omg... i thought i was messed up! thank you for sharing. my story is too long to share out here, but that whole religous thing with demons and lack of dicipline and being wrong or not doing enough had me bent out of shape. thanks again for sharing, it really helps.
"Tell them to fuck off" haha brilliant! I hope OCD becomes more widely understood soon. I know none of my friends really understand it ("is that the one where you wash your hand and make things neat?") I don't tell a lot of people, but I told them I had OCD and they were like "I've never seen you excessively wash your hands." ERR How about I excessively punch them in the face haha. great video!
This is exactly what I'm fighting with these days. I grew up with a rather religious upbringing (Jewish) and both my siblings are completely secular now. I am slowly accepting what I believe and that God has better things to do then keeping his damnation finger on the trigger for me.
So yeah a struggle definitely but as always your blog helps.
I had this in spades back in my OCD days. Since I wasn't doing anything "wrong" at the time I thought I was being punished by God preemptively for something I was going to do in the future. God is supposed to be omnipresent after all. I was raised Catholic, but not to an extreme where I would/should have believed such things. Praying became a compulsive behavior as a result--my own OCD breed of praying that is.
Also, I tried to be as NICE as possible... I have a lot of sin to make up for. Heh.
@AtaraxisG thanks! i know what you mean about being judgmental sometimes. i feel like im open minded and then sometimes i get so righteously indignant about things, sometimes quite silly. i agree too that it can be good for standing up for what you believe in. i try to do that while at the same time respecting others. stay strong! p.s. i love how you write!
As my boyfriend said to me so well: it also means I am not easy to sway and more likely to uphold my principles, not letting the opinion of the crowd change me. It means I am more likely to stand my ground firmly when something is worth defending.
And that is worth a LOT.
And for what it's worth, I constantly work at being more open and less judging (even if it stems from some OCD pattern at times) because I care about the people I'm with and don't want to hurt my relationships with them(cont)
or talking behind someone's back (which we all do in one way or another, it's just the tone and context that define if it's mean spirited or not), and constantly think about them as major issues that can destroy a lot of my perception of them as good. I know it's irrational and I eventually move on, but the intrusiveness causes me much anxiety and even pain for not being able to better tolerate people's flaws.
However, despite that, I too am proud of who I am. Sure I do judge. But (cont)
I don't have scrupulosity OCD with sinning, but I have a close one centered around morality. And it's not so much that it's intrusive by itself, but rather because morality is already such a topic in my life (on the MBTI scale I'm an ENFJ, the Judging part being quite strong at times), I guess with OCD it becomes irrationally present at all times. I get obsessed with how someone close to me might do certain things I view as unacceptable, even so little as skipping a class(cont)
omg... i thought i was messed up! thank you for sharing. my story is too long to share out here, but that whole religous thing with demons and lack of dicipline and being wrong or not doing enough had me bent out of shape. thanks again for sharing, it really helps.
QuintessenceArtistry 2 weeks ago
"Tell them to fuck off" haha brilliant! I hope OCD becomes more widely understood soon. I know none of my friends really understand it ("is that the one where you wash your hand and make things neat?") I don't tell a lot of people, but I told them I had OCD and they were like "I've never seen you excessively wash your hands." ERR How about I excessively punch them in the face haha. great video!
stfupDonny 2 months ago 2
@stfupDonny hahaha! awesome1
ocddiary 2 months ago
Hey sexy
playboyEyadig 5 months ago
good message "Be proud of who you are." even if others claim you are living in "sin" I too am a proud hetero/OCD/atheist! ;)
THR33Peace 5 months ago
@THR33Peace :)
ocddiary 5 months ago
This is exactly what I'm fighting with these days. I grew up with a rather religious upbringing (Jewish) and both my siblings are completely secular now. I am slowly accepting what I believe and that God has better things to do then keeping his damnation finger on the trigger for me.
So yeah a struggle definitely but as always your blog helps.
PS - love the fat kitties!
Maaian 5 months ago
@Maaian I'm very glad to hear it. It's such a struggle, but I know you can do it! Stay strong!
ocddiary 5 months ago
I had this in spades back in my OCD days. Since I wasn't doing anything "wrong" at the time I thought I was being punished by God preemptively for something I was going to do in the future. God is supposed to be omnipresent after all. I was raised Catholic, but not to an extreme where I would/should have believed such things. Praying became a compulsive behavior as a result--my own OCD breed of praying that is.
Also, I tried to be as NICE as possible... I have a lot of sin to make up for. Heh.
TheMoney28 5 months ago
I know they are all good persons. That helps a lot in tapering obsessive thoughts and anxiety.
Dunno what to call my strand of OCD though, but I definitely can identify it as such due to the symptoms.
Sorry for the long message!
AtaraxisG 5 months ago
@AtaraxisG thanks! i know what you mean about being judgmental sometimes. i feel like im open minded and then sometimes i get so righteously indignant about things, sometimes quite silly. i agree too that it can be good for standing up for what you believe in. i try to do that while at the same time respecting others. stay strong! p.s. i love how you write!
ocddiary 5 months ago
As my boyfriend said to me so well: it also means I am not easy to sway and more likely to uphold my principles, not letting the opinion of the crowd change me. It means I am more likely to stand my ground firmly when something is worth defending.
And that is worth a LOT.
And for what it's worth, I constantly work at being more open and less judging (even if it stems from some OCD pattern at times) because I care about the people I'm with and don't want to hurt my relationships with them(cont)
AtaraxisG 5 months ago
or talking behind someone's back (which we all do in one way or another, it's just the tone and context that define if it's mean spirited or not), and constantly think about them as major issues that can destroy a lot of my perception of them as good. I know it's irrational and I eventually move on, but the intrusiveness causes me much anxiety and even pain for not being able to better tolerate people's flaws.
However, despite that, I too am proud of who I am. Sure I do judge. But (cont)
AtaraxisG 5 months ago
Well said Julia.
I don't have scrupulosity OCD with sinning, but I have a close one centered around morality. And it's not so much that it's intrusive by itself, but rather because morality is already such a topic in my life (on the MBTI scale I'm an ENFJ, the Judging part being quite strong at times), I guess with OCD it becomes irrationally present at all times. I get obsessed with how someone close to me might do certain things I view as unacceptable, even so little as skipping a class(cont)
AtaraxisG 5 months ago