I. Want. To. Help. You. Like. Really. Bad. Come and give you a hug, spend time with you, tell you how beautiful you are, and just be a friend there for you...
You recognize a problem, and you have a desire to fix it. Congratulate yourself for that. You have already overcome the most difficult part and that is admitting something is not right. It is VERY important that you talk to someone...a family member, sister maybe- someone who loves you and deserves the chance to intervene and stop you from killing yourself, let them love you. You are made of body and soul, BOTH need nourishment...keep up the good work, I am rooting for you.
Thank you for this, it is a huge struggle...something that never really goes away, it just that we have to control it. Keep going ay! You will get there! Dont let it become your controller, there is only one spot in that position, and you are the one that fits in it!
@donnamarie21uk Can i just say that i wasn't attacking. It was a direct quote from the video, "why am i trying to die" (5:25). I meant that atleast in the beginning ana seems like a way to cope with things before it manifests. I'm pointing out that its as much trying to find a way to live than actually trying to die.
you are so beautiful, eating disorders are not about the way we look but how we feel inside. i no we often blame the number on the scales but this is so superficial to the real you. wen u start to think/feel fat..wat is really going on in your mind? these are some of the questions u must ask yourself. you are too beautiful a person to be suffering from this awful disease thatr will one day kill you if you do not seek help so i beg you please. noone deserves to go through this suffering :-( xx
When you say, you don't know when but you felt you started to deserve it, you know what that is? Depressive thinking, controlled by the disease. Your brain becomes starved and you can't think straight, all the lies the disease tells you feel like the truth. IT's NOT the truth! Fight it, fight that terrible lying voice, it only wants to destroy you.
Do u remember when u first got ur Ed or how it began? Also, dint give up because u have cute kids around u and what would they think if u were no longer around?
When did your Ed first start? Do u remember how? Also don't give up u have a very cute kids around u and if u were no longer there what would they think?
continued....even if your body is not on death's door today (and keep this up, it WILL be), you are not living, you are not alive. You deserve so much more in life than being a slave to the rules of what make you feel safe - those rules are killing you, literally. Please get some help, I am no therapist but I know there are people who can help you out of this. Don't give up - on LIFE, not ana, ok? Please try, you can do this, you can be happy again. God Bless.
You look so desperately sad, my heart goes out to you. I know there is nothing I can say that will mean anything to you, but here goes anyway - being anorexic is NEVER going to make you happy. You're chasing an impossible dream. Anorexia is just YOUR way of dealing with the terrifying feelings inside yourself. Right now your brain is starved, you cannot even think properly. I beg you to get professional help and save your life.
If that is your baby that you are holding in a few of the pictures, you need to recover for your baby, and for yourself. Be strong, I know you can do it because tonight I will pray for you and your child. You will make it through. <3
i love you so much donna, those pics are just so sad, the words and everything...your better than anorexia, you can and will get over it, we both will. We need to party and shiz remember ly hunni x x x
I didn't sum up your video at all. In fact, I didn't even watch it minus the first like 10 seconds. I just replied to a question. Why people have eating disorders is both very simple and very complex. It is simple because it is quite an obvious coping mechanism and avoidance technique, but complex because predisposing factors are complex, from a genetics perspective. Anyway, donnamarie, good luck in recovery. I have struggled with anorexia & bulimia for the last 7 yrs. I know it is hard.
it's all about your inside feelings...you think if you lose weight, you will be prettier or better, but no matter how much food you don't eat or how much weight you lose, you still feel the same inside....hope that made sense.
Many reasons that differ for individuals. Often it can be part of BDD, so your actual processing of sensory info is wrong. But also because when you get to a low weight you are very invested in the ED, it consumes you, and if you suddenly cease to feel fat - which is a feeling that, on the surface, seems to drive the ED (not really though) - then you are lost. It is a bit of a psychological protective mechanism, I'd say. I hope it sort of makes sense, hard to sum up in a few words.
hope u get better... ur such a pretty firl... and... just this, perfection isn't everything in life, start living life one day after another, and then you'll see that, perfection isn't about looks and w8, is about how your feeling when you can smile without forcing it. Bless you always...
hi donnamarie ;)-I found your video touching. In the beginning of your video you asked that people would not judge you.I don't judge you. Keep hanging in there/don't give up. Here's a caring hug for you.
Hi Sweetie-thanks for adding me as a friend-I just cked out your friend's list and I don't see me.I think that by mistake your invite to me be a friend was accidently deleted by me. So I just sent a friend invitation to you-hopefully I did it right :)
hey hows the ed??...stay strong and alwatys remember that nomatter what you look like, you are so so beautiful on the inside, and dont let anybody tell you anything othewise xx
i no u were ill but in 4:30 that is a very pretty picture, but remember, you can be beautiful without thsi horrid disease, just hang on, never give up, keep fighting, think about your family, if you cant get through for yourself, get through for them, they need it as much as you
its so scary how quickly you fall under the spell and then you get that confused with everything you cant see the real you, how any1 can say this is not a real illness is utterly thick, at least your trying to do something about it, thats a big step on its own, just keep your head up high, lisa.x
i just wanna say to all you haterz ... ( u know hu u r ) !! .. back ya mouths up and take ya crap some place else .. i have ppl supportin me not calin me attention seeker !! .. dont need ppl like u in my life when ur just draggin me down because u dont know how to deal with it .. !! this is not pro anamia its to show ppl how i feel etc !!
You ignore them. They're ignorant people who don't understand what a mental illness is (most probably they have one).
Don't give up fighting. Recovery is possible and you have the support of many people to get you there. Use it, don't forget it; I did and it set me back so far.
IM RECOVERED :) WWOOP XX
donnamarie21uk 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
I. Want. To. Help. You. Like. Really. Bad. Come and give you a hug, spend time with you, tell you how beautiful you are, and just be a friend there for you...
That's what I want.
98abbygail 7 months ago
attention seeker.
adamson990210 11 months ago
@adamson990210 attention seeker!
brendaeileen 10 months ago
@brendaeileen Wtf?
adamson990210 10 months ago
@adamson990210 hmmmmmmmmmmm maybe I msged the wrong person, so sorry!
brendaeileen 10 months ago
anorexia is hawt keep it up!
Gh0sty1 1 year ago
@Gh0sty1 No its not!
perfectmeization 2 weeks ago
I wish you a lot of luck in recovery, take care and we are here if you need to talk anytime! Amy
mentalhealthhelpUK 1 year ago
that's really sad :(
TheYummyBerry 1 year ago
ilu donna <3 my heart goes out to you
alkalinerush 1 year ago
Do you have a child? If so recover for him/her. Wish you happiness. (:
LOVEanamarie 1 year ago
i know what you're going through. you deserve so much more than having to deal with that. you are beautiful.
-Uli
ferretloverxoxo 1 year ago
You recognize a problem, and you have a desire to fix it. Congratulate yourself for that. You have already overcome the most difficult part and that is admitting something is not right. It is VERY important that you talk to someone...a family member, sister maybe- someone who loves you and deserves the chance to intervene and stop you from killing yourself, let them love you. You are made of body and soul, BOTH need nourishment...keep up the good work, I am rooting for you.
siddigrl 1 year ago
Thank you for this, it is a huge struggle...something that never really goes away, it just that we have to control it. Keep going ay! You will get there! Dont let it become your controller, there is only one spot in that position, and you are the one that fits in it!
sammylovesjonny26 1 year ago
Why are you trying to die...? Because you want to be able to live......
christvswarhol 2 years ago
what you on about ... im not trying to die ... its an illness and i guess if you dont have it , you wont get it ..
donnamarie21uk 2 years ago 7
@donnamarie21uk Can i just say that i wasn't attacking. It was a direct quote from the video, "why am i trying to die" (5:25). I meant that atleast in the beginning ana seems like a way to cope with things before it manifests. I'm pointing out that its as much trying to find a way to live than actually trying to die.
christvswarhol 2 years ago 2
oooh . i get what you mean .. x
donnamarie21uk 2 years ago
i hope you recover and live a healthy life
The1Houstongirl 2 years ago 3
hey i dont knw u but i knw wot ur goin thru right now is hard each day an i hope tht soon u will recover best of luck
addictedtocutting 2 years ago
you are so beautiful, eating disorders are not about the way we look but how we feel inside. i no we often blame the number on the scales but this is so superficial to the real you. wen u start to think/feel fat..wat is really going on in your mind? these are some of the questions u must ask yourself. you are too beautiful a person to be suffering from this awful disease thatr will one day kill you if you do not seek help so i beg you please. noone deserves to go through this suffering :-( xx
pushpullchopchop 2 years ago
When you say, you don't know when but you felt you started to deserve it, you know what that is? Depressive thinking, controlled by the disease. Your brain becomes starved and you can't think straight, all the lies the disease tells you feel like the truth. IT's NOT the truth! Fight it, fight that terrible lying voice, it only wants to destroy you.
no1zgrl4eva 2 years ago 2
Do u remember when u first got ur Ed or how it began? Also, dint give up because u have cute kids around u and what would they think if u were no longer around?
kiara282 2 years ago
When did your Ed first start? Do u remember how? Also don't give up u have a very cute kids around u and if u were no longer there what would they think?
kiara282 2 years ago
continued....even if your body is not on death's door today (and keep this up, it WILL be), you are not living, you are not alive. You deserve so much more in life than being a slave to the rules of what make you feel safe - those rules are killing you, literally. Please get some help, I am no therapist but I know there are people who can help you out of this. Don't give up - on LIFE, not ana, ok? Please try, you can do this, you can be happy again. God Bless.
no1zgrl4eva 2 years ago
You look so desperately sad, my heart goes out to you. I know there is nothing I can say that will mean anything to you, but here goes anyway - being anorexic is NEVER going to make you happy. You're chasing an impossible dream. Anorexia is just YOUR way of dealing with the terrifying feelings inside yourself. Right now your brain is starved, you cannot even think properly. I beg you to get professional help and save your life.
no1zgrl4eva 2 years ago 2
really beautifull, really honest and I love those deep sentences you make like:
when loosing is winning, perfection is obsession
you are a really beautifull girl
, just be happy about this for a sec, cuz I know more than anyone that you won't believe me anyway
xoxo anaprinsesje
passifairy 2 years ago
If that is your baby that you are holding in a few of the pictures, you need to recover for your baby, and for yourself. Be strong, I know you can do it because tonight I will pray for you and your child. You will make it through. <3
ErinOrNothing 2 years ago
not my baby no . my nephew . im not as thin now but mentally worse :/ it sux .. x
donnamarie21uk 2 years ago
eds are SO hard to recover from!
chickenllamagoat 2 years ago
i love you so much donna, those pics are just so sad, the words and everything...your better than anorexia, you can and will get over it, we both will. We need to party and shiz remember ly hunni x x x
ashliemarie6 2 years ago
ash im so triggered watchin this as iv gained ALOT since this :( urgh wat are we gonan dooo .. ily sis x
donnamarie21uk 2 years ago
I didn't sum up your video at all. In fact, I didn't even watch it minus the first like 10 seconds. I just replied to a question. Why people have eating disorders is both very simple and very complex. It is simple because it is quite an obvious coping mechanism and avoidance technique, but complex because predisposing factors are complex, from a genetics perspective. Anyway, donnamarie, good luck in recovery. I have struggled with anorexia & bulimia for the last 7 yrs. I know it is hard.
safetypin00 2 years ago
why do they see themselves fat when they finally get to theyre goal?
redbullbabe1 2 years ago
it's all about your inside feelings...you think if you lose weight, you will be prettier or better, but no matter how much food you don't eat or how much weight you lose, you still feel the same inside....hope that made sense.
goodxbadxugly1 2 years ago
Many reasons that differ for individuals. Often it can be part of BDD, so your actual processing of sensory info is wrong. But also because when you get to a low weight you are very invested in the ED, it consumes you, and if you suddenly cease to feel fat - which is a feeling that, on the surface, seems to drive the ED (not really though) - then you are lost. It is a bit of a psychological protective mechanism, I'd say. I hope it sort of makes sense, hard to sum up in a few words.
safetypin00 2 years ago
i didnt ask you to sum up or analyze my video as to why ppl have eds tho :/ i know what ur sayin in some sense is right but stil.
donnamarie21uk 2 years ago
Wish you the best! You are precious and really nice body! But nothing is more beautiful, when we smile, true the eyes!
I wish you good luck.. this life is not worth us girls! hugs from Malin
Malinanatired 2 years ago
hope u get better... ur such a pretty firl... and... just this, perfection isn't everything in life, start living life one day after another, and then you'll see that, perfection isn't about looks and w8, is about how your feeling when you can smile without forcing it. Bless you always...
btw: dark hair looks awesome in you ;)
GigglyGily 2 years ago
perfection doesnt exist.. x
Jj09Yes 2 years ago
You are a very pretty gir!!!!!
Your video is so wunderful!!! It made me cry! I hope youre getting better!!!
I fell your pain, and i hope for you, you dont stop fighting!
You can make it to the other side, im sure!!!
xoxo and stay strong! You will not give up, i know. (i hope you know what i mean, my english isnt very good, im from germany...:)
errecta 2 years ago
4:43
im so sorry :(((
dauntlessdreams 2 years ago
i am so sorry for your struggle :'-( you're a beautiful girl who doesnt deserve this monster inside
dauntlessdreams 2 years ago
u will get through it Donnax
U need any support i'm here :o) xx
Kirstie08xx 2 years ago
hugs and kisses donnamarie.
you are stronger than you know.
Get better soon, take your time and recover :)
designerkitten 2 years ago
hi donnamarie ;)-I found your video touching. In the beginning of your video you asked that people would not judge you.I don't judge you. Keep hanging in there/don't give up. Here's a caring hug for you.
RockingMom1957 2 years ago
thanks . ive added u as a friend . x
donnamarie21uk 2 years ago
Hi Sweetie-thanks for adding me as a friend-I just cked out your friend's list and I don't see me.I think that by mistake your invite to me be a friend was accidently deleted by me. So I just sent a friend invitation to you-hopefully I did it right :)
RockingMom1957 2 years ago
jw y is ana such a living hell
jxsxf96 2 years ago
what do u mean , ?
donnamarie21uk 2 years ago
like everone says tht is sucks sooo much like sooooooo much...y?
jxsxf96 2 years ago
fuck you.
LeadMeNoWhere 2 years ago
y ru saying fuck u i asked a fucking simple question retard
jxsxf96 2 years ago
for one it wasnt me who said it . x
donnamarie21uk 2 years ago
i no it wasnt u asked the other girl....did u recover yet
jxsxf96 2 years ago
because ana tells you your fat
she dictates you
you cry because you want to eat one little thing but she tells you youll be an ugly whore if u do
the disease takes over your life
mkaypittsburghchamps 2 years ago
oo .... do u have it?
jxsxf96 2 years ago
y r u sayin fuck u .. ?
donnamarie21uk 2 years ago
hey hows the ed??...stay strong and alwatys remember that nomatter what you look like, you are so so beautiful on the inside, and dont let anybody tell you anything othewise xx
calagasxx 2 years ago 2
heya chick that was really cool :) and i have to say you r realy pretty .
stay strong xx
MissSkinnyBitch 2 years ago
What are the two songs in this video??
Darcyjo101 2 years ago
dj ironik stay with me ..
and
britney spears - not a girl yet a woman
donnamarie21uk 2 years ago
i no u were ill but in 4:30 that is a very pretty picture, but remember, you can be beautiful without thsi horrid disease, just hang on, never give up, keep fighting, think about your family, if you cant get through for yourself, get through for them, they need it as much as you
hannahmontanna54321 2 years ago
the pic of me on 4;30 is b4 i got ed hun .. xx
donnamarie21uk 2 years ago
ur really pretty, its such a shame
hannahmontanna54321 2 years ago
r u over ed now? or over ana? this video is so touching. =) ='(
LoweyLiu 2 years ago
not recovered no . x
donnamarie21uk 2 years ago
hey sweetie, this video is so touching,
send me a txt chick,
stay strong
xxxx
staceypops20 3 years ago
u r so beautifull.really..;) great video
amartmal 3 years ago
That was so touching.
Thank you for sharing.
AmazingHolly 3 years ago 2
all i got to say is that u need jesus in ur life
ELTRIATE 3 years ago
exactly
amindofmyownhere 3 years ago
yesss! Jesus is the answer to everything (:
ahhchaosx 2 years ago
you are beautiful hun dont give up keep fighting and one day you will look back and think how happy your life is now than theN: ) xx
jodieboox 3 years ago 2
i really hope you stay starong.. btw thats that 2nd song?
xokizza 3 years ago 2
I love your video. You are a beautiful girl who deserves so much more than the hell of ED. I feel your pain and wish you good luck in recovering.
KENPOLUVR 3 years ago 7
You're beautiful, no matter what. Don't forget it ;).
PurpleGrau 3 years ago 3
good luck, you such a pretty girl!
elibg85 3 years ago 3
vá had anorexia for over 20 years and its a devel og crowls uppon you.
I'll newer give upp for ana newer.
Im more worth.
beliveyou me if I can congure this you can.
sorry my spell, Im icelandic.
And talking about 20 years and from iceland, than for me there was noooooooo real help, but still this shall never ever kill me.
You who have this snake eating you apart,
dont ever give upp.
Ana (the snake) is your enimy and juse you villingness against him.
I did so can you.
fridast44 3 years ago 2
4.11 ur legs are amazing
xx
ktlindsay7 3 years ago
I hope you get better soon. :) You are so beautiful and don't need the pressure to be thin.
vidmastr26 3 years ago
Really good video,
hope you're doing OK?
coolamy104 3 years ago 3
its so scary how quickly you fall under the spell and then you get that confused with everything you cant see the real you, how any1 can say this is not a real illness is utterly thick, at least your trying to do something about it, thats a big step on its own, just keep your head up high, lisa.x
likklelis01 3 years ago 2
I know your pain.
You are so incredibly beautiful.
xoxo
melisvmm 3 years ago
:[ ya story makes me cry ..
such a great video !!
hexy13007 3 years ago
i just wanna say to all you haterz ... ( u know hu u r ) !! .. back ya mouths up and take ya crap some place else .. i have ppl supportin me not calin me attention seeker !! .. dont need ppl like u in my life when ur just draggin me down because u dont know how to deal with it .. !! this is not pro anamia its to show ppl how i feel etc !!
donnamarie21uk 3 years ago
You ignore them. They're ignorant people who don't understand what a mental illness is (most probably they have one).
Don't give up fighting. Recovery is possible and you have the support of many people to get you there. Use it, don't forget it; I did and it set me back so far.
Stay strong.
adorelo1 3 years ago 6
aww i hope you get through this donna =( xx
xtinkabell08x 3 years ago
i dont no wot ur goin threw but it must be bad i op u dont give up and u get threw this there is a light at the end of the tunnel xxx
katieloveschadwik 3 years ago
*hugs*
i feel your pain.
don't stop fighting... sometimes the only way out is through. keep going and hopefully you'll make it to the other side...
ShanzeeeGirl 3 years ago 4