I know what you are talking about. I feel like a lot of people that experience this are very similar in the way they think. I've had patches of this on and off since I was little, i'm 23 now. I'm actually doing well and feel like myself more. I am still depersonalised but if anything this gives me better understanding of life in general.
I reckon that weed slows down time for us, and we realise things that we can't control. The best thing is combine the depers. and the *you* in your consciousnes
I have been ytubing like crazy to try and figure out what has been happening to me everytime I stay overnight at my boyfriends house. I do not drink, smoke, or do drugs. My bf however is a chronic weed smoker. I have depersonalization, and out of body dreams, bad, dreams, where when I wake up, I am paralysed and feel like i am out of my body. I would appreciate comments regards to second hand weed smoke, could it be a trigger?
so some days i feel like this and some days i dont its like an on an of feeling
and im not sure if you would call this denpersonalization or derealization but i dont know what else to call it or how to explain but its just like one day im here and the next day im spacing out and dont feel like my self or like i belong....and im not sure how to explain this to my mom i would try to explain it to my counceler at school but i dont think she will understand me or probably think im crazy ..
dont know if i am experiencing derealization or not. Everything just seems fake, it is like a never ending dream. It's like i'm doing something and then I'm like, "Oh shit, why did I do that " Im only 14 and I don't think I deserve to be like this. I have never done drugs, but I try sips of wine when my mom lets me. It has only been 2 days but it just feels like I can't take. I have OCD, ADHD, My family has severe panic disorders , and some of my family has depression issues.
For 8 years Ive been suffering from OCD and anxiety, and I total understand your feeling that you are caught up inside a fucked up mind! It's hell. For 8 years I've been in hell, I can't even work! And I am 26 and I could nou work because of my condition. My life is fucked up. I even let go the medicines they gave me, after taking the pills for 3 years now and now I;m doing acupuncture, after the first series i feel better, stronger, but it;s still a long way up and my patience is so thin
I once came home and was surprised at the fact that I had cats!! They didn't feel like mine... but I have had them for almost a decade... It tripped me out. They weren't mine in that moment.. Very unnerving. Was after a trying counselling session. Is this what you mean? Sometimes I can't tell if I am in Quebec or Ontario.
This destroyed my youth and more, there was no help in the eightees, got it three times, the first time i was about 6/7.This depersonalization is hell on earth, a deep dark feeling in your body, all your joy becomes a terrible sadness. Depression, anxiety attacks and an unreal feeling, i used to think i was going insane but i never did. Sport helped significant, and try to get a challenge in something how difficult that might be at the moment. Seroxat/Paxil got it out and stayed away for good.
What I'm going through is very similar to what I'm going through. I am blessed with a good job and good health insurance so i had the privilege of seeing multiple doctors and specialists (Otolaryngologists, Neurologists, Cardiologists,...) and also had many tests done including an MRI, sleep deprived EEG, equilibrium tests, and tests involving my blood pressure. EVERYONE i have seen told me I'm perfectly healthy. I'm about to start seeking help again. Thank you for sharing your story.
I remember my first "depersonalization" attack... I woke up one nnight, then everything just felt SO surreal. I would look at my hand, moves my finger and think "....Im alive? Thats my hand? I can move it?" like if I realized it for the first time. Then, Memories from the previous day played in my mind, but they didnt seem to come from my brain. It was weird.....I had flashblack in which I witnessed myself, doing actions I did in real-life, but it didnt seem it was me.
Hey girl, i also felt high the next day, and it went on and on and on. days, weeks, months, years.... 16 years... omg, u say so many things i say... watch my vids!
I have had DP for over 50 years. Beta-Blockers will help you significantly manage it. They restrict the uptake of Adrenaline which is the by-product of stress and anxiety. Atenolol (Temormin the trade name) and one of the most prescribed blood pressure medicines. This is a stress issue which you can control. It is very scary and can make you feel like your insane. The drug has very few side effects, its does lower your heart rate and will work! It was a wonder drug for me!! I do have episodes.
keep,m coming. anyone can have religious experiences because we are all made of the same stuff. like anyone wd bleed when cut, lose consciousness when hit by a car. when a religious person has these experiences in good guidance, though strange at first, they embrace it with gratutude, leading to joy. when an atheist has one, they try to reject it leading to anxeity,
I have had this for 6 years, I know how you feel, it's the worst feeling in the world. I think mine was triggered in my teenage years with my lack of relationship with my parents, going from a straight A honor student to a D-F student, smoking weed.
I thought I was insane for the longest time too, I made myself think I was starting to become schizophrenic after getting a full physical, eye check up(from the blurry visions), MRI scans and it all came out good. I just now learned it is DP..
I have had depersonalization since 10 years old and I am 29 now. I just want you to know you are not alone. There seems to be no cure at the moment but what helps me in the mean time is eating well and taking vitamins; taking care of my physical body affects the chemicals in my body, so it helps with depression and mood swings. even if you can't get off cigarettes right now, do try to eat well! Stay strong, and thank you for posting your videos, you are very courageous!
I've had dp for 6 years trust me i know what you're going through. It's like no matter what mindset you're in or way you try to be it still stays. Believe me, I'm with you in this, i'm 19 years old and in college, i'm a healthy guy with friends and go to parties and whatever but i have little to no relief. If you'd like to talk more in depth about it let me know because I know this fucking feeling like the back of my hand.
i got depersonalized after taking 10mg escitalopram for anxiety/worry. however it is only depersonalization of my left arm! Because it was due to escitalopram the problem must be with seratonin levels.....ive had it just over a week and it is awful!
best and easiest advice : get a change of scene, start addressing your smaller issues one by one and lay off all substances, within a few years youll notice a big change.
Thank you for posting. It's very brave of you to share your experiences with us. Try seeking out other sufferers. They're out there and will be able to relate to you better than health professionals who will just want to stick a label on you and put you on medication. Good luck and thanks again.
Good, intelligent video. I have the same. It really does feel like only 2% of your brain is there - the rest has 'gone'. It feels like most of your brain is actually absent, a hole. I can tell from my own experience (i am now recovering) that is IS JUST A FEELING. You are not damaged - you can get all that you once were back.
Hey I have it too. 26 year old female, had it for 9 years. Going to add you as a friend over youtube. feel free to check out my profile and let me know if you want to chat on skype. I've been trying a few things lately to get rid of this, and some things are working a little. Maybe we can compare? Would be nice to talk over the net :)
You will be ok. I'ts a temporary condition. Nothing will change if you do not change your life and build your confidence. It;s time to change, don't ignore it!
Thankyou for this I really needed it, I know exactly how you feel... I don't know how to make it go away but I know what can help.
usexsoap 1 week ago
I know what you are talking about. I feel like a lot of people that experience this are very similar in the way they think. I've had patches of this on and off since I was little, i'm 23 now. I'm actually doing well and feel like myself more. I am still depersonalised but if anything this gives me better understanding of life in general.
I reckon that weed slows down time for us, and we realise things that we can't control. The best thing is combine the depers. and the *you* in your consciousnes
lukeoca 1 week ago
I have been ytubing like crazy to try and figure out what has been happening to me everytime I stay overnight at my boyfriends house. I do not drink, smoke, or do drugs. My bf however is a chronic weed smoker. I have depersonalization, and out of body dreams, bad, dreams, where when I wake up, I am paralysed and feel like i am out of my body. I would appreciate comments regards to second hand weed smoke, could it be a trigger?
ytbrsLISTEN2LEARN 1 month ago
so some days i feel like this and some days i dont its like an on an of feeling
and im not sure if you would call this denpersonalization or derealization but i dont know what else to call it or how to explain but its just like one day im here and the next day im spacing out and dont feel like my self or like i belong....and im not sure how to explain this to my mom i would try to explain it to my counceler at school but i dont think she will understand me or probably think im crazy ..
RimaTouya180 2 months ago
im so glad im not the only one that feels like this...i think im gonna make a video as well... stay strong.
MistaMusicMan 3 months ago
yep no worse feeling, try finding religion, it has helped me.
theuropean 4 months ago
dont know if i am experiencing derealization or not. Everything just seems fake, it is like a never ending dream. It's like i'm doing something and then I'm like, "Oh shit, why did I do that " Im only 14 and I don't think I deserve to be like this. I have never done drugs, but I try sips of wine when my mom lets me. It has only been 2 days but it just feels like I can't take. I have OCD, ADHD, My family has severe panic disorders , and some of my family has depression issues.
ashleyashleyishot 4 months ago
U should not be so hard on yourself. U aren't f***ed. This video made me feel less alone. You are brave. Thank u
Angel28luv 4 months ago
i started it 2 weeks after i turned 30 sariquil helped me infact it dosent bother me anymore
986tornado 5 months ago
For 8 years Ive been suffering from OCD and anxiety, and I total understand your feeling that you are caught up inside a fucked up mind! It's hell. For 8 years I've been in hell, I can't even work! And I am 26 and I could nou work because of my condition. My life is fucked up. I even let go the medicines they gave me, after taking the pills for 3 years now and now I;m doing acupuncture, after the first series i feel better, stronger, but it;s still a long way up and my patience is so thin
oanymihai 6 months ago
I once came home and was surprised at the fact that I had cats!! They didn't feel like mine... but I have had them for almost a decade... It tripped me out. They weren't mine in that moment.. Very unnerving. Was after a trying counselling session. Is this what you mean? Sometimes I can't tell if I am in Quebec or Ontario.
brendaeileen 6 months ago
omg kind of off topic but you are georgeous! damn!
colburnpclark 8 months ago
This destroyed my youth and more, there was no help in the eightees, got it three times, the first time i was about 6/7.This depersonalization is hell on earth, a deep dark feeling in your body, all your joy becomes a terrible sadness. Depression, anxiety attacks and an unreal feeling, i used to think i was going insane but i never did. Sport helped significant, and try to get a challenge in something how difficult that might be at the moment. Seroxat/Paxil got it out and stayed away for good.
canalman 8 months ago
Does smoking cigaretes or drinking make it worse for you?
emanuelcako 8 months ago
What I'm going through is very similar to what I'm going through. I am blessed with a good job and good health insurance so i had the privilege of seeing multiple doctors and specialists (Otolaryngologists, Neurologists, Cardiologists,...) and also had many tests done including an MRI, sleep deprived EEG, equilibrium tests, and tests involving my blood pressure. EVERYONE i have seen told me I'm perfectly healthy. I'm about to start seeking help again. Thank you for sharing your story.
skatinghorse 9 months ago
Great vid, too bad it's not real! (DP/Dissociative person here >_>)
argentino39 9 months ago
@Scrumdidilyumpchious yea I feel like that to
it's so weird when outside I feel like i could get hit by car and not feel anything
DJSTUX93 9 months ago
@Scrumdidilyumpchious I know what you mean :/
Zoorah 1 year ago
I remember my first "depersonalization" attack... I woke up one nnight, then everything just felt SO surreal. I would look at my hand, moves my finger and think "....Im alive? Thats my hand? I can move it?" like if I realized it for the first time. Then, Memories from the previous day played in my mind, but they didnt seem to come from my brain. It was weird.....I had flashblack in which I witnessed myself, doing actions I did in real-life, but it didnt seem it was me.
Zoorah 1 year ago
Hey girl, i also felt high the next day, and it went on and on and on. days, weeks, months, years.... 16 years... omg, u say so many things i say... watch my vids!
unigirlb 1 year ago
Hey girl, i also felt high the next day, and it went on and on and on. days, weeks, months, years.... 16 years...
unigirlb 1 year ago
Hey girl, i also felt high the next day, and it went on and on and on.
unigirlb 1 year ago
yea, thats a part of it. I have aniexty and DPD AnD DRD for eight yrs none stop im just stuck in this mess and cant get out
cj22012wow 1 year ago
I have had DP for over 50 years. Beta-Blockers will help you significantly manage it. They restrict the uptake of Adrenaline which is the by-product of stress and anxiety. Atenolol (Temormin the trade name) and one of the most prescribed blood pressure medicines. This is a stress issue which you can control. It is very scary and can make you feel like your insane. The drug has very few side effects, its does lower your heart rate and will work! It was a wonder drug for me!! I do have episodes.
SeekingGreaterGood 1 year ago
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keep,m coming. anyone can have religious experiences because we are all made of the same stuff. like anyone wd bleed when cut, lose consciousness when hit by a car. when a religious person has these experiences in good guidance, though strange at first, they embrace it with gratutude, leading to joy. when an atheist has one, they try to reject it leading to anxeity,
mrcuteblackie 1 year ago
I have had this for 6 years, I know how you feel, it's the worst feeling in the world. I think mine was triggered in my teenage years with my lack of relationship with my parents, going from a straight A honor student to a D-F student, smoking weed.
I thought I was insane for the longest time too, I made myself think I was starting to become schizophrenic after getting a full physical, eye check up(from the blurry visions), MRI scans and it all came out good. I just now learned it is DP..
westernbaconburger 1 year ago
I have had depersonalization since 10 years old and I am 29 now. I just want you to know you are not alone. There seems to be no cure at the moment but what helps me in the mean time is eating well and taking vitamins; taking care of my physical body affects the chemicals in my body, so it helps with depression and mood swings. even if you can't get off cigarettes right now, do try to eat well! Stay strong, and thank you for posting your videos, you are very courageous!
CLH312 1 year ago
I've had dp for 6 years trust me i know what you're going through. It's like no matter what mindset you're in or way you try to be it still stays. Believe me, I'm with you in this, i'm 19 years old and in college, i'm a healthy guy with friends and go to parties and whatever but i have little to no relief. If you'd like to talk more in depth about it let me know because I know this fucking feeling like the back of my hand.
guitarszzz 1 year ago
@guitarszzz i would luv to talk to u on the phone about your im searching high and low to find sumthan to change this disorder
cj22012wow 1 year ago
i got depersonalized after taking 10mg escitalopram for anxiety/worry. however it is only depersonalization of my left arm! Because it was due to escitalopram the problem must be with seratonin levels.....ive had it just over a week and it is awful!
any tips on recovering?
kylieben 1 year ago
best and easiest advice : get a change of scene, start addressing your smaller issues one by one and lay off all substances, within a few years youll notice a big change.
TheRealReasonForDP 1 year ago
Thank you for posting. It's very brave of you to share your experiences with us. Try seeking out other sufferers. They're out there and will be able to relate to you better than health professionals who will just want to stick a label on you and put you on medication. Good luck and thanks again.
JohnD20004 1 year ago
Good, intelligent video. I have the same. It really does feel like only 2% of your brain is there - the rest has 'gone'. It feels like most of your brain is actually absent, a hole. I can tell from my own experience (i am now recovering) that is IS JUST A FEELING. You are not damaged - you can get all that you once were back.
magrathean0 1 year ago
Hey I have it too. 26 year old female, had it for 9 years. Going to add you as a friend over youtube. feel free to check out my profile and let me know if you want to chat on skype. I've been trying a few things lately to get rid of this, and some things are working a little. Maybe we can compare? Would be nice to talk over the net :)
You will be ok. I'ts a temporary condition. Nothing will change if you do not change your life and build your confidence. It;s time to change, don't ignore it!
MusicisFreedom25 1 year ago
your not alone, I feel the same way I just don't know what to think anymore.
Jamesagenda101 1 year ago