Yup that's exactly how i feel. I've had generalized anxiety disorder for as long as I can remember, and just recently I've been going through depression too. It's like I don't want to live anymore because everything is SO fucking pointless.. but killing myself would be pointless too. I can't even think of anything I could do to make my life better. No one even takes me seriously or seems to care when I tell them how I feel.. they just don't get how bad I feel.
ok im 22 live at home with my parents bc i cant find a job and i dont have my license bc i dont have a car bc i cant find a job bc my town is shutting down bc of the economy and i dont have friends bc this town is in shit so everone is moving out but the poor mexicans that have 15 families in one house r all around me and ive been on fb since 4am and i havnt gotten a single message or IM when i messsage ppl on my fb no one has ever responded any tips on what i should do
i dodnt see why people say im so depressed so i better were black clothing and stupid hair colour and make up?? wtf is with that u want to cure your depression go live like a samalian baby for a week see how u feel about your life then!
@TheLennonlegends It's not a choice, you think people want to be depressed, NO!. If it was that easy to cure then im sure the other thousands of people on this planet wouldn't be depressed! so ignorant, why are you even watching these videos.
@princessguitarx i got depression and anxiety but i don't need to wear black and die my hair weird colours and cut myself like some sort of retart fukn attention seekn gothic fuks your all maggots
@TheLennonlegends You obviously don't have severe depression then, people cut because it numbs everything that is going off in the persons life, most self harmers dont go seeking attention over there cuts as they are ashamed of them. I'ts comments like that what drive people over the edge sometimes...
@TheLennonlegends You obviously don't have severe depression then, people cut because it numbs everything that is going off in the persons life, most self harmers dont go seeking attention over there cuts as they are ashamed of them. I'ts comments like that what drive people over the edge sometimes...
cute wiv all the brackets frownie face, they all have a different kind of meaning lol. cheer up tho, you have a lot going for you and u look awesome. depression is tough but it can be dealt with.
This is what happens when you remove yourself from your roots, your heritage and culture and dress up like a freak,, if you take away all aspects of reality and drown yourself in this emo/goth world of bullshit and make-up, then your asking for mental problems later down the line.
Do us all a favour, next time you cut, dont call an ambulance, Im sick and fucking tired of you idiots taking up resources and medial staffs attention which would be better spent elsewhere on those with REAL problems.
My aunt was depressed beforw.. And when i asked her about she told me how empty she felt.
She said some of the stuff yu said and i really have a deep respect for you. I too have a type of insombia (dsps) but its startibg to get worse.. And knowing that yu ( idk if yu do anymore) had it makes me have hope that ill get better.
You have no idea what SAD, GAD Agoraphobia is. I see 'these' videos of young white trash boo whooing about how hard life is. The fact that you can record you're "experience" exemplifies how minor your anxiety is. Try abusing your xanax 2mg bars for years. 12+ a day. I have shut off every avenue of contact to a few family members. Don't use a phone or 'friend collector' er facebook. My situation is the ultimate BOY WHO CRIED WOLF . I'm never looked at by the medical profession objectively
You seem like you're really dwelling on your depression. I know exactly where you are; I've temporarily lost that spark in life as well. I can't find happiness. But I've come to realise that it's ONLY because I was dwelling on it. I was dwelling on it because I was lonely and nobody recognized I was depressed, so I could only find much-needed sympathy from myself, so I just kept looking for reasons to feel sorry for myself. Believe me, I have some GOOD reasons, but they are not the main source.
@iTzOtto I know, it really is. But in times like that, when you blame everything on bad luck, it's like saying you have no power whatsoever to turn it around, and that's usually the source of depression - feeling helpless. It's a strange cognitive self-mechanism for much needed self-pettiness, and it only makes you sadder. You just gotta realise most of your depression stems from yourself and believe that things will turn around. Hope leads to happiness ^_^
well your extremly pretty, your eyeshadow is realy cool, your blueish hair is cool, your peircings are cool, your shirt is cool, no need to feel empty, just realize that your rely cool
first of all you're adorable :3 and for the second i know how you feel even tho' this video is quite old i was in this state for years for some years ago and its fucking depressing even tho' you're not depressed its just empty .. i get it sometimes its weird ..
i think, and this is a theory, people dont get mad at me for having an opinion, but teens these days are depressed because in this generation everything is handed to them, and when they dont get their way they can't handle it like they used to, my grandmother told me that when she was younger if you didnt sit by the fire place at school she had to wear mittens to write her homework lol that would be considered abuse now.. i dont know.. kids are spoiled. they can't handle problems anymore
@dutico haters gonna hate but your all still emos, my point is i wont bother trollin n hatin on all of u emos since ull prob just die soon from self inflicted cuts anyway hahaha !
@TheCrispism First off, I'm not emo at all, so don't assume anything, secondly, every emo out there could probably kick you're ignorant ass. You're probably some 30 year old hermit, who never goes outside, and only trolls people online. Funny, but not surprising that you don't have a profile pic up to see what you look like...you're that cowardly...so I'm done feeding into you're troll bs.
@SirRiehl um i'm getting tired of people making vids of them depressed trying to make people feel sorry for them it's dumb and i don't feel sorry for them i don't care what happens to them boo hoo my family died boo hoo my girlfriend shot herself boo hoo my newborn died who gives a shit
And sometimes there are depressed people who don't have anyone to talk to. Their not necessarily looking for pity. And what if they ARE looking for pity? Maybe no one in their lives has ever given them any pity or shown any care, so they look for it elsewhere? Anyways, sorry if I was rude. I'm not trying to start a fight or anything. Your entitled to your own opinion, I suppose. ^-^
@SkillfulGaz Wat the fuck is wrong with u !! There can be different types of Depresion u asshole !! Alex has just shaded his feelings with his fans and all u can say is tht he is bullshiting !!! And tht ur gonna beat the shit out of him!! ur such a pussy !!!!!!! Get fucked you heartless fucking CUNT !!!!!!!
why does everyone need a reason to live cant people just live to be alive go outside travel meet people you are just making your self unhappy and you know it ....think about it other people are happy because they choose to be happy forget the past live in the present
Fuck!! I have that too lately, I get it a lot tho, mostly when a lots happening around me I just sort of...turn off or crange (I'm using that when i talk to my bud about it XD)
your hairs cool lol x and being depressed is like the worst feeling in the worlllld. nd its hard to forget. im feeling the same. good thing to do is go out with people and get bad things off your mind. :) x
lolololol your a teen, deal with it. You have no real life problems. Look at other kids in third world countries, their problems include: Fighting/making ends meet for food, fight disease, fighting crime, etc. Suck it up
im sorry your depressed. i thought you were a girl because of your body language..i thought you were a girl except for your masculine voice because most girls have masculine voices.. but i know your a male but im still attracted to you.. am i bi crious now or bi sexual??
@xxromancemassacrexx Thats called being depressed, not beyond depressed. Also, if you are feeling good enough to get up in the morning, apply your make up, chat online and upload a video to youtube, you are not fucking depressed. You are going through something called puberty.
@LitaniTilSatan666 You're a dick. You can't possibly understand what he's going through. Just because he's trying to vent and get everything out doesn't mean he's not depressed. Trust me, I know what depressed is like and this is it. When you become depressed, then you can come here and comment. I've been diagnosed as depressed and I still get up in the morning, take a shower, put my make up on, and go to school. Depressed doesn't mean fucking disabled.
I..personally don't have a problem with ppl changing their appearence or bodies to look like the opposite sex BUT I DO think there is Gender Bending chemicals in our food/water/material ect. Like Cancer this IS a disease. be a wear, it's a new generation and make sure your healthy. Eat organic and drink reverse osmosis water! This isn't about anti gay, religion or anything like that. I'm comfortable w/who I am and just wonder if YOU are too! Scary!
i no how u feel, i cant talk to anyone with out bursting into tears, u feel like, why did god bring me here if i dont belong, and it nvr goes away, u always feel dead and yes it hurtz
yes it suck, emptiness, hopelessness , but a visit to the doctor will help & ask for something like Paxil, helps with depression & anxiety attacks. ABSOLUTE BEST THING TO DO IS get distracted from your bad feeling as SOON as you notice you feel like crap. Gotta stay away from those feelings and do anything to stay distracted, stop thinking about it at all cost! And use your meds if you got them. And SLEEP is essential for your sanity... get some sleep.
I'm guessing you are a bit of a fag.
Corrupt5358 3 days ago
Yup that's exactly how i feel. I've had generalized anxiety disorder for as long as I can remember, and just recently I've been going through depression too. It's like I don't want to live anymore because everything is SO fucking pointless.. but killing myself would be pointless too. I can't even think of anything I could do to make my life better. No one even takes me seriously or seems to care when I tell them how I feel.. they just don't get how bad I feel.
gigiky 1 week ago
kill me
TheRealKeith77 1 week ago
ok im 22 live at home with my parents bc i cant find a job and i dont have my license bc i dont have a car bc i cant find a job bc my town is shutting down bc of the economy and i dont have friends bc this town is in shit so everone is moving out but the poor mexicans that have 15 families in one house r all around me and ive been on fb since 4am and i havnt gotten a single message or IM when i messsage ppl on my fb no one has ever responded any tips on what i should do
MLGTroy1 3 weeks ago
i dodnt see why people say im so depressed so i better were black clothing and stupid hair colour and make up?? wtf is with that u want to cure your depression go live like a samalian baby for a week see how u feel about your life then!
TheLennonlegends 3 weeks ago
@TheLennonlegends oh please,it dosent matteer ur rich or dirt poor u can still feel out of reality
goldengodess2249 2 weeks ago
@TheLennonlegends It's not a choice, you think people want to be depressed, NO!. If it was that easy to cure then im sure the other thousands of people on this planet wouldn't be depressed! so ignorant, why are you even watching these videos.
princessguitarx 1 week ago
@princessguitarx i got depression and anxiety but i don't need to wear black and die my hair weird colours and cut myself like some sort of retart fukn attention seekn gothic fuks your all maggots
TheLennonlegends 5 days ago
@TheLennonlegends You obviously don't have severe depression then, people cut because it numbs everything that is going off in the persons life, most self harmers dont go seeking attention over there cuts as they are ashamed of them. I'ts comments like that what drive people over the edge sometimes...
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@TheLennonlegends You obviously don't have severe depression then, people cut because it numbs everything that is going off in the persons life, most self harmers dont go seeking attention over there cuts as they are ashamed of them. I'ts comments like that what drive people over the edge sometimes...
princessguitarx 5 days ago
o understand what your going through, my friends tell em to cheer up, i just say fuck off i cant, but depression rly does suck
~murphycory
murphycory 3 weeks ago
i feel the samee way and today i cut 250 times and i dont feel better
thereisreasontolive 1 month ago
beautiful makeup. :)
SacrificialSmiles 1 month ago 3
cute wiv all the brackets frownie face, they all have a different kind of meaning lol. cheer up tho, you have a lot going for you and u look awesome. depression is tough but it can be dealt with.
Imabskinny 1 month ago
ur mad pretty too lol
j3KzEP 1 month ago
i am going tru the same here i dont feel alive i feel that all am doing is waiting for death
but lifde gets better remember that there are people out there that go tru worse things than us
j3KzEP 1 month ago
This is what happens when you remove yourself from your roots, your heritage and culture and dress up like a freak,, if you take away all aspects of reality and drown yourself in this emo/goth world of bullshit and make-up, then your asking for mental problems later down the line.
Do us all a favour, next time you cut, dont call an ambulance, Im sick and fucking tired of you idiots taking up resources and medial staffs attention which would be better spent elsewhere on those with REAL problems.
clitmint 2 months ago
My aunt was depressed beforw.. And when i asked her about she told me how empty she felt.
She said some of the stuff yu said and i really have a deep respect for you. I too have a type of insombia (dsps) but its startibg to get worse.. And knowing that yu ( idk if yu do anymore) had it makes me have hope that ill get better.
xxSweetHeartLovex 3 months ago
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Little attention whore faggot, your not depressed.
ThePwnagebot 3 months ago
You have no idea what SAD, GAD Agoraphobia is. I see 'these' videos of young white trash boo whooing about how hard life is. The fact that you can record you're "experience" exemplifies how minor your anxiety is. Try abusing your xanax 2mg bars for years. 12+ a day. I have shut off every avenue of contact to a few family members. Don't use a phone or 'friend collector' er facebook. My situation is the ultimate BOY WHO CRIED WOLF . I'm never looked at by the medical profession objectively
hydrodwarf 3 months ago
I made myself depressed. Now I find comfort knowing that life DOES have a lot of good to offer, I just have to be patient... :)
leirgauk 3 months ago
You seem like you're really dwelling on your depression. I know exactly where you are; I've temporarily lost that spark in life as well. I can't find happiness. But I've come to realise that it's ONLY because I was dwelling on it. I was dwelling on it because I was lonely and nobody recognized I was depressed, so I could only find much-needed sympathy from myself, so I just kept looking for reasons to feel sorry for myself. Believe me, I have some GOOD reasons, but they are not the main source.
leirgauk 3 months ago 6
@leirgauk shit that is how i feel, its really hard to stay positive when nothing positive happens to me
iTzOtto 3 months ago
@iTzOtto I know, it really is. But in times like that, when you blame everything on bad luck, it's like saying you have no power whatsoever to turn it around, and that's usually the source of depression - feeling helpless. It's a strange cognitive self-mechanism for much needed self-pettiness, and it only makes you sadder. You just gotta realise most of your depression stems from yourself and believe that things will turn around. Hope leads to happiness ^_^
leirgauk 3 months ago
H O L Y S H I I T!?
stephaniejaah 3 months ago
well your extremly pretty, your eyeshadow is realy cool, your blueish hair is cool, your peircings are cool, your shirt is cool, no need to feel empty, just realize that your rely cool
arholloway99 3 months ago
first of all you're adorable :3 and for the second i know how you feel even tho' this video is quite old i was in this state for years for some years ago and its fucking depressing even tho' you're not depressed its just empty .. i get it sometimes its weird ..
xXKittyTVXx 4 months ago
exactly how i feel right now
tallyhoman911 4 months ago
don hate appreciate.
nookstar2001 4 months ago
@PoopPowerLI , Yes The Fuckk She Is ! Hop Offf .
WhiiteGirllMobb 5 months ago
Je ne sais pas...
elevadon 5 months ago
You Are Extremely Pretty .
WhiiteGirllMobb 5 months ago
@WhiiteGirllMobb NO
PoopPowerLI 5 months ago
i think, and this is a theory, people dont get mad at me for having an opinion, but teens these days are depressed because in this generation everything is handed to them, and when they dont get their way they can't handle it like they used to, my grandmother told me that when she was younger if you didnt sit by the fire place at school she had to wear mittens to write her homework lol that would be considered abuse now.. i dont know.. kids are spoiled. they can't handle problems anymore
Kroumph 6 months ago
@wweeijheatom
Don't wonder ur family nd ur girlfriend kill themselves -.- IF U DNT LIKE THE VIDOES DNT WATCH THEM U STUPID CUNT !!! gezzz -_-
MeganMurdersxx 6 months ago
looool gay emo faggot omfg i swear to u if i saw u somewere alone id knock the shit out of u
TheCrispism 6 months ago
@TheCrispism for what ??
Akirahunny1 6 months ago
@TheCrispism Shut the fuck up
RawrimRYAN123 6 months ago
@TheCrispism
its bettor to be homophobic than emo? i dont see ur reasoning i dont speak a-hole
iinsaneity 5 months ago
@TheCrispism So ...why don't you just stick to playing your videogames and trolling online..you effing derp...I would beat your homophobic ass.
dutico 5 months ago
@dutico haters gonna hate but your all still emos, my point is i wont bother trollin n hatin on all of u emos since ull prob just die soon from self inflicted cuts anyway hahaha !
TheCrispism 5 months ago
@TheCrispism First off, I'm not emo at all, so don't assume anything, secondly, every emo out there could probably kick you're ignorant ass. You're probably some 30 year old hermit, who never goes outside, and only trolls people online. Funny, but not surprising that you don't have a profile pic up to see what you look like...you're that cowardly...so I'm done feeding into you're troll bs.
dutico 5 months ago
@TheCrispism you are a horrible person why would you want to knock the shit out of someone you've never met?
Steadman93 5 months ago
your eyemakeup is pretty lol
shivermatimbers 7 months ago
ha FAG AND WHO GIVES A SHIT ABOUT YOUR FUCKING LIFE!!!
wwejheaton 7 months ago
@wwejheaton
Go to Hell. God bless, rude much?
SirRiehl 7 months ago
@SirRiehl um i'm getting tired of people making vids of them depressed trying to make people feel sorry for them it's dumb and i don't feel sorry for them i don't care what happens to them boo hoo my family died boo hoo my girlfriend shot herself boo hoo my newborn died who gives a shit
wwejheaton 7 months ago
@wwejheaton
Well then why do you watch these videos?
And sometimes there are depressed people who don't have anyone to talk to. Their not necessarily looking for pity. And what if they ARE looking for pity? Maybe no one in their lives has ever given them any pity or shown any care, so they look for it elsewhere? Anyways, sorry if I was rude. I'm not trying to start a fight or anything. Your entitled to your own opinion, I suppose. ^-^
SirRiehl 7 months ago
your beautiful!
omgiwin1 7 months ago
@SkillfulGaz Wat the fuck is wrong with u !! There can be different types of Depresion u asshole !! Alex has just shaded his feelings with his fans and all u can say is tht he is bullshiting !!! And tht ur gonna beat the shit out of him!! ur such a pussy !!!!!!! Get fucked you heartless fucking CUNT !!!!!!!
MeganMurdersxx 7 months ago
you look like my neighbors wife she is pretty foxxy
legend956 8 months ago
why does everyone need a reason to live cant people just live to be alive go outside travel meet people you are just making your self unhappy and you know it ....think about it other people are happy because they choose to be happy forget the past live in the present
legend956 8 months ago
Fuck!! I have that too lately, I get it a lot tho, mostly when a lots happening around me I just sort of...turn off or crange (I'm using that when i talk to my bud about it XD)
cassidyteufel 8 months ago
depression as a fashion statement.
dreadedwheat26 8 months ago
your hairs cool lol x and being depressed is like the worst feeling in the worlllld. nd its hard to forget. im feeling the same. good thing to do is go out with people and get bad things off your mind. :) x
94Amandac 8 months ago
lolololol your a teen, deal with it. You have no real life problems. Look at other kids in third world countries, their problems include: Fighting/making ends meet for food, fight disease, fighting crime, etc. Suck it up
DippenMeSomeCope 8 months ago
im sorry your depressed. i thought you were a girl because of your body language..i thought you were a girl except for your masculine voice because most girls have masculine voices.. but i know your a male but im still attracted to you.. am i bi crious now or bi sexual??
ChrisyJ1 9 months ago
Me.Too. :/
megant1021 9 months ago
i like your hair
Spulpacz 10 months ago
I Feel exactly the same ! i hate it!
purplegirl9002 10 months ago
stfu ugly dyke
CalHasChillDay 11 months ago
Get some some real shit to be depressed about fuckin bitch
footballstar124 11 months ago
I freaking LOVE your shirt and hair. So colorful ^.^ And I know how you feel.. It sucks huh? -.-
xXToxicRawrrXx 1 year ago
i think i might no how it feels to feel empty...
thehefolomp 1 year ago
Im depressed to.. but im too much of a pussy to kill myself
avp3player1 1 year ago
@xxromancemassacrexx Thats called being depressed, not beyond depressed. Also, if you are feeling good enough to get up in the morning, apply your make up, chat online and upload a video to youtube, you are not fucking depressed. You are going through something called puberty.
Jesus fucking christ. Seriously.
LitaniTilSatan666 1 year ago
@LitaniTilSatan666 You're a dick. You can't possibly understand what he's going through. Just because he's trying to vent and get everything out doesn't mean he's not depressed. Trust me, I know what depressed is like and this is it. When you become depressed, then you can come here and comment. I've been diagnosed as depressed and I still get up in the morning, take a shower, put my make up on, and go to school. Depressed doesn't mean fucking disabled.
sccorpiolove 1 year ago
your makeup= <3333
deadiswhatweaimfor10 1 year ago
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you're pretty hot but still kill yourself
XordHacker 1 year ago
@XordHacker Vile.
flowerbaby06 1 year ago
@XordHacker Why the hell would you encourage someone to kill themselves?? What's your problem?
sccorpiolove 1 year ago
@sccorpiolove u mad
XordHacker 1 year ago
I..personally don't have a problem with ppl changing their appearence or bodies to look like the opposite sex BUT I DO think there is Gender Bending chemicals in our food/water/material ect. Like Cancer this IS a disease. be a wear, it's a new generation and make sure your healthy. Eat organic and drink reverse osmosis water! This isn't about anti gay, religion or anything like that. I'm comfortable w/who I am and just wonder if YOU are too! Scary!
mollyfucface 1 year ago
@mollyfucface . I agree totally with you.
LabRat6619 1 year ago
@mollyfucface even in ancient times alot of ppl changed their appearance to the oposite sex, you're probably nt used to this kinda things
SergioSource 11 months ago
i no how u feel, i cant talk to anyone with out bursting into tears, u feel like, why did god bring me here if i dont belong, and it nvr goes away, u always feel dead and yes it hurtz
KrazyKandies77584 1 year ago
Your a BOY that wants to be a GIRL right, or are you gay? I don't mind, but it gives people a background then maybe they can help?
LabRat6619 1 year ago
@LabRat6619 He is a BOY, who is BI and does NOT want to be a GIRL.
TheMusicChic1 1 year ago
yes it suck, emptiness, hopelessness , but a visit to the doctor will help & ask for something like Paxil, helps with depression & anxiety attacks. ABSOLUTE BEST THING TO DO IS get distracted from your bad feeling as SOON as you notice you feel like crap. Gotta stay away from those feelings and do anything to stay distracted, stop thinking about it at all cost! And use your meds if you got them. And SLEEP is essential for your sanity... get some sleep.
winkipinky 1 year ago
Im sorry are you a boy or a girl i can't tell. I think maybe a boy
AimFreeVideos 1 year ago 21
@AimFreeVideos He is a BOY
TheMusicChic1 1 year ago
@AimFreeVideos Thats the most thing i like in her
deniedera 10 months ago
@AimFreeVideos douche..?
thc024 10 months ago
@AimFreeVideos im wondering the same thing?
myuhdidas 8 months ago
@AimFreeVideos Dude dont be slack she's a girl? What are you sexually confused?
masterassassin7 2 months ago
seriously, dont act at all like you have it rough
ericsyutubeaccount 1 year ago
You're so pretty, you could be a model!
sunsetsbythesea 1 year ago
how old are you? lol no offense but you sound and look like you're 12 :P lol (but still really cute!)
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