Emotional Cry - My Autism and Me. The World and my Autism

[jonandra]

I am very relieved to find Asperger blogs. I'm finding that a lot of people with Aspergers not only DO have emotions, but CAN be empathetic. The only seriously main thread is a problem dealing with social pressures. I personally think the problem isn't with us, but with "normal" people not being able to understand us. Aspergers/ASD more like a difference, than a disability. Everyone is unique. All it takes is patience, tolerance, and understanding. You are the only you, and that's perfect. :)

[crazyboafrog1986]

please dont b hard on yourself . your a good person . i have autism & epilepsy

[the1princefrank]

are you on facebook?

(fellow autistic person here) =)

you are the way you are and you seem like a nice person to me hopefully that guy will get to know you better and you can be friends.

you probably are "the special office boy" and get treated differently even if people dont know it we are different, everyone is different and thats a good thing, i guess people with autism are more noticably different.

be proud of who you are and people will get to know you and love you

[NiamhFrancisPianist]

I know how you feel, I'm constantly apologizing for this and that because I always think I might have done or said something wrong and yet I usually haven't, or if I have it's not even bad enough to apologize so much for. I am always lost as to who I should hang out with and whether I am welcome in a certain group or whatever, and I never seem to speak at the right time because everyone either talks across me or ignores me completely and they never explain why, or where I went wrong...

[samanthaeh10ify]

I think even people without AS feel disconnected too... :) everyone sort of feels alone.... no one can ever know the full you or me...

[DrListenToMe]

I'll tell you the first problem. Self pity. You have a mental illness, a disability. So do I. So do a great many people. Are people annoyed by you? If you carry yourself like you did in this video, yes they are. Whiney "o woe is me" attitudes tend to do that to people. I know it isn't easy. Pull up your bootstraps and be a man. You're own man. . You ARE different. Everybody is. Looking for sympathy from people will only stunt you. Feeling sorry for yourself is weak. Lose the whining. Be strong.

[joshodst]

and also,the teachers in my school are like wierdly prode of me for having lots friends,i hate that...

[joshodst]

hey i have aspergers and i have lots of friends,im a bit weird but my friends accept me,so all im saying is people dont automaticly hate you ya just got to be up beat,and also dont take 12 years to answer a question,you got to be fast or else they will think your weird,and so on...

[lozebel]

Your video really moved me. I think @The Green Sweater has brought up some good points. I know a lot of people with ASD on varying levels of the spectrum, and from what you've said, it sounds like you've worked very hard and made an amazing amount of progress. Don't lose your faith - you sound like a great guy with great values, and anyone you consider a friend is very lucky.

[LizzySkellington]

your not a nucence or a freak. your a loving funny person who makes people laugh when they feel like crying or smile when theyve had a bad day. well.. thats how you make me feel. I love you, my friend. and i will be there for you.

always- lizzy.

[gabivoss]

my daughter has aspherger, I think you are great. we are on facebook if you want to have some new friends!

[TheGreenSweater]

If people think you're annoying because you're not always sure how to troubleshoot problems, THEY are the ones who have issues. Tell people "thank you" when they help you. If people ever seem annoyed with you at work, remind them that you're doing your best and trying to learn.

I think you seem really cool.

Neurotypicals are "fake" a lot of the time and try to manipulate each other. They often talk about boring things and pretend to be interested in things that they aren't interested in.

[TheGreenSweater]

I think you should try to find a social group for people with Asperger's.

You ARE meant to "be a part of" things!

You are meant to be part of the general society and you are meant to find people you can relate well to.

Hope things get better for you. You seem like you've already come a long way! And it's great that you value compassion and being "real."

[TheGreenSweater]

Maybe you've overheard some conversations in the office? Maybe you could try to learn about some topics of "general interest"--like what's going on politically, etc.--and try to join in the conversation in the future.

If you feel like others think you are annoying, you should ask them if you are annoying them, and ask how you are annoying them (and try to work on inhibiting "annoying" behaviors or topics). Of course, you shouldn't stop being interested in what you're interested in...

[TheGreenSweater]

Does this computer gaming kid ever share any of his ideas on games? Do you ever ask him about his interests and try to have a back and forth conversation with him? It's important to try to find common ground in a conversation. Sometimes you have to ask other people about their lives and interests, but also be prepared to answer the questions that you ask others (if they ask the same question to you in return).

[MrFrewby]

your cool man takes courage to open out like that

[Steamgirl1]

you REALLY touched me...

..I have AS 2...

[SirLoin21]

I was diagnosed when I was 12; Shrink was useless for anything else. From experience the only drugs that help me with life are Cannabis, for social anxiety & confusion; & caffeine for, well whatever you want.

[b3hindth3gun]

I'm not sure if you are interested in medication, but I have heard of a medication that helps with aspergers and have thought of trying it myself. I believe it's called abilify. You might have to check the spelling on that though. Never give up. Make games and put your heart into it. Remember, different is good. Albert Einstein was a wierd dude and look how much he accomplished. Do what you love and fuck the rest.

[b3hindth3gun]

But even though you feel disconnected from your workmates your still apart of that place and what they do. You help that place run.

[b3hindth3gun]

Dude there is nothing wrong with the way you are. You can't help the fact that you have aspergers. I also have aspergers and share your pain. The way you feel in your work enviroment is the same way i feel in my band. I'm so much different from my band mates and I analyze everything i say and do around them because of that.

[anikaetvincent]

My friend did you ever try calling on the Lord? The God of the Bible? He loves you sooo much and will heal your heart. I called on him when I was going through difficult moments and he answered me. Please try my brother. He is your Creator and longs to have a relationship with you. He loves you so much that he gave his own life for you. Please try this evening in your bedroom. He is very interested in hearing what you have to say. You are most precious in his sight. The Lord bless you, Anika

[instagasm]

do you know what the definition of "normal" is? ill tell you. Conforming with, adhering to, or constituting a norm, standard, pattern, level, or type; typic or average.) if thats what normal really is then be proud of who you are because really,who would want to be average? your different, and different is a wonderful thing.i dont have autism but my daughter does and i dont ever want her to be "normal" as defined.

[KiTcHeNwItCh76]

great video,i like your accent :)

[kingsman565]

Friends are overrated and if you get the feeling your annoying somebody with your very presence then fuck um there not worth your time.

[tonyv107]

with a philosophy like that you can never expect to have a healthy social life

[kingsman565]

Not relly, but it's better than crying out on the internet like a baby because I don't have friends.

[adarksnowtodie4]

hay i had a hol like big note for you and it like did not wont to takr on this comint thing so disregard the messages i sent you sorry

[adarksnowtodie4]

i dont even wont to go on abowt...thats the past but it feels like im stuck in the present and im stuck good...my fucher all looks like is going to be the same as my blurry past... I hopw you can get what I mean, as I got what you ment, I would love to beable to talck to some one no mater how faraway if thay cud under stand me as i under stan what u sead but chances are this looks to dame long and u dint or wont read

[adarksnowtodie4]

..............................­....... but I want you to know that i watch all of your youtube stuff (i never do that) and I think your a incredible, smart talented person...and vary funny. you know so mutch about computer stuff I just got in to a computer class . tec-apps is basic computer animation d(dont ask me any thing cus i wont know...lol) but pleas if you have even the smallest, idy, bidy erg to right or cam back to me pleas do _ AJ ^_^

[AniaAndDusk]

Oi! i thought you were describing me! But i dunno. I usually get all those feelings of annoiance from others like i dont belong. I dont have many friends. The feeling i have is desolate. I can get very angry and very sad. I feel as thought there is something wrong with me. I dont understand much and have to be told more than once. It its horrible feeling. Your video is awesome.- Dusk

[For0one0moment]

u r not freak. dont talk like that!.. u r very simpatic boy and i like u like a person who is like me, like all persons in the world... peace yo :)

[shav0nne]

I think that everyone at some point in their lives have felt not good enough. Or not able to fit into others clicks. I felt that way most of my grade school life. I'm extremely impressed on how far you've came in your life. I have a 3yr son that has Autism and has been attending therapy for it.

[shav0nne]

He has such rage, anger and strength for his age. He inflict all of it on me by scratching, biting, punching ect.. everyday. You give me hope that he will someday reach the level you have. You are such an inspiration.

:) -Shavonne

[wiscsuzski]

Hi. As far as what people think of you, it is dangerous to imagine. My husband used to have terrible stress over what he thought was going on in other people's heads. If you think you might be annoying someone, or that your co-workers expect something of you, the best you can do is ASK. You talk of the progress you've made. You will continue to learn and grow with your experiences, so keep up the good work!

[talanar1983]

Hey. I'm always sad when I hear that some other people have problems with getting friends. I'm too shy to approach people, have no common subjects with them, altough I'm at full mental health. Wish you luck on going on with your progress and keep hope that there is a person who will be the ideal friend for you.

[talanar1983]

Hey. I'm always sad to hear that someone also has problems with getting friends.I'm simply too shy to approach other people and I avoid them, while at the same time willing to be between them. Crazy, isn't it? I back off from any social life and hide behind my PC, altough I'm completely healthly mentally.I'm impressed by the fact that you're working on yourself and making progress of your relationships with people. Wish you good luck on the going on with this, stay strong.

[carlasnyman]

You are intelligent and far from boring. You have a beautiful mind and outlook on things. I don't have aspergers, well no that i know of, however can relate everything you have said XXX there is NOTHING wrong with you

[joanielovesjazz]

Very well done. You are doing something really good here. Keep up the great work.