My Life with OCD: Lauren's Story Part II (Dramatic Health)

[dramatichealth]

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[tobyfep]

i have ocd and its really difficult to get help because you fiel alienated like no one else has it.

[mrkizman011]

in a way ocd is good because it helps you work on the things ur bad at until ur good at them

[halvora]

@mrkizman011 No its horrible, only an idiot would think that OCD is a good thing.. .The only thing you are trying to do is to find something positive about the disorder.

[halvora]

@mrkizman011 No its horrible, only an idiot would think that OCD is a good thing.. .The only thing you are trying to do is to find something positive about the disorder.

[AllieMo616]

I have OCD and I finally went to the doctor. I didn't know what was wrong with me nor did I think there was any way I could possibly get better.. But I went to a doctor and got put on meds and my life has changed dramatically. If you have OCD, go see a doctor and get help. You will be suprised how your OCD will actually go away (at least that's what happened to me).

[RisingUP20]

WOW man that was crazy to hear you say this cause I feel the same RIGHT NOW but its cause I refueled the OCD goin to my first class tomorrow

[MrJakeBFTW]

I will be entirely honest with all of you, I have OCD, right now I have to use the correct spelling with everything and use the correct punctuation, whenever I type.

I need a bit of advice, I constantly say over a thousand things in my head every night before 12AM.

I perform my actions 1-2 times every step.

Just give me some advice, please.

[razagang09]

@MrJakeBFTW ...hey jus chill down...like i no how u feel cz ocd has literally messed my life...firstly tell ur self all this crap stuff u do ...u think is cz u have a problem....cz of that problem do that...theres no reality in it....secondly have u tried medication or sumthing...go to a pyscatrist and pyscologist...it will really help

[MrJakeBFTW]

@razagang09 I've told family, they say it's normal, they say I don't need help.

If I do these things and it's apparently not obsessive compulsive disorder, what is it?

[N9T9F1ake]

@MrJakeBFTW My mum didn`t belive i had ocd, but now i think she`s beggining to realise, i always go around shops and organise the stock.And i think this is what has made her believe.Got to your doctor,and tell them you think you have it, write a list of things you do and the thoughts you have,even if it`s something horrible like child porn or gay porn,the only way you can battle it is if you honest.

[JoeSonic5678]

OCD sucks

[HeyGuysItsMolara]

I think I have OCD...I'm always checking stuff...I checked my bathroom many times today because something in my mind kept telling me it was dirty. I'm scared of everything! I can't look at certain things... for example, mushrooms. My face gets numb and I get a burning sensation in my head. I have to look at a lot of things twice! Xanax helps but the only thing about that medication is that I have gross dreams when i take it, so I don't bother with xanax...I feel helpless!

[N9T9F1ake]

@HeyGuysItsMolara

Have you seen your doctor? and if the xanax is working just ignore the dreams.It`s about what you feel like in the day that matters.

[youdevil6]

Becareful about that xanax. One of the worst drugs out there

[Ilovescrubs99]

my number is 19 I can also do 13 if it was like unavoidable

[Penduluman]

balance what records and what medication? :40

[blakeage]

Hey, I think we had the same obsession. Don't like girlfriend cause she walked funny -> don't like girls -> must like boys -> do I want to do X with that boy? -> any indication toward a positive meant.....I WAS GAY. Ultimately the way I got out of the obsession was with medication and my therapist said to me one day "Being homosexual means you WANT and DESIRE to have sex with the same sex". I realized I had been asking myself the wrong questions...WOULD I, instead of DO I WANT TO?

[s4yo]

"I wake up everyday and I wanna live life..."

and here the world go FML at every sentence they say which pisses me off..sometimes healthy people just dont know how to appreciate life

[Hitler1634]

I say, fuck OCD

[Jedd41]

i have an obsession with multiples of 5 ... but OCD comes with Tourettes..which I also have... it's like a package deal :]

[Augustsum]

Although OCD is painful, there is a lot of help. For instance, the therapy on solutiontherapiesonline. -c-o-m is a a good one. People do not need to suffer like this.

[runescape1888]

fucked up freaks

[Nouuuuranlovesadam]

@runescape1888 are u fucking serious?! Go to hell you ignorant bastard

[IglesiasMusica]

@Nouuuuranlovesadam What did @runescape1888 say?

[MrTCGAMES]

Man this guy sounds just like me 100%

[JohnnieNaked]

Seriously meds won't make you better. But changing your thinking will!

[JohnnieNaked]

The trick is to not fight your thoughts. Don't fight them. Just LET THEM GO. And be you. OCD is a combination of self-confidence, irrational thinking, and focusing on negative outcomes. Once you train your brain to think logically, focus on the positive, your self-confidence will go up and you will be free from this. It's all about driving new (actually not new, just overgrown and unused) pathways in your brain.

[JohnnieNaked]

And reinforcing them. And not reinforcing bad pathways, which can be reinforced by trying to fight them. You have to train your brain to think logically and let go of bad pathway thinking. Reinforce good, ignore bad.

[Samsasrenjet]

Do you have OCD? I didn't think so. As having experienced it first hand, I know that meds are necessary.

[JohnnieNaked]

Yes, I do.

[TheChileno1980]

Do you have a psychiatrist? I think he could give you the better treatment for YOUR own level of anxiety or OCD. If you have one and you dont trust in him, you must change. Tell me about it. Saludos.

[PurelyObsessionalOCD]

I've been on propranolol, zyprexa, risperdal, so many narcoleptics, prozac, and klonopin, and still I have horrible anxiety. Do you think zoloft might be better for me, because the only ssri I've been on is prozac, and I'm currently taking the highest dosage for about a month and It's not helping very much. Do you think It might be better to switch to zoloft or paxil, because I heard they might be better for panic, ocd?

[TheChileno1980]

I am a journalist and -same of you-, OCD had been a challenge of my life, really. I feel very better now, and I say "YES, WE CAN", (any relationship with politics is just coincidence, haha) Greetings from Chile.

[TheChileno1980]

I have OCD, and this illness made me insecure and this is the worst of all. In a period of my life the most common flows in my mind were "if" and "then", in an unconcious level, of course, but at the same time they are very conscious: It was a fucking shit!!!! Now I take Altruline 200mg and Promytril 15mg, besides when I was 15 (I am 29), I decided to make a "mental-bypass" to my disturbing thoughts and the poweer of my obssesions decreased enormously...

[momoville100k]

i wish mine could be controlled without meds but i have to take them ill list them Fluvoxamine OCD med 50mg before bed, Clonazepam 2mg total 1 in the morning 1 at 5:30pm, Lamotrigine 25mg mood stabalizer and helps with my head jerks that i get or ticks as some call them, Doc says im a checker as well as intrusive thought pattern OCD he says i repeat myself a lot in my words i own my own business and for some reason my OCD has made me more money i own a Stock Trading Company

[mtallicuhh]

Wow really!!?? I own a business too & I some times think that OCD has something to do with it. I love! Numbers! & can't help but do math automatically in my head on things. I am drawn to entrepreneurship naturally. I am just 22 though. Started my Biz this January. Maybe we can chat about that? It's funny- I was just seeking a good book on Stocks & Day trading, I know nothing about that. I want to learn all about it- see if I can generate income that way too. how does Stock trading company work?

[MrGinoboy]

I'm exactly like you..

I have to everything either 3 times or 4 times depending on what it is. I love working wiht numbers, which are always in my head, and if im given a number/question I HAVE to solve it. With the issue of simply doing somehting repetitively 3-4 times, I feel like its not properly placed or doesn't feel right and I have to fix it. If I don't do what I have to do, I feel like everything's wrong and I simply cannot continue my life until I do it or im satisfied.

[Boze45]

you may think is is stupid but you should try quitting all your meds at once, just do without. many times with many different problems its actually the meds, and when people stop taking them theyre better then when they take the meds

[mtallicuhh]

by the way, as you can see- this person speaking seems to be inteligent, I mean he talks well like he's pretty smart. I read on Wikipedia people with OCD have an above average intelligence because of the Required Complicated thinking patterns. (So a little benefit there)

[momoville100k]

i have violent thought hurting people inapropiate sexual thoughts towards girls i get images and all of course i dont act on them but its like having a broken record in our head just doesnt stop the Fluvoxamine i take is working pretty good june 20th not sure i just kinda snapped i guess 15 years of build and bam i had a bad episode thought i was going crazy yes its true Some OCD's have above average IQ's my doctor gave me a test i scored 128 IQ average is between 95 - 100

[mtallicuhh]

Wow really? I wish I knew what my IQ was. so are you 15? I'm 22. Mine started at age 8, got under control around age 13 (I still have it, but not as bad) And yeah, Me too- I get SUPER! Random Thoughts! about inappropriate things! at the wrong time too. I read that OCD patients will often think the exact opposite Randomly. i.e. if some one says "Ok have a good time!" I say to my self "haha what if we have a bad time?" & sometimes talking to some girl , some times randomly nasty thoughts? haha?

[mtallicuhh]

I have ocd too I am 22, I had it worse when I was age 8-12, At 12 i had a great psychiatrist & was on medication by 13, I stopped seeing the psych. & stopped meds. Eventually I realized it was all just a "Superstition disorder" All I was being scared for nothing. So I hardly have any problems anymore, now: I make these "To do lists" & it's Stressful! And I stress out on things out of no where! I lack common Sense on basic things.. I mean, I will stop my self & think a lot when I don't need to

[momoville100k]

good to hear you are doing well i was diagnosed 4 months ago at the age of 26 i take meds and see a doc my OCD is alittle more Severe than others and harder to treat but i manage it the best i can i have my bad days and some good days i cherish the good days

[mtallicuhh]

so did you just get your OCD recently? like I can remember mine started at Age 8, I remember the Day & everything.. I'm sure i've kinda always had it, but that was the day it became Serious! & to the point where it's like "Kenny, you have to do this Or ELSE!"

[momoville100k]

i have always had ADD growing up as a child but of course in 1992 doctors didnt have a true understanding of it but my ocd i have noticed in middle school but the shit hi the fan june 20th 2009 and it got to that point were i was getting inner thought voices saying do this or else i went to the doc i see him twice a week and im taking meds that are helping quite a bit i have what my doctor says is i rapid cycle the Lamictal is helping the most i get ticks or switches at times but have decreased

[mtallicuhh]

wow, why June 20th '09? can you tell me what happened? (if you don't mind?) I'm kind of interested.

[Mudvayne531]

i hate how people think this is fake like people with ocd can just get over it and not worry id give everything i own and more if i could rid myself of ocd, i cant even live life anymore i fucking hate it

[momoville100k]

i know how you feel some people have milder versions than others i have severe OCD im not a germ freak or anything you see on TV mine is Violent intrisive thought pattern OCD meds and my Docs help im starting to know how to manage it but i have to take 3 diffrnenet types of meds for various syptoms but yes i hate how people say OCD is fake its very real and not discussed enough you should check out the OCD foundation website just google it very helpul

[coey1995]

I've got ocd.

I seem to get better and then a few weeks down the line i seem to have a few bad days of it again, but at least I know I'm not alone and there are many people with it too.

[aniefig]

ocd is hard to over come but it is possible. even without medications.

when i stay mindfull and in the present

moment it helps. i also tell myself it's just

thoughts. thoughts are empty.

[GrimeHead88]

Every word out of his mouth is completely TRUE, it is the EXACT symptons of what i have, he explained it really well.

[ajaxfan34]

does anyone or did anyone have HOCD?

because i have that form of ocd... and it gets extremely hard to fight it now i just want to give up. i cant take it anymore.

[GodzWrath35]

I have OCD. When I close a door I can't get out of my head that I think I didn't close it all the way so I'll push on it for minutes until I think it's closed all the way. On locks I never think it's locked all the way so I have to pull down on it over and over until I'm 100% that it's locked and I can't stand when things aren't straight. If a box or something for looks isn't straight I cannot stand it. I make it straight.

[ajaxfan34]

Yeah I feel you're pain on locks and stuff. I obsess over being kidnapped etc so I have to lock all the doors and check it atleast 5 times or I'll go haywire.

[GodzWrath35]

Yeah you know what I mean? On locks at school I have to pull down on it like 5 times or more to make myself know that it's on there good and like on door locks I have to spin it until it can go no more and I have to keep trying to spin it even though it can't go any farther.

[ajaxfan34]

Yeah, I'm learning to control it now. Just keep telling your self its just a thought and nothing bad will happen.

The world won't end, so what if it gives you a panic attack EXPECT IT. Stay one step ahead of the OCD. You're in control not the OCD. It's just a thought nothing more nothing less it's what you do with it.

[shaunrocks12]

I have OCD as well, but we can get through this. What does not kill us only makes us stronger.

[IoanRomania09]

The thoughts you have with OCD are not yours so there si no sin in having them. If tired of OCD do this for 40 days:

1.Every night read once the "Akathist to Jesus" that you can find on googleJesus name will clean your mind

2.After each Eikos say: God forgive my sins, unbind the magic done on me, send away bad spirits to desert where nothing is living and don't let them came back anytime.

On my page you can see miracles in Orthodox Church. All churches in Bible minus Rome are today Orthodox.

[ojewel]

I am glad for him.

[ominoussounds]

I wonder if excess use of MDMA could cause stronger OCD?

[SuperSonic9125]

weird. i have OCD an im a senior in high school yet im not shy im actually really outgoing an i have alot of friends too. i just try not to hide it cuz i dont think anyone will understand but the older i get the harder it get an more ppl start to notice.

[bootysurgeon]

OCD need not make you shy, although it can if it makes you do things around people that embarrass you. It's more like, if you're shy and that bothers you about yourself, then the OCD will magnify its significance and convince you that it's an insurmountable, even growing, problem.

[drtgreatwhites]

You Can!! and I am learning everyday!!

[SimtasticSTUDIOS]

Yes, it is like fighting your mind... OCD is a huge part of me, 5 years of it.....

The tapping, cleaning, washing it is all so much...

God bless you Lauren for being brave, you ahev helped the community understand us...... we are human beings too.

[Nouuuuranlovesadam]

@SimtasticSTUDIOS ive had 5 years of it too ..ive only started to manage it for the past 3 months

[HyPePiNkIcE]

perfect way 2 explain it.

[TheHarbinger09]

I know that feeling. Your flaws take up the greatest amounts of your thinking. FUCKING SUCKS!!!!!! Especially when you try to control your flaws and they turn into annoying and ridiculous compulsive habits.

[rockchik1712]

i think i have ocd but i'm not sure. i used to wash my hands all the time and now i've got over that and i dont do that all the time any more. but now i'm starting to repeat other tasks and its like it wont go away. i'm so anxious all the time.

[toreterror]

Ok, some tips

Breath, as in constantly stopping all thoughts.

Self-statements, as this is who I am

Self-forgiveness on specific thought constructs to release, then to live the change. Meaning, don't give into, or create new thought patterns.

Also, writing in self-honesty. Is really effective, writing about a situation where a certain emotions did come up and really expound on it. And live this consistently till there is silence in every breath, whereever you are.

[middeljohn]

I've got OCD, and yeah, all it is is thought process. The only person in control of how you feel and how you think is yourself. Everyone has intrusive thoughts. We tend to notice ours a bit more. As long as we recognize and tell ourselves that they're just thoughts and that we won't react to them, it'll help us start building up a tolerance. It is important to not think negatively about yourself. I try to apply this to my life so that OCD doesn't become a problem again.

[cherrysnrazors11]

yeah its like fighting your own mind it so hard

[Craziman123]

I know how you feel , i have it really bad. If i dont do something the right way . i will die, i have to lock my doors a million times. i have to unplug everything. It really is hard. and people don't understand it. i haven't got over it , and i dont think i will n e time soon. but the worst part is , people make fun of people like us. i really wish they could feel what it was like.

[cherrysnrazors11]

I completly agree with you craziman123

[leslieeeanneee]

Me too

[leslieeeanneee]

i totally know how you feel

[Craziman123]

Well i am getting a bit better. but , it really is hard with everyone putting you down for it . But i told me girlfriend i had it and she really felt bad. I think that when i know people feel bad and comfort me about it helps me fight it. And i truly hope that you and who ever is reading this gets better. It is hard.. i know. But YOU CAN DO IT!

[leslieeeanneee]

Hope you get better soon

[TwilightAngelftw]

I think changing my thought process will be really helpful indeed.

[DonJuan31]

hey man, I've just started treatment and some medicine. Hopefully I'll follow in your footsteps!

[Aytodahan]

hay hay hay. ;D X

[NUMBER4940]

These videos are only 1 minute long. What's going on? Why are they split up? "Part 1" & "Part 2" as if it can't fit into one clip a little over two minutes.

[shaygahweh]

i had something similar to this a couple of years back, and i remeber thinking to myself: "if i need drugs and shrinks to keep me happy then fuck it, i don't want to live." i had to force myself to snap out of it, to get involved and feel alive.

now i rarely even think about those days. facing and defeating your inner demons by yourself makes you a thousand times stronger, more resilient, and happier.

[ROFLSCRUFL]

LOL i know what fucking ocd and iam smart enough to not go to fuking drugs u can beat it or deal with it

[Pagrid]

I have OCD and anxiety, and I feel like I know just what you mean about ruminating...just going over and over things, circling around and around. It's horrible. Thanks so much for making this video, for spreading awareness and hope like you do. I'm doing my best and working my hardest to get better, and I hope all goes well with you too.

[cirexlab]

ocd is not easy. OCD made me a drug/ alcohol addict. My memory seems fuzzy now that I leave that way of life (addiction). Medication can help but is not a cure. But for the hope of everyone, it something that we can live with, and soemtimes, you can feel totally cure if you can stay busy, take correct medication (not street drugs) and if you are spiritual, God can heal.

[yukiz1fan]

whoa! med didnt work on me....

[WSARMENIANPOWER]

U MOTHER FUCKERS DONT KNOW SHIT ABOUT OCD. EXCEPT THE GUY THATS SPEAKING IN THE VIDEO. THaTS ALL.

[ROFLSCRUFL]

its verry easy for me to be honest

[Garry24]

I was diagnosed with OCD 8 years ago. I suffered but survived.

[bobby22192]

hey iam 16 and ocd is so fucking hard to live with like little concerns plague your mind and you cant not do something cause then you feel weird or like bad until you do that certain ritual

[IglesiasMusica]

@bobby22192 Yeah :(

[555bzona]

I don't think this is real, he looks like he's acting. And then why he keeps advertising how meds makes him good, in the 1st episode he says the same thing, like a it was a commercial...

[CoasterCloud]

yes, I see what you're saying that he seems to normal to have had OCD. But maybe he really does have OCD. OCD comes in many forms and degrees, I guess. Anyway, he does seem like he's "too" normal with the medication he says he takes. But it's possible that it's working that well for him. I trust in God that He will heal me one day.

[ukaluk]

ocd is very hard to live with

[Pelston92]

holy shit.

i have ocd and i had NO idea that my overly shyness quality was related. and yes i focus EVERYTHING on fixing that flaw.

holy fucking shit.

i see now.

[antoniogallo1984]

hola mi nombre es jorge y tengo ocd o toc ,si hay alguna persona que quiera hablara sobre ello dejeme un mensaje derrepente podemos ayudardos

[Gemzrulez]

i hav a huge ocd problem

[VFace343]

very inspirational. i have ocd..

[modestochico]

well i think some people in my family deal with this ocd