcheer]

@psaghafi yeah... an informed opionin

[psaghafi]

Nice video. I would add that we need to remember that there are different types and levels of depression. Profound clinical depression is a disease and needs to be eradicated from the face of the earth. It's a cruel disease that nobody deserves to face and includes physical symptoms, emotional symptoms etc. Some forms of what we call "depression" can be useful. At times, negative moods can help us grow and mature.

[venomixus]

Depression destroy lives, destroy self confidence and lead to deep hell..but you know what, you got a good point of view, why would a depressed person feel sad because he knows hes always depressed and different , or cause people give him that weird look!! good angle to look from.

[xcguy411]

Maybe it was a slip, but I think depression is a very bad thing. It clouds reality, and makes the smallest things seem trivial. But you do bring up a good existential point. ;)

[ravencrowflux]

your face look familiar to me.

[BDMblue]

I always fell depressed, but i never act it. If you show others your depression your just asking them to help you or feel sorry for you. I hide it because I don't want any help. Oh also when people tell you to smile. There basically saying stop your bitching. No one cares your depressed so stop bring us down with your expression were all sad. :)

[veineum]

Depression has been part of my life but I never though it was necessary to "seek help" so I could put on a pathetic, fake smile.

You imply that depression is just a form of sincerity but then claim that it needs to be "dealt with" and "cured". Your confusion bores me.

[sabansaulicvasa]

Oh, you are beautiful, girl!

[softlinker]

A feeling is not something we have great power over. It's the things that surround us that determine how we feel. Sure you can do things to help, but it's not like you can just say, ok I choose to be sad now lol

[ToolAdjacents]

Well when I was in Psychiatric care I was trying to express the same words as you just put down. I really can't articulate things rationally. I just can't seem tho concentrate hard enough to. But they just told me to move on because that is the only way I'll get by. Good advice ay?

[ToolAdjacents]

Well when I was in Psychiatric care I was trying to express the same words as you just put down. I really can't articulate things rationally. I just can't seem tho concentrate hard enough to. But they just told me to move on because that is the only way I'll get by. Good advice ay?

[ericcrazyfrench]

AhYaOk, your comment should be named "the most stupid Youtube`s comment ever". You obviously don`t know what you are talking about, trust me. Depression IS extremely hard to deal with, nobody decides to be depressed.

[AhYaOk]

Depression is self imposed. it has to do w/ the ego; not biology.

That depression is a chemical imbalance is the biggest lie in the world. There is a self image that one has to live up to. Depression is the price you pay to keep your false image intact.

[colormeviolet]

Right... we should all ignore what those who hold Ph D's in psychology say, and we're obliged to listen to an anonymous Youtube post.

You and Tom Cruise would get along well.

[AhYaOk]

You believe what ever the commercials tell you to believe. I'm only saying what is based on Freud's and many other doctors research. There is more than one school of thought on this. Its nothing new. It is a false assumption to say that depression is a chemical imbalance. It simply is not. Tom Cruise? You mean the actor? LOL

[psaghafi]

I think you are mistaken, AhYaOk. Sometimes depression results from the brain acting goofy. For instance, some people with severe clinical depression get symptoms that feel like having a bad alcohol hangover. These symptoms can last for months. Silly things can trigger these episodes. For instance, poor sleep habits can trigger these weird episodes. Don't confuse personality disorders with depression. Not everyone with depression has emotional issues. There are many types of depression!

[psaghafi]

AhYaOk, explain the following:

1) Why do some people with profound depression often have hallucinations?

2) Why does "clinical depression" result in severe physical symptoms (like weight loss, inability to sleep), even after stresses in the life are removed?

3) Why do animals, that have much simpler "egos" than people, develop "clinical depression" when they are put through severe stress?

4) Why does PTSD have many features similar to depression when PTSD has little to do with personality?

[videowatcheer]

@AhYaOk That sounds like somethin someone would say if they have never suffered from depression. I have had depression and NOTHING helped until I started on medication and than everything else fell in line for me!!

[Sapphiregriffin]

@AhYaOk no

[sexxylebbo]

u should of said to him its hard to smile when ur upset do i look happy to smile u idiot if i sawe u with an unhappy face i wont tell u to smile but then again maybee he was jus trying to help u an cheer u up but being a pharmisict he should know better my father commited suicide a year ago from suicide i love him and miss him greatly plz dont ever let ur depression or any1 one else readn this do tha same it destroys ur family

[VandalousMedium]

i feel depressed but thats just because iv surrounded myself with it..i dont think people should dwell on this..it usually makes people think about it more.anyways blah blah blah...iv decided that im not depressed..life is depressing and we just have to deal with the cold world..iv also came to conculed that im glad to be feeling anything at all even if it is negative feelings..its better than nothing at all..it lets me know that im still a person and im alive.

[RSGbat]

good. yup.

[owenthegreat1]

What you said is interesting. But while lamenting over the loss of a loved one or some great tragedy is (as you say) a beautiful, natural thing, Depression is different. It's a chemical imbalance that affects your brain's ability to produce endorphines. It's not "feeling down". It's ALWAYS feeling down, because you are INCAPABLE of getting up.

I respect your view though.

[sound4media]

thanks for posting your video.

as a lifelong sufferer i would like to start a campaign to change the word "depression" for some other word, to indicate the difference between people having a bad hair day to those of us whose lives have been wrecked by this wretched condition.

[owenthegreat1]

here here SOUND4!!

Lifelong depression is something that has touched many of my family.

I understand.

[sound4media]

thanks owenthegreat1

i am 48 and had this since i was 6 or 7.

here some of the things i have tried outside of my usual medication and "conventional" therapies.

acupuncture. not effective for me

hypnotherapy.briefly very effective with the right therapist. but expensive

nlp..also very effective for a brief few days,but only with certain therapists, but expensive.

shiatsu....ditto

eft...shows some promise.

hope this helps someone out there.

sound4media

[rretarded]

there are alot if different depressions. some just makes you sad, and some makes you think. i am very deeply depressed. and i've been that for about 5 years now... and also without getting any help at all. but i'm glad that i'm depressed. it makes you appreciate the small things in life that others don't even think about. and it also makes you think more than the rest. i don't know.. but i think this - a glad persons life must be... so boring? i don't know.

[tonikmajor]

i somewhat disagree. we use our imagination to ameliorate suffering. the way you rationalize depression as a good thing merely allows you to not be hurt by it- but it doesnt solve it. while i do agree that it is human to feel sad or to experience sadness as a response to some event in our subjective reality, such sadness is short term and merely a response to something. depression, however, is longer term. it shouldnt be embraced. ppl should fight depression, not accept/surrender to it.

[StarveAndRun85]

yeah if someone told me to smile I'd be like EXCUUUSE ME?

I still don't see how depression can be "good."

[palmersville]

in the UK we have a saying that people (strangers or otherwise) say to people who look unhappy. It is 'cheer up, it might never happen'. I don't know if you have this in the US. People say it frequently and I know what you mean, it is very intrusive for (particularly a stranger) to make the observation that you look unhappy when you are just going about your business.

[colormeviolet]

No, I've never heard that saying, but it kinda sums up what I mean. Some people have ideas about how you should feel and can be very intrusive about that. When you try to force a feeling, it often feels fake.

[travisbickle33]

Your face and your words are beautiful. That makes me think. Thank you

[234566tgvb]

People should show their true feelings, not putting a mask on. Aslong as they don't hurt others, like using someone to release their fustration on, when it's not their fault.

[234566tgvb]

Juggafreeze. Depression is nothing about been beautiful. Because someone looks beautiful does not protect them from depression, it not how they look, more like how they feel. That comment of yours seems so small minded.

[spun88]

Yes, i seriously agree with that I suffer from depression myself so i know the feeling when some asks you too smile i nvr do but i always get asked to, but yea i agree with Handsome815 that really creative ppl aren't normal, hell Van Gogh suffered from major depression, look at his work beautiful. mainly if everyone smiled i still would find a way to be the grey blob free to express emotions not just happiness....*ramblings*

[imisssomething]

I agree with everything you say very cool video I lied it alot ad i hope to see more:)

[Handsome815]

also, I absolutely hate that how psychiatry gets this radical view that everyone MUST at all costs be normal. if someone has mental illness they are viewed as sick by these people. I don't trust people that 30-40 years ago use to perform lobotomies on people. The societal definition of normal is stupid at best, what actually fits is the word different. Many geniuses today and in history aren't exactly stable or normal so thats shows something.

[Juggafreeze]

You are so beautiful, why should a girl like you be depressed? :)

[Handsome815]

Well, there isn't anything wrong with how you feel, it's perfectly acceptable. I know how you feel when people say to smile, it's pretty rude and insensitive and maybe on the side of being ignorant. If your depressed, yet you feel like it doesn't take away from what you want your life to be and your chances of achieving that, then power to you. I agree in some cases it's severe and deserves some sort of healing though.

[y00ch]

ur very right, but dont forget depression can be destructive. looks like you've got a heavy dose. maybe some non-plastic happiness will balance u some day

[AlexMarkey]

Okay. You make depression sexy, young, new and intriguing. Of course it is none of these things, but watching this makes me want to be depressed.

[sonalirmr]

I agree with you that there should be no shame in showing if you are really sad.

Some people pretend to be happy all the time, why? Why not just cry and let it all out?

[Fintinobrien]

Let me hypnotize you

[colormeviolet]

Aw, I understand how you feel. But sometimes, you'd be surprised at how many ways you can relate to people. World peace is a vision shared by lots of people, and it's lovely to know that you try to keep it alive.

[Mann1979HH]

color...! Everybody talks about world peace, nobody claims not to want it. The devil is in the detail. In the middle of 2005, I realised that languages are badly structured, and I tried to tell people, but nobody listened to me. I also realised that we need to have euqal global standards in terms of language, education, laws, environmental protection and social security, but nobody listened to me.

[gordonculp]

she should realize that you dont think like that at the time your depressed. After your feelings go away your out look on depretion is not as bad as it seems. But the reality of depretion is you do need help and it is a serious mental illness that should be treated.

[Hijabi4lifeyx]

i enjoyed your video,

thank you so much.

[FellowTraveler06]

In a way, depression has been the fountainhead of many beautiful human creations and works of art. Many artists, composers, poets, etc. suffered from depression.

[Kalaniboy]

Here is something interesting I've read online somewhere; it has to do with the Buddhist's view of depression. "When one is feeling the pains of sadness, it is actually the soul cleansing itself of sin, from past lives. Therefore, when one is depressed thy should enjoy it; for it is bringing you that much closer to nirvana." Make of that what you will. By the way.. you're quite beautiful.

[markpaghi1987]

people like crisangle piss me off talkin bout you can change the way u fel and shit. its not as easy as u think asshole u obviously dont know what it feels like to have depression. and i think most people dont overcome depression b/c like myself, in a strange way like you said, it feels good to be sad. idk how to explain it, i guess cuz its the only thing i know.

[jmonk33]

I dont think it is possible to be sad all the time nor happy all the time but there is a way to feel peace and contentment in your mind

between feeling happy or sad or what ever other emotions you might be experiencing. It comes from knowing that the world is impermanent and though it sad and full of misery and pain it is not forever, and it is very important to have hope in your mind that there is something better waiting beyond this world so long has your not to attached to it.

[colormeviolet]

I like this outlook a lot. I think it's better stated than the muddle in this video :)

[ryansanfran]

I hear u.

[CaramelHottie2]

Thank you for this video, commanding that a person smile is selfish cause you know what they've experience, that person could be dealing with a major loss. Most people think if they feel good you should too or expect others to make them feel good for their sake. I think it's based on insecurity because everyone wants to feel so special that they're offended if a person is not jumping for joy in that person's presence.

[caseyburk]

Depression sucks. I've been fighting it for almost 10 or so years now, and even at 24, I still can't get rid of it. I'm sorry, but I just don't think depression is a normality of human society (unless it's a byproduct of our own doing in this contemporary society we've created). ...Like Cancer or something...

[Soulquarium]

You kind of look like Norah Jones a bit...which is certainly a good thing.

[CrisVangel]

you can change the way you feel, bring yourself to a different place do something else.. if what you've lived before has left you unhappy, change your environment. Find your gift, use it and make your life happy. Happy people decide to be happy! On top of this imagine the world is conspiring to make you happy! What is happy?

[AmbientMood]

Oh, and check out Matthew Arnold's 'The Buried Life'.

[AmbientMood]

You talk about everyone plastering smiles all over their faces. That's the way the world is already - no use having nightmares about it now! We conceal everything in accordance with unwritten propriety; who wants to reveal weakness in a laissez faire society? Suicide!

[goldengreek25]

Will you marry me?

[andystokie]

I like menencholy because i can listen to music, if i'm fully fledged depressed i can't listen to music and don't want to.

[DARE4444]

i hv been homebound with depression for 7 yrs now and i am only 24 and totally a mess , left school in 10 grade ..also lots of health probs like chronic bronchitis,pains,gastritis , etc...taking antidepresaant called EMSAM it's a patch ...it is an MOI type and prescribed when patients are not too responsive to SSRI's like paxil, etc...i think it is helping me..those with depression out there..u need help u can't help urself alone!!! drugs along with CBT therapy,exercise,diet,can help u!!!

[patrick95212]

do you take any antidepresants? such as prozac or effexor xr?

[heavenlyfruits22]

melancholy is beautiful because it brings you back in touch with the inner self

[richd506]

I definately agree with the point you make about how trying smile when you're depressed can make it worse. There's a drive in us to feel emotion and to be sad sometimes because happiness, on occasion, is too good to be true...

[beirutpeter]

You are trying to protect yourself, and usually you give out excuses for what you are feeling. Justification for your un-certaincy. leading you into a circle that you are trapped in!

[colormeviolet]

Excuses? You can change the way you act, but you can't change the way you feel. You are only lying to yourself.

[protinus]

agreeably, I even think that directed activity (things that you don't necessarily like doing but do to help yourself or others) can even change the way you feel. I think that you do have control over your actions and that these actions can effect your mood and depression.

[cardoggcr]

your a piece of shit, you got some nerve...or lack there of.

[protinus]

very thoughtful overview of depression;  I do like that you urged appropriate intervention at the end...chronic depression can be very debilating and people are prone to do self destructive things like self-medicating with alcohol.

[BILLRO24]

You've got a old head on young shoulders - makes people realise that there is no age limit to this disease.Hope you are progressing down the right track but it's never easy.

[snaketrm]

omg you looks like Eliza Dushku, even the voice!!

[maxguaverra]

You talk alot of sense hun, i totally feel the same way. I normally deal with being depressed by gettin absouloutly wasted (not recomended), but just watching your vid has cheered me up so much. You are so beautiful and bright, thank you.

[colormeviolet]

Well, thank you ^_^ I'm so glad I could help someone.

But be careful with drugs. They may help for a short time, but they always drop you lower than before.

[jenny079]

youre smart on the subject, I have respect for you. great video

[sunlionness2007]

you look really sad. but pretty.

[Rideronthestorm82]

I have been diagnosed with severe depression and trust me its a bad thing

[bettiethebadger]

my life sucks also

[GSTFU]

nice words

you are nice also

[zorkius57]

Tips for depression: Go to groups(dot)google(dot)com and type in alt(dot)suicide(dot)methods. This group *will* show you how to kill yourself. All your questions will be answered if you lurk there long enough. Be sure to ask about 1) Darvon cocktail 2) CO Method 3) Rope suspension and 4) Gunshot to the brain stem. These are the best ways for most people to go. Do NOT 1) take sleeping pills 2) slash your wrists or 3) tell *anyone* you're suicidal. These are all *bad* ideas.

[uvaldelupe]

How can you tell the difference between being sad and depressed? i think when your depressed theirs other symptoms.

thanks for posting your thoughts and video!

[jimm17]

when ur depressed u feel sad to the point of despair and suicide. it is prolonged

[unheard128]

there is the differance between being sad and being really depressed, i could be sad before events made me depressed, sadness was an emotion but deopression is a life style for me

[unknownuser1223]

thankyou

[colormeviolet]

You're welcome!

[odinfour]

great video :)

i've came to the same conclusion life isn't high or low points i guess happiness is always in the middle

there are very few videos so well described has yours u don't lack the words wich i often find myself lacking

by the way i'm not depressed

a big hug to u

[HS3006]

Oh wow, I get so upset when people tell others to just be happy or smile--as if that is the "fix-all"-- smiling is great, but sometimes people just need to think a while and not be concerned with whether they are smiling or not.

[Davidscave]

the question mark was an accident

[Davidscave]

cant believe i missed this vid.. thanks for sharing? awesome vid! I agree with alot of what you said

[happy3nding]

thanks, i'll try expressing myself more. plus i think you have guts to go on camera and say all these things [you probally get that alot].

[andrefrbk]

I find you so hot :) thanks for the video u hit some interesting points.

[omni321]

CMV,

Cool way to deal w the moods, talk about it. Keep up the great work!!!

[nrj2i]

right on. there's no sweet without the bitter.

[usc69]

What is normal? If anyone can answer this, I would like to know?

[Nickodemusodurn]

Thanks for the video, I agree with most of what you said. Sometimes my sadness is comforting, as long as its not severe, which it often is. Severe depression sucks, it steals your life, eats you from the inside. I am hopeful that I will be able to control it one day.

[freebaker]

mmm, mellon collie.

with crisco.

[philrickard]

The worst thing for me with depression is the fact it comes in waves...it's when these waves occur that can be really inconvinient times.. you make a lot of good points. I too agree that it wouldn't be right if were happy all the time, there needs to be some balance between those 2 emotions, it's too much of one that ruins it. x

[colormeviolet]

I know, you plunge downward and then surge back up again in these extremes. I think I may be a manic depressant, I don't know :/

[cloudy91]

thank you so much.

[BetaFlux]

Hey Hannah, You made some good points. Although I do like myself as being melancolie most of the time, people around me push me to be happy and that makes me feel like an outsider. I've tried counseling but they tell me I'm normal so.. It took me a long time to accept that I'm OK! and didn't need to change to be accepted or like myself. Thanks for the post.

[colormeviolet]

I've always felt like an outsider for many different reasons, I suppose, because I've never fit the standard of "normalcy" set by society. But it's been a long road to self-acceptance, and in the past few years I've learned appreciate the fact that I don't fit the mold. Because there's nothing worse in life than being ordinary :)

Take care.

[Nozmoz]

I used to wonder why people were always telling me to smile. I had been living with my depression for so long I thought it was normal to feel that way. I also used to wonder why I wasn't like everbody else, or 'normal'. Now I understand why that is, and I'm so glad I'm not one of those 'normal' sheep.