When parents don't understand your problems

[Mariammekuh]

I'm (only) 14 years old, but I really understand how you feel

[bradygames100]

i have to try to get my mind off of the thing that happen to me so i play viedo games or something now im extremly skiny cuz im afrad of leaveing the fake worlds were every thing is right and i end up missing 2/3 meals and they just tell me that i need to be more active and i tried and frigured out that soccer puts me in anouther world that works for me but now there signing me up for thing they like and telling me that i have to do them.

[bradygames100]

i have to but up with one parnet that still belives that people who are boren in 1970 are the same today and so if ill lisening to my ipod and he says my name and i dont hear it i get in troulbe for it and when i try to explane it to them they pretty much call me fake and stupid and than expect everything to be fine in half an hour

[azrock4ever]

@bradygames100 Try some punctuation and a complete thought.

You guys think all this parent stuff is new to you and no one has had problems EVER with their parents. Well, here's a news flash: Its been going on for centuries.

Suck it up. Stop listening to bad advice you know is wrong, STAY IN SCHOOL, and make something of yourselves instead of dwelling on all the bad things. When you start telling yourself you're nothing, you've already lost.

[cutterchic]

my mom never under stands me and my problems and she will never so she pays attention to my grades and what I look like but not what I'm thinking she just does not care and I know she would never understand how hard my life is and whenever she finds out I will be dead and I can't stop it's just to hard I gave up trying not to my life will be over

[TheDukeofMania]

My parents wouldn't and still won't accept my anxiety and depression. They already know I have Asperger's Syndrome, but they still want me to be "normal" like everyone else. I can't do that.

I'm 19 years old but my dad won't let me make decisions for myself, like bringing my folder with me to places outside the house. Mom isn't interested in helping either.

[ghostbird92]

this is really heartbreaking. i have no idea how you can keep going on. i'm not sure i could be that strong haha. i mean, having your parents not only turn away from you but also misread your illnesses as complete laziness despite all your hard work... things are so fucked up sometimes

[statikvision21]

HOPE EVERYTHING IS GOING OK FOR YOU.... XOXO =)

[superman2ify]

im only 13 and im trying to reach out to my sisters but they keep ignoring me and im scarred to tell my parents

[AtarasBlog]

my parents are so much the same as yours.

my mom says if you work you will feel better.

also my mom has thrown me out of the house because i was deppresed and she couldnt take my depresion because she says she absorbs it and cant be around deppressed people. my mom think my problems are about food. it feels like she doesnt think about how much working and doing normal stuff is hard for me. i am not lazy. i like working just not with people because of s.a. it herts when parents dont care.

[DirtxInxThexGround]

I hide my mental illnesses too,but my Mother throws it back in my face all the time (even though she has depression).

They pushed my diagnoses under the rug and even though I have an ok relationship now with them....I can't forgive them.

[jonanners3]

thanks for this. wish my parents understood too... They know I've done it,but have no idea I still do,or how much I struggle with it everyday. It's so scary when people find out. I have no idea how people will react and sometimes it makes things worse.. I think that most people think it's for attention or I'm just dramatic. I hide it as best I can,obviously it's not that. I hurt inside and don't know how to deal with it. I just wish they understood...it makes everything so much harder..

[ALLFUNANGAMES]

I even told her about how I would hit and punch myself in the face and temple region on my head when I was stressed or panicking. And she laughed and said I was being dramatic. Even my father said so. And when I asked for therapy or help of any kind, my mom said no. So I had to stop cutting cold turkey pretty much which is pretty much hell because the urge is still there. I'm just not sure what I'm suppose to do or can do at this point.

[ALLFUNANGAMES]

I can completely relate to you in this video Ms. Sullengirl. When I was 10 I attempted suicide. When I was in the 8th grade I began to cut. I didn't want my parents to know but at the same time I wanted them to know that there was something wrong with me and at least try to help me. Finally I told my mom about my suicide attempt and my cutting. She just told me that I was going through a phase and I needed to find a better way to cope with life.

[XxRandomnessFTWxX]

My parents dont understand me. I have depression and shit and they don't even know what that is. They think that i'm a weirdo who just doesn't want to talk, stray away from the other kids, and frown all the time ...

[TheSmiaf]

Please get therapie and medication before you get kids!! It's horrible to have a borderline mother! She destroyed my life.

[Gazness002]

My parents just don't believe me. I strut around with tank tops and all that and they don't even care. I tried to tell them but they just try to discredit me.

[arcanegrace]

my parents say the exact same things to me and its completely invalididating. I have tried to disconnect from my familiy also for the same reasons and yes it is hard. My parents also choose to sweep it under the carpet for the same reasons. I really wish I could chat with you properly about this stuff cos Im in exactly the same situation. anyways, ur videos are very helpful. hugs.

[ashbaz93]

I have been diagnosed with depression, but then BPD....and I can say that I did exactly the same thing as you...after trying to kill myself in September last year, and my parents always saying "You're always such a miserable cow..." I came clean and they really didn't understand. Obviously I wasn't expecting them to take it easily...as it isn't exactly a subject that alot of people react well to...but my mum starting repeating over and over... "it's because you're selfish" and it tore me up. :/

[BrookieBoo102]

To all the people that have had problems with this...

It DOES GET BETTER. I promise you. Things won't be like things won't be like this forever. I know you all have something really difficult that sometimes you just can handle! And I know that you think the world would be better without you. That's the biggest lie ever. The world needs people like you to speak out. This video and comments have really opened my eyes. I pray that you all will find a healing. God bless you all. :)

[semperfidelisman]

this is how you act on your parents mistakes with throwing your problems under the rug: Use it against them, raise your children with open arms, understanding their problems before you yell at them, take the time to listen to them, and understand their point of view. Help them through their rough patches and if they think they want to see a therapist, try to see why they want to in the first place, and if its something you can work out together.

[bookcreator]

You should send this to your parents. Maybe it would start a conversation with them... I'm not going to judge them without hearing their side but you should talk to them.

[kekeButler101]

love it! this video has been posted to teamarson.ning.com where we care!

[nicol3ist]

my mom saw my scars on my arms once and she told me it was self pitty and she told me to never do it again and so i lied to her and now i cut on my legs, today she saw some scars and asked what they were and i lied to her again and said i fell..... im scared of my mom feeling like she always has to watch me.... and i feel really bad about it but i cant seem to stop... i am better at trying to not cut as much but i do still do so.....

[sopka1985]

Have you ever been abused in any severe way?

Why did you think you wanted to hide your illness?

Why do you end up regretting being honest?

[sopka1985]

Have you ever been abused in any severe way?

[SuperFeefer]

My mother used to use my cutting against me in arguments

[hurricanekid15]

i have a problem not understanding when i don't understand something in school, all they care about is the grade on the report card, if i don't do what they feel is acceptable, they just tell me how much of a lazy kid i am and how much of a failure i am, they always hit me and tell me how everything i'm doing is easy when they don't understand, i never understand, they also don't get that kids actually do deal with drama, i've been in psych for going on 6 years, and they believe i'm just an ass

[toeknee1965]

u should read the book. taking the leap from pema choedren. soooo good

[HONKULUS]

The older you get the more you try the more you keep winning the war, the more you will understand , accept and love yourself rain or shine, its a battle its yours and its mine, and one day we will be fine.

[HONKULUS]

,can be very confusing as far as knowing where and who to turn to, but I think you having the courage to own your disease and speak openly about it will bring you the right people as well as liberating others who share your struggle, you should love your self and I know you do because your trying to make it out, Thank You for your courage and sacrifice.

[HONKULUS]

, it I know how challenging it is to get the support you need. especially because sometimes the people who have the same issues can heal you and bring you back to the place you want to leave

[HONKULUS]

I understand, I dont self injure but I understand, i feel what you feel every day of my life, if you can't reach out to the people you need to support you you need to make your own family out of friends and others who have your issues.

[8BitAndroid]

(By the way, people who've never had really bad anxiety will NEVER understand exactly what we go through. That's what makes it so frustrating when they try to judge us or claim that we're faking it all. But after joining forums, other online communities, & watching videos on YouTube I've found people with similar problems. So at least we're not totally alone in this & can provide support for each other.)

[8BitAndroid]

(I know this video is really old) but I'm in pretty much the same spot right now. My anxiety has gotten drastically worse since I graduated high school. I've been fired from two jobs & now I can't even leave my house by myself anymore.

My insurance has ended & I have no money for therapy. It's scary because I have no idea what's going to happen to me. I've been thinking about applying for disability as well. I see it as my last (and only?) option left though...

[empbac]

Bad parents cause society's ills (and there are a LOT of them). If you sense you are messed up, DO NOT reproduce! Don't donate DNA and don't adopt. The only logical conclusion of life is death. Life will implode in on itself at some point, and everything will return to what it was before. Maybe humanity has a greater destiny, but it's certainly not going to happen if there is no proper natural selection. As long as my parents, and many others, live - we are doomed as a species.

[candaceb3]

my parents still havent found out about me. i have scars, but yet 4 some reason they just dont see them. my parents don't really pay much attention to me sooo i guess thats the reason. my 2 best friends have noticed and i gave them the excuse that my dog scratched me. i dont want anyone to find out though. especially my parents.

[DirtxInxThexGround]

My Mum found out when I was 16 and she just screamed at me.

She threatened to "put me away"

I understand that she was angry at the time and scared.

She never told my Dad about it.

When I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder at 19 they freaked and cancelled all my appointments...and it's been pretty much brushed under the carpet.

I wanted to go and get help...but my parents wanted to pretend it didn't exist.

I'm now 22 and I don't know where I am going anymore.

[morikahjo]

today i got in trouble for writing some dumb english report about self injury....i got sent to the councellor and asked all these questions, they made me show them my scars and called my mom....then when i got home i had to show my mom and i got called dumb and weak and made fun of.  i dont think my mom cares....

[bloodlovingemochick]

when my mom found out a year ago they just yelled at me & made it worse =[ i wanted self injure again after they yelled at me & they sent me to therapy....& it didnt help.....so i dont tell my family i only talk about it to one friend & we help each other to stop & so far its working its hard but its working

[beebubbles4]

does anyone find they really dont want to talk to there parents coz it makes things worse...

[BeautyDamaged]

I know exactly how you feel, I am 18yrs old and suffer from bipolar and for me it was genetics. My mother also has it, so she automatically knew that I had it by the age of 11 or 12 by my symptoms; ie. cutting, and mooding swings. I've attempted to committ suicide three times and I don't think therapy has ever helped my depression or the medication doctors have put me on. I hope you're doing better and that your parents are alot more understanding of the things you're going thru.

[tacoseasoning1]

Wow! Sometimes parents can be really harsh...Its kind of sad.

[GalaxySmith18]

My parents are weird to deal with. When I grew up, I had many small.big problems in life. Like, getting along with kids at school, Having surgeries done on me, growing up, never really can be "normal" because of my talking. Can't talk like you do. I was verbal abusive by my father & done it behind my moms back & when she found out she help me & my brother. And that all I have to say, Oh, BTW, the verbal abusive actually stopped when me & my brother threated him we'll leave & it worked.

[GalaxySmith18]

I may not know you, but I hope things are going good.

[stealthis]

I know this is an old video, but I hope you have gotten better. You are so strong. If I had all that you had there is no way I'd survive... and to live alone would be hard too, but that's what you're doing. And wow your mother is ignorant. I am in a similar predicament... tell my parents to try to get help or try to get help secretly? I have to do something.

[blondechic69]

my mom would hit me and i would be in trouble if they saw any cuts or scars, i told a teacher at school and she was unbelievably helpful. she even sat with me while i talked to the guidance counselor. that was 2 years ago and i still am cutting, but it is getting better slowly i think :)

[VCat2006]

Think of the worst people you know, and how you are better than them. Good people agree that unnecessary harm is bad, so if you take care of yourself and don't harass others, then you're doing fine. Don't set your standards too high or too low.

You should not be punished too hard for being a little late. Everyone is late sometimes. And if you're early, just wait there. People just want things to be predictable so they can plan for them.

[WHOUSESALLTHENAMES]

iam lucky my dad understands.and if he cant he at least doesnt pretend to.but he still doesnt know alot and i dont really want him to iam scared to hurt him.but i do relate. mum seems to have alot of problems understanding my depression and anxiety and when i tell her she gets angry and says iam lazy and not appreciative.

[WHOUSESALLTHENAMES]

i live with her ...ugh ,but i

love her and fake being better so we get along better and so she loves me, but it shouldnt have to be this way.

iam sorry and i hope things have gotten better for you.youve definately helped

me and alot of others feel less alone.

[die4ne1]

my parents just ship me off to therapy which just pisses me off and makes me angry and then they dont respect my feelings when it come to the subject of my cutting, sometimes i want to hurt them and get their attention just to make them understand that they're hurting me more than helping and they thought that when they were like "u need to quit cutting" and i would say ok that that meant i would stop. no i didn't and i still havent even though i try to. sometimes there actions make it worse =-(

[pinksugar551]

hey sweetie, i have the same problem with my parents. I think the worst thing that perpetuates our anxiety is exactly what you mentioned in the beginning of your video: the fact that we feel guilty saying our parents are a source of our pain and how they won't try to understand or help. Mine have tried but my mom still gets mad when i have episodes to this day. I get dizzy and scared. I think it's amazing how you can open up like this on here. you are helping more people than you think.

[xxxpunkxrockxgurlxxx]

omfg i no my parents dnt get mee i hate them sumtimes i cnt wait til im 18 and i move out i cnt wait til collage eithr im gone at tht time nj i stil have scars on my arms n my mom n dad nvr nown n they wil nvr snd mee 2 vally or i wuldv ran away i feel like runnin away now wat do i do im depressed rite now n tht doesn help im outrite upset i lost my house, boyfrind, n sum frinds 2 i no i can always come here n watch u wen i have a shitty day thnxx i luv u u have really helped me out thnxx!!!! :D

[passionatlykissme]

agreed.

[rugrats1212]

im never telling anyone

about the things i do to myself

[Arylacrade]

I get out of the house next year, I still have not told my parents, its hard, because my whole family is very catholic, and when I told my cousin, she said I wasn;t appreciating the life god had given me, and I was being overly selfish for cutting, and burning. So now I don't want to tell many people, and hope to not see my parents very often.

[bifflesloveshugs]

thats what im doing, next year im movin out with my boyfriend, and i dont ever wanna se them again because they think im a sinner for cutting and stuff , ifs like ahhh , so i no were u comin frum

[whippy98]

my parents refused to accept my having Borderline Personality and cutting. They still think it was just stress and self-pity. makes me so angry. i have been in hospital and under Psych for years. its much more serious than they think.

[xsullengirlx]

I can definitely understand that. Parents often times don't want to believe their kid could have any real problems, they want to just sweep the issues under the rug and hope it will go away. But it doesn't go away, if anything it makes you feel WORSE when your parents won't acknowledge you. I'm sorry, I hope things get better. Take care.

[easthooligunz]

you would make a good counselor =]

[KRISTENAM2]

when i told my parents about my anxeity n deppression they acted like it was no big deal that i shouldnt be like that when i actually told them bout suicde they didnt really show any reaction .

[wicje]

I dont know your parents, but my mother sometimes barely react to me. That's because she wants to be strong, and doesn't know what to do. She acts really cold, sometimes gets pretty mad...But maybe you can look through it, if that's the case with your parents

[EmilysBloodycorps]

i relate to you and i thank its heard for me to when my mom found out and then she told my grama and then i was packing and my sister was helping me and found my stash of the razers and making me fill like crap and i lied and now its got really bad and i dont now what to do with it im trying to go get help with it but i don't really thank it will work but you have been more of help to now that there are others that go throw the same thang

thank you

[acvrana]

That program is great

[TheKooliesArntCool]

woah. this video is so relatable. I find what my mother says is worse then the school yard sometimes..Sometimes its really difficult but i think nearlly everyone knows that. Keep making interesting/relatable videos because your doing a good job of it.

x

[CammyCe05]

her biggest concern is when i am going to go back to school and/or get a job. so yeah, i can totally understand and truly hope things have improved for you over the past year. keep on posting, because youre a big help for lots of people out there, including myself.

[CammyCe05]

i can totally relate. neither of my parents even acknowledge whats going on with me, even tho it's caused me to have to drop out of college my senior year. i am currently living with my mother, have been for a couple of months, and she has never once asked me how i was doing or inquired about my cutting. however, i am not allowed to wear anything but long sleeved shirts around the house bc she is not yet ready to see what i really look like.

[Broodkill]

i want to fuck you

[morgancook1011]

It's really good to be able to talk about it... Keep making videos. Talk to us...

[mypainhurtsforever]

i can totally understand the denial, my mom has seen me self injur and just completely acted like nothing happened. And now my mom thinks im just not trying hard enough to focus even though i hav ADHD, and she said if i tried i could get rid of it. She even ignores the fact that i hav lost over 22 pounds which is really noticable on a 13 year old girl. I just wish parents could understand better

[iheartTheOfficexo]

They honestly don't understand. They ignore my problems and act like I'm being too dramatic. They don't know what it's like.

[gimpy666420]

No one cant cut u like your parents they say there trying to help but they only make it worse. I stop taking there advice. Do what you feel is right and hang in there some day you will look back on these days and say wow I'm glad thats over and then you will have all the answers. Just get through each day. Don't give up and remember you are the only one who can change your life.

[jessicahanson]

I hide my mental illness to some extent still..yeah my parents know but sometimes they never really understand where I come from at times with my mental illness.

[xsullengirlx]

My parents know too, but I still feel like I have to hide it, because even though they know, they still don't understand. Sorry you have to go through the same things. :(

[saralinx]

I have watched a lot of your videos, and you are so strong and say stuff thath I think a lot of people can relate to. Keep strong, 'cus you seem so strong! I so know what you talk about in this video. I know how stupid it is when parent just don't want t see and hear, even if you speak up and say: THIS IS HOW I FEEL! As I sais, keep strong! You are such an inspiration. (I'm from sweden, my english may not be the best!)

[Ophelia9184]

It's a shame that parents would refuse to understand and that they don't understand how unnecessary the pain they cause is.

[nessamuntz]

I guess what your parents and alot of other people don't realise is that anxiety isn't logical. So it makes sense that in some situations you feel ok but in other situations you don't. Theres not always a rhyme or reason to panic attacks and even people who have been through it, won't necessarily understand another persons anxiety either. But there will be some people who do understand (and not just think they do) May you find those people to help when so many others don't get it at all

[EllieBabiee]

How do you know wether you have anxiety? Becoz i do self harm and my mum dusnt knw bout it , but i dnt knw wever im suffering frm depression or a social problem. Because some days i just feel so bad and.. Wow this is hard putting into words, but who should i talk to i cannot talk to my mum or sister and my friends would just frak out, and i just get so scared and feel so alone.

[xsullengirlx]

there are some things you can do to find out and diagnose yourself. i can refer you to a few websites if you send me a message. It's hard to find someone to talk to... Sometimes you can get counseling without parental consent or payment, and sometimes you can also talk to school counselors. I am sorry you are going through this, if you want to talk send me a message. Take care.

[EllieBabiee]

Tht wud be relli helpful :D

[NosyllaMarie]

I just about cried towards the end of watching this video. Your eyes looked so sad...I have social anxiety disorder and I've gone through a serious depression recently. I can relate to a lot of what you talked about. You're a great help to a lot of people, including myself, for sharing your experiences. Please hang in there.

[weeniebobeenie]

I always thought the worst advice was "Tell a parent or an adult"

My parents definitely ignored my self injury, as well as many other things I did. I know they must have realized I was visibly hysterical or crazed at some points, but they just didn't want to admit it to themselves. I used to sort of crave their attention and subconsciously want them to find out, but I've realized since then that it really wouldn't help. I know them well enough to understand that they wouldn't.

[xsullengirlx]

it seems like you and i are/were in the same boat regarding our parents and the way they reacted to our self injury and problems. I think this might be a common thing with parents, from what I have heard. I guess I would have a hard time accepting my child was hurting themselves too, but as the "child", I guess sometimes you expect different from you parents. You are right, most people would never heed the advice of someone who told them to tell a parent/adult, I know I wouldn't have. Take care.

[whiteboy1028]

i dont like my parents because they make my life shit and i ran away to my friends house for life ...Peace...

[smileyangel75]

dissociative issues? please elaborate. i don't think i've ever heard you discuss these before.

[xsullengirlx]

i'll try to talk about it in a video. :)

[JessicaTheGreatOne]

I really appreciate your honesty. You have helped me so much and I feel like I know so much about you and I've never even spoke to you. thanks a bunch and please don't stop being you.

[xsullengirlx]

Thanks so much for watching, and for your sweet compliments, I appreciate it so much. I will never stop being me, I promise :) Take care xo

[Gorguruga]

Take a look at the WaterCure videos on my channel. It's a ridiculously simple thing but can be effective in the treatment of all physical and mental conditions. Basically its 8 glasses water & 1/2 tsp Sea Salt daily and limiting caffeine intake. Sounds dumb but check out the videos, it's very important info that should at the least alleviate some of the symptoms, if not eventually cure them completely.

[lainonthewired]

Hey Christie I thought maybe my newest video would interest you. Love you and I hope you're doing well. You're a FANTASTIC person by the way.

[razorangelfreak]

I can really sympathize with so much of what you talk about in this video. It's like you took the words out of my head. *hugs*

[lainonthewired]

Christie I love you.  That's all I can say. You are a source of strength for me. I know you aren't lazy or faking it.

[shortemoal]

Maybe Its my speakers, but I cant hear you at all :P

[Starchild91]

Oh, I am so sorry you are feeling like that.

I just wanna hug you!

And my mom thinks I am just being lazy aswell, when it comes to my social anxiety. Maybe it would have been easier if she knew I had it but there is no way I am telling her!

... I'm screwed. xD

[blanklie]

I'm sorry you're feeling that way;as far as your anxiety and counseling goes.I can understand about your parents.I was hospitalized last year and my family went insane when I was in there, but now they don't say a word about my depression/self injury.I guess they want to pretend it's under control, but they're way wrong.How am I supposed to handle it when I'm dealing with it alone at 15? Anyway,sorry for ranting.I'll have you in my thoughts.I hope that things have progressed for your next video

[SilverPoppy]

about your meds, i think you could really use the ativan, just make sure you don't develop tolerance cuz that leads to trouble. :P some lady on tv was an ex valium addict zombie, she had done some serious amounts. like 100 pills a day i think. as long as you take time off them i think it is ok and you don't start to pop that many a day lol.

feel better. :)

[SilverPoppy]

i can't believe your parents! they've obviously not experienced anxiety. i can barely go to the convenience store by myself and the only reason that i can make that trip is because i need booze for my anxiety and my mom won't buy it for me every day. i go with my mom to the other shops. i can't even see a doctor cuz i'm too scared. a job would be ridiculous without serious meds.

[Starlababy]

I wonder why you would feel so bad as a teenager, that you would want to cut youself .I felt great as a teen, friends, music, partys. Being young was fun.

[xsullengirlx]

not everyone has fun as a teenager. i had friends and music and parties as well, but being depressed took the fun out of those things for me, and still does. some people cannot help it... sometimes, those things aren't enough. And other people don't ever get too experience those things at all. I guess it just depends.

[misskriss678]

You sound like you've been crying, or want to at the least.

I'm sorry.

::hug::

[sicheerleader]

here i am 18 and still getting grounded for cutting wow how lame... i need to move out.

[gothnsincity]

I know what you mean, I have dealt with depression but my mother is wrapped up in her own alcoholism and depression and my father is wrapped up in his ex drug addict and bipolar disorder. I think the only one I can really relate to is my sister.

[thisismyspacebugoff]

hey christie, i am confused about the safe alternatives, in another video i thought u said u didnt go cos u didnt want to be on meds? im not saying your lying or anything now, im just wanting to understand, i wish we had something like safe alternatives in britain. meh. xxrachiexx

[xsullengirlx]

I didn't want to get into a loooong speech about what happened and make the video longer. I didn't want to take meds at the time, and my parents said that if I went to SAFE, that I needed to be on meds to help my recovery. I said that I would rather wait on the meds and decide later after i got there, and they said it meant I wasnt ready to recover, and canceled my reservations. I wanted to recover, THEY wanted it on THEIR terms. (of course I am not lying, I just shortened the story for length)

[thisismyspacebugoff]

thats really bad christie, im so sorry your parents didnt give you that opportunity to seek help, is safe #alternatives only for young people or can you go now if you got the money? i hope you have a good day, you deserve it xx

[xsullengirlx]

It's okay hun... You don't have to be sorry. Things happen, I guess. It's on my parents, not anyone else . SAFE is not just for younger people, I don't think they have an age limit. They have a website, if you google it, it will come up. There is also a book that they have written, which is really good, called "bodily harm". Yes, I could and probably would go if I got the money ever again. My insurance from the state now doesn't pay for it. Thanks, I hope you have a good day too xox

[thisismyspacebugoff]

start a donation thing, i would contribute money to ur paypal account to help send you and im sure others would too! xx

[disasterpastor45]

The Federal SSI minimum is $637 a month, a few states pay higher. I don't believe that is an amount that can be lived on without HUD Section 8 assistance for the rent. You would most likely get Medicaid while on SSI. The SS Ticket To Work Program, however, is geared for SSDI people who had triple poverty level salaries before getting ill (program has a 99.5% failure rate). SSI is a financial concentration camp with a very low escape survival rate.

[xsullengirlx]

The SSI is more than I am getting now, however. That's why I am even holding out any hope for it. Thanks for the breakdown and advice though, it is sometimes hard to know where to turn in this kind of situation.

[SarahhRUSH]

I'm sorry!! I guess I was "lucky" because essentially my whole family suffers from anxiety and depression openly and so they know what it's like so it's easy for them to relate and know that I'm not just being dramatic, etc. However, I have friends who don't seem to understand so I know it can be incredibly frustrating! I'm ALWAYS here to talk and you are going to get better I am confident in that! You show them all what you can overcome! :-)

xoxox

[xsullengirlx]

at least your family can understand where you are coming from, that makes a difference. i am sorry you whole family has suffered, but it probably has made things easier on all of you. Thank you for the kind words of encouragement, I appreciate it so much hun. xo

[JazzyKat4Ever]

I haven't told my parents yet about my self-jurying. But I can relate to everything you said in this video. I am very afraid of telling them because I know they will do the very same thing your parents have done...

[xsullengirlx]

I am sorry. I would hope your parents would be more understanding :( *hug*

[mattcolt]

in england you would be on vallium

[xsullengirlx]

I hope that when they put me on xanax or ativan that it works the same way, then. :)

[SpacyStacy32]

My parents do not care either. They forced me to move out. I lost several jobs, right now i haven't paid cc bill, my insurance is getting cancelled. I have no money for rent this month and they just ignore it. I do not see a reason for my life. I keep just pretending this will go away, just like them. But it is not. I cant even pay for my therapy. I dont know what to do. My mom says you just cry out to God. My dad hangs up on me. I am not accepted.

[xsullengirlx]

sounds like we are in EXACTLY the same boat, then... I am so sorry you have to go through this as well, it is so hard... not being able to even pay expenses to LIVE makes things harder and seem more pointless. I hope something works out for you, I really do.

[chrissys31]

I know exactly where your coming from especially having parents that dont think there is a such thing in what I have. I also think parents are alot of the reason ppl have the problems or get them in the first place sometimes. I know its hard to stay strong but girl just keep taking care of your business with you and try to overlook your parents ignorance and denial of all of it. Your on a camera talkin to yourself thats how its so easy to do it same here I cant with anything else!

[xsullengirlx]

I am sorry you have been through the same thing, its tough. I also think parents have a lot to do with why their kids are mentally ill in the first place, so many people tell me that their parents are triggers for them... Thanks for the encouragement and advice, it means a lot :) Take care xo

[rrooklee]

Have you heard of Mercy Ministries? They treat

young girls and women with self-injury, eating

disorders, etc. You can get treatment for 9

months without any insurance or money. It is

free for females 13-28 of age. Check out their website. One girl on the self-injury groups has been there and she says it really helped her. You might want to give it a try if you

are feeling that low.

[xsullengirlx]

I have heard of them, I think a friend of mine online went there. However, I am not religious and have turned away from that sort of thing now, and feel that if I went, it would be a bad decision, because of my beliefs (or lack of them) now... It's tough, because I know it could help, but I don't want to do something like that and go in with the knowledge that I will never believe in their concepts or their faith. But I recommend other people who do believe to seek out that place.

[ParkerWashington]

*hugs*

[xsullengirlx]

xoxo

[oldermaleanamia]

Keep your chin up, Christie...You are truly beautiful, inside and out...

Much love,

Mac

[xsullengirlx]

Thanks so much Mac, you are a sweetheart. Take care xoxox

[marykeniger]

"I don't really want to be here anymore"

I know what that feels like- it's almost impossible to shake that feeling, but when it finally goes, it's like a bad dream, and you can't imagine how you ever got to that stage. I hope you are soon reminded of the things worth sticking around for. Love Mary x

[xsullengirlx]

Hopefully that happens sooner than later then, :) Hope you have been well, you should message me sometime :) xox

[imacoony]

I agree....My parents found out and i spent a week in a mental hospital, after the week, i got home, and they thought it was over...like a fad or something...I'm a cutter, spend a week in a loony bin, then get better, all better....BS. They care, they want to help me, i think about 1/2 of the cost of my stay came out there own money...that was not cheep for a weeks stay...They just don't get it...When it comes to me, money is not a issue, they will spend what it takes to help me................

[marykeniger]

I think mine wanted to believe it wasn't a big deal and so they lapped up my attempts to pretend everything was OK and hide it. They found out by accident, but once everything was out in the open, I felt hurt that they didn't seem to really care, despite what it was costing me.

[NinaDeLaNoche]

Thanks for posting this, Christie. I was "outed" when I told a guidance counselor that I self-injured because I thought she couldn't legally tell my parents. She did. And it was the worse mistake of my life. I had the opposite problem you did. Your parents ignored your problems, my mom shined a glaring spotlight on mine and it was a shameful and very damaging experience. I dreaded therapy. It was the worse experience of my life. I'll be praying for you, hun! And I'll pray for your mom to wake up

[sagwald]

it's really obvious that your parents don't understand your illness. Maybe they should do some research to find out and learn? Or maybe they can join in your therapy?

[Lozzie23]

It's really unfair that your parents are not giving you the support that you need. It almost seems like it's gotten to the point where they don't want you to have these problems, which is completely understandable, but refusing to believe they exist is just making it worse.

[Lozzie23]

It almost seems like it's gotten to the point where they don't want you to have these problems, [[and so they pretend they aren't there*]] That kinda makes more sense now!

I personally don't have problems on the same scale as you, but I really do understand feeling anti-social. I find it really hard to feel comfortable in public, etc.

[xsullengirlx]

sorry about the scratchy sound. I need a new mic, apparently. -christie