Not about my desires, Christianity is choosing Gods will. Jesus is the way, He didnt desire the cross except that it was Gods will. We are to take up the cross and give our lives to Him, that is salvation. No easy Christianity. Do not believe God allows sin if you desire it. Galatians 5:16-18, 24; 1 Peter 2:11; 2 Peter 2:17-19; Romans 8:5; Romans 13:14; Matthew 16:24; Matthew 10:38; Matthew 6:9-10. Do not believe you can request salvation then live a life of sin - Ezekiel 18:21-24