12. Solving the Bipolar Disorder Puzzle (Spiritual, Spirituality)

[thingamajiggerism]

I'm bipolar, but I have a full-time job and a 5-year-old son. Should I take the risk of getting off the medications that have kept me functioning for the past 10 years? I would like to, but I don't want to lose my job because of another manic episode. What do you think?

[boogiebuddy01]

it seemed like anything was possible for me but everyone else around me seemed to be saying something was wrong with me

[DiaShanti]

"I can't be me disorder!" Yes, that is a more appropriate label. 

[bipolarorwakingup]

@evandoug90 Glad you are getting so much out of the videos. What do you mean, not handled correctly?

[evandoug90]

@bipolarorwakingup What I got from these videos is that letting go is the best thing you can do to get the full effect of an ego death. I thought at one point I would die, but I came back from the edge, but then I continued to think I would die for 20 min. if I didn't keep doing something or another. I had had one experience in a dream before then and one after it regarding throwing the devil, who was in my palm, into a black hole. None I went all the way through with. I am a Buddhist now though

[evandoug90]

I just watched from the first video to this straight through. I'm not sure I'm bi-polar, but I have certainly had a spiritual awakening that I didn't know how to handle at the time. The videos are fascinating. About 2 hours of videos has passed in what seems like a half hour. I really love all the art you use also, it really adds to the story telling process. Thanks for posting!

You may cover it later, but what do you do if your experience is something you weren't sure you handled correctly.

[deirdreofthesorrows]

These videos are very enlightening, Better than being told 'drugs are for life' 'your a liability' and other text-book therapy terms.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@deirdreofthesorrows Happy that you are getting a lot out of them!

[sampoirier]

Man, everything or almost everything that you've described about the Ego break down and all the spiritual enlightment thing, I've all experimented this on Magic Mushrooms...keep on workin' man! I didn't really know why I was studying in Psychology but to know a lil more about myself and people, but for a week now, I've been awaking almost everyday at 3-4-5 am because I'm so motivated! I have a goal now. thank you

[TheRobertCullison]

I have learned in my own episodes that certain memories of experiences I've never had came to the surface. And this leads me to believe that if bipolar disorder is a boost to our evolution, that the cause of bipolar disorder is KARMIC. We are in the process of purging and coming to terms with past energies, evntually releasing and moving on. That's what enlightenment is.

[movadoband]

Keep doing this Sean, education is the only way.

[jaeou812]

If you admit there is manic depression / bipolar disorder, is it not a mental illness? Is a disorder an illness? Admittedly, I hate labels but at a point it becomes semantics really...Who is normal and who is ill? We all have our set of challenges. If, as a society, we are emotionally evolving and those of us with manic depression can heal from the disorder and be pioneers of new culture, we must realize that healing may necessitate some degree of medicine. Scripts are better than drugs...

[eaglebawiaa]

Yes Sir, YOU ARE RIGHT,!!!!!!! We need the NEW CULTURE FOR THE WHOLE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE NEED TO RUN FOR IT AND IT IS WHAT ALL HUMAN BEING NEED AND DISCOVER FOR. THAT IS WHAT WE NEED!!!!! DO NOT DOUBT ABOUT IT PLEASE!!!!!! IF WE COMBINE IT IS THE ANSWER.

[jaalul]

amazing,

These video's are worth more to me than anything i have ever come across my entire life, for it has given me my sanity and trust of myself back to me.

I just wish that every mainstream psychiatrist, Scientist, politician, Teacher and parent could go through a simple, "light" episode, so we could all be understood and taken seriously. So they could all see the complex/devine reality that we have been presented to.

my only question is, why does it happen to one and not another?

[bipolarorwakingup]

@jaalul Thanks! And more and more I expect it to be a common occurence, like getting a cold. I do think genetics play a factor...we're just more sensitive than others. But that is a whole other video. Maybe I'll get there one day.

[jaalul]

@bipolarorwakingup , it seems only logical that if it is a genetic factor, then the bipolar is a chemical, biological imbalance. On the other hand , if it is a spiritual emergency then it is a process of being "chosen" or being spiritually "ripe" for the experience. I must conclude that if this is an experience of "pure divine" coming from "godliness" or the higher consciousness, then it is an event that is directly intertwined with you on a personal level. if not then sadly its mental illness.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@jaalul Careful....there is no proof of any chemical imbalance. In fact, the proof is that you are biologically normal. IMO, its the energetic, soul level where the work needs to be done. See videos #20, 21, 22!

[tubercelli]

OK you got it! I'm in for the ride to create positive changes through awareness, sharing information that helps us understand the shift we are a part of in this reality. I would like to share a helpful tool: humandesignamerica There are youtube videos from Hawaii to watch that help give a basic understanding. Combing that info with your info will help us lead people to spiritual emotional growth in society. Let's keep on informing.

[Chii4Cheesecake]

I love your videos! Thank you for confirming that I am not alone in thinking the same sort of thing ^_^

[bipolarorwakingup]

@Chii4Cheesecake Nice to see you watching so many and getting so much out of them!

[bastifully]

very well formulated my friend,

would say; live trough your psychosis,

keeping in mind the rules of 'normal' society,

be like a wounded healer, give your insights a place, and when come at hand, share it.

thanks bas (i'll sub you)

[bipolarorwakingup]

Thank you Bas..

[billhuston]

Brilliant!

[glenjamin72]

Brilliant! I'm Healed ! :-) Thank you for making this puzzle come together.

[wwwtwcom]

very great work you doing,

thank you very much for sharing

[guyleena]

Have u heard of EmPower Plus??? Its something Ive been thinking about trying because about 7 months ago I went off my meds and Ive been trying to go through this on my own but Im starting to think Im just not strong enough.. I dont want 2 take drugs, they say this is natural n I was wondering ur take on that!!

[bipolarorwakingup]

I´ve heard that some people have good results with TrueHope. I don´t know the product you are talking about.

[sivko23]

2:04 hehe

[Tiahur76]

the world of doctors is a scam. they get together once a year to discuss new disorders and medications, and tactics on how to make people take this shit, so they can buy the new house a yhat...I have been involved with the system long enough to figure out the scam, it is population contol...you must see it like this this. these meds. absolutly ruin the quality of your naturel life.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Word!

[t4ac3y1]

@Tiahur76 Agreed. I think people are starting to wake up out of the delusion that big pharma and western medicine has "the cure for the mind" (as if thinking differently or seeing the world differently is a bad thing) to sell their products and, quite literally, manage people as if they were cattle. There has been a systematic distruction of the human spirit through a multi-layered form of social control. That is a lie that people are starting to see it for what it is.. finally.

[Tiahur76]

there are some dark forces acting upon men and women, from the elite leaders or better put misleaders, acting on our most primal and basic part of our minds. the war is on our minds. making people into fearful depressed beings. people with gifts of observation like us must do acts of kindness daily to help fight the battle of the collective brain washing of fear.

[livenowdoing]

The thinking has Bipolar Disorder; not you. You can leave the thinking and the disorder behind if the real you does it. The danger is that the thinking that thinks it is you will be the one doing it and nothing gets accomplished .

[bipolarorwakingup]

Thanks zannita, however I'm not on facebook yet. I still have a lot to do on YouTube and plan on opening a facebook account next year!

[markkkkkola]

Ahhhh, all this makes so much sense to me. and it ties in flawlessly with everything I've been learning abotu consciousness, evolution, lucid dreaming, meditations, chakras, healing, and everything I'm wrapping my life around.

Thanks.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Amazing how it all comes together. I was lucid dreaming this morning until a car alarm woke me up!

[RapidCycling07]

wow...i hate to be overly repetitive with my comments, but your videos are always so well organized, thorough, and complete...yet another masterpiece! u da man!

[bipolarorwakingup]

Thanks RC, when you put 40-50 hours into a 10 minute video, good things happen!

[sweetelesue]

synchronicities, oh my gahhhhhhhh !!!

[DrinkHg]

I greatly admire and enjoy your videos. I agree with much of what you say. Being BP is often like living with perpetual suffocation but many of us fear release. I continue to take my meds, I don't like it, I feel like they have deadened a part of me but people depend on me to get through the day and put food on the table.

Maybe meds are like, for the time being a crutch to use while the broken limb heals.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Could be....Be patient. You won´t be on these meds forever.......your time will come...

[imstillpurple]

I feel you hit the needle on the head,  DrinkHG. When I was hospitalized with my first psychotic break at 17, I remember a cousin of mine who was once a counselor telling me this: "Whatever they label you with, it is ONLY a label. The meds are only there to balance you out until you can manage without them....." I feel this advice holds true for any psychiatric condition.

[akinomt]

Great job! I am healing with just watching, listening and begining to understand... Thanks Sean!

[bipolarorwakingup]

You´re welcome!

[SteveSlaughter1]

Sometimes I wonder why I lost faith in God. Especially since, at one point, I believed we were the same being. I think part of it is attributed to how I accepted my supreme being as a delusion. Wasn't a huge leap of "faith" (or confusion) to consider God and the supernatural as being delusions also......

[bipolarorwakingup]

Losing 'Faith' is a natural part of growing up. We eventually find the Father figure idea irrational. But then when the actual experience of GOD hits us, we KNOW, (unless someone, like a shrink, talks us out of it!). Then we regress....Where are you at, hoagie man?

[SteveSlaughter1]

No psychiatrist ever dissuaded me from believing my experiences were spiritual. We never discussed spirituality. The universe's reaction to my behavior led me to believe my experiences were delusional, and the medical system was the only support I could find when I needed help most. When your entire support system is accepting a certain belief, you follow along when it's to your advantage. Maybe some day I won't need it.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Maybe? Come on man! You´re on my list!

[noescaping1]

still bein suppressed by the chemical imbalance phobia but knowing my condition is far beyond the walls of medicine! thanks for your enlightening collaberations.....they are beautiful and make me feel less alone! :-)

[noescaping1]

Wow its amazing what you can find on you tube!! I really admire your insight. i couldnt put what you have put together in words so well but its absolutely refreshing! diagnosed with bipolar a few yrs ago. had many bouts of phychosis..all very much showing the signs of a spiritual crisis.however bein in the society we are now my only immediate "rescue" programme was throu a phychiatric hospital and meds! i'm currently on the salts but keep being drawn to finding answers on a very spiritual level!

[SteveSlaughter1]

I definitely have a modern-level of consciousness. If something can't be measured, then it's extremely difficult for me to believe that it's true!

[bipolarorwakingup]

Great to hear that you are honest with yourself. So now the big question...how do you measure LOVE?

[SteveSlaughter1]

Love escapes all measurement tools. Best solution for that problem is to love as much as you can. Belief in karma would probably help with that approach. See, I know what to do, but doing it is another problem entirely ;-)

[SteveSlaughter1]

Great video, bro!  You make such great presentations! Have you thought about acquiring formal education in transpersonal psychology?

[bipolarorwakingup]

Actually, I´m going to be doing a weeklong seminar with Grof personal training in June. I´ll probably continue with those people. Maybe one day I can submit my videos as a thesis somewhere!

Sean

[SteveSlaughter1]

I hope you will continue to follow this path you're on. I certainly won't be an obstacle for you, and I hope nothing else gets in your way :-) Love ya, bro!

[Nades129]

You talk like all of psychiatry just carelessly give drugs. . .

Of course some illnesses can be treated on ones own... Family is the best way, but if it does get worse of course you have to look for professionals..

*face palm* I cant believe im defending psychiatry. *sigh*

[bipolarorwakingup]

My work is about creating a new breed of 'professionals'. IMO, psychiatry is as useless as a withdoctor for healing mental illness. In fact, the wtichdoctor might be a whole lot better.

[Nades129]

hmmmm... so you're one of those people...*shrug* oh well. If it doesn't harm people i have no take in it... and alternatives to drugs are often more attractive. I just hope you understand that claiming absolution with your approach to bipolar D. is the wrong way to start in creating your new breed of professionals. good luck. but really, it's just psychoanalysis. And please, don't try to conjure up statistics and not think of someones researching it. this is YT. Good luck on your research

[Craigvr]

I am now not the only one in my family who is bipolar. My twin brother is now recovering at the hospital. Since we've already done this once before with me, we now know what to do, say, reject, and take "medicine" to become better. The doctors at the hospital have said to us they have never seen someone recover as fast as my brother has. It's quite apparent that a bipolar episode is demonic attack on weak vessels. Your inner voice that says your not good enough is not you.

[xTommyGirlx]

It works for some, and others it doesn't. There is no one size fits all cure, and people need to realize that. It's not because what he's saying is necessarily wrong, and he's said before that it doesn't work for everybody.

[kaltenbach16]

the meds do not erase the track, they just help you make a pause on the slope by freezing your brain...

[xTommyGirlx]

Sean,

Today we know things few did yesterday. We mature depending on what we experience.Every time we learn of a new and different perspective, it is our choice whether or not we incorporate it into our persona; but we continue to enlargen the collection of perspectives we've encountered. Validating them & acknowledging their worth, we embroaden our own unique potentials of growth. I don't think there can be any absolute top level of conciousness, because we're still evolving and learning.

[xTommyGirlx]

Btw, I think there is a better revision of Jung's theory of Collective Unconcious, much in the same way Freud's ideas were. The problem was that they didn't focus on the broader picture, and let their own fixations influence the final statement they used to summarize what they'd found. As stated by Platos: "If particulars are to have meanings, there must be universals."

[xTommyGirlx]

(*In much the same way Freud's ideas were revised, and "They" referring to Freud and Jung. Just for clarification's sake.)

[bipolarorwakingup]

You´re getting a head of me! I´ll most likely be talking about the 'collective unconscious' or somethink like that very soon as well!

[bipolarorwakingup]

I agree. I´ll reinforce that point in future videos. MInd, you at this point in time, there are very few people working at above the Power of Now level I´ve talked about.

[DanTheDamnManDan]

Hey I look forward to your future videos, especially the one (or ones) on synchronicity and delusions, something I remember strongly from my episode. I also appreciate what you are doing and will be sure to stay tuned in.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Working as fast as I can, Dan! Thanks for watching.

[07hesky07]

when will you be coming out with the video about delusions and hullucinations? that's what made me start taking meds..even after i saw your videos..i really didn't want to but i mean i couldn't even go outside..everything around me was evil and out to get me..even my mom...i even think that going to the psych ward was "part of the conspiracy" honestly..but i guess i just gave up and didn't care...i'm getting off my meds now though...btw the meds i'm taking are nothing like the ones they gave me

[xTommyGirlx]

Just be careful.. I know how empty and fake medicine can make you feel, but consider the consequences that could result. Think of the things that had happened in the past, before you were medicated, and just be sure to weigh the positive and negative.. and also, make sure that you're not just focusing on one thing that you want to believe or think is going to occur. I know through my past experiences that things will almost never go cmopletely according to plan. Don't give up your own control.

[bipolarorwakingup]

It´s gonna take me some time to get to that video. First, I need to talk about FEAR and its not going to be easy to make!

[SavannahsRUs]

I don't have bi-polar but what I discover invaluable about studying it is that it provides an exceptional model in revealing and understanding the cycles of consciousness that occur in *everyone*; which may not be so obvious due to the subtly of the these cycles in folks who aren't considered bi-polar.

Anyhow, enjoy the vids very much.

Stay Inspired

[bipolarorwakingup]

My future videos will get more into 'normal' consciousness and it will show how being bipolar is not nearly as far from being normal as people think.

[Regal1800]

bipolarorwakingup, there is always hope for humanity, with your help of course... Thank you!

[bipolarorwakingup]

Saving the world....one video at a time!!!

[vonlossberg]

I have had bi polar since 77. I was even in the famous Camarillo for 3 months tied down (I would get out all the time). I am a visionary artist and have found having this is a gateway to higher awareness, that we are totally misunderstood. Not one Psychiatrist has asked me about my art and visions. Just give me the pills and send me on my way. Legalized drug dealers suppressing the artists. They should had us a canvas and a paintbrush when we are "there" not tie us down and drug us out.

[07hesky07]

absolutely! when i went to the psych ward the only therapy i got out of it was when we went to the play room and i would draw...i had nothing else to do..i hadn't done art in years simply because i couldnt bring myself to do it...fear of failure i guess, i'm a perfectionist...the rest of the time i was just sedated waiting to get out...one of my best drawings i think

[oneirik]

Do you take down the insulting comments?

[bipolarorwakingup]

yup. And if they are abusive, I use block sender! But if they are condescending pseudo-intellectuals, I usually answer their questions until they lose it. I can´t help myself!

[sleepless4201]

Looking forward to the videos.

[robbwindow]

Excellent video, lots of colours links and informative data.

[mindatrisk]

... and maybe next time around i'll be returning with my own 'illness' to return the favour.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Interesting perspective mindatrisk, and yes, I remember your photo. Its true, the values people need to practice (like compassion) in order to heal someone with bipolar disorder are the same ones that will lead to their own enlightenment. Now, that´s not where I´m exactly headed with my videos, but you have a great point. Maybe I´ll work it in there!

[mindatrisk]

Yeah, i'm not sure how relevant it is for bi-polar as compared to BPD. As far as I can tell, someone experiencing bi-polar doesn't necessarily exhibit behavioural 'problems' except during an episode... is that a fair view? Whereas someone with BPD very much consistently exhibits behavioural problems, although in varying degrees that seem to correlate to cycles of a disturbed emotional state. So, to me, at the moment, I see bipolar as someone who maybe is 'due' their enlightenment in this...

[mindatrisk]

lifetime and is experiencing the final 'wrestling' of ego and the divine mind (perhaps we are experiencing an influx of 'ready made' enlightened beings from around the cosmos for this time on earth). In comparison, I see BPD as something to help those around them. Think about it - the people with a BPD in their lives are usually naturally compassionate people anyway, so they will be attracted to the BPD, maybe as a rescuer, but that role can mature and evolve with an altered perception of...

[mindatrisk]

their role in the BPDs life and its value to them as an enabler and instigator of a possible enlightenment. So, of course a loving nature is vital for bi-polar experiencers to help them through, but I don't see this being the purpose of bi-polar whereas I suspect the development of a loving nature might be the purpose behind BPD. Anyway, I share this with you because your views on bi-polar inspired me to see 'mental illness' differently and try to see beyond my girlfriends behaviour and...

[mindatrisk]

the potential beauty for what she and others with BPD offer the world, if only we change our view - i mean, look, there are millions of BPD experiencers, and even more millions of decent kindly carers around them, many of which suffer greatly because of BPD behaviour, but if a view can be changed so that these carers harness the behaviour as an opportunity to grow then, alongside the many awakening bi-polar people, we will have many more awakening due to their embracing intense circumstances...

[mindatrisk]

that necessitate immense growth just to survive, and that through dedication and encouragment, these carers have the ideal situation to grow rapidly towards an enlightened state. So yeah, big reply, but these are some of the thoughts i've been having because of your inspirational approach to bi-polar, and not only has it helped myself greatly, having spoken to other BPD carers I can see the potential there for others to be helped too. So thank you. Keep up the wonderful thinking.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Thanks for the perspective mindatrisk. You are on newlightbeings , right? Drop by more often! I think there is a lot of truth in what you have written here.

[xTommyGirlx]

Good point. With BPD, the shifts between self-hatred and love are so drastic that it amounts to a battle between self-centered ideology & a different selfless perspective. But an ego centric attitude is often accompanied with some denail. They struggle to accept that negative things are ALSO part of who they are.. To grow past that, they'd have to except we all have both good and bad, but WE define ourselves by how WE direct our negative and positive energy; shaping who we are and who we become.

[mindatrisk]

...in other words, if we remove our ego centred view on their behaviour and change our perspective towards their behaviour being a perfect opportunity to practice, then in fact a BPD can be seen as an enabler of our enlightenment, since the conditions required to practice and awake are so concentrated and intense. I am coming to the view that those with BPD have at soul level made a sacrifice to come into this life to dance the dysfunctional dance with us to propell our awakening...

[mindatrisk]

Your videos are fantastic. I remember contacting you about my girlfriend (who i think might be BPD afterall with traits of bi-polar) and talking about the 'mentally ill' being pioneers of a new world... i've been thinking alot about how BPD would fit into this, and it to me it seems that a BPDs relentlessly contradicting behaviour whereby we are damned if we do and damned if we don't present a wonderful opportunity for the practice of non-attachment as well as radical forgiveness...

[tonyporter86]

hi sean. i watch all your video's and find all to be very helpful in understanding myself n the things that have been goin on in my life. my story is simirlar to yours in many ways n the more i learn the better i feel. my meds(depakote) are bein reduced slowly with the aim to b off them all together which is good but i still smoke cannabis and without it i lose all confidence etc. was wonderin if you would be covering this subject at all as i think it wud help the younger generation like myself

[bipolarorwakingup]

One day I need to do a drug video, but its a little tough for me as I have no personal experience with them. But I´ll get there.

[rockafeladave]

Man, your videos really helped me out while i was breaking free from my ego. I feel safe to say it's gone now, and I am free to be my self. I've also grown an immense sense of self-confidence and have met many beautiful and interesting women when I'm out and about! My life has completely changed and I see through the lies that my society tries to make me enforce upon others, but I am man enough to stand for what I believe in. Truth is eternal, thanks thanks thanks so much

[bipolarorwakingup]

Stay true!

[wolffenhaus]

Kindness. Has it gone out of style? affection, love, understanding- traded for drugs...Yours has been the only voice of reason and wisdom I've come across and Im embarrased for this human race that this is so. I love the world and all its sorts of people, why are so many afraid of loving me back? awesome vid. Still, if I would share it with my sisters ( who had me hospitalized) they would not understand it.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Family rarely gets it. That´s why I focus my attention on bipolar people themselves. Why bother with the masses?

[bajan13k]

Another excellent video!

[ozjthomas]

Thnx for the overview, Sean. Although I definitely feel there is a "waking up" spiritual aspect, I don't agree with the hierarchy thing as you know.

[bipolarorwakingup]

So why do you study, learn anything, if not to make yourself better than you are? If we are all equal in all ways, then the criminal and the saint are equals? Thanks for watching OZ!

[ozjthomas]

I'm sorry, I didn't feel it would be honest to offer a thank you without addressing that one part. It is really not so black and white. Yes, people, things do evolve, but it is not a simple thing and humans are not at the top. We are all equal, intrinsically, I disagree with putting schizophrenia as people on lower classes because it is a form of classism, I really can't see it any other way and it is extremely insulting.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Hey, hold on there, I haven´t even made that video yet!

[numshine9]

I'm lost as to what to do...I knew when I had my third psychosis, I was certain that it was a spiritual experience and I didn't have any guidance or perspective, so it was difficult but I was allowed to just go with it and be in the psychosis, but I ended up scaring my family yet again and I'm on drugs now so I can make them feel comfortable...but I don't want to remain on drugs because I know what I was experiencing was something useful and purposeful. How can I get off these drugs?

[ozjthomas]

Check out The Icarus Projects Harm Reduction Guide to get off the meds, but be ready for when the psychoses return. I can definitely understand your predicament, it might be helpful to consider a very slow taper off of drugs to deal with the psychoses at a more managable level.

[numshine9]

Thanks alot for replying to my message..I'll check it out...

[bipolarorwakingup]

That´s the idea. I have that guide on my blog reading list.

[SteveSlaughter1]

I'm not sure how the system works in other countries (it's probably similar), but most of the support systems in the U.S. require medication compliance and follow the mainstream medical model. A lot of people are forced by circumstances to take medication. For instance, housing can be contingent upon medication compliance. So, I just want you all to know, that quitting medication could seriously damage a person's life in many ways (social destitution at the least, death at the worst). Risky.

[ozjthomas]

That is an important consideration to take. Although in a better world this extreme faith in medication would not be rightly justified.

[SteveSlaughter1]

One can argue that few people have faith in medication.  It appears that medication non-compliance is quite common. Apparently people reject medication for all sorts of reasons....even some medical doctors....

[tonyporter86]

is it always a definate that phycosis will arise at some point when the medication stops... and any advice on how to prepare for the occassion? thks

[kaltenbach16]

I think you should detect the frequency of synchronicities, if it becomes too high (say several per hour), it's too late because it's already an acute episode and you need meds, however, if they remain low enough, you can do without meds...your brain will always try to bring you back to the psychotic track it knows by heart because of fear conditioning...

[kaltenbach16]

if possible, try to mentally resist to this attraction (picture yourself skiing out of this track) because the brain works in a use it or loose it mode...the more you use it, the deeper the track and the harder to escape...worked for me...GOOD LUCK ;-)