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Lazy ass stupid bitches. How about you stop counting calories, get off your butt and workout few days a week? This will create a nice shaped healthy looking body. There are a lot more people who find a fit body attractive than people who like the sick animal looking body. It's in our genes to be attracted to healthy looking bodies.
@cpana2001 I don't do to be attractive. It's a mental malfunction. It's the want and need for control in this fucked up chaos that's become my life and has manifested into this raging beast that rips me apart on the inside for looking at a fucking piece of toast; that drives me to work out for hours on end but the effort is still not good enough to appease the damn voice criticizing my every move, driving me to do everything I can to get control and be perfect. So fuck you.
@creepysilentkid I agree, I am 16 and I've suffered from an ed for 5 years. I am now struggling with the affects of it. I am dying. I cannot leave THIS life because I don't want to leave a normal, healthy one. I know what I'm doing is killing me, but I cannot stop. :(
@cpana2001 you need your head to be screwed on straight. I have had an ed for 5 years and I'm only 16. I cannot stop. It's a disease, not a life style. Once you have an ed, it's extremely hard to fight it. If you had an ed, you wouldn't be talking trash and bitching about it because you'd be fighting one of the worst diseases in the world.
@TheCletuus Because an important part of treatment is learning how to eat normally again. Yes, it's good to eat a healthy, balanced diet. But eating a dessert every now and then or having a cupcake on your birthday is a normal part of life. They can't just have them eat salads, grilled chicken, and fruit every day. They have to teach them that having a treat every now and then is normal and isn't going to kill you. The patients will never recover if they can't be ok with eating their fear foods.
@TheCletuus I agree. I've had an ed for 5 years, feeding her a cake is one of the worst things to feed a woman fighting an ed. When I was in treatment, they did the same to me on my b-day. I refused so they had to tub feed me it. It was horrible, I was a complete reck for days.
Wouldn't seeing their weight on the scale every time they get weighed make the patients feel even more down than they already are? Shouldn't the people make them weigh themselves turned around at least so they can't view the number? I mean seeing the weight that they want lower, getting higher sounds like it would be an agonizing experience for them every morning.
@jvaniee I'm inpatient and I get to see my weight every monday morning. It's an important part of getting out of an eating disorder. If they wouldn't allow me to see my weight I might get shock of the number on the scale when coming back home and going insane and right back to the eating disorder
@jvaniee The thing is that the mistake people make is teling anorexic girls 'oh your so pretty. your so skinny." in hopes they'll stop. That only encourages them. Now I'm not saying that you should tell them their ugly. Just that they look very unhealthy.
The thing is, i feel like this type of treatment isn't sustainable after leaving inpatient because their main focus before they entered was their weight and when they enter their main focus again is their weight.The focus should be based more on becoming healthy, not gaining weight.They don't teach them how to maintain a healthy weight, just how to get there. Once they leave its like "What do i do now?" and they fall back into their old ways...??
the BED eating disorder is something i wish was shown a bit more in programs like this along with the other disorders. Its very different, but at the same time its just as bad for the people with it.
Omg, this is so fake. These anorexia awareness videos are crap, ive had anorexia and was never unhappy until people put me in a hospital. thats no way to treat a person.
@RangellArt Why are you born as a rose clump of meat? I don't think that it's because you should starve and vomit until anybody can see your bones as it were the main life task of human beings. There are a lot of ways to be beautiful. So, why don't you cut open your belly so everybody can see your beautiful guts! You could sell your appendix and get a lot of money for it!
Your bones aren't art. Art is what you build. You don't build your bones. You destroy them and everything around.
@CreepCheep It´s not easy like that.. I think only someone who had the same problems, can understand that.. You look in the mirror and don´t see how you really look! It sounds ridicoulus, I know.. I´m so glad that I got over it..
I have anorexia and i have since i was 16, i'm nearly 19. I am just like a little girl in a lot of ways, I'm really scared that I'll end up like these women, as I don't know how to get better. I was put in hospital for 6 months and forcefed but when i come home I lost all the weight again, I dont know why some people can get better and some others can't.
@RangellArt Your fucked up...Nothing is beautiful about these diseases. I personally have been fighting for years and I do not look beautiful at 5' 6'' and 110 pounds
I dont have an eating disorder or anything like that...but I keep feeling guilty every time I eat.For the past month every so often I'll go a couple days without eating.
The last time I ate was 5 days ago.All I think about now is about getting skinny.
@candyapplecarnage that sounds really sad! I now how it is to struggle with food and eating. but please talk to a friend or someone in your family! Not eating is not getting you thin, it's just getting you ill. Eat some vegetables or a soup. This helps me to get my 'normal' thoughts back!
@candyapplecarnage Thats how it usually starts. Just be careful and don't be afraid to ask someone for help. Seriously, seeing a dietitian or a personal trainer is not the worst thing you could do if you are concerned about your weight, it is much better if there really is a problem to take care of it the healthy way. Good luck :)
There are so many videos of 'thinspo' out there, showing photoshopped, artsy pictures of skinny girls usually provacatively dressed. I wish this video would show up when girls searched thinspo. This is the real face of anorexia. Do these girls look happy? No. Any other indication that starving yourself will bring you happiness is a complete lie.
I think if Shelly hadn't shown up Polly might still be here. Not to say that it's Shelly's fault at all, but Polly might have stayed in treatment had her and Shelly not formed a bond. They were negative influences on each other.
I don't get it. Theyre making them eat however, just before Polly eats the cake she drank coffee > caffine > appitite suppressant and they smoke > appitite suppressant. WHATS THE POINT!?
@Kourtney305 You know a gym is a lot more effective than starving yourself like a moron. 210lbs to 137lbs lifting heavy things, and eating a ton of protein right here.
@PinuyashaRPG I don't understand why people think anorexics so dont eat and sit around like a lazy ass all day. We excercise harder than most normal people. We know you lose the weight faster that way. Try not eating for a few days and running 3 miles on sheer motivations. Maybe then ill tip my hat to you -_-
@Kourtney305 I realize anorexic people don't sit around all day eating and doing nothing or else they wouldn't be anorexic. I wasn't 210lbs for nothing. My problem is you guys approach dieting and nutrition completely wrong, and rather than using a scientific approach, you just starve yourself into oblivion. Think for a second about a bodybuilder who consumes 3000+ calories daily and has less than 10% body fat. Clearly it's proven that there's a better way.
@PinuyashaRPG Yea but we're not trying to do it the healthy way and we hear this kind of crap from doctors, parents etc. Shelly on the video was a freaking nurse for crying out loud so im sure she knew it was a better way. People who smoke also know that they can get lung cancer. It DOESNT matter to us. It a disease, you cant judge people like that you have no idea what we go through,
@Kourtney305 Eating properly alone has a massive impact on your mood. You'd be surprised much a bad diet can cause depression, anxiety, moodiness, and a host of other issues.
And it's a mental disorder, not a disease. A disease is caused by pathogens, toxins, or viruses. Anorexia/bulimia is not. And we constantly judge smokers for their bad choices. At some point you have to accept responsibility for your bad choices, not blame them on everything else. YOU chose what you do in the end.
@PinuyashaRPG It is a disease a lot of doctors refer to it that way i would know i been to treatment and im in nursing school. No need to give me definitions
@PinuyashaRPG There is a better way to have a conversation with somebody than to scream and shout, but people are still bipolar. There is a better way to work for your money and purchase the things you want, but people still steal. There are better ways to solve your problems than to drink them away, but people are still alcoholics. Human nature is having addictions. Once it happens, its hard to control, and most people never do.
I don't blame Polly for finding it hard to eat that cake- I would struggle to finish a cake that laiden with icing and sprinkles, and I'm not even anorexic!
It's the equivalent of a small slice of iced cake with a few sprinkles. It's not a whole meal. Unless you're overly sensitive to sweet things or you're two, you shouldn't have any problem eating one small cupcake.
I have a very round face and therefore look really fat although the rest of my body is quite skinny I´ve even lost part of my breast size because of extreme dieting.
This is SUCH a remarkable thing -- It's amazing to me that these girls actually look in the mirror and SEE and think "I am too fat..I am too fat.." as they just literally waste away. But they really do..dont they? Is it like alcoholism -- are you always an aneorexic? Also is relapse a significant risk; as significant as it is with drug abuse?
@ChristopherSaindon Yes they really see and feel "fat", it is an addiction, it gets so bad that you cant help yourself you become addicted to the feeling of an emptystomach, to the number on the scale, the calories, the exercise. yes, relapse is a significant risk, and is just as bad as if it were an alcohol or drug or smoke addiction, addictions are life long, being recovered doesnt mena the illness is gone, recovered is where the addiction is calm, but it grab hold again
@VitalRegionsPlz well for anorexics/bulimics there are foods that are completely off limits because they fear and or know it will lead to eating the entire pan of pizza, bread, cake or what have you so being forced to "enjoy" something so sweet and fattening would be really hard. I know though, I love sweets.
Renfrew... It's right by my house.... They wouldnt take me because I'm not old enough. I'm gonna have to wait 6 months. Problem is I don't know If I can wait that long :/ I'm so friggin scared and I dont know what to do...
@PuppyLove1105 go to tumblr and talk to some eating disorder bloggers. it might sound way out there, but the support & encouragement from people on tumblr have kept me on the right path after i left the hospital. mine is swimfan85 if you ever find yourself needing guidance.
when polly told her story it made me think about the British girl ummm the 8 year old anorexic and that in her story she says that she thinks she is cured and her mom thinks kind of the same, makes me wonder if she would turn out like pam, I hope not but it make you wonder... (I THINK THE GIRL WAS BRITISH! I'm not sure so if shes not please correct me)
@SomedayBroadway101 what do you think theyd do if they found out she did! It seems terrible these contitions im never going into treatment.. stuff that! :l
If you don't fit into every aspect of anorexia/bulimia criteria then you'll be diagnosed with EDNOS (eating disorder not otherwise specified). For example, if you still have your period even thought your behavior is one to anorexic person, you have EDNOS.
Disorder is disorder and those in need of help should get it.
@triinu127 The thing is, you often don't get help until you're on the verge of dying, or when it's hard to go back. People should get help much earlier, so it doesn't have to come this far. Sadly, it's not that way.
I'm just sort of responding to some of the peoples response. But technically you can be overweight and anorexic as Anorexia is the disease or whatever you want to call it, so yeah.
My heart goes out to anyone with this disorder. I can't help wondering how effective the therapies are. I see so much sadness, and the only control over their lives that they feel is through the disorder.
Though all of these stories are extremely sad, for some reason, Shelly's story really hits home for me. It just goes to show that ED does not discriminate at all. She is a psychiatric nurse--probably making pretty decent money--and yet she is struggling so much. I know it sound incredibly shallow to suggest that it can't happen to someone like her, but it's just a shock to think that even our nurses are not safe from this disease.
@hannacbanana That's not the point KokoroAiNeko is trying to make. They're saying that you don't have to be thin to have anorexia or bulimia. They don't often acknowledge that people with a normal body weight or that are overweight can have these disorders.
It's so fucking god damn inHUMANE how these suffering women and young girls are expected to speak so candidly and honestly to these fat ass dumb bitches about such private and difficult sufferings. How is subjecting someone to that kind of zoo-like torture meant to be helpful? THey are human-beings who shouldn't be treated like hospital patients, but HUMANS, I wanted to slap all the 'doctors' - tell me, how can you be a doctor if your body looks like you don't know a damn THING about nutrition?
@awesomeness9413 I spent my birthday in residential for an ED, and they ordered a cake & everyone had the option of eating it, though it was looked down on if you didn't eat your own cake on your birthday.
@muffinwithsprinkles i'm sorry, i was just saying..i understand that they need to make them eat, but I get watch my weight a little bit, and I wouldn't eat that..and I don't have an ED or anything..i was just thinking of how she was feeling..
so scary.... girls who want to do this probably regreting but if there some who not just know that you perfect and your body is beautiful already without this terrible disease its wil destroy your life! accept yourself as you are ... if you dont then who?!
This brings back so many memories! Ha! That med nurse was crazy, she was always singing. And to the people saying it's mean they gave Polly a cupcake for her birthday- um... this is a treatment center. The point is to normalize eating again, and yes, it's normal to have a cake/cupcake for your birthday. I had to do it too (chocolate cake for me) when I was there on my birthday. I hated it at the time, but that's not the point. It's not a spa resort, it's treatment.
The first girl being a psychiatric nurse, you can understand that a lot of people who work in the psych field have psych issues themselves. An understanding and motivation are higher in those who suffer and want to help others who they relate too.
jodie the nutritionist is a fat ass i really hate her if she was my nutritionist i would put in a complaint or fucking go off at her. i feel so bad for shelley and polly and brittany....oh and jen too but alyssa kinda annoys me the way she speaks xo
Ive never seen anorexia as something that comes from vanity, i see it as every other type of severely compulsive nervous habit weather it be pulling out your hair, biting your nails or cutting or burning yourself. Its a manifestation of SEVERE anxiety, what causes that anxiety is different for everyone but its not from not wanting to be a fat person, its way deeper than that
I hate having anorexia, its a god awful disease that leads to so many complications. I don't understand how people can look down on us and call us attention hgdhcdiue and such but sympathize with the obese, they too choose to eat/ not to eat certain things because of whatever reason.
i watch this about once every week , and everytime i watching it. im still surprised they let them wear the red bracelets which pretty much means they arent commited to change and want to have the unity of their eatting disorders
Shelly is the most manipulative person that I've ever seen. I wouldn't be surprised to learn that she can turn her decision to eat or not on and off like a faucet in order to manipulate a situation to her liking.
@lesterclaypool1 Her eating disorder was the part that was manipulative... she's has been in recovery for about 4 years now. I read her blog... and today in her blog she said that she got on the scale and saw that she lost weight and she wasn't cool with that. she wants to stay healthy. I can understand why she ended up telling... My sisters tell me things... and if it's too much pressure to keep a secret I end up telling my parents so I don't go having a nervous break down.
@lesterclaypool1 How well do U know Shelly? Honestly? Yes confidentially did not do well on the smoke porch. one of my sisters have told me things not wanting my parents 2 know. 1time my sister was drinking with my cousin. (legal age is 21 she was 16). It was eating me up inside that she was drinking with my cousin that I told... It was that or getting sick with anxiety. I don't know why Shelly told, but sometimes it's best that we don't get told things that some1 wants 2 keep secret.
My wife volunteers her time at a rehabilitiation clinic that deals with addictions of all types, including eating disorders. There's nothing wrong with somone having experience with their chosen field and your medical training will teach you how to distance yourself emotionally from your patients while still giving them the very best of care.
There is psychiatric nursing training, also, that deals specifically with addiction and ED's.
@animekristy1 Yea, the lady in the beginning who does vitals/weights reminds me of this really nice nurse at the treatment center I went to. She was my favorite for sure.
I remember when I was I was in a treatment centre and it was my birthday I brought cherries and strawberries for everyone... instead of the usual apples and oranges we had to eat every day day. I would have felt so bad if they gave me a cupcake!!! On your birthday they have to make you feel good, not feel worse than you already do :X
@KokoroAiNeko there are fcourse obese bulimic (I was one myself), but obese anorexia would be classified as ednos. (which I find wrong, to be anorexic (to fit the criteria) you have to be underweight and have lost your period (and ofcourse the disordered eating behaviour))
^^ My aunty started developing Anorexia at 300lbs, when she was down to around 190, they classified her as Anorexic because she was, she had the disorder, etc...
I agree it is wrong, I'm currently suffering Anorexia and just because i don't weight little enough, i can't get therapy for it. I'm 82 lbs where before i was 198, I lost my period 3 months ago, i don,t think they should tell an anorexic, "You're not thin enough to receive treatment, sorry"
@KokoroAiNeko That's an amazing point. I knew several girls in school who were overweight (not obese, but carrying about 20 or 30 lbs more than they should have), and they would binge and purge. I guess they didn't do it often enough to stave off the extra calories, but the symptoms of the disease were definitely still there.
@KokoroAiNeko Yep, spot on. After treatment for anorexia I gained weight...and kept gaining as I left & got "better." Now I'm an overweight EDNOS/anorexic with binge purge tendencies. In a sense it's more dangerous because people don't take it as seriously because of the high weight despite the harm you're doing to your body. Technically to be anorexic you need to be at a certain % of a normal weight but overweight people who lose a great deal in a short space of time are still very very sick.
@KokoroAiNeko Well what are they gonna do? Give the few places there is for treatment to an overweight woman? or to a sick 80 pounds woman? Which one is more likely to die? The ressources are few, and need to go to people who are in DANGER. Your fat aunt was NOT in imminent danger.
@KokoroAiNeko you can't be considered anorexic if your bmi is not low enough. you can have an eating disorder at any weight, but not specifically anorexia unless your bmi is low enough. I was told this by a doctor.
@KokoroAiNeko Exactly. Everyone assumes they start off thin, but some people start starving themselves at 200lbs and it isn't until 80lbs that doctors say they're anorexic, because technically it isn't "textbook" for a person to be overweight and anorexic.
It's not a choice guys... it's a disease.
catsinboxes 5 days ago 2
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Lazy ass stupid bitches. How about you stop counting calories, get off your butt and workout few days a week? This will create a nice shaped healthy looking body. There are a lot more people who find a fit body attractive than people who like the sick animal looking body. It's in our genes to be attracted to healthy looking bodies.
cpana2001 6 days ago
@cpana2001 I don't do to be attractive. It's a mental malfunction. It's the want and need for control in this fucked up chaos that's become my life and has manifested into this raging beast that rips me apart on the inside for looking at a fucking piece of toast; that drives me to work out for hours on end but the effort is still not good enough to appease the damn voice criticizing my every move, driving me to do everything I can to get control and be perfect. So fuck you.
creepysilentkid 3 days ago
@creepysilentkid I agree, I am 16 and I've suffered from an ed for 5 years. I am now struggling with the affects of it. I am dying. I cannot leave THIS life because I don't want to leave a normal, healthy one. I know what I'm doing is killing me, but I cannot stop. :(
rollergirl2596 9 hours ago
@cpana2001 You are an ignorant cunt.
NwieNobody 3 days ago
@cpana2001 you need your head to be screwed on straight. I have had an ed for 5 years and I'm only 16. I cannot stop. It's a disease, not a life style. Once you have an ed, it's extremely hard to fight it. If you had an ed, you wouldn't be talking trash and bitching about it because you'd be fighting one of the worst diseases in the world.
so fuck you
rollergirl2596 9 hours ago
4:53 her boobs!! Jesus, they are huuuuge.
luticia 1 week ago
Does anyone know the producer??? If so, can they ask her to do an update on these girls now? Or if she will consider doing a new one at Renfrew??
lilmztori1 1 week ago
Why would they give her a cake layered with icing????
TheCletuus 1 week ago 2
@TheCletuus Because an important part of treatment is learning how to eat normally again. Yes, it's good to eat a healthy, balanced diet. But eating a dessert every now and then or having a cupcake on your birthday is a normal part of life. They can't just have them eat salads, grilled chicken, and fruit every day. They have to teach them that having a treat every now and then is normal and isn't going to kill you. The patients will never recover if they can't be ok with eating their fear foods.
SomedayBroadway101 1 week ago
@TheCletuus I agree. I've had an ed for 5 years, feeding her a cake is one of the worst things to feed a woman fighting an ed. When I was in treatment, they did the same to me on my b-day. I refused so they had to tub feed me it. It was horrible, I was a complete reck for days.
rollergirl2596 9 hours ago
@TheCletuus They're trying to introdue normality. It's normal to eat cake on your birthday. She's probably already made progress in the program.
WretchedLivesWhite 29 minutes ago
why do they have to get up so early..
alicedee100 1 week ago 5
Wouldn't seeing their weight on the scale every time they get weighed make the patients feel even more down than they already are? Shouldn't the people make them weigh themselves turned around at least so they can't view the number? I mean seeing the weight that they want lower, getting higher sounds like it would be an agonizing experience for them every morning.
jvaniee 2 weeks ago
@jvaniee I'm inpatient and I get to see my weight every monday morning. It's an important part of getting out of an eating disorder. If they wouldn't allow me to see my weight I might get shock of the number on the scale when coming back home and going insane and right back to the eating disorder
norwaygiirl 2 weeks ago
@jvaniee The thing is that the mistake people make is teling anorexic girls 'oh your so pretty. your so skinny." in hopes they'll stop. That only encourages them. Now I'm not saying that you should tell them their ugly. Just that they look very unhealthy.
lovelifelivinlarge 1 week ago
The thing is, i feel like this type of treatment isn't sustainable after leaving inpatient because their main focus before they entered was their weight and when they enter their main focus again is their weight.The focus should be based more on becoming healthy, not gaining weight.They don't teach them how to maintain a healthy weight, just how to get there. Once they leave its like "What do i do now?" and they fall back into their old ways...??
melodramaticfoolmiz 2 weeks ago
the BED eating disorder is something i wish was shown a bit more in programs like this along with the other disorders. Its very different, but at the same time its just as bad for the people with it.
zrreik1996 2 weeks ago
Omg, this is so fake. These anorexia awareness videos are crap, ive had anorexia and was never unhappy until people put me in a hospital. thats no way to treat a person.
KatxMeow 2 weeks ago
@KatxMeow Nothing about this documentary is fake. In fact, Polly passed away a couple years ago. She overdosed on laxatives.
amyliz143ny 2 weeks ago 2
MY GOD, AT-LEAST FEED THEM HEALTHY FOOD!! CUPCAKES!? PIZZA!!? THOSE THINGS AREN'T NUTRITIOUS FOR ANYONE!
SanityIsSuchADrag 2 weeks ago 2
I think iv watched this like 20 or more times, it just gets me in the heart every time :(
SienMay 3 weeks ago
well this is nice and triggering
quebella84 3 weeks ago 3
She was wearing the red ana bracelet.
actress4life116 3 weeks ago
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I have Anorexia and Bulimia and I don't care, bones are beautiful pieces of art that need to be shown
RangellArt 3 weeks ago
@RangellArt In that case, death is too.
rinimukherjee 3 weeks ago
@RangellArt Why are you born as a rose clump of meat? I don't think that it's because you should starve and vomit until anybody can see your bones as it were the main life task of human beings. There are a lot of ways to be beautiful. So, why don't you cut open your belly so everybody can see your beautiful guts! You could sell your appendix and get a lot of money for it!
Your bones aren't art. Art is what you build. You don't build your bones. You destroy them and everything around.
CreepCheep 3 weeks ago
@CreepCheep It´s not easy like that.. I think only someone who had the same problems, can understand that.. You look in the mirror and don´t see how you really look! It sounds ridicoulus, I know.. I´m so glad that I got over it..
SandraGermany777 2 weeks ago
If I had to wake up early to be weighed and prodded at, I don't think I'd be able to get better =/
catherinecuti3 3 weeks ago 4
its the not eating that makes you feel good and when you see results of not eating, not when you've actually starved yourself
SunshineIsDaShit 3 weeks ago
its miserble, all of these broken girls shuffling around in their blankets& hospital gowns. i don't want to go there. i don't want treatment.
madonna2285 4 weeks ago
I have anorexia and i have since i was 16, i'm nearly 19. I am just like a little girl in a lot of ways, I'm really scared that I'll end up like these women, as I don't know how to get better. I was put in hospital for 6 months and forcefed but when i come home I lost all the weight again, I dont know why some people can get better and some others can't.
Axdssa 1 month ago
RIP Polly
Axdssa 1 month ago
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Theyre beautiful. I find Anorexia an art not a disease.
RangellArt 1 month ago
@RangellArt It Kills people and destroys their lives.....!!
Fairy4863 1 month ago
@RangellArt you're fucking crazy
sandrasockers 1 month ago
@RangellArt but are they healthy?
hoshi1979 1 month ago
@RangellArt go fuck yourself.
madonna2285 4 weeks ago
@RangellArt Your fucked up...Nothing is beautiful about these diseases. I personally have been fighting for years and I do not look beautiful at 5' 6'' and 110 pounds
PlatniumProductions 3 weeks ago 3
I dont have an eating disorder or anything like that...but I keep feeling guilty every time I eat.For the past month every so often I'll go a couple days without eating.
The last time I ate was 5 days ago.All I think about now is about getting skinny.
candyapplecarnage 1 month ago
@candyapplecarnage Sounds like me. You can possibly have EDNOS- "ed not otherwise specified" -when you dont meet criteria for bulimis/anorexia.
TooHard2FakeItt 1 month ago
@candyapplecarnage that sounds really sad! I now how it is to struggle with food and eating. but please talk to a friend or someone in your family! Not eating is not getting you thin, it's just getting you ill. Eat some vegetables or a soup. This helps me to get my 'normal' thoughts back!
TheElephantWorks 1 month ago 2
@candyapplecarnage Thats how it usually starts. Just be careful and don't be afraid to ask someone for help. Seriously, seeing a dietitian or a personal trainer is not the worst thing you could do if you are concerned about your weight, it is much better if there really is a problem to take care of it the healthy way. Good luck :)
emilyjembaby 2 weeks ago
this is so sad:(. i'd never be anorexic, i like food to much
kerryn12312 1 month ago
There are so many videos of 'thinspo' out there, showing photoshopped, artsy pictures of skinny girls usually provacatively dressed. I wish this video would show up when girls searched thinspo. This is the real face of anorexia. Do these girls look happy? No. Any other indication that starving yourself will bring you happiness is a complete lie.
crazyclass 1 month ago 52
@crazyclass im actually watching this for thinspo right now .. things like this are very triggering
chantellemg 3 weeks ago
I think if Shelly hadn't shown up Polly might still be here. Not to say that it's Shelly's fault at all, but Polly might have stayed in treatment had her and Shelly not formed a bond. They were negative influences on each other.
ktar007 1 month ago
1:49 Why is she wearing those bracelets..? Everyone at that place must be blind or stupid.
ktar007 1 month ago
@Picafuli that is gross and sick
gabrielalulaa 1 month ago
I don't get it. Theyre making them eat however, just before Polly eats the cake she drank coffee > caffine > appitite suppressant and they smoke > appitite suppressant. WHATS THE POINT!?
brainslushi 1 month ago
@Picafuli Hey if your serious about the buddy fasting thing im game.
Kourtney305 1 month ago
@Kourtney305 You know a gym is a lot more effective than starving yourself like a moron. 210lbs to 137lbs lifting heavy things, and eating a ton of protein right here.
PinuyashaRPG 1 month ago in playlist "thin documentary, Anorexia, eating disorder" !!!!!!!!!!! ;(
@PinuyashaRPG I don't understand why people think anorexics so dont eat and sit around like a lazy ass all day. We excercise harder than most normal people. We know you lose the weight faster that way. Try not eating for a few days and running 3 miles on sheer motivations. Maybe then ill tip my hat to you -_-
Kourtney305 1 month ago
@Kourtney305 I realize anorexic people don't sit around all day eating and doing nothing or else they wouldn't be anorexic. I wasn't 210lbs for nothing. My problem is you guys approach dieting and nutrition completely wrong, and rather than using a scientific approach, you just starve yourself into oblivion. Think for a second about a bodybuilder who consumes 3000+ calories daily and has less than 10% body fat. Clearly it's proven that there's a better way.
PinuyashaRPG 1 month ago
@PinuyashaRPG Yea but we're not trying to do it the healthy way and we hear this kind of crap from doctors, parents etc. Shelly on the video was a freaking nurse for crying out loud so im sure she knew it was a better way. People who smoke also know that they can get lung cancer. It DOESNT matter to us. It a disease, you cant judge people like that you have no idea what we go through,
Kourtney305 1 month ago
@Kourtney305 Eating properly alone has a massive impact on your mood. You'd be surprised much a bad diet can cause depression, anxiety, moodiness, and a host of other issues.
And it's a mental disorder, not a disease. A disease is caused by pathogens, toxins, or viruses. Anorexia/bulimia is not. And we constantly judge smokers for their bad choices. At some point you have to accept responsibility for your bad choices, not blame them on everything else. YOU chose what you do in the end.
PinuyashaRPG 1 month ago
@PinuyashaRPG It is a disease a lot of doctors refer to it that way i would know i been to treatment and im in nursing school. No need to give me definitions
Kourtney305 1 month ago
@PinuyashaRPG There is a better way to have a conversation with somebody than to scream and shout, but people are still bipolar. There is a better way to work for your money and purchase the things you want, but people still steal. There are better ways to solve your problems than to drink them away, but people are still alcoholics. Human nature is having addictions. Once it happens, its hard to control, and most people never do.
emilyjembaby 2 weeks ago
The longest i ever went without eating was 6 days. I'm probably an amatuer compared to most of you guys :/
Kourtney305 1 month ago
I don't blame Polly for finding it hard to eat that cake- I would struggle to finish a cake that laiden with icing and sprinkles, and I'm not even anorexic!
ofxxxthexxxflowers 1 month ago 72
@ofxxxthexxxflowers Most adults do not like that. Looks like a child's cake.
lisaannejane2 1 month ago
@ofxxxthexxxflowers
It's the equivalent of a small slice of iced cake with a few sprinkles. It's not a whole meal. Unless you're overly sensitive to sweet things or you're two, you shouldn't have any problem eating one small cupcake.
Maztronic 3 weeks ago in playlist Thin 2
@ofxxxthexxxflowers I know its abit of an intimidating thing for someone with an ED I would think
SienMay 3 weeks ago
@ofxxxthexxxflowers me too!
Lisa13245 2 weeks ago
@ofxxxthexxxflowers I agree, too much sugar makes me sick.
luxyzpen15 2 weeks ago
It sad how in the whole place there only seems to be one member of staff who actually gives a shit about them.
NothingChild 2 months ago
it looks like a prison
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That's a Huuuuuge Bitch !!! Just kidding they're all just slighty plump, not over the top.
Soveraine 2 months ago
I have a very round face and therefore look really fat although the rest of my body is quite skinny I´ve even lost part of my breast size because of extreme dieting.
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@lavenderladyXD Are you east baltic? What's your race?
Soveraine 2 months ago
This is SUCH a remarkable thing -- It's amazing to me that these girls actually look in the mirror and SEE and think "I am too fat..I am too fat.." as they just literally waste away. But they really do..dont they? Is it like alcoholism -- are you always an aneorexic? Also is relapse a significant risk; as significant as it is with drug abuse?
ChristopherSaindon 2 months ago
@ChristopherSaindon Yes they really see and feel "fat", it is an addiction, it gets so bad that you cant help yourself you become addicted to the feeling of an emptystomach, to the number on the scale, the calories, the exercise. yes, relapse is a significant risk, and is just as bad as if it were an alcohol or drug or smoke addiction, addictions are life long, being recovered doesnt mena the illness is gone, recovered is where the addiction is calm, but it grab hold again
LishaMaree18 2 months ago
lol at 04:37 Not very smart for the first nurse they are being confronted being such a fatass...
jherrman1987 2 months ago in playlist Thin
Polly died.really omg
diamondfilms33 2 months ago
R.I.P Polly
MsMisha81 2 months ago in playlist "thin documentary, Anorexia, eating disorder" !!!!!!!!!!! ;(
See the way Polly ate that cupcake? I'd grab the entire thing and it'd be gone in a second. Is that bad? XD
VitalRegionsPlz 2 months ago
@VitalRegionsPlz well for anorexics/bulimics there are foods that are completely off limits because they fear and or know it will lead to eating the entire pan of pizza, bread, cake or what have you so being forced to "enjoy" something so sweet and fattening would be really hard. I know though, I love sweets.
girl123interrupted 2 months ago
@VitalRegionsPlz
No, there's nothing bad about that at all. I'd eat that in a heart beat, it looks delish (and I have a sweet tooth).
But it would be nothing but veggies, fruits, broth, and maybe a piece of bread or half a cup of rice for the rest of the day for me.
That cupcake has to be at least 210 calories!
drunkandmisguided 2 months ago
I will never forgive myself
vampiresfe 2 months ago
Does anyone know of other documentaries similar to this one?
ForChrome1 2 months ago
I think it's strange how they let some of them see their weight. Everywhere I've been completely forbade using weight and calories.
fkbtj8 2 months ago
no you dont belong there boo your perfect the way you are
Raineybowforever 2 months ago
Renfrew... It's right by my house.... They wouldnt take me because I'm not old enough. I'm gonna have to wait 6 months. Problem is I don't know If I can wait that long :/ I'm so friggin scared and I dont know what to do...
PuppyLove1105 2 months ago
@PuppyLove1105 go to tumblr and talk to some eating disorder bloggers. it might sound way out there, but the support & encouragement from people on tumblr have kept me on the right path after i left the hospital. mine is swimfan85 if you ever find yourself needing guidance.
ForChrome1 2 months ago
This makes me cry because I belong there
PuppyLove1105 2 months ago
Good upload, thanks.
AsSeenOnTV0893 2 months ago in playlist Thin
who eats a cupcake with a fork....-.-
ImaBearXD 3 months ago
@ImaBearXD Anorexics do, it's part of the illness, to try to break things up into smaller portions, including with utensils.
raerae1281 2 months ago
I just ate A&W, now I'm watching this. No regrets...
cheerleader5293 3 months ago
like if u r from st. matthew
michael2d37 3 months ago
I kinda wish I was one of these girls, then people would start giving a fuck about me.
VampireFreakism 3 months ago
when polly told her story it made me think about the British girl ummm the 8 year old anorexic and that in her story she says that she thinks she is cured and her mom thinks kind of the same, makes me wonder if she would turn out like pam, I hope not but it make you wonder... (I THINK THE GIRL WAS BRITISH! I'm not sure so if shes not please correct me)
323vice323 3 months ago
@323vice323 Dana the 8 year old anorexic is the one I think (:
hannah54867 3 months ago
@hannah54867 yes thats her thanks :)
323vice323 3 months ago
why did they check her body at 01:22 ??
therealrebeccaparkin 3 months ago
@therealrebeccaparkin They were checking to make sure she hadn't self-harmed. My guess is she has a history of it.
SomedayBroadway101 3 months ago
@SomedayBroadway101 what do you think theyd do if they found out she did! It seems terrible these contitions im never going into treatment.. stuff that! :l
therealrebeccaparkin 3 months ago
"are you feeling safe?"
that question.
for the past 3 years.
comeclarityy 3 months ago
If you don't fit into every aspect of anorexia/bulimia criteria then you'll be diagnosed with EDNOS (eating disorder not otherwise specified). For example, if you still have your period even thought your behavior is one to anorexic person, you have EDNOS.
Disorder is disorder and those in need of help should get it.
triinu127 4 months ago 17
@triinu127 The thing is, you often don't get help until you're on the verge of dying, or when it's hard to go back. People should get help much earlier, so it doesn't have to come this far. Sadly, it's not that way.
kakefyll 2 months ago
R.I.p. Polly ~-333
483Elle 4 months ago
Just responding- If you are overweight an have anorexic tendencies.. i think it's called ED NOS
irisdec09 4 months ago
wow polly is the same age as me
trishdadish82 4 months ago
I'm just sort of responding to some of the peoples response. But technically you can be overweight and anorexic as Anorexia is the disease or whatever you want to call it, so yeah.
FinalRiotAbbie 4 months ago
Sometimes, it's genetics that make a person a certain weight, more and more doctors are seeing this connection, so yeah, do your research.
3DOBot 4 months ago
My heart goes out to anyone with this disorder. I can't help wondering how effective the therapies are. I see so much sadness, and the only control over their lives that they feel is through the disorder.
SaranDobby 4 months ago
they should not give her that cupcake...too much for her first days...
ThePepemaria 4 months ago
@ThePepemaria She had already been there a while when they gave that to her
kbsydney 4 months ago
It sad polly didnt have much birthdays left and passed away
agetlostgirl 4 months ago 12
Though all of these stories are extremely sad, for some reason, Shelly's story really hits home for me. It just goes to show that ED does not discriminate at all. She is a psychiatric nurse--probably making pretty decent money--and yet she is struggling so much. I know it sound incredibly shallow to suggest that it can't happen to someone like her, but it's just a shock to think that even our nurses are not safe from this disease.
valleygirl282 4 months ago
@FisherCynge I said they CAN surpress your appetite
pinkprincess9113 4 months ago
@hannacbanana That's not the point KokoroAiNeko is trying to make. They're saying that you don't have to be thin to have anorexia or bulimia. They don't often acknowledge that people with a normal body weight or that are overweight can have these disorders.
EliasBlu 4 months ago
It's so fucking god damn inHUMANE how these suffering women and young girls are expected to speak so candidly and honestly to these fat ass dumb bitches about such private and difficult sufferings. How is subjecting someone to that kind of zoo-like torture meant to be helpful? THey are human-beings who shouldn't be treated like hospital patients, but HUMANS, I wanted to slap all the 'doctors' - tell me, how can you be a doctor if your body looks like you don't know a damn THING about nutrition?
rmss2233 4 months ago
@rmss2233 Looks are decieving. I had family members who were considered morbidly obese and they lived into their hundreds, one of them died at 114.
3DOBot 4 months ago
that shit nasty
javonnielovett01 4 months ago
lol that's mean, to make them eat a cupcake on their birthday..
awesomeness9413 5 months ago 31
@awesomeness9413 I spent my birthday in residential for an ED, and they ordered a cake & everyone had the option of eating it, though it was looked down on if you didn't eat your own cake on your birthday.
lizziebaba 2 months ago
@lizziebaba i'm srry you go had to be there for your birthday..but at least you had an option, that's pretty nice of them..
awesomeness9413 2 months ago
@awesomeness9413 you really don't get it, do you?
muffinwithsprinkles 2 months ago
@muffinwithsprinkles i'm sorry, i was just saying..i understand that they need to make them eat, but I get watch my weight a little bit, and I wouldn't eat that..and I don't have an ED or anything..i was just thinking of how she was feeling..
awesomeness9413 2 months ago
awwwwww tht's sad!!
elizzybethy0574 5 months ago
Polly does look like an angy...
ClythiaMysticka 5 months ago
@ClythiaMysticka angie
tatulover2120 5 months ago
@tatulover2120 really bitch, really?
ClythiaMysticka 5 months ago
@ClythiaMysticka yes cunt really
tatulover2120 5 months ago
good thinspiration to me
BobbyBadfingers 5 months ago
I wanna hang out at the smoke porch.
DragonFly122 5 months ago 4
so scary.... girls who want to do this probably regreting but if there some who not just know that you perfect and your body is beautiful already without this terrible disease its wil destroy your life! accept yourself as you are ... if you dont then who?!
nofi171 5 months ago
This brings back so many memories! Ha! That med nurse was crazy, she was always singing. And to the people saying it's mean they gave Polly a cupcake for her birthday- um... this is a treatment center. The point is to normalize eating again, and yes, it's normal to have a cake/cupcake for your birthday. I had to do it too (chocolate cake for me) when I was there on my birthday. I hated it at the time, but that's not the point. It's not a spa resort, it's treatment.
saucersgirl 5 months ago 4
What are the red bracelets for?
rosiebiebersimpson 5 months ago
i love polly
avigailbc1 6 months ago
I dont feel sorry for them they dont that to them selfs
death54013 6 months ago
no one needs your sorry
avigailbc1 6 months ago
The first girl being a psychiatric nurse, you can understand that a lot of people who work in the psych field have psych issues themselves. An understanding and motivation are higher in those who suffer and want to help others who they relate too.
Godlim17 6 months ago 25
jodie the nutritionist is a fat ass i really hate her if she was my nutritionist i would put in a complaint or fucking go off at her. i feel so bad for shelley and polly and brittany....oh and jen too but alyssa kinda annoys me the way she speaks xo
ThePurpleheffa 6 months ago
wow thanks human nutrition, my heart is broken 5 minutes in.
MrCharoff 6 months ago
Marks?
hotttuii12 6 months ago
This is so sad ugh
samxxmas 6 months ago
Ive never seen anorexia as something that comes from vanity, i see it as every other type of severely compulsive nervous habit weather it be pulling out your hair, biting your nails or cutting or burning yourself. Its a manifestation of SEVERE anxiety, what causes that anxiety is different for everyone but its not from not wanting to be a fat person, its way deeper than that
susanstormborn 6 months ago
RIP Polly
I hate having anorexia, its a god awful disease that leads to so many complications. I don't understand how people can look down on us and call us attention hgdhcdiue and such but sympathize with the obese, they too choose to eat/ not to eat certain things because of whatever reason.
slnicholas513 6 months ago
"the straw finally broke on the camels back" for Polly...I still cant believe she's gone. RIP<3
MorbidiaMurta 6 months ago
My neighboor Karen downstairs looks exactly like Polly but older.
LilasRose1973 6 months ago
i watch this about once every week , and everytime i watching it. im still surprised they let them wear the red bracelets which pretty much means they arent commited to change and want to have the unity of their eatting disorders
Ccork138 6 months ago
I suffer from depression, body dysmorphia and trichotillomania... but watching this makes me feel lucky to be kinda healthy.
nickierainbow 6 months ago
"Confidentiality does work here..."
Uh, no it doesn't, Polly.
Shelly is the most manipulative person that I've ever seen. I wouldn't be surprised to learn that she can turn her decision to eat or not on and off like a faucet in order to manipulate a situation to her liking.
lesterclaypool1 6 months ago
@lesterclaypool1 Her eating disorder was the part that was manipulative... she's has been in recovery for about 4 years now. I read her blog... and today in her blog she said that she got on the scale and saw that she lost weight and she wasn't cool with that. she wants to stay healthy. I can understand why she ended up telling... My sisters tell me things... and if it's too much pressure to keep a secret I end up telling my parents so I don't go having a nervous break down.
loved2bethin 6 months ago
@lesterclaypool1 How well do U know Shelly? Honestly? Yes confidentially did not do well on the smoke porch. one of my sisters have told me things not wanting my parents 2 know. 1time my sister was drinking with my cousin. (legal age is 21 she was 16). It was eating me up inside that she was drinking with my cousin that I told... It was that or getting sick with anxiety. I don't know why Shelly told, but sometimes it's best that we don't get told things that some1 wants 2 keep secret.
starrdancinchick 5 months ago
I think I want to work in a place like this.
I have gone through an eating disorder. I still relapse sometimes, but that's normal.
I think I could be a good nurse at an eating disorder clinic, as I actually understand what the girls are going through.
I know what it feels like to want to die.
I know what it feels like to cut yourself, purge, starve, and hate yourself.
Unlike these people who just seem to sit and judge all the girls. (except the lady in the beginning, she seems nice.)
animekristy1 6 months ago 2
@animekristy1
It's certainly something to look into, Kristy.
My wife volunteers her time at a rehabilitiation clinic that deals with addictions of all types, including eating disorders. There's nothing wrong with somone having experience with their chosen field and your medical training will teach you how to distance yourself emotionally from your patients while still giving them the very best of care.
There is psychiatric nursing training, also, that deals specifically with addiction and ED's.
lesterclaypool1 6 months ago
@animekristy1 Yea, the lady in the beginning who does vitals/weights reminds me of this really nice nurse at the treatment center I went to. She was my favorite for sure.
lalamouse77 5 months ago
RIP Polly.
You are my hero. <3
animekristy1 6 months ago
I remember when I was I was in a treatment centre and it was my birthday I brought cherries and strawberries for everyone... instead of the usual apples and oranges we had to eat every day day. I would have felt so bad if they gave me a cupcake!!! On your birthday they have to make you feel good, not feel worse than you already do :X
calinnero 6 months ago
People don't realize.... there are obese Anorexics/Bulimics
KokoroAiNeko 6 months ago 73
@KokoroAiNeko there are fcourse obese bulimic (I was one myself), but obese anorexia would be classified as ednos. (which I find wrong, to be anorexic (to fit the criteria) you have to be underweight and have lost your period (and ofcourse the disordered eating behaviour))
MYGOALISTHIN 5 months ago in playlist ED documentary
@MYGOALISTHIN
^^ My aunty started developing Anorexia at 300lbs, when she was down to around 190, they classified her as Anorexic because she was, she had the disorder, etc...
I agree it is wrong, I'm currently suffering Anorexia and just because i don't weight little enough, i can't get therapy for it. I'm 82 lbs where before i was 198, I lost my period 3 months ago, i don,t think they should tell an anorexic, "You're not thin enough to receive treatment, sorry"
KokoroAiNeko 5 months ago 65
@KokoroAiNeko i completly agree with u 100%. i think everyone should be like u!
ilovehershy 4 months ago
@KokoroAiNeko That's an amazing point. I knew several girls in school who were overweight (not obese, but carrying about 20 or 30 lbs more than they should have), and they would binge and purge. I guess they didn't do it often enough to stave off the extra calories, but the symptoms of the disease were definitely still there.
goldiebee19 4 months ago
@KokoroAiNeko Yep, spot on. After treatment for anorexia I gained weight...and kept gaining as I left & got "better." Now I'm an overweight EDNOS/anorexic with binge purge tendencies. In a sense it's more dangerous because people don't take it as seriously because of the high weight despite the harm you're doing to your body. Technically to be anorexic you need to be at a certain % of a normal weight but overweight people who lose a great deal in a short space of time are still very very sick.
lollynyc 4 months ago
@KokoroAiNeko Well what are they gonna do? Give the few places there is for treatment to an overweight woman? or to a sick 80 pounds woman? Which one is more likely to die? The ressources are few, and need to go to people who are in DANGER. Your fat aunt was NOT in imminent danger.
ParkLeeNa 3 months ago
@ParkLeeNa If you don't eat, guess what? YOU DIE. That's true, regardless of how much you weigh.
0sexiest0nerd0 3 months ago
@KokoroAiNeko Thats just fucked up , They should have treated you, Im sorry for that
NewSkoolKings99 3 months ago
@KokoroAiNeko Eat something
brianspooner79 3 months ago
@brianspooner79 Its not that easy...
kristenellie 3 months ago
@KokoroAiNeko you can't be considered anorexic if your bmi is not low enough. you can have an eating disorder at any weight, but not specifically anorexia unless your bmi is low enough. I was told this by a doctor.
TearsofaGhost 2 months ago
@KokoroAiNeko Exactly. Everyone assumes they start off thin, but some people start starving themselves at 200lbs and it isn't until 80lbs that doctors say they're anorexic, because technically it isn't "textbook" for a person to be overweight and anorexic.
SmellyCatSally 5 months ago
@KokoroAiNeko, you have to be of a certain very low bmi to be classified as anorexic. that would be EDNOS.
mallyisgold 5 months ago
@KokoroAiNeko that almost sounds like an oxymoron
tatulover2120 5 months ago
@KokoroAiNeko exactly! People think that anorexics and bulimics are all stick thin and miss those who look normal or maybe are on the chubby side...
0x0Rimachi0x0 5 months ago