I know how you feel, i was almost home-bound myself for the same reason. As i would walk into a store i would start to sweat profusely and get the feeling of black-out. They put me on paxil and not sure if thats what "cured" it but after stopping it i had debilitating head-aches that would drop me to my knees from the withdrawals. Tho i still have trouble with personal conversation so not fully cured but at least can do my daily functions.
I had panic attacks for many years, maybe since i was about 13 or years old. The agoraphobia part began about 3 years ago. I would freak out and not want to go out and when i did it took me hours to get up and go. I did therapy for several months and did hypnotherapy. I don't have those issues anymore. My marriage to did take a hit from this.
PA's and gen. anxiety & are pretty damned :safe, don't screw you up w/ right dose. Tbh, just watching the rest of your vid & how you describe the PA's. It matbcd Amygdala in your brain's switched to "ON". I lived through this, I can guarantee you. You used the anti-orgasm to explain, mine was: Imagine skydiving, you jump out @ 35K ft, pull the cord and the entire pack flies off, reserve & all. That fear felt atm atmvw describes it's intensity, but you keep falling but it never ends. Terra firn
Like you said, you can probably make things a little better, but that's about it at this point. There's far deeper roots with this stuff, but it never hurts to learn about yourself during the process.
Techniques like EFT, thought stopping/replacing, meditation & specific breathing exercises help to varying degrees depending on the person, instructor and issues related the root problems, which may also be partly or mostly organic. Anxyolitic anti anxiety medicines work extremely well for the p
So, definitely do work on your thought life and learn about the mind on your own time, but keep fighting for proper therapeutic, self empowering treatment(s) from those whose skills, training & expertise are exactly what's needed, no matter how much some others, even so called professionals, try to or unintentionally discourage you or try to place the entire job into your hands when it's their job and expertise to lead you down that road properly so that one day you CAN & WILL be able to do so.
against it when it comes to serious life altering, consuming & debilitating situations as you're describing.
Sorry to take up so many comments but so many things came to mind hearing what you said and it made me want to at the very least let you know you're not as alone in this mess as it may seem. As well as the fact it can get much better and life become very close to "normal", no matter how bleak it often seems at times. Probably too often based on just the little I've seen & heard from yo
myself have said many times before, practically word for word; Being told it's all in your melon, having a therapist not only not quite helping but putting the blame/pressure on YOU for not "making yourself well" with your mind (that's actually a deceptively cruel ideology eerily similar to the concepts of Faith Healing... Most likely your therapist truly does not mean to be cruel, just doesn't realize what that philosophy does to most).
Some get lucky with that stuff, sure, but the odds are a
@taintedbeautifully Interesting how I ended up here from watching the Royal Scots Dragoon Guards performing "The Gael" on bagpipes just a few videos back... Ahh, the wonders of YT.
The first vid of yours I just watched was from approx. two years ago, you explained a few things you were going through so I skimmed the comments, then looked for updates to see how things are going now.
I clicked this one and had to stop about 3 1/2 minutes in because you'd already said about 10 things that I my
@TaintedBeautifully Unfortunately theres no easy way to get better quick....unless you pop a few percoset's that works for me...but like I want to be an addict,Im already an alcoholic.
exposure therapy is the only way,and that suck's because you have to force yourself to do what fears you the most...but little by little,it gets easier....
Ive been housebound for the last 3 months though....the crap comes back if you dont keep up on it...it SUCKS
trust me you are having a panic attack. heart problems (wtf). and yes i have been there with people telling me to fix it with my mind and just snap out of it. oh i love it all.
Your not alone, & i also hate it when they say that we can change the way we think,well like you said if we could then we would, & i too would give birth a million times over instead of having this panic disorder. since i started having panic attacks fully was sept 1989 & since then i was able to come out of my shell only to be thrown back in my shell again, it seems i get better the bad then worse, now i am totally housebound. your not alone.
The thing that scared me about taking pills, is that they say your symptoms get worse when you first take them which is what scared me the most, but i found this not to be true. I tried Escitalopram but it didn't make any diference. I may try prozac, i've got 2 full different branded boxes from a couple of years ago. Good luck to you.
Hi, i suffer from the same as you, the problem is that our mind is very powerful, so if it's telling us to panic we can't just try and be positive to get out of it. If that was the case there would never be any mental problems or addiction. That councilor sounds useless, good luck finding a good one.
u are not alone!!! I have had them and they are not fun. I have been taking meds zoloft for 10 years and it seems to help. u are strong and can do it I'm on my other channel i also have a video on aniety: Take care
I feel so badly for you! U won't try anti-anxiety meds even 4 a short time? Therapists who tell u u can cure urself should be fired. U can't do this alone. But you'll get better - keep fighting!
What goes through your mind before going Outside? Is it fear of another panic attack or what people might think? What triggers your attacks, cause they don't just come from nowhere. What's interesting anxiety is easy to cure, but hard to do. Idk, I'm just to a point in my life where im just sick of this shit. We make something so small so big.
Panic attacks are a biochemical imbalance of the brain. Seeing a psychologist doesn't help. See a psychiatrist. They can help you with medication. Please be ok with medication because living without it is a living hell. I suffered for 23 years without medication, raised a daughter, and was married. Finally I became agoraphobic for 6 months. Antidepressants help but take 3 weeks to kick in.
@silentjealousy77 Overheated is a big one for me. Standing I get dizzy sometimes, even black out for a few secs. Haven't noticed the full stomach connection though.
Next april it will be 5 years since I've left the rd i live on, I'm way out in the country I never could get anyone from mental health to come to me though. Me and my fiancée are facing foreclosure at the end of the month! Can you pm me first, I can't I'm on mobile.
@BrnEyedAsh If you have moible facebook look me up... facebook.com/Stormi.Clonts It might be easier to talk on there. I could only imagine how stressed you are!
Demi response # 3...I would not even wish this on my worst enemy. I have a 2 and a half year old son too, and have said the same thing that i would give birth over and over to make this go away. Did you have an epidural? I got one and then freaked out because i was scared of it, so had a panic attack while in labor YAY! Well best wishes, you can watch my vid on this i u want.. Im here to talk to too, hope that epiphany happens for you. END
@chrisdemjohnson Oh no :( Sorry to hear you're going threw this crap too. It's extremely horrible! No, I didn't have an epidural. I wasn't even at a hospital. I gave birth in my tub lol I had 2 midwives here helping me. There was NO way I could have went to the hospital. I never even seen a doctor during my pregnancy. It was a pretty hard thing to go threw. If you ever need to talk just message me. I'm always online! I'm going to go check out your videos right now :)
Demi response #2... I came to the point of suicide contemplation because i figured no life was better than this life. I know thats horrible to say but I got over that phase until next time. When i went to the doctor for this she thought i was on drugs! I was like b**ch I am terrified of life already u think imma take drugs, im sure that would kill me! made me so mad. I do not think anyone understands this unless they have been through it because the horror is unexplainable.... continued...
Demi response #1...hey, they last panic attack i had was they same as u stated where it reached a max and then decreased for a couple of seconds then increased again, it did this for hours. I just knew i was finally going to die and that i was never coming back to reality. when it finally came down i didn't feel the same for so long as always, but this time it was more intense and hard to cope with... contiued..
little everyday, you will start to see some imporovement. There is no magic cure! If there was one I would have found it by now. You will improve! I am praying for you
I have had agoraphobiawith panic disorder since I was 15, I am now 31. It is a life of complete hell. I can relate in every way. I have tried meds, by try I tried aboutlike you , took one and then went nuts all day long thinking I was having side effect. What worked best for me was alcohol. So, I started drinking a little here and there when I was anxious, and now I am an alcoholic, so I would not recomend trying that.
Also, if you try to get yourself out of your confort zone little by
:( The story where you said you were having fun with your friends outside and then suddenly you got agoraphobia made me feel so sad. its like de va vu hun. I now how your feeling.... urgh i feel like a vampire who never sees sunlight and its also taking its toll on my mental and physical health. xxxxx
"Why don't you just take a liquid" LOL i can't believe someone said that. My psychologist was trying to "fix" me with relaxation therapy, didn't work ofc, when i told my psychiatrist about it, he said "ofc it didn't work, they don't work, you have an anxiety disorder it needs something stronger" So he prescribed me meds. They have helped me, so if you can find someone to prescribe you something, don't be affraid, some anxiety disorders can't be fixed just by ourselves or by mind power. Take Care
Most (not all) specialists aren't any good, as long as they get their paycheck at the end of the day....they could care less about their patients. Side effects of psychological drugs are scary to think about; I can't understand how some people take them without a fear. It really depends on the person really...one day i'm sure you can do it. It's tough though, good luck with your progress.
you the absolute best of luck. I hope you find a therapist that can understand what you're saying and what you mean. I know it's a super hard challenge. I just wanted to send some encouragement your way. Your videos helped me a lot when I was in the pits of this thing and felt like I was alone in it.
I am doing a lot better now and am actually in my last year getting my associate's as an RN. With health related panic, I never thought I could do it. I thought my panic was the absolute worst and no therapist was able to help me at all. With a bit of medication and (for me what helped was going to Church) - no self help books or anything else did it for me and I have a library to prove it. I understand what you mean when you say your panic didn't go down, mine didn't either. I just want to wish
@shimmercoconut I did try CBT for years - 4 or 5 I think and I didn't make much progress with it because I was too anxious to focus. I ended up not being able to take the SSRI's because of side effects so I take a low dose benzo once a day. For me, it's completely eliminated my panic inducing symptoms. I still struggle with stress and anxiety - I don't think it will ever disappear, but it's so much better now. I wish everyone luck dealing with this, it is truly the pits!!
I am so sorry you're going through this! I found your videos back when I was suffering with agoraphobia/panic disorder for 4 years. I had a very hard time finding therapists that were helpful and could understand. Change does occur in the mind, but I think sometimes (at least for me), I needed a little bit of medication to help get me out of total panic freak out mode 24/7. You can't concentrate in that state let alone control it with your mind when the main thought is I'm going to die....
I can relate to you, I am also afraid of taking medication and I feel as if I am just being silly, stupid whatever for not being able to take meds. I stopped looking at the side effects b/c I am only scaring myself. The only good advice I have is to take like 1/4 of the pill and build it up, do not take the 10mg or whatever they prescribe. You were so brave in taking the 10mg of prozac but that was prob. too much for you to take at once. If you can get a 5mg prescription and cut it in fourths
I hope you don't mind me asking what self-help books have you read? I know that I had read a couple but they didn't really get me out of the house. "Hope and Help for Your Nerves" gave me the fundamental tools and understanding to start venturing out after being housebound for 4 months. Everyone is different though - if you don't find that book absolutely compelling in the first 10 pages, then it might not be your type. I personally read it in a heartbeat. Good luck!
I've been struggling with it for most my life. I find it helps me to search out something to distract my mind away from the panic. Doesn't make it go away but does lesson the intensity of the panic attack and seems to shorten how long it lasts
Hey sweetie, hang in their, i know this is tough. Sadly these medications is all about trial and error. One thing that my psychiatrist did which really helped me in coping and taking the medication is starting at a very low dose and gradually increasing it every 2 weeks to a therapeutic dose, so my body was able to adjust to side effects and i was not as scared. So maybe try cutting the pill in half for week if the pill dose is to high, and i agree, you do need a new counselor.hang in there!
@Desimakeuplover try a benzodizapine such as klonopin or xanax, it kicks in about 15 for me, when i am about to feel a panic attack, and low dose of an SSRI like prozac to start, so if you were prescribed 20, take half the first week, so you slowly adjust to 20mg and will not be scared of the effects because your body will be used to the pill. I did that with my SSRI, and i was on a benzo as well for my agoraphobia. I know this isn't easy and uncomfortable. just baby steps! you will get there.
Ha, I can totally relate to everything you say. Also with the medicine issues. In fact, I think (hope for you) that I may have it even much worse than you, at least I never heard of a case as extreme as mine when it comes to such fears. (Although I think there may be others out there with the same problem. For me, it basically also is quite an eating disorder, ie I can only eat few things and products that I trust most of the time.) - However, have you read Claire Weekes' book already?
You are amazing in the vlog... You're really feisty, completely different how i've ever seen you before. I watched your first ever vlog the other day and to be honest, it's no wonder you have panic attacks/agoraphobia. I was like you, i had several PA's before the last major one that resulted in agoraphobia. Like i said before, i know how you feel, i was roombound and taking care of a baby...it is REALLY hard... My panic attacks are completely body consuming too.
I'm right there with you. What people seem to forget is that it is a PHOBIA. Phobias don't respond to logic. You can't just talk yourself out of it (most of the time). I'm lucky that I do have some "safe" people, but sometimes even that doesn't help. It's so day-to-day; one day I can run up to the store and be fine, the next I'm too afraid to even leave my bedroom. So frustrating... Hang in there, sweetie! (And say "fuck" all you want. lol Sometimes no other word quite covers it. :))
I myself refused to take medication for some time because I didn't know what it was gonna do to me. So I came to the conclusion, I'm already feeling like shit, I've reached my max, so no side effect or reaction is gonna surpass the hell im already going through...so think of it that way.
i have acute panic disorder and agoraphobia. im similar to you..in alot of ways. Ive gone through the ringer with shrinks and pills. U know what helped me when i was about 25 , I confided in my regular doctor about my issues, and the different pills i iwas given. U know what? he prescibed me clonazepam and zoloft, and im 33 now and been on them ever since. Ive been upped over the yrs. Now 150mg zoloft and 6 mg clonapin. It helps but it doesnt make it completely stop., If u want to talk email me.
in the medication, your brain chemicals can stabilize. You cannot fix a chemical imbalance by just telling yourself, OK I AM OK NOW. Any psychiatrist that tells you that should have their license taken away!
I think it's like the feeling of being on a really really scary ride at an amusement park. Imagine that feeling, but you're not on any physical ride. We're on a ride called life. It's a chemical imbalance in the brain. A good phsychiatrist can help you with medication. I KNOW you're scared shitless to take a med. You need to learn as much as you can about one specific one and let that one help you. Allow yourself to take the medication. Learn to trust it. Once you gain the trust...part 2
OMG, i know exactly how you feel. I dont have a 'safe' person either, so it makes it no easier to go outside at all, my anxiety is exactly the same if i have someone safe with me or not, and i also have the 24 hr a day anxiety..If one more person says to me that it is all in my mind i will shoot them (if i am having a good day and can go outside to do it) LOL xx
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I know how you feel, i was almost home-bound myself for the same reason. As i would walk into a store i would start to sweat profusely and get the feeling of black-out. They put me on paxil and not sure if thats what "cured" it but after stopping it i had debilitating head-aches that would drop me to my knees from the withdrawals. Tho i still have trouble with personal conversation so not fully cured but at least can do my daily functions.
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I had panic attacks for many years, maybe since i was about 13 or years old. The agoraphobia part began about 3 years ago. I would freak out and not want to go out and when i did it took me hours to get up and go. I did therapy for several months and did hypnotherapy. I don't have those issues anymore. My marriage to did take a hit from this.
JD10142002 2 months ago
| stay strong . i knoe it suck`s . ! i had my anixty for a year now but my aint that bad . ! ! ! wait what area do u live around ?
thanie18 2 months ago
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N1k1mon 2 months ago
PA's and gen. anxiety & are pretty damned :safe, don't screw you up w/ right dose. Tbh, just watching the rest of your vid & how you describe the PA's. It matbcd Amygdala in your brain's switched to "ON". I lived through this, I can guarantee you. You used the anti-orgasm to explain, mine was: Imagine skydiving, you jump out @ 35K ft, pull the cord and the entire pack flies off, reserve & all. That fear felt atm atmvw describes it's intensity, but you keep falling but it never ends. Terra firn
N1k1mon 2 months ago
Like you said, you can probably make things a little better, but that's about it at this point. There's far deeper roots with this stuff, but it never hurts to learn about yourself during the process.
Techniques like EFT, thought stopping/replacing, meditation & specific breathing exercises help to varying degrees depending on the person, instructor and issues related the root problems, which may also be partly or mostly organic. Anxyolitic anti anxiety medicines work extremely well for the p
N1k1mon 2 months ago
So, definitely do work on your thought life and learn about the mind on your own time, but keep fighting for proper therapeutic, self empowering treatment(s) from those whose skills, training & expertise are exactly what's needed, no matter how much some others, even so called professionals, try to or unintentionally discourage you or try to place the entire job into your hands when it's their job and expertise to lead you down that road properly so that one day you CAN & WILL be able to do so.
N1k1mon 2 months ago
against it when it comes to serious life altering, consuming & debilitating situations as you're describing.
Sorry to take up so many comments but so many things came to mind hearing what you said and it made me want to at the very least let you know you're not as alone in this mess as it may seem. As well as the fact it can get much better and life become very close to "normal", no matter how bleak it often seems at times. Probably too often based on just the little I've seen & heard from yo
N1k1mon 2 months ago
myself have said many times before, practically word for word; Being told it's all in your melon, having a therapist not only not quite helping but putting the blame/pressure on YOU for not "making yourself well" with your mind (that's actually a deceptively cruel ideology eerily similar to the concepts of Faith Healing... Most likely your therapist truly does not mean to be cruel, just doesn't realize what that philosophy does to most).
Some get lucky with that stuff, sure, but the odds are a
N1k1mon 2 months ago
@taintedbeautifully Interesting how I ended up here from watching the Royal Scots Dragoon Guards performing "The Gael" on bagpipes just a few videos back... Ahh, the wonders of YT.
The first vid of yours I just watched was from approx. two years ago, you explained a few things you were going through so I skimmed the comments, then looked for updates to see how things are going now.
I clicked this one and had to stop about 3 1/2 minutes in because you'd already said about 10 things that I my
N1k1mon 2 months ago
I use to get panic attacks every night for years and they were exactly how you described yours.
noobarnoo 2 months ago
@noobarnoo How'd you get over it?
TaintedBeautifully 2 months ago
@TaintedBeautifully Unfortunately theres no easy way to get better quick....unless you pop a few percoset's that works for me...but like I want to be an addict,Im already an alcoholic.
exposure therapy is the only way,and that suck's because you have to force yourself to do what fears you the most...but little by little,it gets easier....
Ive been housebound for the last 3 months though....the crap comes back if you dont keep up on it...it SUCKS
dragonslayerED30 2 weeks ago
trust me you are having a panic attack. heart problems (wtf). and yes i have been there with people telling me to fix it with my mind and just snap out of it. oh i love it all.
MYHUMAN68 3 months ago
Your not alone, & i also hate it when they say that we can change the way we think,well like you said if we could then we would, & i too would give birth a million times over instead of having this panic disorder. since i started having panic attacks fully was sept 1989 & since then i was able to come out of my shell only to be thrown back in my shell again, it seems i get better the bad then worse, now i am totally housebound. your not alone.
kellafornia1964 4 months ago
The thing that scared me about taking pills, is that they say your symptoms get worse when you first take them which is what scared me the most, but i found this not to be true. I tried Escitalopram but it didn't make any diference. I may try prozac, i've got 2 full different branded boxes from a couple of years ago. Good luck to you.
MrBRL 4 months ago
Hi, i suffer from the same as you, the problem is that our mind is very powerful, so if it's telling us to panic we can't just try and be positive to get out of it. If that was the case there would never be any mental problems or addiction. That councilor sounds useless, good luck finding a good one.
MrBRL 4 months ago
u are not alone!!! I have had them and they are not fun. I have been taking meds zoloft for 10 years and it seems to help. u are strong and can do it I'm on my other channel i also have a video on aniety: Take care
shema1247 4 months ago
I feel so badly for you! U won't try anti-anxiety meds even 4 a short time? Therapists who tell u u can cure urself should be fired. U can't do this alone. But you'll get better - keep fighting!
jenniferkvikre 4 months ago
What goes through your mind before going Outside? Is it fear of another panic attack or what people might think? What triggers your attacks, cause they don't just come from nowhere. What's interesting anxiety is easy to cure, but hard to do. Idk, I'm just to a point in my life where im just sick of this shit. We make something so small so big.
86Alterity 4 months ago
@86Alterity I have a fear of another attack/dying. I could give 2 shits about what others think of me.
TaintedBeautifully 4 months ago
Panic attacks are a biochemical imbalance of the brain. Seeing a psychologist doesn't help. See a psychiatrist. They can help you with medication. Please be ok with medication because living without it is a living hell. I suffered for 23 years without medication, raised a daughter, and was married. Finally I became agoraphobic for 6 months. Antidepressants help but take 3 weeks to kick in.
lenegal77 4 months ago
Do you have more panic attacks when you are standing, overheated or full stomach?
silentjealousy77 4 months ago
@silentjealousy77 Overheated is a big one for me. Standing I get dizzy sometimes, even black out for a few secs. Haven't noticed the full stomach connection though.
TaintedBeautifully 4 months ago
Next april it will be 5 years since I've left the rd i live on, I'm way out in the country I never could get anyone from mental health to come to me though. Me and my fiancée are facing foreclosure at the end of the month! Can you pm me first, I can't I'm on mobile.
BrnEyedAsh 4 months ago
@BrnEyedAsh If you have moible facebook look me up... facebook.com/Stormi.Clonts It might be easier to talk on there. I could only imagine how stressed you are!
TaintedBeautifully 4 months ago
Demi response # 3...I would not even wish this on my worst enemy. I have a 2 and a half year old son too, and have said the same thing that i would give birth over and over to make this go away. Did you have an epidural? I got one and then freaked out because i was scared of it, so had a panic attack while in labor YAY! Well best wishes, you can watch my vid on this i u want.. Im here to talk to too, hope that epiphany happens for you. END
chrisdemjohnson 4 months ago
@chrisdemjohnson Oh no :( Sorry to hear you're going threw this crap too. It's extremely horrible! No, I didn't have an epidural. I wasn't even at a hospital. I gave birth in my tub lol I had 2 midwives here helping me. There was NO way I could have went to the hospital. I never even seen a doctor during my pregnancy. It was a pretty hard thing to go threw. If you ever need to talk just message me. I'm always online! I'm going to go check out your videos right now :)
TaintedBeautifully 4 months ago
Demi response #2... I came to the point of suicide contemplation because i figured no life was better than this life. I know thats horrible to say but I got over that phase until next time. When i went to the doctor for this she thought i was on drugs! I was like b**ch I am terrified of life already u think imma take drugs, im sure that would kill me! made me so mad. I do not think anyone understands this unless they have been through it because the horror is unexplainable.... continued...
chrisdemjohnson 4 months ago
Demi response #1...hey, they last panic attack i had was they same as u stated where it reached a max and then decreased for a couple of seconds then increased again, it did this for hours. I just knew i was finally going to die and that i was never coming back to reality. when it finally came down i didn't feel the same for so long as always, but this time it was more intense and hard to cope with... contiued..
chrisdemjohnson 4 months ago
little everyday, you will start to see some imporovement. There is no magic cure! If there was one I would have found it by now. You will improve! I am praying for you
ATouchOfSanity 4 months ago
I have had agoraphobiawith panic disorder since I was 15, I am now 31. It is a life of complete hell. I can relate in every way. I have tried meds, by try I tried aboutlike you , took one and then went nuts all day long thinking I was having side effect. What worked best for me was alcohol. So, I started drinking a little here and there when I was anxious, and now I am an alcoholic, so I would not recomend trying that.
Also, if you try to get yourself out of your confort zone little by
ATouchOfSanity 4 months ago
:( The story where you said you were having fun with your friends outside and then suddenly you got agoraphobia made me feel so sad. its like de va vu hun. I now how your feeling.... urgh i feel like a vampire who never sees sunlight and its also taking its toll on my mental and physical health. xxxxx
mekissingyou 4 months ago
"Why don't you just take a liquid" LOL i can't believe someone said that. My psychologist was trying to "fix" me with relaxation therapy, didn't work ofc, when i told my psychiatrist about it, he said "ofc it didn't work, they don't work, you have an anxiety disorder it needs something stronger" So he prescribed me meds. They have helped me, so if you can find someone to prescribe you something, don't be affraid, some anxiety disorders can't be fixed just by ourselves or by mind power. Take Care
BarelyNoticeable 4 months ago
Dont have to answer and im sorry if it seems 'rude' but have you ever/ do you ever have a panic attack while making love/ sex?
Reneelawrence666 4 months ago
Most (not all) specialists aren't any good, as long as they get their paycheck at the end of the day....they could care less about their patients. Side effects of psychological drugs are scary to think about; I can't understand how some people take them without a fear. It really depends on the person really...one day i'm sure you can do it. It's tough though, good luck with your progress.
hatagata 4 months ago
you the absolute best of luck. I hope you find a therapist that can understand what you're saying and what you mean. I know it's a super hard challenge. I just wanted to send some encouragement your way. Your videos helped me a lot when I was in the pits of this thing and felt like I was alone in it.
yarbs83 4 months ago
I am doing a lot better now and am actually in my last year getting my associate's as an RN. With health related panic, I never thought I could do it. I thought my panic was the absolute worst and no therapist was able to help me at all. With a bit of medication and (for me what helped was going to Church) - no self help books or anything else did it for me and I have a library to prove it. I understand what you mean when you say your panic didn't go down, mine didn't either. I just want to wish
yarbs83 4 months ago
@yarbs83 that is amazing that you have overcome the agor/panic. What meds did you use? Did you use CBT? Congrats on almost graduating:)
shimmercoconut 4 months ago
@shimmercoconut I did try CBT for years - 4 or 5 I think and I didn't make much progress with it because I was too anxious to focus. I ended up not being able to take the SSRI's because of side effects so I take a low dose benzo once a day. For me, it's completely eliminated my panic inducing symptoms. I still struggle with stress and anxiety - I don't think it will ever disappear, but it's so much better now. I wish everyone luck dealing with this, it is truly the pits!!
yarbs83 4 months ago
@yarbs83 That's awesome though! I'm glad to see that yours is under control! :) Which benzo are you taking?
TaintedBeautifully 4 months ago
I am so sorry you're going through this! I found your videos back when I was suffering with agoraphobia/panic disorder for 4 years. I had a very hard time finding therapists that were helpful and could understand. Change does occur in the mind, but I think sometimes (at least for me), I needed a little bit of medication to help get me out of total panic freak out mode 24/7. You can't concentrate in that state let alone control it with your mind when the main thought is I'm going to die....
yarbs83 4 months ago
I can relate to you, I am also afraid of taking medication and I feel as if I am just being silly, stupid whatever for not being able to take meds. I stopped looking at the side effects b/c I am only scaring myself. The only good advice I have is to take like 1/4 of the pill and build it up, do not take the 10mg or whatever they prescribe. You were so brave in taking the 10mg of prozac but that was prob. too much for you to take at once. If you can get a 5mg prescription and cut it in fourths
shimmercoconut 4 months ago
I hope you don't mind me asking what self-help books have you read? I know that I had read a couple but they didn't really get me out of the house. "Hope and Help for Your Nerves" gave me the fundamental tools and understanding to start venturing out after being housebound for 4 months. Everyone is different though - if you don't find that book absolutely compelling in the first 10 pages, then it might not be your type. I personally read it in a heartbeat. Good luck!
rosevalley0110 4 months ago
I've been struggling with it for most my life. I find it helps me to search out something to distract my mind away from the panic. Doesn't make it go away but does lesson the intensity of the panic attack and seems to shorten how long it lasts
LupusLife 4 months ago
Hey sweetie, hang in their, i know this is tough. Sadly these medications is all about trial and error. One thing that my psychiatrist did which really helped me in coping and taking the medication is starting at a very low dose and gradually increasing it every 2 weeks to a therapeutic dose, so my body was able to adjust to side effects and i was not as scared. So maybe try cutting the pill in half for week if the pill dose is to high, and i agree, you do need a new counselor.hang in there!
Desimakeuplover 4 months ago
@Desimakeuplover try a benzodizapine such as klonopin or xanax, it kicks in about 15 for me, when i am about to feel a panic attack, and low dose of an SSRI like prozac to start, so if you were prescribed 20, take half the first week, so you slowly adjust to 20mg and will not be scared of the effects because your body will be used to the pill. I did that with my SSRI, and i was on a benzo as well for my agoraphobia. I know this isn't easy and uncomfortable. just baby steps! you will get there.
Desimakeuplover 4 months ago
Ha, I can totally relate to everything you say. Also with the medicine issues. In fact, I think (hope for you) that I may have it even much worse than you, at least I never heard of a case as extreme as mine when it comes to such fears. (Although I think there may be others out there with the same problem. For me, it basically also is quite an eating disorder, ie I can only eat few things and products that I trust most of the time.) - However, have you read Claire Weekes' book already?
itekisan 4 months ago
@itekisan No I haven't read any. I've heard they're really good. Do you have any suggestions as to which one I should read first?
TaintedBeautifully 4 months ago
@TaintedBeautifully I read "Hope and Help for Your Nerves" and found it really great, the best of the many books I have read over the past 15 years!
itekisan 4 months ago
You are amazing in the vlog... You're really feisty, completely different how i've ever seen you before. I watched your first ever vlog the other day and to be honest, it's no wonder you have panic attacks/agoraphobia. I was like you, i had several PA's before the last major one that resulted in agoraphobia. Like i said before, i know how you feel, i was roombound and taking care of a baby...it is REALLY hard... My panic attacks are completely body consuming too.
beingsarahc 4 months ago
I'm right there with you. What people seem to forget is that it is a PHOBIA. Phobias don't respond to logic. You can't just talk yourself out of it (most of the time). I'm lucky that I do have some "safe" people, but sometimes even that doesn't help. It's so day-to-day; one day I can run up to the store and be fine, the next I'm too afraid to even leave my bedroom. So frustrating... Hang in there, sweetie! (And say "fuck" all you want. lol Sometimes no other word quite covers it. :))
PrisonKilljoy 4 months ago 3
I myself refused to take medication for some time because I didn't know what it was gonna do to me. So I came to the conclusion, I'm already feeling like shit, I've reached my max, so no side effect or reaction is gonna surpass the hell im already going through...so think of it that way.
LETmeLIVElifeANXIETY 4 months ago
I feel you...
722amoregmaeda 4 months ago
i have acute panic disorder and agoraphobia. im similar to you..in alot of ways. Ive gone through the ringer with shrinks and pills. U know what helped me when i was about 25 , I confided in my regular doctor about my issues, and the different pills i iwas given. U know what? he prescibed me clonazepam and zoloft, and im 33 now and been on them ever since. Ive been upped over the yrs. Now 150mg zoloft and 6 mg clonapin. It helps but it doesnt make it completely stop., If u want to talk email me.
chizzlemang 4 months ago
in the medication, your brain chemicals can stabilize. You cannot fix a chemical imbalance by just telling yourself, OK I AM OK NOW. Any psychiatrist that tells you that should have their license taken away!
Purrrsuasive1 4 months ago
I think it's like the feeling of being on a really really scary ride at an amusement park. Imagine that feeling, but you're not on any physical ride. We're on a ride called life. It's a chemical imbalance in the brain. A good phsychiatrist can help you with medication. I KNOW you're scared shitless to take a med. You need to learn as much as you can about one specific one and let that one help you. Allow yourself to take the medication. Learn to trust it. Once you gain the trust...part 2
Purrrsuasive1 4 months ago
OMG, i know exactly how you feel. I dont have a 'safe' person either, so it makes it no easier to go outside at all, my anxiety is exactly the same if i have someone safe with me or not, and i also have the 24 hr a day anxiety..If one more person says to me that it is all in my mind i will shoot them (if i am having a good day and can go outside to do it) LOL xx
schatmeisje32 4 months ago
yeah people think that. how about the whole "blindfold" yourself so you dont know whats going.
TheShootTruth10 4 months ago
@TheShootTruth10 Oh ya I've had the blindfold one told to me a bunch. Or the famous, I'll just knock you out and take you one as well. =/
TaintedBeautifully 4 months ago