We are all disappointing the world. We still haven't cured cancer. We've been fighting wars since the dawn of mankind, still haven't achieved peace. The difference is that you care. You don't owe anybody anything. Let people be disappointed.
stay strong, ur trying and thats what counts. keep eating and keeping your food down and you'll gain wieght. I know how u feel, i'm trying to gain weight and get better from anerxia.. I'll eat and think i need to fast for 24hr cuz I feel so guilty. in the past month I lost 15lb and wiegh 110lb but honestly my body aches from not eating food and I'm constantly spacing out as if I'm weed. But when I eat I feel so much better and I just try to concentrate on how much better I feel.keep up gd work
Eating disorders run in my family, so I know how hard it must be for you to try and keep food down. Just know that we're all with you every step of the way as you seek balance in your life.
im been thinking that frist god , and god will health you from this disease that you have also me a been vegan seen collage but then i become raw know trun , but still i love hello kittty , and everything i also have the same problem as you iwas wondering are you guy , god can heal you and alwyas be there with you for the rest of your life as well. god bless you and your family
Hi, from your videos I can see that you're doing very well. You are smart and you understand your problem, that's good. But there's something bad... I'm a bulimic, too, and I'm only 16. I'm scared of myself, but I can't stop thinking of food, eating it, and then feeling so dirty and fat, Oh, God, I'm sorry to bother you with my stupid problems, but I really need help, and I don't know who can help me, and how... I'm scared
i know logically that its meant to be a complement when someone says I look healthy but I hear it as "your getting fat" ugh . My thoughts are annoying.
I totally understand what you are going through and I wish I was as strong as you! You are an AMAZING person!! You are strong and my inspiration to try and stop!
I love how your room is decorated....I just want to play Barbie dolls with you...and I'm 38.....I collect dolls....and I have a doll house in my bedroom also.
You are so cute! I have ana and mia as well and when I saw you fighting in this video I just thought; omg you are so strong! I wish now that I hadn´t throw up my dinner earlier... I wish I was strong like you. What means raw food? Is that like raw meat or is it vegetarian? ´Cause I am a vege and I have thoughts about this raw food thing. Love you, you´re great!
My heart really goes out to you...pretty much now the only reason why I watch any eating disorder related videos is because I feel so completely alone. I have that hatred of feeling full as well, and I know how hard it is to fight it for once after being on autopilot to always "fix" that feeling. It's all in your hands. I wish you the best in recovery, I know its not easy. <3 You aren't disappointing anyone, its an inspiration to others that are struggling. Sending you love, darling.
arent you scared to throw up? im someone who eats and eats, im so upset about it, so guilty. /: i go on soooooo many diets, and ive been on the atkins diet. im getting more obsessed with the scale.. but ive always thought of throwing up.
you are so brutally honest and frank inyour videos; a lot of people cannot articulate their thoughts the way you do. [thats a good thing] Do you ever think of making a response video to some of your earlier ones?
i have been watching ur videos and i know exactly wat ur going through... i have the same problem ... i fight with myself not to purge after every meal.... im so sick of it. thankyou for being brave enough to make ur videos
I love your room, you shoud think about decoration and forget about the food. if you find another hobbie you will fill better. i was anorexic and bulimic but not anymore i still skiny but in a heathy way.i dont need to be perfect anymore i just want to live a lot and live better with no pain or wikness...and it works. Im Free...the key is keeping balance on everything you do. no obsessions...i hope understand what i sad, im learnig how to writte in english. =)
I understand completely what you're going through. I'm glad you fought the courage to not purge. You're a beautiful person inside & out. Keep fighting this disgusting disease.
Oh, one thing I read is to buy L-tryptophan because it helps with food cravings and bulimia. Does something to regulate moods with your brain.
you are such a beautiful person. i hope that you recover from this horrible disease and don't have to suffer with it any longer. i love your bedroom it is really nice and i think that it will look really nice once you have finished decorating. i really hope that you het better soon, and don't stop believing in yourself and in no time you will be living a healthy life.. you are a beautiful person...don't do this to yourself because you don't diserve it
I know EXACTLY how you feel, that "full feeling" was one of the biggest factors keeping me from recovering from bulimia. Even if I was full from eating grapes and cucumbers I'd still want to purge. Even tho those were "safe foods" I'd still have issues with them if I ate too many. I've started making myself eat reeeeally slow, and stop when I'm still slightly hungry to avoid that full feeling. Eating every 2-3 hours instead of just 3 times a day has been a big help since you eat less at a time
I love you! dont worry. i hate feeling full too. mine is lik3e 'go empty the evil horror fukin huge mess thats gathering inside' and i worry wats inside me, even if its a tin of mushrooms. which makes me feel worse since watching yr vids. all that salt opreservatives agh x
If you need to talk, message me. I'm struggling from ednos. bulimic& anorexic tendacies. I know how hard it is to try to recover, I've tried. Always failed. Good luck and amazing job. You're amazing.<3
i really like you, unlike the other bulimics or anorexics, u try to fight back, and you WANT to get better, i admire u so much for that . your face is gaining colors, your face looks healthier, that's what I would mean. and your not disappointing anyone :) . by the way, ur room is totaly cute !!! omg, i'd love to have a room like that !! and i love the covers of ur bed, the ones u showed us at the beggining. <3 i know ull get better, i believe in you.
push through it sweetie, push through the full feeling...i know what you mean, its the worst all you can think about it being full and you want to be empty
Just wondering, how long have you been Raw, i.e., eating only raw food. And did you see an overall improvement in your overall health? Just wondering, cause I am thinking of going Raw as well.
I have videos on this if you care to see... go to my video blog and search healing with raw foods. I should have a 2 part series on this. I have been raw for 4 years, it's saved my life. I hope you look into it, it's how we were all biologically intended to eat.
This is a serious account with serious videos and I am seriously helping many people in serious positions. I think the only thing fake is your attitude here. If you don't connect with my videos simply don't watch.
@MyOwnStickFigure I enjoy watching your videos, I admire you for talking about your ED, it helps others to rethink their train of thought, I understand how hard it is to get to the point to be able to talk about it, I can so relate to things you have said in your videos, i have struggled with an eating disorder for many years as well. Thanks again for your videos
I am a raw foodist. I don't drink milk or take fake vitamins, I get them in my food. Please do not give me dietary advice, thank you. On another note, thank you for the support to get well.
No, been asked to be on that show but did not go through. Maybe you saw me on ABC 20/20 - I went on national news back in Sept 2008 and they brought up raw food... I was eating raw zucchini pasta... with hello kitty dishware...
oh yeah that was it then because you definitely look familiar...
i appreciate how real you keep things in your blog...raw and honest emotion isn't something you see everyday and i think more people should be like you :)
hes gorgeous and just fighting a serious disorder and he is trying his hardest to recover. he didnt chose to have it and i admire his strength to resist purging. its inspiring. :) <3 keep fighting xx
I need your room.... Seriously. It will be mine.... ^.^ This is the first video I've seen from you. I'm terrified because you want to stop and eat and not throw up, but it's agonizing. I don't want that to happen to me! I don't want to be trapped! YAGHHHHHHH!!!!!
i love your body piercings and tattoos! i really hope you can fight this.... i have seen so many people struggle with this... good luck and i will be watching all your new vids.
I definitely admire you. It's so difficult to struggle with any disease, disorder, or syndrome and the fact that you realize that you have a problem and that you are trying to take care of it... that is just a wonderful step to take. Bravo, and I hope everything goes your way. You can definitely do it.
so dont say u wont make it u will i all ready survived i had the liver tansplant and i still got to take the medicine. by the way are u a girl or a guy ?
heyy i have been fighting a liver problem and ur not the only one i been like this for like ever and there is no way to fix it so i have to take medicine for it and i do the same thing is u it is hard for me to eat stuff but i eat it anyway no matter what happens to me or you just say your gods angel and ur mine to so keep it up and u will survived.
I think you are beautiful inside. Whether your 78 lbs or 400 - you are beautiful. Thank you for reaching out - it helps me and I hope it is helping you, too.
ok the best thing to do is do some thing realy active and that will reliese endorfins and that will make u happy and forget about the weight thing and alot of times make u happy with ur self
bulimia isnt a disease.....its jsut a mental thing that you have to fight...not that ur not doing it....but still dont bring so much pity onto urself...
Thanks love, who was this comment to? Not sure if it was for me or someone below - or if I made a mistake in this video... I've known about all versions of the DSM for a long time... I own our current, IV version. I'm a psych major, are you too? if so, what area do you plan to work in? And yes you are smart!
I'm majoring in Liberal Studies with consentrations in Art and Psychology, I don't really know where I'm going with that maybe Art therapy, basically I just study what I think is interesting. What field do you plan on working in?? And FYI I think what you do here on youtube is awsome, you give yourself a form of self therapy and also give hope to other people who watch your videos. Go you!!
Thank you, best of luck to you. I plan to get a PHD in Human Sexuality with a background major in Psychology. I also plan to use art and dance/movement therapy in my practice.
Ohhh I am watching this as I type... I am not a big fan of the DSM and refer to it as the Big Book... maybe that's what you meant. The word I was looking for was criteria, I was very out of it in this video. I have a video called Weight Discrimmination and Ed Diagnosis where I rant about the DSM IV - if you search my video log. Thanks for the feedback and support xo
I'm very very proud of you. I don't even know you, and you're trying so hard. Don't give up! I believe that one day you will be at a healthy weight. You're definately not a disappointment.
hon, your a beutiful person. you don't have to care about disappointing up. you don't disappoint me at all, the fact that your trying and you care about trying is such an inspiration to me. i wish you knew how much i cared. :)
Hi! How are You doing? Gee, I keep on watching Your videos over and over, don't know why, I think I could pretty love everything of You, I love Your personality, Your deepness, Your room, everything...please, keep on fighting!! You are such a determined person, sooo sensitive, so damned smart!!
Please take care of You!
Please do it for Yourself, You seem to be such a good, worthy person!
Hey, this is the first time i've watched one of your vidios and i have to say that i admire you for trying to beat your eating disorder. I know it must be difficult and even if you havn't gained as much weight as you'd like, i still think you're doing really well. Keep it up !! =D x
I have actually wanted to go on a diet by not eating because i am 16 yrs old and i am 148 pounds and i think that is bad for my age, i have a big stomach but you have shown me that i dont need to do that i could just eat healthy and hope for the best. KEEP STRONG! You keep up with the not throwing up. i hate feeling full too but, i eat to stay healthy. You have given me so much inspiration to not do that to my body. Thank you so much.
By the way, you are very beautiful no matter what!
I've watched a few of your videos, I think you're a very unique person and strong enough to overcome your disorder. Stay strong, you will gain more weight :) eat healthy your body needs all the nutrients it has lost. Distracting yourself and staying positive seems to be working for you! keep it up!
i think your quirky, unique and you have a wonderful personality. i congratulate you on you're efforts to fight this demon called bulimia, im bulimic too, so i know. but keep going strong because you have so much to offer....and by the way.....can i have your room its adorable!!!!?? and that computer is bad ass.
You are in my heart!! I love you hunnie!! I battled with This and im in recovery..you are okay hunnie!! Your in my prayers!! And you are loved!! You are looking a lot healthier I think you are doing a beautiful job, jus keeep working hun! Your in prayers!!!
watching you talking about your problem is making me very sad. you can't escape from your body - it is you! please, learn to love yourself as you are. ps: you seem to be a very cute and lovely person.
i watch this video everytime I feel the same way. and it helps me alot. You really have a great way of dealing with your illness and reading the signs from your body, but at the same time trying to do something postive about it..... your a big inspiration to me for my recovery.... keep on being strong, but most of all keep on being you! your videos help me everyday
You are a really strong person and you can get through this. I think you can make this world a better place, because your video's are really great. I'm from the Netherlands and I know a lot of people who have anorexia or boulimia (or both) and I think if they see your movies it could really help them to see that what they are doing is very unhealthy and wrong. I wish you very much luck and really hope you will get better.
Hope you can read it a little bit, my english is not that great hihi:)
johnny you aren't dissapointing anyone you're trying to get better for yourself so you should be proud of yourself especially since keeping food or shakes in is really hard for you...i really hope you got through this urge without purging, but even if you didn't i still love you! *hugs* i love your room! pink everywhere and i love pink!
even though u are taking about this in alot of your videos ... i still fell a ray of sunshine from you. You could try veg raw protean shakes. Good luck we all love ya.
i think your videos are amazing. Your definetely not promoting anorexia/bulimia. But your telling your life story and what your going through. Just letting you know, your videos are supporting alot of people and letting them understand from a personal view.
im sorry, i have to tell you this and its not a "bla bla bla, now im trying to make him feel better about himself" its actually for real.
you are sooo handsome :$ like YOU - if you keep going strong, gain some weight, youre gonna ROCK! you got the most beautiful lips, i looove your eyes and your hair is just great?!?!?! and i think your tattoos are pretty cool. seriously. okay ima girl, but if i was a guy, i would die to look as cute as you lol. you can do this !
Now that is a real ignorant quesiton. You could easily go read my profile. You could also take the time to educate yourself before asking questions like this, limiting genders to just boy or girl, as if there wasn't any others. I really hope you EDUCATE yourself.
im so drawn to you and your vids.. even after everything that you are going through you still have such a charasmatic personality! The colour of your shirt definately compliments your skin tone :) I completely agree with your comment about weight not being factor of "how much" of an anorexic you are.. thus "how much" you are suffering. You are awesome!!
you have such a cute room and i love the dolls house!! i could seriously distract myself just looking at your pottery barn bed linen. I absolutely love fresh green with pink. your room looks like a real little haven - the light coming in is delicious - makes me feel like curling up for a little snooze myself.
you did really good in distracting yourself. i know its tough. tough but worth it right.
I have bulimia too.. dont know what too say than I feel u and i have all right to say that, i really UNDERSTAND your pain
MonaTheBellydancer 1 week ago
I loveee your rooom, its sooo cute, i would so get you to decorate for me!! <3
beautyfulldoll11 2 weeks ago
you can fight it buddy. ur way to skinny you will recover we will help you no matter what
izzie5502 1 month ago
Damn you're fat!!!
Robertjcksn40 2 months ago
you are the cutest thing ever. <3 stay strong :)
2liveonly 3 months ago
love ur room ur so effin cool we could totally hang out! i love people that keep it real.
fmhicks 3 months ago
"I feel like I'm disappointing the world."
We are all disappointing the world. We still haven't cured cancer. We've been fighting wars since the dawn of mankind, still haven't achieved peace. The difference is that you care. You don't owe anybody anything. Let people be disappointed.
qwexas 4 months ago
I <3 U!!! Please DONT stop what you are doing you are doing GrEAT! <3 I totally <3 your room and how real you are :)
sireniaaida 4 months ago
stay strong, ur trying and thats what counts. keep eating and keeping your food down and you'll gain wieght. I know how u feel, i'm trying to gain weight and get better from anerxia.. I'll eat and think i need to fast for 24hr cuz I feel so guilty. in the past month I lost 15lb and wiegh 110lb but honestly my body aches from not eating food and I'm constantly spacing out as if I'm weed. But when I eat I feel so much better and I just try to concentrate on how much better I feel.keep up gd work
89countrygal 4 months ago
Eating disorders run in my family, so I know how hard it must be for you to try and keep food down. Just know that we're all with you every step of the way as you seek balance in your life.
bmittenbirdie 5 months ago
i watched 46 seconds of it ,
and i already love it :]
Pinkskitty 5 months ago
Is this a woman or man? Male or female?
zamardii12 5 months ago
@zamardii12 male, notice the gotiee
kjandu100 4 months ago
@zamardii12 Facial hair dumbass
elm1230 4 months ago
i wanna give you a hug xoxox i really hope you feel better soon
EsmeXLee 5 months ago
I'm not bulimic but I can't even imagine how strong u must be :) I hope u get better
snickerFeen96 6 months ago
asco
sheilamoz 6 months ago
im been thinking that frist god , and god will health you from this disease that you have also me a been vegan seen collage but then i become raw know trun , but still i love hello kittty , and everything i also have the same problem as you iwas wondering are you guy , god can heal you and alwyas be there with you for the rest of your life as well. god bless you and your family
07brendabby 7 months ago
i just want to give you a hug xx evrything will be ok, never stop giving up!
Sunburnx17 7 months ago
i wish i was as small as you
:c
southparkstanandkyle 8 months ago
Hi, from your videos I can see that you're doing very well. You are smart and you understand your problem, that's good. But there's something bad... I'm a bulimic, too, and I'm only 16. I'm scared of myself, but I can't stop thinking of food, eating it, and then feeling so dirty and fat, Oh, God, I'm sorry to bother you with my stupid problems, but I really need help, and I don't know who can help me, and how... I'm scared
FuCkThEGoLd 8 months ago
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i love you. you can beat this.
pinkGob 8 months ago
U seem like an amazing person . Ur very brave :)
Naomilashelle95 8 months ago
U seem like an amazing person :) ur very brave.
Naomilashelle95 8 months ago
You seem like such an awesome person to hang out with
BrokenWingz971 8 months ago
i know logically that its meant to be a complement when someone says I look healthy but I hear it as "your getting fat" ugh . My thoughts are annoying.
canadalady 9 months ago
wow, i really like you. youre such a cute person. good luck! you can do the shit. (:
eatingdisorded 9 months ago
I feel for you hon,,, i hope you get better...
MeUAndLiqour 10 months ago
I totally understand what you are going through and I wish I was as strong as you! You are an AMAZING person!! You are strong and my inspiration to try and stop!
snowstar08 10 months ago
You can do this. SURVIVE and LIVE.
okaminess 10 months ago
o.o dnt throw up! then
kuntyfacedbitch 11 months ago
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kuntyfacedbitch 11 months ago
You are beautiful. I hope that you have a supportive network of friends and family.
dancingzira 11 months ago
gay
MSDOITYOURSELFGIRL80 11 months ago
you are an inspiration.
Minkz89 1 year ago
are you gay or bi ?
nickteen1 1 year ago
queer
shartdartfart 1 year ago
you would be hot if you didnt look like a skeleton and your voice is so cute.
Owlhousespecial 1 year ago
you're so vulnerable and sweet, i just want to hug you :(
mettabee 1 year ago
you make me smile, :) I love your bedroom i want it so bad: P
BBONK95 1 year ago
I love how your room is decorated....I just want to play Barbie dolls with you...and I'm 38.....I collect dolls....and I have a doll house in my bedroom also.
nes11727 1 year ago
you are so beautiful!
puck0630 1 year ago
good rooom you are special...
videoslatina 1 year ago
wow i wish i was as strongg as u... itts reallyy hard 2 recover but itt is veryy possible!!! stay strong hun <3
191hottttstuff 1 year ago
man i remember when i wuz kinda like this
only i was going to depression n food felt disgusting to me
felt horrible
was pale, weak , n felt dizzy
yo trust me if u try hard, youll get through it ;)
im good now,n im sure u can get better
musiclover1ism 1 year ago
I positively LOVE your room! You're such an inspiration in every way!
VeganSunShine1 1 year ago
Oh my gosh! Honey you're brave.!
I am never capable to distract before you know it the toothbrush is down my throat!
Thank you sooooooo very much for metioning how you can have anorexia thin or not.! Thank you, buddy! I am 145 pounds and 5 feet. (Embarrasing! :(
And I have had anorexia for 3 years now!
lizachristine 1 year ago
there are doctors who specialise in ed for males.
jeniferfelice 1 year ago
You're gorgous.
taraateedge 1 year ago
You are so cute! I have ana and mia as well and when I saw you fighting in this video I just thought; omg you are so strong! I wish now that I hadn´t throw up my dinner earlier... I wish I was strong like you. What means raw food? Is that like raw meat or is it vegetarian? ´Cause I am a vege and I have thoughts about this raw food thing. Love you, you´re great!
SimoneeRose 1 year ago
man your tiny!
i wish i had your weight!
and i know exactly how you feel i try not purgin but its greater than me. D:
17babybug 1 year ago
du bist so mutig!
ich bewundere dich für deine Ehrlichkeit!
Das ist die nackte Wahrheit.
Du hast so viel Liebe in deinen Augen, verlier sie nicht durch Bulimie.
Im a bulimic too...
scully31289 1 year ago
My heart really goes out to you...pretty much now the only reason why I watch any eating disorder related videos is because I feel so completely alone. I have that hatred of feeling full as well, and I know how hard it is to fight it for once after being on autopilot to always "fix" that feeling. It's all in your hands. I wish you the best in recovery, I know its not easy. <3 You aren't disappointing anyone, its an inspiration to others that are struggling. Sending you love, darling.
Bloodyhell2987 1 year ago
you are so sweet hon....you are a princess! i love your room. Get well please, get well..you can do this!
batnat2002 1 year ago
i hate this!i need anybody to talk to. if anybody wants to talk,message me.
fmaotaku2010 1 year ago
Hang in there
luke11620 1 year ago
arent you scared to throw up? im someone who eats and eats, im so upset about it, so guilty. /: i go on soooooo many diets, and ive been on the atkins diet. im getting more obsessed with the scale.. but ive always thought of throwing up.
musicluver71 1 year ago
you are so brutally honest and frank inyour videos; a lot of people cannot articulate their thoughts the way you do. [thats a good thing] Do you ever think of making a response video to some of your earlier ones?
galaxycat3 1 year ago
i have been watching ur videos and i know exactly wat ur going through... i have the same problem ... i fight with myself not to purge after every meal.... im so sick of it. thankyou for being brave enough to make ur videos
natalie0850 1 year ago
this vidio was posted on my birrthday, and i was basically doing the same thing, fighting the urge to purge.
Brooke12190 1 year ago
I love your room, you shoud think about decoration and forget about the food. if you find another hobbie you will fill better. i was anorexic and bulimic but not anymore i still skiny but in a heathy way.i dont need to be perfect anymore i just want to live a lot and live better with no pain or wikness...and it works. Im Free...the key is keeping balance on everything you do. no obsessions...i hope understand what i sad, im learnig how to writte in english. =)
Laninutz 1 year ago
We love you!
Fight the urges!
shiningstars109 1 year ago
persevere ! we know you can do it =) and be back to your healthy self again !
biitchymilktea 2 years ago
I wish you all the world's luck you need to get healthy again.
Grulai 2 years ago
EXACTLY full= go empty your stomic now. i cannot allow myseld to get full..
PaulaAbdulRoxxxx6 2 years ago
WE LOVE YOU
sasodiits 2 years ago
I identity soooo much with that "full feeling" thing... I never know how to describe it, but it just disgusts me. x
magicalcharlotte 2 years ago 2
Don't feel like you're dissapointing us. This shit isn't something you snap out of, there are roadbumps.
Just keep swimming...swimming, swimming...
MsBloggerAnonymous 2 years ago 6
Oh, I totally agree with your comment on anorexia. Not all anorexics are skeleton looking.
EyesAreOpen07 2 years ago 3
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Stereotype.
MsBloggerAnonymous 2 years ago
I understand completely what you're going through. I'm glad you fought the courage to not purge. You're a beautiful person inside & out. Keep fighting this disgusting disease.
Oh, one thing I read is to buy L-tryptophan because it helps with food cravings and bulimia. Does something to regulate moods with your brain.
EyesAreOpen07 2 years ago
You are just the most adorable thing ever. I wish you wellness, take care...
Kateosaurus 2 years ago
you are such a beautiful person. i hope that you recover from this horrible disease and don't have to suffer with it any longer. i love your bedroom it is really nice and i think that it will look really nice once you have finished decorating. i really hope that you het better soon, and don't stop believing in yourself and in no time you will be living a healthy life.. you are a beautiful person...don't do this to yourself because you don't diserve it
TheFreedomToFly 2 years ago 22
I know EXACTLY how you feel, that "full feeling" was one of the biggest factors keeping me from recovering from bulimia. Even if I was full from eating grapes and cucumbers I'd still want to purge. Even tho those were "safe foods" I'd still have issues with them if I ate too many. I've started making myself eat reeeeally slow, and stop when I'm still slightly hungry to avoid that full feeling. Eating every 2-3 hours instead of just 3 times a day has been a big help since you eat less at a time
sublimelmf 2 years ago
I love you! dont worry. i hate feeling full too. mine is lik3e 'go empty the evil horror fukin huge mess thats gathering inside' and i worry wats inside me, even if its a tin of mushrooms. which makes me feel worse since watching yr vids. all that salt opreservatives agh x
xMiaddictionx 2 years ago
you should be my best friend... you dont disappoint me or anyone else... you will be ok
samoyeds4fun 2 years ago
If you need to talk, message me. I'm struggling from ednos. bulimic& anorexic tendacies. I know how hard it is to try to recover, I've tried. Always failed. Good luck and amazing job. You're amazing.<3
RiseAgainstFan13 2 years ago
Omg I just saw all of your hello kitty stuff
You are my hello kitty soul mate
I LOVE hello kitty :D
pertyfulness 2 years ago
You are amazing dear
you are in my prayers :)
pertyfulness 2 years ago
i wish nothing but da best for u .... =)
adrii0722 2 years ago
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TheSquidish 2 years ago
Hello I am anorexic and I am so sorry for you. If you need to talk message me.
lovemybones88 2 years ago
Just found your videos & watching with my Mum.
We both love you & wishing you much health, happiness and strength.
Never give up - your vlog WILL help others :)
xxx lots of love
JolieJane 2 years ago
I LOVE that you said that not all people battling anorexia are stick thin!...so many people do -not- understand that....
SweetSwissMiss 2 years ago 3
i really like you, unlike the other bulimics or anorexics, u try to fight back, and you WANT to get better, i admire u so much for that . your face is gaining colors, your face looks healthier, that's what I would mean. and your not disappointing anyone :) . by the way, ur room is totaly cute !!! omg, i'd love to have a room like that !! and i love the covers of ur bed, the ones u showed us at the beggining. <3 i know ull get better, i believe in you.
iloveshanedawson1 2 years ago 2
i love your "never never never give up" sign
leatherlips33 2 years ago
haha your room's not messy AT ALL XD
Seccrenicche 2 years ago
push through it sweetie, push through the full feeling...i know what you mean, its the worst all you can think about it being full and you want to be empty
appleAdayKepsmiaAway 2 years ago
Just wondering, how long have you been Raw, i.e., eating only raw food. And did you see an overall improvement in your overall health? Just wondering, cause I am thinking of going Raw as well.
tfh962 2 years ago
I have videos on this if you care to see... go to my video blog and search healing with raw foods. I should have a 2 part series on this. I have been raw for 4 years, it's saved my life. I hope you look into it, it's how we were all biologically intended to eat.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
you're rooms cute :)
brniedbeauty 2 years ago 2
grr i know this feeling. ily. grrr.... i rly wanna cry atm. xoxoxox send u all my love honey!
lacycyrus 2 years ago
This comment has received too many negative votes show
Are you acting or being serious because a lot of the time you seem fake. Anyway good luck.
derrick505 2 years ago
This is a serious account with serious videos and I am seriously helping many people in serious positions. I think the only thing fake is your attitude here. If you don't connect with my videos simply don't watch.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago 10
you tell 'em johnny!
<3
leatherlips33 2 years ago
@MyOwnStickFigure I enjoy watching your videos, I admire you for talking about your ED, it helps others to rethink their train of thought, I understand how hard it is to get to the point to be able to talk about it, I can so relate to things you have said in your videos, i have struggled with an eating disorder for many years as well. Thanks again for your videos
ashvariety 1 year ago
@derrick505 sometimes bipolar is a sideeffect of an ED
umijenny 4 months ago
awe your room is so cute omg lol. hey i think you looks kinda scene or emo..i like it ^-^
loveashd 2 years ago
I think you can fight it one step at a time.
Maybe for now, you can drink milk coz that will really help you gain weight even 250ml so u dont feel full. Also, take multivitamins daily.
You are a sweet person and i hope you get out of this soon.
stanbalo 2 years ago 5
I am a raw foodist. I don't drink milk or take fake vitamins, I get them in my food. Please do not give me dietary advice, thank you. On another note, thank you for the support to get well.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago 4
did i see you on true life one time? raw food...i think you were eating sunflower seeds or something
Lyd
thechemicalexplosive 2 years ago
No, been asked to be on that show but did not go through. Maybe you saw me on ABC 20/20 - I went on national news back in Sept 2008 and they brought up raw food... I was eating raw zucchini pasta... with hello kitty dishware...
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
oh yeah that was it then because you definitely look familiar...
i appreciate how real you keep things in your blog...raw and honest emotion isn't something you see everyday and i think more people should be like you :)
thechemicalexplosive 2 years ago
ur rooom is sooo cute!
explicitlaydee 2 years ago
bless ur heart..u can fight it babe just try reallyyy hard..NEVER GIVE UP!!!!
NaNaBayyBee 2 years ago
Okay.
jedimastergimli 2 years ago
hes gorgeous and just fighting a serious disorder and he is trying his hardest to recover. he didnt chose to have it and i admire his strength to resist purging. its inspiring. :) <3 keep fighting xx
XxVioletEssencexX 2 years ago
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XxVioletEssencexX 2 years ago
ahh, bless you sweetie, i know where you're coming from
squazzer 2 years ago
understand this video totally
jackpickman 2 years ago
well done 4 showin ur face i know personally how difficult it is 2 even do that wen u hav dysorphia
TuRdSandwitch18 2 years ago
I need your room.... Seriously. It will be mine.... ^.^ This is the first video I've seen from you. I'm terrified because you want to stop and eat and not throw up, but it's agonizing. I don't want that to happen to me! I don't want to be trapped! YAGHHHHHHH!!!!!
MyLadyofGenki 2 years ago
i am so proud of you for your strength to overcome this urge, and making a video instead of giving in to your weakness.
carisaabbott 2 years ago
i love your body piercings and tattoos! i really hope you can fight this.... i have seen so many people struggle with this... good luck and i will be watching all your new vids.
meladon3 2 years ago
I definitely admire you. It's so difficult to struggle with any disease, disorder, or syndrome and the fact that you realize that you have a problem and that you are trying to take care of it... that is just a wonderful step to take. Bravo, and I hope everything goes your way. You can definitely do it.
Placebo966 2 years ago
This is exactly how I feel right now.
SugarMagnolia20 2 years ago
so dont say u wont make it u will i all ready survived i had the liver tansplant and i still got to take the medicine. by the way are u a girl or a guy ?
iloveowensavoury 2 years ago
if you wanna know the gender. check out this person's youtube page then
bhabyorange 2 years ago
heyy i have been fighting a liver problem and ur not the only one i been like this for like ever and there is no way to fix it so i have to take medicine for it and i do the same thing is u it is hard for me to eat stuff but i eat it anyway no matter what happens to me or you just say your gods angel and ur mine to so keep it up and u will survived.
iloveowensavoury 2 years ago
I think you are beautiful inside. Whether your 78 lbs or 400 - you are beautiful. Thank you for reaching out - it helps me and I hope it is helping you, too.
VenomousIncisors 2 years ago
dude im fourteen and im 175 thats no joke and im thin
hairboy5 2 years ago
I don't understand your reasoning here? EveryBODY is different and I am dealing with a disease here, not just some weight issues.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
ok the best thing to do is do some thing realy active and that will reliese endorfins and that will make u happy and forget about the weight thing and alot of times make u happy with ur self
hairboy5 2 years ago
bulimia isnt a disease.....its jsut a mental thing that you have to fight...not that ur not doing it....but still dont bring so much pity onto urself...
sweetpinksugar10 2 years ago
You clearly do not know what you are talking about. Get yourself educated please.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I am very proud of you.
autumnromance08 2 years ago
the book is called the DSM-IV it's a diagnostic book for psych. disorders. :-) Don't think I'm smart or anything I'm just studying psychology.
marebare88 2 years ago
Thanks love, who was this comment to? Not sure if it was for me or someone below - or if I made a mistake in this video... I've known about all versions of the DSM for a long time... I own our current, IV version. I'm a psych major, are you too? if so, what area do you plan to work in? And yes you are smart!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I'm majoring in Liberal Studies with consentrations in Art and Psychology, I don't really know where I'm going with that maybe Art therapy, basically I just study what I think is interesting. What field do you plan on working in?? And FYI I think what you do here on youtube is awsome, you give yourself a form of self therapy and also give hope to other people who watch your videos. Go you!!
marebare88 2 years ago
Thank you, best of luck to you. I plan to get a PHD in Human Sexuality with a background major in Psychology. I also plan to use art and dance/movement therapy in my practice.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Ohhh I am watching this as I type... I am not a big fan of the DSM and refer to it as the Big Book... maybe that's what you meant. The word I was looking for was criteria, I was very out of it in this video. I have a video called Weight Discrimmination and Ed Diagnosis where I rant about the DSM IV - if you search my video log. Thanks for the feedback and support xo
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I'm very very proud of you. I don't even know you, and you're trying so hard. Don't give up! I believe that one day you will be at a healthy weight. You're definately not a disappointment.
PS..I love your room. :)
SharpestLives19 2 years ago
hea hea hapu princ
cokkkaine 3 years ago
I was there once. I was 9 and in 5 years, I went from 74 pounds at age 9 to 214 at age 14. Its a bad habit.
EpicHyperactives 3 years ago
hon, your a beutiful person. you don't have to care about disappointing up. you don't disappoint me at all, the fact that your trying and you care about trying is such an inspiration to me. i wish you knew how much i cared. :)
breach4 3 years ago 8
Hi! How are You doing? Gee, I keep on watching Your videos over and over, don't know why, I think I could pretty love everything of You, I love Your personality, Your deepness, Your room, everything...please, keep on fighting!! You are such a determined person, sooo sensitive, so damned smart!!
Please take care of You!
Please do it for Yourself, You seem to be such a good, worthy person!
blogchance 3 years ago
Hey, this is the first time i've watched one of your vidios and i have to say that i admire you for trying to beat your eating disorder. I know it must be difficult and even if you havn't gained as much weight as you'd like, i still think you're doing really well. Keep it up !! =D x
PS. LOVE your room =P !
missgothicca4 3 years ago
I have actually wanted to go on a diet by not eating because i am 16 yrs old and i am 148 pounds and i think that is bad for my age, i have a big stomach but you have shown me that i dont need to do that i could just eat healthy and hope for the best. KEEP STRONG! You keep up with the not throwing up. i hate feeling full too but, i eat to stay healthy. You have given me so much inspiration to not do that to my body. Thank you so much.
By the way, you are very beautiful no matter what!
morbidvampyress 3 years ago
Good luck with everything! I've watched a few of your other videos and have learned so much more about this disease.
P.S. I LOVE your bedroom & your pink laptop!!!
Keep FIGHTING!!
MyPinkTulip 3 years ago
I've watched a few of your videos, I think you're a very unique person and strong enough to overcome your disorder. Stay strong, you will gain more weight :) eat healthy your body needs all the nutrients it has lost. Distracting yourself and staying positive seems to be working for you! keep it up!
(ps i love thrift stores too!)
KtBzski 3 years ago
Good luck and a merry christmas and a happy new year!
pepperonipizza1993 3 years ago
i think your quirky, unique and you have a wonderful personality. i congratulate you on you're efforts to fight this demon called bulimia, im bulimic too, so i know. but keep going strong because you have so much to offer....and by the way.....can i have your room its adorable!!!!?? and that computer is bad ass.
karaisradxx 3 years ago
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u look good i wish i was askinny as u.. i hate being full and bloated
503408 3 years ago
I think your awesome and I look up to your courage and strength. :)
burberryipodgirl 3 years ago
You do look better than you did. Did you ever consider going to a clinic to get help?
We are praying for you. Keep up the good work, stahying the same weight is better than loosing it. Keep on keeping on. :)
rosewood513 3 years ago
you are the cutest thing ever! I hope that you can defeat your ed. peace + love babes.
veggiefreak28 3 years ago
i love your bedding
i hope that this helped you in your time of need
flyaway3860 3 years ago
you are such a sweetie <3
Kiyosnumber1girl 3 years ago
get well you, you are worth the effort!
You are worth happyness!
camillab123 3 years ago
You are in my heart!! I love you hunnie!! I battled with This and im in recovery..you are okay hunnie!! Your in my prayers!! And you are loved!! You are looking a lot healthier I think you are doing a beautiful job, jus keeep working hun! Your in prayers!!!
Mirrordntlie 3 years ago
watching you talking about your problem is making me very sad. you can't escape from your body - it is you! please, learn to love yourself as you are. ps: you seem to be a very cute and lovely person.
dowen1918 3 years ago
I hope all the good for you, get well soon.
Spideyheal 3 years ago
i watch this video everytime I feel the same way. and it helps me alot. You really have a great way of dealing with your illness and reading the signs from your body, but at the same time trying to do something postive about it..... your a big inspiration to me for my recovery.... keep on being strong, but most of all keep on being you! your videos help me everyday
SessanTunsberg 3 years ago
You are a really strong person and you can get through this. I think you can make this world a better place, because your video's are really great. I'm from the Netherlands and I know a lot of people who have anorexia or boulimia (or both) and I think if they see your movies it could really help them to see that what they are doing is very unhealthy and wrong. I wish you very much luck and really hope you will get better.
Hope you can read it a little bit, my english is not that great hihi:)
SHARloveING 3 years ago
johnny you aren't dissapointing anyone you're trying to get better for yourself so you should be proud of yourself especially since keeping food or shakes in is really hard for you...i really hope you got through this urge without purging, but even if you didn't i still love you! *hugs* i love your room! pink everywhere and i love pink!
jdpasino 3 years ago
keep fighting, don't give up! it's not easy, but u will make it!
Everythingdevil 3 years ago
GET WELL SOON!
mollyproductions4u 3 years ago
even though u are taking about this in alot of your videos ... i still fell a ray of sunshine from you. You could try veg raw protean shakes. Good luck we all love ya.
jonneyd 3 years ago
You can make a video anytime you feel the urge to purge because I will listen.
P.S I love your room.
P.P.S What size laptop screen is that? I love it!
Lisa13245 3 years ago
You're such an inspiration, darling.
Seriously.
I've struggled with that always and I give you props on trying to distract yourself and I always give in. =[
littlesyd33 3 years ago
I used to be 65 KG, I worked my ass to reach that cuz I was 81 KG. Today I wiegh myself and discovered that I am 69 which means I gaines 4 KG
but there is always tomorrow love
Manasik2 3 years ago
Sorry, confused. Are you trying to lose weight, life, health through eds or gain weight, life, health through logic and recovery?
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
i think your videos are amazing. Your definetely not promoting anorexia/bulimia. But your telling your life story and what your going through. Just letting you know, your videos are supporting alot of people and letting them understand from a personal view.
RachHart08 3 years ago
oh my god.
im sorry, i have to tell you this and its not a "bla bla bla, now im trying to make him feel better about himself" its actually for real.
you are sooo handsome :$ like YOU - if you keep going strong, gain some weight, youre gonna ROCK! you got the most beautiful lips, i looove your eyes and your hair is just great?!?!?! and i think your tattoos are pretty cool. seriously. okay ima girl, but if i was a guy, i would die to look as cute as you lol. you can do this !
RAPST4R 3 years ago 2
are you a boy or a girl. not bein mean. what are you?????
sidneydunkin 3 years ago
Now that is a real ignorant quesiton. You could easily go read my profile. You could also take the time to educate yourself before asking questions like this, limiting genders to just boy or girl, as if there wasn't any others. I really hope you EDUCATE yourself.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
umm...CLEARLY! he has a mustache...i mean really...
faBfufu8 3 years ago
aww your such a gorgeous cutie! i wish you very well hon, and know that you are not alone :]
EmoChikWithFlare 3 years ago
im so drawn to you and your vids.. even after everything that you are going through you still have such a charasmatic personality! The colour of your shirt definately compliments your skin tone :) I completely agree with your comment about weight not being factor of "how much" of an anorexic you are.. thus "how much" you are suffering. You are awesome!!
loveurbodi 3 years ago
Thank you so much! Great user name too ; )
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Wow your room is so PINK! You should rent it out to little girls and they would feel like they were in heaven! =)
sillisillisillio 3 years ago
you have such a cute room and i love the dolls house!! i could seriously distract myself just looking at your pottery barn bed linen. I absolutely love fresh green with pink. your room looks like a real little haven - the light coming in is delicious - makes me feel like curling up for a little snooze myself.
you did really good in distracting yourself. i know its tough. tough but worth it right.
btw -pink suits you so much!
have a happy sunsprouting day!
xxx
PoetryEater 3 years ago