The conclusion that you've come to (basically that anxiety over healthy, raw food is irrational) is so unbelievably valuable.
Congratulations on your revelation, and THANK YOU for sharing this with all your loyal subscribers that may have confusion/anxiety/fear surrounding food. You have obviously already come a long way, and though your journey may not be over, you have given them a healthy ideal to strive for.
You are very wise beyond your years...I STRUGGLE sooooo much with eating healthy...my problem is I can do it for awhile then the minute I indulge in that stupid cookie or candy or cake, I'm back to eating crap again, and the cycle continues. How do you STAY stopped, how do you not take that first bite of binge food again?
Hi dear, thanks for the recent comments and connecting to my channel. I really like your screen name. My problem is I am not stopped . I still deal with HARDCORE and massive bulimic bingeing - I binge but then I purge so that justifies (in a sick addictive sense) the ability and "desire" to keep bingeing since I know it's not staying in. Everything is planned out and the binges are massive, complete and utter crap junk food that feels demonic... it's that intense (the bulimia). I understand.
Hey - I'm so sorry you still struggle with this disease, did treatment help at all? I love all of your advice on here, it is brilliant and you really have a lot of wisdom. And you are so very right, bingeing is demonic.....anything to keep our focus off of God. We become a slave to the food. cheers xoxox
I'm all for eating more raw food, but all the 100%ers are just so skinny and don't have physical strength. Humans are capable of being quite strong, why would we naturally be high energy, high stamina and very low strength?
I bet to differ. All the ones you speak of are the ones who are healthiest and have the most energy - from what I've seen and I've been in the community over five years now...seen a lot, learned a lot and some of the best athletes are all raw, lean and very strong and fit.
Raw diet athletes excel in things like marathons and endurance sports. Like i said a raw food diet normally means a person is high energy and high stamina, but low strength. I think that eating raw is an option but not the only option. Nearly all male models and athletes are on non-raw diets. How can someone create a beautiful healthy body on a non-raw diet if it is so bad for you?
You are allowed your own opinion, I do not wish to debate anything here. All I can say is you can't see what is going on in the inside, just because the outside looks or appears to be fine doesn't mean the inside isn't wearing and tearing and breaking down or setting itself up for eventual poor nutritional related disease.
You are allowed your own opinion, I do not wish to debate anything here. All I can say is you can't see what is going on in the inside, just because the outside looks or appears to be fine doesn't mean the inside isn't wearing and tearing and breaking down or setting itself up for eventual poor nutritional related disease.
I adore this video, you are so right, i grow my own tomatoes and peppers and buy organic food at all times. i love chickpeas, do you know of any good tips to make your own Hummus? ive tried but wasnt very good...
herbs! avocado! and lemon are all key To be honest I always preferred zucchini hummus over sprouted legume versions. A lot of people really love to add raw tahini to it as well.
Thank you for getting it. You know, common sense has been lost because we have been brain washed, warped and conditioned to believe that everything must be altered, processed, cooked, killed, etc. - when in reality, we must go BACK in order to move forward. We must go back to what I believe - eating like Eden where food, real food, was picked from trees and the ground - not off shelves!
I've been vegan... I'm anorexic... (I've been hospitalised when I was 13, and I'm 20 right now) Recently I eat once a day and get rid of it, just to keep my weight not too low... To stay home, to be able to live a "normal" life. I fear food. I watched the videos from the livefoodist, read the book from victoria boutenko, who compares cooked food to other addictions. The lifefoodist videos really gave me hope, and I knew, like you, that live food is the way to go for me. I love your videos ! xxx
I agree with not looking at this as a "diet" but as more of a lifestyle. I have been thinking about going raw. I've always wanted to have my own vegetable garden and eat "real" food. Everytime i binge I eat really bad stuff and i feel terrible mentally and physically.
i have been to rehab twice and i have never seen anyone so motivated and willing to be so vulnerable! even motivational speakers! i am so proud of you for getting even this far! keep it up!
(Cont) Also, I tried eating raw at one point before I relapsed, and honestly---it was a big part of my relapse trigger. What did it for me was feeling hungry all day. How do you get around that? Trying to recover from AN, being hungry drove me back to old behaviors. :-( As well, feeling like a "screw up" when I did go back to eating cooked/processed drove feelings of shame. How do you cope with stuff like that? Sorry to take up so many posts...I ran out of characters. :-( Thank you!
Will get back to this at some point on Monday or early in the week but I need to say that raw was not the problem, imbalance was. If your dietary intake was not balanced then you will be hungry as you are not getting enough. Balance is everything. What one needs to do is get on a dietary intake track that is healthy for them and is balanced. Some need professional assistance in setting up a meal plan or base ideas so they can remain raw and healthy.
Hey Johnny! Thank you for making this encouraging video. I have a few questions. I am vegan. Its about as important to me as a religion (although it's not my religion) I have fallen into a hideous pattern with my bulimia for some reason keep eating dairy when I B/P! I used to only B/P vegan foods :-O (I should mention I am allergic to dairy!!!) It makes me feel like you said, living a double life. What works for you modifying those behaviors to somehow fit more with your dietary lifestyle?
Will answer this now. It's all about what's important to YOU and not the ed. It requires giving up on ed values and giving IN to your own food values. Bingeing is selfish, bottom line. We binge for many reasons, some nutritional defeciences which may be why you are bingeing on dairy...my best advice - don't beat yourself up as you are not your bulimia and bulimia is a beast. You aren't. You have power though, look into your food values and find out what is more important to you - bulimias or
yours. I am still getting off bulimias but have made improvement. How? I cleared my entire house of specific things and it felt SO good. Bulimia hoards - with me - so I had to get every trace of certain foods out of my house and to keep me from buying them again I have to associate horrible, horrendous, sickening associations with these foods that make me not even want to touch them and feel horrible for them. Honestly, this has worked for me.
After I did the housesweep I have NOT gone back to the foods I swept away and have NO intention to. I had to make the choice though and prioritize MY food values verse selfish bingeing for taste and numbness. I have a goal for the future for full improvement on this subject matter so that everything that enters my mouth is what it should be - and stays in. Thank you for the great questions. You will get better dear just stay on track and keep finding out what works and go with it.
I agree with you 100%!!! I don't eat vegan or raw food but what you say is 100% true and my Church teaches such a diet. I like my chocolate, pasta and sweets though but I don't gain weight...its like my "safe food" :)
Great video! I agree with much of what you said. I was just thinking about what orthorexia might say, but you spoke to that! :) Good for you!! Keep going!
This was an awesome video series! I agree raw food is healing. I look forward to more raw videos! Your story and truth would make a really good book someday and could help a lot of others.
mmmmmmm I had the sweetest durian yesterday and today realize that I really need to eat more mono meals to ease digestion, and work with my body rather than against it... giving it the easiest way to health possible, rather than confusing it, and straining it with all these crazy food combinations.
Yep, exactly. That's why i have gotten very simple. Yesterday I was able to enjoy... 3 cups celery fresh picked from my garden, 4 bananas, 2 heaping handfuls of chard and some parsley blended with coconut water and 1 solo plump papaya, 1 good sized avocado out on the run and then half of another avocado at home at night... all this really helped keep me going. i ate when hungry, waited till hungry and ate in amounts I knew were okay for my body... I know you mix a lot and think mono will help.
No. I don't go out to eat. If I go out to eat I bring food into my garden or with a friend to a park. I find other forms of entertainment then going out to eat at restaraunts... if I were to go, I go to raw ones like Cafe Gratitude...
I am on a fast right now for 30 days. I just can't jump right in while still in this filthy body and mind I have to do what I know works for me. I will have a backup plan and know what to do once I finish. I just have to start over, from a clean plate.
Well see I am highly against fasting. I have strong beliefs against it. If fasting cleaned your plate then you wouldn't be stuck in the cycle, it wouldn't continue all over again. Fasting is part of the problem, not the solution... If fasting did the job, cleaned the plate and got ride of the filth then why resort right back to the cycle? I am speaking alot of logic here. I am sure your ed mind hates it and wants to argue. There is no valid arguement on this one though... ask yourself these ?s
Not to lose weight or anything. I have to keep telling myself not to think about it that way but to transition to natural for it's healing and healthy nutritional benefits in my strive for recovery from binging/ purging. Like you said If what I intake is natural and good for me then I should have no reason to feel guilty or dirty. I'm going to take a different approach to learning about food and start journaling recipes and focus more on the healing benefits not the calories.
Yes, see shifting your mentality makes all the difference in the world. Are you ready to recover? if so you must be ready to work for it. I am glad my video can bring even an ounce of hope or help to you. I see a fragile soul in crisis, I have seen this since the first video of yours that I watched. I belive you can and will recover if you start taking action -
Thanks I am taking action and hope to continue. I'm going to design a cute journal later I'll make it pink and put pink swarovski crystal rhinestones all over it lol. I wanna start learning about food but in the right way. I'll title it New Life and be very careful what I write in it. I want it to be all positive and leave my other journal, my ugly journal for venting. It feels better to separate it that way. I hope to fill up my new life.
So I went to your myspace profile to find your location and if you really live in Pittsburgh then I found a free support group that offers 13, I COUNTED, meetings in that town per WEEK. If that is not your town but you are in Pen then there are multiple meetings there, spread throughout the state, with buses that go to them. I research this kind of stuff for people all the time, so there is no excuse not to go and no reason to say help = never. Journaling and creativity is great! Have fun dear.
A support group? With like other people? I don't like being in public and don't like busses I have panic attacks on busses a lot. I hate going into the city too because bad stuff always happens and I don't like being around a lot of people. I don't know what I want anymore. I want help but I can't find it and even if I did I'm to afraid to go. The busses scare me but I'll walk it's just to far I'd have to plan 4 hours ahead but summer is coming so maybe I can get there. What's the link?
I just PM'd you the link. Your ability to experiment, whether you commit or not, validates how important making recovery happen is for you. If you use excused like fear then you will excuse your way far from recovery. It's all about challenging yourself, taking risks, facing fear --- everyone gets nervous, especially in those groups. You are not alone and if they can make it there so can you. If busses don't work, ask a friend for a ride, find ways, make it happen. Excuses don't work.... truth.
Eventhough finding professional help will never happen not to mention there is none for eating disorders in my city doesn't mean I give up. For some reason I couldn't watch your videos for a long time until now because I knew your words and story would inspire me to want to help myself like you. I laid in my bed til 5am watching a lot of your videos last night and they are helping some. I'm really interested in learning about a raw lifestyle as I detox right now. I'm trying to quit smoking too.
I just prayed for you. I went on a walk and your last comment really disturbed me. I have many friends who aren't caucasion, low income and in not so good resource areas that still have gotten help because they really wanted it, they went out and found it and worked their way into it. I'm talking professional help. I also know many people who claim they recovered without pro. help. Recovery comes from within. If you keep a hopeless attitude and say never then guess what you will get? nothing.
Ahhh....you totally brightened my day. =) Thanks so much for the info and the inspiration to live a better life. Mayble I''ll take a trip to Whole Foods tomorrow....
I totally agree with you. I'm so tired of people telling me that I am "brainwashed" when they're actually the ones who have been brainwashed--so brainwashed that they won't even listen to facts.
THANK YOU! ps I really wish the teacher at your UNI who showed my bulimia video to your nutrition class would of gotten back to me! I wonder if he read the email...
I am so slow and just now (after all these months) realized that I should email him!!! Maybe your email got filtered out or something, but mine shouldn't since it's a school email. Sheesh I should have thought of this already lol!
I understand the double life. I understand also that I am getting real sick of it and it encouraged me to make changes. Once I kick bulimia I feel I will be very far in my recovery. I would love to make more how to raw videos but need to gather the energy and time to do so - so I'm not sure when but I would like to contribute when I can. I get tons of requests for this. Big hugs to you Jess, keep working at it. You are progressing!
Listen dear, if you feel sorry - evaluate why you feel sorry and if this feels bad then use it as motivation to get better. Change happens as we create it for ourselves and anyone can change. Life is about changes! No fck ups, use this as learning and grow with it rather than remain in a spot that is not comfortable/healthy for you, yes?
Who the heck is normal? that's nonexsistent to me. I mean really, nothing is normal or even ordinary, we are all our own... human beings on this earth right... Life may not seem easy but our attitude towards it really dictates how we live it.
Ps I dont know what you meant by so easy - making it sound like recovery is so easy or eating raw? My response to either of those: 1. life with eds is easier than life without them and 2. eating raw is the easiest way to eat, pick it and eat it - it's that simple.. buy it, eat it as is... you know? since when was eating meal of apples or bananas hard (non ed)? or avocado for more energy... the list goes on, mono meal or not - anyone can do this, not everyone is motivated though...
Recovery. Eating a meal of apples or avocado for more energy is easy but I'd still purge. I don't even know why I feel then need to do this I just don't feel right. ttyl
Are you getting any kind of help for this? just curious. It's a horrible place to be. At my worst I couldn't even keep WATER in. I would take a few sips, freak out, keep sipping and gulping then purge. You can't "get the cycle" until you start making efforts to get out of it... sit with that one. It's a powerful statement/reality. I have heard how you talk. I know you have the strength in you to recover.
Do you mean professional help? No I'm black nobody wants to help me. I hate to make it a race thing because it's not, but when my former therapist I was seeing for another mental illness told me black people don't get eating disorders and that it was a white womans disease...it kinda stuck with me. People don't and wont take me seriously. It is a race thing. Maybe if I was thinner...
Your attitude could be adjusted, I'm not telling you how to think but suggesting you do something about your outlook. Racisim is a horrible thing, yes, I do not support it at all. It upsets me greatly. However, help starts from WITHIN. What are you willing to do to help you? nothing? anythng? There are FREE resources for help - online, free support groups... If you really want somethng then you will find a way to get it... I am male and trans, I have got discrimmination, I have also got help.
I want to go raw I just don't know how. I still purge when I'm fasting through diuretics/ laxatives when I haven't even eaten anything, obviously purge after binging and when I try to eat healthy I still purge it doesn't even have to be unhealthy or a lot. I'm out of control and I don't know what to do but stop period. When I eat foods that are suppose to be filling that people recommend to make me not binge I feel guilty for feeling satisfied but then feel unsatisfied when it's not filling.
I understand what you are saying... when the soul is in crisis and mind is cluttered with negative enegy, as well as the body, there is complete imbalance... I wish for you whatever it takes to get better and start living dear, big hugs::: The cycle can be stopped, many have stopped it.
thank you so much for your video. i have been really touched by your healing and sharing. i was having a horrible night, in a cycle of binging. i have been wanting to go raw and now will get off my ass!!! kisses and avocados!
Aw, dear, Hugs. Things will get better. Patience and gradual transition, whatever you can do helps. No rushing just work with your body and continue to heal. Thanks for the avocados. I ate one driving today LOLOLOL I made guacamole right in the shell = I basically just mashed up a fresh organic avocado and spooned it mmmm
You look great. Your skin is glowing and your eyes look so bright! I love watching your videos. You are a true inspiration. I currently 'label' myself EDNOS. Tho the ole 'bing and purge' is a winner over restricting. NO ONE knows how severe it is...as I am over weight.
Im so glad you made this video. Not just for our viewing but for yourself. Your strong words of determination are something you can look back on when you need a push.
Hugs to you dear. Thank you for the kind words, I wish to give them back to you and also send you some hope. Things will get better. If they can get bad they can get good, right? Keep your logical and loving head up high.
Thanks for this video. I believe in Raw Food...and I agree whatever God made can't be wrong or bad in anyway. Sadly my school has nothing organic but that's ok because I'm aloud to take my own lunch :) My friends and family aren't much support but I don't care if they think I'm a health freak I care about my body and I know want the best is for it and thanks raw and organic. ♥
Good for you. I am sorry but I do not consider you a health freak. I consider you a person keeping it REAL and because of this you will benefit from REAL foods and REAL good health to the best of your bodies ability... Most disease and illness comes from diet ALONE, you not contributing that is not a health freak, it's someone thinking and being healthy. Whoever doesn't support it has been brainwashed and needs to educate themself on what food really is...they are missing out bigtime.
Aww thanks. You are the first to say that to me, they don't believe me because they say everyone eats junk food and I'm weird for not. They will remember me when they have problems when they are older. I know it's something I will never regret and YES they are Missing Out. :]
Yet they have junk attitudes and are junking away their health whether they know it or not. Sorry but that is the truth, you eat junk you obtain junk. Anyone is capable of changing their diet most just are uneducated and unwilling - and so they suffer and retain junk in their bodies/colons and lives, Anyhow, good for you for taking action and making change. I am doing the same which is why my attitude has shifted and is being embraced... it shows too. I feel it, people see it. Long live raw.
This is fantastic! :)
The conclusion that you've come to (basically that anxiety over healthy, raw food is irrational) is so unbelievably valuable.
Congratulations on your revelation, and THANK YOU for sharing this with all your loyal subscribers that may have confusion/anxiety/fear surrounding food. You have obviously already come a long way, and though your journey may not be over, you have given them a healthy ideal to strive for.
jessomglol 2 years ago
You are very wise beyond your years...I STRUGGLE sooooo much with eating healthy...my problem is I can do it for awhile then the minute I indulge in that stupid cookie or candy or cake, I'm back to eating crap again, and the cycle continues. How do you STAY stopped, how do you not take that first bite of binge food again?
Glitterthesky 2 years ago
Hi dear, thanks for the recent comments and connecting to my channel. I really like your screen name. My problem is I am not stopped . I still deal with HARDCORE and massive bulimic bingeing - I binge but then I purge so that justifies (in a sick addictive sense) the ability and "desire" to keep bingeing since I know it's not staying in. Everything is planned out and the binges are massive, complete and utter crap junk food that feels demonic... it's that intense (the bulimia). I understand.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Hey - I'm so sorry you still struggle with this disease, did treatment help at all? I love all of your advice on here, it is brilliant and you really have a lot of wisdom. And you are so very right, bingeing is demonic.....anything to keep our focus off of God. We become a slave to the food. cheers xoxox
Glitterthesky 2 years ago
I'm all for eating more raw food, but all the 100%ers are just so skinny and don't have physical strength. Humans are capable of being quite strong, why would we naturally be high energy, high stamina and very low strength?
Lewis1985 2 years ago
I bet to differ. All the ones you speak of are the ones who are healthiest and have the most energy - from what I've seen and I've been in the community over five years now...seen a lot, learned a lot and some of the best athletes are all raw, lean and very strong and fit.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Raw diet athletes excel in things like marathons and endurance sports. Like i said a raw food diet normally means a person is high energy and high stamina, but low strength. I think that eating raw is an option but not the only option. Nearly all male models and athletes are on non-raw diets. How can someone create a beautiful healthy body on a non-raw diet if it is so bad for you?
Lewis1985 2 years ago
You are allowed your own opinion, I do not wish to debate anything here. All I can say is you can't see what is going on in the inside, just because the outside looks or appears to be fine doesn't mean the inside isn't wearing and tearing and breaking down or setting itself up for eventual poor nutritional related disease.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
You are allowed your own opinion, I do not wish to debate anything here. All I can say is you can't see what is going on in the inside, just because the outside looks or appears to be fine doesn't mean the inside isn't wearing and tearing and breaking down or setting itself up for eventual poor nutritional related disease.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I adore this video, you are so right, i grow my own tomatoes and peppers and buy organic food at all times. i love chickpeas, do you know of any good tips to make your own Hummus? ive tried but wasnt very good...
xMiaddictionx 2 years ago
herbs! avocado! and lemon are all key To be honest I always preferred zucchini hummus over sprouted legume versions. A lot of people really love to add raw tahini to it as well.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Love your videos!! Very motivating
Kwa17 2 years ago
Great Video... This is exactly how i feel. Get off your arse, and eat the way you're suppsed to. Why has common sense and truth been lost.
coconutboi11 2 years ago
Thank you for getting it. You know, common sense has been lost because we have been brain washed, warped and conditioned to believe that everything must be altered, processed, cooked, killed, etc. - when in reality, we must go BACK in order to move forward. We must go back to what I believe - eating like Eden where food, real food, was picked from trees and the ground - not off shelves!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I've been vegan... I'm anorexic... (I've been hospitalised when I was 13, and I'm 20 right now) Recently I eat once a day and get rid of it, just to keep my weight not too low... To stay home, to be able to live a "normal" life. I fear food. I watched the videos from the livefoodist, read the book from victoria boutenko, who compares cooked food to other addictions. The lifefoodist videos really gave me hope, and I knew, like you, that live food is the way to go for me. I love your videos ! xxx
emm1606 2 years ago
Raw will never hurt you, it can fully heal you once you fully detox. You are going to make it dear! keep fighting!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
stay strong, please. <3
LITTLEPAWPTART 3 years ago
I agree with not looking at this as a "diet" but as more of a lifestyle. I have been thinking about going raw. I've always wanted to have my own vegetable garden and eat "real" food. Everytime i binge I eat really bad stuff and i feel terrible mentally and physically.
sratrat78 3 years ago
i have been to rehab twice and i have never seen anyone so motivated and willing to be so vulnerable! even motivational speakers! i am so proud of you for getting even this far! keep it up!
caylam1290 3 years ago
(Cont) Also, I tried eating raw at one point before I relapsed, and honestly---it was a big part of my relapse trigger. What did it for me was feeling hungry all day. How do you get around that? Trying to recover from AN, being hungry drove me back to old behaviors. :-( As well, feeling like a "screw up" when I did go back to eating cooked/processed drove feelings of shame. How do you cope with stuff like that? Sorry to take up so many posts...I ran out of characters. :-( Thank you!
realzeal85 3 years ago
Will get back to this at some point on Monday or early in the week but I need to say that raw was not the problem, imbalance was. If your dietary intake was not balanced then you will be hungry as you are not getting enough. Balance is everything. What one needs to do is get on a dietary intake track that is healthy for them and is balanced. Some need professional assistance in setting up a meal plan or base ideas so they can remain raw and healthy.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Hey Johnny! Thank you for making this encouraging video. I have a few questions. I am vegan. Its about as important to me as a religion (although it's not my religion) I have fallen into a hideous pattern with my bulimia for some reason keep eating dairy when I B/P! I used to only B/P vegan foods :-O (I should mention I am allergic to dairy!!!) It makes me feel like you said, living a double life. What works for you modifying those behaviors to somehow fit more with your dietary lifestyle?
realzeal85 3 years ago
Will answer this now. It's all about what's important to YOU and not the ed. It requires giving up on ed values and giving IN to your own food values. Bingeing is selfish, bottom line. We binge for many reasons, some nutritional defeciences which may be why you are bingeing on dairy...my best advice - don't beat yourself up as you are not your bulimia and bulimia is a beast. You aren't. You have power though, look into your food values and find out what is more important to you - bulimias or
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
yours. I am still getting off bulimias but have made improvement. How? I cleared my entire house of specific things and it felt SO good. Bulimia hoards - with me - so I had to get every trace of certain foods out of my house and to keep me from buying them again I have to associate horrible, horrendous, sickening associations with these foods that make me not even want to touch them and feel horrible for them. Honestly, this has worked for me.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
After I did the housesweep I have NOT gone back to the foods I swept away and have NO intention to. I had to make the choice though and prioritize MY food values verse selfish bingeing for taste and numbness. I have a goal for the future for full improvement on this subject matter so that everything that enters my mouth is what it should be - and stays in. Thank you for the great questions. You will get better dear just stay on track and keep finding out what works and go with it.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I agree with you 100%!!! I don't eat vegan or raw food but what you say is 100% true and my Church teaches such a diet. I like my chocolate, pasta and sweets though but I don't gain weight...its like my "safe food" :)
Ealasaid17 3 years ago
Great video! I agree with much of what you said. I was just thinking about what orthorexia might say, but you spoke to that! :) Good for you!! Keep going!
guitarlovenjc 3 years ago
This was an awesome video series! I agree raw food is healing. I look forward to more raw videos! Your story and truth would make a really good book someday and could help a lot of others.
veggiegirl1976 3 years ago
mmmmmmm I had the sweetest durian yesterday and today realize that I really need to eat more mono meals to ease digestion, and work with my body rather than against it... giving it the easiest way to health possible, rather than confusing it, and straining it with all these crazy food combinations.
theskinnypig 3 years ago
Yep, exactly. That's why i have gotten very simple. Yesterday I was able to enjoy... 3 cups celery fresh picked from my garden, 4 bananas, 2 heaping handfuls of chard and some parsley blended with coconut water and 1 solo plump papaya, 1 good sized avocado out on the run and then half of another avocado at home at night... all this really helped keep me going. i ate when hungry, waited till hungry and ate in amounts I knew were okay for my body... I know you mix a lot and think mono will help.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
How do you handle going out to eat? Do you order dry salads?
reginahardix 3 years ago
No. I don't go out to eat. If I go out to eat I bring food into my garden or with a friend to a park. I find other forms of entertainment then going out to eat at restaraunts... if I were to go, I go to raw ones like Cafe Gratitude...
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Yes ! Healthy food heals the mind ,body ,and soul !!!! :D
soulardbill 3 years ago
Sure does, so many are living proof of that!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I am on a fast right now for 30 days. I just can't jump right in while still in this filthy body and mind I have to do what I know works for me. I will have a backup plan and know what to do once I finish. I just have to start over, from a clean plate.
unperfectisback 3 years ago
Well see I am highly against fasting. I have strong beliefs against it. If fasting cleaned your plate then you wouldn't be stuck in the cycle, it wouldn't continue all over again. Fasting is part of the problem, not the solution... If fasting did the job, cleaned the plate and got ride of the filth then why resort right back to the cycle? I am speaking alot of logic here. I am sure your ed mind hates it and wants to argue. There is no valid arguement on this one though... ask yourself these ?s
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Not to lose weight or anything. I have to keep telling myself not to think about it that way but to transition to natural for it's healing and healthy nutritional benefits in my strive for recovery from binging/ purging. Like you said If what I intake is natural and good for me then I should have no reason to feel guilty or dirty. I'm going to take a different approach to learning about food and start journaling recipes and focus more on the healing benefits not the calories.
unperfectisback 3 years ago
Yes, see shifting your mentality makes all the difference in the world. Are you ready to recover? if so you must be ready to work for it. I am glad my video can bring even an ounce of hope or help to you. I see a fragile soul in crisis, I have seen this since the first video of yours that I watched. I belive you can and will recover if you start taking action -
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
mentally... physically... nutritionally...spiritually.... through this journey. If you want it, you will find a way to get it.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Thanks I am taking action and hope to continue. I'm going to design a cute journal later I'll make it pink and put pink swarovski crystal rhinestones all over it lol. I wanna start learning about food but in the right way. I'll title it New Life and be very careful what I write in it. I want it to be all positive and leave my other journal, my ugly journal for venting. It feels better to separate it that way. I hope to fill up my new life.
unperfectisback 3 years ago
So I went to your myspace profile to find your location and if you really live in Pittsburgh then I found a free support group that offers 13, I COUNTED, meetings in that town per WEEK. If that is not your town but you are in Pen then there are multiple meetings there, spread throughout the state, with buses that go to them. I research this kind of stuff for people all the time, so there is no excuse not to go and no reason to say help = never. Journaling and creativity is great! Have fun dear.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
A support group? With like other people? I don't like being in public and don't like busses I have panic attacks on busses a lot. I hate going into the city too because bad stuff always happens and I don't like being around a lot of people. I don't know what I want anymore. I want help but I can't find it and even if I did I'm to afraid to go. The busses scare me but I'll walk it's just to far I'd have to plan 4 hours ahead but summer is coming so maybe I can get there. What's the link?
unperfectisback 3 years ago
I just PM'd you the link. Your ability to experiment, whether you commit or not, validates how important making recovery happen is for you. If you use excused like fear then you will excuse your way far from recovery. It's all about challenging yourself, taking risks, facing fear --- everyone gets nervous, especially in those groups. You are not alone and if they can make it there so can you. If busses don't work, ask a friend for a ride, find ways, make it happen. Excuses don't work.... truth.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Eventhough finding professional help will never happen not to mention there is none for eating disorders in my city doesn't mean I give up. For some reason I couldn't watch your videos for a long time until now because I knew your words and story would inspire me to want to help myself like you. I laid in my bed til 5am watching a lot of your videos last night and they are helping some. I'm really interested in learning about a raw lifestyle as I detox right now. I'm trying to quit smoking too.
unperfectisback 3 years ago
I just prayed for you. I went on a walk and your last comment really disturbed me. I have many friends who aren't caucasion, low income and in not so good resource areas that still have gotten help because they really wanted it, they went out and found it and worked their way into it. I'm talking professional help. I also know many people who claim they recovered without pro. help. Recovery comes from within. If you keep a hopeless attitude and say never then guess what you will get? nothing.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Ahhh....you totally brightened my day. =) Thanks so much for the info and the inspiration to live a better life. Mayble I''ll take a trip to Whole Foods tomorrow....
Hugs and best wishes to you.
irrelevant147 3 years ago
Go you!!! I hope you do make that trip and have a lovely and productive one at that. Hugs and gratitude.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I totally agree with you. I'm so tired of people telling me that I am "brainwashed" when they're actually the ones who have been brainwashed--so brainwashed that they won't even listen to facts.
zinnieluvsyou 3 years ago
THANK YOU! ps I really wish the teacher at your UNI who showed my bulimia video to your nutrition class would of gotten back to me! I wonder if he read the email...
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I am so slow and just now (after all these months) realized that I should email him!!! Maybe your email got filtered out or something, but mine shouldn't since it's a school email. Sheesh I should have thought of this already lol!
zinnieluvsyou 3 years ago
I understand the double life. I understand also that I am getting real sick of it and it encouraged me to make changes. Once I kick bulimia I feel I will be very far in my recovery. I would love to make more how to raw videos but need to gather the energy and time to do so - so I'm not sure when but I would like to contribute when I can. I get tons of requests for this. Big hugs to you Jess, keep working at it. You are progressing!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Triggered...
Amazing video, sorry Ima fuck up.
gregyboy 3 years ago
Listen dear, if you feel sorry - evaluate why you feel sorry and if this feels bad then use it as motivation to get better. Change happens as we create it for ourselves and anyone can change. Life is about changes! No fck ups, use this as learning and grow with it rather than remain in a spot that is not comfortable/healthy for you, yes?
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
You make it seem so easy. I guess it's different for everybody. I guess some people like me are just not meant to be normal.
unperfectisback 3 years ago
Who the heck is normal? that's nonexsistent to me. I mean really, nothing is normal or even ordinary, we are all our own... human beings on this earth right... Life may not seem easy but our attitude towards it really dictates how we live it.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Ps I dont know what you meant by so easy - making it sound like recovery is so easy or eating raw? My response to either of those: 1. life with eds is easier than life without them and 2. eating raw is the easiest way to eat, pick it and eat it - it's that simple.. buy it, eat it as is... you know? since when was eating meal of apples or bananas hard (non ed)? or avocado for more energy... the list goes on, mono meal or not - anyone can do this, not everyone is motivated though...
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Recovery. Eating a meal of apples or avocado for more energy is easy but I'd still purge. I don't even know why I feel then need to do this I just don't feel right. ttyl
unperfectisback 3 years ago
Are you getting any kind of help for this? just curious. It's a horrible place to be. At my worst I couldn't even keep WATER in. I would take a few sips, freak out, keep sipping and gulping then purge. You can't "get the cycle" until you start making efforts to get out of it... sit with that one. It's a powerful statement/reality. I have heard how you talk. I know you have the strength in you to recover.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Do you mean professional help? No I'm black nobody wants to help me. I hate to make it a race thing because it's not, but when my former therapist I was seeing for another mental illness told me black people don't get eating disorders and that it was a white womans disease...it kinda stuck with me. People don't and wont take me seriously. It is a race thing. Maybe if I was thinner...
unperfectisback 3 years ago
Your attitude could be adjusted, I'm not telling you how to think but suggesting you do something about your outlook. Racisim is a horrible thing, yes, I do not support it at all. It upsets me greatly. However, help starts from WITHIN. What are you willing to do to help you? nothing? anythng? There are FREE resources for help - online, free support groups... If you really want somethng then you will find a way to get it... I am male and trans, I have got discrimmination, I have also got help.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Where are you located, city and zip code?
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I want to go raw I just don't know how. I still purge when I'm fasting through diuretics/ laxatives when I haven't even eaten anything, obviously purge after binging and when I try to eat healthy I still purge it doesn't even have to be unhealthy or a lot. I'm out of control and I don't know what to do but stop period. When I eat foods that are suppose to be filling that people recommend to make me not binge I feel guilty for feeling satisfied but then feel unsatisfied when it's not filling.
unperfectisback 3 years ago
I understand what you are saying... when the soul is in crisis and mind is cluttered with negative enegy, as well as the body, there is complete imbalance... I wish for you whatever it takes to get better and start living dear, big hugs::: The cycle can be stopped, many have stopped it.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
thank you so much for your video. i have been really touched by your healing and sharing. i was having a horrible night, in a cycle of binging. i have been wanting to go raw and now will get off my ass!!! kisses and avocados!
anseladams23 3 years ago
Aw, dear, Hugs. Things will get better. Patience and gradual transition, whatever you can do helps. No rushing just work with your body and continue to heal. Thanks for the avocados. I ate one driving today LOLOLOL I made guacamole right in the shell = I basically just mashed up a fresh organic avocado and spooned it mmmm
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
long live raw!
Emmieluvin12345 3 years ago
we need tee shirts!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
You look great. Your skin is glowing and your eyes look so bright! I love watching your videos. You are a true inspiration. I currently 'label' myself EDNOS. Tho the ole 'bing and purge' is a winner over restricting. NO ONE knows how severe it is...as I am over weight.
Im so glad you made this video. Not just for our viewing but for yourself. Your strong words of determination are something you can look back on when you need a push.
Congratulations on your step towards recovery.
crystalandchris 3 years ago
Hugs to you dear. Thank you for the kind words, I wish to give them back to you and also send you some hope. Things will get better. If they can get bad they can get good, right? Keep your logical and loving head up high.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
THX.
frankieo8 3 years ago
welcome!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Thanks for this video. I believe in Raw Food...and I agree whatever God made can't be wrong or bad in anyway. Sadly my school has nothing organic but that's ok because I'm aloud to take my own lunch :) My friends and family aren't much support but I don't care if they think I'm a health freak I care about my body and I know want the best is for it and thanks raw and organic. ♥
Thank you for this video.
Hope for the best...☺
liplylips 3 years ago
Good for you. I am sorry but I do not consider you a health freak. I consider you a person keeping it REAL and because of this you will benefit from REAL foods and REAL good health to the best of your bodies ability... Most disease and illness comes from diet ALONE, you not contributing that is not a health freak, it's someone thinking and being healthy. Whoever doesn't support it has been brainwashed and needs to educate themself on what food really is...they are missing out bigtime.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Aww thanks. You are the first to say that to me, they don't believe me because they say everyone eats junk food and I'm weird for not. They will remember me when they have problems when they are older. I know it's something I will never regret and YES they are Missing Out. :]
liplylips 3 years ago
Yet they have junk attitudes and are junking away their health whether they know it or not. Sorry but that is the truth, you eat junk you obtain junk. Anyone is capable of changing their diet most just are uneducated and unwilling - and so they suffer and retain junk in their bodies/colons and lives, Anyhow, good for you for taking action and making change. I am doing the same which is why my attitude has shifted and is being embraced... it shows too. I feel it, people see it. Long live raw.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago