i think you're beautiful! people tell me im beautiful too and i used to not believe it either. i think that everyone just goes through a stage of unsureness of themselves. bottomline, everyone is beautiful in their own way.
Now matter how we see ourselves, no matter what we are, there is someone out there who will not just accept but cherish us. The question is whether YOU will accept THEM. Just BE yourself completely if you want to be accepted completely.
i know where you're coming from. i think you are very pretty. but i too think i look manly. i have huge feet, broad shoulders, big ribs, a thick middle, a small butt, bigs things, thick knees, and not to mention a big crooked nose long face, big ears, no chin, heavy hooded eyebrows, and a small mouth. i'm 5'9 and 165 pounds. i have been told that i am not ugly but that is so hard to believe when you're surrounded by thin, small, short, gorgeous girls who are 110% more feminine than yourself.
What we see in the mirror is reflected on how we feel and feelings are based on what we believe. I am sorry that you feel like I do, but I hope that one day you, myself and others will feel better so we can see true reflection.
Have a nice day and I wish you the best that life has to offer.
One day I was sitting at the table with another female. She was sitting across the table and kept looking at me. After she realized that I was looking at her as well, she looked up so we can see each other eye to eye. Then she told me "you are beautiful". I replied , "what you see in me is your own reflecton". After that she looked down and said thank you. I could see that she was blushing. I did not lie to her to make her feel better, it was the truth as it still is.
its not exactly the same thing but I've always had an issue with being small boned(6'185lbs)I remember in high school I thought everyone around me was taller than me.One day I walked past a display case and saw my reflection..I was taller than everyone else around me..strange.
It may not help any but when I first saw you I thought you were a cute chick..and thats from a straight guy.And by the way you look more like Daniell Brisebois:)take care
I was up all night upset at how I look in the mirror.Focusing on all the wrong things and realizing that I will never be the pretty girl I feel like inside. Your video really hit home with me. It feels good to know that I'm not alone. Learning to like what I see in the mirror will probably be one of the hardest things for me. Maybe one day I will be able to do that. And maybe one day you will be able to do that too. Love the video and your honesty.
This video really hit home. Why do people put so much emphasis on beauty. Honestly being hot is a big fucking hassle. No one respects you for your intelligence. It breaks my heart to see the torture we inflict as social beings.Honestly i really wonder why this guy is so dissatisfied when he is rather good looking; but i see myself crying in the mirror, the same way, when others say im gorgeous.stay strong, and love yourself there is a reason for everything
Arie, please don't ever feel bad about being tall. A couple of my coworkers are tall genetic girls, prabably about 6 ft., and they're so beautiful! They're gorgeous and so are you. Please believe that.
Arianna -- it should be noted that all women have body-issues. Sometimes, we transwomen really have masculine features that we need to cover up -- but many times (which seem to include your case) many are the same body issues all women have -- just blamed on being trans. (Instead of something else.)
Most transwomen need some surgery (at least the"down there" surgery -- but some have an excessive desire for FFS beyond what's needed - not unlike anorexia in GGs.
you really Are beautiful, you know. my heart goes out to people who don't fit into the nice, neat gender box. the world can be very cruel. stay strong & focus on life's beauty, k.
*Hugs tightly* I know how you feel...I want to die every time I look in the mirror. But you're very gorgeous sweetheart, and you're not absurd for feeling the way you feel. When I see you, I see a beautiful girl with pretty hair and gorgeous eyes, and a very nice facial structure. I'm always wishing I could look like someone else, and honestly, I'd love to look like you. You're a very georgeous woman. ^-^ *Hugs again* I hope you're feeling better about yourself now.
Part of your transition is being able to accept yourself. What you see in the mirror will always be there. I still look in the mirror and see the same person I was, even after surgery. What's important is in your heart.
You are more than what you "see" in the mirror physically. Please find a baby pic....take a look at your eyes in that pic. Look deep and see the innocence you were born with. Now, look in the mirror...look deep and see that innocence again....it's your spirit. YOU are loved and supported upon this journey sweetheart. ((hugs))
You are very pretty I wish I had that beautiful hair you got and those perfect eyes you have. When I looked at you..I saw a girl. I'm a TG girl my self, very isolated and wish I had friends like you. Hugs ((( )))
OMG! *hugs* I know exactly how you feel... My partner tells me that I'm beautiful, but I just can't see it... I mean, at times I am aware of my own beauty, but at others I can't help but be overpowered by the knowledge of my own flaws...
this lady that lives down the street from me..she has big EVERYTHING..but shes still very pretty..ur a woman..screw those people who say u need facial whatever the hell they said!l WISH l had hair like u..and a face like u..and a body like urs(lm tired of being short) u wear AWESOME clothes..that fit ur body and u look AMAZIMG hun
You shouldn't beat yourself up like this. True you may find some flaws in yourself. Accepting yourself for who you are is probably the biggest step in a transition. If you see yourself as beautiful, others will see that light about you.
For an effeminate man I think you look great. There is no reason you should be down on yourself. I know some guys who like to wear makeup and accept themselves as they are.
I'm feeling BAD right over something someone has said, and I wish I could give you a million dollars for everytime someone has refered to you as a MAN!
Which comment? It sounded like Dast was just being smart-ass when he called you an effiminate man! Is THAT the comment your talking about? If so that's what I'm talking about, LOL
What I see when I look at you, I see a woman..an angel, and someone who'se misunderstood by those close to her. Much love to you and NEVER give up..-Straight Male irl, but loves Gay/Bi/TS persons.- And you should always have a good Christmas =)
Aire420, are you ok now? How long until you post another video? I would like to hear what happened during your new years break with your family and friends.
I would've posted more, but it would've been off topic.
aire, we all get those bad days. there are times when i look like my sister's brother in lipstick with long hair... pretty revolting. But it will get better. Hormones are wonderful for the young. I'm an old fart so you're in good shape!
I think we are all guilty of the feeling you are showing. We all see the bad points in ourselves if we are totally honest. That's not to say that is right, just human. My Sister is gorgeous and i know there is a family resembalance but i can't see what my true friends see 'a Girl' I just see me 'a Guy'
I know it isn't easy and believe me we have all been there in our early days... I particularly remember my first Christmas as being appallingly bad. But just get through it somehow and as things go on they will improve!
Happily I haven't had a bad mirror day for over 20 years now.
In any case you are being rather hard on yourself. You don't look at all bad. The adams apple may need a bit of work in the future but that is perfectly do-able. So don't fret. It will all come good in time.
Anyway, we all have bad days, my dear. I can totally relate. Every time I look in the mirror its like I'm Sam Becket on Quantum leap. I don't see myself. I see the body and face of the guy I leaped into.
I can sympathise with you darlin I myself am big (6'2"),but you are pretty and you do look like a girl,s It's what's inside that counts maybe we need to just say sod the world if people can't see the good in us and can't be kind and understanding, then they don't matter. You didn't ask to be like this but your'e making the best of what you've got like we all have to. So cheer up and hold your'e head up high and be proud of what you are a beautiful woman x x
im not a transgender so i cant really relate to how your feeling but i do understand what your saying,you dont sound absurd,everyone feels negitive somtimes just try to be more postitive about things no matter how bad it seems.when you look in the mirror you see a boy,but i bet when your family and friends see you,they see a women.(:
I know the world can be tough on the outside - but jusk look and you fine warm and nice people. That will live with you and share eachothers lives :) so get up, and live your life good.
And bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbboi68 grow some balls and go kick your dad for raising you bad! fuckar!
life is full of great wonderful things you just have to go out and grab it by the horns instead of felling bad for yourself at home by yourself it not going solve your problems you have to do it "Grow some balls" as it were! I hope you at least think about it! have a good life.
oh and this "bbbbboi66" what a sad person get a life dude your the real loser dog!
you need to stop looking at the glass half empty no ones perfect believe me and when u look at them and really see there just as fucked up as you but they just dont care they enjoy life and whatever comes from it because life is too short to be pondering on all the bad things enjoy life meet people who like you for who you really are.dont be a follower be a leader set the standard dont try to reach some one elses.
the way our culture is growing more and more people get pull in. the way television,magizines and the internet portrays their impossible standards it all a lie just to get you to make yourself change and spent all your money for their greed. surjury should never be use unless a person was disfigure now people use it whenever something wrong pops up but your not really doing anything just covering up the true pain its not a solution its an escape
yeah your not alone in the subject. you and thousands of other people in this country suffer from the same disease thinking your nothing,trying to be like someone else, thinking your not worth a flying fuck!
bbbbboi68, WTF, who posts the same damn comment five times?! Who the hell is that psycho? What the hell is he doing back here if he doesn't like you? Well, according to him, you're ugly and I have no IQ, so whatever. You're so beautiful and you're loved and cared about, and he's obviously very lonely and insecure, so he has to try to tear someone else down. Don't let him do it.
Please don't pay any attention to what bbbbboi68 said, because bbbbboi68 obviously needs a lobotomy...and as soon as possible...for all our safety. For bbbbboi68 to post the same comment 5 times in a row is absolute proof of a serious mental and/or emotional disorder. You certainly are NOT ugly, and that is coming form someone who is extremely intelligent and well balanced emotionally. My eyesight isn't too bad either, and I definately don't think you need to get any facial surgery.
Three words: Ugly, ugly, ugly!--I s'pose that briefly sums up your masculine-looking face.
I'm not joking now: You *seriously* need facial feminization surgery. You'll always be a boy, no matter what, but at least you can more adequately lie to yourself about your true male-gender by feminizing your mannly face with cosmetic surgery. Certainly, a 28-year-old man has worked enough hours to afford at least $10,000; so hurry up and get FFS, you cheap-ass bitch.
Three words: Ugly, ugly, ugly!--I s'pose that briefly sums up your masculine-looking face.
I'm not joking now: You *seriously* need facial feminization surgery. You'll always be a boy, no matter what, but at least you can more adequately lie to yourself about your true male-gender by feminizing your mannly face with cosmetic surgery. Certainly, a 28-year-old man has worked enough hours to afford at least $10,000; so hurry up and get FFS, you cheap-ass bitch.
Three words: Ugly, ugly, ugly!--I s'pose that briefly sums up your masculine-looking face.
I'm not joking now: You *seriously* need facial feminization surgery. You'll always be a boy, no matter what, but at least you can more adequately lie to yourself about your true male-gender by feminizing your mannly face with cosmetic surgery. Certainly, a 28-year-old man has worked enough hours to afford at least $10,000; so hurry up and get FFS, you cheap-ass bitch.
Three words: Ugly, ugly, ugly!--I s'pose that briefly sums up your masculine-looking face.
I'm not joking now: You *seriously* need facial feminization surgery. You'll always be a boy, no matter what, but at least you can more adequately lie to yourself about your true male-gender by feminizing your mannly face with cosmetic surgery. Certainly, a 28-year-old man has worked enough hours to afford at least $10,000; so hurry up and get FFS, you cheap-ass bitch.
i know what u mean...well kinda. in a backwards way. but about the family thing i def know what u mean. it makes u comfortable in the meantime not to go, but in the long run it makes it harder. and i know yer having a hard time believing it right now, but trust me u are very gorgeous.... keep yer head up...
Oh, absolutely...I totally agree with you. As far as self-pity goes, I was just saying that it's so easy to get worn down but that thankfully not every day is like that, especially when we are striving for something we want so badly. I definitely heard you saying not to give up, and you're so right.
We all feel this way from time to time, but I can tell that the common sense part of you knows how pretty you are. It shows in your videos. I hope you did go to that party.
Great.. I should never posted, but I started to feel depressed seeing you at the start of the video.
I hope you enjoy the Christmas Eve party and hope your family just accept you as you are, not who you used to be. If you adams apple shows, cover it up like in one of you videos.
Post another vid soon, I would like to hear how everything went.
I hope my previous post I didn't offend anyone. Please respond and let me know.
Don't put yourself down by a mirror. Remember that people are not perfect and genetics is what makes us unique. Personality is the key to make friendships and you have a great personality. I hate to see you like this, so be strong and you'll pull through.
I hope I made sense since I usually talk like this.
Syphrus, 25 Male, single with some type of Asperger Disorder. Will see a doctor soon.
For my part , I am not trans-gendered, but I can understand a human being in pain, and I think you should spend less time HAMMERING YOURSELF FOR WHAT YOU ARE NOT, and get back to the strong,confident person I saw in your other vids...show up at the x-mas party in you finest and BE YOU. ..leave the self-pity on the curb...
and btw, I TOTALLY see the Sandra Bullock thing...
I agree with everything you said here, 111noir2000...ooohhhh, if I got your screenname wrong, I apologize. I'm legally blind and my eyes were having some trouble there.
Our lovely friend Arie is a wonderful person and so pretty. No one should EVER have to look in the mirror and feel bad about what they see. So, go to that party, girl, and be proud of who you are. And, I hope you show us what outfit you picked out, LOL.
Sorry, long comment...as far as the self-pity you mentioned in your comment, I think we all feel it sometimes. It's part of being human. But, let's just be glad for the times when we ARE feeling that strength and confidence we should carry with us everywhere we go, right?
I have alot to say on this video, Arie, so, sorry for all the comments. It hit home for me but in a different way than you described.
Wow, bbbboi69, you're an ASS!!!!! Your personality is really ugly so I'm sure you're no prize to look at. Arie does NOT look a "masculine woman"...I'm a genetic girl and I would love to look as beautiful as she does. So, go find something to do so you're not sitting around making nasty, comments to people just because you can.
Honey even real girls go through this, I have learned to laugh at myself and its actualy become a fun hobby belive it or not. Ill go in front of a mirror and flaunt my ugliest features and laugh at how hidious I look and it actualy makes me feel better to laugh about it. When it comes down to it you care too much what people will think of you and all I see is people telling you how beautiful you are so keep your chin up and live your life as happy as you can.
I don't understand the concept of "real girls" in the context of TS's. I understand what you meant, but I still don't understand why you use that phrase that way. You are just as much a real girl to me as... well... Sandra Bullock I guess, since you mentioned her name.
I wasn't offended! I really need to work on my commenting skills. I keep getting the response "I didn't mean to offend...". I should have articulated it differently I guess. I have felt the same way as you quite often so... I dunno.
I just posted a new video that I would like you to respond to since I have your attention. It would mean a lot to me! Thanx in advance!
Nikolette11, I do the same thing sometimes..My bf says Im beautiful, I agree I can be attractive sometimes..lol..but really, i feel quite, fat and ugly most of the times.
Yeah thats how I feel, but the good thing is that thats not how I always feel so when I do feel like that I think to myself I am so crazy because sometimes I can feel like the most beautiful girl in the world and then I will have one of those days but I always get over them.
what i see when i watch you on youtube:a beautiful woman, both inside and out! (and based on all the comments youve gotten id say im not the only one who thinks so;)
Honey, we are both women. We are strong. You have become a beautiful woman. Even if you don't think you are, look at all of your feminine features. And even so, on the inside, we are both girls. I have yet to come out, but I know on the inside, I am a girl. You are a beautiful woman on the inside and the outside.
hey,aire i just want to say stop it! just stop right now!u r torturing ur self by feeling like u just don't measure up,u r who u r you just can't live up to other peoples fantasies,at the end of the day u have a life to live and more people to reach because of people like u people all across this world can live and breathe easy with a sigh of relief!,and that my friend makes u beautiful!!!!
What you just said confirms that you are a girl all girls whether genetic or trans have these same feelings, i have them and i had them even when i was trying to fit in as a boy which i could never do, i would always criticize myself, you are a beautiful woman and thats all i see when i watch your videos. Go to that party girl, put on your favorite outfit and just be your wonderful self
Sweetie a lot of us look at you and wish we could look like you. I for one sure do. I think your gorgeous. I know you don't believe me, I wish I could some how show you through youtube, I really wish I could. I look at you and just wish I had the strength you have to have gone this far in life. Stay strong, hold your head up. Your beautiful inside and out.
Hiya , Arie , wow powerful video !, I say just go to the party, and be polite and just ask them all to not refer to you as a boy ! sounds kinda corny but & simple , I've do it in the past. for me in the mirror I'm 5'11",I have a chest tho!!!!but crapy hair , no ass,
and I just see a boy/guy and it sux 2 , the mirror is not my best friend , I wish you a Merry X-mas , & New Years , just stay stong & for yourself ,Ciao....your Girl SIERRA..
I see a woman staring back at me from your video. I see a beautiful soul blossoming into womanhood. They say eyes are the window to the soul. You're no doubt that which is the essence of female. You're gorgeous, and you do resemble Sandra Bullock, but you are yourself: a woman.
Keep in mind that, when looking in the mirror, all you are really seeing is light, reflecting back at you. The light is you. Don't pay attention to the shape, or the tone. Don't try to compare it with other lights you may have seen. It's like the song goes: You're a shooting star/ no matter who you are/ shining bright to see/ what you can truly be. See the star and be the star.
i know how u feel, well not about the boy but, people say i'm pretty and amazing, i see every flaw every ugly bit of me, i cant see what people say is pretty, yes i'm a girl, i know i dont know every thing ur goin through. but i know what its like to look in the mirror and how it feels to wish to be beautiful
also, that last bit "that's how I see myself sometimes" I can relate to the difficulty of feeling that sometimes, but remember that "he" is a part of you in some way too,even if it doesn't make you not a woman
MANY trans people go through this!! I thought I was the only one who thought this, but it's a case of ups and downs, some days I never see "him" but some days I do.
hi hon, there are so many wonderful comments on here already from lovely and supportive people and i dont think i need to say any more as a lot of what has been said, i agree with.
Just know this....i see a beautiful young woman, its your inner glow that makes you so who you are, not your exterior....dont lose that, that is what defines you as you
You are a very pretty young lady and if you didnt tell me I would honestly never know. We are always always our toughest critics. Give yourself some space and freedom. Stop concentrating on that ... its your depression talking to you ... the same depression that tells girls that weigh 90 pounds that they need to lose weight. You are so above this ... enjoy your beauty baby. Love, Johnny ANgel
I'm sorry you're having difficulties and I hope your party is fun.
I know the mirror seems to show up those things that we are NOT proud of. I know my lips and skin get VERY dry esp. in the winter and sometimes I get in the car and look in the rear-view mirror and get grossed out at the sight of my face.
..., but it's hard not to see it that way, because you're anxious and depression comes with it, and it's hard to fight that because depression drains you and anxiety wants you to run, wants you to give up and tell yourself they're right, only they're not, you're a girl. you're a girl, you're a girl, you're a girl, you're a girl! xoxo
Ya, I can relate too... big nose, big chin, big brow, male looking features, no matter what, cuz for so many years that's what you saw, and there's the anxiety related to the upcoming party, coming out that way, like it's saying quit, cuz all there is is a boy in the mirror, only that isn't true...
I believe you are a strong, tenacious, delicate, emotional, funny, expressive, captivating, exquisite, beautiful woman. Don't even believe anything different, especially if it's a mirror making you think otherwise.
honestly i believe it's all a problem of habit, we get into the habit of seeing a boy everytime we look in the mirror, we look for the masculine cues, just making the changes in our appearance isn't enough we actually have to build a new habit of seeing a girl in the mirror and focusing instead on the feminine cues believe it or not if you tell yourself look at the pretty girl someday you will actually start to see it
it's odd b/c even when you're wearing just a plain shirt & the only real gender cue is your long hair, i can't think of you as boy b/c i've only ever seen you present as a girl. they say it takes 20 good meetings to overcome a bad 1st impression. if you have 20+ years of the wrong impression... but 1st impressions are usually wrong. you could buzz your hair & start a vlog on fixing cars & i'd still have a hard time seeing you as a boy. someday you'll be able to see what you really look like too.
I don't know how far youve been into your transition. But yeah, I can relate. And I know It might sound so contra because Ive acheived the look I want for me, but I still see stuff in the mirror of me that bother me.
There is almost nothing I can say which won't sound patronizing. If I could, I guess, I would simply share with you that it WILL get better. That if I can make it, you can. That being fully yourself, genuinely and honestly and authentically your SELF, is never easy and everything in this world - from gender roles on down - conspires against it. That you are not alone in this and to reach out to those of us you care to. Lastly, know many of us care about you.
We all go through it hun. I know that doesn't make it better but we do. I go through it everyday. Most mornings in the shower I cry when I see what I feel like looks male to me. When someone calls me beautiful its almost an insult in some way. I think "How can they be so blind!" Hopefully it gets better with time.
You think you're the only one? You should thank god you're healthy and nothing is wrong with you. People who aren't trans gendered go through the same thing. And you know why? We all have insecurities. You being a trans gendered is hard, but you have to think, other people have it worse than you.
HUGS! Yes, of course there will always be someone who has it worse than you, but that doesn't mean that you haven't been through something worth expressing how you feel. God ahead and bitch and vent all you need to...whatever helps you get through the pain.
Interesting little typo thete, lol...ok, that's supposed to say GO ahead and bitch, not GOD ahead and bitch. I wasn't getting all religious on you or anything, lol, that was just a typo.
I'm sorry things are difficult right now, it sounds like you have to fight very hard for acceptance and recognition among your family and friends, which is sad but you are so brave for doing it! Everyone here will agree that you're beautiful and you're one of the most empowering women I know.
Hi Arie, I like your idea of going to the party and let everyone know in your family you are all girl. BTW, they are plenty of very beautiful tall girls, and you are one of them. Every girl is very critical of their appearance, your concerns are what every girl feels. I know is much harder for a transgender girl, but continue believing in yourself. At your age you will be able to make a great transition and by the time your older no one will ever know you were a genetic male.
Everyone suffers from this. Everyone picks out their flaws and blows them up bigger then they are. I am glad you are going to the party though. Let us know how it goes. ^_^
I feel ur pain girl i really do. Be strong is all i can say cause im dealing with the same issues. I think i have like really bad image and body issues. For me its been going on since i can remember i thought it would be something i grow out of i guess i was wrong. Its like having conflicting stories. You have ppl telling u how pretty and sexy and blah blah blah you are but u dnt feel it or see it. IT SUCKS. Love ur videos btw and I Think Ur Gorgeous
It's not ridiculous at all. You're lovely, but yes we (pre-op TS)are all works in progress, and we see all the things that aren't congruent with what we want to be. You do though, have a lovely face, a lovely voice, hair and a very lovely feminine presence. That shines through any of the faults you see.
It is hard when you look at yourslef inthe mirror and feel like that. I know exactly what you mean and how powerless you can feel to change things. All I can say is I used to think the same but over time things really do get better, and change.
Also at times when you know people will be looking all the things that are wrong make thier way to the forefron of you mind, it doesnt mean that that is all you are.
Im thinking of you and sending you good thoughts :)
i think you're beautiful! people tell me im beautiful too and i used to not believe it either. i think that everyone just goes through a stage of unsureness of themselves. bottomline, everyone is beautiful in their own way.
ErikaxelectroPOP 10 months ago
your not rediculous
and no one thinks of that. i didn't think of the things you saw as flaws.
carouselwings 1 year ago
aire420, genetically are you boy or girl?
pretinol 1 year ago
We are who we are, and i would be really really happy if i had that angelic face of yours. AND, LOVE YOURSELF AND OTHER WILL LOVE YOU!!!
MefilioDeAggelo 1 year ago
Now matter how we see ourselves, no matter what we are, there is someone out there who will not just accept but cherish us. The question is whether YOU will accept THEM. Just BE yourself completely if you want to be accepted completely.
tv4all 1 year ago
You're really the opposite of whatever you're trying to be (oh yeah, offensive I know, blah blah blah)
azangor 1 year ago
im sorry, the tags made me laugh
landmine21 1 year ago
Are you a boy or a girl?
jordanbromley 2 years ago
you are beautiful if you believe you are and nobody can tell u any different.
ilyxsarahxx 2 years ago
i know where you're coming from. i think you are very pretty. but i too think i look manly. i have huge feet, broad shoulders, big ribs, a thick middle, a small butt, bigs things, thick knees, and not to mention a big crooked nose long face, big ears, no chin, heavy hooded eyebrows, and a small mouth. i'm 5'9 and 165 pounds. i have been told that i am not ugly but that is so hard to believe when you're surrounded by thin, small, short, gorgeous girls who are 110% more feminine than yourself.
yagi6993 2 years ago
sorry i meant thighs. oh and no chest whatsoever.
yagi6993 2 years ago
hmmmnnn......no one is exactly "beautiful" are flaws are what make us unique :3
xxxyurixfreakxxx 2 years ago
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u r a prick an ugly prick u shud of been one ov the goonies
fankfukforme 2 years ago
dont think it... you are so pretty and You deserve to be happy
and you have beautiful ok
And your life lives to the maximum
And it is not important what says the world
kisses from venezuela.....
18833466 2 years ago
You are so Pretty
Midnightryder7 2 years ago
I'm not looking in the mirror but i see right now looking at me is a beautiful girl called Ariadne.
tommofetish123 3 years ago
hey you look alot like Gene Simmons daughter
blackpigpigxxx 3 years ago
i think ur fucking cool
Paxadzor 3 years ago
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What we see in the mirror is reflected on how we feel and feelings are based on what we believe. I am sorry that you feel like I do, but I hope that one day you, myself and others will feel better so we can see true reflection.
Have a nice day and I wish you the best that life has to offer.
StacyTood 3 years ago
What we see in the mirror is reflected of how we feel and feelings are based on what we believe.
I am sorry that you feel like I do, but I hope that one day you, myself and others will feel better so we can see true reflection.
Have a nice day and I wish you the best that life has to offer.
StacyTood 3 years ago
One day I was sitting at the table with another female. She was sitting across the table and kept looking at me. After she realized that I was looking at her as well, she looked up so we can see each other eye to eye. Then she told me "you are beautiful". I replied , "what you see in me is your own reflecton". After that she looked down and said thank you. I could see that she was blushing. I did not lie to her to make her feel better, it was the truth as it still is.
StacyTood 3 years ago
I don't think you are the slightest bit rediculous.
Froggy711 3 years ago
Arianna, believe in yourself, I do. You are a beautuful person.
SummerBreeze2009 3 years ago
its not exactly the same thing but I've always had an issue with being small boned(6'185lbs)I remember in high school I thought everyone around me was taller than me.One day I walked past a display case and saw my reflection..I was taller than everyone else around me..strange.
It may not help any but when I first saw you I thought you were a cute chick..and thats from a straight guy.And by the way you look more like Daniell Brisebois:)take care
mompood 3 years ago
I was up all night upset at how I look in the mirror.Focusing on all the wrong things and realizing that I will never be the pretty girl I feel like inside. Your video really hit home with me. It feels good to know that I'm not alone. Learning to like what I see in the mirror will probably be one of the hardest things for me. Maybe one day I will be able to do that. And maybe one day you will be able to do that too. Love the video and your honesty.
Take care,
Hugz,
Hope
pyxylover 3 years ago
This video really hit home. Why do people put so much emphasis on beauty. Honestly being hot is a big fucking hassle. No one respects you for your intelligence. It breaks my heart to see the torture we inflict as social beings.Honestly i really wonder why this guy is so dissatisfied when he is rather good looking; but i see myself crying in the mirror, the same way, when others say im gorgeous.stay strong, and love yourself there is a reason for everything
firepixie024 3 years ago
Arie, please don't ever feel bad about being tall. A couple of my coworkers are tall genetic girls, prabably about 6 ft., and they're so beautiful! They're gorgeous and so are you. Please believe that.
-Annie
annbgc 3 years ago
Believe in yourself. Others will follow.
dmatt10635 3 years ago
Arianna -- it should be noted that all women have body-issues. Sometimes, we transwomen really have masculine features that we need to cover up -- but many times (which seem to include your case) many are the same body issues all women have -- just blamed on being trans. (Instead of something else.)
Most transwomen need some surgery (at least the"down there" surgery -- but some have an excessive desire for FFS beyond what's needed - not unlike anorexia in GGs.
TrueRedAngel 3 years ago
I'm the same
velocityeleven 3 years ago
you really Are beautiful, you know. my heart goes out to people who don't fit into the nice, neat gender box. the world can be very cruel. stay strong & focus on life's beauty, k.
Pandanu 3 years ago
im not gonna lie i did cry some
FrancesTgirl 4 years ago
Honey your gonna make me cry :( we thank you are amazing and beautiful i just want to give you a hug!
FrancesTgirl 4 years ago
you are very beautiful. If you wanted, you could be a model.
jlmclean08 4 years ago
*Hugs tightly* I know how you feel...I want to die every time I look in the mirror. But you're very gorgeous sweetheart, and you're not absurd for feeling the way you feel. When I see you, I see a beautiful girl with pretty hair and gorgeous eyes, and a very nice facial structure. I'm always wishing I could look like someone else, and honestly, I'd love to look like you. You're a very georgeous woman. ^-^ *Hugs again* I hope you're feeling better about yourself now.
-Danny
ryroluver 4 years ago
I would go. Don't let them win.
williambrown007 4 years ago
Don't look at the mirror, look inside you, look your hearth. It will be fine then.
Hugs!
Clauselot 4 years ago
Part of your transition is being able to accept yourself. What you see in the mirror will always be there. I still look in the mirror and see the same person I was, even after surgery. What's important is in your heart.
daniellefoxxx 4 years ago
You are more than what you "see" in the mirror physically. Please find a baby pic....take a look at your eyes in that pic. Look deep and see the innocence you were born with. Now, look in the mirror...look deep and see that innocence again....it's your spirit. YOU are loved and supported upon this journey sweetheart. ((hugs))
MissSudie 4 years ago
Its very difficult isn't it, rhetorical question I'm sorry!
I know how you feel, no, really I do!
I don't know what to say to you regarding this, the truth is nothing I can say will make a real difference.
I suffer myself, in exactly the same way.
Look, I'm older and further down the line than you, hey, maybe I can help in some way, I just don't know.
Drop me a line if you think you need to, I ain't a CD, TV, or gay man, or a guy after sex, I'm a TS girl, and I've been there!
LeahTS 4 years ago
I dont see Sandra Bullock either. You look like a very cute boy
Fieldofaware 4 years ago
Field-
She's cute but she ain't no boy!
SurfingInARainbow1 4 years ago
I want to cry every time I look in the mirror. I know exactly how you feel.
LadyAmarant 4 years ago
You are very pretty I wish I had that beautiful hair you got and those perfect eyes you have. When I looked at you..I saw a girl. I'm a TG girl my self, very isolated and wish I had friends like you. Hugs ((( )))
KATHYA23 4 years ago
OMG! *hugs* I know exactly how you feel... My partner tells me that I'm beautiful, but I just can't see it... I mean, at times I am aware of my own beauty, but at others I can't help but be overpowered by the knowledge of my own flaws...
TygerLily87 4 years ago
You look pretty as a boy or a girl.. If you are going to dress as a girl shave the side burns maybe you forget you have them.
Luck:)
Fieldofaware 4 years ago
HUGS TO YOU. wish i could be there for u everytime u needed a hug. peace to u
ambientpm 4 years ago
It's wierd, you look good as a boy and a girl, srsly.
And don't bitch about yourself !
OMG
YOUR ONE OF THE FORNTUNATE LOOKING PEOPLE!
gogoloko 4 years ago
omg..facial what?
those people r just ugh
arie u r soooo pretty..
l think it would be so awesome
lots of people have big feet..my mom does..(lol
this lady that lives down the street from me..she has big EVERYTHING..but shes still very pretty..ur a woman..screw those people who say u need facial whatever the hell they said!l WISH l had hair like u..and a face like u..and a body like urs(lm tired of being short) u wear AWESOME clothes..that fit ur body and u look AMAZIMG hun
much luv-bri
luv4jonasbros 4 years ago
Maybe you should do the easy option: Dress like a man around family and dress like a woman when you are out with your friends.
chris19001 4 years ago
You shouldn't beat yourself up like this. True you may find some flaws in yourself. Accepting yourself for who you are is probably the biggest step in a transition. If you see yourself as beautiful, others will see that light about you.
mistyfyed0 4 years ago
For an effeminate man I think you look great. There is no reason you should be down on yourself. I know some guys who like to wear makeup and accept themselves as they are.
dast56 4 years ago
but that is not what i am.
aire420 4 years ago
I would guess he knows it, he's just trying to be a smart-ass!
MissPiggy198027 4 years ago
I'm feeling BAD right over something someone has said, and I wish I could give you a million dollars for everytime someone has refered to you as a MAN!
MissPiggy198027 4 years ago
dast- You're just trying to start something and you're REALLY NOT funny!
MissPiggy198027 4 years ago 2
WHAT are you talking about?
aire420 4 years ago
Which comment? It sounded like Dast was just being smart-ass when he called you an effiminate man! Is THAT the comment your talking about? If so that's what I'm talking about, LOL
pgy001 4 years ago
Ok so not to confuse I have 2 names, pgy001 and MissPiggy198027. Sometimes I must diguise myself for spying purposes, j/k LOL
pgy001 4 years ago
What I see when I look at you, I see a woman..an angel, and someone who'se misunderstood by those close to her. Much love to you and NEVER give up..-Straight Male irl, but loves Gay/Bi/TS persons.- And you should always have a good Christmas =)
Zakiyoshi 4 years ago
Aire420, are you ok now? How long until you post another video? I would like to hear what happened during your new years break with your family and friends.
I would've posted more, but it would've been off topic.
syphrus23 4 years ago
Aire don't worry and get upset, you look great, honestly there's NOTHING wrong with your face it looks beautiful.
I know what you mean though about looking at others and wishing you were them, i do it all the time, and yes i've done it with you as well.
Please don't get upset, you're the WOMAN you were ment to be.
louisevale 4 years ago
thank you for posting this video and thank you for all who left comments. It was helpful for me too.
podcastbard 4 years ago
Look at your video. You are not made up at all so go figure what or who you look like.
neb101x 4 years ago
I get those sh**ty days all the time. I hate the way I look in the mirror but keep up the strenght and keep fighting! Hope you're better now! :-)
yewberrycastle 4 years ago
Do not be sad. You are strong. You are a very strong personality... So I wish you all the best for 2008! :-)
TVSandra1980 4 years ago
I see the exact same when I look in the mirror, hun. Feel better - you're a beautiful person all around. Let us be your mirror, eh?
- Shane
PS: I'm 6'2" as well ;)
TAschemeyer 4 years ago
aire, we all get those bad days. there are times when i look like my sister's brother in lipstick with long hair... pretty revolting. But it will get better. Hormones are wonderful for the young. I'm an old fart so you're in good shape!
candiFLA 4 years ago
I think we are all guilty of the feeling you are showing. We all see the bad points in ourselves if we are totally honest. That's not to say that is right, just human. My Sister is gorgeous and i know there is a family resembalance but i can't see what my true friends see 'a Girl' I just see me 'a Guy'
gabbyhart 4 years ago
You're beautiful... we all see our flaws. It's hard I know, but we all see how beautiful you are. :)
kyloobie 4 years ago
I know it isn't easy and believe me we have all been there in our early days... I particularly remember my first Christmas as being appallingly bad. But just get through it somehow and as things go on they will improve!
Happily I haven't had a bad mirror day for over 20 years now.
In any case you are being rather hard on yourself. You don't look at all bad. The adams apple may need a bit of work in the future but that is perfectly do-able. So don't fret. It will all come good in time.
jennyd60 4 years ago
Well bbbbbboi has a foot fetish, I can tell by his saved favs so I guess he has his little quirks as well.
pgy001 4 years ago
Well, you do have quite stunning eyes!
Anyway, we all have bad days, my dear. I can totally relate. Every time I look in the mirror its like I'm Sam Becket on Quantum leap. I don't see myself. I see the body and face of the guy I leaped into.
cynisturb 4 years ago
I can sympathise with you darlin I myself am big (6'2"),but you are pretty and you do look like a girl,s It's what's inside that counts maybe we need to just say sod the world if people can't see the good in us and can't be kind and understanding, then they don't matter. You didn't ask to be like this but your'e making the best of what you've got like we all have to. So cheer up and hold your'e head up high and be proud of what you are a beautiful woman x x
jampatsmy 4 years ago
im not a transgender so i cant really relate to how your feeling but i do understand what your saying,you dont sound absurd,everyone feels negitive somtimes just try to be more postitive about things no matter how bad it seems.when you look in the mirror you see a boy,but i bet when your family and friends see you,they see a women.(:
iluvcena619 4 years ago
Honestly, it saddens me to hear this kind of negativity. I know I'm guilty of it too, but I also know that positivity is the only way out.
blickblocks 4 years ago
Hey come on man :)
cheer up and show us a little smile :)
I know the world can be tough on the outside - but jusk look and you fine warm and nice people. That will live with you and share eachothers lives :) so get up, and live your life good.
And bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbboi68 grow some balls and go kick your dad for raising you bad! fuckar!
Enyana123 4 years ago 2
life is full of great wonderful things you just have to go out and grab it by the horns instead of felling bad for yourself at home by yourself it not going solve your problems you have to do it "Grow some balls" as it were! I hope you at least think about it! have a good life.
oh and this "bbbbboi66" what a sad person get a life dude your the real loser dog!
TheLightningKing 4 years ago
you need to stop looking at the glass half empty no ones perfect believe me and when u look at them and really see there just as fucked up as you but they just dont care they enjoy life and whatever comes from it because life is too short to be pondering on all the bad things enjoy life meet people who like you for who you really are.dont be a follower be a leader set the standard dont try to reach some one elses.
TheLightningKing 4 years ago
the way our culture is growing more and more people get pull in. the way television,magizines and the internet portrays their impossible standards it all a lie just to get you to make yourself change and spent all your money for their greed. surjury should never be use unless a person was disfigure now people use it whenever something wrong pops up but your not really doing anything just covering up the true pain its not a solution its an escape
TheLightningKing 4 years ago
yeah your not alone in the subject. you and thousands of other people in this country suffer from the same disease thinking your nothing,trying to be like someone else, thinking your not worth a flying fuck!
TheLightningKing 4 years ago
bbbbboi68, WTF, who posts the same damn comment five times?! Who the hell is that psycho? What the hell is he doing back here if he doesn't like you? Well, according to him, you're ugly and I have no IQ, so whatever. You're so beautiful and you're loved and cared about, and he's obviously very lonely and insecure, so he has to try to tear someone else down. Don't let him do it.
-Annie
JAnnOMal 4 years ago
Please don't pay any attention to what bbbbboi68 said, because bbbbboi68 obviously needs a lobotomy...and as soon as possible...for all our safety. For bbbbboi68 to post the same comment 5 times in a row is absolute proof of a serious mental and/or emotional disorder. You certainly are NOT ugly, and that is coming form someone who is extremely intelligent and well balanced emotionally. My eyesight isn't too bad either, and I definately don't think you need to get any facial surgery.
nikitran 4 years ago
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Three words: Ugly, ugly, ugly!--I s'pose that briefly sums up your masculine-looking face.
I'm not joking now: You *seriously* need facial feminization surgery. You'll always be a boy, no matter what, but at least you can more adequately lie to yourself about your true male-gender by feminizing your mannly face with cosmetic surgery. Certainly, a 28-year-old man has worked enough hours to afford at least $10,000; so hurry up and get FFS, you cheap-ass bitch.
bbbbboi68 4 years ago
Wow so this is what and how douche writes!
manniefaces 4 years ago
in all honesty. i dare you to say that to her face. you feel all big and bad behind a keyboard, but yer prolly just a mousey lil nerd. get a life.
jae127 4 years ago
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Three words: Ugly, ugly, ugly!--I s'pose that briefly sums up your masculine-looking face.
I'm not joking now: You *seriously* need facial feminization surgery. You'll always be a boy, no matter what, but at least you can more adequately lie to yourself about your true male-gender by feminizing your mannly face with cosmetic surgery. Certainly, a 28-year-old man has worked enough hours to afford at least $10,000; so hurry up and get FFS, you cheap-ass bitch.
bbbbboi68 4 years ago
This has been flagged as spam show
Three words: Ugly, ugly, ugly!--I s'pose that briefly sums up your masculine-looking face.
I'm not joking now: You *seriously* need facial feminization surgery. You'll always be a boy, no matter what, but at least you can more adequately lie to yourself about your true male-gender by feminizing your mannly face with cosmetic surgery. Certainly, a 28-year-old man has worked enough hours to afford at least $10,000; so hurry up and get FFS, you cheap-ass bitch.
bbbbboi68 4 years ago
This has been flagged as spam show
Three words: Ugly, ugly, ugly!--I s'pose that briefly sums up your masculine-looking face.
I'm not joking now: You *seriously* need facial feminization surgery. You'll always be a boy, no matter what, but at least you can more adequately lie to yourself about your true male-gender by feminizing your mannly face with cosmetic surgery. Certainly, a 28-year-old man has worked enough hours to afford at least $10,000; so hurry up and get FFS, you cheap-ass bitch.
bbbbboi68 4 years ago
i know what u mean...well kinda. in a backwards way. but about the family thing i def know what u mean. it makes u comfortable in the meantime not to go, but in the long run it makes it harder. and i know yer having a hard time believing it right now, but trust me u are very gorgeous.... keep yer head up...
jae127 4 years ago
hey girl thanks for expressing yourself dear hope holidays were good for u
smlaurieanne 4 years ago
Oh, absolutely...I totally agree with you. As far as self-pity goes, I was just saying that it's so easy to get worn down but that thankfully not every day is like that, especially when we are striving for something we want so badly. I definitely heard you saying not to give up, and you're so right.
-Annie
JAnnOMal 4 years ago
..after reading your comments it figures you'd quote one of the shadiest figures in British political history...
111noir2000 4 years ago
Big hug darling. We all so understand were you are coming form.
manniefaces 4 years ago
We all feel this way from time to time, but I can tell that the common sense part of you knows how pretty you are. It shows in your videos. I hope you did go to that party.
tillgirl 4 years ago
Great.. I should never posted, but I started to feel depressed seeing you at the start of the video.
I hope you enjoy the Christmas Eve party and hope your family just accept you as you are, not who you used to be. If you adams apple shows, cover it up like in one of you videos.
Post another vid soon, I would like to hear how everything went.
I hope my previous post I didn't offend anyone. Please respond and let me know.
syphrus23 4 years ago
Don't put yourself down by a mirror. Remember that people are not perfect and genetics is what makes us unique. Personality is the key to make friendships and you have a great personality. I hate to see you like this, so be strong and you'll pull through.
I hope I made sense since I usually talk like this.
Syphrus, 25 Male, single with some type of Asperger Disorder. Will see a doctor soon.
syphrus23 4 years ago
let's lend a compassionate hand...
For my part , I am not trans-gendered, but I can understand a human being in pain, and I think you should spend less time HAMMERING YOURSELF FOR WHAT YOU ARE NOT, and get back to the strong,confident person I saw in your other vids...show up at the x-mas party in you finest and BE YOU. ..leave the self-pity on the curb...
and btw, I TOTALLY see the Sandra Bullock thing...
*.*
111noir2000 4 years ago
I agree with everything you said here, 111noir2000...ooohhhh, if I got your screenname wrong, I apologize. I'm legally blind and my eyes were having some trouble there.
Our lovely friend Arie is a wonderful person and so pretty. No one should EVER have to look in the mirror and feel bad about what they see. So, go to that party, girl, and be proud of who you are. And, I hope you show us what outfit you picked out, LOL.
JAnnOMal 4 years ago
Sorry, long comment...as far as the self-pity you mentioned in your comment, I think we all feel it sometimes. It's part of being human. But, let's just be glad for the times when we ARE feeling that strength and confidence we should carry with us everywhere we go, right?
I have alot to say on this video, Arie, so, sorry for all the comments. It hit home for me but in a different way than you described.
-Annie
JAnnOMal 4 years ago
point taken, I guess the idea I was trying to get across was that any worthwhile goal ( and achieving ones true gender would seem to be
a BIG one!..) will come with hardship and trials and occasionally one will feel grinded down but DON'T GIVE UP!...
111noir2000 4 years ago
Ouch, that hurt....well, not really.
JAnnOMal 4 years ago
Wow, bbbboi69, you're an ASS!!!!! Your personality is really ugly so I'm sure you're no prize to look at. Arie does NOT look a "masculine woman"...I'm a genetic girl and I would love to look as beautiful as she does. So, go find something to do so you're not sitting around making nasty, comments to people just because you can.
-Annie
-Annie
JAnnOMal 4 years ago
1. I don't think that i should lisson to the person with the foot fetish.
aire420 4 years ago
..actually, it looks more like foot-in-mouth fetish...
111noir2000 4 years ago
get a mani and pedi. Pamper yourself girl.
podcastbard 4 years ago 3
Honey even real girls go through this, I have learned to laugh at myself and its actualy become a fun hobby belive it or not. Ill go in front of a mirror and flaunt my ugliest features and laugh at how hidious I look and it actualy makes me feel better to laugh about it. When it comes down to it you care too much what people will think of you and all I see is people telling you how beautiful you are so keep your chin up and live your life as happy as you can.
Nikolette11 4 years ago
i know. just some days get you down. and like you said even real girls go through that.
aire420 4 years ago
How are you doing now, Arie? Are you feeling better?
-Annie
JAnnOMal 4 years ago
So, are you feeling better now?
Laura477 4 years ago
I don't understand the concept of "real girls" in the context of TS's. I understand what you meant, but I still don't understand why you use that phrase that way. You are just as much a real girl to me as... well... Sandra Bullock I guess, since you mentioned her name.
cynisturb 4 years ago
at the time when i made this vid i did not fill like a girl i felt like a ((boy)) in drag. i did not mean to afend any one sorry. :(
aire420 4 years ago
I wasn't offended! I really need to work on my commenting skills. I keep getting the response "I didn't mean to offend...". I should have articulated it differently I guess. I have felt the same way as you quite often so... I dunno.
I just posted a new video that I would like you to respond to since I have your attention. It would mean a lot to me! Thanx in advance!
cynisturb 4 years ago
Nikolette11, I do the same thing sometimes..My bf says Im beautiful, I agree I can be attractive sometimes..lol..but really, i feel quite, fat and ugly most of the times.
LookingGlassThecure 4 years ago
Yeah thats how I feel, but the good thing is that thats not how I always feel so when I do feel like that I think to myself I am so crazy because sometimes I can feel like the most beautiful girl in the world and then I will have one of those days but I always get over them.
Nikolette11 4 years ago
"real" girls? What are you implying about transgender? That they're not real?
QuixoticOtaku 4 years ago
Gee, sorry I meant genetic, don't get offended.
Nikolette11 4 years ago
what i see when i watch you on youtube:a beautiful woman, both inside and out! (and based on all the comments youve gotten id say im not the only one who thinks so;)
MadameMalaise 4 years ago
Honey, we are both women. We are strong. You have become a beautiful woman. Even if you don't think you are, look at all of your feminine features. And even so, on the inside, we are both girls. I have yet to come out, but I know on the inside, I am a girl. You are a beautiful woman on the inside and the outside.
hahahahaXD 4 years ago
I love you as you are, very nice girl and beautiful Soul...
genderinevolution 4 years ago
Hang in there girlfriend, you need to be true to yourself. You are so brave and that is what it takes no matter what we face. You are beautiful!!!!
ChicagoProducer 4 years ago
You are not ridiculous and you look pretty!
futasela 4 years ago
hey,aire i just want to say stop it! just stop right now!u r torturing ur self by feeling like u just don't measure up,u r who u r you just can't live up to other peoples fantasies,at the end of the day u have a life to live and more people to reach because of people like u people all across this world can live and breathe easy with a sigh of relief!,and that my friend makes u beautiful!!!!
saab23 4 years ago
What you just said confirms that you are a girl all girls whether genetic or trans have these same feelings, i have them and i had them even when i was trying to fit in as a boy which i could never do, i would always criticize myself, you are a beautiful woman and thats all i see when i watch your videos. Go to that party girl, put on your favorite outfit and just be your wonderful self
CaraJane2008 4 years ago
You *ARE* beautiful! You truly are a girl ♥ Anousenka loves you ^_^
♥ Anousenka ♥
Anousenka 4 years ago
Sweetie a lot of us look at you and wish we could look like you. I for one sure do. I think your gorgeous. I know you don't believe me, I wish I could some how show you through youtube, I really wish I could. I look at you and just wish I had the strength you have to have gone this far in life. Stay strong, hold your head up. Your beautiful inside and out.
mbearstop 4 years ago
Hiya , Arie , wow powerful video !, I say just go to the party, and be polite and just ask them all to not refer to you as a boy ! sounds kinda corny but & simple , I've do it in the past. for me in the mirror I'm 5'11",I have a chest tho!!!!but crapy hair , no ass,
and I just see a boy/guy and it sux 2 , the mirror is not my best friend , I wish you a Merry X-mas , & New Years , just stay stong & for yourself ,Ciao....your Girl SIERRA..
sierraTS 4 years ago
I see a woman staring back at me from your video. I see a beautiful soul blossoming into womanhood. They say eyes are the window to the soul. You're no doubt that which is the essence of female. You're gorgeous, and you do resemble Sandra Bullock, but you are yourself: a woman.
XOXO
Chloe
ChloeElise2007 4 years ago
Keep in mind that, when looking in the mirror, all you are really seeing is light, reflecting back at you. The light is you. Don't pay attention to the shape, or the tone. Don't try to compare it with other lights you may have seen. It's like the song goes: You're a shooting star/ no matter who you are/ shining bright to see/ what you can truly be. See the star and be the star.
~B
RosebudOfCane 4 years ago
*hugs* I know how you feel. I feel like that sometimes, too, no matter how often people tell me that I'm "beautiful."
gothique11 4 years ago
u do look like sandra!! *huggles*
i know how u feel, well not about the boy but, people say i'm pretty and amazing, i see every flaw every ugly bit of me, i cant see what people say is pretty, yes i'm a girl, i know i dont know every thing ur goin through. but i know what its like to look in the mirror and how it feels to wish to be beautiful
*huggles* ur so brave and amazing! i love you!
boomingpearl 4 years ago
also, that last bit "that's how I see myself sometimes" I can relate to the difficulty of feeling that sometimes, but remember that "he" is a part of you in some way too,even if it doesn't make you not a woman
Kibouo 4 years ago
MANY trans people go through this!! I thought I was the only one who thought this, but it's a case of ups and downs, some days I never see "him" but some days I do.
And PS, you really DO look like Sandra Bullock!
Kibouo 4 years ago
hi hon, there are so many wonderful comments on here already from lovely and supportive people and i dont think i need to say any more as a lot of what has been said, i agree with.
Just know this....i see a beautiful young woman, its your inner glow that makes you so who you are, not your exterior....dont lose that, that is what defines you as you
Aryana70 4 years ago
You are a very pretty young lady and if you didnt tell me I would honestly never know. We are always always our toughest critics. Give yourself some space and freedom. Stop concentrating on that ... its your depression talking to you ... the same depression that tells girls that weigh 90 pounds that they need to lose weight. You are so above this ... enjoy your beauty baby. Love, Johnny ANgel
jcshanks 4 years ago
Plenty of genetic girls go through these emotions. Few women are "perfect looking". Beauty comes from within.
louise2bsoon 4 years ago
I'm sorry you're having difficulties and I hope your party is fun.
I know the mirror seems to show up those things that we are NOT proud of. I know my lips and skin get VERY dry esp. in the winter and sometimes I get in the car and look in the rear-view mirror and get grossed out at the sight of my face.
But for what it's worth I think you look great!
pgy001 4 years ago
..., but it's hard not to see it that way, because you're anxious and depression comes with it, and it's hard to fight that because depression drains you and anxiety wants you to run, wants you to give up and tell yourself they're right, only they're not, you're a girl. you're a girl, you're a girl, you're a girl, you're a girl! xoxo
plainolderica 4 years ago
Ya, I can relate too... big nose, big chin, big brow, male looking features, no matter what, cuz for so many years that's what you saw, and there's the anxiety related to the upcoming party, coming out that way, like it's saying quit, cuz all there is is a boy in the mirror, only that isn't true...
plainolderica 4 years ago
Hi Aire,
I believe you are a strong, tenacious, delicate, emotional, funny, expressive, captivating, exquisite, beautiful woman. Don't even believe anything different, especially if it's a mirror making you think otherwise.
Love,
Jamie
fiddlejamie 4 years ago
That's some pretty powerful stuff.
LadyVIolence 4 years ago
honestly i believe it's all a problem of habit, we get into the habit of seeing a boy everytime we look in the mirror, we look for the masculine cues, just making the changes in our appearance isn't enough we actually have to build a new habit of seeing a girl in the mirror and focusing instead on the feminine cues believe it or not if you tell yourself look at the pretty girl someday you will actually start to see it
apriltg 4 years ago
it's odd b/c even when you're wearing just a plain shirt & the only real gender cue is your long hair, i can't think of you as boy b/c i've only ever seen you present as a girl. they say it takes 20 good meetings to overcome a bad 1st impression. if you have 20+ years of the wrong impression... but 1st impressions are usually wrong. you could buzz your hair & start a vlog on fixing cars & i'd still have a hard time seeing you as a boy. someday you'll be able to see what you really look like too.
shipwrecksilence 4 years ago
I don't know how far youve been into your transition. But yeah, I can relate. And I know It might sound so contra because Ive acheived the look I want for me, but I still see stuff in the mirror of me that bother me.
micklo1 4 years ago
There is almost nothing I can say which won't sound patronizing. If I could, I guess, I would simply share with you that it WILL get better. That if I can make it, you can. That being fully yourself, genuinely and honestly and authentically your SELF, is never easy and everything in this world - from gender roles on down - conspires against it. That you are not alone in this and to reach out to those of us you care to. Lastly, know many of us care about you.
unmeasuredinstances 4 years ago 3
We all go through it hun. I know that doesn't make it better but we do. I go through it everyday. Most mornings in the shower I cry when I see what I feel like looks male to me. When someone calls me beautiful its almost an insult in some way. I think "How can they be so blind!" Hopefully it gets better with time.
Charlotte
karmatic1110 4 years ago 6
That was really good comment Charlotte and i totaly agree on that with you honey!!
03031983 4 years ago
You think you're the only one? You should thank god you're healthy and nothing is wrong with you. People who aren't trans gendered go through the same thing. And you know why? We all have insecurities. You being a trans gendered is hard, but you have to think, other people have it worse than you.
elmissionduo 4 years ago
look i know people have it worse. i just wonted to bitch and get some stuff out OK. and yes i know that it is some thing that we all go throw.
aire420 4 years ago
I know. I just want you to know how beautiful you really are and I want to believe it.
elmissionduo 4 years ago
HUGS! Yes, of course there will always be someone who has it worse than you, but that doesn't mean that you haven't been through something worth expressing how you feel. God ahead and bitch and vent all you need to...whatever helps you get through the pain.
-Annie
JAnnOMal 4 years ago
Interesting little typo thete, lol...ok, that's supposed to say GO ahead and bitch, not GOD ahead and bitch. I wasn't getting all religious on you or anything, lol, that was just a typo.
-Annie
JAnnOMal 4 years ago
you dont look like a boy im serious
XXNoobiesXX 4 years ago
I'm sorry things are difficult right now, it sounds like you have to fight very hard for acceptance and recognition among your family and friends, which is sad but you are so brave for doing it! Everyone here will agree that you're beautiful and you're one of the most empowering women I know.
nuclearswan 4 years ago 2
not so much with my friends but my family has known me as ((he)) for 28 years and it is hared for them. im just nerves that all. you know?
aire420 4 years ago
Hi Arie, I like your idea of going to the party and let everyone know in your family you are all girl. BTW, they are plenty of very beautiful tall girls, and you are one of them. Every girl is very critical of their appearance, your concerns are what every girl feels. I know is much harder for a transgender girl, but continue believing in yourself. At your age you will be able to make a great transition and by the time your older no one will ever know you were a genetic male.
robinsweet 4 years ago 2
I think tall girls are SO beautiful!!!!
JAnnOMal 4 years ago
I was thinking this today when I looked at a picture of myself the other day.
P.S. You are beautiful.
SmileOnADog 4 years ago 2
well if it matters i think your pretty
and i dont see you as a man i see you a a girl
adrienne200 4 years ago
Everyone suffers from this. Everyone picks out their flaws and blows them up bigger then they are. I am glad you are going to the party though. Let us know how it goes. ^_^
mk9000 4 years ago
If I may, I respectfully agree with AndrogyneMichinaga, & like tarageek, sending you my best wishes.
jonboy002 4 years ago
When I look at you I see a girl. We all go through that (us trans people). It can be hard when we are not our Ideal self. Hang in ther girl,
shortcutebutch 4 years ago
I feel ur pain girl i really do. Be strong is all i can say cause im dealing with the same issues. I think i have like really bad image and body issues. For me its been going on since i can remember i thought it would be something i grow out of i guess i was wrong. Its like having conflicting stories. You have ppl telling u how pretty and sexy and blah blah blah you are but u dnt feel it or see it. IT SUCKS. Love ur videos btw and I Think Ur Gorgeous
jle1979 4 years ago
It's not ridiculous at all. You're lovely, but yes we (pre-op TS)are all works in progress, and we see all the things that aren't congruent with what we want to be. You do though, have a lovely face, a lovely voice, hair and a very lovely feminine presence. That shines through any of the faults you see.
AndrogyneMichinaga 4 years ago
It is hard when you look at yourslef inthe mirror and feel like that. I know exactly what you mean and how powerless you can feel to change things. All I can say is I used to think the same but over time things really do get better, and change.
Also at times when you know people will be looking all the things that are wrong make thier way to the forefron of you mind, it doesnt mean that that is all you are.
Im thinking of you and sending you good thoughts :)
tarageek 4 years ago