Anorexia - 5 years later

[kat9293]

Thank you for this. Really.

[OtherManWithNoName]

fuckin sexy at 1:35!!

[BootyLiciousGIrls2]

You looked very beautifull!(:

I think that you should keep having help.

And you should try your best to improve you not being anorexic!

Your perfect the way you are sweetie!(:

[AimeeLovesThinspo]

Whats The Name of This Song?

[Renae009]

remember it also depends on your frame size for your weight too, if you have a small frame then your in the smaller numbers, same with medium etc, but this is a serious illness. No young teen should diet ever without consulting a physician, and if there is an eating disorder take baby steps to get treatment, everything takes time to heal.

[95twilightsagalover]

It doesn't only depend on your hight it also depends on your age. ANd you don't have one weight you need to have. Like me. I'm 14 years old, I'm 180 cm and 55 kg. My bmi (body mass index) is 17. As a girl between 12 and 16 you're bmi has to be above the 15 and beneith 23. My minimum weight can be 52 and my maximum can be 73.

[gordonsharmancrf450]

how much are you suppose to weight at the age of 16

[chickenlover01]

@gordonsharmancrf450

55kg?

[mihoshi09]

depends how tall you are

5 ft- 100lbs

every inch after is 5lbs

ex. im 5' 1" = i should be 105lbs im 130 im over weight.

[ASHIET22]

I understand how you feel, noting has worked for me now I have to keep 50kgs or they will take away my son and I don't want that D:

[asiangurl193]

yea um im 96 punds and im 13...should i feel worried

[Meeshkamybaby]

baby, how by being fat or skinny?

[asiangurl193]

wut , i dnt get

[nurulpss]

@asiangurl193 Depends what your height is. Find a weight-height chart and see if your weight is ok for your height.

[MsGymnast4life]

no i am almost 12 and i weigh 60pounds is that not healthly?

[Renae009]

It wouldn't be for sure, but since you are 12 and still growing you should be fine, some people are just naturally thin.

[maclasch]

are you starving yourself? being skinny is only a symptom of anorexia, it's not the condition itself. only if you are purposely trying to stay small by limiting your meals would you be considered anorexic.

[Roxi7898179]

Wow. I really hope she stays out of her anarexia. Thats bad. Im 14(almost 15 in a couple of months) and i weigh about 80 pounds, But im NOT anarexic. I eat..a lot. High Metabolism I supppose.

[LoveMusicLoveMe1]

This has really opened my eyes about anorexia. a couple of years ago i thaught my friend had it because she would say to me that she was fat when she is really skinny i wasa so worried about her but its ok now fortuanatley she listened to what i said and stopped it :) I hope you get better anyway :) thankyou for putting this on.

[kingdomOpets]

hehe.....nasty cow :D

[Sandiegio9]

ye, im 13 and 100 lbs, trying to eat more... should i also be concerned?

[malissamarissa]

no. thats normal enoug, your just alittle bit light

[thevalehehsquad]

@supersexaysamus uuummmm im 12 and im like 90 lbs should i be concernd?

[KetaWhat]

.. wow.. way to lash out at a 10 year old, very mature of you. good on ya.

[chloe09bbz]

to be honest ur just a little bitch coz all ages come on you tube if young people like me start trying being anerexia could die the i wouldnt be just me family upset all my friends would be too SOOOO U GO KILL UR SELF LIKE THE EMO U ARE U DONT HAVE TO BE BUITIFUL ON THE OUT SIDE BUT U HAVE TO BE TRY TO BE BEUTIFUL ON THE INSIDE I HAVE NO RESPECT FOR U AT ALLL !!! :(

[tia1922]

i wish i had anorexia because i am ten and i weigh 80 punds and not my fualt i weigh that much its because my diabetes..

[malissamarissa]

your fine, just alittle heavy. Be careful what you wish for

[tia1922]

no but after my next treatment i am going back down to 70..and dont just say u r a little heavey because i was under weight and at ten u r supposed to way this much....

[TwNmEcBdRuleMyWorld]

You're beautiful, mirrors only show a reflection, but is it really you or your head? The answer, you're head. If you feel beautiful then you are.

[eternityandforever]

I have been overweight most of my life. I have lost and gained weight repeatedly. Now I am 43 and I know how to finally eat right. Read health books all you can. Study fitness and nutrition. YOu can still be thin and healthy! And think about the perfect woman EVE. She ate vegetables and fruits. Eat them until you are full. Drink 8-10 glasses of water. I found nuts and raisins fill up fast. Read the bible for strength.

[markkerr101]

why are anorexics always emo

[believe9117]

I feel like that all the time i hate it!!! I want help but my family doesnt have the money

[piolhita9]

You are so beautiful!

Please don't eaven think about being anoretic again! I loved that last photo!

I always lived thinking I was quite fat and now I'm to skinny (not anoretic but skinny). I am so embaresed of my bones! I hardly never use tops and things like that.

I want to get fat! I really do! That kind of stuff fits so well in normal people!

I wish you notice that you are beautiful that way and not with all those bones! Please don't be stupid. You' re very prety!

Get better soon!

[XxsnakebitesxXfreak]

Wow im so sorry i recently was too skinny so i ate then gained too much told i was obese now i threw up from being sick and dropped from 119 to 116 in one day and i didnt eat for 2 days i was shocked but happy.. and im goinng to keep going no matter what. P.S whats the song..?? i like it..

[singlaprety12]

FUCK ANEREXIA

FUCK OBESITY

FUCK MEDIA

FUCK SATAN

FUCK GENETICLY MODIFIED FOOD

FUCK INDUSTRY

FUCK WIEGH ILLNES

MODELS ARE FAT TOO, I AM FAT AND I WAS A MODEL BUT THERE THERE WERE DISUSTING PEOPLE THAT LOOK SO UNATRUAL AND THEY WERE FAT TOO

I WAS THE PRETTYEST ONE AND I WIEGH 185lbls

[singlaprety12]

why is my comment -6 I'm just saying all these things are wrong!

Its just how i FEEL

[8l3gg3dpanda]

I too started when i was 15 and I'll get healthy and then slip back into my habits, get 'healthy' again and continue to go back to the way things were. I don' t want to get fat. I'm now 21 as well and I haven't drank at all because I'm so afraid of all the calories in alcohol.

[azinuamprieteni]

good luck from now. thank you for posting this video. your english is fine

[baZaaRs3nsez]

I like this story.. but should I I dunno.. I do though... =\

[bainka16]

if i was anorexic id be prettier and skinny and i wouldnt ave pple call me fat

[malissamarissa]

not pretty, just unnaturally skinny

[singlaprety12]

If you were anerexic you would feel like crap..

Try being 185 lbs with something wrong that doctors are trying to figue out.

[Opetti]

There is more to life than you know by now. And, there is hope. This was really sad, and I really do understand you because I've been depressed for a long time now. But I still carry on because I know that some day something better will come. We all know that it can't rain all the time. So please, do not give up, you still have a whole life to live. I really wish better days for you!

[chambocha]

thankyou for sharing your story.. very haunting

i wish you all the best as you continue to recover

and hope you will find the happiness you desire :)

[aaaaaasma]

this is so sad

[blackwings724]

....umm.... how did you get away from not eating during lunch at school?( trust me, just out of curiousity.)

[thedarknesssurrounds]

I dont eat lunch at school..I just dont buy it.I sit at the table with my friends and lie to everyone that I just dont have enough money for food.But im not anorexic im just not hungry.

[girlygirlkisses94]

i normaly skip or i go hang with friends? or i get a small thing like sandwich and i say gotta go pee and on way out i throw it out

[singlaprety12]

Yeah but as you loose wiegh you loose happyness

[puppylove4444]

it's true, it'll never go away. But you'll find that it was worth it to stay here, alive. I know someone who attempted to suicide 3 times. Today, she is happily married and has children. She is so glad she didn't decide to leave. Hang on, because staying is so much more worth it than leaving. Anything can happen to you. Anything good. Don't let the bad things happen to you. Hang on please.

[ekvra]

dont give up

[annutjehh]

Sophie - Eleanor McEvoy

[shootingstarsdance]

what song is this

[deyulalu]

Eleanor McEvoy - Sophie... :)

[asfaloz]

I have a friend who was (and still is) anorexic. it all happened while she went to study far away, and when i saw her again, she thought that everithing she could have, anorexia had taken away from her. I told her to study psycology and specialize in eating disorders. I think no one could understand an eating disorder better than you, and no one could help whoever needs help better than you. goog luck.

[RadiationxHazard]

I hate how people define anorexia. Its such a different case for every person. It can be minor or serious, it can be wehre you eat little and purge through exercise, you might not eat at all. There's cases where the person eats a ton, and gets rid of what they ate through running miles. It just depends. Anorexia means you're under 17.5 percent bmi.. but there are plenty of girls out there with the disease that arent underweight.

Anorexia is... very confusing.

[cinnabonpup]

wait wait wait

are you anorexic if you just naturally don't eat much in the first place? cuz i eat less than anyone I know, but i always eat until I'm full. Unless i have no food left, in which case i steal someone elses (hehehe)

[FAversion]

Anorexia is a loss of appetite.

Anorexia Nervosa is an irrational fear of weight gain.

If you eat 'till your truly full, no matter what the portion size, without phycological ties to what your swallowing, then you don't have anorexia

[veggiesoup16]

ohh...that made me feel...

[Slarfje]

me too

[BreeLUVR8909]

all girls are beautyful and special..when your that skinny it isnt beautyful..thats y i want to make a fat barbie... as much as id enjoy being skinny i love me for me i weight 130 and thats me...keep up the work and know that people will support u...

[CandiedCloverFlowers]

Keep going! You deserve happiness. I know it might feel like anorexia is the only thing that gives you that, but things are always changing. Keep going forward toward substantial happiness and you will find it.

You deserve to treat your whole self, mind AND body, correctly. I am so proud of you. I am so proud of you.

[littleLOLkat]

Your words are so inspiring

Thankyou

[0lguixx]

beautiful

[Nynke188]

beautiful story it really is! I hope that you will find hope again!

[FrozenSugar21]

aww, beatoful story :P)

im gald you recovered.

[Alhummerr]

sup.

[brittaanyox]

hm.

i think this videos not at all cool.

people who are recovering from this illness dont want to hear this kind of negativity! This video has sent a message that recovery isnt posible, that things dont get better... thats what i got from it anyway? not too motivating for thoughs who try hard to be positive about that big step. Sorry, just dont see why i even watched that. like i get where your coming from.

[lostlittlegirlygirl]

BULLSHIT.u clearly dont have a clue what u are talking about

[gingerisevil02]

Wow how awful! My heart reaches out for you!

[janejanejane7]

or course everyone (or most people) with an eating disorder or any kind of addiction is an attention seeker....

we all have pain. we all need help....for some it is the only way to get people to listen!

[maroalam83]

my god if i have to listen to this song again, im gonna shoot myself in the head, ahhhhhhhhhhh annoying voice

[zielonasciana]

Beautiful story :* I know what you feel... I feel the same. Find reasons to live and deal with this bullshit :* Be hopeful :*

[fran12392]

:( è tristeeee

[bojanglesvegan]

i wasn't able to truly recover until i stopped associating myself with anorexia. The day i stopped saying "i'm a recovered anorexic" and instead tried to be a girl completely separate from the past is when i really stopped thinking with an anorexic mentality.

perhaps this can help you? either way, I hope you're well :]

[BadOOkiieee]

Wow really? How can I get myself to think that way?

[smileysweetie54]

whats this song called?

[BadOOkiieee]

Sophie

[ogodawg52]

I just found out my 9 year old daughter has been gaging herself for almost a week. I want to stop this now before it gets out of hand.

[Innergoth333]

Get her help! Don't let her suffer through this hell...

[shoes970]

Just keep fighting her (anorexia). Please-stay strong.

[HaRdStYlE214]

the song is?

[UK339]

u draw that pic in the background in hobbies? if so, then bravissimo! Or what do u say? Brava? Bravo?

[boobootwinkle]

please stay strong

[patricia1patricia]

i don't have anorexia and i cannot possibly know how you feel. I truly want you to be strong....stay strong.

Don't give up. Try to talk to someone who has recovered from anorexia. It will make you STRONG and will be even more confident that you too can do it.

Much love. :)

[sseutan]

you beautiful child,you are still here! can you see what an achievement that is? your pain,your pain...what can assuage it? Do you know...?

[graffiz23]

what is the name of the song?

[hurtingmoreandmore]

You may have lost years that can't be gained back but real friends never go away and there is always hope and you are still very young so don't give up, keep fighting and ask for help.

x

[Fuiren]

its psychological, not mental. if that makes any sense to you. though your comment shows a lack of understanding what this is really about.

[Fuiren]

its not twice, it was just restarted in the middle of the song

[blablaMana]

I'm very proud of you, by making this vid you've shown the absolute destruction anorexia can cause you. I've got it too 3 years now and yes, I also struggle. But I've never, never and I'll never be ; Pro-anorexic. No way. Good job, girl!

[vixenveganJD]

What is the name of the song and who sings it?

[xXSpeechImpedimentXx]

well now u got room to grow...

[mirrkirr]

i really hope that one day you will be happy and feel fine and your nightmares are gone.

[4thelaf]

I know exactly what u mean.Like, to the outside world you're recovered but inside ur still burning.There's a part of u that loaths anorexia for doing this to u and longs to be "normal" but then there's this other,very dominant part which remembers what it was like to be so thin,to feel bones, to be so light and thoughtless,having your world centre around food? It's like ur envious of how it was but can't go back there cuz of the other part of you which knows better? Some day it'll all b fine....

[italiana314]

tuoi video e molta bellla..

[leacarrie3]

Your video is very personal and touching. I am sorry you are going through so much pain. I hope you feel better. Much love and support xoxoxo

[mmtlovepete]

be strong, dont let yourself loose everything you have.

catch them, hold on them.

stay with everything that is positive, & avoid negative things.... like anorexia...

youll see... if you do that, youll be better..

and i now speak with personnal experiences..

just stay strong and dont let yourself down.

i believe in you..

xoxo

[standbyme90]

ì really like your video.. i have also for nearly 6 years now anorexia, and was always in a weight near to the death... now i`m better, i seem from the weight normal, but in my head i`m the same.. and i would do anything to be that skinny again.. i `don`t want to miss it..

[twizz420]

I honestly don't know how you like being so skinny that you can see bones...

I myself am that skinny naturally and I fucking hate it. I wish I was fat!

[KateMacCloud]

Im agree with you!

It's the same thing for me

but we have to enjoy it in same way

wee cann eat all!

look the positive part...

[KateMacCloud]

mi post was for

twizz420 !

thankks

[eliogregory]

Ciao Veggie...come promesso ho visto il tuo video della tua storia...è davvero triste, ma tu sei altrettanto forte...ne uscirai presto...un abbraccio

(p.s. ho riconosciuto il balboni e il monesi!! ^_^)

[JustAWishXx]

What you said at 5:00 is very true.

Good Luck in your life, I wish you get well soon, I hope you have the strength to KEEP trying, no matter what comes in your way.

xxx People care for you. ALWAYS. xxx

[Holding0n]

This is such a sad video. I'm so sorry to see you struggling so much. It takes a lot of pain to give up an eating disorder and recover, but all the pain is worth it to have freedom. You can't go back to who you were before you developed anorexia, but you can start again and become someone who is even stronger and more beautiful after going through anorexia and beating it.

[mothwingss]

great video. i often feel similar. you captured how you feel very well. i wish you the best with everything. i know it's hard, but i believe there is a life worth living on the other side!

[LHStostardome]

Hello! Your video really touched me. I'm so sorry you are feeling so desperate and alone. You had recovery once....or possibly they thought you were recovered but the voice was still within?...but are there others to reach out to again? Your parents sounded supportive, can you tell them? I'm hoping you get relief from your struggle.  I always turn to God when I'm in despair. Maybe that will help as well. I'll pray for you. I'm sending you well wishes. Never Give Up! You are worthy!

[misstiggykins]

Recovery IS possible,even if it may seem very distant. I was anorexic for 30 years and had been 'written off' by some doctors - seen as a chronic case. I felt I had nothing to live for except my anorexia. That has all changed over the past 3 years.. Very gradually I have got better - both physicaly and mentally. Anorexia seems like a solution to a problem at first and it provides you with an identity, but it's all an illusion. You see yourself as powerful, but really you are ill. Take care! xx

[st0nefire2]

watch my thinspo video, /watch?v=pCR1fzFkIdQ

I loved your video, one of the best thinspos.

[SeoulChronicles]

It wasn't a thinspo video you dumb cunt. She said she's dying and all that. Is that inspiration?

[st0nefire2]

I was just advertising my video, didn't really watch the video, so i didnt kno if it was a thinspo or not. and im not "dumb" or a "cunt" okay? So go shove that up your fucking ass you dumb cunt.

[badgirlz069]

wats tha song playin???

[jefarr85]

and thats not the reality.Everything has a solution as long as your alive.Get the warrior inside of you to fight against your demons.I promise you,you will win the battle...

[jefarr85]

never forget that in every storm their is a sunrise...dont give up!!!Soon you will see this as a bad phase you went through,and we all go through our bad phases,maybe in different ways but in the moment we feel we are doomed

[pusshead80]

ur so beautiful. you have the prettiest face and i can tell ur a lovely person. ur the type of girl a guy would want to marry. i know i would if i ever meet you. ur an inspiration. dont give up. love - Duane XO

[6thelost9]

In some ways that's the most open truthfully spoken thing I've seen on youtube. Not tht everyone esle isn't truthful but people's fers often get in the way of their perseptions. your fears seem only to enhance your ability to say what's truly happenning. It's amazing. I hope you're okay.

[79eda79]

ciao, sono circa nove anni da quando sono uscita da anni di anoressia. la tua storia e' la mia storia ed e' la storia di tante altre persone. ... coraggio !!!! e' possibile farcela e la forza sta in te stessa. hai molte piu' risorse di quelle che credi o pensi di avere. e' un po' come un amante che ti fa star male, pensi di non potercela fare senza di lui, ma quando riesci a lasciarlo pian piano ti rendi conto che il mondo continua a girare, e che tu stai meglio..... in bocca al lupo!

[missdisorientated]

I can relate so much with this.

I hate and despise my eating disorder for all it has taken and destroyed - yet without my eating disorder I would be unable to cope. In a screwed up way it protects me from the scarier things.

[kolkomolesuka]

I hope you beat it!

I'm anorexic and even though I'm fine with being anorexic, I still wish you find happiness and peace of mind.

Keep fighting!

:)

[lovinglifealways]

i hope you beat this you have all my hope

what's the song called and who's it by also?

[VeggieAny]

"Sophie" - Elanor McEvoy

[Merlikas]

Everything you wrote was so clear to me. I feel allmost the same. Even if i know that i don't want to deal with it and i want something bigger from life... i feel ecxacly the same and falling deeper and deeper into this. I dont know did my comment make any sense.

[imjoy393]

I understand that all too well - you look healthy now but on the inside, you're still sick. I want to tell you that I truly do believe that recovery is possible, to be healthy not only physically but in every way. I've been fighting this for over 8 years and I haven't won yet, but still I have held on to my hope. I'm stronger than the disorder, and so are you. Don't give up! Love, Lisa

[licoricepop459]

hang in there.....you have my support!

[proanita]

Be strong.

it's a fatal disease that we can never beet.

she's always her.

I hope you will be fine. <3

[kingjo5ie]

it IS possible to beat.

[Lillith9]

Great video! It's really georgous!

But at the beginnig there is some trouble with the music..(1:41)