this video is absolutely beautiful....and it really shows how a borderline person suffers. i could relate to everything in this video. thank you so much for posting it.
The woman I love more then anything struggles with anxiety, depression and BPD. Sometimes I want to run away so I don't stress her out more. I hate that she hurts inside. And I hate that I can't make it go away for her. But I love her and I won't walk away unless she makes me. Don't ever give up! 3
@Antipopversion2 ...I have the same diagnoses as the woman you speak of with BPD, depression and anxiety...I just to tell you something. Thanks. This post says a lot. It is comforting to know that there are guys out there like you. Sincerely, the best of wishes for both you and her. Just keep loving her...and like you said...Dont ever give up!
I just want you to know that I signed up for youtube just so I could like and post a comment to this video. I was diagnosed with BPD after a suicide attempt in Nov. 2011. The road to recovery is proving incredibly difficult for me and those who love me. At the end...when you say about how strong we are...I never thought of that. This video has given me a bit of hope...and helping me see I am not in this alone. I am going to the website you suggested. Sincerely, Thank you for sharing.
I've been diagnosed with bpd just before Christmas and misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2010. Now that I know whats wrong with me maybe with therapy I will get better...even tho i feel hopeless as to me being happy and somewhat normal someday, i feel like i will never see the light at the end of the tunnel...but maybe..just maybe. I cried so much watching this video. I'm glad i'm not the only person that feels these things.
We were talking about BPD once and someone asked me if I had it. I told them that I had a severe case...then I found out that it didn't stand for Big Penis Disorder.
I have bdp and it sucks and people dont understand what your going through.The other day i lost it completely screaming and shouting at everyone and i was scared of it,then i just read that its normal for us to loose it but nobody understand and been told that i have to stop shouting at everybody but i find it hard to do that.thanks for making that video,its made me realise that im not alone.
this wasnt a cry for help i took a mass of tabs before xmas and ended up ont he cardiac ward it scared me how easy it was to take a mass of tablets, anyway in the morning i got the kids to school wrote a goodbye note/will and tranfered all my money into one account and drove to the train station the police, the police ended up finding me at the station luckily yesterday the crisis team and physch have told me that these "flipps" only last a few days usually 2-3
not sure how if others go throught this with BPD but 2 days ago i just flipped and panicked over my boyfriend going round to our friends house to make ammends over an arguement they had (i panicked they would fight) i didnt sleep at all the whole night even they sorted things then that night i spent over an hour on the phone to the crisis team and told them i had stockpiled my diazepam and morphine and begged them to ring my mum to come round to get kids as i was too ashamed to ring her
I've been forever trying to find sobering simple and easy to understand to show my family what it's like having BPD. thank you so much for sharing this. Not only are people starting to understand what I'm going through, but every time I watch it, it makes me feel less alone. Thank you. =)
i have this =[ im reaaly really scared to admit myself in the hospital though, i dont know why=[ bcus a part of me feels like i wana get better but a bigger part feels like i dont deserve it. like i only feel right or comfortable suffering in my confusion. i just want to share this with somebody i feel very sad n confused with myself i just want to talk to someone who understands =[
I found the biggest breakthru came with realization that inside I'm not a sadistic monster, but merely a lonely, frightened child. This allows me to step back from my emotions, stop self-criticizing, and break down my emotions step-by-step.
I start by saying, "I feel..." and naming an emotion. Don't use "I feel like...", because that is self-judging. Then I add a "because" reason.
Example: "I feel numb." "I feel numb because I feel too many emotions at once and I feel confused." "It is okay to feel confused."
"I feel angry and frustrated." "It is okay to feel angry. It is not okay to yell or hit when I feel angry." "I feel angry because I feel hurt and I don't feel understood."
Then I self-soothe: "It is okay to feel hurt. It is not okay to hurt other people because I feel hurt."
I actually take a break and write this down on paper. It's easier than talking. It works!
So I research "feeling words", or emotions. I tell myself it's okay to cry and hide under the table at home, and talk like a child, because I'm not hiding from myself anymore; I know I can learn and grow up, because I don't hate myself anymore. I'm not afraid of me anymore. When I am lonely, instead of focusing on it as a "bad" emotion, and getting depressed and angry, I tell myself it's okay to feel lonely, and I get up and do something.
If you don't hate yourself, being alone isn't so awful.
@HenryHoover1000 Try dbtselfhelp(dot)com, bpdfamily(dot)com, borderlinepersonalitysupport(dot)com, bpdrecovery(dot)com... there's lots of those you can Google. Also read I Hate You-Don't Leave Me, and anything else you can get your hands on. Linehan's books are on Amazon, too.
@SkunkyTruck thanks for that ill give them a go, my names Michelle by the way youtube gave me the bent name of henry hoover and i havent got a clue how to change it lol
@ImStillBlind: I'm the same, I don't cry even if i feel like i need to.. Normally i cry at new year, and then it won't come out until next new year (there are ofc exeptions)
been given approx years waiting list for phsycotherapy on NHS, cant bare to wait that long, anyone know of any good sites that are good for sorting my washing machine head out before i have to go down the paying privately route
You CAN recover, and not just with DBT. Read everything you can find about emotional development, literacy, and emotional intelligence. Like learning a second language, it will take time and work, but someday you will find that your emotional maturity has caught up with your chronological age. And you will no longer hurt. Like magic, the emptiness will vanish like fog on a sunny day.
are there any good websites you can recommend that are a kind of self help, tutorial kind of site, iv been given a yrs wait for cbt or dbt and really am desperate now
To all of us BPDers... You are not damaged beyond repair inside. You are not a monster despite hurting other people when you are hurting. You are a scared, lonely child inside, frozen emotionally at a very young age because of emotional neglect.
One of the best things I can advise to BPD sufferers is to LET THINGS GO. If you try every angle to change a situation or the way someone thinks about you, don't keep trying to "fix" people, move on. You're only responsible for your thoughts, not theirs. Not every human fits into a category of "cool" or "shit" so don't compartmentalize them, come to an understanding with each other or hold them at bay so they don't cause you emotional pain. Your emotions are yours, nobody should control them!
@Viktir666 I don't mean to be rude but if you're trained in DBT I don't understand why you said that... I don't try to fix people and 'cool' and 'shit' don't mean anything to me I'm not a school kid! My problems are more about how I feel about me not others. I pushed them away I don't try to fit in with others because I don't feel like I do... If it were that easy to let it go then we would have done it and you wouldn't have to have got training in how to help people with BPD through DBT???
@Hishamz9 I don't know if they'd fade as such but I think you learn to deal with them better and view them more constructively. I don't think I will ever change because it's built in my genetic make-up but I can change how I respond to things and yes be able to control my emotions better. I can teach myself to challenge assumptions and learn more about myself so that I can avoid situations that are to triggering or prepare myself for situations that may be uncomfortable so I don't get so anxious
@Hishamz9 My family have been great since they realised what was going on and I'm glad they know now. It's still awkward because you want to be normal and you start thinking they'll think you're not. They've tried to understand and when I get angry or isolated they don't get mad anymore and it's easier for me to come around and settle. My Grandma has been amazing which is rare for those generations but I can relax more and not be so fearful of trying to be perfect for them or scared to lose them
@Hishamz9 so it does help alot with the feelings and being able to control them. (sorry about the massive novel length reply). I'm still trying to understand myself so it's good to challenge it thanks for the reply :)
@TheSkylaReign Dont be sorry, I'll appreciate any thought ud feel like sharing. Thank you for that reply. Its kind of relieving and scary at the same time to put a name to whats going on in my head. still not used to the idea. I seem to have a strong will regarding any subject (smoking, substance use, drinking, ect .....) excpet being emotionally attached to someone. i cant seem to have control over my feelings there. everything else seems easy.
@TheSkylaReign Im just hug on the wrong person i think. Im thinking clearly, and reaching what i believe is the right conclusion in that matter, but i can't seem to make my feeling simply with my thoughts. its always like that. i think something and take a decision, the next morning my heart feels about to explode. absolutely no control over that. and i got to the point where emotional pain is causing me a lot of physical pain as well. And i stil do not know how to deal with that
@Hishamz9 it sux emotional pain's horrible. I have a high pain threshold so physical pain's never bothered me but emotional pain kills me. I'm an all or nothing person so I won't talk to you or you'll be my best-friend and I freak out even if you go on holidays even though I don't see you all the time I still panic because you're not there. It's killed alot of relationships I get what your saying. It doesn't matter how good or bad something is you still always feel bad or guilty for feeling good
@TheSkylaReign so true. I wish id wake up and this feeling is gone. I just hate myself cause i'm allowing someone to have that effect on me. i mean i have enough to worry and stress about, not like i've got other stuff going for me. the last thing i need is a repeatedly broken heart, and yet i keep throwing my self over and over again to the same person. and physical pain is nothing in comparision with emotional pain, its just that im having heavy heart beats and heart ache 24/7
@Hishamz9 I used to get really bad pulpitations or shake really bad. My eyesight has gone funny and I get insomnia really bad. I get told that, that I need to stop being so hard on myself because of someone else because they have control over you still. It's hard to break away from a negative relationship or anything in life for that matter because even though it sux you know what to expect. Fear of the unknown is dawnting. I get really hung up if I feel like I've let someone down or upset them
@TheSkylaReign it sure sux. im just trying to find a way to escape all this. i wish someone would come along with a cure. its hard to some to a conclusion that ill stay in such shape.
@Hishamz9 I've learnt that escape is just a quick fix... I used to never stay in one place for to long and avoided things. I still avoid alot but I've had to realise that if I want my life I have to try. Figure out a way of coping not surviving. Figure out how I can do the things I love and understand my triggers and and work on some sort of stability because escaping the problem just intensified all the negative emotions. It's bloody hard to sit with it and work through it but I have faith
Hi, I'm trained in Dialectical Behavior Therapy. The emotional regulation skillset can be accomplished by taking care of your physical illness, balance your diet, avoid alcohol/cigarettes/mood altering drugs, balance your sleep, exercise, increase positive emotions, when feeling down do things you enjoy. Don't worry about others judging you, it's a natural human thing for others to judge. Don't judge yourself as good or bad. Just be you. <---- sounds cliche but it's so true.
@HenryHoover1000 I'm afraid I don't know what websites you can use, I was trained with Marsha Linehan's courses in book form. I can google it for you and see what I come up with.
@Viktir666 Im doing DBT at the moment its minimum 6months to a year.It's been really good to help understand my feelings and why I am the way I am.I got mis-diagnosed with bipolar and medicated for it.I've done alot of work with my Dr and he's fixed those mistakes he also researched my youth and was able to treat my ADHD cuz I'm female alot of Drs rejected that and I never grew out of it.I'm a perfectionist and recovering from an ED and DBT's helped so much we are doing emotional regulation now!
You borderline fellows should check out the world map of people with borderline at mom (mapofmates . com ) and come and talk to us other sufferers on there.
I was diagnosed with BPD two months ago, but have suffered in silence for a number of years. I've been having a lot of difficulty coping with it, and understanding myself, but reading the comments on this video, as well as watching the video itself, has helped me to feel less alone inside this nightmare. Thank you, everyone. You're all beautiful.
Please anyone respond I need this help and will fight to any lengths to change my existence PLEASE 22 yrs. Of continuoustherapy with out this knowledge had al most killed me many times and I want to make this mess of a life right !!!!!!fucking begging someone get to me I will be the hardest worker you have ever encountered!!
Love, Peace, Stability is my goal and I will do it , THAT is a promise!!!!!
Yours truly, Kelly please call me I'm desperate !!!!!!!!!!
This video describes BPD so well. So does this song, I listen to it all the time. I have BPD, this video and song I admit can trigger me, so I appreciate the warning. Depends on my frame of mind and whats going on in my life. But an important thing that helps someone with BPD is a supportive family. I don't have one, they don't get along with me nor themselves. Divorced parents, alcohlic mother, angry father dating married women, brother who's never around. Families, if you care, plz, show it :)
This video I can most DEFINATELY relate to!! I am a Mom to 6 wonderful kid's & my Husband who have to deal with a Bi-polar/BPD Mom/Wife all the time!! And they all 7 do it BEAUTIFULLY!! They can alway's tell if my mood's off and how the day will be and adjust. I feel bad most of the time because who am I to put them in this situation..... BUT, they nor I would have it any other way!! It makes us a very intersting family!! Thank you for making this!!
i am 19 and have BPD. i hate that i have it because everyday is a struggle and a fight for control over my emotions. the constant fear and anxiety. but i also wouldnt change it for the world because it makes me who i am. its all i know. it makes me ME
I'm proud that I have bpd because it's the only thing that makes me different. I'm crazy but I don't want people to know so I act differently on a specific group of people, even an individual. I try to be something else; I have multiple identities because I don't want to lose the people I love, I want them to be proud of me too...-3
I'm tink my inpiracion help me a lot..who? My kids..withtaout them..I wasn't live..my depression was dx. Mayor D. Until i tke medicine stil worst plus BPD it so hard to still live...my emocions are very deep..very.high and to painfull too
I dont speak English (Im spk. Hispanish) but i understand it ..thank you for this video..I am borderline too and I suffer it all my life since was child. now I m 49 years old..but I try every day..one day at time..I said "Just for today i going to do my best."..but i know it is so hard and painfull.
@Libby1963E Just reading what u said made me upset, for borderline as u and me and all other. U urself r an amazing person to live though 49 years for it. People that don't have this will never understand. When u wake up tommorrow think i am a beautiful person and i know it is really hard because we feel pain 10 times greater then most.
All we want is love so much. I used to follow my ex-boyfriend around the house because i was scared he was going to leave me. I wish u the very best.
This video means so much to me. I was diagnosed with BPD last year. And since then my life has been a roller coaster and i know what they say when they say its hell.
Hi I am from Germany and know now for a while that i have a Borderline Personality Disorder. I was 3 months in therapy and learned alot about it an what i can do to help me :)
Thank you so much. My brother has BPD and now I know how he really feels! He is totally alone and has no help, he refuses therapy and feels terribly lonely!
if you think borderline is a bad stigma try Schizophrenia. I was wrongly diagnosed even though I never heard voices are saw things that were not there. It turns out I have borderline something that is usually asscoiated with women. The bottom line is the human brain is unique between every person. You cant label anyone anything and be sure with today's medicine. But , for 10 years they said I was schizo gave me high does of harmful medication and shock treatment.
@borderlinemanful i had my home state health department trying to tell me I'm schizophrenic for a little over 5 years, during those 5 years I ended up worse over the course of them deciding my medication was to be mandatory and even at some points physically forced. I made the decision to move away to another state with better public health reputation. within 2 years they'd made the BPD diagnosis & explain in ways that helped me understand how they came to the diagnosis.
Oh and another question, do you think you're capable of loving? I knew someone, she was the ex of my best friend. I know BPDers don't normally express themselves or talk about what they are going through, but my best friend knows this girl inside and out. She (the girl with BPD) says she will always love my friend and we honestly believe her. Because no one will be as understanding, or accepting of her as my best friend was. I don't think BPDers go without love, they just go without trust
@face2facechick We don't feel loved even if we are.Our self esteem is too low to believe anyone could love us.I know in my head my boyfriend of ten years now loves me but inside I'm always scared of him leaving or dying I feel like hell and an outsider with everyone even him.I have trouble showing emotion that is inside of me dying to get out and be like normal people.We are very sad most of the time.
There was once a time in my life where I wanted to die. I hated myself, and I could not trust anyone else. I felt trapped in a world of hatred and despair. I had been abandoned so many times, that I did not care. I hid myself away so that no one else could hurt me. For that I am alone. There was once I time I cut myself, I cried, I lied. But I fought through it. To everyone else, it gets better. Trust me. Its true what they say, that its always darkest before the dawn.
Thank you so much for posting this. I have had some ask me to explain BPD to them... Even though I have it, it's hard to. My fiancee has asked so many times what it's about and I just can't seam to explain it. I'm going to show him this video when he gets home from work. Thank you for helping me explain this to him finely.
I have it and I used to be really crazy. BPD are smart, creative people and is one of the reasons why they question themselves and others. To find the inner peace you deserve is to find who you are. Understand this and you can relate to others better. Knowing yourself is to know your limits/boundaries. Take time to love yourself and understand who you are, and where you are. Everything else will fall into place.
@Carlm2 Hey darling. I know what u mean and i don't think a gay guy would fit the male one. I think the straight male BPD knows how to controll their temper but gay and women really do not. Women can tend to get away with it more then us tho because if we screamed at a guy he would hit us or something, then i would kick him in the nuts lol :)
Thank you. This was such a valuable thing for me to find. I have sent it out to friends and family (also added it to my facebook page) so that they might better be able to understand me......... I am so grateful that you have been able to put into words and thoughts just how tormenting this illness truly is.xxx
@SunscreenAndVitamins Funny you say that and that is the reason I know you do not suffer from it.I worry all the time yes but I put my needs last for my loved ones.I support my boyfriend financially when was out of work and spent any extra money on his health needs.Yes my thoughts are self absorbed with worry from minute to minute some days.God I hate the stigma with this disorder :/
i believe i have this...i feel like nobody has or will ever understand me. it's so many mix emotions . it hurts me a lot. sometimes i just wish i never excisted :(. i've gone through a lot. :'(
For almost 9 years I havn't been able to describe it as well as you've done so thanks! Gonna show this to my bf who's had a hard time dealing with me since he doesn't know what my problems are.
Perhaps he'll be aware of that bpd not only is about fear of seperation and sensetivity.. =/
I really sick of being labelled as different just because I don't mingle with others. People immediately think that I may have psychological problems, they said it might be borderline PD or something else 'cause I seem to have the symptoms of other illnesses too, they might be right but I can't seek professional help. My mom won't let me. Can someone please help me? I'm feeling depressed lately. I want to understand myself better.
I'm in tears watching this video as im going through a terrible time. i've been diagnosed with borderline and i feel so alone, nobody understands what i'm going through, and people judge me terribly especially people i meet on dates or relationships etc. i reject people to avoid being hurt but feel abandoned and the pain it leaves me is a chronic feeling of emptyness which is what i'm going through right now i'm in so much pain and feel alone it hurts me to the core.
It doesn't feel like someone is singing sad sweet songs in the fucking background. Sheesh. PS It really doesn't make me want to sing about bloody Angels.
I have been dealing with BPD and Bi-polar and PTSD for a long while now and this video is so touching to me because it help me feel like I am human and that more people than just me deal with these things. When you are married to someone that is "normal" life is a roller coaster and they really never understand the feelings that you deal with and they don't know how to help, they tend to only make things worse.
@s16penser Hey you... as I sit here in tears, in my own pain, your post makes me want to reach out to you... We are all in this together yet it's hard to reach out and connect... and to let that connection stick and sink in... then stay. I feel you. and I don't think God turns his back on us... but it would be nice if God could give us an easier avenue to healing... I have been at this for a long time. Hear that God? A new remedy would bece for BPD,,, I'm listening and willing Lord, Amen
This Video I watched almost 2 months ago... I am now on the road to recovery.. don't let it sink you deeper.. and dont use it as an excuse. Use it to get better. I went to see a psychologist after watching this, and have since brought up so many things that happened to me I had blocked as a child growing up.. It is a trigger but its meant to help you realise you may have BPD... everyone has emotions they are normal, True BPD's cant control them.. But we can learn to.. but using therapy DBT
thankyou for sharing this video. finally i was able to show others what it feels like inside my own head.. to all fellow sufferers <3 and peace to you all. we deserve to live and be happy as much as anyone. i will continue to fight my own bpd battle and am grateful that fellow sufferers can share their own journeys. we are not alone..
Thx for this wonderfull Video. When I watched it it felt like the words came out of my soul. Life can be so difficult and no one can understand us Borderline Personalities!
This video made me realise exactly what it is that is going on with me. The only problem is when I try to bring it up with ANYONE (doctors included) it gets dismissed and I'm told that it is just hormones or my imagination and will die down. If only they knew what I had done to myself to stop the pain maybe they would realise I need help. Does everyone else feel like they have to deal with it on their own?
This video made me tear up, it's exactly like my life.. It's so hard.. Especially when I don't understand why...Why I feel that way, why it's me suffering so much.. Thank you for this..
A good way to deal with this is friendship with other sufferers. Joining a forum with social network functions or a website like MapOfmates can really help.
Its almost 3 am and I can't sleep. Not because of your video but because of constantly runs through my head. I just have to say, this video hit me real hard. I feel those feelings so often and I feel like I'm crazy and become afraid and angry. My friend said I don't have BDP but the more I look into it, I feel like I do because I know how I feel unlike her. Thank you for your video.
I have been diagnosed with pstd borderline and bipolar disorder and I am alone with four children. My family berates me for the way I behave or that I am not so to speak normal like them and I am trying so hard to just get through the damn day life for me is hell and I am alone.
@belle69ish I wonder if your family is so very "normal", and I encourage you to be yourself despite them because you are a courageous person to have to deal with these problems as well as bringing up four children. Power to you!!!!
My mom was talking to the doc the other day and brought it up. Now I just feel like shit bc she never mentioned it to me b4. Thank u for helping me to understand what my mom didn't.
This video gave me the courage to share my BPD Diagnois with someone other than a person in the medical or counselling field. It's because of people like MegaWatchVideos and their attitude towards what they couldn't possibly understand that a lot of people feel they need to keep this a secret. You say "don't be judged" but judging is exactly what you are doing. The end of this video is inspiring and offers hope. Thank you to aperfectingangel for such a touching video. I play it often.
I'm diagnosed w/BPD by a Psych. Cause of my BPD I also suffer from PTSD, Anorexia, chronic skin picking, & extreme anxiety... I hav constant shaking. BPD Is VERY real. Most people would cave alone frm the utter empty & hopeless turmoil that literally makes us feel like there's a big hole in our chest & an arctic wind is blowing thru it..every day. You're lucky If u don't suffer frm this disorder, but DO NOT try 2 invalidate the pain of those who hav2 endure it, u hav no right & no idea.
@spoonfull83 I know- I am so invalidated- especially by my mother who was- and is- still abusive- she says- youre just weak- cant you just perk up for the next 2 hours with company here- NOW THAT IM OLDER< ITS WORSE- I WANT TO DIE ALL THE TIME- -WHATEVER-IM STILL LIKE THIS-LEAVING A BIGGER GREEN FOOTPRINT EVERYDAY FOR NO REASON-anyway spoonful- thats my long way of saying i agree with you- peace- and everyone else, don't judge- you cant possibly know
Fuck you MegaWatchVideos. You don't know what it's like and you never will. Don't post BS comments about shit you know nothing about. You've never walked our in our shoes so fuck off and stop posting and talking about something you know NOTHING about.
uhm.. I dont know why this is come about. This BPD thing was something that was made up and isint real. Some of you go threw this because of a reason and dont go threw them all.. or your mind is telling you too which can be easily avoided. Im not trying to come down on any of you but you all have to realize theres a reason your here. Dont be judged you be the Judge. But yeah its something i had to say.
I was diagnosed with BPD, and I am now going through the motions to recover. This video gave me a sense of hope, which is something we (BPD) lack. Thank you!
This video is an excellent expression of what Personality disorder is really like. It was a good way to show others who cant understand it exactly what goes through your mind. Thank you for this. You're very brave to post this. Well done x
this video is absolutely beautiful....and it really shows how a borderline person suffers. i could relate to everything in this video. thank you so much for posting it.
AnaMP82 2 days ago
The woman I love more then anything struggles with anxiety, depression and BPD. Sometimes I want to run away so I don't stress her out more. I hate that she hurts inside. And I hate that I can't make it go away for her. But I love her and I won't walk away unless she makes me. Don't ever give up! 3
Antipopversion2 2 days ago
@Antipopversion2 ...I have the same diagnoses as the woman you speak of with BPD, depression and anxiety...I just to tell you something. Thanks. This post says a lot. It is comforting to know that there are guys out there like you. Sincerely, the best of wishes for both you and her. Just keep loving her...and like you said...Dont ever give up!
nueday8 2 days ago
I just want you to know that I signed up for youtube just so I could like and post a comment to this video. I was diagnosed with BPD after a suicide attempt in Nov. 2011. The road to recovery is proving incredibly difficult for me and those who love me. At the end...when you say about how strong we are...I never thought of that. This video has given me a bit of hope...and helping me see I am not in this alone. I am going to the website you suggested. Sincerely, Thank you for sharing.
nueday8 3 days ago
I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, but I'm actually just an asshole.
stripeyemu 4 days ago
I've been diagnosed with bpd just before Christmas and misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2010. Now that I know whats wrong with me maybe with therapy I will get better...even tho i feel hopeless as to me being happy and somewhat normal someday, i feel like i will never see the light at the end of the tunnel...but maybe..just maybe. I cried so much watching this video. I'm glad i'm not the only person that feels these things.
stephanied6 5 days ago 4
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kirstykirstymoo 5 days ago
took my breath away and broke my heart all in one. summed it all up. amazing.
gemgemms 6 days ago 2
i dont understand the difference between MDD and BPD? someone help out, cuz im diagnosed with MDD but it seems to me that both are very similar.
deandro985 1 week ago
We were talking about BPD once and someone asked me if I had it. I told them that I had a severe case...then I found out that it didn't stand for Big Penis Disorder.
KrfNYC2 1 week ago
I have bdp and it sucks and people dont understand what your going through.The other day i lost it completely screaming and shouting at everyone and i was scared of it,then i just read that its normal for us to loose it but nobody understand and been told that i have to stop shouting at everybody but i find it hard to do that.thanks for making that video,its made me realise that im not alone.
peza279 1 week ago
this wasnt a cry for help i took a mass of tabs before xmas and ended up ont he cardiac ward it scared me how easy it was to take a mass of tablets, anyway in the morning i got the kids to school wrote a goodbye note/will and tranfered all my money into one account and drove to the train station the police, the police ended up finding me at the station luckily yesterday the crisis team and physch have told me that these "flipps" only last a few days usually 2-3
HenryHoover1000 1 week ago
not sure how if others go throught this with BPD but 2 days ago i just flipped and panicked over my boyfriend going round to our friends house to make ammends over an arguement they had (i panicked they would fight) i didnt sleep at all the whole night even they sorted things then that night i spent over an hour on the phone to the crisis team and told them i had stockpiled my diazepam and morphine and begged them to ring my mum to come round to get kids as i was too ashamed to ring her
HenryHoover1000 1 week ago
I've been forever trying to find sobering simple and easy to understand to show my family what it's like having BPD. thank you so much for sharing this. Not only are people starting to understand what I'm going through, but every time I watch it, it makes me feel less alone. Thank you. =)
katiej1313 1 week ago
i have this =[ im reaaly really scared to admit myself in the hospital though, i dont know why=[ bcus a part of me feels like i wana get better but a bigger part feels like i dont deserve it. like i only feel right or comfortable suffering in my confusion. i just want to share this with somebody i feel very sad n confused with myself i just want to talk to someone who understands =[
sweeteeThai 1 week ago
I guess i should go docs O_o
Vikiloulou1991uk 2 weeks ago
I found the biggest breakthru came with realization that inside I'm not a sadistic monster, but merely a lonely, frightened child. This allows me to step back from my emotions, stop self-criticizing, and break down my emotions step-by-step.
I start by saying, "I feel..." and naming an emotion. Don't use "I feel like...", because that is self-judging. Then I add a "because" reason.
SkunkyTruck 2 weeks ago
Example: "I feel numb." "I feel numb because I feel too many emotions at once and I feel confused." "It is okay to feel confused."
"I feel angry and frustrated." "It is okay to feel angry. It is not okay to yell or hit when I feel angry." "I feel angry because I feel hurt and I don't feel understood."
Then I self-soothe: "It is okay to feel hurt. It is not okay to hurt other people because I feel hurt."
I actually take a break and write this down on paper. It's easier than talking. It works!
SkunkyTruck 2 weeks ago
So I research "feeling words", or emotions. I tell myself it's okay to cry and hide under the table at home, and talk like a child, because I'm not hiding from myself anymore; I know I can learn and grow up, because I don't hate myself anymore. I'm not afraid of me anymore. When I am lonely, instead of focusing on it as a "bad" emotion, and getting depressed and angry, I tell myself it's okay to feel lonely, and I get up and do something.
If you don't hate yourself, being alone isn't so awful.
SkunkyTruck 2 weeks ago
dbtselfhelp(dot)com is the most useful website I've found by far.
SkunkyTruck 2 weeks ago
@HenryHoover1000 Try dbtselfhelp(dot)com, bpdfamily(dot)com, borderlinepersonalitysupport(dot)com, bpdrecovery(dot)com... there's lots of those you can Google. Also read I Hate You-Don't Leave Me, and anything else you can get your hands on. Linehan's books are on Amazon, too.
SkunkyTruck 2 weeks ago
@SkunkyTruck thanks for that ill give them a go, my names Michelle by the way youtube gave me the bent name of henry hoover and i havent got a clue how to change it lol
HenryHoover1000 1 week ago
Yeaah, you bpd fellows should come and talk to us other suffers at MAPOFMATES !
miissmiaa 2 weeks ago
@ImStillBlind: I'm the same, I don't cry even if i feel like i need to.. Normally i cry at new year, and then it won't come out until next new year (there are ofc exeptions)
OwaniAkuma 2 weeks ago
If you don't self diagnose yourself, nobody else can self diagnose you for you.
toad1e 2 weeks ago
I have BPD...can't live normally cause of that. But I'm trying.
This videos represents me so much...
MaoWerecatZone 2 weeks ago
been given approx years waiting list for phsycotherapy on NHS, cant bare to wait that long, anyone know of any good sites that are good for sorting my washing machine head out before i have to go down the paying privately route
HenryHoover1000 2 weeks ago
Im curious.. How many of you BPDs cant cry or cant cry for more then a few seconds? It wants to come out, but refuses too... Please respond
ImStillBlind 2 weeks ago
@ImStillBlind same here, had 3 friends die over xmas and i just feel empty one was my lifelong school friend and iv still not cried
HenryHoover1000 2 weeks ago
I just broke up with a girl who has BPD this video is to sad wish I could of helped her more
Flynnhed 2 weeks ago
BPD happens to Females 75% and 2% to are population im a guy and i have it )= awesome video =)
112mazo 2 weeks ago
You CAN recover, and not just with DBT. Read everything you can find about emotional development, literacy, and emotional intelligence. Like learning a second language, it will take time and work, but someday you will find that your emotional maturity has caught up with your chronological age. And you will no longer hurt. Like magic, the emptiness will vanish like fog on a sunny day.
SkunkyTruck 3 weeks ago
are there any good websites you can recommend that are a kind of self help, tutorial kind of site, iv been given a yrs wait for cbt or dbt and really am desperate now
HenryHoover1000 2 weeks ago
To all of us BPDers... You are not damaged beyond repair inside. You are not a monster despite hurting other people when you are hurting. You are a scared, lonely child inside, frozen emotionally at a very young age because of emotional neglect.
SkunkyTruck 3 weeks ago
I'm not diagnosed with BPD but I can really relate to anything in this video... beautiful work!
BellalovesMarla1 3 weeks ago
thank you so much for posting this. It helps to know that somewhere out there someone understands.
nucleustrainer 3 weeks ago
One of the best things I can advise to BPD sufferers is to LET THINGS GO. If you try every angle to change a situation or the way someone thinks about you, don't keep trying to "fix" people, move on. You're only responsible for your thoughts, not theirs. Not every human fits into a category of "cool" or "shit" so don't compartmentalize them, come to an understanding with each other or hold them at bay so they don't cause you emotional pain. Your emotions are yours, nobody should control them!
Viktir666 3 weeks ago
@Viktir666 I don't mean to be rude but if you're trained in DBT I don't understand why you said that... I don't try to fix people and 'cool' and 'shit' don't mean anything to me I'm not a school kid! My problems are more about how I feel about me not others. I pushed them away I don't try to fit in with others because I don't feel like I do... If it were that easy to let it go then we would have done it and you wouldn't have to have got training in how to help people with BPD through DBT???
TheSkylaReign 2 weeks ago
@TheSkylaReign would someone actually change ? is it possible that all these thoughts and feeling fade? or be under control ?
Hishamz9 2 weeks ago
@Hishamz9 I don't know if they'd fade as such but I think you learn to deal with them better and view them more constructively. I don't think I will ever change because it's built in my genetic make-up but I can change how I respond to things and yes be able to control my emotions better. I can teach myself to challenge assumptions and learn more about myself so that I can avoid situations that are to triggering or prepare myself for situations that may be uncomfortable so I don't get so anxious
TheSkylaReign 1 week ago
@Hishamz9 My family have been great since they realised what was going on and I'm glad they know now. It's still awkward because you want to be normal and you start thinking they'll think you're not. They've tried to understand and when I get angry or isolated they don't get mad anymore and it's easier for me to come around and settle. My Grandma has been amazing which is rare for those generations but I can relax more and not be so fearful of trying to be perfect for them or scared to lose them
TheSkylaReign 1 week ago
@Hishamz9 so it does help alot with the feelings and being able to control them. (sorry about the massive novel length reply). I'm still trying to understand myself so it's good to challenge it thanks for the reply :)
TheSkylaReign 1 week ago
@TheSkylaReign Dont be sorry, I'll appreciate any thought ud feel like sharing. Thank you for that reply. Its kind of relieving and scary at the same time to put a name to whats going on in my head. still not used to the idea. I seem to have a strong will regarding any subject (smoking, substance use, drinking, ect .....) excpet being emotionally attached to someone. i cant seem to have control over my feelings there. everything else seems easy.
Hishamz9 1 week ago
@TheSkylaReign Im just hug on the wrong person i think. Im thinking clearly, and reaching what i believe is the right conclusion in that matter, but i can't seem to make my feeling simply with my thoughts. its always like that. i think something and take a decision, the next morning my heart feels about to explode. absolutely no control over that. and i got to the point where emotional pain is causing me a lot of physical pain as well. And i stil do not know how to deal with that
Hishamz9 1 week ago
@Hishamz9 it sux emotional pain's horrible. I have a high pain threshold so physical pain's never bothered me but emotional pain kills me. I'm an all or nothing person so I won't talk to you or you'll be my best-friend and I freak out even if you go on holidays even though I don't see you all the time I still panic because you're not there. It's killed alot of relationships I get what your saying. It doesn't matter how good or bad something is you still always feel bad or guilty for feeling good
TheSkylaReign 1 week ago
@TheSkylaReign so true. I wish id wake up and this feeling is gone. I just hate myself cause i'm allowing someone to have that effect on me. i mean i have enough to worry and stress about, not like i've got other stuff going for me. the last thing i need is a repeatedly broken heart, and yet i keep throwing my self over and over again to the same person. and physical pain is nothing in comparision with emotional pain, its just that im having heavy heart beats and heart ache 24/7
Hishamz9 1 week ago
@Hishamz9 I used to get really bad pulpitations or shake really bad. My eyesight has gone funny and I get insomnia really bad. I get told that, that I need to stop being so hard on myself because of someone else because they have control over you still. It's hard to break away from a negative relationship or anything in life for that matter because even though it sux you know what to expect. Fear of the unknown is dawnting. I get really hung up if I feel like I've let someone down or upset them
TheSkylaReign 1 week ago
@TheSkylaReign it sure sux. im just trying to find a way to escape all this. i wish someone would come along with a cure. its hard to some to a conclusion that ill stay in such shape.
Hishamz9 1 week ago
@Hishamz9 I've learnt that escape is just a quick fix... I used to never stay in one place for to long and avoided things. I still avoid alot but I've had to realise that if I want my life I have to try. Figure out a way of coping not surviving. Figure out how I can do the things I love and understand my triggers and and work on some sort of stability because escaping the problem just intensified all the negative emotions. It's bloody hard to sit with it and work through it but I have faith
TheSkylaReign 1 week ago
Hi, I'm trained in Dialectical Behavior Therapy. The emotional regulation skillset can be accomplished by taking care of your physical illness, balance your diet, avoid alcohol/cigarettes/mood altering drugs, balance your sleep, exercise, increase positive emotions, when feeling down do things you enjoy. Don't worry about others judging you, it's a natural human thing for others to judge. Don't judge yourself as good or bad. Just be you. <---- sounds cliche but it's so true.
Viktir666 3 weeks ago
@Viktir666 thanks do you know of any websites that i can home tutor myself on with dbt as iv been given a yrs wait with the nhs and im at my wits end
HenryHoover1000 2 weeks ago
@HenryHoover1000 I'm afraid I don't know what websites you can use, I was trained with Marsha Linehan's courses in book form. I can google it for you and see what I come up with.
Viktir666 2 weeks ago
@Viktir666 Im doing DBT at the moment its minimum 6months to a year.It's been really good to help understand my feelings and why I am the way I am.I got mis-diagnosed with bipolar and medicated for it.I've done alot of work with my Dr and he's fixed those mistakes he also researched my youth and was able to treat my ADHD cuz I'm female alot of Drs rejected that and I never grew out of it.I'm a perfectionist and recovering from an ED and DBT's helped so much we are doing emotional regulation now!
TheSkylaReign 2 weeks ago
Beautifully put - thank you.
Catawba2 3 weeks ago
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illflywithyounow 3 weeks ago
I was diagnosed with BPD two months ago, but have suffered in silence for a number of years. I've been having a lot of difficulty coping with it, and understanding myself, but reading the comments on this video, as well as watching the video itself, has helped me to feel less alone inside this nightmare. Thank you, everyone. You're all beautiful.
pau1234la 3 weeks ago
Watchin' this video felt like seeing the reflection of myself for the very first time..
I can relate to EVERYTHING that's said in the video.. and I feel scared of knowing more.. though a part of me would like to..
oOSilverZackOo 3 weeks ago
Please anyone respond I need this help and will fight to any lengths to change my existence PLEASE 22 yrs. Of continuoustherapy with out this knowledge had al most killed me many times and I want to make this mess of a life right !!!!!!fucking begging someone get to me I will be the hardest worker you have ever encountered!!
Love, Peace, Stability is my goal and I will do it , THAT is a promise!!!!!
Yours truly, Kelly please call me I'm desperate !!!!!!!!!!
addiemango 3 weeks ago
Fuck yeah, they couldn't handle it!
niteme 4 weeks ago
This video describes BPD so well. So does this song, I listen to it all the time. I have BPD, this video and song I admit can trigger me, so I appreciate the warning. Depends on my frame of mind and whats going on in my life. But an important thing that helps someone with BPD is a supportive family. I don't have one, they don't get along with me nor themselves. Divorced parents, alcohlic mother, angry father dating married women, brother who's never around. Families, if you care, plz, show it :)
valypaly3 1 month ago
nvm,, should have read the whole message underneath it..
theforsakenvampire 1 month ago in playlist Favorite videos
This video I can most DEFINATELY relate to!! I am a Mom to 6 wonderful kid's & my Husband who have to deal with a Bi-polar/BPD Mom/Wife all the time!! And they all 7 do it BEAUTIFULLY!! They can alway's tell if my mood's off and how the day will be and adjust. I feel bad most of the time because who am I to put them in this situation..... BUT, they nor I would have it any other way!! It makes us a very intersting family!! Thank you for making this!!
s1mplydr4c0 1 month ago
think there are a lot who can relate to this.. it's my lifestory anyway.. and indeed.. its hell..
(btw what song is playing in this clip?,.. i just love it)
theforsakenvampire 1 month ago in playlist Favorite videos
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ickleofhorwich 1 month ago
i am 19 and have BPD. i hate that i have it because everyday is a struggle and a fight for control over my emotions. the constant fear and anxiety. but i also wouldnt change it for the world because it makes me who i am. its all i know. it makes me ME
xsarabearx1 1 month ago
It's not right for people to feel sorry for people with ADHD and hate the people suffering BPD.
troublemakergirl0807 1 month ago 7
iv got BPD and my sons got ADHD and autism, i think i was jack the ripper in my previous life lol
HenryHoover1000 2 weeks ago
@troublemakergirl0807 I have both and I got treated as a problem child at school...
TheSkylaReign 2 weeks ago
@troublemakergirl0807 i have add and BPD and i hulusanate a bit with shadows at night
specialchannel 20 hours ago
@troublemakergirl0807 oh ya and visual snow amoung others after shrooms this all got worse :(
specialchannel 20 hours ago
I'm proud that I have bpd because it's the only thing that makes me different. I'm crazy but I don't want people to know so I act differently on a specific group of people, even an individual. I try to be something else; I have multiple identities because I don't want to lose the people I love, I want them to be proud of me too...-3
troublemakergirl0807 1 month ago
Gayproud..thank you for you comment. I like your name..I hope some day feel like you...PROUD of my self..
Libby1963E 1 month ago
I'm tink my inpiracion help me a lot..who? My kids..withtaout them..I wasn't live..my depression was dx. Mayor D. Until i tke medicine stil worst plus BPD it so hard to still live...my emocions are very deep..very.high and to painfull too
Libby1963E 1 month ago
I've been dealing with BPD since i was 15... it sucks.This video is describing everything we with BPD have to deal with..
MattyMakeOut 1 month ago
i too suffer from bpd. thanks so much for making this video!!
klatt77nmk 1 month ago
I wanna thank you... I have a pretty strong borderline, it was hard to look at, but its all true..
Indonexiah 1 month ago
thank you . . .
moroninlove 1 month ago
I dont speak English (Im spk. Hispanish) but i understand it ..thank you for this video..I am borderline too and I suffer it all my life since was child. now I m 49 years old..but I try every day..one day at time..I said "Just for today i going to do my best."..but i know it is so hard and painfull.
Libby1963E 1 month ago
@Libby1963E Just reading what u said made me upset, for borderline as u and me and all other. U urself r an amazing person to live though 49 years for it. People that don't have this will never understand. When u wake up tommorrow think i am a beautiful person and i know it is really hard because we feel pain 10 times greater then most.
All we want is love so much. I used to follow my ex-boyfriend around the house because i was scared he was going to leave me. I wish u the very best.
gayproud1 1 month ago
I just feel empty.
zoidberg96913 1 month ago
This video means so much to me. I was diagnosed with BPD last year. And since then my life has been a roller coaster and i know what they say when they say its hell.
wolfy0888 1 month ago
I can't tell you how thankful I am that you made this! It did make me cry but it gave me strength to. Thank you so much
sammers45 1 month ago
Hi I am from Germany and know now for a while that i have a Borderline Personality Disorder. I was 3 months in therapy and learned alot about it an what i can do to help me :)
I think this is a great video!
Schokotortle 1 month ago
I'm going through hell :'/ someone help me :(
DeppressedKierax 1 month ago
what a beautifully articulate piece. Thank you.
alexqzed 1 month ago
hell is like a paradies if you have borderline !
123lovedemilovato 1 month ago
@123lovedemilovato because it's worse then hell, i knew what u mean't. :(
gayproud1 1 month ago
@gayproud1 yes... :(
123lovedemilovato 1 month ago
i have BPD also and there's white this it is perfect subscription about it
ilsevanderbeken 1 month ago
Thank you so much. My brother has BPD and now I know how he really feels! He is totally alone and has no help, he refuses therapy and feels terribly lonely!
bluefairyuk 1 month ago
cause i need you now !!!!
123lovedemilovato 1 month ago
you know you have bpd when this video makes you burst into tears...
Xenabaiche 1 month ago 14
@Xenabaiche soooooo true!!!
SkunkyTruck 2 weeks ago
very nicely done. i was just recently diagnosed with BPD, and its hard. and your video lifted my spirits a little.
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chafeboy 1 month ago
if you think borderline is a bad stigma try Schizophrenia. I was wrongly diagnosed even though I never heard voices are saw things that were not there. It turns out I have borderline something that is usually asscoiated with women. The bottom line is the human brain is unique between every person. You cant label anyone anything and be sure with today's medicine. But , for 10 years they said I was schizo gave me high does of harmful medication and shock treatment.
borderlinemanful 1 month ago
@borderlinemanful i had my home state health department trying to tell me I'm schizophrenic for a little over 5 years, during those 5 years I ended up worse over the course of them deciding my medication was to be mandatory and even at some points physically forced. I made the decision to move away to another state with better public health reputation. within 2 years they'd made the BPD diagnosis & explain in ways that helped me understand how they came to the diagnosis.
BeccaDtk 1 month ago
i havent watched this in about a year - but thank you again for such a real and beautiful portrail of what my life is like...
kaitiekay28205 1 month ago
Oh and another question, do you think you're capable of loving? I knew someone, she was the ex of my best friend. I know BPDers don't normally express themselves or talk about what they are going through, but my best friend knows this girl inside and out. She (the girl with BPD) says she will always love my friend and we honestly believe her. Because no one will be as understanding, or accepting of her as my best friend was. I don't think BPDers go without love, they just go without trust
face2facechick 1 month ago
@face2facechick We don't feel loved even if we are.Our self esteem is too low to believe anyone could love us.I know in my head my boyfriend of ten years now loves me but inside I'm always scared of him leaving or dying I feel like hell and an outsider with everyone even him.I have trouble showing emotion that is inside of me dying to get out and be like normal people.We are very sad most of the time.
ellzedd41 1 month ago
So despite pretending to be happy, and putting on a face for everyone...its mostly all a lie?
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TrichordoKostas 1 month ago
There was once a time in my life where I wanted to die. I hated myself, and I could not trust anyone else. I felt trapped in a world of hatred and despair. I had been abandoned so many times, that I did not care. I hid myself away so that no one else could hurt me. For that I am alone. There was once I time I cut myself, I cried, I lied. But I fought through it. To everyone else, it gets better. Trust me. Its true what they say, that its always darkest before the dawn.
YuckyAppleTree 1 month ago
Thank you so much for putting everything I've been feeling into words. This is a truly beautiful video.
savagejeans 1 month ago
Thank you so much for posting this. I have had some ask me to explain BPD to them... Even though I have it, it's hard to. My fiancee has asked so many times what it's about and I just can't seam to explain it. I'm going to show him this video when he gets home from work. Thank you for helping me explain this to him finely.
maddalyne555 1 month ago
This was very accurately portrayed. I have BPD.
Waterlou25 2 months ago 12
I have it and I used to be really crazy. BPD are smart, creative people and is one of the reasons why they question themselves and others. To find the inner peace you deserve is to find who you are. Understand this and you can relate to others better. Knowing yourself is to know your limits/boundaries. Take time to love yourself and understand who you are, and where you are. Everything else will fall into place.
FatFriendly1 2 months ago
Do homosexuals have the women systems because i am gay and i do not fit the male one at all. I 100% fit the female one!
gayproud1 2 months ago
@gayproud1 hi, I'm gay too, I think I fit the female more than the male.
Carlm2 2 months ago
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@Carlm2 Hey darling. I know what u mean and i don't think a gay guy would fit the male one. I think the straight male BPD knows how to controll their temper but gay and women really do not. Women can tend to get away with it more then us tho because if we screamed at a guy he would hit us or something, then i would kick him in the nuts lol :)
gayproud1 1 month ago
Thank you. This was such a valuable thing for me to find. I have sent it out to friends and family (also added it to my facebook page) so that they might better be able to understand me......... I am so grateful that you have been able to put into words and thoughts just how tormenting this illness truly is.xxx
TheHeavyPetal 2 months ago
I had BPD for over 6 years!
It was feeling like in hell, anger, emptyness, depression, you know all of this..
Anyway, i discovered hypnotherapy, about 3 months ago, and i immeaditly start with that.
The result is so well,that you cant even imagine.
My psychic said that im different person, move away the tablets,
for me, if you asking me, im feeling like i own the world :)
im happy, more peacefull, always smiling, its hard to tell im cured.
im more like different person!!!
Spread it out people!
xcenter126 2 months ago
"For those that are suffering from BPD, take some time and think about yourself" is really funny. All BPDs ever do is think about themselves.
SunscreenAndVitamins 2 months ago
@SunscreenAndVitamins Funny you say that and that is the reason I know you do not suffer from it.I worry all the time yes but I put my needs last for my loved ones.I support my boyfriend financially when was out of work and spent any extra money on his health needs.Yes my thoughts are self absorbed with worry from minute to minute some days.God I hate the stigma with this disorder :/
ellzedd41 1 month ago
Thank you
MelbaToast454 2 months ago
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so accurate as to what i'm feeling right now.
nosubstituteforyou 2 months ago
Thank you for this
pjc2005 2 months ago
I’m 13 and i’m really scared I have this :’(
lilmisssuperbass 2 months ago
@lilmisssuperbass Get help for it because the longer u leave it the worst it will get. Please get help and save urself of getting worse!
gayproud1 2 months ago
This isn't depressing at all. It's honest and beautiful.
MsOthercat 2 months ago 12
i believe i have this...i feel like nobody has or will ever understand me. it's so many mix emotions . it hurts me a lot. sometimes i just wish i never excisted :(. i've gone through a lot. :'(
mnmlvr22 2 months ago
Not triggering at all..
You really desribe the illness well! Love it!
For almost 9 years I havn't been able to describe it as well as you've done so thanks! Gonna show this to my bf who's had a hard time dealing with me since he doesn't know what my problems are.
Perhaps he'll be aware of that bpd not only is about fear of seperation and sensetivity.. =/
ZeraphinaJ 2 months ago
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mindbodytrainer 2 months ago
why use such depressing music for a depressing topic? this just makes me feel worse about it. thanks
gbien 2 months ago
I really sick of being labelled as different just because I don't mingle with others. People immediately think that I may have psychological problems, they said it might be borderline PD or something else 'cause I seem to have the symptoms of other illnesses too, they might be right but I can't seek professional help. My mom won't let me. Can someone please help me? I'm feeling depressed lately. I want to understand myself better.
nosubstituteforyou 2 months ago
I think I have this but my parents won't let me go get help. What should I do?
nosubstituteforyou 2 months ago
I'm in tears watching this video as im going through a terrible time. i've been diagnosed with borderline and i feel so alone, nobody understands what i'm going through, and people judge me terribly especially people i meet on dates or relationships etc. i reject people to avoid being hurt but feel abandoned and the pain it leaves me is a chronic feeling of emptyness which is what i'm going through right now i'm in so much pain and feel alone it hurts me to the core.
Audiboyuk 2 months ago
It doesn't feel like someone is singing sad sweet songs in the fucking background. Sheesh. PS It really doesn't make me want to sing about bloody Angels.
homerjsinnott 2 months ago
I have been dealing with BPD and Bi-polar and PTSD for a long while now and this video is so touching to me because it help me feel like I am human and that more people than just me deal with these things. When you are married to someone that is "normal" life is a roller coaster and they really never understand the feelings that you deal with and they don't know how to help, they tend to only make things worse.
magicangel162000 2 months ago in playlist Sadder
I tell myself not to wake up in the morning because the world would be better off without me .
s16penser 2 months ago
Thankyou for this! I just found out today that this is what I have.
snlessa78 2 months ago
I hate myself 20 hours out of the day. I sleep for 6. How fucked is that. I hate my life, but life is so beautiful im always in a cross fire.
TheObicha 2 months ago
I wish doctors would help me...my parents won't help me....and god isn't going to help me...... I need to die..or get help.
s16penser 2 months ago
@s16penser Hey you... as I sit here in tears, in my own pain, your post makes me want to reach out to you... We are all in this together yet it's hard to reach out and connect... and to let that connection stick and sink in... then stay. I feel you. and I don't think God turns his back on us... but it would be nice if God could give us an easier avenue to healing... I have been at this for a long time. Hear that God? A new remedy would bece for BPD,,, I'm listening and willing Lord, Amen
cjbesch 2 months ago
This Video I watched almost 2 months ago... I am now on the road to recovery.. don't let it sink you deeper.. and dont use it as an excuse. Use it to get better. I went to see a psychologist after watching this, and have since brought up so many things that happened to me I had blocked as a child growing up.. It is a trigger but its meant to help you realise you may have BPD... everyone has emotions they are normal, True BPD's cant control them.. But we can learn to.. but using therapy DBT
swivell80 2 months ago
thankyou for sharing this video. finally i was able to show others what it feels like inside my own head.. to all fellow sufferers <3 and peace to you all. we deserve to live and be happy as much as anyone. i will continue to fight my own bpd battle and am grateful that fellow sufferers can share their own journeys. we are not alone..
shelllj68 2 months ago
Anyone know what the song is?
KatelynnBabiie 2 months ago
Thx for this wonderfull Video. When I watched it it felt like the words came out of my soul. Life can be so difficult and no one can understand us Borderline Personalities!
Moonsister1987 2 months ago
No one bleves me
s16penser 2 months ago
Exactly
s16penser 2 months ago
This video made me realise exactly what it is that is going on with me. The only problem is when I try to bring it up with ANYONE (doctors included) it gets dismissed and I'm told that it is just hormones or my imagination and will die down. If only they knew what I had done to myself to stop the pain maybe they would realise I need help. Does everyone else feel like they have to deal with it on their own?
aaronelmore1 3 months ago
This video made me tear up, it's exactly like my life.. It's so hard.. Especially when I don't understand why...Why I feel that way, why it's me suffering so much.. Thank you for this..
OhMissAna 3 months ago
Your video brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing.
ArtbyNubia 3 months ago
A good way to deal with this is friendship with other sufferers. Joining a forum with social network functions or a website like MapOfmates can really help.
jlonnqvist1 3 months ago
Oh. My. Goodness. This video is so accurate and really hit home. Thank you for sharing it.
commanderrocket07 3 months ago
my friend was right i think i do have this :(
madeofcaramel77 3 months ago
Its almost 3 am and I can't sleep. Not because of your video but because of constantly runs through my head. I just have to say, this video hit me real hard. I feel those feelings so often and I feel like I'm crazy and become afraid and angry. My friend said I don't have BDP but the more I look into it, I feel like I do because I know how I feel unlike her. Thank you for your video.
Belldandy722 3 months ago
I suffer from major depression and BPD, it sucks......
Bullsbby 3 months ago
The one thing i hate most of all is when people say "Ohh it's just for attention" :@
ClothesHairMakeUp 3 months ago
i am so tired of feelin like this is there any hope :,(
sdboii93 3 months ago
I hate this :(
miissmiaa 3 months ago
I have been diagnosed with pstd borderline and bipolar disorder and I am alone with four children. My family berates me for the way I behave or that I am not so to speak normal like them and I am trying so hard to just get through the damn day life for me is hell and I am alone.
belle69ish 3 months ago
@belle69ish I wonder if your family is so very "normal", and I encourage you to be yourself despite them because you are a courageous person to have to deal with these problems as well as bringing up four children. Power to you!!!!
darkallegiance666 3 months ago
I feel all of that
s16penser 3 months ago
My mom was talking to the doc the other day and brought it up. Now I just feel like shit bc she never mentioned it to me b4. Thank u for helping me to understand what my mom didn't.
RedHed2013 3 months ago
i have bpd im 18 and iv had it sice i was 15
winterflake009 3 months ago
May god heal help and protect all the needy people...PLEASE!!!!!!!!!
taotjh 3 months ago
I hope you dont mind if I use your video as part of a presentation at college for BPD? It really puts across how it feels to live with this x
sammia777 3 months ago
This video gave me the courage to share my BPD Diagnois with someone other than a person in the medical or counselling field. It's because of people like MegaWatchVideos and their attitude towards what they couldn't possibly understand that a lot of people feel they need to keep this a secret. You say "don't be judged" but judging is exactly what you are doing. The end of this video is inspiring and offers hope. Thank you to aperfectingangel for such a touching video. I play it often.
mslovinsunsets 3 months ago
what song is this?
zebra3775 3 months ago
@zebra3775 natalie merchant - my skin :)
ilovemoviesuk 3 months ago
I wish you all, the best. I'm sure your are going to overcome this big issue.
GoldenAgeAscension 3 months ago
I'm diagnosed w/BPD by a Psych. Cause of my BPD I also suffer from PTSD, Anorexia, chronic skin picking, & extreme anxiety... I hav constant shaking. BPD Is VERY real. Most people would cave alone frm the utter empty & hopeless turmoil that literally makes us feel like there's a big hole in our chest & an arctic wind is blowing thru it..every day. You're lucky If u don't suffer frm this disorder, but DO NOT try 2 invalidate the pain of those who hav2 endure it, u hav no right & no idea.
spoonfull83 3 months ago
@spoonfull83 I know- I am so invalidated- especially by my mother who was- and is- still abusive- she says- youre just weak- cant you just perk up for the next 2 hours with company here- NOW THAT IM OLDER< ITS WORSE- I WANT TO DIE ALL THE TIME- -WHATEVER-IM STILL LIKE THIS-LEAVING A BIGGER GREEN FOOTPRINT EVERYDAY FOR NO REASON-anyway spoonful- thats my long way of saying i agree with you- peace- and everyone else, don't judge- you cant possibly know
45nthrivn 3 months ago
Fuck you MegaWatchVideos. You don't know what it's like and you never will. Don't post BS comments about shit you know nothing about. You've never walked our in our shoes so fuck off and stop posting and talking about something you know NOTHING about.
TheLoveCats75 3 months ago
@TheLoveCats75 thank you for saying that
madeofcaramel77 3 months ago
uhm.. I dont know why this is come about. This BPD thing was something that was made up and isint real. Some of you go threw this because of a reason and dont go threw them all.. or your mind is telling you too which can be easily avoided. Im not trying to come down on any of you but you all have to realize theres a reason your here. Dont be judged you be the Judge. But yeah its something i had to say.
MegaWatchvideos 3 months ago
i have anxiety and depression with a personality disorder . it sucks
zoki742 3 months ago
I was diagnosed with BPD, and I am now going through the motions to recover. This video gave me a sense of hope, which is something we (BPD) lack. Thank you!
McJessicaO 3 months ago
kan tilslutte mig så meget til det nummer.. den beskriver alt <3
MsRobrahn 3 months ago
I've read on some sights that BPD could possibly be hereditary, like Bipolar Disorder is..
...maybe I shouldn't have children.. :/ ...I don't want them to turn out like this...
KikyoChanXD 3 months ago
Fantastic video. I have bpd and it sums it all up so eloquently. The ending is full of hope. Such a tough disorder. Thank u
Stamdo72 3 months ago
This video is an excellent expression of what Personality disorder is really like. It was a good way to show others who cant understand it exactly what goes through your mind. Thank you for this. You're very brave to post this. Well done x
TheRoan85 3 months ago
This music makes me feel sad...
Ninjalectual 3 months ago