Bipolar or Waking Up? 3 of 5: Handcuffed

[slipperypete619]

Haha.... hey 'F'

[bipolarorwakingup]

@PinkCheeseGreenGoes9 I spent many years wondering if I was dead, dreaming, or in the old real world.

I still don't know, but I did get used to it! Besides, its more fun!! :D

[TheLonelyGamer24]

@bipolarorwakingup This is kinda random but it sounds a little like derealization... did you get anxiety alot? or im i wrong?

[bipolarorwakingup]

@TheLonelyGamer24 derealization? Or more realization? I had less anxiety after I integrated this experience. It took a few months though.

[TheLonelyGamer24]

@bipolarorwakingup derealization. anyways this sound different cuz derealization dont include halucinations and felling in touch with god or anything. just plain unrealistic\dead feeling

[oneadamtwelve86]

i love it. i wish i could remember so many details of my story. mine is pretty trippy but not as cool cause i was kinda violent punching things and freaking out and yelling. and im 6'7". so i didnt get a chance to interact with a lot of people. i pretty much got tackled by a group of cops and strapped to a stretcher cause everyone was scared of me

[samanthaeblack11]

Shamans "die" for a symbolic three days and Christ said to his followers that he would separate daughters from mothers and sons from fathers and that they would be no part of the world. What wonderful open stories. I congratulate for staying with it and passing on what you know! Thank you, Samantha

[bipolarorwakingup]

@samanthaeblack11 Thanks Samantha...stick with it, part 4 is pretty good!

[infoanalysis]

Perfect answer Peace. They must have been frustrated with that one

[gustavsonk7]

Ahh Sean only reason I wasn't vulgar during the drugging process was because I thought they were THC pills :)

[gustavsonk7]

Wow I asked them their names as well, like an interview I wanted to conduct hahaha.

[gustavsonk7]

hahaha I thought it was a funny game when I was hancuffed Sean :D

[stillmatic88]

This story is magnificent and I can relate to it on many different levels. I was diagnosed with "bi-polar" a little over a year ago and was prescribed medicine because I was acting as if I was in a frenzy one day. But I was also hospitalized and told that I needed a shot because my blood pressure was high. I didn't want the shot and eventually told them to "gimme the shot." But like you said, it was almost like rape, like it was forced.upon me.

[69Whitehawk]

Have any of you listeners read John Demartini-The Breakthrough Experience.. It would probably assist some of you in understanding the left and right brain functions..Collapsing the story in our lives is part of the process towards Enlightenment.. Thanks for sharing...

[waltermouthoh]

Orange carnelian dissolves all negativity, particularly fear and anger. tiger eye, red jasper and fluorite. Hold in the palm of your hands.

Don't believe me?

Proof is at youtube search "chemtrails dissolved" - orgone pipes use Earth stones/crystals dissolve chemtrails! passive technology. Make orgone and feel great! good site is soisnessdotorg. (metal shavings or coils/spirals? pendulum is just like dowsing which has high regard worldwide. "ask amy pendulums")

[bipolarorwakingup]

Apparently that´s very common and few people know about it. They label it Bipolar 3, I think

[psychawareness]

I have had a very similar experience. Intelligence and mania allows for these kinds of intricate "spiritual" experiences. It is rape, what they did. I was held against my will as well.

The most scandalous part of it all for me is that my manic episode was a reaction to antidepressants that I had been given for OCD and depression.

[sweetelesue]

'spiritual rape' --- EXACTLY

they were so freaking afraid of the fact that they were witnessing an ACTUAL SPIRITUAL EVENT that they immediately acted to control the situation and turn it back into something their lower forms of consciousness could deal with.

[bipolarorwakingup]

I get a lot of comments on my vids, but that's got to be one of the most insightful. thank you!

[Hoperocks2011]

@sweetelesue OMG SO TRUE!! very well said!!!!!

[gofindyoursaint]

thank you so much for sharing your story!

[MsChrispy]

I can't believe they did that to you! I'd have a few choice words for them too. They tell you, "Okay, we won't do it if you calm down. " You calm down and BAM! they just stick it in. WTF?

[bipolarorwakingup]

It was just like that.

[hollywoodartchick]

This is the kind of thing that keeps happening to my friend, too.  Do you believe that a person having a manic episode can choose to keep quiet and sit still? She keeps calling me telling me they are forcing injections on her, and I don't know if 1) she is able to stop her behaviors, or 2) if they would desist even if she did. I just hate to hear about her getting all beat up fighting with them all the time.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Sounds like a tough situation. She needs to be able to work through her process like I was able to, and in a psych hospital, usually that is impossible (for most).

[hollywoodartchick]

Yeah, that was what I kinda figured. I can see why she is too much for her family to handle when she is like that, and I probably couldn't either. It just seems unfair that it is either the hospital or run amok where you can get hurt. I wish there was a place for manic people to chill out on their own safely.

[fmsgirl]

this exact thing just happened to me and still is happening at this moment, as crazy as it sounds im not convinced you nor i are still alive in the sense we were, i do feel i passed that day.

[DelIriSentA]

Oh my god...i can never finish a video before replying...i just find it so funny that someone had a similiar experience and is able to look back on it in such a humerous way as I do...i was VERY happy to see the police...i thought they would take me away from my crazy mother...they didn't. but i was also aware of people being 'allergic' to me and those that sneezed uncontrollably in my presence were 'bad' and those that didnt were ok to talk to...the plants looked alive too...for the first time

[eKilNOSC]

the paramedics were my angles....my test was in the form of numbers as codes.  2, 4, 8 were bad. sentence structure mattered

[bipolarbeth]

i'm sorry you were treated like that. I also had a bad experience in the psych ward...

[MachineAmbition]

Hospitals are pretty void environments. I wonder if a Catholic hospital would see talk re: God experiences in a different light. Anyway, in hospitals, authorities hand people things to take and don't tell you what they are, and sometimes, the people there don't even care what they are - to me that's an ethics violation people should get mad about, even if the drugs helped them in some way.

[bipolarorwakingup]

From what I understand, not one hospital will ever validate your expereience.

[MachineAmbition]

Well, "validate," is something I wouldn't want them to do anyway. It would probably just be ok for a start if the doctors,etc. didn't assume all such experiences are undesirable/to be avoided. I was given at least some understanding in "well, I'm sure it felt very real at the time" - of course, I don't mind being called "bizarre," and see it as a compliment, whereas other people might have a problem with that.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Personally, I got tired of hearing "nice" people tell me, that they understand that it was my "interpretation". Mind you, I guess its better than hearing, "you´re fucked!" ;D

[DelIriSentA]

no, they do not tell you what they are giving you...i was sitting quitely watching TV occasionally talking to some guy to my right when this nurse came and gave me these three pills...i asked what they were she said just to take em and in my state of enlightenment i realized they were sedative drugs, but i also knew how much worse things would get if i resisted..i took em and rolled over on my side and watched the thermometer for a while before i started hallucinating and passed out.

[MachineAmbition]

I think it's one thing if its involuntary, and another if not. I understand how horrible it would be for the former - really, wanting to be there isn't much better. I was annoyed more once I could actually think better on the drugs that I wasn't told what they were or given information on the side effects - at the time I didn't care what happened and gladly would have downed a bleach/vomit cocktail if someone would have offered it. Which is sad in itself, but how I felt none the less.

[DelIriSentA]

well you meant the drugs they give you to stay on permanently or at least for a year whatever...i didnt get those until i got my permanent shrink...those cause memory loss and made me feel like a zombie...a bleach and vomit cocktail would have made me feel better too :)

too bad, we could have met up for one....lol

[uncrownedboss]

great videos thank you thank you thank you im bipolar also and i see what ur saying but its tripping me out a bit but also giving me hope.

[nicolvaleri]

The funny thing is : if you were in India they would think you was reaching enlightment and take you to an ashram! in the west they call us fools... this is the LEVEL OF OUR SOCIETY!... I feel so sorry for this world

[RhiannonRachaels]

I do respect the fact that someone agrees with me as far as overmedicating everyone. I just don't know yet about the enlightenment thing.

[bipolarorwakingup]

I opened the door on the 'enlightenment' issue last year. This year I plan of clarifying the potential as well at the dangers.

[LaviniaOleander]

confused: is there a part 2?

[LaviniaOleander]

never mind i found it. :)

[joe6panther6]

I remember my stay at the hospital for severe depression. This psychologist came into my room every day when I never even requested one in the first place.. Spoke to me maybe two or three minutes then had the nerve to send me a bill for each time she visited me.

She was never paid for anything. She's not getting a dime from me! Let the insurrance handle her.

[bipolarorwakingup]

It's all about the benjamins, baby...You're not a patient, your a loyal client.

[odddom4]

Sounds very much like my story, brother. Thanks again

[morbeck]

interesting.

[mrspoohs]

I'm diagnosed with Bipolar.... meds on and off for 6 years. I'm scared to believe what your saying. It's like, "COULD THIS BE TRUE?" I'm also excited to watch the rest of your videos. I saw the one with the EGG and it started me on a search for more by you.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Yes, Mr.Spoohs...my story is all true. And there are a few other stories from others who have healed their difficult procees on my blog. You can access it from my channel. If you have been diagnosed as bipolar, I strongly encourage you to watch everything on my channel and check out the blog. You owe it to yourself. You MAY be able to heal one day. But it will take courage and a lot of faith!

[batterypack0973]

I like how you dont label your experience as going crazy but as a sacred journey...i think that is the truth of it and that every person with bipolar circumstances should let loose also...but its a big a risk ya know...alot of people could end up as bums on the street, mostly teenagers after graduating highschool.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Yes, teenagers today our completely unprepared for this. That's why the culture needs to change. As long as the crisis is supported in a positive way and people aren't afraid to talk about it, I don't think we'll lose too many. People stay crazy when they can't share what is happening inside of them.

[batterypack0973]

wheres the best place one should go to share if no one close to them cares?

[bipolarorwakingup]

Very good question. Many people who have contacted me say that, right where you are is best - the Internet. I'll send you a few forums where kids like yourself connect on different subjects. Icarius Project is one. I'll send you the links.

[batterypack0973]

I also looked up a transpersonal psychiatric but he recommended I try meds, but idea I dont trust meds.

[deepwater03]

Can you send me the links as well?

[AlterEgoTrip]

It was a violation of your TRUST, naturally you are going to be violent if you have your trust violated. Rape is also a violation of your trust and vunerablity as a human, someone inflicting power over you unnessisarily.. and yet with medicine it happens every day; this is why I feel strongly about what you have to say and how we all collectively should be prepared to help in a benifical way; not just for a "mental health" episode, but for any situation where people need to show compassion.

[Ouroboros6]

When I was ill I wasn't locked up or tied down, but I felt like my body, my house and the earth were physical shackles so to speak.

[Ouroboros6]

I love your sense of humour. It's the thing that has helped me the most I think.

;)

[z8tl]

2nd motion for rape.