Look, why are you worried so much about it, i think sex is fucking awsome in our human animal form, i am obsessed with sex, i wish i had a girlfriend that has my sickness so we can have competitions of who can fuck more people in a week or possibly get into some group orgies in elevators, you should never have to go longer then a couple hours without sex but it should be with different people, i will create a clan of seven girlfriends that i will give crazy sex to at the same time and apart.
The pull toward "hard" drugs is typical for our kind, but most of them won't help you and alcohol is actually bad. Consider removing booze from your life, I did that 4 yrs ago. Try good quality pot, which is a much better alternative. Don't eat processed foods, sleep when you need to, simple stuff like that. Mania isn't harmful, you just need to learn to focus and control it, which is totally possible and without any prescriptions whatsoever. I mean it, don't fear what is happening to you.
Have you seen the Sean Blackwell videos? It's exactly what you're looking for, and he arrived at so many of the same conclusions I did that I was astonished. Consider for a moment that it's not a "disorder" at all, and that you have a mind that's tuned into things others can't perceive. Go to Wiki and search for a list of bipolar people throughout history to get an idea of what I mean: they all had to prove their "bigger" ideas to those that couldn't see them. Words are insufficient for us.
You are SELF OBSESSED. Please go do something for someone else. Talking about yourself this much is only feeding your problem. Get a life chick. Sorry, it's called tough love babe.
@dicksquatz Get a life...hmmm, this from someone who has nothing better to do than leave stupid comments on other people's channels? You are the one who obviously searched for videos on the subject so I think you need to look into a mirror before criticizing anyone else.
I'm glad there are videos like this so I can hear what goes through people's minds that have this. I feel like this a lot. Like right now let's say. I'm really content and happy with everything and I've felt like this since yesterday. I feel really innovative and productive and my mind literally feels like it's going 1,000 mph. which can scare me and give me anxiety a lot because my thoughts jump from one to the next without any reason. It feels really unorganized.
I have a severe case of Bipolar. And Im really happy and energetic and I say things without thinking about them and I get mad sometimes at really nothing. I talk really fast and I just want to run. I feel like Im unstoppable and that nothing can bring me down. I get light headed sometimes. Im usually always at mania. I get angry eaisly and I start screaming and hyperventilating..I end up fighting with my best friend and say things I dont mean and then the next morning I dont remember anything.
You have just described what I am going through right now! I am taking me meds but I am full manic. I keep doing random things, like hyper cleaning and organizing. I haven't slept more than 2 -3 hours a night for about 2 weeks, but at work am super productive. I swing between happy and angry in a split second.Like I was changing cable from one side of the room to the other it wasn't going well, so I ripped it though the dry wall...Not the smartest thing to do. Thanks for sharing, I am not alone.
Mania sounds like when I experimented with drugs like speed, extasy, pervitin, cocaine and psychotic is exactly like my experiments with LSD, mushrooms, bella donna and stuff like that.
I can imagine that having this without takying any illegal substances is something compeltely different than if I decide I wanna go manic/psycho and take appropriate drug (not doing this for some years atm., unfortunetelly).
Was interresting to me to get know how it is all similar. PEACE, be well
/watch?v=gXkmb5s8Igc&feature=results_main&playnext=1&list=PL3F6D108079A142BB this is a great documentary on bipolar disorder that Bipolar people and people without Bipolar should check out. After I was diagnosed I showed this documentary to a lot of my family and I feel like it helped them understand things.
One thing (out of many) that happens when I'm manic is that I talk and talk and talk, and when other people are not moving fast enough in the conversation it gets aggravating.
For all the bipolar people here I suggest this book that helped me understand and deal with my bipolar. "The Bipolar Disorder Survival Guide: What You and Your Family Need to Know" by David J. Miklowitz. Parts of the book can get a bit more\ informational stuff that is a little more boring but a lot of the book has practical ways to deal with bipolar. One thing I like about this book is that throughout the book are quotes from people with bipolar making it feel more personal. hope it helps
Hey I hope you can respond to this. I have been diagnosed with depression and sometimes get mild hypomanic symptoms. I have tried three different medications, and on all of them I have experienced a full blown manic episode. I am really confused as to why this is... please give me advice?
Thanks for sharing. I was diagnosed bipolar 1 about 5 years back. Before that i had been in psychiatric hospitals 3 times. It really takes a lot of courage to post this on the internet. Most of the people that are close to me know that i am bipolar. I talk to them about my symptoms and they help me by understanding and helping me move in the right direction. When I am manic, like you I am very creative. But it can change in an instant and be blind rage. Needless to say, I don't have many friends
Its weird for me I get full on angry mania, and what those with euphoric mania describe as being manic happens to me in hypermania and then i go into rage mania if its not stopped. Its not completley like this for me im still trying to work out exactly what i do..i get odd memory blanks also like when you are drunk you remember but its all hazy. Thanks for the vid its helpful to peeps like me!
I dont think of it as a single thing. it is very debilitating in one way, and liberating in another way. I dont know how to feel about it honestly. I hate that i havnt been able to be as consistant as I could have been. I didnt think of myself as drifting, but i always was. in another time or place, there might have been room for someone like me. but here and now. I gotta take pills. and it sucks. but right now, not taking them is holding me back from things I want to do. i need to be calm.
im anxious, cant stop thinking...get intrusive, angry thoughts, dont sleep much. Im in what my gf calls another one of my "I wana go on the moon and just watch the world explode" knd of moods. (cause I always wind up saying that at some point.) lol. then I get all these incredible ideas. and they really are great ideas. and I wana tell everybody. and nobody cares! and it really just pisses me off! so when people come off too dull to me, I have to check myself. even if they ARE dull. lol.
@david81672able I can relate, I remember before feeling so on top of the world, like I could do anything, I honestly thought I was going to win the Nobel Prize for discovering some new life altering thing. Even though I didn't discover anything...LOL
sometimes I think of it as a necisary affliction to press out the gifts I have. but when I am in the throws of it, I realize my need for meds. I cant help but feel resentful for being labeled mentaly ill when so many people enjoy so many things rendered from people with bipolar, like art, literature, science, music, etc. but it is an isolating kind of thing.I dont want to be around alot of people, and people dont want to be around me. they sense that something about me is different. I see it.
i went through afew processes over the last 5 years before It was concluded that I was bipolar. I knew it already, in a way. I thought it was wrather uncanny that I seemed to attract others in my life, particularly women who were bipolar. I am a singer, songwriter, and writer. I'm very passionate about the things I believe and love, and hate. so when I was told i was bipolar, I thought all those things lost all their meaning. in time, I drew my own conclusions. I am what I am. and its all real.
I was a Psychiatric Nurse for 20 Years & have nursed many,many people who were psychotic...one patient described her manic episodes as going in a really fast car with the window wide open. You are a very brave lady to discuss such difficult subjects on the internet & its great that you have insight into your difficulties.Brave people such as yourself will help to break down the stigma that unfortunately still surrounds mental illness.
When I get manic I get very very hypersexual I mean like I'm the virgin that everybody makes fun of because I'm like "I'm going to wait for sex til I'm married!" But l get like desprate with it like I want to do this this and this and it's the most disgusting experience ever! I'm very lucky that I never carried out any of my thoughts but it gets like unbareably bad like I get terribly antsy to just do it. The hypomania and manic feeling is ok but the depression is where I need help.
Talking to strangers is a good thing. More people should do it, we close ourselves off to the world way to often, being out going isn't a social disorder, the anti-social behaivior of our culture is.
I had to find the right meds, so if the medicine isn't helping ask to try another or get a new Psychiatrist, just don't skip your meds. Good luck and God bless you and your family.
I would really like to read the stuff you write. When I'm manic I compose music, it comes in like a whole album in a week which is awesome, also I drink and all but it doesn't matter the amout my conscience and memory is still there perfect its like it has no effect on me. My euforia goes beyond drug, but then I get so high I talk to everyone with no ego barriers at all, I'm sarcastic and make jokes with those people you shouldn't mess up with. I hit on the women teachers and bosses, its crazy..
I had one manic episode and I was thinking I needed to take more chances, and I thought I could solve all poverty in the world. I would hire homeless people and try to resale garage sale and estate stuff. I fell asleep at a stop light at 3 am in the morning from lack asleep and a cop tapped on the window. I thought I am fine now, I am on Lithobid (Lithium) two in the morn. & one at night, one Wellbutrin in the morn. and one 0.5 Xanax in the morn and half at night. I have had no more episodes.
@dfoxmaster Do you have anything to contribute? Do you know anything about mental illness? Do you have a family members who has mental ilness or brain illness as it should be called. People never assume you brain will get ill like any of your other organs and misfire or not produce the chemicals you need to function in the stress filled world.
@pwg1126 "Do I know anything about mental illness?" What is there to know sir? Should I ask an expert on what it is like to be human? Or should I see the answer in and of myself. I think the latter. Who can know more about me than me? Secondhand words and borrowed concepts are not real. Is it not better to ask why the world is filled with stress? Is the answer really to be found in chemically medicating the physical brain in a world driven by monetary profits? This is my contribution so far.
i love these videos! I'm bipolar as well and its nice to learn how someone else deals with thier symptoms. I think you are a brave person and I am def subscribing to your channel
@HouseHaunter445 Grow up would you! Being bipolar isn't "crazy", it's a illness you sick bastard. I'm so sure she's taken a shine to you for your insensitive and immature comment. What a knob!
Just wanted to say after seeing the comments, what a fantastic channel!...how wonderful that Youtube offers us the opportunity to tell others including the professionals. Not everything is covered in those textbooks! BipolarStateofBeing...well done! Hope this comment finds you well.
@CordeliaOphelia HI, thanks for stopping by and your kind comments. I've subscribed to you as well and look forward to getting to know you on here! :)
I get the angry mania, BUT during hypomania I can be very confident. Ive been stopped in the street before by people I do not recognise and they have had conversations with me/about me. I havent a clue who they are or how they know so much about me..I get memory problems once Ive been stabilised. Too many other symptoms to list..but during mania I get a LOT achieved, but in a angry destructive dramatic fashion. *frowns* Good Videos!
Hi, I recently experienced mania. During my mania I learned that I can actually dance. I experienced similar symptoms. I had to go out all the time. I wrote poetry, drew and painted. I can relate to the whole thing about talking to random people...
@downuk How wonderful a future therapist is watching!. This really is the best way to learn, from listening to those who live with Bipolar first hand. Best of luck with your studies!
always good to hear others experiences. During my hypomania i go mental on music, it's in my head all the time, I can't stop singing. Like almost 24/7. And on the flip side, depression is just constant self-loathing, suicidal thoughts. Sucks.
@CyborgNinja7 ...I did just talk to her. I also just bought her a 42' tv on friday. and as strange as it sounds. she brought it back to my house @ 1am in the morning (on Saturday) dump me and just set it next to my car and split. This braud is just tooo fucking weird. I gotta let it go. But thank you for the feed back. daamn it feel like I've known you for years.
i get servere mania, phycossis, tranquillized, hopitalized then live with my behavour and embarressment, and loose the most important people in my life my heart goes out to anyone sufferering from this disease
Yeah I remember being really manic and just being more outgoing than I've ever been. Talking to complete strangers like they are your best friends for sure.
What is the stone in your ring? some gem stones can help heal whatever problems you have, they work, i have this spirit quartz, its citrine and white, and firs ttime i meditated with it i cried and laughed so hard
Flirty ? Nice ! Lets grab a drink. I was just diagnosed with Bipolar 2 so the drinks might turn into a full on brawl. I was wondering why my life was a mess, now i know and now i can do something about it and hopefully build a new successful life:) Thnx for the post.
Thank you for sharing this, I only touched into mania once, So far its only been hypo mania. This is really good that you are explaining this for you and the people who watch this with bp or have bp family members.
I recently started a blog about my life with bipolar. It is only a couple days but I will be continuing. hopefully daily. please check it out. thank you w.blogger.com/blogger.g?blogID=2673173192675967822#allposts
I am prolly much younger than any1 that has been commenting or watching this video. I found the video extremely helpful becuz I can relate 2 u in many ways. For instance when a severe manic episode of mania starts 2 come on I feel a high level of hypomania & it's always "good". I can't stop smiling & looking back it seems tht I laugh more than usual. When the severe mania hits me it hits me like a shock all over my body. I like 2 refer 2 the severe mania as my S.V stage aka my Super Villain sta
I appreciated this video- interesting use of you-tube. I'm currently in mania, took myself of Lithium 18 months ago and managing my moods ok until a month ago. I'm looking to establish a form of therapy other than prescription. I hated overall that prescriptions hide some symtoms but not most and adds a great deal of disatisfaction to my being. Have you heard of anything?
I'm with a girl right now who is in the middle of mania and I'm just about to lose my mind. I decided to go to Youtube and I'm glad I found this. I've been with her for a while, and I'm seriously scared. She aint gonna make it, I truely believe that. As the spouse in that situation, you take it personally. You feel like its your fault. She just got sent away to a mental facility and I'm really scared. Life will be different after this. My sympathy to everyone who has to deal with this.
The desire of alcohol consumption and sexual intimacy are extreme, I stay out all night looking for stimulation and pleasure kickers. I am different in a sense that I cant tell when Im becoming psycothic, its all very well weaved in my head, like a story baoard and feels like a continuation of the normal mania thoughts. Thanx for sharing!!
I can personally relate to all the things you have experienced during the manic period. I too have had 2 full manic episodes, the last one last year. I also get out there and talk to everyone like I knew them from ages, listening to their personal stories, giving them advice, kinda wanting to fix their problems and get them infected with my amped happy mood.
i feel the strangest feelings that people around me at work(note i work in a ware house )are always looking at me or talking about me watching me.when all i do is mind my own. i'm there to get money that's it.i think every ones comments that i hear are about me,i get pissed and paranoid really bad and i cant tame it :(
Personally I have more hypo-manic states then full out manic. And more depressive states then anything. I love the manic states compared to low states. Even though I'm still depressed I find that I do more activities so it takes my mind away from the depression. I love playing guitar and stuff like that. I understand the craving for drugs and things like that. Its like you start feeling so great and active you want to just add to it. Not sure how else to describe it.
@BenP6395 I'm pretty much the same as you in that I don't get full blown mania (apart from anti-depressant induced mania) but my depression doesn't carry through to my hypo states and I am genuinely very happy for certain periods of time. I know exactly what you mean about wanting to add to a great feeling with drugs but also wanted to add that I believe I crave drugs because sobriety (when manic) just isn't enough. It's all about satisfaction levels and pushing it as far as it will go
I've been dating this girl for about a year now. I believe she is bipolar, She have dump me 8 times in a year then would call me back like nothing happened. She craves cocaine but swears she never tried it. I love her but I believe something isnt right.
@audiman337 It does sound like something is wrong. You should talk to her about it, let her know that you're concerned and don't mean to hurt her in any way.
@CyborgNinja7 ...Thank you guys for the feed back...I do love her. But she's super super weird @ times. She has a lot of hidden agendas. As of right now she dump me
@audiman337 - yes she's def bipolar. that's how i am and im a straight guy. sounds like me to a T. I tell my family i will never talk to them again. then i speak to them like nothing happened. i yell and intimidate my boss whose a lot bigger than me. then i act like nthing happeded. I get on various highs. even when i'm sober. people suspect cocain. Capeeesh? LOL
@judutchinski ...Man dude thank you brother for the feed back. I really love this chic. but DAMN some days are DRAMA. You day I'm the sweetest guy. next time around I'm "Joke" (in her words) and Why does she waste her time blah blah. She denys any bipolar issues. she doesnt believe in anything being wrong with her.
@audiman337 - from the info.. i can def say she places a high value on honor and dishonor. It's black and white with no grey areas for us bipolar or borderline personality disorder types. Minor things will become dramatic because she feels betrayed easily since she is wired to constantly measure your loyalty by minutia etc. The best you can do is to be visibily patient with her. Which helps a ton. Bipolars tend to feel condescended to very easily. I wish you luck man!!!
I haven't officially been diagnosed, but my psychiatrist discretely called me after session after digesting everything I said, and asked to prescribe clozapine. Had recently been to a psych ward because of insomnia (4 days without sleep), and was given horse-pills there, and still wouldn't sleep. Signed myself out before they finished scratching their heads, perchance abruptly leaving a coming diagnosis. I know I'm not sane and all is not well, but I'm still kicking it.
I think I might be bipolar, there days were I hate my self and I want to harm my self when I'm upset I get violent against people. I often have racing thoughts every day that I'd loose concentration and when I'm happy i get really happy and start acting like a 3 year old and when I'm sad, I get really sad I start crying and experience sad flash backs which makes me even more sad. With in an hour or two I'm back to normal like nothing happened
Damn im self diagnosing like crazy, thanksss it all started after finals this semester. These feelings are me in a nutshell lately, insomnia just doesn't cover what i've been going through.
That's mania, HijabulousTV. If you were depressed, you wouldn't give a damn about anything or anyone. Only thing you'd want to do is sleep, stare at the tv, eat too much (or not at all). Mania makes you think about quitting your nice, steady, well-paying gig to set up a haute couture boutique at the top of Mt Everest or join the French Foreign Legion.
Suicidal thoughts are common for people who are bipolar. That's not unusual at all.
This pretty young lady could get hersel in dangerous situations when manic. It makes you hypo-sexual if that's a word. You want to sleep with anyone & everyone. Rape is a distinct possibility. You could even get yourself killed because you have no impulse control or little man in your head telling you to think twice about going to a van with three guys at 4am. Take care.
im so glad i found this channel. I have been searching for someone who understands what bipolar is and who has similar episodes as me. Thanks for sharing
i almost did it one day, i climbed up my house roof and almost jumped. but my neighbor stopped me. but then one day i felt all so happy and felt i was the most important and the most wanted person on earth. i felt so happy. but then next i started cutting my legs, i dont think i was awake. i asked for help many times but nobody would help me :/ but then i decided that God is the only thing that would help me. and he did :) but i still have problems with my two faced sides
@lifesaprize no no dear lifesprize. I am Bi-polar type 1 rapid recycle mixed episodes, I get suicide thought, I have learned they are just thoughts, I had to re train my brain now when I get them, I know its illness and when stress hits it gets worse! What keeps us special Bi polar we are alive still here to have these thoughts. It is a Spiritual awareness that we are all sharing at this very moment. Love to you all Happy New Year
@lifesaprize No, I get these thoughts during a mixed episode and as BipolarStateofBeing says..whislt depressed.I hope you are ok, and have support around you.
okay so im bipolar, have been for a loong time but i dont remember when my last manic episode was because ive had soo many of them, probably because ive had it for so long 12 years but i usually only get them when i dont take my meds and i havnt done that for a while. lol
i just have depression i think, tho i am shy as well so i like to hide away from every one, but i have always been like this, tho i get depression more often now.
mania or hypomania doesnt just occur in bipolar disorder itself, i have adhd and it happens to me, like i get really similar symptoms about that elevated mood besides adrenaline rush . my best friend has bipolar disorder we share loads in common.
I was just curious about your thoughts on ideas of reference. When I have had manic episodes, I became obsessed about the world thinking only about me, talking about me etc. The medications did not help with that.
My mania helped cause the breakup of my marriage and in the last 7 months I have lost everything that I held dear to me. I thought for the longest time that the ideas of reference were sent directly from God. I haven't had any of these thoughts since my last episode and previous to that they occured often but I managed to suppress them. Was I just so insecure in my relationship that they took over? I don't know. I now feel completely alone for the first time in my life.
@BipolarStateofBeing What about obsessions? I find myself getting overly excited about certain interests/hobbies or creative outlets and each time think that it's my calling and dive into all kinds of research and lose sleep over one particular obsession...then i lost interest and get really depressed and anxious inbetween lol. Then I go back to the obsession cycles again lol. Anything like that? I'm trying to figure out why I do that..always go from one obsession to the next nonstop...
@HijabulousTV I think when manic I probably have gotten involved in projects...mainly writing, I would write like a fiend for days and days and just be so involved with it. I think having obsessions like that is common in bipolar when going through an episode.
When full manic my mind is like a wheel just speeding up faster and faster. I talk and think so fast, my sentences seem related to me but some people are completely confused. I feel for you I self medicate with cannabis it works for me with the anxiety attacks. I used to binge drink but I prefer pot. The more I know about me its very depressing some times. I suffer from 4 mental health issues. It runs in my family and I grew up in an abusive household, etc.
Some of you commentators have asked about the association of bipolar disorder with lying. There is a strong percentage of dual diagnoses of bipolar disorder 1 with antisocial personality disorder (APD). APD is what is commonly known as sociopathic or psychopathic personalities. When a person is manic, he or she is prone to committ antisocial acts such as financial disregard for consequences, consistent lying due to grandiose delusions and comorbidity. So, lying and untreated mania are linked.
BSB-My mania is unlike the typical and I hate it. it begins happy to feeling weak and drunk (without drinking) I never get that super happy high. I never laugh. I do stay up for days with the horrible racing thoughts and any outer stimuli hurts. I'll have visions that scare me. I want to begin a video journal to teach others how to cope unlike the few I've seen of a young one taping during mania.. It doesn't help anyone. I need inspiration. You have done a great job Thank You,-Deniseium
@BipolarStateofBeing Many of the bipolars I know, from rapid cycling with psychotic features to bipolar type II, were some of the most pathological liars I knew (the bipolar II being the least). The rapid cycling guy would do something then a week later say it never happened and told everyone behind my back I was a psychotic liar. It was widely known he was buddhist, but when I would ask him about it he would say he wasn't.
@BipolarStateofBeing Hi! I subbed you, i am bi polar 2, And when i was 16 i finally stopped my compulsive lying associated with my bi polar. I just came out of a little rage fit and messed my hand up punching through a cabinet lol. Fun fact :p And when i manic i go out and party, when i am low mania i dont get depressed. I get EXTREMELY angry and aggressive.
Hey there I was diagnosed with Bipolar when I was 21 and I have had a 3 breaks since where I ended up in the Hospital and I have some pretty intense stories to tell and like you I can look back at them and laugh. My first time in the hospital i spent all day writing rhymes and came up with 2 rhyme books with over 120 pages of lyrics and How amazing is the creativity level you experience when your Hypomanic and even Manic?
Being in hypomania is good but being mania is horrible when I was in mania I went skydiving, and donated 1000 dollars to a charity which I mean are good things but I took a hit on my bank account , especially as a college student Ive had to cancle my credit cards because all I would do is spend, Im now seeking help bcause sometimes you just can't do it on your own....
Out of curiosity, what substances appeal to you when you are manic, and also, if any.. What substances when u are depressed.. I realize this is sensitive info so release as much as ur comfortable with.. I'm just curious because self medicating has been highly prevalent in the course of this disorder for me.. Thx ;)
@ryguycoolest2 When manic, I usually crave things like ecstasy, speed or cocaine. Which is weird because I have never done drugs in my life. I have no idea why I get these weird cravings! But thankfully I do not act on them!
what none of these people never mention is what is a happening in there lives.Neighbours from hell i have who im going to have a huge row with because stupid cat women cant close a window.Does that make me Biopolar ?.
im ranting on youtube lol mental people have really good hair.Id never do one of these .People are drawn to the crazyness.Sounds like Buffy).Kick some arse .
Thank you so much for posting these videos. I used to be an avid writer but I no longer write in my journal much, and I really need those journal entries to track my symptoms, moods, etc. Your videos inspired me to get a camera and keep a video log just for myself. I'm curious to see my demeanor in different states. I can only imagine what my videos would be like when hypo/full manic. Thank you again; you are very brave.
@AmazingMonkeyQueen Thanks for watching! I hope you find the video log to be helpful. I sometimes go back and watch my old videos to see my progression, it's really enlightening.
everybodys looking at me. everyones plotting against me. i feel like running my car off the road into the canyon. i hurt myself with objects. nobody likes me. and alot of the things i have owned have been broke during an "episode". and ive hurt alot of people and ruined alot of relationships. not to mention the people ive assaulted. ----- but after i sit in my own shit for awhile i hit the gym. get on my bike..ride..i cook. and treat everyone well with a smile on. what am i? lol
I ended up writing a lot of notes on Facebook when I was manic and reading them back now, they don't make a lot of sense. The comedown was awful, and although I have recovered, I've never really managed to get myself fully back on track. Really good to see people like yourself opening up.
@RobinBlamires I remember when I was manic I was doing a lot of weird stuff on myspace, back when people were still on there. I'm not on there anymore but when I looked back it was kinda like you, like why the heck did I do/say that?
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Look, why are you worried so much about it, i think sex is fucking awsome in our human animal form, i am obsessed with sex, i wish i had a girlfriend that has my sickness so we can have competitions of who can fuck more people in a week or possibly get into some group orgies in elevators, you should never have to go longer then a couple hours without sex but it should be with different people, i will create a clan of seven girlfriends that i will give crazy sex to at the same time and apart.
7sonofthefather6 4 hours ago
The pull toward "hard" drugs is typical for our kind, but most of them won't help you and alcohol is actually bad. Consider removing booze from your life, I did that 4 yrs ago. Try good quality pot, which is a much better alternative. Don't eat processed foods, sleep when you need to, simple stuff like that. Mania isn't harmful, you just need to learn to focus and control it, which is totally possible and without any prescriptions whatsoever. I mean it, don't fear what is happening to you.
BipolarConduktor 15 hours ago
Have you seen the Sean Blackwell videos? It's exactly what you're looking for, and he arrived at so many of the same conclusions I did that I was astonished. Consider for a moment that it's not a "disorder" at all, and that you have a mind that's tuned into things others can't perceive. Go to Wiki and search for a list of bipolar people throughout history to get an idea of what I mean: they all had to prove their "bigger" ideas to those that couldn't see them. Words are insufficient for us.
BipolarConduktor 16 hours ago
know your boundries ex wife/ went really low and almost die w/ me not pleasant god bless ps we both suffer the mental aspect too
wonabzback 2 days ago
You are SELF OBSESSED. Please go do something for someone else. Talking about yourself this much is only feeding your problem. Get a life chick. Sorry, it's called tough love babe.
dicksquatz 2 days ago
@dicksquatz Get a life...hmmm, this from someone who has nothing better to do than leave stupid comments on other people's channels? You are the one who obviously searched for videos on the subject so I think you need to look into a mirror before criticizing anyone else.
BipolarStateofBeing 2 days ago 5
@dicksquatz i cant stand retards like you, go back to your min wage job in wallmart your poorly educated excuse for a human being
14jay69 1 day ago
try meditation
darkstrikex 6 days ago
thanks for sharing
lisapisa1980 1 week ago
not bipolar is just because your a woman
cheesemiste 1 week ago
I'm glad there are videos like this so I can hear what goes through people's minds that have this. I feel like this a lot. Like right now let's say. I'm really content and happy with everything and I've felt like this since yesterday. I feel really innovative and productive and my mind literally feels like it's going 1,000 mph. which can scare me and give me anxiety a lot because my thoughts jump from one to the next without any reason. It feels really unorganized.
guitar4life33 1 week ago
I have a severe case of Bipolar. And Im really happy and energetic and I say things without thinking about them and I get mad sometimes at really nothing. I talk really fast and I just want to run. I feel like Im unstoppable and that nothing can bring me down. I get light headed sometimes. Im usually always at mania. I get angry eaisly and I start screaming and hyperventilating..I end up fighting with my best friend and say things I dont mean and then the next morning I dont remember anything.
popcorn440112 1 week ago
You have just described what I am going through right now! I am taking me meds but I am full manic. I keep doing random things, like hyper cleaning and organizing. I haven't slept more than 2 -3 hours a night for about 2 weeks, but at work am super productive. I swing between happy and angry in a split second.Like I was changing cable from one side of the room to the other it wasn't going well, so I ripped it though the dry wall...Not the smartest thing to do. Thanks for sharing, I am not alone.
bill2001mcs 2 weeks ago
Mania sounds like when I experimented with drugs like speed, extasy, pervitin, cocaine and psychotic is exactly like my experiments with LSD, mushrooms, bella donna and stuff like that.
I can imagine that having this without takying any illegal substances is something compeltely different than if I decide I wanna go manic/psycho and take appropriate drug (not doing this for some years atm., unfortunetelly).
Was interresting to me to get know how it is all similar. PEACE, be well
HybOj 2 weeks ago
/watch?v=gXkmb5s8Igc&feature=results_main&playnext=1&list=PL3F6D108079A142BB this is a great documentary on bipolar disorder that Bipolar people and people without Bipolar should check out. After I was diagnosed I showed this documentary to a lot of my family and I feel like it helped them understand things.
One thing (out of many) that happens when I'm manic is that I talk and talk and talk, and when other people are not moving fast enough in the conversation it gets aggravating.
KevTheYoungMusicGeru 2 weeks ago
For all the bipolar people here I suggest this book that helped me understand and deal with my bipolar. "The Bipolar Disorder Survival Guide: What You and Your Family Need to Know" by David J. Miklowitz. Parts of the book can get a bit more\ informational stuff that is a little more boring but a lot of the book has practical ways to deal with bipolar. One thing I like about this book is that throughout the book are quotes from people with bipolar making it feel more personal. hope it helps
KevTheYoungMusicGeru 2 weeks ago
you should make a video while you're manic/hypomanic
NinetiesYouth 2 weeks ago
Hey I hope you can respond to this. I have been diagnosed with depression and sometimes get mild hypomanic symptoms. I have tried three different medications, and on all of them I have experienced a full blown manic episode. I am really confused as to why this is... please give me advice?
xoFadingStarox 2 weeks ago
Thanks for sharing. I was diagnosed bipolar 1 about 5 years back. Before that i had been in psychiatric hospitals 3 times. It really takes a lot of courage to post this on the internet. Most of the people that are close to me know that i am bipolar. I talk to them about my symptoms and they help me by understanding and helping me move in the right direction. When I am manic, like you I am very creative. But it can change in an instant and be blind rage. Needless to say, I don't have many friends
faithfromfire 2 weeks ago
you have low dopamine levels period.
TheSonyb90 3 weeks ago
Its weird for me I get full on angry mania, and what those with euphoric mania describe as being manic happens to me in hypermania and then i go into rage mania if its not stopped. Its not completley like this for me im still trying to work out exactly what i do..i get odd memory blanks also like when you are drunk you remember but its all hazy. Thanks for the vid its helpful to peeps like me!
CordeliaOphelia 3 weeks ago
did this even make any sense? lol! ...tis one of those days today!
CordeliaOphelia 3 weeks ago
I dont think of it as a single thing. it is very debilitating in one way, and liberating in another way. I dont know how to feel about it honestly. I hate that i havnt been able to be as consistant as I could have been. I didnt think of myself as drifting, but i always was. in another time or place, there might have been room for someone like me. but here and now. I gotta take pills. and it sucks. but right now, not taking them is holding me back from things I want to do. i need to be calm.
david81672able 3 weeks ago
im anxious, cant stop thinking...get intrusive, angry thoughts, dont sleep much. Im in what my gf calls another one of my "I wana go on the moon and just watch the world explode" knd of moods. (cause I always wind up saying that at some point.) lol. then I get all these incredible ideas. and they really are great ideas. and I wana tell everybody. and nobody cares! and it really just pisses me off! so when people come off too dull to me, I have to check myself. even if they ARE dull. lol.
david81672able 3 weeks ago 7
@david81672able I can relate, I remember before feeling so on top of the world, like I could do anything, I honestly thought I was going to win the Nobel Prize for discovering some new life altering thing. Even though I didn't discover anything...LOL
BipolarStateofBeing 3 weeks ago
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gdoddmeta3608 1 week ago
@david81672able Kreayshawn sent me here, a vid of hers links people to this one, nice vid though, very informative but erm, yeah o.O
AfroNinjaX 3 weeks ago
sometimes I think of it as a necisary affliction to press out the gifts I have. but when I am in the throws of it, I realize my need for meds. I cant help but feel resentful for being labeled mentaly ill when so many people enjoy so many things rendered from people with bipolar, like art, literature, science, music, etc. but it is an isolating kind of thing.I dont want to be around alot of people, and people dont want to be around me. they sense that something about me is different. I see it.
david81672able 3 weeks ago
i went through afew processes over the last 5 years before It was concluded that I was bipolar. I knew it already, in a way. I thought it was wrather uncanny that I seemed to attract others in my life, particularly women who were bipolar. I am a singer, songwriter, and writer. I'm very passionate about the things I believe and love, and hate. so when I was told i was bipolar, I thought all those things lost all their meaning. in time, I drew my own conclusions. I am what I am. and its all real.
david81672able 3 weeks ago
I was a Psychiatric Nurse for 20 Years & have nursed many,many people who were psychotic...one patient described her manic episodes as going in a really fast car with the window wide open. You are a very brave lady to discuss such difficult subjects on the internet & its great that you have insight into your difficulties.Brave people such as yourself will help to break down the stigma that unfortunately still surrounds mental illness.
HarveyPriceFTW 3 weeks ago 5
When I get manic I get very very hypersexual I mean like I'm the virgin that everybody makes fun of because I'm like "I'm going to wait for sex til I'm married!" But l get like desprate with it like I want to do this this and this and it's the most disgusting experience ever! I'm very lucky that I never carried out any of my thoughts but it gets like unbareably bad like I get terribly antsy to just do it. The hypomania and manic feeling is ok but the depression is where I need help.
callmeservant 3 weeks ago
Talking to strangers is a good thing. More people should do it, we close ourselves off to the world way to often, being out going isn't a social disorder, the anti-social behaivior of our culture is.
dogslikenocats 3 weeks ago
@poet79ful Promiscuity is very common in mental illness, that is why they separate the men in women in the mental hospitals. Get well. God bless.
pwg1126 3 weeks ago
Bet you still look hot while manic.
BoyMonarch 4 weeks ago
I had to find the right meds, so if the medicine isn't helping ask to try another or get a new Psychiatrist, just don't skip your meds. Good luck and God bless you and your family.
pwg1126 1 month ago
I would really like to read the stuff you write. When I'm manic I compose music, it comes in like a whole album in a week which is awesome, also I drink and all but it doesn't matter the amout my conscience and memory is still there perfect its like it has no effect on me. My euforia goes beyond drug, but then I get so high I talk to everyone with no ego barriers at all, I'm sarcastic and make jokes with those people you shouldn't mess up with. I hit on the women teachers and bosses, its crazy..
RighiMusic 1 month ago
I had one manic episode and I was thinking I needed to take more chances, and I thought I could solve all poverty in the world. I would hire homeless people and try to resale garage sale and estate stuff. I fell asleep at a stop light at 3 am in the morning from lack asleep and a cop tapped on the window. I thought I am fine now, I am on Lithobid (Lithium) two in the morn. & one at night, one Wellbutrin in the morn. and one 0.5 Xanax in the morn and half at night. I have had no more episodes.
pwg1126 1 month ago
@pwg1126 That's good that the medication has helped you.
BipolarStateofBeing 1 month ago
@BipolarStateofBeing you're hot
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dfoxmaster 4 weeks ago
@dfoxmaster Do you have anything to contribute? Do you know anything about mental illness? Do you have a family members who has mental ilness or brain illness as it should be called. People never assume you brain will get ill like any of your other organs and misfire or not produce the chemicals you need to function in the stress filled world.
pwg1126 3 weeks ago
@pwg1126 "Do I know anything about mental illness?" What is there to know sir? Should I ask an expert on what it is like to be human? Or should I see the answer in and of myself. I think the latter. Who can know more about me than me? Secondhand words and borrowed concepts are not real. Is it not better to ask why the world is filled with stress? Is the answer really to be found in chemically medicating the physical brain in a world driven by monetary profits? This is my contribution so far.
dfoxmaster 3 weeks ago
i love these videos! I'm bipolar as well and its nice to learn how someone else deals with thier symptoms. I think you are a brave person and I am def subscribing to your channel
m4h18 1 month ago
@m4h18 Thanks, welcome to my channel!
BipolarStateofBeing 1 month ago
HOT and CRAZY; just my type.
HouseHaunter445 1 month ago
@HouseHaunter445 Grow up would you! Being bipolar isn't "crazy", it's a illness you sick bastard. I'm so sure she's taken a shine to you for your insensitive and immature comment. What a knob!
smileywand 1 month ago
Just wanted to say after seeing the comments, what a fantastic channel!...how wonderful that Youtube offers us the opportunity to tell others including the professionals. Not everything is covered in those textbooks! BipolarStateofBeing...well done! Hope this comment finds you well.
CordeliaOphelia 1 month ago
@CordeliaOphelia HI, thanks for stopping by and your kind comments. I've subscribed to you as well and look forward to getting to know you on here! :)
BipolarStateofBeing 1 month ago
I get the angry mania, BUT during hypomania I can be very confident. Ive been stopped in the street before by people I do not recognise and they have had conversations with me/about me. I havent a clue who they are or how they know so much about me..I get memory problems once Ive been stabilised. Too many other symptoms to list..but during mania I get a LOT achieved, but in a angry destructive dramatic fashion. *frowns* Good Videos!
CordeliaOphelia 1 month ago
Oh, and I spent a lot of my money... It was not good.
stefftigger 1 month ago
Hi, I recently experienced mania. During my mania I learned that I can actually dance. I experienced similar symptoms. I had to go out all the time. I wrote poetry, drew and painted. I can relate to the whole thing about talking to random people...
stefftigger 1 month ago
You have so much courage and strength luv. What you've done by posting your videos is helping thousands of people. Thank you so much. xx
smileywand 1 month ago
@smileywand I totally agree with you!
CordeliaOphelia 1 month ago
Thank you soo very much! Your details were very helpful with me trying to understand my own symptoms and when/which to identify
brigettedeva 1 month ago
Thanks for sharing this I am a student learning psychotherapy and this really helped me in my studies,thanks for sharing you are great!
downuk 1 month ago
@downuk How wonderful a future therapist is watching!. This really is the best way to learn, from listening to those who live with Bipolar first hand. Best of luck with your studies!
CordeliaOphelia 1 month ago
Sounds like you have Schizoaffective disorder like I do.
ErkkiEno 1 month ago
always good to hear others experiences. During my hypomania i go mental on music, it's in my head all the time, I can't stop singing. Like almost 24/7. And on the flip side, depression is just constant self-loathing, suicidal thoughts. Sucks.
tizzly 1 month ago
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@CyborgNinja7 ...I did just talk to her. I also just bought her a 42' tv on friday. and as strange as it sounds. she brought it back to my house @ 1am in the morning (on Saturday) dump me and just set it next to my car and split. This braud is just tooo fucking weird. I gotta let it go. But thank you for the feed back. daamn it feel like I've known you for years.
audiman337 1 month ago
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audiman337 1 month ago
i get servere mania, phycossis, tranquillized, hopitalized then live with my behavour and embarressment, and loose the most important people in my life my heart goes out to anyone sufferering from this disease
MrLowali 1 month ago
Yeah I remember being really manic and just being more outgoing than I've ever been. Talking to complete strangers like they are your best friends for sure.
SuperBipolarMan 1 month ago
im bipolar, and you are beautful
christiandrummer007 1 month ago
What is the stone in your ring? some gem stones can help heal whatever problems you have, they work, i have this spirit quartz, its citrine and white, and firs ttime i meditated with it i cried and laughed so hard
StuckInTheSky0 1 month ago
Flirty ? Nice ! Lets grab a drink. I was just diagnosed with Bipolar 2 so the drinks might turn into a full on brawl. I was wondering why my life was a mess, now i know and now i can do something about it and hopefully build a new successful life:) Thnx for the post.
vtasurf1277 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing this, I only touched into mania once, So far its only been hypo mania. This is really good that you are explaining this for you and the people who watch this with bp or have bp family members.
FairyLea12 1 month ago
thanks for sharing this
GiganteDelicado 1 month ago
hmmm ok.... I now see why my ex did the things she did...
wow... v enlightening...
osheal 1 month ago
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osheal 1 month ago
I recently started a blog about my life with bipolar. It is only a couple days but I will be continuing. hopefully daily. please check it out. thank you w.blogger.com/blogger.g?blogID=2673173192675967822#allposts
wishyouknew387 1 month ago
I am prolly much younger than any1 that has been commenting or watching this video. I found the video extremely helpful becuz I can relate 2 u in many ways. For instance when a severe manic episode of mania starts 2 come on I feel a high level of hypomania & it's always "good". I can't stop smiling & looking back it seems tht I laugh more than usual. When the severe mania hits me it hits me like a shock all over my body. I like 2 refer 2 the severe mania as my S.V stage aka my Super Villain sta
6zatara 2 months ago
I appreciated this video- interesting use of you-tube. I'm currently in mania, took myself of Lithium 18 months ago and managing my moods ok until a month ago. I'm looking to establish a form of therapy other than prescription. I hated overall that prescriptions hide some symtoms but not most and adds a great deal of disatisfaction to my being. Have you heard of anything?
pro1polaris 2 months ago
I'm with a girl right now who is in the middle of mania and I'm just about to lose my mind. I decided to go to Youtube and I'm glad I found this. I've been with her for a while, and I'm seriously scared. She aint gonna make it, I truely believe that. As the spouse in that situation, you take it personally. You feel like its your fault. She just got sent away to a mental facility and I'm really scared. Life will be different after this. My sympathy to everyone who has to deal with this.
rawasiwannabe 2 months ago
The desire of alcohol consumption and sexual intimacy are extreme, I stay out all night looking for stimulation and pleasure kickers. I am different in a sense that I cant tell when Im becoming psycothic, its all very well weaved in my head, like a story baoard and feels like a continuation of the normal mania thoughts. Thanx for sharing!!
gringobauser 2 months ago
I can personally relate to all the things you have experienced during the manic period. I too have had 2 full manic episodes, the last one last year. I also get out there and talk to everyone like I knew them from ages, listening to their personal stories, giving them advice, kinda wanting to fix their problems and get them infected with my amped happy mood.
gringobauser 2 months ago
i feel the strangest feelings that people around me at work(note i work in a ware house )are always looking at me or talking about me watching me.when all i do is mind my own. i'm there to get money that's it.i think every ones comments that i hear are about me,i get pissed and paranoid really bad and i cant tame it :(
536swagg 2 months ago
So are you less of a boring bitch when you're depressive?
aadeeza 2 months ago
i gambled my whole life saving away and took out two loans and gambled loans away in my manic states
bengalinwotuk 2 months ago
My mom is bipolar its hell. What about me ?
tupaclover123 2 months ago
your hot and you have pretty eyes
wilders636 2 months ago
Personally I have more hypo-manic states then full out manic. And more depressive states then anything. I love the manic states compared to low states. Even though I'm still depressed I find that I do more activities so it takes my mind away from the depression. I love playing guitar and stuff like that. I understand the craving for drugs and things like that. Its like you start feeling so great and active you want to just add to it. Not sure how else to describe it.
BenP6395 2 months ago
@BenP6395 I'm pretty much the same as you in that I don't get full blown mania (apart from anti-depressant induced mania) but my depression doesn't carry through to my hypo states and I am genuinely very happy for certain periods of time. I know exactly what you mean about wanting to add to a great feeling with drugs but also wanted to add that I believe I crave drugs because sobriety (when manic) just isn't enough. It's all about satisfaction levels and pushing it as far as it will go
tooldrummer 2 months ago
I've been dating this girl for about a year now. I believe she is bipolar, She have dump me 8 times in a year then would call me back like nothing happened. She craves cocaine but swears she never tried it. I love her but I believe something isnt right.
audiman337 2 months ago
@audiman337 If she is dealing with issues I hope she is able to reach out and get help.
BipolarStateofBeing 2 months ago
@audiman337 It does sound like something is wrong. You should talk to her about it, let her know that you're concerned and don't mean to hurt her in any way.
CyborgNinja7 1 month ago
@CyborgNinja7 ...Thank you guys for the feed back...I do love her. But she's super super weird @ times. She has a lot of hidden agendas. As of right now she dump me
audiman337 1 month ago
@audiman337 Leave her and save yourself now dude, trust me don't continue. It can only get worse.
sashamaz 1 month ago
@audiman337 sounds bi polar
joeymantera 1 month ago
@audiman337 - yes she's def bipolar. that's how i am and im a straight guy. sounds like me to a T. I tell my family i will never talk to them again. then i speak to them like nothing happened. i yell and intimidate my boss whose a lot bigger than me. then i act like nthing happeded. I get on various highs. even when i'm sober. people suspect cocain. Capeeesh? LOL
judutchinski 1 month ago
@judutchinski ...Man dude thank you brother for the feed back. I really love this chic. but DAMN some days are DRAMA. You day I'm the sweetest guy. next time around I'm "Joke" (in her words) and Why does she waste her time blah blah. She denys any bipolar issues. she doesnt believe in anything being wrong with her.
But thank u again bro. good luck with everything
audiman337 1 month ago
@audiman337 - from the info.. i can def say she places a high value on honor and dishonor. It's black and white with no grey areas for us bipolar or borderline personality disorder types. Minor things will become dramatic because she feels betrayed easily since she is wired to constantly measure your loyalty by minutia etc. The best you can do is to be visibily patient with her. Which helps a ton. Bipolars tend to feel condescended to very easily. I wish you luck man!!!
judutchinski 1 month ago
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Don't confuse bipolar w/ PMS, dude.
TheGuydudebro 1 month ago
I haven't officially been diagnosed, but my psychiatrist discretely called me after session after digesting everything I said, and asked to prescribe clozapine. Had recently been to a psych ward because of insomnia (4 days without sleep), and was given horse-pills there, and still wouldn't sleep. Signed myself out before they finished scratching their heads, perchance abruptly leaving a coming diagnosis. I know I'm not sane and all is not well, but I'm still kicking it.
nattensvaffel 2 months ago
dont worry 90% of women manic
TyVlog 2 months ago
I think I might be bipolar, there days were I hate my self and I want to harm my self when I'm upset I get violent against people. I often have racing thoughts every day that I'd loose concentration and when I'm happy i get really happy and start acting like a 3 year old and when I'm sad, I get really sad I start crying and experience sad flash backs which makes me even more sad. With in an hour or two I'm back to normal like nothing happened
zeelelynn 2 months ago
Damn im self diagnosing like crazy, thanksss it all started after finals this semester. These feelings are me in a nutshell lately, insomnia just doesn't cover what i've been going through.
astiles18 2 months ago 3
That's mania, HijabulousTV. If you were depressed, you wouldn't give a damn about anything or anyone. Only thing you'd want to do is sleep, stare at the tv, eat too much (or not at all). Mania makes you think about quitting your nice, steady, well-paying gig to set up a haute couture boutique at the top of Mt Everest or join the French Foreign Legion.
entwistle4ever 2 months ago
Suicidal thoughts are common for people who are bipolar. That's not unusual at all.
This pretty young lady could get hersel in dangerous situations when manic. It makes you hypo-sexual if that's a word. You want to sleep with anyone & everyone. Rape is a distinct possibility. You could even get yourself killed because you have no impulse control or little man in your head telling you to think twice about going to a van with three guys at 4am. Take care.
entwistle4ever 2 months ago
what are the bad thoughts like?
alkachyld 2 months ago
i quit caffeine not which is quit typo again sorry
i have adrenal exhaustion or something,
summa2201 2 months ago
have not lack sorry typo
summa2201 2 months ago
i found this video very interesting
unfortunatly for me i hack a lack of energy and fatigue all the
time so mania sounds amazing, i think i get it from caffeine, which is quit
i must have a nutrient deficiency im thinking
summa2201 2 months ago
So glad i found your page you sound just like me it so hard to live with
lovegod1962 2 months ago
im so glad i found this channel. I have been searching for someone who understands what bipolar is and who has similar episodes as me. Thanks for sharing
tony711978 2 months ago
.. @BipolarStateofBeing YOU ARE HOT AS HELL!!!!!!!
Sincerely,
adhd person :)
whatatree1337 2 months ago
Am i the only one who has bipolar and is having thoughts of suicide .?
lifesaprize 2 months ago
@lifesaprize No definitely not. I have frequent thoughts of suicide when I am depressed.
BipolarStateofBeing 2 months ago
@BipolarStateofBeing
i almost did it one day, i climbed up my house roof and almost jumped. but my neighbor stopped me. but then one day i felt all so happy and felt i was the most important and the most wanted person on earth. i felt so happy. but then next i started cutting my legs, i dont think i was awake. i asked for help many times but nobody would help me :/ but then i decided that God is the only thing that would help me. and he did :) but i still have problems with my two faced sides
lifesaprize 2 months ago
@lifesaprize no no dear lifesprize. I am Bi-polar type 1 rapid recycle mixed episodes, I get suicide thought, I have learned they are just thoughts, I had to re train my brain now when I get them, I know its illness and when stress hits it gets worse! What keeps us special Bi polar we are alive still here to have these thoughts. It is a Spiritual awareness that we are all sharing at this very moment. Love to you all Happy New Year
WatchingforTruthLORD 2 months ago
@lifesaprize No. Im Bipolar, iv commited suicide numerous times xx
RundleBaaybee 2 months ago
@lifesaprize nope. its not fun. good vibes to you.
my4trackmachine 2 months ago
@lifesaprize No your not, it is very common
FairyLea12 1 month ago
@lifesaprize You are not alone. I have a vblog where I talk about bipolar suicide thoughts.
ZZBob777 1 month ago
@lifesaprize No, I get these thoughts during a mixed episode and as BipolarStateofBeing says..whislt depressed.I hope you are ok, and have support around you.
CordeliaOphelia 1 month ago
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lifesaprize 2 months ago
I was just diagnosed as bipolar 1 and having one manic episode but then having a hypomanic personality so this is so helpful!!!!!!!!!
lisakiraly 2 months ago
My dad has this........its rough
Drhamburgerhill 2 months ago
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Sunnyrach 2 months ago
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Sunnyrach 2 months ago
everyone is different you might not feel the same way as her, there is different types of bipolar
jennita374 3 months ago
okay so im bipolar, have been for a loong time but i dont remember when my last manic episode was because ive had soo many of them, probably because ive had it for so long 12 years but i usually only get them when i dont take my meds and i havnt done that for a while. lol
jennita374 3 months ago
manic girls are sexy
TheEots 3 months ago
Hello I just wanted to say that your videos are informative. I am bipolar aswell and i hate it.
lowrange100 3 months ago
thank you so much for this...it sounds exactly like what I go through and this is so helpful.
dustinsangel1369 3 months ago
Meditate beautiful...meditate
ShitdickkingofNY 3 months ago
i just have depression i think, tho i am shy as well so i like to hide away from every one, but i have always been like this, tho i get depression more often now.
poetrylost30 3 months ago
SHUT UP!!!
volcompaul 3 months ago
I am also bi-polar and it sux
NorCalMediGrower 3 months ago
mania or hypomania doesnt just occur in bipolar disorder itself, i have adhd and it happens to me, like i get really similar symptoms about that elevated mood besides adrenaline rush . my best friend has bipolar disorder we share loads in common.
kothelegendary 3 months ago
She's cute :)
MrTrevorWAdderley 3 months ago
I was just curious about your thoughts on ideas of reference. When I have had manic episodes, I became obsessed about the world thinking only about me, talking about me etc. The medications did not help with that.
55JJdees55 3 months ago
@55JJdees55 I've only experienced stuff like that when I have been paranoid.
BipolarStateofBeing 3 months ago
@55JJdees55 I have had these thoughts plenty of times, for a specific reason though, talk to me...
Turbochargedss 2 months ago
@Turbochargedss
My mania helped cause the breakup of my marriage and in the last 7 months I have lost everything that I held dear to me. I thought for the longest time that the ideas of reference were sent directly from God. I haven't had any of these thoughts since my last episode and previous to that they occured often but I managed to suppress them. Was I just so insecure in my relationship that they took over? I don't know. I now feel completely alone for the first time in my life.
55JJdees55 2 months ago
would you say your mania is like anxiety/panic attacks? or just a lot of anxiety and fidgeting and procrastination?
HijabulousTV 3 months ago
@HijabulousTV I wouldn't say I generally have panic attacks when manic. At times I do feel anxious though and agitated.
BipolarStateofBeing 3 months ago
@BipolarStateofBeing What about obsessions? I find myself getting overly excited about certain interests/hobbies or creative outlets and each time think that it's my calling and dive into all kinds of research and lose sleep over one particular obsession...then i lost interest and get really depressed and anxious inbetween lol. Then I go back to the obsession cycles again lol. Anything like that? I'm trying to figure out why I do that..always go from one obsession to the next nonstop...
HijabulousTV 3 months ago
@HijabulousTV I think when manic I probably have gotten involved in projects...mainly writing, I would write like a fiend for days and days and just be so involved with it. I think having obsessions like that is common in bipolar when going through an episode.
BipolarStateofBeing 3 months ago
@BipolarStateofBeing Thank you for replying. I appreciate it :).
HijabulousTV 2 months ago
When full manic my mind is like a wheel just speeding up faster and faster. I talk and think so fast, my sentences seem related to me but some people are completely confused. I feel for you I self medicate with cannabis it works for me with the anxiety attacks. I used to binge drink but I prefer pot. The more I know about me its very depressing some times. I suffer from 4 mental health issues. It runs in my family and I grew up in an abusive household, etc.
danielsaun1 3 months ago
Some of you commentators have asked about the association of bipolar disorder with lying. There is a strong percentage of dual diagnoses of bipolar disorder 1 with antisocial personality disorder (APD). APD is what is commonly known as sociopathic or psychopathic personalities. When a person is manic, he or she is prone to committ antisocial acts such as financial disregard for consequences, consistent lying due to grandiose delusions and comorbidity. So, lying and untreated mania are linked.
newtonchadMS 3 months ago
BSB-My mania is unlike the typical and I hate it. it begins happy to feeling weak and drunk (without drinking) I never get that super happy high. I never laugh. I do stay up for days with the horrible racing thoughts and any outer stimuli hurts. I'll have visions that scare me. I want to begin a video journal to teach others how to cope unlike the few I've seen of a young one taping during mania.. It doesn't help anyone. I need inspiration. You have done a great job Thank You,-Deniseium
deniseium 3 months ago
you're very beautiful. :)
oh btw, is it true that bi-polar people are pathological liars?
flimflamworkjerk 3 months ago
@flimflamworkjerk No, that isn't true. I don't think lying has anything to do with bipolar.
BipolarStateofBeing 3 months ago 4
@BipolarStateofBeing Many of the bipolars I know, from rapid cycling with psychotic features to bipolar type II, were some of the most pathological liars I knew (the bipolar II being the least). The rapid cycling guy would do something then a week later say it never happened and told everyone behind my back I was a psychotic liar. It was widely known he was buddhist, but when I would ask him about it he would say he wasn't.
xatnes884 2 months ago
@BipolarStateofBeing Hi! I subbed you, i am bi polar 2, And when i was 16 i finally stopped my compulsive lying associated with my bi polar. I just came out of a little rage fit and messed my hand up punching through a cabinet lol. Fun fact :p And when i manic i go out and party, when i am low mania i dont get depressed. I get EXTREMELY angry and aggressive.
RENOGUY777 1 month ago
Hey there I was diagnosed with Bipolar when I was 21 and I have had a 3 breaks since where I ended up in the Hospital and I have some pretty intense stories to tell and like you I can look back at them and laugh. My first time in the hospital i spent all day writing rhymes and came up with 2 rhyme books with over 120 pages of lyrics and How amazing is the creativity level you experience when your Hypomanic and even Manic?
DTayn87 1 month ago
Being in hypomania is good but being mania is horrible when I was in mania I went skydiving, and donated 1000 dollars to a charity which I mean are good things but I took a hit on my bank account , especially as a college student Ive had to cancle my credit cards because all I would do is spend, Im now seeking help bcause sometimes you just can't do it on your own....
jcivan1 3 months ago
Out of curiosity, what substances appeal to you when you are manic, and also, if any.. What substances when u are depressed.. I realize this is sensitive info so release as much as ur comfortable with.. I'm just curious because self medicating has been highly prevalent in the course of this disorder for me.. Thx ;)
ryguycoolest2 4 months ago
@ryguycoolest2 When manic, I usually crave things like ecstasy, speed or cocaine. Which is weird because I have never done drugs in my life. I have no idea why I get these weird cravings! But thankfully I do not act on them!
BipolarStateofBeing 4 months ago
@BipolarStateofBeing how can you crave something unless you have tried it before it doesnt make any sense to me
joemoonblue 3 months ago
@BipolarStateofBeing Wow, thats so interesting because when i get manic i feel like i'm on speed/ecstacy (i have done both)
Being on ecstasy is the euphoria you get when manic just without the confused and irritability :)
soundslike12345 3 months ago
@ryguycoolest2 me 2, self medicating on the worst substance know to mankind.....
bullpentherapy 3 months ago
your beutiful........ I love your eye's !!!!!
medicbr549 4 months ago
what none of these people never mention is what is a happening in there lives.Neighbours from hell i have who im going to have a huge row with because stupid cat women cant close a window.Does that make me Biopolar ?.
joebstarsurfer 4 months ago
im ranting on youtube lol mental people have really good hair.Id never do one of these .People are drawn to the crazyness.Sounds like Buffy).Kick some arse .
joebstarsurfer 4 months ago
sounds normal ta me. with creativity. an ur Hot to. im confused ?@%&??. or mabe every girl i ever dated had it. who knows
thallious9876 4 months ago
Thank you so much for posting these videos. I used to be an avid writer but I no longer write in my journal much, and I really need those journal entries to track my symptoms, moods, etc. Your videos inspired me to get a camera and keep a video log just for myself. I'm curious to see my demeanor in different states. I can only imagine what my videos would be like when hypo/full manic. Thank you again; you are very brave.
AmazingMonkeyQueen 4 months ago
@AmazingMonkeyQueen Thanks for watching! I hope you find the video log to be helpful. I sometimes go back and watch my old videos to see my progression, it's really enlightening.
BipolarStateofBeing 4 months ago
@DirtyNinja69 I remember doing the same thing while manic, going and spending like $200 or $300 on clothes and accessories. Yikes!
BipolarStateofBeing 4 months ago
everybodys looking at me. everyones plotting against me. i feel like running my car off the road into the canyon. i hurt myself with objects. nobody likes me. and alot of the things i have owned have been broke during an "episode". and ive hurt alot of people and ruined alot of relationships. not to mention the people ive assaulted. ----- but after i sit in my own shit for awhile i hit the gym. get on my bike..ride..i cook. and treat everyone well with a smile on. what am i? lol
bitchassgoatfucker11 4 months ago
I ended up writing a lot of notes on Facebook when I was manic and reading them back now, they don't make a lot of sense. The comedown was awful, and although I have recovered, I've never really managed to get myself fully back on track. Really good to see people like yourself opening up.
RobinBlamires 4 months ago
@RobinBlamires I remember when I was manic I was doing a lot of weird stuff on myspace, back when people were still on there. I'm not on there anymore but when I looked back it was kinda like you, like why the heck did I do/say that?
BipolarStateofBeing 4 months ago
You should come join us other sufferers on Mapofmates. com. My username on there is express1 :)
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