Smiling on the outside. Crying on the inside.

[elikels]

oh wow... thats how I feel pretty much everyday of my life.

[yoursugarpacket]

I felt that way in high school =( I still feel that way at times. my heart goes out to you, love.

[jazzyjake2580]

Basically describes me. :/

[mileyfan1079]

this whole thing pretty much describes me :I

[thenxtidol62]

because you'll never live life to it's fullest if you pay attention. thats what people want. they want to get a rise out of you and hurt you to feel better about themselves and it's so cruel of them but hey what can you do? just remember, as you said, you're not alone. I've dealt with this for years and i have no clue how i'm still standing here today, but i am, and you can do it too. God made everything beautiful. you are a product of god and you are beautiful. dont ever forget that

[thenxtidol62]

I know from experience, that this is no easy thing to deal with. But look at it like this, the people that are calling you these names, they don't really know you. i wrote a song recently about a situation like this the first verse is

they dont really know you

they only know to critisize

your looks and how you dress

theyll spread several nasty lies

its a difficult life passing you by

you need to give yourself the chance to fly.

Basically, you can't listen to what others say

[demiselenafan131]

this is like someone read my mind and put my feelings into words..

[A20C17B18]

I feel the same too, I'm always saying to my friend, you know you are the beautiful and then it's me :) we all laught and they say that's stupid, but it's not, it's the true, but you know, sometimes is better to laught, they say that the more you laught the longer you live, I think that's why I try to be always happy, I'm a pessimistic, seriously,but you learn to deal with what you've got and that makes you happy in a way. it's hard at the begining, it never gets easier you just get use to it ;)

[RoockGiirL23]

It's the same with me. :/

My friends tell me that I'm beautiful but the others call me ugly and fat..

I always pretending that it doesn't hurt me but when I'm alone I just cry and insult myself.

[viotwilightsagafan]

Oh... Please don't be upset. It's not that people don't tell the truth... they just can't call you fat or whatever.... because to them you are beautiful... remember... Love is blind...... :)

(I am NOT saying that you are ugly..)

[kiwi2luf]

....you because of who you are. trust me there is no law. and love. well im 18 and I have never had a boyfriend before or a firts kiss and that brought me down sometimes but I learned to live with it cause I know that someday there will be somebody who will love me for who I am. dont change yourself learn to love yourself trust me hon it will all get better and we here the fans of your writing love you :D

and my english may suck but that's cause im from Holland :P

[kiwi2luf]

it's not a problem you just have to accept yourself and the way you look. and for everything there is a solution. like me im not the thinnest girl but with a healty living and some sport I cant help it. and trust your good friends and talk to them. just the you trust the most and tell them this story you are telling us. I think it would help in so many ways. and its not a law to love you. the friends who have chosen you to be friends with they arent pushed to be friends with you no the love ....

[kiwi2luf]

I have the same problem you have so I can truely feel the pain you have and I wish it would be all that simple just to wish it all better. but maybe god made a plan for us. dont let those words get to you. and it may sound simple and easy but there just words. dont start to belive them belive in yourself and tell yourself your beautiful. and if your not flawless like the others.

I have to comment twice xD

[xTheInvisibleGurlx]

Wow. We have EXACTLY the same story.Weird but true.

One thing i learned from all of the people who teases me is.

Never give up And dont give them a sign that your being offended.

Just go one with your life and Think about how pathetic they are for judging other people. Nobody is perfect. A person have something that others dont have.

And you..well i dont know you. But i can tell you are nice and completely different from those back-stabbing liars..

Dont Let them get inside of ur head. :)!

[Aprilauthor]

Sobbing momentarily... who knew others felt the same truth.

[readingkitty1]

You may be just a "girl". But so are all of us then. You have your scars, you have your flaws. We all do. It's called imperfection. And to me, being imperfect is just about getting as close to being perfect you can be. ♥

[Thelynrose]

Wow, I actually started crying. This is exactly what I feel. I feel like my best friends are making fun of me. All my friends get the guys they want. I dont even know why Im their friend. I guess it's because Im beautiful on the inside. And Im sure you are too. :)

[kjnjonas95]

I have the same prob. My bff is goregous! She always tells me how pretty I am but until I decided tht idc wat ppl think of me only wat I think of myself I decided she's right. That I am beautiful. And so are you. Your just bashing yourself too much to realize.

[kjnjonas95]

Hunnn.. :( your beautiful in everyway. I don't even know you and I know u would never hurt someone like they hurt you! U wouldn't bully! Your already amazingly goregous on the inside and the outside? It's just low self esteem! Your probably very very pretty on the outside as well... I know what you mean bc I can relate. I'm not just sayin it to help.

[michellechivers1]

those kids say to you, while your friends tell you your beautiful believe it even though you think they are lying they are not because they see the person behind the shell and not only the shell. God made you who you are and loves you for the same reason just remember that when your time comes you are not judged by the beauty on the outside but the one on the inside, and from your writing I see a beautiful soul who in time will shine as bright as the Sun. If ever you need and ear please write me

[michellechivers1]

I am going to tell you something I never let anyone in on when I was in middle school the people I thought were my friends gave me a nickname Mooshell because I was over weight. and even though I would smile through the pain my heart would break a lil each day. Now some years later I am a lil older and a lil wiser and I can tell you that I am still overweight but I am ok with that and what I went through at that time has made me a stronger person and a more caring person. Don't internalize what

[X0x0Lilangel97]

That's how I feel..

The guys I like like my BEST friend. It's not fair. I want someone to tell me I'm beautiful, someone to hold me and tell me they love me. My friends do that, but I want a BOY to do that. /:

[ThatsJustheWayiRolll]

'I feel like an outsider.

I walk down the school halls beside my friends, and I'm not there.

I'm never there. No one notices me. '

Im Asian and there's aonly 3 other people like me, and I Feel that I Dont belong anywhere's. Im also Adopted. Which means Ive never met my parents. I Feel that people are always laughing at me, Im never included in anything. I Hear whispers about me from the people across me in School.

But thank you for this :)

It's beautiful.

[KeyWest1771]

WOW.. this was unbeilevablely amazing:) thank you so much.this pretty much described me.. i mean i know that im not fat and im not as ugly as i think i am.. but i still feel like that. thank you so much. this has defiently made me feel better about myself. knowing im not the only one who feels this way:) thank you sooo much. you just made my day:) hehe

[XXDisneyGirleyXX]

"The feeling when you're with your gorgeous friend.

All the guys envy her, and walk past you.

That line, story of my life. I had that friend all the guys wanted and I was just there, in the background while she flirted and they drooled. :/

[doglover5786]

I have several parts that I can so relate to: ~All the guys envy her, and walk past you. ~You try to be so nice to everyone. You try to make everyone smile. You try to smile. You try to smile even though you feel like crying. ~Sure, I'll be loved by my family and friends.. But they have to love me. ~Why couldn't he make me beautiful and flawless like the other girls? ~I'm tired of being lied to. I'm tired of feeling used. I'm tired of feeling like no one wan

[doglover5786]

@doglover5786 My friend is ALWAYS complaining. "Oh I'm not smart enough, I'm not pretty enough, no one likes me!" Outside, I'm comforting her, but on the inside, I feel worse off. And that she's not appreciative.

I ESPECIALLY feel used. I'm always too nice. People use me. Whether they know me or not. They know I have a hard time saying no.

Honestly, this really describes me right now. It's been a rough-ish day. But it's comforting to know someone feels this way too!

[annisagirl11]

i feel the same way at times

[ToriHasOJD]

don't want one right now.. i like being myself... but yeah, i feel the same too sometimes. i do want a boyfriend at times when i see all my friends with one and i'm the only one without a boyfriend... but then really, i don't need that right now.

i really loved what you wrote! :) .... and sorry for this lonnngg comment. haha

[ToriHasOJD]

wow.. this is powerful! ... i know exactly how you feel too. yeah, i have some great friends and people that i can talk to, but there's always a time where i feel like i'm the outsider in my little group of people i hang out with. all of my friends are different than me, and sometimes i feel like i can't tell them anything. like, i'm a junior in highschool and i havn't had my first kiss.. ppl have thought i was gay, (which i'm wayyy far from it) because i didn't have a boyfriend. but i really

[7198449]

you pretty much described my life there :|