Wow. You've got a remarkable story to tell, very inspiring!
Being transgendered myself, I can relate to a lot of what you've experienced. The fear, the depression, the need to fend for yourself in sick cruel world.
And as for what your family said about you being an abomination and going to hell...ignore them. Theyr wrong.
Your beautiful, and God made all of us the way he wanted us and he loves and respects us for who we really are deep inside. Its our spirits that go to heaven, not our bodies.
Thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry to hear of the hardships you have had in life, but am also happy to know that you had your moments of clarity and the rekindling of relationships with family to help you lift yourself up to be the happy and whole woman you are. I hope you will post an update soon :D.
You are such a brave girl; your friends and family must be very proud of you and your ability to pick yourself up time and time again. Hugs and more Hugs.Take care
You've come thru some very hard times, on top & looking beautiful. Your fortitude and your ability to keep getting back up are amazing! Hope things are continuing to go well for you.You deserve a very long streak of good luck. Do you plan to make more videos? Best wishes.
I went through drinking lonely spiels. It always makes me feel better to go home dress pretty do my makeup and have a glad of wine with a movie in that I was secure alone for once. In masc I tend to be codependant. But when I embrace the woman screaming in me im free and happy and independent. We really have a lot in common. We would make good friends. I really relate I'm inspired by you. You'll beat all your demons with ease as you took the biggest one head on and your winning beautifully!!!
I couldn't resist the urge to dress up and be beautiful. I started in the dark about it. I recently started going out late night to secluded bars and non-biased friends places. I apparently convinced people but cant wait to be positioned to do hormones and haired removal. It its so much work right now.
I have a large family too not one person is going to overlook in acceptance. If im lucky my mother maybe. I did let the obvious pass my mind in jr high and highschool. I was homeless twice first at fifteen disowned by my family I slept in a park no coat in winter. At 19 I head the urge to dive into femme exploration as an adult.
Hi, im Brianna. Im from the midwest im 26. I relate to your story more than anybody ive every heard. I grew up wearing my sisters makeup and underwear secretly. I have some adulation on the italian note but note. Not family though. I can only imagine how difficult that was. My family is more country and this won't be accepted.
You are an amazingly beautiful resilient intelligent person and utmost insightful, and at only 22! I admire you...and look forward to exchanging perspectives, if nothing else, at least via online word exchange. :)
A truly inspiring tale -- and it's all real. Thanks for sharing. Some aspects of your personal history coincide with my own experiences growing up; as a result, you have single-handedly re-inspired me to reconsider transitioning, something I had ruled out years ago because I could not reconcile my inner feelings with my external reality.
Happy transition! You are doing fine. I am proud of you, especially going back to school. I'm 63 now and enjoy every minute of being. I am so glad your mom came around. I missed having mine accept me even though I first started telling her about being a girl when I was three. But that was back in the days of McCarthyism and everyone thought TS folks were evil and sick, so she really had no chance. Loved your video.
Thank you for putting this up, it was amazing to listin to, all i can say is your mother is your saving grace! Yes you need to be strong and do what you can but if your mother is going against the family and doing what she is she's strong as well.... and she needs to have you in her life. I whent threw alot of the same things as you and its just to easy to get cought up in that life style and feel like you cant get out.
I'm italian too.. but i'm born and living in Italy. I'd like to live into another country with more acceptance of trans people and less employment problems. I love the results of your FFS and I'd like to know who was your surgeon cause I think i need ffs to feminize my face.. I coud see feminine, i'm not yet on hrt but I have a square chin and strong jaw and a prominent and high forhead (also irregular) that i'd like to have more flat and also to have a lower hairline
i forgot..do u speak italian? =) It's a pity that you removed the other video w/ pics of ur transition, but if you don't want it to be shown anymore it's ok... I found it very inspirating and i loved the song.. :)
my name is the same I spell it Christy and your story is amazing I wash I could afford surgery but I cant right now so I set up an online donation through give forward I only had one donation so fare so if any one wants to help the link is on my page and I'm glad I had started transition last Nov laser is working for me but I have very little left to go well pleas help me raise as much money as possible towards my surgery id appreciate any amount donated it would help me with my struggle with it
You seem like such a warm and lovely person. It really hurts me to think about what you went through. So happy you are in a better place now! Many warm wishes xx
You're a brave girl and your surgery turned out great. I'm trying to get back into college after obtaining one degree but it's tough. I know people who are paying over half of their salaires in college loans. What surgeon did you use for the face? Was it Zukowski or Spiegel?
i am wanting to do this but im so scared i think you are very pretty how did you get those breasts did you have surgury.or did you take something to help them grow bigger and are they still growing and if so how long did they get to the size they are now also do you have facebook jw
Damn, these are the sorts of trans stories I both love and hate to hear - hate the way people treat some of us, it's unforgiveable. No idea how you forgave your mum - probably better for you that you did. And love because you're making a go of things and sorting yourself out. It's an amazing story - and i'll be shallow and say I can well see why you made money as an escort! Really hope things go well for you - you deserve it.
Wow, what a story girl...so many changes and experiences all at once. Get your education, be yourself, live life positively, and stay strong. Wishing you so many good things!
You've been thru a lot! You seem to be a good person, I wish you all good luck and love that the world can give to you! It's early buy, I wish you have a better time on Christmas this year!!! Good luck!!!
"Fear, sadness, anger are just feelings, and feeling can't kill you!" keep strong girl!
The struggles you expeirence will make you a stronger person in the long run. I know it is painful to be judged by others especially family. But stand tall, smile, look those that judge you in the eyes and say "This is who I am. I chose to be true to myself." Remember to find joy in the small things in life and love those close to you with kindness and honesty. Good luck. -Victor.
wow some story sister!yes i made it throught the whole thing,i hope all goes your way from now on,your very strong n an ispiration to me to stay strong,this is such a hard thing,peace n hugz ~Nikki~
Seriously girl, a Hollywood screenwriter couldn't even write that transition story!!! I really hope everything works out for the best. HUGE HUG!!! Jamie :)
Hi! Marie here.To continue.Patrick stayed with me overnight & no! we didn`t have sex.I think he stayed to asure himself that i would not do it again.The next morning when i sobered up i appologized to him for hurting him & saying bad things to him.He understood.He made me swear not to try that again,so i promised.Keep that promise even today.Don`t drink anymore cuse if i did that would be it.Since my mom died last year i have been very fragile mentaly.Thank`s for understanding.Wish you the best.
Hi! girl.Marie here.Quite the rough spot you had to go through in such a short time.But you were resourceful and you got your life back on track.I envy you.Your troubles are behind you.Mine will never leave.Sexualy abused as a child,raped at 23.Went to school starving most of the time,did poorly.Rumaged for tins of food in anA&P dumpster as a child.Been through too much already.You are young & have a great future ahead of you.I have is a scar accross my soul & one word in my mind sucide.Sorry.
@underloved1 Having also been a rape victim (at age 21) and having come within literally a step of jumping off a 153 ft bridge, I can somewhat empathize. Regardless of your past, I hope that you will eventually be able to live out the rest of your days to their fullest extent and one day finally be happy.
@Butterflyhugs69 Sorry to hear you went through some of the hell i did.You understand the emotionnal pain i go through each day & how deep it hurts.After my rape tried to commit sucide (failed!) a close friend noticed i was acting strange,followed me home broke my door & caught me about to slit my wrists.Patrick was his name.He held me tight in his arms.I struggled hard(kicked punched yelled at him)to let me die.He just held on tighter until i ran out of steam.I live but still feel the pain.
@underloved1 : psychic pain, pit above my stomach, just won't seem to heal wherever/whatever it is. I too, my friend have lately had that word in my mind, and various possible scenes and scenarios and continually remind myself: suicide is NOT an option---which actually makes me suffer even more to think of not having it as an option.
@NeuminalMan Marie here.Not an option huh! Trust me life has not finished showing you it`s ugly side.I know last friday i went through a intense depressional fit that i cut my left wrist,Not to die but to live,Have another scar to remind me how bad my life suck`s.Last night i drank until i passedout.WoW! mindless & feeling nothing great way to go through the holidays.Hope you have happyer reasons to live for.I have none.Anyways wishing you all the best,health & happynes.Take mine i don`t need it
@underloved1: I have seen some pretty ugly sides of life, my friend. Anyway, when use self-torture to distract from desolation unknown I apply pressure to nerve pressure points--my only rule is do not tear the skin. Even when I feel there is nothing to live for I remind myself that this too shall pass and I carry on best I can...usually pacing figure eights endlessly.
@underloved1: like you, life also dealt me a pretty shitty hand: mom enters mental hospital when I was born, my older sister, only sibling, and also surrogate mother murdered at 15 when I was 12, my mom returned to the mental hospital, my dad went into a lifelong unipolar depression, they separated and I was left hugging a pillow in a state of shock.
@NeuminalMan Marie here.My memories of my childhood were like you not happy ones.My mom had 10 kids,3girls & 6 boys.She had 3 mental breakdowns where we were placed in foster homes on farms.Contry folk can be crule.Do your chores & you get to eat,don`t & you don`t.Luckly i was anorexic then so food depravation was a joke to me.Sad to hear about your sister seems you have a lot more pain to deal with than me.Hated my dad at 10 he almost killed me & hurt my mom bad.Wishing you better life.Huggs
@NeuminalMan Marie here.The scars on my left wrist & other places are there to punish me for letting somone hurt me & not hurting them back.Each one is there to remind me who & why i did it.I am not proud of them.I am tired of living like this.Was not born to be someones whipping boy.My scars are also a cry out for help & a warning to others that if they continue to hurt me i am not afraid to slit my wrist & bleed all over them.They get the message & backoff.Just don`t care anymore.Sorry.
HURRAY PS!! I was thinking of moving to Portland, but when I decided to come out, I also decided it would probably be better if I stayed here. At least for now.
@Netheeros If you have a nice support system, then I can understand wanting to stay around that. There was absolutely nothing keeping me on the East Coast though.
@Butterflyhugs69 for me I have almost nothing really drawing me to Portland other then the fact that I love the weather and the city. There's lots of opportunity there, but nothing that draws me. Accept for the independent film world!! Portland's the indie film capitol :)
You have amazed me and humbled me with your life's story. I wanted to cry for you i felt so bad over how your folks were treating you and i actually got mad at them ,but all thru your video you smiled and seemed so happy.I truly hope you are happy now and i wish you the best! takcare of yourself .As for living in your car in the frozen winter (new england) i have also done that and like you i will never forget it either .be good hugs Jenny
@jennjelly Sorry for making you sad! I actually left out the parts about eating disorders and being sexually assaulted because I didn't want to seem like too much of a debbie-downer, lol. I am happy now, or I'm at least well on my way there. Warm sentiments like yours definitely help :)
Thanks for sharing your transition story so far. I'm around the same amount of time in transition as you are although my story is very different as I'm twenty years older than yourself. You are an inspiring young lady who's had a rough time of things. I'm so very glad that you seem to have turned a corner in your life now and pray to God that things continue to look up for up you as your life unfolds. You're a beautiful, resilient person and very sweet. Good luck to you princess.
@dcwrxb Thanks :) I don't intend to change anytime soon. And just to clarify, it's Kristy...sometimes it doesn't come out right if I'm talking too fast. (I have a hard time with the word "grasp" too--always sounds like "grass")
You inspire me to embrace mtf. I'm going to start in a week or two when I get my refund. I'm going to self medicate.
danpflick2 1 day ago in playlist Favorite videos
I'm looking at starting my transition and I'm curious of what the effects were while on hormones. I'm asking so I know what to expect.
danpflick2 3 days ago
You're too cute!
mpallone2011 5 days ago
very very gooood video.. sad story at times but i guess thats what makes you at at the end.. goooood luck
s412100000 2 weeks ago
did you have them prescribed. where you still taking them at the shelter.
LatinshawtyTS 2 weeks ago
my heart broke a thousand times for you. From start to finish.
NICAEA84 2 weeks ago
Hi cute little Princess, Can you please tell the cost of ur complete FFS? also from where did u had it done? Luv you, wanna kiss you
uzlb81 2 weeks ago
Wow. You've got a remarkable story to tell, very inspiring!
Being transgendered myself, I can relate to a lot of what you've experienced. The fear, the depression, the need to fend for yourself in sick cruel world.
And as for what your family said about you being an abomination and going to hell...ignore them. Theyr wrong.
Your beautiful, and God made all of us the way he wanted us and he loves and respects us for who we really are deep inside. Its our spirits that go to heaven, not our bodies.
Coldchill83 2 weeks ago
Thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry to hear of the hardships you have had in life, but am also happy to know that you had your moments of clarity and the rekindling of relationships with family to help you lift yourself up to be the happy and whole woman you are. I hope you will post an update soon :D.
TheIdeabaker 2 weeks ago in playlist More videos from Butterflyhugs69
Wow, thats some story, you really blew me away. Congrats on turning your life around and Good Luck @ Portland State. BTW, What is your major?
pfun1000 2 weeks ago
you're beautiful. unfortunately I do not know English, if you put the sub titles in Italian seuirei you with much more attention, a kiss: *
DominaTigerZ 2 weeks ago
Were you on hormones the whole time?
LatinshawtyTS 3 weeks ago
@LatinshawtyTS Yes
Butterflyhugs69 2 weeks ago
You are such a brave girl; your friends and family must be very proud of you and your ability to pick yourself up time and time again. Hugs and more Hugs.Take care
Namasta
stephtraveller 3 weeks ago
Wow. Hearing you tell your story makes me kinda feel ashamed about complaining about my life.
Do I understand you correctly though that all the things that happened to you, after your mom kicked you out, occurred within roughly one year?
Bimon1234567 4 weeks ago
@Bimon1234567 Yes
Butterflyhugs69 3 weeks ago
It's such bullshit that preops are almost always placed with their biological sex in shelters and prisons. I mean, shit, who's it gonna kill?
GiantPetRat 1 month ago 3
Best wishes for your future.
markreilly52 1 month ago
You've come thru some very hard times, on top & looking beautiful. Your fortitude and your ability to keep getting back up are amazing! Hope things are continuing to go well for you.You deserve a very long streak of good luck. Do you plan to make more videos? Best wishes.
Falseharpist 1 month ago 3
Wow you look really good!
MzBUZZKILINGTON 1 month ago
did you under go voice feminization or anything!?!coz you sound just like a real lady..by the word real i mean biologically..
ashleeforever69 1 month ago
Who did ur ffs and what all did u do
danielle11746 1 month ago
Wow u are amazing honey!!! good luck at college!! u deserve to do well!
Kisses Zoe! xx
misszoelouisetaylor 1 month ago
Your so pretty!
sherrycumslutNHCT 1 month ago
i love your hair how long it take you to grow long ?? give me a good tips for me plz love from kelly xoxoxoxoxox
71shemale 1 month ago
Best Wishes & Good Luck in 2012
FirehouseMike 1 month ago
welcome..and best wishes for 2012
MaleCDTSlover 1 month ago
if possible see the before-after video of you ...............you are very pretty.....
bepy121 1 month ago
I wood love to have a frend like you, to lisend to and talk xxx...wish you happy cristmast and happy new year 2012 by by.
d1da5a 1 month ago
The more I listen to you the prettier you look. I'd love to meet a girl like you.
KatoeyKick 1 month ago
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KatoeyKick 1 month ago
I went through drinking lonely spiels. It always makes me feel better to go home dress pretty do my makeup and have a glad of wine with a movie in that I was secure alone for once. In masc I tend to be codependant. But when I embrace the woman screaming in me im free and happy and independent. We really have a lot in common. We would make good friends. I really relate I'm inspired by you. You'll beat all your demons with ease as you took the biggest one head on and your winning beautifully!!!
Brefreegirl 1 month ago
I couldn't resist the urge to dress up and be beautiful. I started in the dark about it. I recently started going out late night to secluded bars and non-biased friends places. I apparently convinced people but cant wait to be positioned to do hormones and haired removal. It its so much work right now.
Brefreegirl 1 month ago
I have a large family too not one person is going to overlook in acceptance. If im lucky my mother maybe. I did let the obvious pass my mind in jr high and highschool. I was homeless twice first at fifteen disowned by my family I slept in a park no coat in winter. At 19 I head the urge to dive into femme exploration as an adult.
Brefreegirl 1 month ago
Hi, im Brianna. Im from the midwest im 26. I relate to your story more than anybody ive every heard. I grew up wearing my sisters makeup and underwear secretly. I have some adulation on the italian note but note. Not family though. I can only imagine how difficult that was. My family is more country and this won't be accepted.
Brefreegirl 1 month ago
You are an amazingly beautiful resilient intelligent person and utmost insightful, and at only 22! I admire you...and look forward to exchanging perspectives, if nothing else, at least via online word exchange. :)
NeuminalMan 2 months ago
A truly inspiring tale -- and it's all real. Thanks for sharing. Some aspects of your personal history coincide with my own experiences growing up; as a result, you have single-handedly re-inspired me to reconsider transitioning, something I had ruled out years ago because I could not reconcile my inner feelings with my external reality.
ACounterLife 2 months ago
Happy transition! You are doing fine. I am proud of you, especially going back to school. I'm 63 now and enjoy every minute of being. I am so glad your mom came around. I missed having mine accept me even though I first started telling her about being a girl when I was three. But that was back in the days of McCarthyism and everyone thought TS folks were evil and sick, so she really had no chance. Loved your video.
DawnStorrud 2 months ago
Why are so many people against transsexualism. I'm a born again Christian and I'm a transsexual girl.
LoveRants4u 2 months ago 2
You are an inspiration. I wish I had a girlfriend like you. Smart, strong. beautiful. Thank yo for sharing.
bigfatsunday 2 months ago
Thank you for putting this up, it was amazing to listin to, all i can say is your mother is your saving grace! Yes you need to be strong and do what you can but if your mother is going against the family and doing what she is she's strong as well.... and she needs to have you in her life. I whent threw alot of the same things as you and its just to easy to get cought up in that life style and feel like you cant get out.
Zinthra 2 months ago
I'm italian too.. but i'm born and living in Italy. I'd like to live into another country with more acceptance of trans people and less employment problems. I love the results of your FFS and I'd like to know who was your surgeon cause I think i need ffs to feminize my face.. I coud see feminine, i'm not yet on hrt but I have a square chin and strong jaw and a prominent and high forhead (also irregular) that i'd like to have more flat and also to have a lower hairline
krisagui 2 months ago
i forgot..do u speak italian? =) It's a pity that you removed the other video w/ pics of ur transition, but if you don't want it to be shown anymore it's ok... I found it very inspirating and i loved the song.. :)
krisagui 2 months ago
my name is the same I spell it Christy and your story is amazing I wash I could afford surgery but I cant right now so I set up an online donation through give forward I only had one donation so fare so if any one wants to help the link is on my page and I'm glad I had started transition last Nov laser is working for me but I have very little left to go well pleas help me raise as much money as possible towards my surgery id appreciate any amount donated it would help me with my struggle with it
sumthingangelsvlg 2 months ago
You seem like such a warm and lovely person. It really hurts me to think about what you went through. So happy you are in a better place now! Many warm wishes xx
joannamarierogue 3 months ago
SO strong & beautiful. :) You're awesome< very inspiring story. Thanks for sharing! :D <3
MultiBubblezzzz 3 months ago
You're a brave girl and your surgery turned out great. I'm trying to get back into college after obtaining one degree but it's tough. I know people who are paying over half of their salaires in college loans. What surgeon did you use for the face? Was it Zukowski or Spiegel?
eddiesilversurfer 3 months ago
Thats...woe..thats a pretty amazing story..congrats on pulling through & making your life..yours
tredeep 3 months ago
@butterflyhugs your so cute beautiful sexy everything i wanna be with
are you single where are you from
jesuscorrects 3 months ago
i am wanting to do this but im so scared i think you are very pretty how did you get those breasts did you have surgury.or did you take something to help them grow bigger and are they still growing and if so how long did they get to the size they are now also do you have facebook jw
bubbles186 3 months ago
Damn, these are the sorts of trans stories I both love and hate to hear - hate the way people treat some of us, it's unforgiveable. No idea how you forgave your mum - probably better for you that you did. And love because you're making a go of things and sorting yourself out. It's an amazing story - and i'll be shallow and say I can well see why you made money as an escort! Really hope things go well for you - you deserve it.
E2VMARK1 3 months ago
moved by your story intelligent brave and beautiful you deserve a cuddle and affection x
melechshlomo3 3 months ago in playlist More videos from Butterflyhugs69
did u have srs?
Dfallinger10 3 months ago
@Dfallinger10 No not yet
Butterflyhugs69 3 months ago
@Butterflyhugs69 Do you want it?
SparkTelevision 1 day ago
Wow, what a story girl...so many changes and experiences all at once. Get your education, be yourself, live life positively, and stay strong. Wishing you so many good things!
xdress17j 3 months ago
P.S. You have a fantastic smile. Keep smiling and eventually life will smile back at you :-)
xdress17j 3 months ago
fantastic story, nice hear to hear you... will be waiting for more vidz and pix coming up... kisses !
ChinoBerraco 3 months ago
You've been thru a lot! You seem to be a good person, I wish you all good luck and love that the world can give to you! It's early buy, I wish you have a better time on Christmas this year!!! Good luck!!!
"Fear, sadness, anger are just feelings, and feeling can't kill you!" keep strong girl!
:)
jeanpaolo 3 months ago
The struggles you expeirence will make you a stronger person in the long run. I know it is painful to be judged by others especially family. But stand tall, smile, look those that judge you in the eyes and say "This is who I am. I chose to be true to myself." Remember to find joy in the small things in life and love those close to you with kindness and honesty. Good luck. -Victor.
Thejohnsonvictor 4 months ago in playlist More videos from Butterflyhugs69
wow some story sister!yes i made it throught the whole thing,i hope all goes your way from now on,your very strong n an ispiration to me to stay strong,this is such a hard thing,peace n hugz ~Nikki~
Transgirl2011Nikki 4 months ago 3
Seriously girl, a Hollywood screenwriter couldn't even write that transition story!!! I really hope everything works out for the best. HUGE HUG!!! Jamie :)
jamiejogirl 4 months ago
Hi! Marie here.To continue.Patrick stayed with me overnight & no! we didn`t have sex.I think he stayed to asure himself that i would not do it again.The next morning when i sobered up i appologized to him for hurting him & saying bad things to him.He understood.He made me swear not to try that again,so i promised.Keep that promise even today.Don`t drink anymore cuse if i did that would be it.Since my mom died last year i have been very fragile mentaly.Thank`s for understanding.Wish you the best.
underloved1 4 months ago
Hi! girl.Marie here.Quite the rough spot you had to go through in such a short time.But you were resourceful and you got your life back on track.I envy you.Your troubles are behind you.Mine will never leave.Sexualy abused as a child,raped at 23.Went to school starving most of the time,did poorly.Rumaged for tins of food in anA&P dumpster as a child.Been through too much already.You are young & have a great future ahead of you.I have is a scar accross my soul & one word in my mind sucide.Sorry.
underloved1 4 months ago
@underloved1 Having also been a rape victim (at age 21) and having come within literally a step of jumping off a 153 ft bridge, I can somewhat empathize. Regardless of your past, I hope that you will eventually be able to live out the rest of your days to their fullest extent and one day finally be happy.
Butterflyhugs69 4 months ago
@Butterflyhugs69 Sorry to hear you went through some of the hell i did.You understand the emotionnal pain i go through each day & how deep it hurts.After my rape tried to commit sucide (failed!) a close friend noticed i was acting strange,followed me home broke my door & caught me about to slit my wrists.Patrick was his name.He held me tight in his arms.I struggled hard(kicked punched yelled at him)to let me die.He just held on tighter until i ran out of steam.I live but still feel the pain.
underloved1 4 months ago
@underloved1 : psychic pain, pit above my stomach, just won't seem to heal wherever/whatever it is. I too, my friend have lately had that word in my mind, and various possible scenes and scenarios and continually remind myself: suicide is NOT an option---which actually makes me suffer even more to think of not having it as an option.
NeuminalMan 2 months ago
@NeuminalMan Marie here.Not an option huh! Trust me life has not finished showing you it`s ugly side.I know last friday i went through a intense depressional fit that i cut my left wrist,Not to die but to live,Have another scar to remind me how bad my life suck`s.Last night i drank until i passedout.WoW! mindless & feeling nothing great way to go through the holidays.Hope you have happyer reasons to live for.I have none.Anyways wishing you all the best,health & happynes.Take mine i don`t need it
underloved1 2 months ago
@underloved1: I have seen some pretty ugly sides of life, my friend. Anyway, when use self-torture to distract from desolation unknown I apply pressure to nerve pressure points--my only rule is do not tear the skin. Even when I feel there is nothing to live for I remind myself that this too shall pass and I carry on best I can...usually pacing figure eights endlessly.
NeuminalMan 2 months ago
@underloved1: like you, life also dealt me a pretty shitty hand: mom enters mental hospital when I was born, my older sister, only sibling, and also surrogate mother murdered at 15 when I was 12, my mom returned to the mental hospital, my dad went into a lifelong unipolar depression, they separated and I was left hugging a pillow in a state of shock.
NeuminalMan 2 months ago
@NeuminalMan Marie here.My memories of my childhood were like you not happy ones.My mom had 10 kids,3girls & 6 boys.She had 3 mental breakdowns where we were placed in foster homes on farms.Contry folk can be crule.Do your chores & you get to eat,don`t & you don`t.Luckly i was anorexic then so food depravation was a joke to me.Sad to hear about your sister seems you have a lot more pain to deal with than me.Hated my dad at 10 he almost killed me & hurt my mom bad.Wishing you better life.Huggs
underloved1 2 months ago
@underloved1: Thank you, Marie...I wish you well and I hope your life fills with joyous experiences and that you find comfort during the bad ones.
NeuminalMan 1 month ago
@NeuminalMan Marie here.The scars on my left wrist & other places are there to punish me for letting somone hurt me & not hurting them back.Each one is there to remind me who & why i did it.I am not proud of them.I am tired of living like this.Was not born to be someones whipping boy.My scars are also a cry out for help & a warning to others that if they continue to hurt me i am not afraid to slit my wrist & bleed all over them.They get the message & backoff.Just don`t care anymore.Sorry.
underloved1 2 months ago
HURRAY PS!! I was thinking of moving to Portland, but when I decided to come out, I also decided it would probably be better if I stayed here. At least for now.
Netheeros 4 months ago
@Netheeros If you have a nice support system, then I can understand wanting to stay around that. There was absolutely nothing keeping me on the East Coast though.
Butterflyhugs69 4 months ago
@Butterflyhugs69 for me I have almost nothing really drawing me to Portland other then the fact that I love the weather and the city. There's lots of opportunity there, but nothing that draws me. Accept for the independent film world!! Portland's the indie film capitol :)
Netheeros 4 months ago
you rock girl keep them positive vibes going and don't let people who can't understand you get down
antsim111 4 months ago 2
You have amazed me and humbled me with your life's story. I wanted to cry for you i felt so bad over how your folks were treating you and i actually got mad at them ,but all thru your video you smiled and seemed so happy.I truly hope you are happy now and i wish you the best! takcare of yourself .As for living in your car in the frozen winter (new england) i have also done that and like you i will never forget it either .be good hugs Jenny
jennjelly 4 months ago
@jennjelly Sorry for making you sad! I actually left out the parts about eating disorders and being sexually assaulted because I didn't want to seem like too much of a debbie-downer, lol. I am happy now, or I'm at least well on my way there. Warm sentiments like yours definitely help :)
Butterflyhugs69 4 months ago 2
You should write a book or something, ypur story is almost unreal. Hope to see more of you in the near future
newkie2008 4 months ago 7
Hi Kristy,
Thanks for sharing your transition story so far. I'm around the same amount of time in transition as you are although my story is very different as I'm twenty years older than yourself. You are an inspiring young lady who's had a rough time of things. I'm so very glad that you seem to have turned a corner in your life now and pray to God that things continue to look up for up you as your life unfolds. You're a beautiful, resilient person and very sweet. Good luck to you princess.
luther505 4 months ago
Hi you are very beautiful, kiss
galo52 4 months ago
Hi Chrissy,
Thank you for sharing your story and just wanted to tell you that I'm glad that everything is going well in your life now.
I also wanted to tell you that you are a beautiful/attractive person. Keep being the way you are.
dcwrxb 4 months ago
@dcwrxb Thanks :) I don't intend to change anytime soon. And just to clarify, it's Kristy...sometimes it doesn't come out right if I'm talking too fast. (I have a hard time with the word "grasp" too--always sounds like "grass")
Butterflyhugs69 4 months ago
Thank you for sharing. I admire your strength and resilience.
MsArdhanari 4 months ago